Wow, i never thought id be able to get back into this account, i lost the password for it ages ago.. But the Nice FA people helped me get my account back... not that i need it. I just felt i should make a post to where had gone to.. ( since people had been asking )

You can find my other ( slightly newer ) account here
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/unstablecrow/

Still drawing, an tinkering with stuff .. :)

I play the GW2, but im on the EU servers, and looking for freinds to play with..im abit lonely on my own ;.;

Right now im on Desolation server, My character name is Brimble Asha. I dont mind changeing servers if anyone else is playing on EU side of GW2

doubt you really noticed it, but ive been away from furry for a while. i needed a break since i was getting alittle peeved with some furrys attitudes. but anyway.. not to dwell on bad things. im back for the time being, ill prolly be taking my furry avs down from my vendor in northstar, im not really intrested in makingt avies anymore..ive moved onto other means to get my pennys in. through my avs will still be available on the SL market webpage.

here be some of my links if your intrested.

Soundcloud - what im listening to
http://soundcloud.com/adrienneb

My SL market page
https://marketplace.secondlife.com/stores/671

My youtube page
http://www.youtube.com/user/shorty191?feature=mhee

Rant time! - Seems I suck at trying to make a point.. let me try an clarify..

I hear quiet frequently on how furry culture is accepting of all walks of life.. But for the past few days i have chosen to be a spider, i walk around second life in my spider avie (mainly in furry sims) and i havent seen much of this tolerance .. i have been getting alot negative comments on my choice of fursona..

*edit* I didnt mean everyone was being nasty towards me.. but unforuntaly the negative comments did outweigh the positive ones here.

I understand people don't like spiders... I have had people asking me to take my avie off because they fear spiders.. personally im afraid of cats, horses an cows, but i don't go around telling people to change who they are, because there animal choice is something im afraid of..
If furs come across another Fur who is armed to the teeth in various deadly weapon.. they prolly would seem edgy and cool.. through this armed furry is much more dangerous then my spider character.. Being kill you as soon as look at you type furry is fine! we tolerate all sorts! How about a feral fox..sucking off a multi cocked herm dragon with dick nipples an 5 butts? awesome! furrys love this stuff! but a spider avatar?? KILL IT WITH FIRE!!

*edit* By this i was trying to show that, through furrys are into some strange an wonderful things.. some of it very extreme, they would find sombody dressed as a spider more shocking then the above mentioned.

Through all this hate for spiders irks me, im also amused by it.. part of the fun of being a spider is i enjoy the reactions i get in this fursona .. and ill admit it isnt always bad.

*edit* im not pointing fingers or attacking furs in general, i was trying to give something to think about.. personally ...as ive said above i find the comments amuseing.. but i still find them to be quiet rude of them to make nasty remarks. From this post.. i just felt the need to vent alittle.. and in some small way hope next time they keep there negative comments to themselves if they should ever come across a fursona that is strange an even scary to them.. like i said, it dosnt bother me personaly.. but the next person might not be so understanding.

*gets off soap box*

Selling a slightly used soap box! one careful owner..

Im taking commission work, since i need the money.
People who commission will need to take into account im drawing your character/whatevers in my toony style, this might sound wierd to some of you, but i have had grumblers that have commissioned me then decided they didnt like there character done in my art style.

I wont draw yiff, its to complicated an id charge more for this anyway. other wise im pretty open to what I draw.

Full character in colour £25 / $39 < at last exchange rate check
Full character in black & white £15 / $23 < at last exchange rate check

Payment must be in Cheque form. or since i use second life, you can pay me in linden.

