So I stumbled upon this article recently.

http://shine.yahoo.com/anderson-coo.....256&fb_action_types=news.reads&fb_source=other_multiline&code=AQAcn9Is49dOlmIVUY4bAKkUGrAGLV0_946b_dujp5NDiaKYDbjGUyISWF4LFJvBDA8ulRah4_ttMzLzrf_fEjGXRKtFT56lzYtP8zq8rY8baWS9SZnSnhOpEOYMuZgURquUN4B1-CnTh5EauJIIWIevR71HKjakJDUJhvGF3kM9NYiv5TgLGIl8T_E5JHLTM6E#_=_

TLDR; It's about this girl who has Kleine-LevinSyndrome, She's technically asleep but gets up and does normal stuff like going to
the bathroom, eating, talking, ect. When she "wakes up" there's no recollection. Interesting catch though, she acts very childlike
in the videos of her in that state.

Makes me think of people who talk about having regressive episodes with their fursona's to an extreme measure. Like.. there are
times when the little side just kinda springs up, you turn into a toddler for a bit, and come back. I dunno, I found it a little
interesting. :)

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Hey guys, just posting a journal here about all my projects and what I'm currently doing about them.

-3 peice set of Washington native birds (watercolor)
-3 Art's of Gem with mommy or little fusky (watercolor, marker, C Pencil)
-2 of Adilor (undecided Medium)
- a billion of Circus Peanut and Foffle Waffle (undecided)
-3D Model's of various animals (Maya, PS)
-Poses with random models from posemaniacs (Charcoal, Pencil)
-Forest/mountain landscapes (C pencil, Watercolor)
-Car's VW bug, Subaru (Marker, watercolor)
-Rendering's of my new turtle and sheep characters (undecided)


What am I doing about all this?
-Drinking coffee
-Procrastination
-Video games
-Sleeping
-Doot doot doot
-Nothing

:I

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I thought I would get bored of it and never listen to it again after listening for so long.

But no.

nonono.

It's always different music or awesome music.

IT'S PRETTY MUCH ON 24/7.

NEVER QUIET EVER AGAIN. TOO MUCH GOOD STUFF.

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For tiny turtle.

I'm tired of my mediocre (less than that actually) coloring skills. You are all now required to force me to render most things
to color now. IT WILL HAPPEN. I SHA'LL PREVAIL. I WANT MOAR COLORS FOR MY MARKERS.

*Buzzes around the room as a busy bee*

So I'm dirty and odd sometimes, and out of this comes some very interesting pages of smut that I'm unsure about posting sometimes. Would some of you be interested in such drawings?

Some (the ones I deem too fetishy will be kept personal) would be posted to a separate adult account for your viewing pleasure.

SO FAIR WARNING. THIS JOURNAL CONTAINS MUCH NONESENSE, including things like diapers, babyfur fantasies, and the like.

DON'T READ IT IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT.

(Kitsuno, If you read this, feel free to note me anything I forgot, I have a terrible memory)

So some of you may know that I took a trip to Texas recently to visit  kitsuno and  jeffy. Both of these people I love dearly and I pushed hard to go see them. During the con, there were many moments of being little or treating others, But that's another story. I'll be focusing on the details of what happened directly after the convention.

Me and kitsuno drove back with  graypaw to Austin where we dropped her off on sunday night. When we got back to kitsuno's house, I was pretty much geared up and ready to go full on cub after having it be promised to me the entire weekend. I was not disappointed. :) It started out with a good shaving which kitsy helped me with. I do hate body hair, and really little girls shouldn't be carrying razors around with them, so it was nice to have some help. Generally I miss a few spots anyways, so this time we were able to get it perfect.

Next came the oh so wonderful changing time, which was facilitated by kitsy's other mommy. She is an incredibly sweet woman and the reason why kitsy lives there in the first place. They have a full nursery at their disposal, complete with high chairs, crib, changing table, toys and.. well.. anything that a lil one could ever want. I'm a huge fan of cloth padding, so after I was settled onto the table (little white steps helped, so adorable!) She brought out a couple different types. I chose two (one plain to go under a blue looney tunes one) and both were situated on me more than comfortably. I think my favorite part was having my legs lifted in the same fashion as a cub's might, curled up to my chest and rocked back to slide the padding under. Once it was fully snug I really felt the thickness. I must find where they got their diapers because these were beyond soft, almost like having an absorbent pillow down there. Plastic pants completed the change and I was put into a pink T-shirt with my romper, which is plastic lined. :)

