Hi Everyone,

Following last year's change and growth, I come to you in 2023 with good news and a conviction for the road ahead.

After many years of trying to start creative writing, I have finally settled on a topic and a story worth telling.

As you see from my previous posts, most of my initial artistic exploration revolved around the use of Original Characters and Fursonas by myself and the friends I have made.

Following struggles around creating good characters people will gravitate to, I have decided to pivot my art towards officially licensed characters instead.

The decision has already made huge dividends, as I feel more innovative and imaginative both in my commissions and in my story ideas.

As such, art involving Original Characters is now on long-term hiatus. However, I will still upload previously commissioned images from this time period.

Thanks for staying with me all the way and I hope I can bring you more joy in the future!

I've been wrestling with this decision over the past five years, and I think I have enough evidence to support my decision.

I am ceasing the full-time use and creation of any Sona / OC that relies on any copyrighted material. Any further use of them is only intended to comment on or dissect my online behaviour.

Getting involved in the community has gotten me so upset at myself, primarily because of my own selfish behaviour. I had no right to involve myself in the lives of other more successful people.

I have gotten so greedy and selfish that I believed that I had the right to use other people's intellectual property when in reality I owe everyone I have offended with my commissions a sincere apology.

I was wrong to force myself into social groups I have no place in when I should have only remained a spectator and never attempted to influence anyone or their decisions.

I am deeply sorry to the copyright holders of all the different IPs that have been used in all of the images uploaded to this account. I had no right to project my own mental illnesses onto your life's work.

I will still upload whatever content I have commissioned onto this account, but I wish to stop being unoriginal going forward.

Farewell,
Ado Tori.

Hi Everyone.

So I'm just gonna upload some art? I have spare time, and it keeps on coming.

So it's time to give back to the community; thank you 💕

Hello, watchers old, new and beyond! Welcome my humble life of experiences, phases and flops! It's been a long time coming for me to pen this down, but I think it's been well worth it!

I registered for an account here the night I turned 18, and my life continues to improve ever since. I have no idea how some of you have accounts a decade old and manage to build a huge presence! I'm sure your journeys have been much longer than mine!

I started to seriously use my account at the turn of last year, and I'm proud to run into bright faces like  totodice1 and  bombly ! Soon after I saw them, I became sure that I wanted to spend the rest of my life chasing my dreams alongside them! ^^

Time began to pass, I met more people like  vee4eva and  lapatte , and the list doesn't stop growing. To this day I'm proud that the first set of close friends I have consist of  baramoke ,  kazmaru31 and  gulf~ , who've walked alongside my journey for most of it. Seriously, thank you guys so much!

Moving forward, I started making pledges to the small pool of artists I knew of,  blitzdrachin and  asbellhant who've witnessed my growth the most, seeing me rise and fall. I also started meeting lifelong friends in the form of  dtz and  tanean , who found a way to open my heart up fall after fall. They're so many wonderful people I've met from when I started using servers that there's too many to list here! ^^

Unfortunately, here's where my flaws started to show. Being a late-bloomer most of my life, the main mistake I've made in life is trying too little, too late. Thus, when trying to make friends, I'm prone to rushing things or telling myself that we're really close even though we're not.

I'd panic, freak out or spaz out whenever I learnt that my delusions were false, sometimes turning violent to the people I love, hurting myself even more in the process. It took having to leave a community close to me for me to slowly wake up to my mistakes, and even now, I don't believe I'm half done making up for my mistakes.

I'm thankful that now I'm starting to look for forgiveness in the people I fell out without, and be the person I want to be. It's been a long journey of hard work, but I need to walk it in order to change my life. Which is why starting from now, I'll be uploading the backlog of commissions and collabs I've been a part of, so you see what the heck I've gotten myself into. There's a mix of safe, lewd, sketches and inks so I hope you'll love it! ^^

It's really been a long journey I've walked thus far, and even a longer one I have to walk here on out. But I'm confident because I'll be walking it with people that I count on, and look up too. Thank you all, and I hope to see you down the road! ^^

I am sick and tired of the direction my life has taken. It seems like every passing day I've been given more proof that my life is for me to fight alone in. Every passing day I get more and more comments from people that:

A) They don't care about me or my problems
B) I like being in this state and that I deserve to be like this
C) It isn't their business and they don't care

Every passing day I've been getting more and more abandoned by my family and my friends. I've been further convinced that they only give a damn about changing me and don't care about who I am. More and more people write me off as a joke and a dead-end person with no future.

Of course, this doesn't mean that I'm well, going to do something extreme. There's nothing else to do but enjoy life the way it is on my own. All I just know is that I'm abandoned and a piece of trash that is to be mocked. No one even cares about who I am or what kind of person I am, they only see flaw after flaw after flaw. I'm probably a stupid child to these people and they've up and let me behind, forgetting that I've ever existed.

I watch on as people have better support while I have to face being pushed away every day. I'm being told that their lives are more difficult but I can't believe that given that they're just spitting on me and laughing at the stupid pathetic person in front of them.

Sure, I am stupid, retarded and a piece of utter shit. I concede that this is all true and that I am also a friendless motherfucker who should die alone. I get that, and I accept it. And I'm happy that I'm finally recognized for my pathetic duty I have to this world. I doubt anyone or anything can save me as I'm all alone.

I'm just a loser, and I need to get over that and drill it into my fucking head.

A loser manchild,
Ado