Im still upset about being banned from that game I played, I did absolutely noting wrong and the mods wont tell me what ive done

and im worried for my mums life

She keeps saying about jumping under a bus... and I had some pretty disturbing dreams which could be a sign that my mums not joking...

Im so scard

Im still upset about being banned from that game I played, I did absolutely noting wrong and the mods wont tell me what ive done

and im worried for my mums life

She keeps saying about jumping under a bus... and I had some pretty disturbing dreams which could be a sign that my mums not joking...

Im so scard

Ive really bee wanting to help someone out my entire life, save a life ya know

And when I find out I can I cant actually do anything because my body has its own issues, such as being anemimic (how ever you spell that) and personal matters whichthe doctor diagnosed me with a few days ago which means I have to go on a new diet (btw I may get grumpy and hate on people because of it)

So the only other thing I can do is post their journal in the hopes someone somewhere can help them

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4980046/

Im really really sorry, if only I could help them more I would

People are still coming to my DA page being F ing trolls

>.> I really wish those ass holes would realise that the stupid argument happened weeks ago

Driven away from DA cause of bullies due to one other bully

and now

Ive now been banned from an online game, one of the only things keeping me sane and I get banned


Ive no idea why ive been banned either...

Cause of some stupid women going at mre and turning the whole of DA against me ive had to give it up

I could really use my friends right now

Why is it, no matter what you do for other people they NEVER do anything in return

Now im not saying id love something back every time... but it would be nice every now and then to draw or make someone something then get something in return, but nah, never for most people

Can I just request something?

Anything... from any one... I really need cheering up, AGAIN!

Yea I know.. .sigh...

Family issues depressing me...

I feellike giving up on drawing... my works so shit and usless... no one likes it any way...

Well i read on someones profile that they were self taught so i asked them if they had any tips for shading and stuff


Their reply was basically "You should first focus on your body proportions before you focus on shading, its fine to practice shading but you should get anatomy down first"


Honeastly, i know i dont have my prportions perfect... but i thought at least.. .i had them at a good enough level...


So now i just... dont feel like i can draw...



I mean i know my drqawing sucks... but still...

Well I saw today that someone I have a strong hating over (but not quite close enough to hate him all together) is on FA...

Meh T.T

I have every single man on the planet thanks to him
Used to be a select few but... now every man ever invented

I mean I have male friends and most of them are ok such as  sesshaxiii and my best friend who I don't think has a FA account

But that's about it, he ruined the rest for me

So I now have a new reason to be miserable

*crying*



I hate it so fucking much....



Why cant I just RIP or something!

No offence to any one this is just a rant

Why is it when ever I finally find someone to take a simple bloody request life gets in the F-ing way?

I spend hours looking for someone to take a request and do you know what I get out of it

barely one person saying "Yea ill do it for you"

me: yay I finally found someone

A day/days later "Im sorry I now cant take your request because..."

me: *jaw drops* thanks for telling me I once again wasted my time >.>

sigh

Its like when will people take bloody requests its always commissions and I know people need money but freaking hell its a bloody piss take >.>

Why does the world want me dead...
No matter what I do theres always something that makes me upset...

And everyone will laugh and be happy if I die... no one will care...
...
I hate my life.. I fucking hate my life... I just want to die... I really want to die...

Let it be known I do hate men
Because all men have ever done in life has treat me like shit

Because of a fucked up mis understanding a certain man I don't know is treating me like shit, even though I took the time to draw this thing for him WITHOUT asking anything in return

I hate men... where ever I turn if something bad happens to me its usally a mans fault... my family ...mae inparticuler beat me
My granddad treated me like I knew nothing
My uncle (once my best friend) deserted me...
My dad beat me...

So yea im literally in tears because of this stupid idiot who couldn't shut his mouth even though I respectfully told him to stop arguing and respectfully told him that I don't apreiciate peope being rude

But like all men he isn't willing to apolgise for his part

And like all men no matter how muc I apologise he wont take it as being the truth even though it is

Ok so a friend of mine tells me he is in love
Im glad for him but im a little worried cause he had this nasty break up and he has been really depressed for the last few days.

Any way I just asked if he was sure it was love cause he could be on the rebound
I was concerned as most would be and I did mention that I didn't want him hurting himself further

And then he starts saying im hating on im cause he found someone to love

so I said
i wernt hating on you at all)
why would you think that?)
im happy for you its jsut youve been really hurting and i dont want you hurting yourself again incase its a recovering love thing... rebound )

To then be told That ive ruined his day and he doesn't want to speak to me any more

So yea
He is just like my dad, running his mouth wit no reason behind it

I mean I once walked into the kitchean and for no reason at all my dad starts shouting at me


Either way ive been accused of too much shit and im fed up with it

Its a sexural request
A 3 some request Please note if your interested

my DA journal will explain

http://003145.deviantart.com/journa.....-RIP-382369672

Im so broken.... broken beyond repair

Why?

Why the hell is it when one person isnt on... they al decide

"hey i know ill log off and do something else" ... T.T

Sigh second day in a row im all alone