Gotcha.

Live in a bog, go see a frog on a log. Eat a mushroom and get really hairy. Listen to the birds and listen for canaries. Bluejay, cardinal, boobie.

BRB I'm gonna light a doobie.

DON'T.


stick to tobacco if you are desperate...

I swear quiting that nic salt machine was the worst agony my body has ever felt. Do not do this to your body. It's not a good vice... you will suffer.

My telegram is CalebFox

I am locked out of all of my other social media

I don't know how to even recieve money now if anyone would help out. Because I am literally locked out of everything because of this cell phone number bullshit.


I am broke. I need a couple hundred desperately to make it this month, and I don't even know how to receive money right now because nothing is working.


I am at the end of my rope.

I'm selling something really unique. A one of a kind trinket. I'm cannot tell you the details of what said item is, and if you are a narc do not hit me up. I am asking for a 1000 dollars for said item. If you are curious and wish to know more please dm me. This is a one of a kind deal, I will probably never be able to make something like this again in my lifetime, and it's fucking beautiful dude. If you know me and what I'm about, you can probably guess what the item may be.

Anyways hit me up if u interested. Like I said I can't disclose anything on FA, you have to hit me up on telegram to see it. But seriously if you are a narc in any shape or form, I have eyes in the back of my head and I will probably see you coming from a mile away.

Anyways. Life is strange, people are weird, I'm lonely and I'm looking for a little funny munny and I have something that actually might be worth your while.


Good luck and good night. 😈

Please re-add me if you can. It makes it so much easier for me so I don't have to go out searching for everyone again.

My username on there is CalebFox.

Also of you are just wanting to chat and have never chatted with me before. Don't be afraid to dm me. I won't be upset. I'm very bored right now, and need desperately to break the monotony. I can't get into my Gmail, I lost my phone contacts and now I am locked out of my Facebook.

Unfortunately and this is gonna sound like some bullshit but it's true. Someone swapped my Sim and I have not been able to access my old one because it no longer exists. I wish I were lying about this, but someone has fucked with me hard, and I hope they are happy because my mood right now is about making everyone on this earth's a living fucking hell.


Seriously if you are hacking my shit right now and playing spy vs spy. Understand who I am and what I'm capable of. The peopl1e I know, and the influence I actually do have. I may be small in page views here. But this isn't my only account dudes. I'm known. I have connections, and you need to fucking seriously consider who you may be fucking with when you keep making my tech not work.


I will find a way so that no one has a cell phone or a computer if this keeps up. If you can't play nice than you need to be punished in some way. I will literally swoop down from the heavens and start spanking the shit out of you until you fuck off and stop bullying me and all the other people like me.

I am not afraid to bend the algorithm to my favor. I am not afraid to tell the teacher on you. I am seriously at the end of my rope with this gangstalking behavior. I feel like Patrick star when he comes home and all the eyes are hiding under his rock house. Seriously I do have to ask. Who are you people. What are your motives? Because I will seriously consider squashing you like a bug the moment I'm able to find an opportunity.


Fuck around and find out. You have been warned.

I mean I have been studying my dreams for many years. I know so many of them, and I would kind of like to recount them here as some form of online dream journal.

If you find strange dreams fascinating, please let me know. Because I would be willing to share more dreams with you for free, as long as people are interested.

Seriously. I know this is going to be controversial for some reason or another but what really defines an illegal image or cp.

I have been told all my life what I happen to look at, and the art in my gallery is cp.


But I think anyone who says that is making baseless judgements. The kids in the pictures I look at are never in sexual scenarios, they look happy, and the art in my gallery is of my sona who is a branch of my own personality. Ya he is depicted as a child, but he is also depicted as an adult.


I think it's really weird to hold such a moral standard of drawn pictures or generated images.

Also I really wish people would stop calling me a pedo when I have no interest of having sex with children. I'm just autistic and want to be a baby in diapers again. Listen, I am not after your children. I do not want to have sex with children. I am tired of putting on this endless song and dance trying to prove myself and my worth and why I'm not any of the things you call me. Some days I feel like giving up entirely.

It's very hard... To feel this small, this defenseless, and to be constantly looked down on, judged heavily and misunderstood. It hurts my very soul knowing people think so lowly of me when I care so much about all of you.


I have been forced lately to say I can't stand humans and humanity, and although I am becoming quite jaded due to years of abuse and mistreatment of my mental issues, I do still have hope... Even though it's a very small amount of hope.



Anyways please stop saying my pictures of happy babies and pictures of childhood innocence are child pornography. You don't know the thoughts that go through my head when looking at these images... And I can assure you none of it has to do with sexual topics. Most of the time I'm just putting myself back in the mind of an infant or toddler and pretending I'm being taken care of like the child in the picture.

The thought of having sex with a child never crossed my mind, and I'm disgusted that just so many humans think that of me just because of how I behave online.

