Hi all!

I just wanted to get that last journal outta here, and to have a smol talk about where I am in the fandom.

I've been considering my place in the fandom for the last little while, since I went at one point from talking about it, and talking to other furs every day, to it being an almost-nonexistant blip in my life. That was a weird, and sometimes difficult change to come to terms with. But only recently did I work out that whilst I might have been really into being a furry for a while, that was also a point where I was not super healthy, mentally. I was fixated on it, relied upon it for happiness, and having a portion of it taken away made me feel like I wasn't deserving of any part of it at all.

That's absolutely not true. Though it has cemented the fact that I'm likely not going to be as heavily involved in the fandom as I once was. I was foolish to think that I could befriend everybody in the fandom and we'd all just get along because we're furries. Life's not like that. I've found a few people who I not only enjoy as a furry, I thoroughly cherish as a friend. And it's because they're a friend, not because they're a furry, that I'm staying in touch. But to befriend and get along with everybody is an unreasonable goal. Personalities clash, ideals clash. Where would we be in life if everybody thought and felt the same way about everything?

Having said that though, I still want to interact with people, to talk with people and help them to be happy. It's...just who I am! It's what I do at work, it's what I want to do in my spare time. I want to help people, to make people happy. I recently had a costume party where I dressed as Robin Williams/Patch Adams and absolutely rocked the shit out of it. And it was a highlight of the year! I had lolly bags for everybody, balloon animals, funny noses! These were all adults, but I still managed to eke out a childlike sense of wonder and enjoyment, and quite a few belly laughs! At the risk of sounding like goddamn Mother Teresa, that means a helluva lot to me. I want to make people happy. And I know that I won't make everybody happy all the time! I'll mess up and make someone sad. That's sad. But it's also no reason for me to stop doing what I'm doing. I love it too dearly, and the smiles I get far outweigh the times I'll inevitably fail. I can't use failure as a reason to quit. So...I won't!

I had lost my place in the fandom for a while. For a while, I even considered leaving it. But I don't want to. And I won't take so much of an active role anymore, but I feel that's okay! I'll pop up every now and again, and commission work every now and again. Because I want to make people happy, by talking to them, interacting with them, and by using Sharn as much as much as a tool for happiness for them as it is for me.
As it turns out, there are a lot more aspects of my life that are taking charge and shaping it. This'll mean that the fandom will get pushed to the side at times, but that's...okay! At the end of the day, I've realised that for me it's a hobby. It will still get time devoted to it, of course! I'll still attend conventions, still talk with people. Still pursue my goal of bringing smiles to faces.

I have moved on. I have forgiven anyone who needs it, which I didn't stop to realise needed to include myself. I erred, I'm human. It's time to let that go.
I'm happy where I am now. And turns out there's still room enough to continue to allow for being a furry.

...You know? When I started, I used Sharn as an emotional crutch. She was the bigger, louder, more confident me. But recently I channeled that feeling as Patch Adams during this costume party. That same over-confident feeling. But...without the anonymity of the internet. Without a suit, without my face hidden. And it worked! I feel like Sharn has evolved beyond something I can hide behind, but is now something I can internalise, look to a a source of strength and confidence in myself. She's changed, and she's changed me. I cannot, and will not let that go.

Now! Some practical news:

There are a few things (such as updating my art account, gasp!) that I will get onto to make my role here more of what I want it to be. I'll also get on to some more adopt colouring, and a few bits and bobs on my latest conquest - an attempt to run a D&D game! With...Sergals as the ruling class. Oy vey.

If you're read this far down, thank you so much for sticking with me! I hope you have a great day/week, and I invite you to get in touch! I'm going to start doing a few more "put-smiles-on-faces" activities, raffles and giveaways, questions and queries, as much fun stuff as I can think of! (And if you have fun ideas to offer, please do!). You've been no small part of the reason I'm staying. I love you all, and I look forward to what the future will bring.

Mostly this is just to clear off the last journal and to put up some info here, so a quick recap:

Yes, I've gone for a while
No, I'm not sure if I'll be coming back
No, you don't get to know what's going on
Yes, it's serious


But for those who have been there for me, those precious few, I am very grateful. In a time where I've watched everybody run for the hills, you've stayed. And I'll keep staying for you. Just...not here.

I'm clearing out some characters! Come and see!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27401102/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27401102/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27401102/

I'm accepting money, trades or art!
Come check it out~

For reasons that should be insanely obvious, I'm going dark until at least this time next week. Possibly longer, since I've still got family issues to deal with.

Have fun, everyone. Wish I could be there with you. But I'm also happy I'm here. Life's funny like that.

Why are you a furry?
Why are you a part of the fandom?

I've been struggling to answer these questions lately.

Hey all!

So if you've stalked around my toyhou.se long enough you'll notice a lot of art by this fabulous beastie:  honeynuggets

They're in a spot of grief and are opening commissions, but I'd invite you not to buy something out of pity, but because their art is amazingly cute!

Please check it out! Prices start out at $5! How insanely cheap to both support someone and get a thank-you doodle for your trouble?!

Check their prices out here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26869512/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26869512/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26869512/

Hey there all!

I've finally got some time to sit back and write my wrap-up journal for Confurgence 2018! What a con! Let me see if I can get through it all in some sort of reasonable order.

Firstly, I wanted to thank the organisers of the con. I'm aware of some hiccups during the planning process, and during the con itself, but in all the whole thing ran smoothly, which was fantastic. Also big thanks to all the volunteers (particularly the lady who ensured I didn't take out half the fursuiting photo like a big fuzzy bowling ball!) for making this happen. Actually making it happen, not just helping out. Making sure the con actually went ahead at all.

Now, to Sharn. She's grown a lot since FurDU last year, and I could feel it. I knew others could see it. There's still a little ways to go with her, but she's starting to come into her own. Part of the problem is my own endurance, and I learned at this con to pace myself a little, which helped immensely. I'm sure the addition of a cooling vest will only help more. But Sharn really started to see the light this con! There were a few people coming over asking specifically for photos, even though I know that I'm still a relatively unknown fur, and Sharn's anything but popular! I feel like one of the big things that helped was actually her new accessories. I'd always lamented the fact that Sharn faded against the background of other brightly coloured suits, and that she wouldn't have much to stand out. I thought that props would rectify that, but as it turns out, the bigger things that helped were a spiffing new bandana, and an amazing fursuit bow! She wears her bow now constantly, and I'm genuinely considering just...not taking it off. Incorporating it into her new reference. It's...become a part of her so quickly that it seems natural to just leave it. That little pop of colour is all she needed!

