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Posted 12 years agoREblogged a friend :3
1. Who the fuzzballs are you?
2. Are we furiends or are you my stalker?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you think I am cute and attractive?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Would you spend some quality time with me?
13. What are three movies that you would want to watch together with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend or just watching me on FA?
15. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
1. Who the fuzzballs are you?
2. Are we furiends or are you my stalker?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you think I am cute and attractive?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Would you spend some quality time with me?
13. What are three movies that you would want to watch together with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend or just watching me on FA?
15. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
I HAVE A GAME IDEA
Posted 12 years agoFree-roam based NFS-style game.
Guys, I have been thinking on sharing my toughts on what a perfect racing game would look like, and it would be very nice if I was able to make it real. With the appearance of proper Need for speed competitors, like Ubisoft's "The Crew", and Microsoft's Forza Horizon, I would like to come up with my ideas "possible competitor" as well. The most important thing would be the thing with Multiplayer...
The game would be both online and offline, and I want it to be something that supports not only racers competing against AI, human opponents or both, but also lonewolves and teamsters alike.
The game would give all the freedom to the player on what to do with wich race route, or territory. The game would basicly have circuit and sprint routes on an open world wich covers jungles, forest, beaches, deserts, mountains, snowy areas and cities, and many other possible environment the islanders brang from their homeland. Each route will contain multiple challenges, single race, lap knockout, drift, time attack, etc... For circuits and tracks , laps could be given with the maximum of, I dunno, 8 laps, while you cant change the distance of sprint roads... at least I dont know what to do with them at the moment.
Outside races the player would roam the island looking for challengers, clubs/taverns/cafés/other hellholes, Vehicleless Action Sequences (First Person Shooter style), robbable vehicles, cops to pursuit and missions.
Challengers could either offer you to pick a finnish line and race you that way, or you could engage in an outrun race, wich would be as simple as in underground 2. The winner will get a prize in the form of money and experience point.
As a bonus, the island does not only offer asphalt as your race source. Other than Street racing, you can also off-road races in form of Rally, the only restriction being that only Off-Road(able) cars would be allowed to race. Otherwise, off-road routes would be same way as others: circuit and sprint roads offering race, time attack and ko modes like the others.
Other than allowing you to make the streetracer version of Rally, the game would offer you bonuses like drifting and Drag. Drag can be done with up to 4 players, while Drift would be a competition of high score. Another bonus would be closed tracks for legal racing, in wich you never see cops or traffic, but you abide by two kinds of rules: Official means you have to drive normally, you cannot hit the opponent for example, and you must slow down when someone suffered an accident. The other would be custom, where you set up the rules.
Two other bonuses would be tournament and knockout modes to return from the abscence. Tournament mode would be a small championship where you go through
Certain vehicles can be used in yet another bonus, destruction derby, where you fight for your own survival, while wrecking others' cars.
While you can cruise the entire island with a vehicle, while no walking allowed on the streets, you must consider tho some walkjob, wich I refer to: The action sequence or the first person shooter part. Certain parts of the world can be entered to walk in them, wich opens up tons of possibilities: You can visit your friend's house, you can drink a can of beer with the bartender, you can even sneak into the police department if you want to know the actual crimes in town. You could also see some places wich are intended for some fighting, wich you could not see in the streets before. While youre in places like this, you will encounter puzzles, and can find treasures and information packs wich you can return to certain clubs and cafés, most probably your safehouse. A lots of times you will find yourself not only collecting cars, but also weapons, like shotguns, smg's, et cetera.
Renember that each FPS sequence will be separated in a way that should keep the game as a racing game. If you have found something in area 52 that you can only make use of in Castle Brastaca, you have to drive your way there, and if you had Enemies on your tail, wich will be cops, you will be in pursuit, wich you must evade. During combat, your bounty grows fast enough for your pursuit to start on federal level, even if you entered the day as not wanted.
Of course the pursuit system would take its basis from Need For Speed most wanted and Carbon, and of course, World. I dont think I'll have to explain pursuits, but the longer you are in a pursuit, the more agressive the police gets, wich you can follow in the Heat-o-meter of its own. In Heat 1, you will be pursued by basic patrol units, while in maximum heat, the fastest sports cars will make the basis of the pursuing units, and all possible tactics will be done against you, from spiked roadblocks to in-run deployable spikes, agressive helicopter support dropping spike strip as well. The pursuit will be hard, but not impossible. The world will be full of pursuit breakers wich can be released upon the pursuers, as well as the player can take some traps with himself, as in Need For Speed Hot Pursuit 2010 too. The player is even allowed to team up with others to get rid of the police force together, and classic tricks like usual turning also help with any height of heat.
This game, of course, can be played as a cop too. Cops will not have the races but can always catch racers cruising or during race. Every time one or more racers are engaged by the player in pursuit, each will be registered in the blacklist, ensuring that there is no losing for the police ever, even when their suspects escaped a lot. The police's FPS sequences would be, of course, guarding against rebels, who are on the look for anything the area offers.
The most wanted style pursuit system allows cops to arrest racers without crashing their cars, as long as they can slow them down and hold them stopped for enough time. I will probably think for a lot of other stuff cops can do. Cops will have access to lots of different pursuit cars, most of them based on the same cars the racers use.
The game would allow customization for import tuners and most musclecars. Bodykits, hoods, rims, spoilers, rear view mirrors, custom interiors, audio, neons, nitrous purges, window tinting, and other stuff will be available as tuner exclusive. On the other hand, every single car will receive custom paintjobs. And most cars will get performance upgrades too. Most musclecars and import tuners would also have special packs making them rally cars and offroad vehicles, while for the offroad part you could also get 4X4 trucks and suvs too. Trucks and suvs cannot race the other vehicles tho. But in pursuit, they can be used to support by smashing cop cars more effectively than others.
All this in an open world built around street racing and police pursuit, while offering on foot adventures and other activites.
An other idea would allow people to either reach races by free roam or game setup menu, latter wich is used in earlies need for speed games from 1 to 4 mostly. Arcade mode would allow both racers and cops to search for racers in free roaming or set up races from the menu, without the fps sequences and other bonuses, except track racing, drift, and drag, as well as rally, added to it. Here every single car is available all the time, without having to buy them, unlike in Career mode wich would have everything I said so far.
The game would contain a singleplayer mode and a Multiplayer mode separatedly. In Multiplayer, you could do the same stuff as in singleplayer arcade and career modes, except for the addition of human players, wich you can make a team with, or compete against. As I said, the game supports loners and teamsters alike, as well as racers and cops, wich will make servers full of races and pursuits people play against each other. The best would be probably if Gamespy would provide the multiplayer.
Adding cars would be possible in a similar manner as NFS4 had, and you could also give the game different physics and graphics if you dont like it as it is. Add music too by copying them into an folder, so yea, this IS a complicated game idea, but at least its fun.
The game would support 4 +1 types of vehicles: Exotics would be the fastest type, with less acceleration, Musclecars would accelerate faster than others but handling's make them ideal for professionals, Tuners would be best at Handling but lack speed, Off Road will be made typically for their separate races, and support work. +1 means there could be a possibility of motobikes too, but I dunno. Exotics would totally lack customization, for most part thered be only performance upgrades, otherwise, no customization. Tuners and most, not exotic-like musclecars would on the other hand have said options.
