He wasn't old. He wasn't sick. He wasn't weak. But two days before my birthday he simply collapsed, immediately upon returning from a vacation. After 24 hours in an artificial coma, there was no hope anymore. It's as if he came back home to die. We're all struggling to imagine an existence without him. He was one of the most unique personalities imaginable. He deserved more.

I don't know what this means. I just know things will never be the same. I need time. I need to wake up in a better world. Until then, I'll be gone. Who knows how long.

Take care everyone.

Hey folks, apparently it's a good idea to say this:
In case this account gets nuked, you can find me over here: https://cohost.org/ThatShadowhare (Not for much longer though as it seems the site will shut down soon)
I also still have my Twitter (@ThatShadowhare) as a backup, I guess.

Been very inactive lately due to *everything*, and this certainly doesn't help, but I'll stick around and see what happens.

Stay safe people.

In case anybody somehow hasn't noticed it yet:

Yes, Pisstreon suddenly and unrightfully deleted basically every single ABDL-account, regardless of the type of content etc. No warning, no justification. 2 days before payday. They are not even responding to anyone and just sending blanket statements and vile accusations without any sort of proof, evidence, or logic behind it. “adult+diaper=cp” is the amount of brain acrobatics being applied. And it is pretty certain that we won't stay the only target.

It is a cowardly and insane attack on hundreds of not thousands of people at once, and the timing was so bad and horrible that many creators are still scrambling to try and pay their due bills. It is pathetic, evil, and quite obviously illegal on various levels according to 3 (german) legal experts I've spoken to so far. Disgusting. My page had been officially checked and approved as “Safe For All Audiences” a few days before the ban. There is no reason or logic there. They didn't even bother to update their freaking TOS, it's all a giant shitshow.

This means that many artists are moving to different platforms, Subscribestar being the most popular one from what I've been seeing. PLEASE make sure you support all folks you were subscribed to, and also spread the word! Pootreon is ghosting everybody, and they are STILL CHARGING PATRONS despite the creators being banned! Some people might not even realize their creator is banned! It's a full on scam scheme ffs, I can not believe this is real!

So yeah, please make sure you help anybody in need, especially the small ones, and send messages to Peetreon as well. We have to MAKE them care about this! The entire community needs to work together now.

What about me?
Well, I myself am not going to join any other platform. The danger of this exact same thing happening again within the next few months is just too great, and I do not have the energy to start all over yet again. I am incredibly blessed to have encountered a handful of trustworthy and insanely loyal supporters over the years, and will from now on rely on nothing but unconditional, voluntary aid that is completely detached from the content I create. It won't be easy, but it's what I need. I'd rather live with a half-empty fridge, but free, than shackled by some platform only because I'd like to have 2 meals a day instead of 1.

If you, too, would like to support me, as a human being, directly and personally, or if you are a former patron who suddenly got cut off, send me a dm and we will talk! All my content will now be public, and made possible by the support of friends and pals. I wouldn't even be around anymore if it weren't for some of these incredible individuals, and I literally owe them my life. Providing free and unconditional content now is the least I can do to show true gratitude.

That's pretty much it. I could go on, but the wall of text is chunky enough as it is. To summarize:
- Fuck Patreon and puritans
- Support creators, not creations
- DM me if you enjoy my presence, and WANT to support me personally in the future

Thanks to each and every single one out there who believed in me, trusted me, and enjoyed my short presence as a semi-professional. I can not thank you folks enough, and I hope the future will be less restrictive, more fun, and at least somewhat brighter. Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, eternally.

~ShadowHare

Hey all.

With this whole Patreon-purge-bullshit going on, I'm currently trying to gather all reliable friends&fans in the same spot before making any big steps!
If you are a (former) patron, and/or would like to support me in the future, send me a dm! Either on Twitter, Cohost, or FA!
I will reply with some details when I'm back on my pc tomorrow!

Thanks to everyone who's been helping me out over the course of all these years, and especially the ones sticking around now! <3

Patreon is full on purging various ABDL sites, despite SPECIFICALLY re-approving them recently.
This is a cowardly and direct attack on the entire community. I am hoping it's some technical glitch or blanket error, but I doubt it...