My confidence and emotions during the con were stellar. At FurDU last year, I ended up a mess; in tears at every turn, doubting myself left, right and centre, the list went on. At CFG, it was different. My moods were a lot more stable. They still ranged between ecstatic and relaxed/chilled, but none of the truly upset/fearful moods I'd had in the past. I feel like a few things affected that, but at the moment I'm focusing on my confidence levels. I've never been a very confident person, and exuding the kind of confidence that a fursuit demands is taxing. But I think that, for most of the time anyhow, I managed it! I sang, I danced, I almost died during the fursuit walk, I interacted with people! I could hardly believe myself. I felt comfortable being the performer, the centre of attention. I'd never felt that before. At one point before getting Sharn, after she'd been paid for but before she'd been made, I was completely ready to give up my spot and my money, because I thought it would never work. I'm unbelievably glad I was wrong.

Now, of course that last paragraph would not have been possible without the amazing people who helped me along my journey. I have a paragraph for all of you, but this is a wrap-up journal and not an essay, so I will leave it to you to recount in detail the memories which have helped shape my life and my place within the furry community. Particularly now there's a lot more of you to get through! So in brief, I would like to thank:

HoneyNuggets for being so welcoming at your table, and catching up (Which we don't do enough!)
Sevren2112 for allowing me to finally put a face to the name! It was good fun talking to you.
Kaikirith for catching up, for putting up with me when I start destroying your display, and for allowing Sibeor to now smell like a pineapple!
Wanderer1708 for meeting you! We weren't close before, but turns out you're just a big sweetheart who's a little too easy to break! I hope we catch up in future!
AussieLuvtail for the macro shoot (Sharn gon get BIIIIIIG), for snep snuggles and for being an awesome guy to finally meet properly, not just “Oh hey” at a con!
Fahleir and Lakota-Fox for agreeing to put up with my invasion of Adelaide sometime in the future! You guys are fantastic and I'll be happy to raid with you when the time comes. :D
Krolm for being the braid brigade and giving everybody fantastic new do's. We're gonna be hairdressers someday.
Sibeor and Bonnie-Las for heading out all the way to Australia! For being honorary Australians (Even liking vegemite, Sibby!) and hanging out with as much of Digitalis as I've ever seen.
Toxi for staying with us! As I'm writing this I can hear movement upstairs, haha. The first night was fantastic, I look forward to this week!
Tanrowolf for being awesome, as always, for spending entirely too much money, as always, and for eating copious amounts of bacon, as always. Go team monochrome!
Silvixen for being an upstanding friend, an incredibly strong presence, a fantastic Guest of Honour and an all-around nice person. But you knew that. <3

And finally, last but not least, I want to thank Wolfsiege. My loving partner of four years now, he dedicates this time to ensuring I stay happy and healthy throughout the con. He's only halfway a furry, but he's a good friend to everyone now, and without him I definitely wouldn't have had half the fun I did. I love you, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for everything. <3

Alright! Now, to wrap-up, and similarly to my last journal, I'm gonna tell a story. It relates to what Nathan (our new co-chairperson!) mentioned during the closing ceremony. That as much as we have furs in our fandom who are lifers, who have a deep-seated love for the community, we also have new furs. New blood coming in. And perhaps they're younger than us, and perhaps less experienced, but I was about their age when they started, and I certainly didn't have the luxury of a family-friendly convention as an option. The face of the furry fandom is changing, certainly, but it still revolves around the love that all members, young and old, share. It won't end up any different to what it is now. Just bigger. :D

I was very hyped for the Fur-e-oke that was set to happen on Saturday night. So I snuck out of “Tonight with Cynwolfe” and headed over to the Sanctuary room, where it was supposed to be taking place. I opened the door to find three confused kids there. Confused myself, we eventually worked out that whatever event was going to happen here just wasn't happening, and decided as a joke to run our own panel. I sat down and introduced myself for fun, and the others did the same, but when I started talking about Sharn and who she was the others clicked. “You're the big grey suit!” they said with glee.
I spoke with them for around forty-five minutes about the fandom in general and about their characters. I gave them a brief run-down of Sharn, the grey wolf who's been a part of my life for ten years now (TEN YEARS!) and about the process of commissioning art, getting a suit, etc. They then eagerly told me about their characters! And what characters they had! One had a green fox with an edgy backstory (which he even called himself out on!), one had a few characters and delighted at the fact that yes, you can have more than one! The last girl was the most interesting. She was eleven, had a few characters, but didn't connect with any. I explained that the best way to start was to find an animal she associated with, and rattled of a few of my babs (Hotaru the Honduran Bat, Honey the Applecat, my Unikitties, my Gatox) to explain that it didn't necessarily need to be a popular species. She then surprised me by launching into a detailed description of her own unique species! From what I gathered, it was based on a Cornish Rex, but they were aquatic, had several unique features and a lot of backstory! I was astounded. “So...why don't you make one of those your fursona? You can do that if you like!” She seemed almost concerned that she'd have an unusual fursona, so I explained that your fursona is an expression of yourself! Doesn't matter what it is, what matters is that it's important to you.
They also spoke about the fact that they didn't know whether they were “true” furries, because they didn't have fursuits. I of course corrected them, “How many people out of suit did you see? Are they not also furries?” because if you're here and you wanna be, you're a furry. Heck, you can come out and say it, and there you are. That's all you need to do. They liked this very much.
At that point, their mothers arrived. I invited them in, explaining that I was talking about furries and about the fandom as a whole, and they hesitantly stepped in. The next few minutes was so enlightening, these ladies who were there supporting their children as they explored this new facet of themselves. All the mothers seemed a little apprehensive, but supportive of their children, and I explained that, like anything, monitoring a child's exposure to the fandom is important, but so is letting their creativity go. One of the mothers eagerly informed me that her children were also good artists, and showed me one of the young furries' badges as an example. She was right. There's such good young talent here. And the girl was forteen! Think of where she'll be in ten years!

It was a truly enlightening experience, and the fact that I could pass on just a little of what I knew, as much of it as I could in forty-five minutes...well, I hope I helped them. If I allowed them to feel comfortable, secure, welcome in this fandom just a little bit, I've done my job. Because that's why we ought to do it. Why we ought to attend conventions like this. To hang out, to buy from the den, to eat too much maccas, certainly! But to also show people. To show people that they're welcome, that they can feel secure here. That the furry fandom can thrive, and grow, and to pass on as much knowledge as we are able in order to perpetuate ourselves. That's as much of a family as I can think of, and I've found it. And all of you have found it. You're all a part of it, and for that I am unendingly grateful. I love each and every one of you, and what you bring to the fandom. Let it never end, let it continue to grow. And let us better each other with our knowledge, our skills. Our love.
I love you, guys. I'll see you all again soon.

