ok so some of yall still message here which i am not here anymore i moved account I moved to

I moved to

So i am sorry for not being on much today and replying fast i been mostly at the hospital with my grandmother they don't know why she keeps blacking out so they keeping her overnight.

So if i moved accounts who would follow me?

And good news i am not suspended from work anymore but they wrote me up and not the guy that started the issues.

So i am looking for another job all because i was suspended for defending myself at work.

Last night a guy that works at work was getting mad because i questioned him why he going around telling a guy i don't like him and starting issues with me and him. the guy was cool about it but the one guy starting the issue he got mad when i confronted him about it. he started calling me a snitch and saying i talk about everybody and basically saying i report everybody. I am a Crew trainer i always report things that happen to the restaurant manager and general manager. It's part of my job description. Well the district manager texted me today saying i was reported pushing the guy and starting the issue yet i never did start anything. I held my arm out in front of me to keep the guy away from me and he came forward and pushed my hand and said i pushed him when i never did. Everybody on the crew was targeting me saying i did push him.

I am as of right now suspended and so i am trying to find a job one i feel safe in and feel secure in and also feel wanted in and not disrespected.

So yeah my job is terrible i feel i am about to lose it because always reporting problems with others to the gm or rm of the store and well they always coming back to me saying i am the problem i guess i am i always am the problem everywhere. i am not wanted anywhere or anything

So i am below a quarter tank of gas almost empty i got no money don't get paid till tuesday next week if anybody can please donate $40.00 i will pay you back on payday please i don't like asking but i can't work if i can't get there.

So today is my birthday and also the 4th of july so hope yall take care and stay safe too don't drink and drive either but yeah gonna spend it alone maybe shoot off my own fireworks.

seems everytime somebody says they are friend to me they never show it, there actions never are friend related, there words never say friendship, or anything.

Seems everytime i get bullied or beat down these so called people that says they are friends just sits by and laughs and never does anything........

What is a friend anymore why does people say friends but always treat you like you are nothing but dirt? why does everybody always make you feel like you have nothing to live for anymore or anything?

I just want to be a person not bullied not treated like trash want friends want a family i just want to be somebody something more someone that has a life instead of somebody that is always beat up, torn down, and just thrown to the curb like trash that i am.

So coming up on my birthday gonna be spending it alone if anybody wants to chat with me yall can i got skype, discord, telegram, and kik so feel free to chat on any of those just ask for the id's but yes july 4th is my birthday which is wednesday but i do not ask for gifts at all this is just to let yall know i will be turning 27.

i haven't ever had a party nor gifts and so i figured i wouldn't ask for them anyways.

Look i aint perfect i aint good etc. i am tired of people bringing up my past and targetting me with it. i put the past behind me and try to move on but people keep bringing it up and bringing back my suicidal thoughts.... people on here, irl, and even other things keep brining my past up. yes i been in jail yes i been to prison no i did not do anything yes i was wrongfully accussed no i aint some stupid criminal. just shut up ok......

I want to move on with my life i want to be a guy that has children starts a family and just have friends. i want to be more then what people say about me and what paper might say....

Please just leave me alone i'm so tempted to leave everything and just leave this world because of the past as well.

So i am tired of being alone and offering up a date with Aaron i can' draw stopped drawing after one of my drawings i did do but i will be willing to buy art with one of my favorite artists but just really wanting a mate somebody to be there with me and love me even if it means having to buy art together i'd try and do that.

So i give up with my life.... i am worthless, no friends hardly except feels like only two that cares anymore.... i am done trying to live and be just a bank or trapped or even just in a box that can't get out of..... i am not wanting to hurt others or be hurt anymore. i'm tired of being bullied, hurt, in pain, tired of seeing my life falling apart.... i want to live to be better then what i am to just be something in life to be loved to be happy to smile to just do something...... my life is just hell my job sucks i only get enough to just survive off of and never more to even get what i need with. my family just seems to not care about me anymore ever since i started working especially. i never get asked or told about get togethers i always have to ask them and then when go to them i get turned into the black sheep and just sitting in a corner alone. I am basically put to the side in everything my family does and made as if i wasn't a son or sister or even part of the family. all my life i grew up bullied even to the point i wanted to kill myself and eve now i still think about it....

I want to just be loved to have a family to have friends i can hug and cry on there shoulder if i needed. i am so tired of being alone in pain and hurting. my heart has been broken to much from deaths to life to even just feeling pain from rejection.... i just want to be somebody to someone that cares about me and that wants me a fat ugly guy that is 26 and still a virgin that can't obviously live his life right as a friend........... Guess it is to much to just ask for though

Fucking tired of trying to find a girlfriend and running into so many fake ass retards that want to be somebody else instead of there true self.... this is why i am single i am cautious i check who i am talking to before i go all in with somebody but being single, and a virgin for 26 years will be 27 july 4th it leaves me thinking i wont ever have one before i die.... i want a family i want a girl i can wake up to fix breakfast for hug, cuddle, and just love and be there for her and have kids with but i see myself not having that... all i am getting is fucking hurt by all these people thinking they can be somebody else but ending up hurting me when i get attached to them then i get catfished by everybody i talk to....


online dating fucking sucks it never works out for anybody.