The game would have all important real life licensed cars, as well as unique fictional vehicles. Real cars would have a showcase, interior, slideshow, and probably a video.
An island full of Scenic drives, beautiful cities, Cops, elitist and rebels, tuners, musclecars and exotics, that is the island wich still needs a name. Otherwise I used the same island for this game idea as my story wich also revolves around street racing and pistol gun fighting alike, so you can guess what story the game would follow. Either my fursona's Story, or a dalmatian's story on the racers side, and a Bullterrier on the Police side.
What Ideas do you have? Write me a comment on DA, FA, SF, IB and Weasyl, or PM me on Tumbler if you have one.
Guys, I have been thinking on sharing my toughts on what a perfect racing game would look like, and it would be very nice if I was able to make it real. With the appearance of proper Need for speed competitors, like Ubisoft's "The Crew", and Microsoft's Forza Horizon, I would like to come up with my ideas "possible competitor" as well. The most important thing would be the thing with Multiplayer...
The game would be both online and offline, and I want it to be something that supports not only racers competing against AI, human opponents or both, but also lonewolves and teamsters alike.
The game would give all the freedom to the player on what to do with wich race route, or territory. The game would basicly have circuit and sprint routes on an open world wich covers jungles, forest, beaches, deserts, mountains, snowy areas and cities, and many other possible environment the islanders brang from their homeland. Each route will contain multiple challenges, single race, lap knockout, drift, time attack, etc... For circuits and tracks , laps could be given with the maximum of, I dunno, 8 laps, while you cant change the distance of sprint roads... at least I dont know what to do with them at the moment.
Outside races the player would roam the island looking for challengers, clubs/taverns/cafés/other hellholes, Vehicleless Action Sequences (First Person Shooter style), robbable vehicles, cops to pursuit and missions.
Challengers could either offer you to pick a finnish line and race you that way, or you could engage in an outrun race, wich would be as simple as in underground 2. The winner will get a prize in the form of money and experience point.
As a bonus, the island does not only offer asphalt as your race source. Other than Street racing, you can also off-road races in form of Rally, the only restriction being that only Off-Road(able) cars would be allowed to race. Otherwise, off-road routes would be same way as others: circuit and sprint roads offering race, time attack and ko modes like the others.
Other than allowing you to make the streetracer version of Rally, the game would offer you bonuses like drifting and Drag. Drag can be done with up to 4 players, while Drift would be a competition of high score. Another bonus would be closed tracks for legal racing, in wich you never see cops or traffic, but you abide by two kinds of rules: Official means you have to drive normally, you cannot hit the opponent for example, and you must slow down when someone suffered an accident. The other would be custom, where you set up the rules.
Two other bonuses would be tournament and knockout modes to return from the abscence. Tournament mode would be a small championship where you go through
Certain vehicles can be used in yet another bonus, destruction derby, where you fight for your own survival, while wrecking others' cars.
While you can cruise the entire island with a vehicle, while no walking allowed on the streets, you must consider tho some walkjob, wich I refer to: The action sequence or the first person shooter part. Certain parts of the world can be entered to walk in them, wich opens up tons of possibilities: You can visit your friend's house, you can drink a can of beer with the bartender, you can even sneak into the police department if you want to know the actual crimes in town. You could also see some places wich are intended for some fighting, wich you could not see in the streets before. While youre in places like this, you will encounter puzzles, and can find treasures and information packs wich you can return to certain clubs and cafés, most probably your safehouse. A lots of times you will find yourself not only collecting cars, but also weapons, like shotguns, smg's, et cetera.
Renember that each FPS sequence will be separated in a way that should keep the game as a racing game. If you have found something in area 52 that you can only make use of in Castle Brastaca, you have to drive your way there, and if you had Enemies on your tail, wich will be cops, you will be in pursuit, wich you must evade. During combat, your bounty grows fast enough for your pursuit to start on federal level, even if you entered the day as not wanted.
Of course the pursuit system would take its basis from Need For Speed most wanted and Carbon, and of course, World. I dont think I'll have to explain pursuits, but the longer you are in a pursuit, the more agressive the police gets, wich you can follow in the Heat-o-meter of its own. In Heat 1, you will be pursued by basic patrol units, while in maximum heat, the fastest sports cars will make the basis of the pursuing units, and all possible tactics will be done against you, from spiked roadblocks to in-run deployable spikes, agressive helicopter support dropping spike strip as well. The pursuit will be hard, but not impossible. The world will be full of pursuit breakers wich can be released upon the pursuers, as well as the player can take some traps with himself, as in Need For Speed Hot Pursuit 2010 too. The player is even allowed to team up with others to get rid of the police force together, and classic tricks like usual turning also help with any height of heat.
This game, of course, can be played as a cop too. Cops will not have the races but can always catch racers cruising or during race. Every time one or more racers are engaged by the player in pursuit, each will be registered in the blacklist, ensuring that there is no losing for the police ever, even when their suspects escaped a lot. The police's FPS sequences would be, of course, guarding against rebels, who are on the look for anything the area offers.
The most wanted style pursuit system allows cops to arrest racers without crashing their cars, as long as they can slow them down and hold them stopped for enough time. I will probably think for a lot of other stuff cops can do. Cops will have access to lots of different pursuit cars, most of them based on the same cars the racers use.
The game would allow customization for import tuners and most musclecars. Bodykits, hoods, rims, spoilers, rear view mirrors, custom interiors, audio, neons, nitrous purges, window tinting, and other stuff will be available as tuner exclusive. On the other hand, every single car will receive custom paintjobs. And most cars will get performance upgrades too. Most musclecars and import tuners would also have special packs making them rally cars and offroad vehicles, while for the offroad part you could also get 4X4 trucks and suvs too. Trucks and suvs cannot race the other vehicles tho. But in pursuit, they can be used to support by smashing cop cars more effectively than others.
All this in an open world built around street racing and police pursuit, while offering on foot adventures and other activites.
An other idea would allow people to either reach races by free roam or game setup menu, latter wich is used in earlies need for speed games from 1 to 4 mostly. Arcade mode would allow both racers and cops to search for racers in free roaming or set up races from the menu, without the fps sequences and other bonuses, except track racing, drift, and drag, as well as rally, added to it. Here every single car is available all the time, without having to buy them, unlike in Career mode wich would have everything I said so far.
The game would contain a singleplayer mode and a Multiplayer mode separatedly. In Multiplayer, you could do the same stuff as in singleplayer arcade and career modes, except for the addition of human players, wich you can make a team with, or compete against. As I said, the game supports loners and teamsters alike, as well as racers and cops, wich will make servers full of races and pursuits people play against each other. The best would be probably if Gamespy would provide the multiplayer.
Adding cars would be possible in a similar manner as NFS4 had, and you could also give the game different physics and graphics if you dont like it as it is. Add music too by copying them into an folder, so yea, this IS a complicated game idea, but at least its fun.
The game would support 4 +1 types of vehicles: Exotics would be the fastest type, with less acceleration, Musclecars would accelerate faster than others but handling's make them ideal for professionals, Tuners would be best at Handling but lack speed, Off Road will be made typically for their separate races, and support work. +1 means there could be a possibility of motobikes too, but I dunno. Exotics would totally lack customization, for most part thered be only performance upgrades, otherwise, no customization. Tuners and most, not exotic-like musclecars would on the other hand have said options.