Hi all! A boost for a friend!

Phantom.Berserkr is recovering from a car accident and has lost the ability to use art as an income, leaving them with hefty bills and no moolah!

Anyone stepping up to help would be greatly appreciated! They've got a journal here explaining where they're at now, and how to help:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8617013/

For people looking for a square deal, I would recommend grabbing one of their bases! I mean look at those buff wuffs heeeeeeelp
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....r/337931/Bases

Stolen from freakin' everybody because I am one of the last to hop on this gravy train:

Where are you staying?
Amora Riverwalk Hotel

-What day are you getting there?
Friday

-How are you arriving?
Driving, thank goodness!

-Who will you be rooming with?
My better half,   Wolfsiege

-Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Christ so many more people than I ever have before
HOSHI-

-Are there events you might be attending?
Psst I am 100% doing the talent show. Come check that shit out.

-Will you be suiting?
Heck yes! :D
COME HUG ME (please ask first...!)

-Do you do free art?
Sure! Get ready for some garbage art though~

-Do you do trades?
Also yes, also garbage.

-What is your gender?
Female

-How old are you?
26

-Are you taken?


-Can I talk to you?
Absolutely! Please note that if I don't talk back I'm not trying to be rude! FurDU 2017 was completely overwhelming and there will likely be times that I will be overwhelmed here too! Trust me, I do want to know you~

-Can I touch you?
Handshakes only, brofriends. If I'm in suit this extends to getting my attention via gentle touches on the arm/shoulder, in case I'm in the way and don't realise. :D

-How can I find you?
I'll have badges! Look for the grey wolf hanging out near the very tall/large man (Wolfsiege is a LOT easier to spot!). If I'm in suit, that'll be easy, if not, I'll have a badge on somewhere.

-Can I visit your room?
Potentially. For some reason we wound up the centre of quiet board game parties, so there is a potential to be invited to that. I'll likely be keeping it to friends/people I already know, though.

-Can I buy you drinks?
Uuuuuh sure? If I know you, though. If you're stranger I'll stick to me own drinks. :D

-Can I give you stuff?
Again....uuuuh...sure? I don't know why you'd wanna?

-Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Please ask for hugs in suit (I will 99% say yes, it just stops people from surprising me and me freaking out!). Out of suit, I'm less likely to oblige unless I know you, but I'd still be okay with it. Snuggles are reserved for big wuff only (And believe me, you'll know it if you cross that particular boundary).

-Are you nice?
I...hope so? Again, if I appear antisocial or shy it's just me freaking out about all the friendliness I am having to exude, but I do wanna meet you guys!

-How long are you going?
Heading out on Monday, going home to hang with Toxi and be cool people :D

-If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Any way you like! Sharn works, or Sam, or just waving your arms about if I'm in suit and therefore blind!

-Where will you be most of the time during the days?
With my mates. Hanging out. Might be the dealer's den, might be events, who knows. ...At the con is probably a good place to start.

-What/where will you be eating?
Food! All kinds of food likely, I don't know what's around so I'll just be following the herd.

-Can I come with you for fun/food/etc.?
Sure thing, but I do like to know the people I'm hanging out with, so if you want to make the time to introduce yourself, get to know me, I'd be happy to oblige! I will be prioritising hanging out with friends to a certain degree, but I'm sure there'll be time.

-Can I pet your suit?
You can, but again, please ask~
And...nothing weird. I'll act like a giant puppy so appropriate pats are okay (ear scratches, head pats etc.)
you pat bum, you die fren

-Are you excited!
I am! I'm so excited to be hanging out with all cool people~! <3

Hey all,  Silvixen is shooting for 7000 watchers this year. She is at 6997 with only a few hours left. So go give her a watch if you don't already!

Edit: You guys, we did it! That isn't any excuse for NOT watching her though! She's got fabulous art and is a super cool foxo! Head on over now!

I've always been very loud and angry about my position on this so I'm gonna keep proceedings real brief.

It's about damn time, Australia.

My congratulations to everyone this postiively affects.

Cool guy artist HayPanda is holding an auction for some cheap as chips doggo!

C'mon, come and outbid me! I dare you~

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25584194/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25584194/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25584194/

This is just here for my own benefit. I'll add to it as I like.

MarieRock (DA)/Lama (VK): https://marierock.deviantart.com/
Julia2Artworker (DA): https://julia2artworker.deviantart.com/

and now you can add multiple characters to a picture.

Brace yourselves for Sharn/Wolfsiege spam.

Hey guys,

So I'm not often for raising money through journals, particularly when the reason is fairly selfish (Buy me a fursuit pls pls pls)
But this reason’s kind of a biggie.

My manager at work, Tammy, has recently been through hell as her mum has been diagnosed with cancer. I’ve heard some of the phone calls, and whilst she’s still being a strong leader through it all, it’s hurting.
So she’s decided to shave her head.

She’s participating in Shave for a Cure, which raises money for cancer research in Australia through the sponsoring of people willing to shave it all (or colour if you’re a WUSS). And for a female with long hair in particular, it’s a big deal. And for a female who fusses over her hair as much as Tammy does, it’s a very big deal!

Please think about donating, sharing, or even just leaving stupid messages so that she knows I’ve let all the weirdness into her page. She’s making a fun event out of this, and losing her long blonde locks alongside her mum. It’s a pretty awesome way of calling the big C a big C.

I’ll also draw for donations, so happy to throw in chibis, grumpcons, adopts and anything else you can think of! Not a bad deal, right? Support charity and people working against cancer, get art! Win-win!
Get the donations high enough and I’ll also grab some videos with Tammy giving her thanks, shoutouts, doing silly things (which may or may not get furry-related if I get involved!) and more!
So if you wanna raise some money for a good cause, and get some sweet art in return, head on over to the link below and get charity-ifying!

https://secure.leukaemiafoundation......ationId=680643
https://secure.leukaemiafoundation......ationId=680643
https://secure.leukaemiafoundation......ationId=680643

Stolen from a lot of people and also to get the furdu essay off my front screen. Here we go~!

