So guys, my like, four watchers. I have this epic friend right, and she's an epic artist too. But unluckily, she doesn't have a lot of money. And this is a damn shame, since she needs it for her GED. So, I ask of you to participate in her "100 Sketch Challenge", where she'll draw some epic anything for anybody for just $5. Now, you may not think it's worth it, but when you see how amazingly she draws just about everything, you'll really want one.

Here's the journal for details. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1607304/

And you should do this guys, frankly I don't have any money, and if I did I would so pay for at least one.

Been like. Ghosting through the Internet. Being subtle. And stuff.

Haven't been updating FA in forever. Still need a scanner and stuff.

I guess this update proves I'm not dead, nor have I disappeared inexplicably. Just, a shell of who I used to be. Fun old depression raping my soul because I have to live in a village so small people can't be different or they're persecuted for it, even though that doesn't even happen. For some weird reason, these people adore change. But they're all still racist. Whoo for being dual-race?

Ah, I need to submit that scrap soon. And draw. And maybe write a story about the pack and I. I love the pack. Just like your normal, everyday furry pack. With more sex. A lot more. :D. Well anyway.......... I think I might draw something or write.

It never ends. It truly never ends. It's like my sufferings. They never end. But I'm glad to know this fake smile I put on each and every day gets me that much closer to death.

Oh slaaaaavvvveeeee~

Lol. But seriously, My life is like Miko Miko Nurse. It appears cute and innocent, but the more into it you get. The more hell you go through. Hell you go through. Hell you go through. HELL. HELL. HELL. I.E. The only damn song that you look forward to ending. Lol

Ah Hikki-san.

If you hadn't noticed, I've submitted artwork. I suck. So badly, I'm aware. Lay it on me, I'd rather people criticize me so I can get better. There are few works in life I truly cherish.

Six Rainbow harewa naru kimi no, mainichi koko wa suteki na Rainbow <3

I just looooooove this song. It's raising my spirits incredibly. Along with SA-MP. I f'ing love SA-MP. And I had recently figured out the SA knife kill is a Manhunt Level One Knife/Glass Shard Execution. I like level two :3. You know, where he stabs them in the stomach then repeatedly in the chest. No, I'm not insane. I've always been incredibly violent. I just choose not to be. Be grateful for that. Lol

If you hadn't guessed the obvious words in the title Engrish-ized, you shouldn't have even read this journal. Lol. At any rate, I feel draw-y. Too bad I don't have a scanner anymore, nor do I have any writing utensils. So, I shall write of my RP's of old. Perhaps. I already submitted The Ebony Tower, and personally it's a great reminiscing story. It was an RP I had a few months ago with some strangers and buddies. Good times on RPE. So, I may write a few new stories based on my old RP's in Medieval Japan. One of them happened to be sexual <3. That may get me somewhere with the whole "viewer" situation. Lol

A "Yume" mood. Yume means dream by the way. Someone, make this moment last. When I realize that my love life is crap it'll all blow away. Oyo~! I think I might sleep. The moment is too surreal. Which reminds me, read my newest scrap. It's the perfect way to describe what I'm feeling. But then again, aren't they all?

I'd say "Betsu no Ai" because it's true. But I can only give the lyrics to Addicted To You



Betsu ni au hitsuyou nante nai
shinakya ikenai koto takusan aru shi
mainichi hanasu hitsuyou nante nai
denwadai kasande meiwaku shiterunda

Kawaranai aijou nante nai
fuan ga aru kara tsuyoku naru shi
futari no koto dare nimo iwanai
kodomo ja nain dakara

Doko mademo tsuzuku michi ja nai
dattara hoka wo erabeba ii noni

Waraeru hanashi
kizutsukeraretemo I'm back for more
kimi ni addicted kamo
aenai kara-tte shinu wake ja nai shi
otagai no jijou wakatteru

Dakedo sore ja kurushikute
mainichi aitakute
kono kimochi dou sureba ii no
ima otona ni naritakute
ikinari narenakute, oh baby
kimi ni addicted kamo

Motomeau riyuu nante nai
kirei koto mo hitsuyousa
rusuden ni natteru yonaka
messeeji kiki ni mou ichido kaketai

I'm in love with you,
I know you want me too
ienai kara iwanain ja nai
nakeru sutoorii
utagawareru tabi ni, I love you more
kimi ni addicted kamo
mawari no minna mo iiwake wa niteru
riyuu ga hitsuyou da-tte omotteru

Dakedo sore ja kurushikute
mainichi aitakute
kono kimochi tsutaete mo ii no?
kisu yori dakishimete
ikinari yamenaide, oh baby
kimi ni addicted kamo

Aenai hi no koishisa mo
soba ni iru itoshisa mo
onaji kurai kuse ni narunda
kisu yori dakishimete
ikinari yamenaide, oh baby

Dakedo sore ja kurushikute
mainichi aitakute
kono kimochi dou sureba ii no
ima otona ni naritakute
ikinari narenakute, oh baby
kimi ni addicted kamo

Kisu yori dakishimete
ikinari yamenaide, oh baby
I think I'm addicted to you

-lays head against labtop- I am not feeling good. Like. At all. I feel tired. And not just that, but every time I try to sleep, I feel ashamed and depressed because the way the light hits my room. It reminds me of that place. Anything I think about does, and it just makes me feel like crap. "Fate has a cruel sense of humor"

I had just figured out my name was set to linkofhyrule222[at]yahoo.com when it was actually just linkofhyrule222. At any rate, I really, really need to talk to another furry. Perhaps Nick. Someone has GOT to read my story "Admission", it's my current mood.

I've fallen into love with someone I shouldn't have fallen in love with. Read my stories (If anyone even read THIS) to get the idea.

I have just now become INCREDIBLY happy. TO THE FORUMS! For that. Forum Game. Mood. Thing. Yeah.

Anyway. I'm incredibly freaking happy, it's... Almost 1 AM. And I think I'm going to be incredibly content for quite some time. If only Klausi-kun was here. Too bad I don't know his FA. If anyone (who reads this <.<) finds a... Klaus Myre or William Treagus on FA. Please tell me ^^. At any rate, I feel like opening myself up to any free random Japanese word icon/avatar/DP requests.

First of all, I severely doubt ANYBODY reads this. If they did they might leave at the least a pitiful comment. At any rate, I am absolutely in love with the Civilization IV music. And I love my Complete Edition. I love its essence and everything it is. And I love Japan. God, how many movies do I have on DVR now? Like 20? I've only fully watched like 5. Lol. Whilst on that subject, I may as well mention to the zero people who read this that I'll make Kanji avatars of some words for free. It takes like a minute. Lastly, I searched my common identity on Google, AegisNinja, and it came up with a lot. Not just a lot, but also people who I have no idea who they are. Like some came from the time when I was an internet noob. It's kind off irritating, needless to say it also makes me anxious. It's nerve-wracking to say the least.

I can not feel better than I do now. And the best part is, it seems to be long lasting ^^. The better attitude I keep everytime it sinks, the the better I feel when everything gets better. Such sweet ecstacy. At any rate... Yeah, I'm really happy ^^. Zen Buddhism = Epic.

Oh boy. An awkward start to a probably nearly non-existant journal. But it can't hurt. What do I have to say? I freaking love RADWIMPS. Amazing J-Rock band. My dear friend from Japan introduced me to them. God she's awesome. Sitting here at 12:24 AM... Singing J-Rock... Yeah, this is amazing. No, not really. I'm tired as hell, and I really don't want to do anything tomorrow. Hopefully I won't have to, but I guess we'll just wait and see. To all who read this, Konbanwa!