The game would have all important real life licensed cars, as well as unique fictional vehicles. Real cars would have a showcase, interior, slideshow, and probably a video.
An island full of Scenic drives, beautiful cities, Cops, elitist and rebels, tuners, musclecars and exotics, that is the island wich still needs a name. Otherwise I used the same island for this game idea as my story wich also revolves around street racing and pistol gun fighting alike, so you can guess what story the game would follow. Either my fursona's Story, or a dalmatian's story on the racers side, and a Bullterrier on the Police side.
What Ideas do you have? Write me a comment on DA, FA, SF, IB and Weasyl, or PM me on Tumbler if you have one.
3D problem
Posted 12 years agoI was downloading Gmax 1.2 and started installation... supposedly... But what I see has nothing to do with Gmax at all, instead, I get crapware, like Delta Toolbar and VLC I already have... I tried looking for the temporal folder of the program, but where I was directed, only said crapware was found. IS that happening to everyone?
On the other hand, can someone show me some useful tutorials for the programs 3dsmax and gmax (the two are connected)... All I find is blabbing I dont understand at all... I wanna find something wich tells me what to press if I want to move a vertex instead of blabbing and blabbing
EDIT: Under tutorial I meant something WRITTEN and not a VIDEO. I cant see a crap in any of those tutorials so I cannot be sure I should follow them at all.
On the other hand, can someone show me some useful tutorials for the programs 3dsmax and gmax (the two are connected)... All I find is blabbing I dont understand at all... I wanna find something wich tells me what to press if I want to move a vertex instead of blabbing and blabbing
EDIT: Under tutorial I meant something WRITTEN and not a VIDEO. I cant see a crap in any of those tutorials so I cannot be sure I should follow them at all.
I love summer <3
Posted 12 years agoYes I do!!! Now I can get rid of clothes and also see girls in no more than bikini too <3
Phylosophy 2013 05 22.
Posted 12 years agoI took time to phylosophe upon what I see the bible as, but as a non-christian, I mean, as an atheistic person, let alone, child of the three virtues, unity, duty, and destiny, I try to avoid sharing my views in a intolerant and offensive manner. I do believe there are true christians out there who are not to judge others based on a black book, to convert people into their own religion, or to ditch everything because of that book, and as true christians, they are happily living their lives with harmony with the not-so-christian world they live in. The united states, while its covered in the tele-evangelist cloud to the world, is a true evidence of these christians, who I forementioned.
The school once made us to see one poorly made movie that was about a guy carrying the bible, and the bad guys were after that book because it was the key for their domination in that smal dusty town. As much as I disliked the movie hence my trauma with the Hungarian cult "Faith Church" and their terrific ways, I began to like the movie when that bad guy called the bible "a weapon aimed at the poor and desperate".
As I see it, theres truth in that word, like I was warned about the nature of the religion I was grown in. I began considering, how much types of Christianity exists, and seeing the big numbers of different branches, I looked like "why does so many church praise the same god under different rules?".
There were many churches indeed, some were just... churches, but some, well, those some had high priority on something, especially conversion, looking for potential new believers, not caring that a lot of people already are a part of some other religion, totemism, deist buddhism (the original buddhism is atheist as far I'm aware) and etc...
A lot of times I see two different churches struggle over their opinions on the bible, each understood the bible differently from the other. Its mostly from a member of the Faith Church and a Catholic believer. You know, Catholics, the oldest branch of christianity, is wich the Faith Church throws hatred against the most, other than buddhism, tho every other religion is also in their sniper rifle's scope. (And they say they support freedom of belief, makes no sense)
I was talking with
dio_dillen lately about the matter, whenever I was striked against by mother's belief directly or indirectly, who showed me a clip of "Genesis - Jesus he knows me" a parody wich seemed very accurate towards the faith churchs crimes: taking the follower's money by saying Jesus asked his children to give, and leaving hypocrites behind, while saying "touch X or Y" to heal. And the foreign christian preacher who is most similar to the Faith Church's boss dog, Alexander, was Benny Hinn, who does the exact same thing to his believers. Pat Robertson too, tho his show is differnt from Alex's and Benny's. But all three are on the same train: making christian as hypocrytcal as possible, and earning money from it. They blame innocent people for storms and other catasthropes because of just not being their christianity's followers. My conclusion that the bible can be a weapon in the wrong hands is fairly correct here. What I expect christianity to be is the fact that people become more brave and rather see behind the scary mask of something before judging. But instead, the faith Church... no... the entire system its a part of is about to make people fear more and more, to force them to think they can be rich by giving them money, and burning everything they fear. And other than other religions, look what simple things they fear: non christian music, especially ROCK, and METAL, movies with age restriction, even ones that are not only about nudity and violence, but have a lot to say wich only adults can understand, and science: wich they see as satan's book of lies. Oh, wold that be just a piece in the puzzle? then let me say: They fear a lot more, even the world itself, and they rely on the religion to calm down (they dont call it religion because its what every other religion is called). But the religion is what causes them to fear. I dont have to say more of their bullshit, because their motive is simple: Make them fear and give you their money willingly. If there's a god, then these false propthets are those who serve satan under a christian mask, corrupting the entire religion, and blinding their misguided followers, making them unsee the Great Spirit's (Sorry, but to me God is like calling a fox Fox, too simple) true christianity. Or religions that would better fill the role they wanted.
I do believe that even the Bible isnt that a holly book as they say, tho I have to admit, its important to christians. My belief? My god is not from Israel, or environs... If I have a God, is not an Israelite, not a magician who can mess with the water in his will, and not into giving us rules to live by. If theres a God, he has onry rule upon us: We are to make the miracles. Not miracles like healing as Benny does. Miracles like the technology we develop, like science we research, like the fantasy we create fiction with. We are to create the true miracles, instead of waiting for a false miracle.
And those, who accuse me of herecy, anti-godness, and tell their followers to untolerate me, are the false prophets, because they only forcfe fear upon you, instead of encouraging you to befirend me and listen to how I see the world. Freedom of belief is a wonderful thing... but should not let people to be victimized with terrorists like Alex.
The school once made us to see one poorly made movie that was about a guy carrying the bible, and the bad guys were after that book because it was the key for their domination in that smal dusty town. As much as I disliked the movie hence my trauma with the Hungarian cult "Faith Church" and their terrific ways, I began to like the movie when that bad guy called the bible "a weapon aimed at the poor and desperate".
As I see it, theres truth in that word, like I was warned about the nature of the religion I was grown in. I began considering, how much types of Christianity exists, and seeing the big numbers of different branches, I looked like "why does so many church praise the same god under different rules?".
There were many churches indeed, some were just... churches, but some, well, those some had high priority on something, especially conversion, looking for potential new believers, not caring that a lot of people already are a part of some other religion, totemism, deist buddhism (the original buddhism is atheist as far I'm aware) and etc...