If you are pledged to me or any other creators that suddenly are gone: PLEASE MAKE SURE TO STILL SEND YOUR PLEDGES TO THEM!
The month is almost over and Patreon sent me 6 bucks for a full month worth of content!

First off, I want to thank every single one out there who reached out to me and had a few words of support to give recently, I seriously, honestly appreciate all the help and love!
Unfortunately, my troubles have only just begun. This is serious.

So, a lot of stuff has happened.
None of it was positive, and I'm struggling immensely right now to keep it together and not succumb to a full-on breakdown.
Everything I know and have is falling apart, I feel like I've lost the pillars of my existence, and I have little strength left to cope with it all.

I have no source of income anymore because the people I'd been working my ass off for for the past three years have suddenly decided that I'm too expensive to re-employ in this crisis, and the government is apparently not interested in helping someone in my particular situation either.
In the month of April, I have earned 0€.
I've fallen through the cracks in a fanatically bureaucratic system that blindly assumes it has a plan for everything and everyone, and is obviously incapable of adjusting in an effective manner in times of an actual emergency scenario.
My fridge is empty, I have 0 income, and all I get is letter after letter, telling me to call number after number, resulting in me having to wait for more letters, IF I actually manage to get through to someone. I've spent the past two weeks trying everything I can to get some sort of help.
The month will be over in a few days, and I haven't received shit.
I of course can't financially support my mother and brother anymore either, meaning they're in a big shithole as well. It's just all coming crashing down.

In my entire life I have never asked for anything.
I've always played by the rules, always tried to be stoical and strong, and never burdened anyone with any of my issues. I always did everything on my own, by myself. I always considered my own needs an afterthought at best, and never felt like I'm worth much effort.
I never needed attention or affection, I never wanted sympathy or pity.
But this isn't just about me anymore, and something needs to happen.
I'm overwhelmed on all fronts, my pockets are empty, there's drama all around me, and I simply can't deal with all of this alone anymore.

Because of all that, I will from this point on be accepting donations, at least until I have a steady source of income again, whenever that might be.
In case you have the ability to support my financial situation in any way, without it negatively impacting your own life, I would be eternally grateful.
Whether it's out of pity, empathy, a spontaneous burst of generosity, or just because you like my art and would like to help me get back on track with that. I can't afford to be picky.

You can send a donation over here:
paypal.me/ThatShadowhare

Now, about my artistic output:
I can not open for commissions yet, as I lack the power, time, and mentality to do them reliably in my current situation.
Working out a client's idea is something I take very seriously, and I usually spend a lot of time sketching and talking to my customer before actually getting to work on a piece.
I do not have that much time to invest right now, and no energy to dive into a full project without burning out completely.

Therefore, instead, I've made a Patreon.

Having a Patreon will, of course, NOT affect my usual work at all, once things start looking brighter.
I will offer exclusive content over on Patreon, but will also get back to my usual Furry art on Twitter and Furaffinity as soon as my situation has improved enough to do so, and even in the time until then, I will do my best to draw and upload whatever I can.
In a best case scenario I'd be able to keep a 50/50 balance between Patreon and usual work.

I've literally just set it all up, the page is still very much under construction, and I do not have a 100% concrete plan for rewards, tiers, and whatever yet, it's a completely new field for me.
At this point, I mostly consider it an additional way for some people to support me on a regular basis, and I don't want to make any promises that I can't fulfill in the end.

In the future, should it end up working out long enough, I am definitely thinking about doing free art raffles, polls, discounts on commissions, special commission types, maybe creating a Discord server, perhaps comics, and various other incentives like that exclusively for my patrons, but I need to get both feet on the ground first.
There's also the fact that Patreon can potentially, at any point in time, decide that drawing ABDL-material is against their ToS, in which case it'll all be for naught in an instant, so I can't allow myself to dream and solely rely on that.

https://www.patreon.com/ThatShadowhare

Additionally, in order to potentially reach a larger crowd, my content on Patreon will be a little different from what I normally do.
I'll post an example soon, naturally it will still primarily be ABDL-themed, however, I will try to make a good portion of it nsfw, and experiment with other themes as well.
I'm asexual and have always tried to stay away from drawing sexually charged content, or anything else I don't understand or can't relate to on a personal level, but if I have to start drawing that sort of material to save my family, then I'll start doing it, somehow.