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B A S I C
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- Name: Sam
- Single or taken: Taken!
- Gender: Female
- Birthday: September 22nd
- Sign: Virgo~
- Hair color: Brown
- Eye color: Blue
- Height: 172cm. (I don’t know what that is in freedom units, and I’m not doing the work for you mate. :/)
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?:Straight as a nail. ____________________________________________________________________________



S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: It varies, but anything for intensely frizzy hair!
- What are you listening to right now?: Nothing, boo~
- Who is the last person that called you?: My partner, ofc.
- How many buddies are online right now?: No idea mate, probably a few.
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F A V O U R I T E S
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- Animal: This one’s really hard. I of course love my canines (dogs, wolves, it’s all good), but I also love my Australian animals (rock wallabies, blue-tongues, etc), and I don’t know how to choose!
- Colour: Purple.
- Drink: Okay so I tried Mountain Dew Energised and it was great, but my *favourite* drink is Pepperjack Shiraz. I’m a classy, classy lady.
- Element: Err….Fire?
- Food: Oh man where do I even start here, pasta and also @wolfsiege’s Mexican rice dishes and also literally any sort of chocolate and also condensed milk caramel idk man idk.
- Game: UGH again with the choosing. Currently my favourite pastime is playing Diablo 3 with wolfsiege and listening to 80’s music. So there’s that.
- Movie: Hnnnng so many. Let’s go with The Iron Giant since it’s a constant when it comes to favourite animated movies.
- Song: Gosh again it changes on the regular but currently this 80’s vibe in the evenings is making me like the old golds again. Things like Bon Jovi, The Police, The Eagles, Queen, Eric Clapton, Billy Joel etc. (WHAT A GARBAGE ANSWER THERE’S NOT EVEN A SONG IN THERE UUUUH SEVEN SEAS OF RYE THEN)
- Subjects in school:Hahah nope. It WAS Psychology when I was in school, though. That or Music.
- T.V.: Don’t really watch it.
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: Nope. Only animals.
- Smoked?: Oh boy here we go YES I did try @wolfsiege’s smokes once. It was one puff and it was awful. Now I never need to try it again.
- Bungee jumped?: No, but wanna try!
- Made yourself throw up?: EW no. Nope. No no no no.
- Skinny dipped?: Nooooooo nope.
- Ever been in love?: Yes!
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: This one’ll surprise some people, but no. I’m quick to cry but I don’t cry crocodile tears.
- Pictured your crush naked?: Well….Yes, of course.
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Well….Yes, of course
- Cried when someone died?: Why yes I am a human with normal human emotions.
- Lied: Ouch. Yes, okay, I have. I do.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Nope.
- Used someone?: Wow okay no.
- Done something you regret?: Of course. Nothing I’ll regret for the rest of my life, nothing that keeps me up at night, but there are of course some small things. Like regretting not looking harder for a pet-friendly place, regretting buying things when I was low on cash, etc.
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Looking business af with a burgundy/black dress, black jacket and black tights.
- Desktop picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19870168/
what a narcissistic person pls
- Mood: Not sure. A little meh, but okay.
- Pets: None, thanks to garbage renting. I wanna refill my terrarium with something though ;___;

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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: Enough. I have a great sense of empathy but I also tend to get jealous.Welp.
- Open-minded?: Enough, I guess?
- Arrogant?: Nooooooo I am the opposite, I’m way insecure about everything.
- Insecure?: See above.
- Random?: A little, depending on how much energy I have? :D
- Hungry?: *munches Twisties*
- Smart?: GUH alright yes on paper I am smart but it doesn’t really translate into any real-world smarts.
- Moody?: *god* yes.
- Organized?: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no. WELL. Depends. Everything is organised according to my own chaotic standards,
- Shy?: At first, sure, but that can change real fast, haha!
- Difficult?: Yikes, I hope not (I feel like I might be though, particularly when I’m in a bad mood!)
- Bored easily?: Well….I do build lego kits at work, so you tell me?
- Entertained easily?: …..I don’t like to admit this, buuuuut….
- Obsessed?: Not nearly as badly as I used to get, but I will still happily obsess over things.
- Lazy?: YES. Absolutely yes.
- Angry?: Yeeeeeah ask wolfsiege about this but he’ll tell you I’m a grumpy bum.
- Happy?: Mostly? I like to think I’m fairly well adjusted.
- Hyper?: Hmmm…Not really. I have to be in a real strange mood.
- Trusting?: Not particularly. Still more trusting than
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning: On a weekday? I turn off my alarm, have a shower, wake up wolfsiege , get dressed, go have breakfast,
- Love is: Love is butterflies in the stomach. Love is smiling whenever a thought crosses your mind. Love is looking at a completely random object and thinking of something else, someone else, how much they’d like it and what they’d think of it. Love is ensuring that someone else is happy, even if it means you’re not. Love is beautiful, Love is ugly, Love is violent, Love is crazy weird. …Love is wonderful.
- I dream about: I got some weird dreams going on mate. Dreamt last night that a workmate of mine stole some modelling dough, made a shitty attempt at an ice-cream out of it (it was brown modelling dough so ended up looking like poop) and then got mad when I stole it back and said it was garbage. …I don’t know <___>
- What do you notice first in the gender you're into: Hair, face..? idk?
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: Gosh actually probably my mum and brother.
- Makes you smile: My best friend, Jess. WE COOL BROS.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Of course this (and all of the above) wolfsiege
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Pft no I will just come up and hug. If I need hugs I will seek them out.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Hmm…I’ve never doubted I was a female, but for funsies one day I dressed myself up in as close to a suit as I could manage. I felt powerful. It was nice. Sometimes I’ll act more or less feminine depending on my mood. But no, I’m happy being female.
- Wish you were younger?: Hmm…Ask me again in about twenty years and I’ll probably say yes. But for now I’m good.
- Cry because someone said something to you?:Ugh try every day of my life I will absolutely take things the wrong way and then cry about them.

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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: One big one comes to mind. Nah, not a boyfriend.
- Of Cd's: About a dozen? I’ve got an old-as-balls car so I need them. :D
- Of houses lived in: Oh gosh. Six I think? Across two states, too!
- Of scars on my body: Not many. Got one on my head from when my brother hit me with a shoven when we were kids. What the heckles.
- Of bones I've broken: None!
- Of car accident you've had: Ah now y’see. I’ve not caused any, but I’ve been involved in one (as a passenger, other driver at fault) and it was a harrowing experience. Particularly when you’re road tripping and therefore a thousand kilometres from home. D:
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So I had literally PERSON looking forward to this, but I thought I'd write a little on FurDU 2017 and my experience with it. Because I suppose writing this down will help with...something?

To start off with, this was my first real convention. I've attended Confurgence a couple of times, but only ever for one day, since I couldn't get the time off work/wasn't confident enough to stomach going all three. But this time, I was going to be away from home. I didn't have a choice; it was balls deep or nothing. With only Wolfsiege as my support, I'd be going in.
This also marks the first time I saw my new fursuit, of my fursona Sharn. I'd commissioned it long ago from LazyLupe, but due to my own stupidity and some delays, she'd only just been completed. (She's now back with Lupe for repairs, but more on that later.)
As a final bit of pre-knowledge, I have social anxiety. Some days I do fine, other days it cripples me. A lot of it stems from self-confidence and paranoia issues, but most of the time I can deal and get by. But a convention was a daunting experience for me.

