Yea this break has been very helpful for me calming alot more down so hopefully I will better manage my life right now. Honestly though I am making a habit of taking a break from the fandom around this time of year, maybe its a seasonal thing *shrugs*. Anyways I've had more than enough time to sort my head out and come back to here which I just cannot have my life without for too long.

Some of you would of noticed me being on msn from time to time or one or two of my commissions being posted on here within the last couple of weeks. True be told I have sort of been back to the fandom already but I wanted to ease myself back this time so I don't end up blowing a fuse again. Now I am fully back and should be more responsive here, and with talking with you all on msn, skype and such. Although I still will be the same old slow dragon as I have always been. I just take longer to post than many others, sorry its just how I am.

Thanks to everyone who has been supportive when I decided to take the break, I am truly grateful to you all. I know I would never want to leave the fandom forever as I have such wonderful friends here who I would never want to lose. Now I can learn from this break and make sure this will be the last time I do move away from the fandom as frankly it has become a bad habit I have picked up.

I am so glad to be back :)

I know this is going to seem like deja vu, but I have to take a break from all this.

There has been soo much to deal with in my life for a long while now and now I've reached a limit on what I can handle. Alot of this is to do with other rl issues like work, finances and other problems, which I know is something we all have to deal with. Its part of like after all. However its become harder to find times where I can relax, calm myself and sort things out. While the fandom has been the only place I could be myself and find soo many great people who I feel I can have a correction with.....It has also been a cause of more stress.

I have already mentioned the whole commissioning thing before which I will admit here and now is an addiction of mine and is the biggest one I have. Though I have tried to cut back many times in the past I always go back to getting more than perhaps I really should do. While I want to say this is perhaps not necessary a bad thing as I don't drink or smoke or buy expensive clothes, any one here can easily say I am one of those that go too crazy with getting commissions. I think now is the time to show some restraint as it has cause some problems for me in different ways.

The tipping point in my decision with this break has to be my use of chat programs such as MSN, Aim and Skype. I really hate to say this right now but it has become another apart in my life that I cannot be calm, relax or enjoy myself as much these days. I have met alot of lovely great people on them and have many wonderful times with them. But right now its become too much to keep going on these programs now, I have too many contacts and more and more times now I feel that I get overwhelmed by it all. Don't get me wrong it is really nice to chat to people, although having too many conversations at once makes it abit more difficult to do anything else and then there is the rping. Some may say its when you exchange a sentence or two to each other as you act out what ever, while others say it is only rping when you have a setting, general plot and exchange paragraphs to each other. I am going to be general in this and use rping for both. A year ago I always enjoyed rping with people. It was exciting,. fun and different in soo many ways and even if it was the same topics you rped about with different people, it would always seem different with every individual person you did it with. Now however its getting repetitive and a handful. I am not saying that I have disliked any rps, I do still like them. Its just that now, every night I go on I am doing rps, up to 4 or 5 at same time, which means I have no chance at doing anything else and typing constantly is not always relaxing. I feel that on msn or Aim I just want to chat and talking about other things with people and only rp at times when it feels right and more worthwhile to do. NO matter how fun the topic is, doing it 100s of times makes it less enjoyable.

I am not pointing fingers at anyone when talking about rping, its just with soo many people wanting to do rps it has gotten too much. Also I know I could have avoided this issue by simple saying sooner to people when I didn't want to rp. I have abit of difficulty in expressing myself, especially when its something negative,. I try to keep it to myself and thus its led to this which is my own fault completely.

I am sorry I am doing this again where I am going away for a while again, but I feel that its I need to do this. One so I can calm myself and focus on other parts in my life I need to sort out and also so that I can have a break from certain things which have become too constant in my life. Once I have this break and I do come back at some point, I can enjoy commissions and rping alot more as it will be fresh, exciting and new again.

I will still be sending notes or e-mails to people when stuff needs to be sort out. I am not going to leave anyone hanging on stuff waiting for me.

Once again I am really sorry for doing this again. I will see you all around. Take care everyone and I hope to talk to you all again when I come back.

 C-Trigger is trying to raise funds to pay for a vet bill: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3957808/

Anything you can do will be very much appreciated

Thats right as u can see I have gotten a cool new footpaw icon. It is based on a gif done by  xtreme7 .

A good friend is doing re-coloring of them and has four basic templates you can choose from:

http://www.strawberrypawz.com/pawiconexamples.html

You can choose the colour for your character plus have a background for it.