If intrested just send me a note

Im out walking the dogs with my mum, we are in a field with a small ditch, that has a bridge across it, mum an dogs have already crossed the bridge, i notice a large swarm of wasps buzzing around under the bridge " there a wasps nest here " i call " it be fine , just cross it " says mum, i decide to cross quickkly as i can. i put one foot on bridge an the wasps instently clamp into my legs .. i bolt the other way arms flailing wildly .. D:
good thing i not allergic to wasp stings .. but it could of been worse i ended up with 6 or 7 stings to my legs ..pretty painful but my legs have gone numb anyway so thats helped.

oh.. and we saw a fox :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqT2uOa1-d0&feature=related

One of my favorite songs from the Brave Little Toaster.

I can't take this kinda pressure
I must confess one more dusty road
Would be just a road too long

Worthless...

I just can't, I just can't
I just can't seem to get started!
Don't have the heart to live in the fast lane
All that has passed and gone

Worthless!
And there ain't nothing you can do about it
Worthless!
Pardon me while I panic!
Worthless! Worthless! Worthless!

I come from KC Missouri
And I got my kicks out of Route 66
Every truck stop from Butte to MO
Motown to Old Alabama
From Texarkana and east of Savanna from Tampa to Old Kokomo

Worthless...

I once ran the Indy 500
I must confess I'm impressed how I did
And I wonder how close that I came
Now I get a sinking sensation
I was the top of the line, out of sight out of mind
So much for fortune and fame

Once took a Texan to a wedding
Once took a Texan to a wedding
He kept forgetting, his loneliness letting
His thoughts turn to home and we turned

I took a man to a graveyard
I beg your pardon, it's quite hard enough
Just living with the stuff I have learned

Worthless...

Once drove a surfer to sunset
There were bikinis and buns there were weenies
Fellini, just couldn't forget

Pico, lets go up to Zuma
Pico, lets go up to Zuma
From Zuma to Yuma the rumor was I had a hand in the lay of the land
Get up and go hit the highway

I worked on a reservation
Who would believe they would love me and leave on a bus back to old Santa Fe?

Once in an Indian nation
I took the kids on the skids with a hope
He was happy until I heard him say
"You're worthless"

Im always reminded of this song when i pass a scrap yard. Its very depressing, it makes me think of all the appliences ive taken for granted, and just thrown away for somthing new and ahiny .. and my beloved old car has been replaced for somthing new and shiny. i miss my old car :(


http://www.adrienne191.dragonadopte.....m/dragon_61957

I need to get back into SL more an stop playing Morpgs hehe :P

i thinking of getting a commission av done in SL but i dont know who to ask, i feel abit silly asking for a av comiission when i can make avatars myself. i just want to see how my thunder av would look like if made by sombody else.









ooh i has a dragon adopter thingy.. help my draggy grow :D pwease?


http://www.adrienne191.dragonadopte.....m/dragon_61957

Old Jim Henson film (short) - The tale of the bunnie picnic

Pt1 - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=hQkNEVoOmOA
Pt2 - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=i8quBD1wR0I&feature=related
Pt3 - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=zdKCnERh8RQ&feature=related
Pt4 - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=YFnkcRqbJCw&feature=related
Pt5 - http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=2PpQFDhecxw&feature=related

Enjoy ^^

One of my fav old PS1 games.. but i am troubled
ive been trying to get my paws on the jammer lammy songs (soundtrack) does anyone know where i can find them? Ive serched the internet but cant seem to find anyone selling or a active torrent (bad)

im also looking for the Vib ribbon songs to.. can anyone help me on theese? *pwetty pwease*

Life is good? well life is getting better.. im happy, im not stressed.. or in a emotional mess (at the moment) hehe.
I really need to start drawing again.. my scanner isnt working right at the moment so i cant scan my piccies in.. i could draw by mouse, but my drawing would be quite scruffy an wobbly .. i just might do it anyway, is good for a giggle.
After hearing about it for so long i finally bought Portal, im enjoying it through im stuck in level 15 at the moment. when buying the game the men behind the counter kept grinning at me.. i get nervous going into vidio games shops, i get stared at ..im a girl who likes vidio games.. is this so werid? .. no i dont need any help chooseing a game.. o0

