https://gifsound.com/?gif=https://d.....h-grade%2Bcute.gif&v=aC6s9gwkgT4 hope you enjoy, personally i feel fuzzy and happy and full of joy after watching this awhile ;w; eee!! <3 dis iz perfect! TuT

HTML code thingy list :3
https://forums.furaffinity.net/misc.php?do=bbcode

so obviously i'm dead? :O then how to hell i am still typing this? XD YOU tell me.

NO, I AM NOT DEAD, i'm keeping a pause from making art and one could even say i'm on an hiatus, aka i'm keeping a vacation from all the art and stuff to organize my personal life, which is why i'm also moving to another house/apartment in next 6 months so i don't have to deal with these people who keep draggin me down. that's all kthankbai :3

Because simply, life just seems to get worse day by day. Not That, but the shocking reality that it is in the end. I don't wonder that you people don't read my journals nor even inbox me, that's ok. each at their style, right? in my case i'd get back into drawing but no inspiration for it, i've been making music every here and there, and keep up my blog up, but i rarely get any questions there nor people comment my stuff in here... i like loneliness but not that much i'd constantly like to be there, but if that's my ''faith'' in this world, then let it be. i can only affect to my own life, that's why it sucks so bad, all shit have caused mostly not by me. :T but i tell you all a lesson about life, 'cus listen up; LIFE'S NOT. FAIR. that's it.. :/ what can ya do? i can't keep fighting forever and even if i could whats the point in it? I die in the end just like everyone else? if im being in solitude then i can die to today and no one will miss me. ¬_¬ Oh and best part of that is being last of it's race, is that eventually there's none left. BUT HEY :D at least i don't get bored... much..

TUMBLR (where i am admin): www.ask-miss-moonbutt.tumblr.com
Personal blog (not much in use): www.ask-cassandra-vixeness-stuffz.tumblr.com

ALSO GAMERS AHOY! yer landlobber's Lad has steam! argh! :D
steam: masterhunter666

...yay, almost everywhere my body hurts, i got mental pain still... and facebook and etc are acting up.. -_- i have no clue what to do with my life anymore... school goes under the bench, along with my friendships and etc... i probably say read my journal i posted before this.. it pretty much sums it all up again... im in this constant stress and under pressure, so any ideas how to ease my fears? except ''kill yourself'' because i cant.. not yet.. so yeah, ALL HELP APPRECIATED! PLEASE GIVE COMMENT, I'D APPRECIATE IT.

I'm gonna keep it little bit longer this time since, well 1. I'm not mood to deal with shit and 2. probably none of you reads this anyways(?).

So because my situation of real life, i had time to think about my life and after all i ended by thinking what life is actually worth of? Whats the further meaning of it. In passed 3 years i have learned that being yourself and honest, makes you lose most of things you cared about, friends, family, and so on, for example. Yet Lies are bad. So obviously being fake doesn't make you good either, so whats the point? I should change because someone else thinks so? I should be fake/poser? No. No! NO!! I've had lots of hate messages and bad reputation, because of few people being ignorant and started to talk shit behind my back all the time, so in case you don't belong to these ''ignorant'' people, congrats. no i was NOT sarcastic.

In my case, I APPRECIATE FEEDBACK, both positive and negative but moment someone(s) starts to just do nothing but to make your, already bad situation, worse you know it's not feedback, its being a bully. I've been myself and never let my friends, or family, down. But moment they all just stop talking to you and instead start to to talk shit behind your back for no reason but me being myself and like always been, you know it's had enough. Since i got out from childhouse thingy (because my mom is alcoholic) just near when i turned 16 everything has gone towards, s***. So during Most of my friends have turned out hypocrite, backstabbers. My so called ''family'', has gone even worse by mom being drunk every week (i wonder where she gets all the money), step dad being violent dumb**** AND top of that, i don't know about my real dad at all, except he is using drugs.