If you would like to get one he can be contacted in many ways:

Msn: theshadowconner[at]live.com
Aim: chronicmegedagik
Yahoo: strawberrypawz
Skype: PawzCAST

You will enjoy yours for sure :)

Yea sorry to say but from this month I will stop getting any new commissions for the time being. This however does not include ones I am already committed to such as lists/slots etc.

There are a number of reasons to why I am doing this and for now won't go into alot of detail about them. Sufficed to say I spend alot on commissions perhaps too much as alot of you know how obsessive i am in getting them. With other few problems added onto that I feel that I need to call a halt in getting more.

Now I know its silly in posting this as its not exactly something I need to tell anyone, but I feel just to let you guys know as it will mean I won't be updating my gallery for a little while. I am sorry for doing this

You meet soo many people that sooner rather than later you pick up something nasty :(

For the past couple weeks I have been out of it with a virus which has left me feeling really terrible.
And to top it off I found out I have an ear infection as well ><

So thats why I have been very quiet recently, I am still recovering so hopefully I will be all fine in a few days

Hey everyone, I have finally decided to update this as its way overdue for one and I need to explain alot of things.

Comments/favs.

From the start of the year I have tried to be more active in this regard as there have been plenty of wonderful arts and interesting journals made which really deserves some response, but like all new years resolutions I have made this one as fallen flat. Part of that is due to my problems with writing down stuff that I find does not sound silly or repetitive. However I cannot blame it simply on that as I have to admit I've become rather lazy lately. I need to motivate myself better to do more than just stare at things.

Watchers

I know I have been bad to my watchers, especially recent ones as I have not thanks you personally for watching me. I can assure you I am truly great full for all of you watching me even though to be honest I don't deserve it considering how lazy i have been. I will promise to be more appreciating of everyone from now on.

Pic/uploading

Well as you can tell I haven't uploaded anything in ages and there is a few reasons for this. One of the main reasons why I have not uploaded is that many of the stuff I could upload I feel may be too weird for many of you if you don't like a particular thing ie wither you like feet or fatness/inflation. Some pics are a combination of both. I don't want to freak people out with them, but at the same time I know I should upload more . Another reason is that for other commissions that I have gotten, the artist has already uploaded them on their gallery for people to see. Of course thats great though I wonderful if I can still upload them anyway to my gallery?.

So should I upload these pics or not? I am really not sure if I should or not.

also random part....
Cool orange guy ^_^

Thats right  farel is doing a big contest all details are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3051273/ There is a nice video that will tell you everything :)

and remember there is Free art up for grabs so don't delay and watch today!!!!!

Hey all. Happy new year to you all!!!!! The ended with a bang.....I spent the final hours of it alone playing xbox and drinking cider. ^_^

Now we have a new year and hopefully a new branch in life to hold onto or something like that.

And of course with it being a new year I am taking a new year resolution to better my life in some way and this one is going to be directly about this fandom. Now I think this year has been great around here as I have met alot of really lovely people and of course I have commissioned alot of great artist. However recently I've noticed that interacting with people and commenting on pics. journals and such has been extremely low, to the point where I think I am really being abit rude about it. Its become to such a point that I feel I tend to be silent to people unless I am commissioning them and frankly makes me feel that I am just an obsessive person with getting commissions........which to be honest may be the case. Though I sometimes say its simply because I have a hard job with long hours I have to admit thats not completely the case. I am not always working, there are plenty of times when I could easily go on msn and talk with people and get journals and submissions and comment on them. But I don't and its because of two reasons:
One; I am just being lazy and wanting to play video games which has become another obsession of mine.

Two; I am finding it harder and harder to write down comments or posts that I feel aren't silly or a waste of time. I just feel I sometimes keep saying the same things for pics or journals and I feel dumb because of it. Whenever there a new submission of a nice paw or expansion/ fatness pic my typing always seems to go on...."ooo now paws" "mmmm love that belly". "oh how I love to be near therm". But when I look at other people's comments they say really detailed, clever and witty things which to me shows a good intelligence in terms of writhing and expressing yourself. Compared to that my mind feels very basic.

So for my resolution for this new year I want to improve not only my socializing and commenting, but also trying to improve what i say to stop being so basic and repetitive. I feel in order to do that I really need some advice from you as I really don't know how best to do it. Any advise/help you can give me about this I would really appreciate.