A lot of times I see two different churches struggle over their opinions on the bible, each understood the bible differently from the other. Its mostly from a member of the Faith Church and a Catholic believer. You know, Catholics, the oldest branch of christianity, is wich the Faith Church throws hatred against the most, other than buddhism, tho every other religion is also in their sniper rifle's scope. (And they say they support freedom of belief, makes no sense)
I was talking with
dio_dillen lately about the matter, whenever I was striked against by mother's belief directly or indirectly, who showed me a clip of "Genesis - Jesus he knows me" a parody wich seemed very accurate towards the faith churchs crimes: taking the follower's money by saying Jesus asked his children to give, and leaving hypocrites behind, while saying "touch X or Y" to heal. And the foreign christian preacher who is most similar to the Faith Church's boss dog, Alexander, was Benny Hinn, who does the exact same thing to his believers. Pat Robertson too, tho his show is differnt from Alex's and Benny's. But all three are on the same train: making christian as hypocrytcal as possible, and earning money from it. They blame innocent people for storms and other catasthropes because of just not being their christianity's followers. My conclusion that the bible can be a weapon in the wrong hands is fairly correct here. What I expect christianity to be is the fact that people become more brave and rather see behind the scary mask of something before judging. But instead, the faith Church... no... the entire system its a part of is about to make people fear more and more, to force them to think they can be rich by giving them money, and burning everything they fear. And other than other religions, look what simple things they fear: non christian music, especially ROCK, and METAL, movies with age restriction, even ones that are not only about nudity and violence, but have a lot to say wich only adults can understand, and science: wich they see as satan's book of lies. Oh, wold that be just a piece in the puzzle? then let me say: They fear a lot more, even the world itself, and they rely on the religion to calm down (they dont call it religion because its what every other religion is called). But the religion is what causes them to fear. I dont have to say more of their bullshit, because their motive is simple: Make them fear and give you their money willingly. If there's a god, then these false propthets are those who serve satan under a christian mask, corrupting the entire religion, and blinding their misguided followers, making them unsee the Great Spirit's (Sorry, but to me God is like calling a fox Fox, too simple) true christianity. Or religions that would better fill the role they wanted.I do believe that even the Bible isnt that a holly book as they say, tho I have to admit, its important to christians. My belief? My god is not from Israel, or environs... If I have a God, is not an Israelite, not a magician who can mess with the water in his will, and not into giving us rules to live by. If theres a God, he has onry rule upon us: We are to make the miracles. Not miracles like healing as Benny does. Miracles like the technology we develop, like science we research, like the fantasy we create fiction with. We are to create the true miracles, instead of waiting for a false miracle.
And those, who accuse me of herecy, anti-godness, and tell their followers to untolerate me, are the false prophets, because they only forcfe fear upon you, instead of encouraging you to befirend me and listen to how I see the world. Freedom of belief is a wonderful thing... but should not let people to be victimized with terrorists like Alex.
Could my life get any uncertain?
Posted 12 years agoI will be short...
Today, the Psychiatrist had an appointment for me, so I had to go to her. She told me that I will have to go for a Nerve-examination and a psichologer this summer, and that I will have to take Truxal pills every evening.
At least I get something to ease the stress coming on me.
Today, the Psychiatrist had an appointment for me, so I had to go to her. She told me that I will have to go for a Nerve-examination and a psichologer this summer, and that I will have to take Truxal pills every evening.
At least I get something to ease the stress coming on me.
I am a monster... with no heart...
Posted 12 years agoI doubt that I will ever be forgiven. I did something yesterday that just hurt somebody's feelings big time. Yet again... And I wanna apologize to that somebody....
I'm so sorry for my jerk like behavior... The way I waited for you when you were away, and also, how I welcomed you... It was all rude and hurtful... But what's the point, I promised I wont ever do that again... Yet, I did...
I'm nothing but a monster... A heartless, selfish monster. Someone deserving no ones love... And no one's forgiveness... Will you forgive me?
Well, that's all... If you did not talk to me yesterday (Evening my time), then press the back button. Its only me and the person I dedicated this to.
I'm so sorry for my jerk like behavior... The way I waited for you when you were away, and also, how I welcomed you... It was all rude and hurtful... But what's the point, I promised I wont ever do that again... Yet, I did...
I'm nothing but a monster... A heartless, selfish monster. Someone deserving no ones love... And no one's forgiveness... Will you forgive me?
Well, that's all... If you did not talk to me yesterday (Evening my time), then press the back button. Its only me and the person I dedicated this to.
FREE ART
Posted 12 years agowww.furaffinity.net/journal/4481302
Trying to do something romantic
Posted 12 years agoOh, my sweet heart, elders told me:
who kills with a sword dies by a sword.
in crossfires, stressed by choices
Only fools hop for war be over...
Say, what matters, if youre innocent, but weak...
Say, what matters, in your bleeding victory.
Oh, my good lord, I cannot tell, who I am loyal to...
I'm striking your own law, if I have to kill to protect you.
Say, what matters, if youre innocent, but weak...
Say, what matters, in your bleeding vicrory.
(Dear)
Youre so far, far away, yet so very close.
I cant understand you, and I cant reach you.
Youre so far, far away, yet so very close.
You dont speak yet I feel, my heart's ansvering.
who kills with a sword dies by a sword.
in crossfires, stressed by choices
Only fools hop for war be over...
Say, what matters, if youre innocent, but weak...
Say, what matters, in your bleeding victory.
Oh, my good lord, I cannot tell, who I am loyal to...
I'm striking your own law, if I have to kill to protect you.
Say, what matters, if youre innocent, but weak...
Say, what matters, in your bleeding vicrory.
(Dear)
Youre so far, far away, yet so very close.
I cant understand you, and I cant reach you.
Youre so far, far away, yet so very close.
You dont speak yet I feel, my heart's ansvering.
Why must this become so much a miserable year?
Posted 12 years agoHere I am... Losing grandmother, having to live witb a hypocrite, and now, one of my loved ones I had plan with, had to step onto a marriage in honor of her child....
This is one worse year than 2011... If my life gets worse I swear the next person between me and my happiness shall face the god-damn court...
Cant sleep tonight... But trying
This is one worse year than 2011... If my life gets worse I swear the next person between me and my happiness shall face the god-damn court...
Cant sleep tonight... But trying
Let me see my life through...
Posted 12 years agoSo, we all got my crazy mother... Who is a part of a "church" whose goal seems to overgrow liberalism and forever ban almost everything in the universe, including science, homosexuality and their rights, personal freedom, and everything, while they allow themselves to unlawfully trade money.
I have told you two times that my mother has stepped in my sexual life's porn part, since she didn't discover the rest. I would get a girlfriend, but locally, She would manipulate her beliefs... So, my best bet is distant relationships like my dear dio_dillen and my also dear 
heatherv089 . If my mother knew I'm in love with 2+ girls tho, she wold try to force me to get rid of some, and if she knew about whet we believe, she would tell me to get rid of them... But I love them, and nothings gonna change it.
Universally, mother has problem with everything, and bases her hatred with bibles, and if someone say a single word of disagreeing, or just their own opinion, she immediately rages and says that bible say this and bible says that. Not only on sexual matters, but also, on other religions, movies, television, science, and almost everything.
For example, she picks on the Catholics being the most fake religion ever, idolizing Jesus' mother. She also speaks about Buddhists being invaders, and also, idolizing their god "Buddha", without even knowing them. Free christians? Nah, she blames them for standing in satan's name. Satanists... don't ask.. Totemists? luckily she was never heard about totemism, but she already mentioned "dreamcatchers" being full of demons who possess you and make you kill... How many nonsense about religions she never really saw...