Again, please do NOT support me on Patreon or with donations if you are financially unstable yourself!
Also, if you only support me because you expect a reward for it, please don't.
By joining my Patreon, or helping me in some other way, you are not buying a product in a supermarket, you are, supposedly, trying to help someone out for the sake of it, because they are currently stuck in an emergency, with the chance of it all bearing fruits once my situation has stabilized. I'm not advertising my business here, I'm calling for help.
What happens afterwards depends on how it all went.

I'll stop the wall of text here.

If you can help me in any way, somehow, whether by sending a donation my way, or even just by spreading the word, re-tweeting, giving a shoutout, a signal boost, anything, then please, give me a hand before I fall too deep.
If I can get enough money together to at least survive until I've been re-employed, whenever that might be, I'll be able to open for commissions again, and things will start going uphill from then on.

So that's it.
Thanks to everybody.

I normally try not to share lots of personal stuff online, but in this case I have to make an exception, especially since it impacts my artwork.

A couple of nights ago, my cat started feeling bad.
She stopped eating and drinking, and had trouble moving.
I went to the local vet, and he told me that she probably had a stroke.
He gave her some medication, said it's possible for her to fully recover again, and she actually did start feeling a tiny bit better at first, ate and drank small amounts again, and I was beginning to have some hope.
But then she went back to being miserable after only a few days.
I went to the vet again, but he couldn't do much. I gave him all the money in my wallet and he gave her some more medicine. He assured me she's not suffering, and is just tired and weak, but definitely not in any pain.
Yesterday she couldn't get up anymore. She then passed away in the early evening.

She was all I had, and all I ever wanted.

Her name was Lucy.
She was born shortly before easter, together with her brother.
Unfortunately her brother left home one day, when they were about 3 years old, and never came back. I've always missed him, and never stopped hoping that he's okay, on a big adventure.
Suddenly Lucy was all alone, and so felt I, but we still had each other.

She loved eating, a lot, watching and sleeping in front of my fireplace, and always disliked closed doors. If a door was closed, she'd scratch on it until I opened it again, out of principle.
Ignoring her was not an option.
When she wanted something, she'd meow persistently and start throwing random objects from tables and shelves until she got what she wanted, day and night, like a cheeky princess.
She loved napping underneath blankets, especially on my own bed. During thunderstorms she'd always hide there, and immediately start purring.
She loved lying in my lap, on her back, and could lie there for as long as I'd pet her belly, hours and hours, just purring and enjoying every second.
She was so energetic and happy all the time, was always ready to play or cuddle.

The entire neighborhood knew and loved her, and she had little hiding spots and cozy places near every house, bowls to drink from, chairs and pillows to rest on. Every home was her's.
On her last two days she desperately wanted to go outside, and took walks to her usual places as if nothing was wrong.
I went with her to keep an eye on her, until she wanted to go back home again. She took a nap in my neighbor's garden, while listening to the birds and enjoying the warm wind.
She smelled on a flower and sat down next to it. She looked so peaceful and content.
She said hello to the neighbor cat and another neighbor's dog.
We went home in the evening, and she seemed exhausted but happy, and just rested all the time.

Yesterday she passed away, at 5pm.
I stayed with her the entire time, from the previous night until then.
She'd been with me for 18 years. Whenever anything important happened in my life, she was there. Every single day of the last 18 years. I hardly remember anything positive from the time before. There are very few humans I've known longer. And virtually none I ever loved as much.
I wouldn't have survived this long without her.

Now she is gone, and I feel all alone again.
I never deserved her, but I miss her so much.
I just hope she had good memories. I would do anything just to know for sure that she did not have to suffer, and was happy during her final days.
I hope I've done everything I could.

I don't know what to do now. I don't want to do anything.



I won't be opening for commissions or doing raffles for a while.

Heyo everyone!

I've been getting a whole bunch of notes, favourites, comments, commissions and watches over the past few weeks, and just wanted to give a really big thank-you to everyone for supporting me!
I think I've received more attention and feedback over the course of the past three months than in the entire year before that, and I'm more motivated than ever because of it!

I often doubt my ability to progress, especially in terms of my artistic online presence, and feel stuck, like there's an insurmountable brick wall ahead of me that I just can't get rid of, but all your recent support has given me the feeling of actually moving forward a bit for once. Feels nice, I must say.