I think what I looked forward to most was the high chair. It was this big wooden thing that was built very sturdily. I don't think I was able to take my eyes away from it since day one and to actually be helped into it was quite the fun experience. It was tall enough where even my long legs couldn't touch the ground and considering everything else, you could say the feeling of being very, very little was quite strong at that moment. To my left was a book case filled with books and toys of all kinds of varieties. This was taken to my advantage and at every chance I got I grabbed some to play with (kitsuno put them back though, telling me I was naughty and it’s time to eat instead). Then came time to actually eat, which I was again helped with. A harness and bib had been wrapped around my chest to add to the helplessness while kitsuno fed me pizza by hand. Guh.. Wish I was back there now. >.>

Anywho, not too much happened after I was let down. Mostly just watching movies, cuddling and such. At bedtime we fell asleep in the crib listening to nursery tunes from the mobile above us, so relaxing in every way. <3

The only other think I can think of to note would be the morning after. Waking up in a thick cloth diaper and being told I was being taken to a toy store after a change was.. well.. probably one of the best moments ever. After said change I rolled around on the floor and read Winnie the pooh in the crib while kitsy took a shower.

Really, this weekend was splendid, and I want to once again thank  kitsuno for everything that happened. He really is way too good to me.

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Okay, so some people are a little confused it seems on my 2 fursona's. Whether it be in RP's or just not knowing that I have multiple of them. So here's a quick run down.

I am both a Red Panda AND a Fusky.

Red Panda = Motherly / Dominant / Adult. If I'm ever in a situation where I'm taking care of cubs or playing with others of age, I
am pretty much guaranteed to be a Red Panda.

Fusky = Subby / Puppyish / Babby. If I'm acting like a toddler, being cared for, or in a submissive situation, I'm pretty much
guaranteed to be a Fusky.

Abbey PSA fer you silly willies. I also mainly refer to myself as a fusky in real life (around furries mind you) since I seem to act more like a puppy than a panda. :P

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Heeeeey, I'm gunna be streaming me finishing paintings and some sketches. Come join if you're really that bored.

http://www.livestream.com/abigaletele

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Okay. Okay. Okay. It's fine if you don't like cub porn. I get that and I'm not here to debate it. But god-damn, I just encountered
the WORST argument near this topic. Someone had commissioned a piece of their cub character AS AN ADULT for a sexual
situation. Someone came in and COMPLAINED about how it's still cub porn because the commissioner is just going to fantasize
about that same situation where his character is a cub again.

:|

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Hey, so I thought it would be a cool idea that while I'm doing my 3D Modeling and animation homework that I would stream it.
You guys could see one of the programs and some of the process's to how video game models are made and such. I'm just
curious if any of you would be interested at all?
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Remember seeing that extra perfect drawing that made you feel all depressed that you could never draw that? Lemme let you in
on a little secret. Behind that awesomely posed drawing is a hundred sketch's trying to get it 'just right'. If you want to do
something well, instead of being happy with the first sketch, draw it again. Maybe again! Write notes about the wrong angling
of something or if your legs are too thick or what have you. Suddenly, you'll see yourself improving at a rate much faster than
before.

I'm sitting here and on ONE page I have FILLED it with the same expression over and over. I constantly note all of my failings and
instead of saying "I can't get it right", I keep them in mind. It helps me fix an issue in my sketch BEFORE it even happens. An ya
know what? It's okay if you can't get it right that day. Walk away, take a breather. Our brains tend to reach a limit where you
just don't progress as fast, and after a rest, you will pick right back up. :)

Jussa random thought about my process anyways.

ARHT, YAY!
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Those Texas furries got me where they want me, I'm officially going to TFF.  kitsuno is doing so much for me that I literally
can't express my gratitude. Also, yes,  jeffy has been waiting since I was 16 for me to bring my poofy ass down there, so
FINALLY it's happening. :)

Arrival and Departure:
Sometime thursday and sometime monday.

Staying at:
Hotel, Tff2012 Cub Hub

Mode of Transportation:
Walking, carpooling

Room Share:
kitsuno kitsune41 pollypuma merageshu jeffy graypaw adellindens yahtzee kilionthefallenangel shoogy hexaod

Table Share:
Nope, my art is too fantastically dismal for such things.