An other example was pokemon: she burned everything related to it (To us it was simply a cartoon, we didn't know about the games) because she saw the pokemons demonic.... And she has forbid us from watching anime, and every action cartoon which had monsters or just ugly men in it.
Music... She thinks metal is the music of satanism, and tried to forbid us from listening music that doesn't relate to god in any way. There's a very few "non-praise" music that she can take, but thats very few. She sees Rap causing people adultery, and as well, techno as automatically the drug-giver music...
Music is a given art of feelings, the audio version of expressing emotion... yet she has to "teach" everything that is not god's praise, is the satan's praise. And gives a very hurtful label on all music of that kind: "Világi" which translates to worldly... This word wasn't unusual in other churches, but hearing from her, its like its a bad thing.
Games: Yea yea she doesn't care my games much, but still she labels games too. She only sees the violence in them, and swearing in cases, and as well, the monsters... ignoring the plot and everything.
Her opinion on the world is that "Satan rules everyone but you can set yourself free by believing". She only considers a believer who is a member of her church, like everyone else only says they believe, but cant prove it, and instead, are led by satan.
Also, she believes that a naked person radiates demons... that means whenever you are naked and someone sees you, you are being possessed by satan.. AGAIN... She also sees sex something that is unneeded, and unless done in marriage and to make kids, its a sin. And also, if its done homosexually, she considers it a sin, only to make herself even more sure, she comes with AIDS and other sexually spread diseases.
And, what I am really concerned about: She thinks only god may decide who is your love... you didn't see them, you never met, yet you will see their face in your dream... wouldn't that be adultery too? In once case, the church has forbid two lovers from each other because "they didnt fit", and the "pastor" told them that he will look for the right one for them because he's led by god... I don't believe in true love of that sorts that it was decided before we were born, and this is a big influence why I drop that concept from me, really far away.
Instead to me, true love lies in honestly, if you don't only say you love her... you really mean it. Yet, mom says that love comes from God.
But there's a jamming place... she often tells us something that sounds like "the only true love may be god himself, so we are only allowed to have sex with her" or something. PLeasing god or something...
I am concerned about everything she says nowadays... She judges, she criticizes, and she avoids... And "our family is in the state it is now because of the stuff we watch, listen to, or even, create"?
Also, I cant sleep because of what I watch or listen? Because She doesn't like them?
I'm afraid I am in danger with her, no matter how she wants me the best... she does it by judging, then explaining herself out of everything.
I tough Christianity is about acceptance, and being a good neighbor... yet... she does the very opposite of all of that. And she shows the marks of having an ill short of patience. Or even worse: being neurotic.
She says my sister suffers her adultery past, and that she lives with her boyfriend without even marrying... I believe its only because Her boyfriend is agressive and doesn't ever use logic.
What is the concept of a good family is perfectly mistaken by my mother as I heard from my sisters. Before my sister left our home, she used my sister to work instead of her. Kriszta, who is otherwise a better person than my mother, just still... manipulated, often complained that she didnt let her learn, because she had to do the washing, and left her no time to truly learn. Wich is what she often denies, and says that my Sister have avoided learning... I often saw her crying, and running away from home.
My father was a strong drinker. At least thats how mother described her. But his life was less concerned, because he tough outside the bible, instead of forcing any religion onto us. He knew that mother's belief often forbid the very innocent stuff, and saw us bored, with no childhood. So big bro and big sis were standing in his side often because he let us do a lot more than mother did. I didn't, and I regret it.
Mother's belief made us lie to her often, and what we watched was always a secret.
I began concerning her state asa good influence when I "tried" her church. I worried about how they talked about the world, and saw someone who often had shaking feet and arms, also, head. They also kept talking about how this world will fall and how god will destroy everything, replacing everything with gods stuff... Also called: the apocalypse. The reason I tought it was a good idea to be "chirstian" was to prevent that, and I got disappointed real quick. Yet I waited to quit until mother found out I masturbate X_X She said homosexual people so it and I built a wall between me and god, and its up to me to destroy it... I was forbid from computer because of that. I lied to her that something is "forcing" me to do it... and she said it was a demon. When I renember back to it, I regret even looking into that sect.
Then she wanted to forbid me from drawing, because all I draw i dogmen, wich she saw demonic. I didnt draw porn about them, yet, she somehow saw them demonic. And tried to violently take it away from me. When I tried to make a doggie costume, outside furry yet, she told me not to hide my human being from god.
I hoped she stops being that way, but then... conflicts after conflicts over small things... She even had the idea to leave the old house multiple times, the house I loved a lot. Then, when mom and dad suddenly divorced, My brother followed father, telling my mother she was a bad mother and disappeared from the house for long time. I must admit he had a better life until grandmother's alcoholism got over her. When I tried to shake my mother's religion off, while she was forcibly trying to make me stay in, I had the idea of following him. I loved visiting grandmother's house. It was a better place than home... Where who knows when, mother begins to attempt manipulating me into her religion back, and wanted to forbid me from computer just because of that small shit... I got rebellous over her, and when we moved in, I swore I'll be a snake from that moment on. Only thanks to my laziness I failed X_X also, I couldn't prevent her from making the judge give her guardianship. Also she promised me money, so initially, I tough we can make something out... I was stupid. She kept bothering me about her religion, not directly tho since she gave up converting me back to her cult.
Then, the first porn yelling happened... See in my early journal from 2011. Since then, she keeps speaking like she lives in an invisible world where her god gives her money. When we saw gift money, she said God gave it... while it was only some of her fellows from the cult.
Every time she found out something she told us satan is trying to convince us to be on his side... ever since her help gets into bothering...
The reason I never tell her anything, if I have a problem, is because I'm afraid of her. I'm afraid she will use it to lure me into her beliefs, or as an opportunity to say its because what we watch. I dont want to tell her about my heartache, since she is convinced its just air between my organs and my bones... She also got overly neurotic when I got Ill, she tough I was catching the H1N1, and wanted to make me fall into a financial trap.
So, I am now here, locked in the wrong family, the wrong guardian... and also... starting to deny I need this all as well.
Something is nearly shining. People from the court, and even the professors start to get suspicious over my autism, which my mother fights even now. I think. She also got a disease now, went to hospital for it, but sadly, it wasn't nature defeating her yet. At least... it seems...
I gave hopes for people helping me, and they seem supportive of me, rather than telling me that "mother wants you good" and stuff. Only few people said it. I hope mother nature will punish my mother herself, since... its a metaphor for her seemingly down falling health. She often gets upset a lot nowadays, and thats what doesnt make her good. If I see it right, she wont live too long, or wont be capable to keep her guardianship. Also, if the judge is remembered right, I am kept in a bubble all along, which doesn't use for me.
I would have some cards against her to indirectly shake her off... but I need help from people. I want to make sure to quit this circle from hell, as soon as possible. Even if I have to switch my guardian.
TL:DR:
in general, mother forces her belief upon me, and judges everyone who does something she doesn't like wich drives me Crazy.
I have told you two times that my mother has stepped in my sexual life's porn part, since she didn't discover the rest. I would get a girlfriend, but locally, She would manipulate her beliefs... So, my best bet is distant relationships like my dear
dio_dillen and my also dear 
heatherv089 . If my mother knew I'm in love with 2+ girls tho, she wold try to force me to get rid of some, and if she knew about whet we believe, she would tell me to get rid of them... But I love them, and nothings gonna change it.Universally, mother has problem with everything, and bases her hatred with bibles, and if someone say a single word of disagreeing, or just their own opinion, she immediately rages and says that bible say this and bible says that. Not only on sexual matters, but also, on other religions, movies, television, science, and almost everything.