My grand mom is already 65 and she has signs of ageing (bit paranoid and living in her own world) and my grandfather (who always was there to support me) died when i was 15, so yeah. I've had (no) time to think about anything else than school, what doesn't change damn thing because, i care about everything else around me (family and etc.) Yet my best friend who i have known 8 years by now, is still sticking with me and my other good friend is leaving at this week because his school and new home he have just got are not near by he has to move to 200 km away, and with what money vocational school students get we wont be able to see each other at least next 3 years. What comes to my Best Friend, he has girlfriend, his school goes well, and yet he thinks his life sucks. Okay i admit that everyone has their own trouble, but sometimes trouble and choices aren't made by you. That's the moment when you just... Stop caring about everything and everyone. Somethings just ...Goes around, and around, and Around.

So why should i? I think i should be better off alone. I tell you all, that in the end, life is just long way to die. Suicide isn't cowardice, it's just easy way out from this hell we call life what seems to be just full of pain and misery, so i guess you know now what i mean. You might think im not in pain, but you don't know that my pain will carry beyond my grave, why life should be better today than it was at yesterday? Maybe some of you sing along with the shadows, sing along with insanity, sing a song to bring about the end of your resistance to the simple fact that you're dead. What did you have to believe in? What can you say that hasn't already been said? What makes you any different than me, other than the bullets inside of your head? A rousing chorus of your defeat, your actions unrealistic, transform into another statistic. Did you think that it would change anything, this piece of metal inside of your brain? Did you really think you have to die to learn that things are the same on the other side?
One Death, One Try, One life, One cry, One shot, And you'll die. In the Head, In the center of the eyes. One Gun, One Try, My God. One step, One try, On the edge Do you really want to try? One rope, One try, One tempt, One cry, I cant cope, I no longer want this life. Are your sure? Do you really want to Die?

Fact: One death every forty seconds.

..but i just say, i dont care! :D
http://files.gamebanana.com/img/ico.....588c08d951.gif

here: https://www.f-list.net/c/rainbowheart/

I'm talking now so you hear me liars
This is a storm created to wake dreamers
Living the electric dream
Traveling through the storm
Speaking with the devil's teeth
Making the black air blow

I will twist the thorn
The thorn in your side
Please, just don't move
And enjoy this pain, die

You just told me, no matter if you love me
Come just twist the thorn

It's your fate, finding the medicine to kill your pain
It's the scorn, fighting the whole world since you were born
It's your fate, kill the beast twisting the thorn in your side
It's the scorn, fighting the whole world since you were born

You just told me, no matter if you love me
Come just twist the thorn
You just told me no matter if you hate me
Come just twist the thorn

It's your fate, finding the medicine to kill your pain
It's the scorn, fighting the whole world since you were born
It's your fate, kill the beast twisting the thorn in your side
It's the scorn, fighting the whole world since you were born

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WVQ-L-uXMM4

...go on what? that im not mood to draw, i havent been mood draw in months again, just stuck in Second Life and playing PSP.. and my ps3 broke up... soooo well fml.. i just say if my phone breaks up because its acting laggy and freezes and so on... i totally will lost control because im tired to shit crappy nowaday technology that breaks all the time ¬.¬ just FUCK. IT. also after new year i managed to quit smoking yay for that.. like anyone cares? (?_?) and havent drank alcohol in 3 months sooooo yeah.. im fucking stressed and anxious and lots of stuff going on.. also i'll have interrogation about last spring stuff when i got robbed by some mainstream fgts randomly, so i wait to go to interrogation to police station soon, also its my first time so im bit nervous.. and yeah.. beginning of this year havent started well.. :T oh.. well.. i guess suffering is, better than suicide http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnbrZ6Klny4 <-- song describes my feelings pretty well.. :/

please feel free to comment or something, since i'd like to answer any questions you might have thank you :)

Icons, Headshots and alternatively A SKETCH so feel free to check it out ;)
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5272357/

you'll love her art and this raffle ^w^
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5258444/

PLEASE READ!
i have this auction going on but since no one seems to be interested to bid.. im thinking to bury this character: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12047140/ so if someone wants to buy this or TRADE THIS or something feel free to comment on the pic, thank you.

