Hey everyone,
Not sure who will actually see this but I'm moving accounts, I've changed up my character and have decided I need a new account. I'm not the same person I was when I made this account.

Please follow  FentonFerrox This is where I'll be uploading new work and, soon enough, taking commissions.

Thanks for all the support, I hope I'll continue to get more support in the future.

Fenton

As I road the subway today I found myself thinking about the person I used to be, not my childhood or some weird other life thing, but who I was just 4 years ago. Why 4 years ago? Well 18 was a huge year for me, many things happened and I took many steps towards becoming an adult, some that I regret and others that I wouldn't change given the choice. The year I I was 18 was significant for a few reasons, firstly, it was the year I graduated high-school, I no longer had to go to the same boring old french catholic high-school and see a bunch of people who couldn't give two shits about me if they tried. Next, I not only moved out of my parents' place but also moved into an apartment with my boyfriend. I didn't know how difficult it would be or what I was in for, but I was 18 and thought I could carry the world on my shoulders while taking on life single handedly. So I had a bit of freedom, but I also had some responsibility, I was working full time at a dead end job that I didn't particularly like.

I was naive and optimistic and oh so stupid... I made many mistakes, most of which I hate to even have to admit to myself that I did. I found love where I never thought it would be, I found new friend, lost old friends, reconnected, disconnected, found happiness as well as grief... It feels like its been the longest 4 years in my life, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, people who know me, know that I'm not the kind of people who wants to "grow up" per say, I kinda feel like I'm stunted at 18 but as much as Id like that to be true, I'm nothing like I used to be...

I've changed in so many ways... In my ways of thinking, the way I talk, the way I act around others, the way I feel when I'm alone... Things have changed in way I never thought they would... In way I wish they never had... I no longer talk to most of the same people I used to... If this applies to you, I'm sorry, I really am... I no longer live where I used to, nor with whom I used to, I've moved so many times nowhere really feels like home to me anymore... I've lost a huge part of my heart that was given to someone... I dropped out of college once and am currently in college again... hopefully I won't drop out again... I could go on forever about the things that have changed but I doubt anyone would want to read all that (or any of this to be honest)

Scientifically speaking, all of the particles that made up past me, have been shed of excreted, all that made up me is no longer part of me... And the things that old me was, I feel like they're gone... like I'm someone else... The only things he and I have in common are the way we look, the things we have, and our memories...

I feel like I've grown up a lot in the past 4 years... I'm for the most part more mature, I have thicker skin and a much more pessimistic outlook on life than I used to... I don't if I more dislike who I was or who I am now... They feel like opposites...

If you've read this far, I'm sorry I'm being so negative... Life is hard enough just living, but it feel like an impossible feat when you live with depression... Before anyone panics, I'm not gonna do anything stupid, I just needed to vent... You see, I've changed more than I thought possible in 4 years... I'm scared of what might happen in another 4... Will I be happy? Will I be working a dead end job? Will I have graduated college? Will I have gotten a job in my field? Will my heart break again? Will I lose more of myself? I'm scared... and I feel like there is nothing I can do... I just want to be happy... Though I feel like that's something I may never be able to catch...

Anyways... If you read this far thank you, whether you care about me, or are just curious about my life, reading this far means you must care at least a little. I'm sorry my journals are always negative and are about a quarter year apart, but I'm trying... And that's all we can really do in the end right? Try our best?

Hello beautiful people!

For those of you who are actually looking forward to my comic, bad news, its (obviously) being pushed back. I WILL still make it eventually I've just been busy getting my life in order. And because of being busy there is some good news! I was taken on as a baker's apprentice recently and was working unpaied one day a week. After a month working as hard as i could to learn the trade ways of the baker, they asked me to start working there full time at 11$/hr 5days/wk!

So although I will be MORE busy, I think i should be getting back into art soon ish, cause i'll be getting up at 5am most mornings now and actually doing something usefull with my life which gives me a HUGE boost in confidence!

Anyways to finish the Journal up, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who's always there for me AND if you have any questions, anything at all, be it about my comic or anything that crosses your mind, just ask me in here. And ill answer your question no matter what it is :P

See you guys later!