For example, she picks on the Catholics being the most fake religion ever, idolizing Jesus' mother. She also speaks about Buddhists being invaders, and also, idolizing their god "Buddha", without even knowing them. Free christians? Nah, she blames them for standing in satan's name. Satanists... don't ask.. Totemists? luckily she was never heard about totemism, but she already mentioned "dreamcatchers" being full of demons who possess you and make you kill... How many nonsense about religions she never really saw...
An other example was pokemon: she burned everything related to it (To us it was simply a cartoon, we didn't know about the games) because she saw the pokemons demonic.... And she has forbid us from watching anime, and every action cartoon which had monsters or just ugly men in it.
Music... She thinks metal is the music of satanism, and tried to forbid us from listening music that doesn't relate to god in any way. There's a very few "non-praise" music that she can take, but thats very few. She sees Rap causing people adultery, and as well, techno as automatically the drug-giver music...
Music is a given art of feelings, the audio version of expressing emotion... yet she has to "teach" everything that is not god's praise, is the satan's praise. And gives a very hurtful label on all music of that kind: "Világi" which translates to worldly... This word wasn't unusual in other churches, but hearing from her, its like its a bad thing.
Games: Yea yea she doesn't care my games much, but still she labels games too. She only sees the violence in them, and swearing in cases, and as well, the monsters... ignoring the plot and everything.
Her opinion on the world is that "Satan rules everyone but you can set yourself free by believing". She only considers a believer who is a member of her church, like everyone else only says they believe, but cant prove it, and instead, are led by satan.
Also, she believes that a naked person radiates demons... that means whenever you are naked and someone sees you, you are being possessed by satan.. AGAIN... She also sees sex something that is unneeded, and unless done in marriage and to make kids, its a sin. And also, if its done homosexually, she considers it a sin, only to make herself even more sure, she comes with AIDS and other sexually spread diseases.
And, what I am really concerned about: She thinks only god may decide who is your love... you didn't see them, you never met, yet you will see their face in your dream... wouldn't that be adultery too? In once case, the church has forbid two lovers from each other because "they didnt fit", and the "pastor" told them that he will look for the right one for them because he's led by god... I don't believe in true love of that sorts that it was decided before we were born, and this is a big influence why I drop that concept from me, really far away.
Instead to me, true love lies in honestly, if you don't only say you love her... you really mean it. Yet, mom says that love comes from God.
But there's a jamming place... she often tells us something that sounds like "the only true love may be god himself, so we are only allowed to have sex with her" or something. PLeasing god or something...
I am concerned about everything she says nowadays... She judges, she criticizes, and she avoids... And "our family is in the state it is now because of the stuff we watch, listen to, or even, create"?
Also, I cant sleep because of what I watch or listen? Because She doesn't like them?
I'm afraid I am in danger with her, no matter how she wants me the best... she does it by judging, then explaining herself out of everything.
I tough Christianity is about acceptance, and being a good neighbor... yet... she does the very opposite of all of that. And she shows the marks of having an ill short of patience. Or even worse: being neurotic.
She says my sister suffers her adultery past, and that she lives with her boyfriend without even marrying... I believe its only because Her boyfriend is agressive and doesn't ever use logic.
What is the concept of a good family is perfectly mistaken by my mother as I heard from my sisters. Before my sister left our home, she used my sister to work instead of her. Kriszta, who is otherwise a better person than my mother, just still... manipulated, often complained that she didnt let her learn, because she had to do the washing, and left her no time to truly learn. Wich is what she often denies, and says that my Sister have avoided learning... I often saw her crying, and running away from home.
My father was a strong drinker. At least thats how mother described her. But his life was less concerned, because he tough outside the bible, instead of forcing any religion onto us. He knew that mother's belief often forbid the very innocent stuff, and saw us bored, with no childhood. So big bro and big sis were standing in his side often because he let us do a lot more than mother did. I didn't, and I regret it.
Mother's belief made us lie to her often, and what we watched was always a secret.
I began concerning her state asa good influence when I "tried" her church. I worried about how they talked about the world, and saw someone who often had shaking feet and arms, also, head. They also kept talking about how this world will fall and how god will destroy everything, replacing everything with gods stuff... Also called: the apocalypse. The reason I tought it was a good idea to be "chirstian" was to prevent that, and I got disappointed real quick. Yet I waited to quit until mother found out I masturbate X_X She said homosexual people so it and I built a wall between me and god, and its up to me to destroy it... I was forbid from computer because of that. I lied to her that something is "forcing" me to do it... and she said it was a demon. When I renember back to it, I regret even looking into that sect.
Then she wanted to forbid me from drawing, because all I draw i dogmen, wich she saw demonic. I didnt draw porn about them, yet, she somehow saw them demonic. And tried to violently take it away from me. When I tried to make a doggie costume, outside furry yet, she told me not to hide my human being from god.
I hoped she stops being that way, but then... conflicts after conflicts over small things... She even had the idea to leave the old house multiple times, the house I loved a lot. Then, when mom and dad suddenly divorced, My brother followed father, telling my mother she was a bad mother and disappeared from the house for long time. I must admit he had a better life until grandmother's alcoholism got over her. When I tried to shake my mother's religion off, while she was forcibly trying to make me stay in, I had the idea of following him. I loved visiting grandmother's house. It was a better place than home... Where who knows when, mother begins to attempt manipulating me into her religion back, and wanted to forbid me from computer just because of that small shit... I got rebellous over her, and when we moved in, I swore I'll be a snake from that moment on. Only thanks to my laziness I failed X_X also, I couldn't prevent her from making the judge give her guardianship. Also she promised me money, so initially, I tough we can make something out... I was stupid. She kept bothering me about her religion, not directly tho since she gave up converting me back to her cult.
Then, the first porn yelling happened... See in my early journal from 2011. Since then, she keeps speaking like she lives in an invisible world where her god gives her money. When we saw gift money, she said God gave it... while it was only some of her fellows from the cult.
Every time she found out something she told us satan is trying to convince us to be on his side... ever since her help gets into bothering...
The reason I never tell her anything, if I have a problem, is because I'm afraid of her. I'm afraid she will use it to lure me into her beliefs, or as an opportunity to say its because what we watch. I dont want to tell her about my heartache, since she is convinced its just air between my organs and my bones... She also got overly neurotic when I got Ill, she tough I was catching the H1N1, and wanted to make me fall into a financial trap.
So, I am now here, locked in the wrong family, the wrong guardian... and also... starting to deny I need this all as well.
Something is nearly shining. People from the court, and even the professors start to get suspicious over my autism, which my mother fights even now. I think. She also got a disease now, went to hospital for it, but sadly, it wasn't nature defeating her yet. At least... it seems...
I gave hopes for people helping me, and they seem supportive of me, rather than telling me that "mother wants you good" and stuff. Only few people said it. I hope mother nature will punish my mother herself, since... its a metaphor for her seemingly down falling health. She often gets upset a lot nowadays, and thats what doesnt make her good. If I see it right, she wont live too long, or wont be capable to keep her guardianship. Also, if the judge is remembered right, I am kept in a bubble all along, which doesn't use for me.