I get to the hotel, and immediately I find one of the few people I knew there, Kai of Eastern Dragon Studios. We'd helped her get a few things up to QLD for her dealer stand, and so I knew we'd spend at least a bit of time together. Other than that, though, I wasn't sure who I was going to be seeing and when. I was almost certain that I'd be spending most evenings alone. We check in and head up to the room, and immediately I am overwhelmed with what's in store for me. Three days of potentially being social, hanging out with people etc. I'd already been invited to a dinner that evening, so I was nervous.
I meet up with Lupe and the other new recipients of their suits, and head off to their room to pick Sharn up. I'd seen pictures of her previously, been informed as to what to expect (there had been some problems with the fur when shaved down, such that the head looked a different colour to the body), and I'll be honest. I'm not a believer in love at first sight, and I didn't fall in love with Sharn right away. I knew she was cool and cute and all the rest, but I still didn't know how I felt about wearing her, becoming this thing I'd only ever thought of as separate to me. I wound up opening her head in Lupe's room, alongside a few people. Put the head on, and immediately I was transformed. I can't describe how I felt, suddenly looking at myself in the mirror with a face I'd never seen before, and it was pretty darn overwhelming.
“She's crying under that suit”
someone pointed out. Wolfsiege ran in and took the head off, and I composed myself. Wearing the full suit was going to be even more jarring, and I was both excited and terrified.
Thanked Lupe and headed back up to our room, where I did indeed try on the full suit. It was more exciting than terrifying, thank goodness, and I managed okay. Pulled it all off and went out to dinner.

Dinner on the first night was an experience. For the first time I was surrounded by people who shared an interest I'd previously kept secret from (or at least, didn't spend a lot of time sharing with) other people. I wondered if I'd see any of them again after this, or whether they had a lot of other friends they'd rather hang out with. But we made it work, and I spent most of the evening talking and laughing with other people, which is a pretty rare thing.

Day one of the con was a blur. I don't remember much of what I did during the day, but toward the end I suited up and went downstairs for the first time. I was re-learning everything; how to walk, how to act, and there were a lot of moments where I felt a disconnect between the character I was portraying and myself. Was I Sharn, or was I Sam? I wasn't sure. Wolfsiege compared it to someone with gender dysphoria, except now it was whole-body dysphoria. It led to a few moments of me dropping out of character, starting to plod around the same way I always did outside of suit. Looking back at the footage, it's clear that despite Sharn's expression, I wasn't comfortable. But I managed, took a few pictures and went out for dinner again with Kita and company.

Day two was upsetting for more than one reason. I'd been so excited to become this character, but the transition wasn't working for me as well as I'd expected. There were bumps, there were other people, other suiters I was unfairly comparing myself to. This was about where the problems started. I started to learn that the feeling of disconnect I was experiencing was due to the fact that I was portraying a character so different to what I was used to expressing to the world. Here was a character full of life and energy, friendly and charming and ready to interact with anyone. As Sam I was so used to blending in, shying away from attention and generally being a nobody that I'd accepted it as the norm. I didn't have any knowledge about how to act, how to behave as an outgoing being, what I wanted Sharn to be, how I wanted her to act. The idea frightened me. I thought very seriously about not suiting up that day, not attending any photoshoots, not attending much of the con at all. But I managed to do it, and things felt a little better once inside the suit. It felt strange, but the more I wore it the more I realised that none of my apprehensions mattered. People couldn't see how scared I was behind the suit, how close to tears I was when I was jumping around and posing as best I could. So I decided to wing it for the day. It went okay, I learned a little more about what my limits are whilst in suit, and the day proceeded. I had a quieter night this evening, which was good to wind down from.

Day three is when it all kicked off. I knew this was going to be my last outing as Sharn, despite the fact that I didn't want it to be. On top of that, I was still feeling anxious about everything I had been feeling the last few days; the unrealistic expectations I had placed on myself, the attention I was receiving, all of it. I seriously considered not only forgoing the suit today, but hanging it up entirely. I wasn't sure whether I could do this. But still, I knew this would be my last chance, and I went downstairs one last time. I lasted a lot longer, and received more attention from people at the den. It was strange, seeing their reactions and blissfully ignoring the fact that the character before them was a human in a suit, instead reacting to the outward character alone. I'm not sure what happened then. Perhaps I found my groove, the way I wanted to portray Sharn. Perhaps I found some confidence from...somewhere. Perhaps I just stopped caring what the hell everybody else thought. I *rocked* Sharn. My practice over the past few days had enabled me to find a persona that worked for her, taking some valuable advice given to me to just work my shyness and nervousness into her character. I gave out hugs, I danced on the spot, and if anyone rushed up toward me, I'd back away and hide my face before slowly emerging. I heard Kita say as I moved that I'd gained a vast amount of confidence and that I no longer needed help to find Sharn, and Wolfsiege agreed. (of course I could hear you guys, pls)
It was excellent. I felt her actions coming from...somewhere inside of me, and that's when it finally started to click. It finally started to come together. Because whilst I know that I've messed up earlier on in this journal, I *am* Sharn. She's me. We're one and the same. And whilst I know I've got a long way to go to bring her out, everything I did on Sunday, I did as myself. I used what I liked to do, and did it. I took all the silly eccentricities I already have, amplified them, and repeated them. And it worked.

The next few days were a mess of me recovering mentally from what I'd just done, being talked out of still comparing myself to others, and needing some time to recouperate after being so social for four days straight! However, I don't regret a bit of it. I've still got a long way to go as I develop Sharn into something I can be proud of, but to hear more than one person say that I'd come a long way in terms of coming out of my shell, and to hear Wolfsiege in particular say how proud me was of me for facing everything I had and coming out the other side okay, that made it all worthwhile.

Thanks to everybody I met there, and I mean everybody! I loved meeting all of you and I'm determined to see/speak to you all again before CFG!

Special thanks to the following:

Eastern.Dragon.Studios for all the great tips on caring for my suit, being cool dudes together and making my entire life smell like Vanilla and Dragon's Blood!
~VictoriaRose~ for also playing cards with me, giving me an excuse to vent about work (because holidays???) and (hopefully) getting some rare pictures of Sharn on day three!
Toxi for hanging out, giving me names of brands I definitely haven't forgotten(?) and most importantly providing hugs when I needed them most!
Lazylupe for the AMAZING suit and her supreme patience when dealing with Sharn's little niggles and my own anxiety about her (no not the hooooole)
FauxVeritas for being a cool dude, not caring that I don't carry across well on camera and also posthumously asking for hugs because by that point it's all moot.
BellTheOtter for the most excellent bandana and hug tag, playing cards against humanity with me and potentially accepting Sharn and Wolfsiege as test subjects (ohohoh secrets)
Tanrowolf for forming the holy trinity that is Team Monochrome, for the cool hangouts and hilarious stories, for that plate of bacon and the Anti-Gangle Squad!
Krolm for ensuring I didn't fall over when I over-suited, the very kind offer to help me come out of my shell (which I will likely still take you up on some time!) and generally putting up with the insanity that was FurDU
Silvixen for helping me out of the sand, helping me out of my shell and helping me put my paranoia to rest (I was more scared about you potentially not wanting to hang than you realise.)