Major Plans at the Con:
Nothing in particular really. I'll be on call. I have a cell phone. Will probably have cubs all over me at some point and I know a certain kit who probably wont leave my side. :)

Artwork / commissions:
I'm barely going as is, I'll make my own stuff.

Fursuit(s):
I don't have one, maybe I'll borrow one.

Attending Parties:
If there are any. :)

How best to find me:
Bouncey Trans-girl. I got long blonde locks and I'm generally wearing darkish attire. I'll have my badges too. :)

Stage Performance:
Got nothing to show off. D:

Drink:
Socially, I dislike getting drunk however. :/

Smoke:
Depends on what kinda smoke. Cig's I'll take a puff or two.

Hugs:
Go for it, I'll probably ask questions afterwards and be shy and blushy but I like hugs. :)

Talk:
I'm all for it!

What is your gender?
Female with the proper pronouns please. :)

How old are you?
19

Can I touch you?
Well, ya see, that really depends on where. >.>

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Well. I guess. Non alcoholic if we are in public. :P

Can I give you lots of money?
Yes <3

Can I snuggle with you?
Ask first! I'm pretty open but sometimes I'm a lil busy or not int he mood. >.>

How tall are you?
5'11"-6'0''

You look pissed off out of suit. Can I come up to you?
Sure, con drama happens but having another person distract me can be nice.

Are you nice?
Generally. Mommyfurs tend to want to get along.

Are you cliquey?
Nope. In fact, during cons I generally wander from group to group unless someone has set in stones plans with me.

Can I stalk you?
I hear pepper spray is strong this time of year...

I'd rather you just talk to me.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
... come up to me? Say Abbey! or something. I dunno, get my attention!

Can I take a picture of ya?
Ask first please.

I'm looking for species OR clothing I'm not used to drawing. Which means if you have an interesting style of character or some neat clothes
I'll draw you for free. Anything drawn will be sketchy stuff like I've been posting lately, but you get a free whatever drawing from just posting
a ref sheet in the little comment boxes below. Uncommon's are what I'm lookin' for, but if you're unsure, than just post your ref. Never hurts to
try, and I might get a good resource out of it. :)

For species, just add your Ref sheet. Specific stance, clothes, ect, is optional.

As for clothing, find a pic of your fursona in the garment or post a ref sheet and a picture of the article of clothing.

:Note: This does not gaurentee you art, only a chance in the fact that your
fursona might spark enough interest for me to try and pen it.

Dragons are common but welcome, don't have enough practice with scalies.

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So, when I'm drawing a picture of someone, I like to warm up with a few sketches of them. If I ever did commissions, would you guys ever want
those sketches? Like, as a free bonus as a result of commissioning me anything? Especially painted stuff, since I actually do one or two previews
in my sketchbook before The whole thing is figured out and colored.

Just a thought.

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I can't properly ba-humbug with so many adorable face's saying "merry Christmas".

So, Merry Christmas to all.

And to all a goodnight. :D
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No, seriously. If I ever want a smile and giggle and bounce to a beat, this is it.

quite possibly the most professional sounding, babyfur friendly song ever. XD



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Hahaaaa..... Art final tomorrow. Excuse me while I sip energy drinks AND DON'T SLEEP TONIGHT BECAUSE FUCK IT I CAN.

And I need to study for math tomorrow at some point in between napping and cursing at myself for procrastinating things
I knew I should have gotten done hours/days/weeks ago. Bad habits i need to break # 1.

Also, Sorry for not posting anything. I have a sketchbook beginning to become full and my dad likes to be home now almost
all the time. Which means the basement is no longer a welcome place. Which means the computer hooked up to the scanner
is occupied. You see where I'm going with this. :/

So basically. yeah. that's it man. Gunna get working... maybe one more video.. I don't have to watch it, it's just background noise.

>.>;

It's a mundane task, going to pee. Most of you get up, go to the bathroom, and come back. It's simple, easy, and done without a single thought as to how
it should be done; Unless you're wearing diapers or something. But it's a big procedure for me, for a couple reasons. When you're out and about in public
while wearing clothing that isn't what is normally defined for your gender, you get stares. It's normal and I don't care as much as my old self-conscious
self used to. However, when your in an intimate setting, like the restroom, it's ridiculously embarrassing to have people stare or make faces or what have
you.