I would have some cards against her to indirectly shake her off... but I need help from people. I want to make sure to quit this circle from hell, as soon as possible. Even if I have to switch my guardian.
TL:DR:
in general, mother forces her belief upon me, and judges everyone who does something she doesn't like wich drives me Crazy.
Mother did it again, aka the reason I'll get stroke X_X
Posted 12 years agoIf you renember my Journal from 2 years ago, then you know My mother threatened by removing internet from the house if she catches me with porn again. It didnt happen, but she caugh me drawing such, and threatened me again. And now, she even forced me tgo destroy the drawings ;_; My beautiful porns... the only drawings I have reason to respect, and said the same stuf again.... This is bullshit...
I'm trying to wait for a great emancipation chance... but well all I get is headache, heartache, stomachache, agressive nervousness... I'm getting closer to either lose my brain and do something I will regret, or just Die from STROKE....
I swear I WILL LOOK FOR THAT JUDGE who put her in charge, tell everything my mom never does... and then hope they tell that IM NOT A FUCKING CHRISTIAN X_X wich means i will never be her good boy ever... and she has no right to decide what morals I support or take part in.... as long as I dont get stroke...
I'm trying to wait for a great emancipation chance... but well all I get is headache, heartache, stomachache, agressive nervousness... I'm getting closer to either lose my brain and do something I will regret, or just Die from STROKE....
I swear I WILL LOOK FOR THAT JUDGE who put her in charge, tell everything my mom never does... and then hope they tell that IM NOT A FUCKING CHRISTIAN X_X wich means i will never be her good boy ever... and she has no right to decide what morals I support or take part in.... as long as I dont get stroke...
And it arrived
Posted 13 years agoValentines day... What's the point of this day if you love your birlfriend/boyfriend everyday?
For singles, its just an other reason to be jerk, and theyre totally right. Some might even commit suicide :( Because some couples just keep pushing it to their face everyday anyway that theyre in love and care no sufferer X_X
For me, I actually am physically single, but spiritually, I am bonded to special girls, who I already drew in my picture. Theyre my distant relationships or just crushes, and I didnt even draw all girls I'm in love with. Thats right, in the late time, some FA furs successfully made me fall in crush with them just by their fursonas.... So my point is complicated.
The reason I'm considered single is that none of them was been met yet. Renember: My singleness is physical and it hurts still, but thanks for those special girls, there are times I can ignore it <3 And thats something that makes V-day even more pointless.
Love is for everyday, renember and be happy every single day possible.
For singles, its just an other reason to be jerk, and theyre totally right. Some might even commit suicide :( Because some couples just keep pushing it to their face everyday anyway that theyre in love and care no sufferer X_X
For me, I actually am physically single, but spiritually, I am bonded to special girls, who I already drew in my picture. Theyre my distant relationships or just crushes, and I didnt even draw all girls I'm in love with. Thats right, in the late time, some FA furs successfully made me fall in crush with them just by their fursonas.... So my point is complicated.
The reason I'm considered single is that none of them was been met yet. Renember: My singleness is physical and it hurts still, but thanks for those special girls, there are times I can ignore it <3 And thats something that makes V-day even more pointless.
Love is for everyday, renember and be happy every single day possible.
I am in hospital and the docs said I only have days
Posted 13 years agoOkay I lied. The truth is that my mother is in Hospital. Its not likely to be the same reason as my Grandmother, so, I dont say she will die, because she wont. Tho she hada high blood pressure and today she came home crying. I know she threatened me to take internet away if she finds out about my porn habits again... But still, the crisis is crisis.
Why is this time always the one I rant?
Posted 13 years agoI dont want to live on this planet anymore... Fuck my life. I'm not in the mood to live today.
Help those who are in need, and you shall be helped back.
Posted 13 years ago
blackmagickfoxRest in Peace, Grandmother
Posted 13 years ago Listening to: death
Reading: death
Watching: death
Playing: death
Eating: death
Drinking: death
Its true, after getting multiple strokes (Brain Bleeding) my paternal grandmother passed out. We shall renember her as the master chef of the family, even if she was being a little annoying lately, especially about alcohol. Well, I guess alcohol did a lot to bring her to this fate.
Similarly, My maternal Grandfather did die, apparently, by alcohol overdose, so now its ironic. Why? Renember that my paternal grandmother is the one who died just now? And my maternal grandfather also died (He died in the moment I was born) so now I got just a couple of grandparents, a grandmother and a grandfather.
We owe one hour silence in the memory of the dead. And salute for her positive efforts and forgive the wrongdone she did.
Reading: death
Watching: death
Playing: death
Eating: death
Drinking: death
Its true, after getting multiple strokes (Brain Bleeding) my paternal grandmother passed out. We shall renember her as the master chef of the family, even if she was being a little annoying lately, especially about alcohol. Well, I guess alcohol did a lot to bring her to this fate.
Similarly, My maternal Grandfather did die, apparently, by alcohol overdose, so now its ironic. Why? Renember that my paternal grandmother is the one who died just now? And my maternal grandfather also died (He died in the moment I was born) so now I got just a couple of grandparents, a grandmother and a grandfather.
We owe one hour silence in the memory of the dead. And salute for her positive efforts and forgive the wrongdone she did.
Barka do free art she sweet
Posted 13 years agowww.furaffinity.net/journal/4295384/
Amazing
Amazing
Barka do free art she sweet
Posted 13 years agowww.furaffinity.net/journal/4295384/
Amazing
Amazing
One Vision... One Purpuse...
Posted 13 years agoThe first season was at least something I could affiliate with, those were so much more fun than Season 2 and Season 3 with its rare sucesses in me. I don't know why but since Lauren left Hasbro, or the MLP animation group, I dont feel like keeping in touch with the cartoon... much anyway...
Spiritually the MLP doesn't attract me that much...
And I preferred discord to be pure evil... I mean HE IS DISCORD FOR SATANS SAKE D:«
I also missed those times when the big humanity consisted of more than a small fragile equine. Yes I'm talking about not only furries, but also the general love towrds animals and their human counterparts: Anthros.
Thats one reason I am a furry and not a brony. Because my vision, unlike the bronies I met in Hunbrony so far, wants humanity to become on the image rather the way the furry/anthro fandom pictures it, rather than a single species of animalhood. While it might seem to be complicated to you, the anthros in my fantasy are the members of humanity... in a form I began dreaming it. To me, what we furries do are an evolution of human, assimilating genetics of the most apporiate creatures the surround it. No confusion there. They call each other human horse and human dog, human fox, human roo, human coon, etc etc etc.... just like you call me hungarian, and I call you german, american, japanese or anything. Tho they only call each other by human -instert animalsign here- when they first meet and know no shit about each other... shit...
Thats why I prefer furs... Te vision of a whole new humanity I had even before I had any idea what a furry is.
Because a humanity of million breeds is far more fun than a humanity of a single breed... And ultimately stronger when united.
The same reason why Furry holds all animals into its humanity keeps me here, as humanity may never be one nation.
Thats why also my millin breed humans not only can refer to each other as human dog/cat/horse/deer/kangaroo/etc, but also hungarian, english,american,german,australian,polish,etc... Because peace does not worth BOREDOM. Because if there was only one naiton, I'd kill myself being bored not seeing different cultures, that fit the locals. I'd kill myself if everything was ultimately available in tons everywhere.