And of course, the biggest thanks go to , who was my handler/assistant/psychologist throughout this whole experience, and whom without I would have never have managed half the things I did.

So that's about it from me, I'm hoping to get suited up well before CFG, so stay tuned! I feel like there's a lot more growth to come from me between now and then, and for the first time ever, I'm actually excited about getting out there and doing things!

Because apparently the internet ate it or something. Great.

Stolen from Toxi:


-Where are you staying?
Yo where everybody else is staying who doesn't live in queensland methinks. Got myself an oceanside view awwwyeah

-What day are you getting there?
Thursday-Tuesday. Because that is literally all the time I could get off work. FFFFFFFFUUUU-

-How are you arriving?
With style, of course.

-Who will you be rooming with?
 Wolfsiege

-Who will you hang out with during the convention?
YO you know this time last year this list might as well have been empty. NOW:
 Wolfsiege ,  Silvixen ,  Krolm ,  Toxi ,  Kalkirith ,  Tanrowolf , and all the rest of you gorgeous sick fucks I wanna meet you all

-Are there events you might be attending?
Not sure yet, I'm guessing I'll be trying for at least a few of them? I'm actually not sure of the schedule in full, haha

-Will you be suiting?
YO ABSOLUTELY

-Do you do free art?
I do! Not as a general rule, I ain't just gonna whip out some magic paper/markers if you ask. But I did some art of some dudes at the art jam at CFG and I'll happily do that again.

-Do you do trades?
Also yes!

-What is your gender?
Female

-How old are you?
25

-How tall are you?
I dunno, pretty average? Perhaps a little shorter? You're gonna see how wide I am before you notice my height yo

-Are you taken?

big wuff / little wuff

-Can I talk to you?
PLEASE DO. I am super happy to meet people, though please be aware that I'm far more active online/through the medium of text than I am in real life. I'm super socially awkward and will likely get burnt out by the end of the con. That does IN NO WAY mean I don't wanna talk to you though, just a PSA in case I'm quiet/shy/reserved. (I'm used to being the quiet one anyway, so I'm not super talkative, and that generally is worse when I first meet someone. I will make an effort though, bear with me!)

-Can I touch you?
y tho

-How can I find you?
If I'm in suit, check my icon for reference. If not, I still have curly (brown) hair that cannot be tamed, and I'll likely be wearing my badges at all times whilst at the con.

-Can I visit your room?
...y tho. I mean perhaps if there is a need for it but I cannot think of a single reason why?

-Can I buy you drinks?
NOW we're talking. I mean don't buy me drinks I'm a strong independent wuff, but absolutely come drinking with me (or rather watch me have one drink and then stop because I'm a fucking lightweight, then watch wolfsiege drink the bar dry)

-Can I give you stuff?
I enjoy stuff!I'm not sure why you're giving me stuff though?

-Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Snuggles are reserved for Wolfsiege unless we're both in suit and being cute dudes together, but hugs are way cool.
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT: PLEASE ASK TO HUG. I will 99% of the time say yes but this primarily applies whilst I'm in suit. Why? Because I'm certain my vision is going to be significantly impaired and I have a nasty habit of jumping away (or worse, jumping *towards*) people who are suddenly touching me. No sudden touch Sam. Might get a whack for it, and I don't want that. You don't want that. Ain't nobody want that. Just ask first, I'm good for it.

-Are you nice?
I...like to think so? I'm not rude to people unless they're being specifically rude to me I guess, in which case I delegate things to my bodyguard and he can sort it out.

-How long are you going?
As above, Thursday-Tuesday since work's a bitch. That still gets me some time to take in sights that aren't my cubicle or my house, though.

-If I see you, how should I get your attention?
I will respond instantly to "Sam", though you can pretty much call anything//wave/wognod and I'll stop for you. Except perhaps the whole "suit no vision" thing, you might need to wave extra hard.

-Where will you be most of the time during the days?
Funnily enough, at the start I'll likely be hanging out at the dealer's den since it will contain all the people I know. Beyond that, hopefully I make some new friends, or just hang out in suit doing weird shit. Awyeah.

-What/where will you be eating?
YO I HAVE JUST BEEN INFORMED THAT THERE IS A TEPPENYAKI PLACE
I'M ONE TRILLION PERCENT DOWN

Other than that, I'm happy to tag along with people for food, but I do have an evening set aside where Wolfsiege and I are gonna head out on a long-overdue dinner date!

-Can I come with you for fun/food/etc.?
Absolutely! Particularly during the con, since I'll be spending the rest of the time taking in the sights and getting some much-needed R&R with big wuff.

Hey all! I've decided to open for Grumpcons (styled off the Game Grumps intro sequence) for a while!

They're AUD $5 each, and also super cute and fun and awesome :D

All info and examples here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22656301/

(Wish me luck, all!)

Because garbage but they might be interesting.


1. Been in the fandom for...

Oh gosh I wouldn't know for sure. 2004-2005, maybe? Dang it's been a while.

2. Found the fandom how?

Hm...I'm not entirely sure! I know it had something to do with the fact that I was writing a novella at the time, one which was fantasy-based and had dragons as the main characters. I had intended on them being proper, full on feral dragons. But after a short while on the Internet that all changed quote drastically. I'm not sure when that particular light switched on, but it was definitely around then.

3. Chose your species cuz...

Okay are you ready for a truth bomb because here we go:
My first character was a cheetah chakat. Extra limbs, hermaphrodite, the works. It was a nightmare. I'm not entirely sure when I changed to present day Sharn, but it was probably around 2007-2008, around the time I finished high school. I just sat down with a free-to-use reference and...there she was! The only thing that's changed between then and now, besides her hair getting a lot curlier.

4. why/how did you choose your name?

Okay, bigger truth bomb. Sharn River sounds like a pretty mature name but actually it was chosen by a child. Ready?

Sharn - Queen Sharn, from the Deltona Quest series.
River - Nate River aka Near from the anime Death Note.

I'M SECRETLY A HORRIBLE WEEEEEEEEB

5. if you had to change your species what would you choose?