Some people are saying that no one should protest the funeral of Fred Phelps so we don't "sink to his level" but honestly I think the people should gather in the thousands to inflict the same pain to his family as they inflicted to so many others. I don't believe in any deity but I was raised in a catholic family and if i learned one thing its do onto other what you would want them to do onto you. So they merit... no, they DESERVE to be kicked while they are grieving. HOW DARE THEY ask to say that people should quote "have a little decency and respect" when they themselves have protested the deaths of GOOD people who were murdered or who died in the line of fire trying to protect their country and those they love. These hypocrites deserve nothing than to be condemned and tortured in the "hell" they say everyone else is going to. I'm usually a compassionate person and one that is very loving and never in the least "cruel" but I would honestly pay 1000$ for the chance to SHIT on Fred Phelps' grave. (note this is the PG version of my desire to desecrate his good for nothing memory)

Anyways there is nothing that pisses me off more than the Phelps and I honestly jumped for joy when I found out that that mankind hating, family beating, brainwashing pieces of worm shit died. Good riddens and I hope the rest of them follow soon!

Yes I know, i set my deadline for very soon, but ive been going through some personal issues... Ill make a bigger update and hopefully release my first page in a week or two.

PS I turn 21 on the 8th :P

Hey everyone!

If you didnt read my first journal about my webcomic going to be making click the link below

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5386475/

ANYWAYS! Updates!

So I've been working on this quite a bit, concept art, story, details, etc and i plan on HOPEFULLY releasing my first page before next month!

I went and spend a bunch of money on art supplies for the project and thought you guys might be interested in knowing that i have decided on my medium! It's going to be mixed medium, with pen and watercolour paint.

The main character has been named, his name is Trey (quick sketch of him http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12436786/ )

The name of the webcomic itself will be A Tale of Cavea (pronouced Kuh-Vé-Ah)

I will be doing lots of exparementation in the first few web comics, trying different paint techniques and maybe inking styles, but i garentee I still plan on putting my 100% to assure that you guys have quality work to look forward to at every update.

Speaking of updates im thinking of making it a twice a week thing if possible, more than likely Mondays and Fridays!

Anyways, I think thats about it for now!

Thanks for reading ans stay tuned for more!

Foxen~

So I know that i haven't posted anything in a long time (not that I have any followers) but now that I have a lot more free time, I am planning on making a webcomic. Im not sure about most of the details yet, I'm in the early planning and drafting stages. I do plan on doing this to practice and better myself. When I begin uploading to the net, I'll let you guys know right away. For now I can tell you guys a few things.

1- I plan on making it a long story with intervals of comic relief
2- Im drafting out lots of history and lore for the world in which it will take place so that it can have more depth
3- the main character (not yet named) will be a ferret
4- it will be a fantasy/action/adventure comic
5- I havent yet desided on the medium i will begin with, I wish to eventually go digital but will begin with some type of traditional medium
6- Once I start I will force myself to give you guys quality everytime and release on time!

Thanks for reading,
I hope you guys are interested Ill post some updates when I can :3

Foxen~

I feel as though people dont really know me for who I really am, or just assume they do by steriotyping. I would like to post this just to try to let people know who I am behind the orange fur...

Im not an extremely sexual person. Im not saying I dont like sex, Im just saying that its nit the only thing I ever have on my mind. People assume cause Im a fox that every thought in my head is filthy and perverted. Id like to believe Im a very well mannered person and will only talk about sexual things with someone if they bring it up or if I know them very well.

Although I look happy and aproachable on the outside, Im actually very shy. Im affarid of making a bad first impression. I also assume that people dont like me, even if they tell me that it is not the case. I aslo feel as though people dont have the time for me and even now dont think I'll get more than a couple of people that will read this.

When i draw, i need reasurance that it is good bceause I cant keeo myself from comparing myself to the much better artists. I know that they worked hard to get where they are but i cant help bepjt feel some envie...

Well i guess thats enough for now...

So i know i havent journaled in a while, but this one is important and I thought some of you might want to know... After a lot of stuff happened, that I wont get into, Dar and I are moving to Toronto. Gonna start a new lofe in a new city... Kinda nervous but im sure things will be fine.

Just wanted to let you guys know is all.

See ya

~Foxen

Im almost at 2000 page views! i know thats nothing but i seems cool to me!






That is all...

My friend  MioLovelessXlll is doing commisions at very awesome prices check this out!