Winner of my first raffle is...

 biowolf420

Congrats to the winner! :3
Thank you all! :) I'll keep more raffles in the future if you furs are interested. ^_^

Please, raffle winner to inbox me details of the picture and ask what i can do and what not. Thank You! :)

Yes, Raffle by 6master6hunter6 (me), and there is ONLY ONE HOUR LEFT, before i choose the winner randomly.
Raffle: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12037007/

Drawing, Art and my FurAffinity overall.

As long as I've drawed anthro art i haven't had this bad art block, inspiration loss, i have mood to draw but i have no ideas or skill.
All my requests, art-trades.. etc.. will be completely freezed unless someone gives me good tutorial to draw em with GIMP, i had been using MS Paint but only because using pen there is simple and easy.
About my music, don't except me to do it lot, i do it very rarely.

So im very sorry for you all that i'm not able to do your requests, i haven't found any good tutorials nor anybody who could help me. Also my current life situation is very bad. Like if someone cares or reads my journals. If you wonder what is wrong just inbox to me anyways if here is people who draw anthro, furry, etc. art and use Gimp/SAI or those programs better programs than Ms Paint, could please do tutorial of painting tools and how to use em and give me link to it (it can be a stream too). Thank you. :)

here is ten reasons why.. (answers are welcome)
1. i cant downgrade my account from premium to basic (it should be possible at all times)
2. i cant log in to inworld and they say my account is freezed
3. my billing is correct and my bank allows it
4. i try to make billing and yet it wont accept it
5. i cant use paypal either, even tough it should be possible
6. i still i have 2,800LS but it wont allow me to use to pay
7. everytime i try to do stuff it gives me error messages
8. grid is ONLINE, even tough there should be updates
9. most of my friends can log in but have trouble
10. my account is freezed but they dont accept my payment to get it unfreezed.

TELL WHY THE FUCK I SHOULD NOT LIST THAT TO GAMES_OF_HATE-list?!
11. obviously microsoft is shit... as always.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JUJ8GXTX4wE

Ext!ze - Hellektrostar (Lyrics)


''I need a beat, I need it… Give me a fuckin’ beat!''

I am the one who tattoos your brain; I am the one who pierces your soul. You are forever my fuckin’ sound slave.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who fists your wife; I am the one who feeds your mind.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who plays with you; I am the one who votes for you.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who spends your money, I am the one who sells you shit. You have to eat all my dejections.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who fucks your wife; I am the one who fucks you too.
You have to enjoy your perfect devotion.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who tattoos your brain; I am the one who pierces your soul.
You are forever my fuckin’ sound slave. You have to suck my amazing great beat. It’s now a part of your scarred body.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

I am the one who fucks, fucks, fucks your wife.
I had a dream, I was a Hellektrostar.

please check my gallery old pictures too thank you :3

"Remember, remember, the Fifth of November, the Gunpowder Treason and Plot. I know of no reason why the Gunpowder Treason should ever be forgot..."

My heart will be locked to a chest and i'm the only one holding the key,
No one shall take it from there ever again, it must kept away from me,
It's bringer of pain in my soul and in my veins, where cold blood runs,
No faint-hearted are welcome in to my world of pain and misery!

Poem © Me

Steam free money... WAIT A SECOND... friend in steam sent me this link http://steam-wallet.com/index.php?id=230103 and said its possible to get free money... yeah.. right... -.- this is fake.. 1. steam DOESNT give free money 2. YOU SHOULD SUPPORT IT AND NOT EA OR MICROSOFT! >_< why people are so stupid... this is scam and nothing more! arggghhh i hate these things!