I play PC an DS games, i havent got any consoles.. id like to get a Wii somtime.
the game i play the most is animal crossing on my DS ^^

a friend showed me this website called Muxtape - you upload your music to for other people to listen to (12 songs max)- here my page
http://adrienne191.muxtape.com/
i have mixed tastes ^^; - Rock/metal an techno

Im in a emotional mess.. sobbing, anxiety, being irratable, snappy an bad temperd with people .. my depression is causeing me alot of trouble of late.
But it is my own fault.. i ran out of my anti depressents by mistake .. i wasnt keeping track of how many tablets i had left. the Pharmacy wont give me anymore of my meds because apparently i orderd them to soon.. ive been out of my tablets for 2 weeks now how can i have orderd them to soon?
im so tierd of being like this.. everything is getting to me.. an so pished off with everything.
ill stop emo-ing .. whineing isnt going to help.

on a good note i made a new music vidio on youtube .. just somthing i like to do for fun . have a look if you want
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4AdaNq0zzs4



Im currently in SL .. an sombody is walking around with clacking heels.. it is really the most irratateing sound .. ill be taking my chainsaw to there feet if they dont turn the sound off there shoes *growls*

I saw a rinestone cowboy yesturday .. well he was dresses as a cowboy an coverd in bling .. bling is another of my sl pet hates .. why cant people understand it dosnt look good .. is very tacky

another sl pet hate is short arms.. i see alot of people around with ridiculously short arms.. they look deformed.. i want to tell them to stand in fron of a mirrior an put your hands down by your sides an look where your fingertips reach.. not above your hips -.- they reach your thighs..

im ranting here.. i know ^^; ive been in sl over 3 years.. o0; so i have picked up alot of pet hates. i dont go around people to change there looks. even if i dont like them. they just irk me an leave me wondering.. why they doing that .. 0,0

1.Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? Santa! or sombody with a very good reason to wake me up at 2AM .. an how they reach my window o0
2. Your boss tells you they will give you a $20/hr raise if you will do your job naked, do you? yes, since i wash dishes.. it wouldnt bother me.. i tend to splash water all over the kitchen so it help me not going home with soaking clothes again.
3. Your boy/girlfriends ex calls and needs a tire change, do you let them go help? No, i dont know how to change a tire.. i had a flat last night an my dad had to come an help. plus my boyfreind is a car mechanic.. he be the one they need to phone.
4. Ever seen a ghost? Yes. quite a few. to much to write about that subject here. i will gladly tell to anyone who wishes to know about my ghost stories, just send me a note
5. Do you love anyone? Yes
6. A reason you would move to Iceland? because they wont let me live in Sainsburys
7. A place you have lived that you miss? Scarborough .. but i wouldnt live there again.
8. A person that you miss? I miss both my Grandma an Grandad
9. A band/group you thought was cool when you were little? Michael Jackson
10. You have a nightmare, who is the first person you think to tell? Nobody, somtimes i tell my mum.
11. Do you wanna have kids before you are 30? Yes, *kicks boyfriend to hurry up an get his butt here*
12. A memory from high school? Lineing up at the nurses office to get our injections.
13. Ever had a crush on one of your friends parents? No
14. Silliest thing you have done? ive done many silly things.. uuh.. how about crashing my scooter into the wall at my previous work place, i had to continue an serve customers all bloodied an bruised. bike was ok through.
15. Do you look more like your mom or your dad? My Mum
16. Something you have always wanted to do? Ride in a hot air balloon
17. If you could be with one person who would it be? My boyfreind.
18. Where you would like to be in 10 years? In My own house, married. raising a family, hopefully.
19. Something you learned about life this year? Life isnt so bad, and to stop worrying so much
20. What do you want for your birthday? i dunno.. i like surprises
21. Have you said I love you to anyone today? No.. but im gonna
22. Last item you bought yourself? Toy rabbit.
23. What did you have for breakfast? Fruit an fiber ceral
24. Name a celeb you think is hot? Brad Pitt on fire an crispy
25. What is your ring tone? my phone goes brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
because it jst vibrates i have to set to silent since the ring tones always made me jump when my phone rang.
26. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? varies.. i have trouble sleeping some nights.
27. Have you ever been tied up? No
28. What do you wish you were doing right now? Putting on my new boots - that havent arrived yet >:(
29. Last time you witnessed a fight? Yesturday, a bunch of us where play fighting in Second life.
30. What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank? cant rember.. i cant drink theese days since im on anti-depressents that make me feel dizzy an faint when i drinks alchahol
31. Where do you rent your movies? I dont .. my dad rents of amazon. but i dont watch them.
32. Ever had a black eye? yes, when i had my eyebrow peirced my eye swelled an went black, the piercing droped out a month later taking a chunk of my eyebrow with it .. got a nice scar now. i wouldnt get pierced again.
33. Last people u went out with? My Mum .. this morning.. to walk the dogs :3 if you mean like a date.. uhhh many many years ago . I met my boyfreind online so im not sure if you can say we 'went out'
34. Name three places you would like to travel to? Switziland,japan,south pole
35. Is there anyone you want to date at the moment? No, i already have sombody.
36. Favorite food? At the moment my fav food is chips with salad cream
37. Silk or lace? Silk
38. Last board/card game you played? i played Monopoly in second life .. does that count?
39. What do you think of Brad Pitt? isnt he getting old..
40. Name a friend you have the most in common with? Sam (college freind)
41. What color are your toenails? various colours - one or 2 are white a chalky since i have fungy infections in them *shame*
42. Last person you talked with on the phone? probelly sombody from my work place.
43. Do you own anything with a skull on it? Yes.
44. Have you traveled to Europe? many many times ..
45. Last movie you watched? the emperors new groove
46. If you could be anything in the world what would it be? Me but as a furry.. maybe a rabbit
47. Last sin committed? sloth, gluttany.. :3