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:D

So Im thinking Animal Crossing bades, not that anyone commissions me, but still lol messege me if you're interested :P

Im done with this stupid job... I cant stand waking up really early to get yelled at by some old bitchy bitch who has nothing better to do than to try and make everyone else miserable! Also the stupid customers! I didnt think people could be SOOOO stupid, rude and arrogent all the time! It pisses me off! So tomorrow Im giving in my one week notice. I quit and Chipp if you're reading this which I know you are, keep it to yourself I dont want to have everyone trying to talk me out of it or trying to make me feel bad. Anyways thats it for now, i hope things get better after this...

Foxen

Lately my job has been stressing me out to the point that I have thoughts of causing myself physical harm to get out going to work... I've never acted on them but these thoughts disturb me. I told my Manager that this job is driving me insane and tearing me apart I cant stand to be in customer service much longer... But she cant seem to understand what I mean. Tonight I feel empty... I dont know why, Im emotionally drained and just feeling so depressed... I want to talk to someone about it but I dont know why but I cant seem to be able to find the right person to talk to about all this... I know my friends and familly are all there for me... But they tell me the same thing "things will be ok, quit your job, find a new boyfriend" but thats not what I need right now... I dont know what I need right now but I feel as though it would be better to talk to somone who isnt a bias towards me...

I really hope things clear up soon... I feel like Im emotionally caged up and I feel as though its destroying my relationship...

Foxen

So my commissions didnt take, and my life seems to be in a small downward spiral atm... So Im going to close my commission (mainly so I dont have to get my hopes up) and try to find myself a new job. My day job in driving me insane and I cant handle it anymore. Being a cashiere SUCKS if for any reason the customer doeant feel they were properly serviced, even if its only in thier minds and not acctually valid, they shit on us. So I applied for a job a t Chapters... As a sales rep, aka helping customers find stuff, restocking stuff and only having to take shit from my boss, if anything.

Also my mate currently is unemployed atm... He seems to have an inablity to keep a job and I really hope he finds one soon cause I cant continue to sopport both of us it's stressing me out, ESPESIALLY with his craving for take out... I cant afford that every night and he seems to not understand that... As soon as he gets extra money after rent, he orders out, buys energie drinks and weed... I on th other hand, am expected to buy grosseries and anything else we need arround the house. So I told him last month he has until the end of this month to find AND KEEP a job or Ill have to send him back to Toronto... I cant do this onesided relationship thing anymore...

Anyways that an updated ro my life...

Im finally open for commission! Not that many people would care but still :P Trying to gaina little extra cash :D

So for those of you who look at my submissions, im curently doing clow card comissions! They're going for 15$ penciled and coloured or 18$ inked and coloured. All comissions are laminated and have a front and back. Every comission is hand drawn by your's truly and so every one is not perfect but made with the buyer's in mind :3 no one wants something copy pasted than printed out. These are made 100% traditionally with a pencil a ruler and lots of determination!

If you are interested, drop me a note and Ill give you some details as to what info i need to make you personalized clow card :3 or if you really talk me into it i might be willing to do other types of commissions :P (prices vary)

anyways hope to here from you guys soon :3

Foxen V.

Hey guys you should totally donate to this, its a good cause and you get entered for that chance to win free art :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7563524

So I got accepted into college for animation! Not only this but the college is giving me a free ipad lol! I'm support excited to go back to school and also get the chance to get better at drawing :3

Secondly, I'm happy to say that Dar and I have let a thirdperson into our relationship! He is really sweet and romantic he has allot in common with the both of us. He is currently in. the air force BUT may get booted for medical reasons and so will more than likely be moving up north to live with us! :D

Lastly, FE is just around the corner and I already have my room booked and Dar and I have already pre-reged. We might be hosting some themed room parties :3 I am quite excited for this :3

Anyways that's about all for now :3

Ttyl,
Foxen

Re-post the below and add "X"s as you see fit

AM I...
[] Cute?
[] Funny?
[] Oblivious?
[] Amazing?
[] Sexy?
[] Weird?
[] Annoying?
[] Addicting?
[] Inspiring?
[] Scary?
[] A bitch?
[] Selfish?
[] A sweetheart?
[] A disturbance?
[] A good friend?
[] Your best friend?
[] The reason you get out of bed every morning?
[] A failure at life?

HAVE YOU...
[] Cried from missing me so much?
[] Laughed at me?
[] Wanted to hold me?
[] Wanted to kiss me?
[] Wanted to slap me?
[] Tried to avoid me?
[] Thought about me?
[] Had a dream about me?
[] Gotten mad at me over something silly?
[] Talked about me behind my back?
[] Thought there might be an us?