I'm well aware that my style, my entire methodology is not for everyone, I've always done everything in life in a weird, unnecessarily unusual way, and all the more appreciation do I have for all those of you that actually decided to follow my endeavours despite (or because of?) all the oddness.

My goal has never been to attract an insanely enormous crowd with the things I do, I mostly draw niche stuff for a niche-community inside of a niche-community after all, but being able to entertain a certain, ever so slowly increasing number of people with my scribbles, and occasionally improving my financial situation in the process, fills me with a particular sense of accomplishment.
Just recently I received my 800th watch, and the number still keeps rising, surprisingly, so I'm really excited to see where I'll land in the end.
It's been quite the little journey so far.

Long story short:
Thank you all so much <3

Hey-ho everyone!
A new year has begun, and I am officially open for commissions again!

An updated overview of all my commission types can be found right here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....-shadowhare--/

Conversion rates are a mess, so all prices are listed in €uros.
Naturally, I accept all common currencies, except for diamonds and cookies.

Bear in mind that my loyalty-discount-system is active!
Same procedure as every year!

If you have ever bought any sort of artwork from me, sometime within the past 12 months, you are officially entitled to a 20% discount on your next commission!
Of course, the same applies if you are going to buy 2 pieces over the coming 12 months.
A little Thank-You for repeated support, hooray! :D


If you´re interested, and have a somewhat concrete idea in mind, simply leave me a comment below, or send me a note directly, and we´ll work things out from there :3


Since I can never tell how much spare time I'll be able to get for art, I do not normally accept many different commissions at once.
First come first serve, and once my current project is done, I'll re-open again.
A dynamic cycle.



If there´s something not clear, or if you have any questions in general, please feel free to ask me, and also take a look at my ToS ^^

( https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7303573/ )

Just a very basic, boring little ToS-thingy.



Terms of Service

By claiming a picture, or commissioning me, you agree to the following:


Content

If you´re interested in a picture by me, please keep in mind that I´m not comfortable with drawing everything you might want to see.

The following applies:

- No sexual scenarios or plain nudity. I'm fine with a certain degree of artistic nudity, as long as it fits the image.
Similarly, I try to avoid drawing used diapers. If the image's context requires it, that's okay. However, I will not draw a not-fresh diaper just for the sake of it.
- "Adult"-themed images are fine, to a certain degree. I will decide whether I'm comfortable with an idea or not on a case-by-case basis.
- No copyrighted material, unless you are the creator, or have explicit permission to use it.


Rights

- As the artist, I exclusively hold all rights to all of my works.
- Pictures created by me for you may be uploaded only by you, to any website of your choice, as long as proper credit is given.
- Finished pictures must not be altered in any way whatsoever, unless of course I have made a mistake that is clearly my own fault. In that case I, and only I, will try to fix the picture as soon as possible.
- You are not allowed to use my pictures for any profitable purposes.
- A certain amount of artistic freedom is always necessary for me to finish your picture. I can only work with the descriptions and references you provide.
I always try to spend as much time as possible on clarifying details and talking about my client's wishes, but even I can never guarantee a 100% accurate depiction of what you are envisioning.
If your description is not precise, and the finished picture ends up looking different from what you expected, you do not have the right to complain.
The same applies if you keep me waiting for necessary information (such as reference sheets, preferences, details, contact info, etc.) for more than 24 hours without giving me any sufficient reason.
I reserve the right to give myself 100% artistic freedom if you are being unresponsive, and you will not be entitled to a refund if you happen to be unsatisfied with the result in that case.


Payment

- All payments must be made via Paypal, preferrably in Euros, unless I have agreed to other methods.
- I require full payment before I can start working on your picture.
- All payments are final and must be made shortly after expressing interest. Please do not claim a picture if you can´t pay, or if you suddenly decide to change your mind.


Refunds

No refunds, unless there is an extremely good reason.
Reasons include:

- Me not being able to finish your picture within an acceptable timespan
- Incorrect payment/Errors regarding payment
- The end of the world


If you have any questions, or if there is something not clear, please, by all means ask me.
Communication can solve 99% of problems before they occur.


Thank you :3