List pinched from Hare

Im getting better, there is a posative start.. ive been on anti-depressents for about a year or less, i do feel better , my mood has lifted an im not crying as much as i used to do. Through i do hate taking all theese meds, they are bitter nasty pills, full of yuck.. i am bad i dont take the correct amount im supposed to.. i take less then what the doctor wants me to... i feel totally tierd an zoned out on my current dosage, i dont want to get anymore tranquilized.
Im not working in a resturant anymore, i am now a cleaner in a nursing home, an it is a much better job, less stressful an nice an peacful, which is a blessing for me.You have to have a strong stomach, you deal with quite abit of smelly yucky things, the elderly in the nurseing home are poorly in heath or state of mind, so they need help with hygiene - fortunatly thats not my job, i just scuttle around.. washing dishes, vacuming, emptying bins, dusting.

I was pondering today, why i find it so tricky to talk to other furrys, i have more human freinds then furry freinds.. Maybe because of experinces i have had in the past with furs, i worry about coming across wrong, or giving them the wrong idea..
when im with human freinds an i give them hugs, they know im doing it out of freindship an its not a invatation to jump in my pants.. With some furs ive met through.. they abit TO touchy feely .. maybe im acting wrong an it seems im leading them on? do males have this trouble? or is it just cos im female..

anyway on an upward..
alittle good news, im a mentor in second life now, i can kick newbies into shape :p
i dont actully get greif for being a furry from the new folks, i quite a few compliments on my apperance .. i get more greif from furs then i do humans *shrugs*

I am a skunk in second life at the moment, i am.. getting some negativity for being a skunk .. its not bad stuff . people trying to make fun of me cos of the smell thing.. i just give them a good spray >:P
anyway.. sleep now.. my bed awaits !

I dont think anyone reads this journal, but anyway..