Hmm...I'd probably go for an Australian animal of some kind! A dingo? Perhaps a numbat!

6. What percentage of your friends are furries?

You know what? I used to say none, or one, but now there's a bunch! Now I'd say a third, perhaps even half! And the ones who aren't are still pretty supportive! I wouldn't discuss furry things at length with them, but I'll bring up things in passing and they'll acknowledge them, etc.

7. If you've been, favorite furry con and why?

Oh man, this year's CFG! Though I'm hoping I'll be changing this answer come may! :D

8. Got a fursuit?

There's one in the works, yes! Ohhohoho I'm so excited yissss

9. RP'ing is:

Hm, I'm down, but I rarely have time. I also gained a lot of skill and experience in my years pretending I was older than I actually was. So no scrubs. T1 minimum.

10. Are you open about being a furry, I.E if it comes up in conversation

Pretty open, yeah. I was closeted the entire time I was in high school, but managed to step out in uni, and really it takes the same place in my life as anything else. I have a furry calender up in in my house, a few small pieces on my wall at work. I'm out enough. Though I don't think anyone will be able to stop me wearing my fursuit outside at least once :D

11. Gay / Straight / bi?

Straight. Don't get me wrong I can appreciate the female form, find it visually appealing, and boobs are great. But I've yet to be sexuality aroused by anything that wasn't sporting a bulge.

12. Ever kissed another furry?

Erm...duh. C:

13. Do you have adult art of your fursona? If yes, post favorite

I do, but I'm actually not into adult art as much as you might think! Hence my favourite mature pictures are generally the pinups. Because I'm bad at feeling sexy, but at least this way I can live vicariously through the art, haha.

14.Ever hooked up with another fur?

Uhhh....also yes.
Though to be fair, he's far less into it than I am. Though, adorably enough, he brought it up in conversation a lot early on, because it was one of the very few topics that would make me open up and trust him with secrets and shiz.

15. Opinion on murrsuits?

I don't wear my strap-on in public. Don't wear your murrsuits in public. Save the sex gear for the bedroom. Beyond that, do whatever you want.

16. Do you have a kink related to the fandom? If yes, post the one your most open about, if you dare ;)

Not really. Hmm...if anything, I do own a tail to be worn in...particular situations? Though even then, that's not really a kink. No, I have kinks, but they're neither reliant on nor independent of being a furry.

17. Are you in any 18+ Telegram groups? Name one.

I'm....not in any telegram groups at all :/

So just a quick one whilst I'm on my phone but



10/10 would get molested again
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That's right!
With help from , & , my DTD finally got done!
Now I will FINALLY be able to do the thing!

But yes besides that, I bought many things and grabbed enough business cards to keep me going for the rest of the year. Or at least until FurDU, which will (provided I can save enough!) Be my next major conquest! My first furcon done right, plus first trip to the Gold Coast! But, I've gotta get there first. Fingers crossed!

For now, 's father will be staying with us for the next three weeks, so I may be a bit quiet. (Unlike my mum, who finds the idea of furries adorable and fun, his parents aren't so...open-minded?)

But have a good one, please stay cool my fellow Aussies, and I'll update this again soon!

(Yeah right just a quick one well done me)

Because there are approximately a billion and I'd better get to writing them down!

* Lose weight. Not putting a number on it yet as it needs to be steady and long-term. But I just gotta get healthier.

* Have some more control over my emotions. I'm still very up and down about it, just gotta learn to mellow. I don't know how I'm doing that but YEAH RESOLUTIONS

* Be more confident! Good lord I have such anxiety talking to new people (even though I can type at them like nobody's business). I feel as though this is partly related to the two above items, so with any luck this'll partly solve itself?

* To look for another job. Not saying I'll start now, not saying I'll find one. It's merely the fact that I've gotten comfortable here, and now finally have the confidence to see what other alternatives my skills could earn me. Who knows?

* Spend more time on me! I spend too much darn time stressing about things I can't control, and I'm sick of it. Plus, it's making me sick. Awesome.

* Sort out what is going on with my body. I've got pains everywhere that I shouldn't, and have dismissed them all as "ah just some injury". Injuries don't normally hang around for months on end though, so I gotta start to get this sorted! :/

I'll...probably add to this.

Because day passes FINALLY became available, otherwise it was all gonna be up in the air!

Where are you staying?
Home. Because one day.

Who are you staying with?
 wolfsiege I guess just by default? ('cept I'm dragging him along too which'll be mighty fun)

When do you arrive?
Well this hardly counts since I'll be in Melbourne anyway, but I am ONLY attending on the 7th! Only the saturday! I can't get time off work, and we've got business in Wonthaggi on the 8th. The timing with my current work has never been great.

What names shall I refer to you as?
Eh. Sam, mostly, I'll respond to that like clockwork, but you can call me pretty much whatever. Sharn, Sammallama, Buttface...the possibilities are endless!

What's your gender and preferred pronouns?
Female, female pronouns. Nothing fancy here. You watch these H-cups walk in, you know what pronouns to use. :D

What's your fursona species?
Grey Wolf (Literally!).

Will you be fursuiting?
No, but with a bit of luck this is the last time I'll answer a question this way!

Can I take photos of you?
S-.....sure? Not sure why?
Do ask, though.

What's your plans during the con?
Probably gonna arrive a little later in the day, socialise, spend all my money immediately (because I hate money), go to a few panels and wander around (generally being a weirdo since I know so few people and I'm so freakin' anxious about meeting more (though again, more than last year!)), and then wrap myself in duct tape like a mummy with the help of , and . Because those room parties get weird sometimes, yo.

Are you dealing or planning on going to the den (if so, to see which tables)?
I'm going to every table and then going to hide under table 9 and count my goodies like Scrooge McDuck. You can't stop me. Ohohohohohohoh~

Can I hug you?
Not without asking, but I will say yes 99% of the time (unless I am hot and sweaty and gross or not feeling well), so please ask!

Can I buy you food/drink?
Uhhhh, no? Only because why would you pls I'm already a massive fatty. If you wanna come eat/drink with me, that's cool though!

Can I chill/chat with you?
Aaaaaaabsolutely! I will likely be that annoying person who walks around the dealer's den fifteen thousand times because she's trying to work up the courage to go over to someone, and then giddily takes all their loot away to a secret corner and swoons over it like a teenage girl. ...Or I'll be at the bar drinking. Whatever works.

GOOD LORD
So hey guys! I'm back and ready for more. Apologies for the hiatus, turns out real life got in the way of a lot of things, and I had to grow up real fast. But I'm finally starting to balance my time enough to get back here semi-regularly, though I'm not sure I'm going to continue drawing. I don't know. We'll see.

