on the 27th too. neat

a jester unemployed

is nobody's fool.

so be careful, and dont believe everything they say. :3

trying really hard to not slip into depression and habits relating to it, like secluding myself and not talking to people. but many of the friends i want to talk to dont have time for me lately. and it irratates me more than it should that i HAVE to be the one to start a conversation, or sugest something to do only to have plans not work out 5+ times in a row. at home everyone just sits on their computers and the most social interaction i get out of one of them is binge watching a still running anime from 100 or so episodes behind current, idk really how many, while he talks to everyone else on sl so hes not really being social with me at all, while the other just wants one sided sexual favors and never returns any. least my more distant friends have more viable excuses for becoming more distant in terms of our friendships, but why are my roommates makeing me feel like im living alone? with the others, it normally boils down to a busy work schedule. with them its basically they'd rather talk to anyone else. starting to get that vibe from alot of people.

-sigh- on a more postive note i am trying to quit soda, nearly down to one a day. when at work i got free refills and i went through maybe 3-6 32 ounce cups of soda a day. now its 1, or 2 if im trying to stay up. hope to soon quit altogether, drinking water, flavor mixes with caffiene for water, and green tea.

birthday is on the 27th, and i will be 26. hopeing to have a few friends over. or at least one. but if not, at least family will be visiting on thursday. Dont really expect to get gifts, but when you get to be an adult they tend to happen less, part of adulthood amirite?

So i moved out, with  griffbeeks and  basharkin in october. things have been going pretty good, got a new job, ironically at a pricechopper like before, in the same department, deli. Bash is working there with me. Griff is still working on finding a new job, please send good job vibes.

the apartments nice, i wish it were a little bigger, and i wish my cat was here with me, dont have the money for his deposit yet.

birthday is next month on the 27th, ill be 26.

gonna try updating every so often from now on, think it will help me

DO EET. STAY SHINY.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7507571/

this is where i them they are awesome go get one.

i want tacos

ive got some plans to try and change what i can in my life.

starting small ill just get my room clean, and try and keep how i live a little cleaner.

thanks all you who are worried about me, many others are talking me through this as well. ill will survive this, i always do.

all of my family gets more and more pissed off at each other, everyone is stressed out to extremes

i'd rather just fucking skip all this i hate it. i have grown up hating it cause every year its worse.

actually so stressed out im getting to the point were i want to hurt myself.

I swear to god if i hear Dad say "You didnt really want that pie did you" when something bad happens to it, im gonna lose it. every fucking time something bad happens...YOU DIDNT REALLY WANT IT DID YOU? YEAH FUCKER THATS WHY I BOUGHT IT. can you not say, "crap, im sorry i accedently droped it." soften the god damn blow a little.

and mom i swear you always got this victim syndrome going on. everything happens to you? I BOUGHT THAT PIE WHY ARE YOU HAVING A SHIT FIT. thats my money going in the crapper.

and if my siblings dont stop arguing with each other im gonna start arming them and letting them kill each other. i cant take the migranes. one of the 2 of you need to back off in the argument, AND THEN STAY BACKED OFF. one of you is and adult. act like it. i understand you have autism, but you have shown in the past you can try harder than you are. as for the other, good freaking luck getting that brick wall pretending o be a person to actually listen to anything you have to say.

I know im not innocent in this mess of a family. but you have driven me to harming myself from stress. some of you still think im fucking making up depression. doesnt make alot of sence considering im diagnosed with it. I know im a screw up, hell look at my crappy job, im a college drop out, my room is a mess to the point i cant walk right in it, yeah im a shitty human being. but you all make me worse, cause when im with my friends, or hell, even my coworkers, i feel more like myself then i ever do around you.

apparently warning you guys that i wont be posting new art for a while just keeps getting me the steady stream of random watchers every other day.

STOP STALKING ME WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM MEEEEE

I will not be buying anymore art, commisioning any artists, or buying anything at all really. this acount doesnt really post that often anyway so really no big changes, sept we are going from not often to not at all.


I really fucked up.

so i was at the kcfur bbq. late cause of Bash feeling a lil unwell but we made it. brought too whole cookie cakes. one got ate fast. one was stolen while i wasnt looking. they just walked off wile the party was still active.


thats furrys for ya i guess! give them a cookie, they demand more.



I HAVE AN IDEA FOR A BOOK.

if you give a furry a cookie cake slice, they will steal the rest!

going camping with griff and bash and some others


yay


now back to work. :P

here, people keep leaving pamphlets with "advice from a rich man" on the cover, and a bunch of pictures of money on it. in the my works bathroom. you open it up and its about Jesus and how your a sinner and need to be saved. now think about that. the cover lures you in with money, so....basically....Greed. one of the 7 deadly sins. then calls you a sinner. A church is trying to get people to convert to Christianity, using one of the 7 deadly sins. what Sin is next? lust? gonna put some prostitutes outside the church doors? and my favorite part of this... they put them on the back of the toilet every time. i can just imagine the story. "I was saved by Jesus in a Casey's Bathroom."


we have a man running for president here, he owns a motorcycle with under glow. he keeps buying lotto tickets to try and help run his candidacy.

SO ITS POSSIBLE PEOPLE ARE GONNA LINK YOU TO SCREAMING MONSTERS OR SOME GROSS SHIT, MESS WITH YOUR ONLINE ACCOUNTS, OR BASICALLY BE AN ASSHOLE TO YOU.


PLEASE BE AWARE, AND BE CAUTIOUS, PEOPLE ARE DICKS ON THIS DAY.

I am now 24.



GIMME CAKE.

Yeah pretty much confirmed by my family. whee.

Thanks for it. owo

Can't seem to find any game im good at anymore, and that was the only thing I was good at in the first place. I really am good at nothing.

now. hugs. gimme.

I am 100% sure nobody wants one, but I do commisions for outfits on animal crossing new leaf.

please comment/note i could really use some spending money.

Why I am always cold?

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