Ive been on sick leave from work, since around may-june time, I had finally got myself to a doctor to sort out my depression - ive had it since i was a teenager, i thought i could handle it but its got worse an worse over time.
I do feel better in myself, more calm then i used to be.. but i still don't feel im over my depression yet, i get good days an bad days, somtimes feeling very small an lonely. I guess i need to learn to cope, an get on with everyday things now.
I think my anxeity is now getting to me in dream form, ive noticed my dreams are more about things i worry about an such, i frequently wake somtimes an i am completly confused, takes alittle time before my grip on reality returns.

I was in a london hotel recently, one night was quite freaky, im sure i must of been dreaming.. in my dream? i was in the hotel bed trying to sleep, but i kept opening my eyes an looking at a mirror on the door on the room i was in, an see'ing my reflection, i also felt sombody stroking my hair an felt a weight as if sombody had sat down next to me, at this point i freaked an shouted out, jolting into full consiousness, funny thing is i dont know why i thought there was a mirrior on the door since there was no mirror there. .. wierd dreams.

I must go soon, im starting a new college course today - graphic media an communtication .
im very nervous, im probelly going to be the oldest one in the class to. i better get my stuff together - wish me luck.

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Thankyou for the kind words, i appriciate it :)

oh i got alittle link here of my youtube account if you wish to view my - very poor music vidios
lol.. they do give you a view of my Second life Avatars through ^.^
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=shorty191

im trying to keep a live journal.. not very good at updateing it through.
http://shorty3t.livejournal.com/

I have been building a new avatar in SL - was ment to be a raven.. but ive just been calling it a black bird.. since i havent really achived the sinster raven look..

You: does it look raven-ish
Freind: well with loads o cuteness added.
You: lol
Freind: the one I would wanna squeeze
You: raven with added cute.. good selling title

you can see my freind sporting the raven av in my SL pics
http://www.sluniverse.com/pics/Defa.....ne%20Belvedere
Top an Tails :3

think i trapped a nerve.. or im just getting old .. *creeks*

Still here, i know im quiet..ive always been like that. Times are good, im not suffering from depression as much anymore. My little second life buisness has picked up since the release of my new Avatars - so im happy

Ill have some more snaps to show you soon of what i been doing with my Mouse avatar ^^

Ive recently bought myself a Nintendo DS lite.. i love playing games :D in my spare time in uslly on sl or on my ds.. still waiting for mmy animal crossing game to arrive ..it been 2 weeks since i orderd it *shakes paw* i do hope it hasnt gotten lost in the post.

anyhoo im off to see what my sister is burning *sniff sniffs*

ooh an here are my sl snaps on snapzilla if you wish to see :)


http://www.sluniverse.com/pics/Defa.....ne%20Belvedere

A happyer 3T ^^

i been playing around with a vidio program an made a short clips of me dancing in second life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9O1Itf-Kq7o



http://www.sluniverse.com/pics/Defa.....enne+Belvedere

linky to my Second life snapshots ..go there..says I!

i need a hug, im all down an depressed at the moment, even through i got no reason to be. i guess i just put it down to my monthlys .. im on holiday from work soon *bliss* i need a holiday..work gets me down the most.
wish i could spend my time drawing an playing on second life.. but i got evil bills to pay.. which reminds me.. i got to go to the bank, an get more petrol for my car 0.0

vvroooooom!

Dam you.. how adicted to this song am i know .. so much i bought the album .. lovely happy musics :D im all bouncy
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/birdsbees

in other news...
I went to the download festival 2006 - had a great time.. but was sick for weeks when i came back..still havent got over the sun burns i recived

Me no like heat wave :( *sits half nekid with fan on full blast*

end of news.. cos im boreing

More flash toons... did i mention i like flash toons?

Its great to be in love ^^
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/307916

last journal entry was very long .. got on my nerves that it took up nearly the whole screen.
anyway.. been serching over FA for previous trade pics.. i havent done a trade in ages..i kinda miss doing them, but im also very slow with them.. so if i was going to take it up again.. i hope its with a very patiant person 0.0

why not..