So i am sorry this is more like a vent/life journal.....

i am tired of being alone, no friends to hang with, nobody to hug, nobody to cuddle love etc. i am just so tired to the point my depression is killing me over it. i spent my whole life being alone away from others because i was always bullied and i just want it to stop....

i know i am fat i know i am ugly, guess can say stupid too and all as well.... i'm to the point of breaking hardcore right now.....

So come payday on tuesday of next week i want to buy art of a new sona one to match my personality, my looks, my life basically and will pay a good bit for it but only artists that are trusted sadly i don't want to be scammed again like i have been. so if anybody knows one that would be willing to do that please let me know.

So i haven't done journal in awhile so i figured i'd do one about my life...

Life:
So i basically am dealing with alot in life can't sleep, can't make enough money, not being able to find a good job but i am trying to live the best i can.....

Work:
So i am a crew trainer at work, but i can't do anything they wont let me train anybody they wont even let me correct those doing wrong either. i am being lied to by a two faced bitch of a manager that wants to act like my friend and then go behind my back to ruin me. a new rm came to work and i told that manager i didn't like her she went to her behind my back and told her i didn't like her.

Today i ended up almost getting in a fight while in the back of the store because some guy had a story twisted with words and he is black but he said where he comes from confronting somebody is fighting words... i been to prison before if i wanted to confront him i would have done it but i never said that nor wanted it. I was told by the General manager that that manager told him a lie and all and got him against me so from this day forward i am done i seriously am depressed everyday of my life, and this makes it worse when people want to keep doing this to me and trying to ruin me when i do nothing wrong.....

I'm sorry i am not the guy yall want me to be, i am no friend, i can't seem to just work or make friends either, all i get is backstabbing fools that want to ruin others lifes, i am not racist but this is why i do not trust black people at all they are to much of a two faced race that thinks about fighting, or themselves never about others it seems except there race.... sorry all but i think i am done.....

So i been out of power for the last three days finally got it back but it fried the fridge and so lost food due to that but also gotta fix the lines going to the house already bought the stuff to fix it but i am dealing with no money for food now due to fixing stuff around the house and having to buy firewood. Sometimes i love snow but i do not like the disasters that come with the snow.....

Please keep me in prayers if can.....

So i woke up today and had a notification from my phone from microsoft saying my email was compromised and the email i use for my bank as well. well ended up somehow they got ahold of my paypal and sent $200.00 to somebody who i don't know. funny thing is this was a person in russia doing this as well.... Why can't russia just stop it luckily paypal flagged it and sent the money back but afraid it might happen again....

So i been part of the furry fandom for 15 years yes i was only 11 when i started the furry fandom..... I just feel like i am always ignored by others in the fandom, rejected by alot others as well. I wanted to be a furry because when i first joined the fandom everybody was nice, social, respectful and would go out to meet other furries and be who you wanna be.......... Now all i see is people being hateful, not caring, no ore social furs, and seems just to many wanting there furs to be the best and not being creative or caring i mean yes your fur should be a great fur but your sona should reflect who you are and not who you want to be but who you need to be.... That was the whole reason i went through many sonas till i finally found the one for me but seems once you find who you are in furry form seems others just shrug you off...


I grow tired of being alone, silent, and tired of cowarding down when i see other furs changing to what the fandom is not to be. Why can furs not get along with other furs?, why do yall have to be rude?, why do you not have a heart for others furs that need help or even just care for them?....... Why has the fandom changed so much from what it use to be?

I am thinking about leaving because i feel so alone here and i been to one con and still i felt like i was nothing even there.......

I am very sad right now my dog is well over 10 years and i don't know what's wrong if she was bit by a snake or if she is dieing from old age, she acts like she is siezuring outside and she stands but her back legs shake :'( i am basically tore up right now.....

So my county in georgia will be right where the eye will be going through in georgia the northwest part of georgia though. if i am not on much or post another journal till late just know that the power may be out of some damage happened around my area. please keep me in prayers.

So i realized something i spent more money on helping others in harvey then i did myself but it led to me being broke only got a $1.00 in savings xD but i am happy though i spent my money on helping those needing it i am trying to sell some stuff though from cleaning out my basement, i got a drum set, and some old super nintendo games, also alot of red hat books for computer programming.

Ok so i don't do these often but a friend of mine is still stuck with the flooding in texas and trying to take care of her kid and horses but without money to do anything with. I ask that yall please help her out by donating to Enfysrhainnon96[at]gmail.com at paypal and please do not give as business do the friends payment for the money sent when sent with business will not get there till days after or not even at all...

I ask that you care and please help my friend out.

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