So a lot has happened in the past year! Moved out, bought a car, learned to cook semi-good, learned I cannot drive to save my life, received a promotion, still with McButtface, dog passed away, little brother got a job, went on a holiday, involved in a car accident, AH THE LIFE I HAVE LIVED

But now I'm back here (and also working full-time), I am looking for some more artists to commission! Anyone who knows anyone good (or if you wanna pimp yourself, idc), let me know! I'm also immediately turning back to people I either regularly commission or have wanted to in the past, because I got HELLA DOLLA NOW (not really, but the ability to save substantial amounts of money over time due to work is pretty amazing.)

I also thought that now I am back, it is time to do some CANCER-INDUCING memes because I'm bored. And amazing.

I love all you guys :D

---WARNING CANCER MEME STARTS HERE---

65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Technically my hands because I'm lathering up the loofah? Hm.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Oh black. With red patterns. Horde4lyf.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Sure!

4. Do you plan outfits?
Kind of? I tend to plan work outfits but it revolves less around looking good and more around what the most comfortable items that I can wear and get away with are.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Kinda bored, kinda concerned for someone, but otherwise okay. Relaxing and unwinding from the stress of the week.

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red
A takeaway pizza menu. My priorities are in exactly the right order.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
OOH it was weird, I had accidentally killed  wolfsiege so I had to commit seppuku. Don't ask me how or why, I have no idea.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Not yet!

9. What are you craving right now?
An adventure!

10. Do you floss?
Sometimes...?

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
British comedy. I have no idea why.

12. Are you emotional?
Yus :/

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
I have! It was whilst I was working for my mum and her company, I had to count over a thousand of a single transmission component. Thrilling stuff.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Biting hurts after a while (though not as much now, since one of my front teeth is actually dead!), so mostly lick. Or use my lips. Because I'm apparently part horse.

15. Do you like your hair?
Hmm...I like it, but it doesn't like me. Or rain. Or being styled. Or anything at all.

16. Do you like yourself?
Not particularly, but I like that I keep trying, I guess?

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Sure, why not? He's no leader of mine, and has to have done something right to be able to lead an entire country, so it's probably worth finding out what that is.

18. What are you listening to right now?
My heater. Making whirring sounds. :D

19. Are your parents strict?
Nope. My mum's always looking out for me ofc, but she once famously said that she'd happily sit and watch me take a drag on a cigarette only to watch me cough my lungs up afterwards (which, in the end, meant that whilst she wouldn't approve, she'd be far more comfortable with me trying something in a safe environment than winding up doing something stupid.)

20. Would you go sky diving?
AAAAAB-SO-LUTELY. But I'm too fat. So there's that.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Hmm...not really. I'm not a fan of soft cheeses in general.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Kind of? Met a bunch of famous blokes from the richmond footy club. So there's that.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Used to, there was a DVD rental place just up the road! Not sure what it is now, but I don't anymore.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
There are! Some gems which are meant to be used in a clay modelling set, and a Hatchimal. :D

25. How many countries have you visited?
A few! Germany, Austria, France, England, Italy...and I think Switzerland? Pretty sure that was it. :D

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Nah.

27. Ever been on a train?
Sure.

28. Brown or white eggs?
They're eggs, who cares?

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
No. I have a MOBILE PHONE though because I'm not a yank

30. Do you use chap stick?
Sure, if I need to?

31. Do you own a gun?
Again, not a yank (I do have a bow though?)

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yup!

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?

EW GROSS FEELINGS EW

34. Are you too forgiving?
Hmm...Probably sometimes, yeah.

35. Ever been in love?
Yaaaaaas

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
I forget. Is PAX this weekend or next? <___>

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yeah, they're...okay? They're kind of a wog thing I guess so yeah I have, obvs. :D

38. Last time you cried?
Yesterday. Work's a bitch. D:

39. What was the last question you asked?
"Why does it matter?" (In response to :iconwolfsiege asking "What are you doing that you're typing so much?".)

40. Favorite time of the year?
Spring! So...right now! :D

41. Do you have any tattoos?
Nope. Not sure whether I'll ever have any, the idea intrigues me but I just don't think I can commit to having the same thing forever.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Hmmm....Naaaaah. Not at AAAAAAAAALLLLLL. *rolls eyes* :D

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
I haven't. Want to, though!

44. Ever walked into a wall?
...SSH.

45. Favorite color?
Red? Or purple.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
No!

47. Is your hair curly?
It is. And LORDS it can't be tamed.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Oh lords because I either don't listen to CD's or just steal  wolfsiege's ones, the last one was
...
Awesome Mix, Vol. 1.

49. Do looks matter?
Yes and no. Someone who looks well-presented, like they've made an effort for themselves, regardless of their style choices and end result, looks nicer than someone who doesn't seem to care, in my book. But as for how your face/body is put together? Couldn't care less.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Well, it's been three years and the answer is still no, so...

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Nope! Unlimited texting, and I don't really call people. It'll occasionally jump, like when I had to use a lot of data whilst on holiday, but otherwise all good!

52. Do you like your life right now?
I like it fine. Sure, everyone always wants more luxuries in life, but I am want for nothing so I'm good. C:

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Ugh no I can't. Nowai. Has to be both dark and quiet for me to sleep (which is odd, since I never used to be able to sleep in the car, until we bought the new Mazda! Then I just doze off all day erry day)

54. Can you handle the truth?
I CAN HANDLE THE TRUTH

55. Do you have good vision?
It's....alright? One eye is a little bit manky, and I technically need glasses to achieve perfect vision, but I'm still 20/20 when looking through both eyes so we good. FOR NOW D:

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
I-...don't think so?

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not often. I prefer to text/email/etc.

58. The last person you held hands with?
 wolfsiege (...Duh?)

59. What are you wearing?
A hoodie and undies. ...
...
...What? It's a saturday and I'm not going anywhere!

60.What is your favorite animal?
Probably dogs. Gimme a room full of puppies and you're gonna have yourself one happy little wuff.

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
UUH no idea
no favourite picture
not sure
question unclear
pineapples

62. Can you hula hoop?
I can. I'm not good at it, but I can.

63. Do you have a job?
Yus. It is a gud jub.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
A fascinator. I'm going out to the races this year and apparently this is a thing you must have. AND YES OF COURSE IT'S EARS because when fashion allows you to wear furry shit and not be hated you better be damn sure I'm gonna take that shit as far as I possibly can

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yup. Locked myself out of the house. Windows don't work well. ...Long story.

and for the life of me I cannot figure this shit out
somebody help me

also come friend me yo do it
name on there is Sharn
just do eet

before I work out how this works
and find you

:D