So now I'm stuck. I COULD use the one family restroom that's located... fuck, I don't even know. So plan B works pretty good. Walk up 4 stories of stairs
and use the unoccupied (most of the time) part of my tech building. Excersize... yaaay.

But now comes problem two. Suppose there is an alotted amount of people up there. I have a 10 minute break period and walking up those stairs and
across a very big building leaves no time for trying to find a new one. This leaves me with two very uncomfortable decisions, hold and leave for an hour or
more during class, or go in. The latter makes me walk in hoping no one will see me, or at the least be in a stall. If not.. well.. I can't really describe the
emotions I have. It's a cross between rampant embarrassment and constant worry of what they are thinking. No, I shouldn't care, going to the fucking
restroom should not make me depressed. But it does.

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She forgets.

There are times when I write down many many ideas, usually thinking I have enough detail on it to be remembered, only later to completely lose the entire
image that was situated neatly into my mind. It's a very frustrating situation, staring at words that cannot bring back sweet memories that never existed.

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So my mom brought out these old start trek trading cards from the 70's including a couple sticker cards from topps chewing gum. I was wondering if these are worth anything. Most of them are in good condition, ect. If not, oh well, They'll be cool to keep as collectors items. But I am rather curious. E-bay has yielded no results.

To go to the mountains and consistently do something my brain is seemly hardwired to enjoy.

Yeh, I want to go snowboarding again after watching the movie "The Art Of Flight". I guess it's something I've always wanted to go do on a more regular
basis but my dad never really wanted to pay for. So I guess now it's up to my lil ol' self to get some income to do so. *sigh* money money money. That's
all anyone can think about these days. >.<

So yeah, there's a local hotspot around here I want to start headin up to on a weekend or bi-weekend basis. This includes buying a seasons pass and a
dedicated snowboard since my old one is.. well.. Old. I would much rather throw money into this than many of my other hobbies, since it's something I've
been dying to start going up to again. On the plus side, it will also give me an excuse to get more exercise and stay fit. We don't need a big blob of Abbey
Tumbling down the hill. XD

There's also just the snow itself and being in the mountains. I don't know about you guys, but there's a certain Zen serenity you get from sitting in the
perfectly silent outback, overlooking some of the most magnificent sights in the world. I've always thought I would end up living somewhere in the cold towns
out there...

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I'm not cut out for it. I'm not cool. It's literally THAT simple.

I think every time I have ever actually tried being "cool" I fucked up and came off as an asshole, only to later worry incessantly that I made a bad decision and really feel terrible about it all. It's the same thing with being social. Anytime I try to step up, get to know someone, or try and reach out, it ends with me feeling silly or forced or downright creepy. It's not at all comfortable. :/

Yet every-time I sit quiet... nothing happens, GOOD things happen. All my friends I've met through other people, and all my best friends talked to me first. This has led me to.. shrivel up socially I guess. I can talk and function well enough to those around me, and I've made friends at college already. But again, they started the conversation first. Otherwise I'm literally too scared to ever open up outright. :c

If it were socially acceptable, I would carry my stuffed panda around with me everywhere to hide behind most of the time. But even then I feel like I do that now, sitting in corners and generally trying not to be noticed as much. I want to reach out to more people in the fandom, and so far the internet is the exception to the rule, but I still feel like I'm going to fuck up in some serious way like I always do.

Maybe that's why I'm an artist.. picture books are much more friendly then conversations.
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Audiophile ventures are beginning to look more and more appealing as I dig into higher and higher quality audio equipment. This Includes headphones,
headphone amps, and software that enables me to play high quality recordings with EQ settings and the like. Gah. I LOVE good quality sound and since
my laptop audio sucked for a second (enabling surround sound when there's only 2 speakers and quality degradation) which was fixed with a driver update
and EQ settings; I have been driven towards websites and other areas that sparked more than enough interest in Audiophile gear. >.<

So now I'm looking towards saving up for Some Grado headphones since they look retro and sound excellent, a Fiio E7 headphone amp, and maybe a new
Mp3 player (my Zune is old, beat up, and doesn't even have an EQ :c).


In other news, I'm craving brushes/paints for painting. Want want want. That's all I seem to do anymore. >.<

PS: Sorry for the updates then abrupt stop. I'll be getting going back to that swing momentarily.

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