Thank you for reading this

Hey everyone. I am back from my mini trip with family with many cool presents. I hope all of you had very great Christmas full of presents and good food ^_^

Now looking forward to the new year as not only is it possibly a new beginning for my working life but its also a chance to make some changes with my life. One is a typical one in that I need to go to my gym more often. (I have not been in ages and really need to get back into my weight training). My major one for this year is do to with the fandom and how I have been with it. I feel during the late months of this year I have become rather silent both on here and on msn and such. I will explain more during the end of this month, but the main thing is I have become abit too lazy and silly with how little I post comments and talk online. I really need to change and improve it for this year.

On new years if I could maybe have some advice/help into getting me to comment more and be online more I would very much appreciate it :)

Its that time of year again and boy has it come around quick this year.

I will be away for a few days spending time with my family for Christmas, (randomly decided that they would rent a small cottage somewhere this year), so I won't be able to come online for a little while. I hope I don't get any withdraw symptoms ^_^

Since I cannot say it on the day I wish you all a very happy and merry Christmas and hope you get loads of presents and a great big Christmas dinner.

*Gives you big hugs* Cya in the new year.

Well after an unbelievably long time I am finally uploading stuff. I know I have been abit lazy lately, but I have had alot on my plate to deal with so I do have some excuse. But anyways I hope you all enjoy the new stuff....though a warning it is as mix of my interests so you may see stuff you don't like.

And that leads to my question. Because of my varying interests, some of you may be disturbed about some of the content i post. There for I have been wondering whether I should create a second account so then I could split my galleries into feets stuff and big expansion stuff. Normally I would not really be keen on doign this but perhaps it would be a good idea.

So the question is....Should I make another account and separate my uploads?

Hey everyone

 cth is doing 2 6 character orgy commissions and is taken slots for people who want to be in them. IT only costs $10 to be in it and it will be fully coloured.

The two themes of them are a Heavy Foot Scene (chosen by me ^_^) and a Cigar Bar Orgy chosen by Infernous.

IF u decide to sign up , you sign up to potientually be in any of the two pics as both me and Infernous will take in turns to pick people to be in our orgy pics and once we do we get to pic what exactly happen in them :)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2510859/ here is  cth 's journal with more information on it. IF u do want to be in this please send a note quickly to him with reference's and have $10 ready in your paypal account.

Hope to maybe see some of u there :)

Hey all  Shuigetsu is doing a cool contest of liceneced characters where u can suggest any (well mostly any) licenced character to be drawn by him.

Check it out : http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2391871/

yea thats right  JWolfsky is doing $5 sketch commissions and boy they are good.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5673626
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5648865

I myself have got plenty of them as its a fantastic price. The detail on them is fantastic and he does it soo quickly. I really advise u to get some while u can

taken from  alkora . posting it here as its such a great idea it needs to be spread.

This is how it works:

I find someone to do a commission with and we find an artist. I pick up the tab :D
Once that happens, it's YOUR job to either draw or commission you and a friend (or more) and pick up the tab. You may also re-gift back!

If you're interested, post your ideas here! <3

And pass this along if you like his idea!

this is a really fun idea as it means everyone can get invloved :)

Few people are man/woman enough to openly answer any and all questions thrown at them. Are you? Prove it. Copy/Paste this as a new journal entry and answer every question you get.

The rules are simple:

-You must answer every question you get no matter what it's about and you must do so honestly.

-There are no questions that can not be asked as long as they are within the rules of FA. They can be personal, about OCs, drama inducing, and every thing in between.

Really as me anything and i will answer it......

.....as long as its not whether i know where babies come from ^_^

Ummm I don't know how its happened but the comments from my previous journal have all been deleted/removed. I didn't do it. Did any of u know how they could of all been deleted?

Merry Christmas to everyone, my friends and everyone else on fa.

*hugs u all tightly in a big hug*

I hope today u have all day a most wonderful day and got cool and fun presents.

I got the new World of warcvraft expansion so U will know what I will be doing for the next few weeks ^_^

hey all

Well to add to some troubles i am currently going through, my computer has decided to switch off when ever it feels like now. I can be doing anything on it and it will suddenly switch off. Sometimes it can switch off before it finishes starting up. Therefore i have not been able to stay online for very long.