I prefer seeing unique food everywhere I go, everywhere I travel, Everywhere I go to taste something new. And so I prefer seeing someone as a horse after seeing others as kangaroos, wolves, cows, and sergals.
Theres already a reason why our humanity is surrounded by other species.
The other reason why I got bored of ponies, and my brony era was short, is, yea.... Other than what I said, It hurts me that brones feel similar to a specific human groups, that leave the human complex to become a separate humanity". Lots of people do it, Nazis already tried it, separating themselves from humanity to create their own. Despite hitler was in fact black haired, he dreamed of a humanity that consist of blonde people with blue eyes and german language. Sometimes several bronies said that they want to live in a world with Ponies... What the similarity is: They both totalise a single thing in their separatism... To me, a brony shall only be someone who likes the G4 cartoon and protests for its long existence... to my brony friends: dont make it an addiction... not for the very reason of those who are betraying the furry fandom by hurting you in any way.
The purpose of furries to me is similar what the purpose of NOD was in Command and Conquer: Because both of us has a vision of a fun future... that might rather give advantage for us as a species. The reason I joined this fandom was this vision, and with its help, I even perfected my vision.. yea no more starlyasis. human stays human, only its appearance changes... into what we call anthros. into what I call human animal...
And I believe, human will be once like our fursonas, and furry characters... Not excluding ponies and equines...
One day.... Humanity will be furry...
The grand transformation awaits to grab humanity and fuse it with all animals that exist on this very earth, to give us advantages, more intelligence, more possibilities... and to save us....
My vision in furry fandom is... a new humanity... a strong humanity... an intelligent humanity... and yet... animal like humanity XD
Spiritually the MLP doesn't attract me that much...
And I preferred discord to be pure evil... I mean HE IS DISCORD FOR SATANS SAKE D:«
I also missed those times when the big humanity consisted of more than a small fragile equine. Yes I'm talking about not only furries, but also the general love towrds animals and their human counterparts: Anthros.
Thats one reason I am a furry and not a brony. Because my vision, unlike the bronies I met in Hunbrony so far, wants humanity to become on the image rather the way the furry/anthro fandom pictures it, rather than a single species of animalhood. While it might seem to be complicated to you, the anthros in my fantasy are the members of humanity... in a form I began dreaming it. To me, what we furries do are an evolution of human, assimilating genetics of the most apporiate creatures the surround it. No confusion there. They call each other human horse and human dog, human fox, human roo, human coon, etc etc etc.... just like you call me hungarian, and I call you german, american, japanese or anything. Tho they only call each other by human -instert animalsign here- when they first meet and know no shit about each other... shit...
Thats why I prefer furs... Te vision of a whole new humanity I had even before I had any idea what a furry is.
Because a humanity of million breeds is far more fun than a humanity of a single breed... And ultimately stronger when united.
The same reason why Furry holds all animals into its humanity keeps me here, as humanity may never be one nation.
Thats why also my millin breed humans not only can refer to each other as human dog/cat/horse/deer/kangaroo/etc, but also hungarian, english,american,german,australian,polish,etc... Because peace does not worth BOREDOM. Because if there was only one naiton, I'd kill myself being bored not seeing different cultures, that fit the locals. I'd kill myself if everything was ultimately available in tons everywhere.
I prefer seeing unique food everywhere I go, everywhere I travel, Everywhere I go to taste something new. And so I prefer seeing someone as a horse after seeing others as kangaroos, wolves, cows, and sergals.
Theres already a reason why our humanity is surrounded by other species.
The other reason why I got bored of ponies, and my brony era was short, is, yea.... Other than what I said, It hurts me that brones feel similar to a specific human groups, that leave the human complex to become a separate humanity". Lots of people do it, Nazis already tried it, separating themselves from humanity to create their own. Despite hitler was in fact black haired, he dreamed of a humanity that consist of blonde people with blue eyes and german language. Sometimes several bronies said that they want to live in a world with Ponies... What the similarity is: They both totalise a single thing in their separatism... To me, a brony shall only be someone who likes the G4 cartoon and protests for its long existence... to my brony friends: dont make it an addiction... not for the very reason of those who are betraying the furry fandom by hurting you in any way.
The purpose of furries to me is similar what the purpose of NOD was in Command and Conquer: Because both of us has a vision of a fun future... that might rather give advantage for us as a species. The reason I joined this fandom was this vision, and with its help, I even perfected my vision.. yea no more starlyasis. human stays human, only its appearance changes... into what we call anthros. into what I call human animal...
And I believe, human will be once like our fursonas, and furry characters... Not excluding ponies and equines...
One day.... Humanity will be furry...
The grand transformation awaits to grab humanity and fuse it with all animals that exist on this very earth, to give us advantages, more intelligence, more possibilities... and to save us....
My vision in furry fandom is... a new humanity... a strong humanity... an intelligent humanity... and yet... animal like humanity XD
Aspirted to Romance
Posted 13 years agoWell yea, long years ago while playing sims I was geeky enough to pick one of the aspirations in that since I saw people in real life have similar matters to.
Anyway, who thinks that the Romance aspiration fits me best?
I think i have a lots of traits that I recognised myself in when I saw them in that game... still... I wanna know if people think I'm a romance person, and of course, I'll need have a by person experience with my beloved ones.
What my second aspiration would be is adventure of course. Like the old travellers did, its just beats me how I get the money to travel in nowadays world and how to find it at all, and of course, my overprotective family is an issue. What I'm curious about is: Who says I had the best choice despite it was pretty much geeky to base it on relation of real life and sims...
Anyway, who thinks that the Romance aspiration fits me best?
I think i have a lots of traits that I recognised myself in when I saw them in that game... still... I wanna know if people think I'm a romance person, and of course, I'll need have a by person experience with my beloved ones.
What my second aspiration would be is adventure of course. Like the old travellers did, its just beats me how I get the money to travel in nowadays world and how to find it at all, and of course, my overprotective family is an issue. What I'm curious about is: Who says I had the best choice despite it was pretty much geeky to base it on relation of real life and sims...
If you comment on this journal I'll...
Posted 13 years ago1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your Journal
Type 'moneybags' in the comment for a lol XD
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beatboxgal
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your Journal
Type 'moneybags' in the comment for a lol XD
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beatboxgalI conquered a yard for me on Weasyl
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Retro
Posted 13 years agoPistike odamegy az apjához:
- Apa milyenek voltak a 80-as évek?
- Áh, a jó 80-as évek, finom ételek, jó italok, szép nők...
- Miért most mi van?
- Gyors-kaja, csapvíz, anyád...
Steve visits his father and asks him:
- Dad, what was it like in the 80's?
- Aahhh, the good 80's, tasty food, good drinks, beautiful women.
- Why, what's now?
- Fast food, tap-water, and your mother.
- Apa milyenek voltak a 80-as évek?
- Áh, a jó 80-as évek, finom ételek, jó italok, szép nők...
- Miért most mi van?
- Gyors-kaja, csapvíz, anyád...
Steve visits his father and asks him:
- Dad, what was it like in the 80's?
- Aahhh, the good 80's, tasty food, good drinks, beautiful women.
- Why, what's now?
- Fast food, tap-water, and your mother.