A - Available?: No <3
A - Age: 26
A - Annoyance: Customers

B - Best Friend?: (s) Flash, Sech, Laz
B - Bar: a man walked into a bar an said 'ouch!'
B - Birthday?: Aug 22

C - Crush: yes..
C - Car: Pink fiat cinquento(sp?)
C - Cat: noooo!

D - Dead : not yet..
D - Dad's Name: Colin
D - Dog: Yes, collie dog called Flo

E - Easiest person to talk to: Mum
E - Eggs: scrambled
E - Email: gmail

F - Favorite color?: pink..orange.. no black!..red? ummm... blue..green 0.0
F - Food: I eat it!
F - Foreign Slang: i only speak english an bad english..
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears
G - God: where?!.. is he looking? >,>
G - Good Times: Messing an playing with my freinds an Loved ones.

H - Hair Color: Redish brown
H - Height: 5ft 2
H - Happy: *joy*

I - Ice Cream: chocolate
I - Idol: Vital idol?

J - Jewelry: ear rings.. necklace when i can be botherd to wear one
J - Job: Cook (blerg)
J - Jokes: 2 fish in a tank.. one turns to the other an says ' how do you drive this thing then?'

K - Kids: no
K - Karate: i know kung fu!
K - Kung Fu: I lied!

L - Love: <3 yes <3
L - Longest Car Ride: to work? umm pass
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: chapstick ! cherry flavour :9

M - Milk Flavor: Chocolate
M - Movie Last Watched: um.. Hellboy
M - Money you have on you: contents of tip jar.. to lazy to count it... over �20 roughly..

N - Number of Siblings: 1 sister
N - Northern or Southern: Northern
N - Name: my real name? thats a secret ;p

O - One Wish: for my boyfreind to be here now!
O - One Phobia?: Blood +.+
O - Otter Pop: whatta?

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Married
P - Part of your appearance you like best: My hair
P - Part of your Personality you like best: my naive nature ( i cling to it.. through the internet wounds at it every day )

Q - Quick or Slow?: As a snail!
Q - Queer or Straight?: Straight
Q - Queen or King?: im the king of the castle!

R - Reason to smile: Boyfreind
R - Reality TV Show: aagh! i dont watch much tv .. an i hate reality shows the most
R - Right or Left: right

S - Song Last Heard: Suger - system of a down
S - Series: i used to watch CSI .. suppose that counts.

T - Time you woke up: 5am (hate early shifts)
T - Time Now: 6:23pm
T - Time for bed: Midnight

U - Unknown: ingnorance is bliss
U - Unicorns: ugly one horned mule! (legend)
U - You are?: Im not here o0;

V - Vegetable you hate: Tomatoes
V - Vegetable you love: Potatoes
V - View on Politics: somthing that happens to other people

W- Worst Habit: saying lol ............lol
W- Where are you going to travel next: the bathroom.. might stop for a visit at the kitchen first..
W- What's up?: nothing much.. and you?

X - X-Rays: bones!
X - X-Rated: im inoccent! 0.0
X - XYZ: next time wont you sing with me?

Y - Year you were born: 79
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: yes

Z - Zoo Animal: Nessy
Z - Zodiac: Leo
Z - Zoolander?: pfft!

http://www.sluniverse.com/pics/Defa.....ne%20Belvedere

go seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

They stole my name!!!

http://www.3t.com/

3T is in no way assoiated with this boy bad! dammit! >,<

i feel violated..*sniff*

and for who asked me before.. My other name is Shorty.. because im short 0.0
and it was the favourite character of mine when i played the game bust a groove

3T is a abbriation of my old name Three Tailz..witch is actuly a very very old character of mine ..kinda of a green dragon with pink hair (and three tails of course) 0.0..i may draw her again

alls good. nothing to report.. so.. here are some cute animals

http://mfrost.typepad.com/cute_over.....ets/index.html