Because of this it means until i fix it I will not be on much at all, unless i am lucky and my computer stays on long enough (some days it does last a long time). I have ordered a new power supply for it as I have a feeling it could be that what is the problem. Hopefully it is.

Hey everyone. Well I have finally calmed down from my bad mood I had.

I am sorry for my outburst as I know I must of sounded rude what i said on my previous journal. I feel abit silly as i am usually the one that tries to stay calm and also help others to be as well, but the past few weeks have been hard on me. I've been working alot of overtime at work, doing 8-11 hour days which leaves me exhausted by the time i get back home most days. With my house i am living in being far from comfortable I have been on the tense side for a while.

Then last week my mum decides to have a long conversation about me being gay and she is really against it. She keeps saying how wrong it is and how she does not believe i am. That drove me over the edge right there and then. After that i needed some time to just relax and not think about much at all.

Thank u for all your kind words and support. It has helped me in more ways than u can imagine. I will try to keep myself from blowing my top from now on.

*big hugs to you all*

Right now the world can go **** itself. I've had it right now.

Apart from a few things i will sort out here i am not going to be online at all for a few days while i contemplate why the hell I bother with things.

Sorry to offend anyone in saying this but I am not going to talk about it to anyone so don't even try.

Anyone waiting for rps or anything can wait longer, I don't care right now. u can deal with it.

 tape  jwolfsky

If like me u really like these icons then u should get one. They are really really good :)

 tape just contact her if u want one. She is a very nice person to talk too ^_^

hey everyone. I am finally back. Well to be truthfully i have been back for over a week but I have been unable to do much online until now.

The 4 week on HOnduras was the more intensive month i have ever had in my life.Having to spend a whole day traviling to even get to the country and then truck it to the camp in the rainforest was a tough first day. It took me a few days just to get use to the climate as being a Brit, the Honduran high temperatures and humidity was harsh to begin with. Adding to that the very basic facilities which in the forest was sleeping in a 2-3 man tent, extremly cold showers, a pipe in the ground for a number one loo and a big hole with a enclosed chair for a number 2 loo. And the food!!! Absolutly no meat, full of re-fried beans and rice plus the Honduran speciality which is plantain banana which i discovered can be cooked in soo many different ways.

Now the actual work was enjoyable as anything. The first week was a mixed of monitoring and catching bird, bats, small mammals and amphibians. Though because we were in the mountains made trekking very difficult (i am not at all physically fit). The second week I worked in a small group to extract DNA from plants, fungi and an ant. Using certain chemicals we could use our samples to create copy DNA strands.

Though Living was difficult at times there was some interesting times all the way through such as eating a queen ant cooked and getting a huge spider to walk up my face. :)

After the second week I was transferred to an island about a days away from the rainforest.

Now over there the work was even more enjoyable as for the first week there I was finding and catching Boa snakes by hand and then measuring them and luckily i only got bitten twice.......by the same snake ^_^.
The second week was catching small tree lizards which was fun but impossible to do as i didn't manage to catch even one lol.

However the living faculties were awful. The dorms were huge 20+ bumkbed rooms with nothign else. only had portable loos and showers and though the food had some meat in it, the portions were very little.

Something happened a few days before i headed back to Britain which is the reason why i have not been online until now. Because of the bad facilities and a stupid school group that was there, i caught a tropical stomach bug which the doctors said was a gastric infection. Since that day i have had constant Diarrhoea and stomach cramps, de-hydration causing headaches and muscle pains. I still have it but its now just down to the darrhoea and cramps. IT has put a major downturn to my trip but i still enjoyed my time. :)

Anyways its great to be back so i can talk with everyone again. I hope u all had a great month and will be nice to hear what everone has been up to :).

Now its back to work and sorting my life out now i am finished with uni :)

hey everyone.

A month ago i had finally fininshed my 3 year university course on Environmental managment and last week the results finally came in.

I GOT A 2.1!!!!!!

I am so happy to get this result and boy was it a close thing in the end. One exam seemed to be the deciding factor for it all. on another plus side i got the same results as my smart sister so now i can say i fininshed on the same level as her .

Now i have to apologies as i have left this very very late, but i will be leaving tomorow morning to go on an experdition to Honduras going as a research assistent studying the wildlife there and working in line with conservation. I will be away for a whole month so I won't be on line untill the 23rd of july. I will miss many people here

SO as long as i don't get eaten by a snake (as i will be focusing on them during the experdition) i will see u next month.