Seriously. Stop lumping me and people like me in with people who harm children. You don't understand the difference between paraphilic infantilism and pedophilia, and just like people who don't understand the difference between schizophrenia and schizoeffective, you people are willingly ignorant and I have had to deal with the brunt of your bigotry for over 20 years.

This journal is going to be a lengthy one. Over the years since being involved in the fandom and being a kid, I had the most wildest dreams, and a vivid imagination. There where dreams I had when I was a child that I still remember today.

Dream analysis has always been an interesting subject for me just as much as studying sexual paraphilias. I mean since I have had weird dreams and sometimes those dreams could take on what would later develop into fetishes in adulthood it always had me searching for meaning behind my dreams.


I have had dreams with all sorts of people, characters, and celebrities. I have been to parties in houses I could never dream of being in, I have seen crowds of people following me and cheering for me that I cannot even begin to fathom in real life.

Every time I go to bed its a new experience, a new world to traverse. Sometimes my dreams are linear and follow a story or plot, other times they can be completely randomized. There are dreams where I'm the size of an infant and there are dreams where I'm an adult and I'm in the future and everyone somewhat accepts who I am and caters to me and coddles me.

Now this is where it gets odd.

Nightmares for me are absolutely terrifying, and I feel every bit of pain as if I'm simulating the real thing that's happening in my dream. The pain can be excruciating at times and undescribable. If I could be honest, I bet I know what it would feel like if I got shot because it happens a lot to me and it hurts very badly. I also get swallowed by giant creatures and can feel being coated in salvia and slipping down a throat and being pushed into a hot stomach. Sometimes I fizzle out immediately and I don't feel a thing. While other times I can feel my entire body and flesh melting and peeling apart as I scream for help.


I have been in dreams where I'm underwater and there are giant prehistoric creatures that look like sharks and they all circle around me and kill me in an instant.
I have been bitten by giant spiders and felt their giant fangs pierce through my flesh.


I go through literal hell every night sometimes because I never know what to expect when I close my eyes. Is it going to be pleasant? Or is it going to be torture and unending agony.

I don't know other humans who experience dreams quite like I do. I vividly remember every time I dream and can recount a lot of what I saw, and what I see scares me.


I hope that this isn't all for nothing. Existing on this planet while I'm suffering so much. I just hope my perseverance pays off in the end, and that surviving for all of you wasn't for nothing.

I am sad by his passing. I honestly think I wouldnt be here if it weren't for him and some of the other mods of FA. I interacted with him a total of one time. However I did follow him in the community, and I always respected him, and defended him when controversy surrounded him a couple of times.

Dragoneer was a good dude, he was funny and had an incredible sense of humor. He also cared a lot about the community. May his soul and spirit live on.

But whenever I see a furry with a knife, in like a stickerpack, I get a wave of genuine PTSD. I don't know why but knives make me scared.

But whenever I see a furry with a knife, in like a stickerpack, I get a wave of genuine PTSD. I don't know why but knives make me scared.

I'm not outright leaving. But I have had my share of hurt here, and I'm starting to wonder if these are really people I can consider friendly and not extremely jaded and attention seeking.

I feel like I cannot express myself fully here anymore, and with a fandom that once prided itself on tolerance and love, has turned into hate and vitriol.

I'm a dissenter.

I stand out in the fandom because of it.

Just wondering.

I always hear people say they hate children around me. I hope I never become that old and sour.

I can't take it anymore... So much is expected of me. I want to die! Just roll over and stop breathing. I can't stand other humans. All they do is fight each other and start drama.

I feel like people find this uncomfortable. I'm sorry :u

Omfg they are so fugin good.

I'm in danger owo

If you ever see this, I wish to debate with you again.

-Sad Dad

I dunno, I made a YouTube video recently ranting about being banned in the replies all the time, and it went nowhere. So I guess I'll just journal here for now until I work up the courage to show my face on camera again.

I gotta admit, I've noticed over the years, things I've said and done have caused a change in the algorithm. I stay silent about it but I at one point was causing a lot of chaos online.

I've since stopped my thrashing around and mellowed out with psychs like shrooms by microdosing them. I saw a lot of things about myself that I vibe with and I realize that I'm not as terrible as a person as people say. I'm very unique actually.

Anyways, I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. I am involved in too many romances and I can't handle all the sudden attention. I don't know what I want for my life, all I know is I want to find someone to share my life with and my experiences with.

I'm lonely, a hopeless romantic, and I want a caretaker. Fuck internet clout, if I could just find that one person who would be there for me, than I think I would truly be happy. But right now my love life is complex and scary, and sometimes I just want to run away.

Anyways I guess that's a life update for me, I want people to know things are going good in my realm as of late, but it's just lonely.

Notes are welcome.

Remember when we were all kids and we would play the game house. There was always that one weird kid who always chose to be the baby. That kid was me.

I wish I could explain why but it's just too much... x.x