DO I...
[] Make you smile?
[] Make you laugh?
[] Make you sick?
[] Make you sad?
[] Turn you on?
[] Make you blush?
[] Make you lol at how retarded I am?

WOULD YOU...
[] Carry me?
[] Kiss me?
[] Hug me?
[] Make out with me?
[] Make me watch something with you?
[] Take advantage of me?
[] Snuggle with me?
[] Cry on my shoulder?
[] Slap me?
[] Shake hands with me?
[] Sleep in the same bed with me?
[] Instant message me/text me?
[] Talk to me on the phone?
[] Dance with me?
[] Slap me on the ass?

You and I are...
[] Enemies
[] Complete strangers
[] Acquaintances
[] Friends
[] Best friends
[] In love
[] In a relationship
[] Engaged
[] Married
[] Aliens

ARE YOU...
[] Glad you know me?
[] Gonna ask me to be yours one day?
[] Afraid of me?
[] Gonna ignore this?
[] Gonna pass this on so I can fill this out for you?

Why is it as soon as one thing goes wrong, your entire life seems to fall apart and everything else goes wrong... :( Im going insane trying to keep myself and my mate sheltered... Working full time at a dead end job while trying to save up for college... It hard to ensure there's something to eat every night... Plus to add to that there's drama happening between a friend and I.... It just keeps adding up with the missed busses and bad customers... I think Im going to break down soon... Im physicaly exasted, all I want to do lately is sleep and mentaly exasted... My mate has been trying to get close to me but I cant let him in... Im just broken right now.... I hope things get better soon....

1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what Pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal

Last night while listening to some upbeat music, I ended up getting a huge blast of motivation to draw, i than found myself trying to some paper to draw on, even one sheet of virgin paper... While searching through some old packed boxes, I found some art from 2 & 1/2 years ago. I looked at it so suprized at how terrible it was! I mean there was no proportion, the techniques were sloppy and even my furson looked completely different! I felt ever more motivated to physically prove to myself that Id gotten better but alas... No paper D:

Posted this because I stole it from

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN BED NEXT TO ME who is also nude... using only 3 words, what would you say to me??

Note: If you comment, please copy and paste this as your journal, so I may comment on yours as well. Be a good sport.

I just got myself a Nintendo 3DS; my code is 5112-3626-2795 please add me XD

After sushi we headed back to the con. I ended up buying a couple small surprizes for my firend Diesel and myself. I hung out with a couple more furs and than had a really dead boring time for a bit. Later on I decided to offer all the dealers some pocky, than on of them convinced me to buy a book called "The Frantic Ramblings of a Furry Madman" this left me with only 12$ left in my pocket. So I had to start getting cunning, if I didn't think of something I'd starve, or worse I'd have to beg someone for money. So I went over to regestration and asked them hoe much tgey wanted for printing paper, the answer was 10¢ a sheet so I took out my toonie earning me 20 sheets and than bummed a pencil of of Ash, Dusty's friend. I than proceeded to set up at the very tiny Artist's Alley. My Prices were VERY resonable, for a baconized character (an idea my mate had that I will be offer as con badges when I open for commissions) was 2$ or 5$ for color the chubby-chibi-ish badges were 1$ or 3$ for color and a sketch or "Atempt at art" as I put it was 5$ or 10$ for color. So my friend Senny gave me 40$ for 2 color sketches cause he didnt want me to starve, made 5$ on a sketch of an wizard otter on a broom stick, Neex paid 3$ for a colored badge, (Ill send her a digital copy.) and Badger paid 2$ for a sketched badge. So 50$ in an hour was pretty good turn out lol. Next I walked around for a bit, stole Alkane's Nerf revolver and target lracticed on my friends and Alcane's crotch. Meanwhile there was Tornado warnings and Dusty was freaking out insanely because of it. That night we had a mini room party and I got really drunk, Sammy officially doesnt mind drinking with me cause Im a resonably responsable drinker. He made me a drink of Coconut Rum and Coke and it smelt like Christmas o.o Dodge and Baley Bat agreed lol It didn't quite make sence but it smelt like christmas and tasted AMAZING! The next morning I went to breakfast with Dodge and Dumpling, they went for a buffet but as anyone who knows me knows, im not a huge breakfast fan, so I ordered from the menu some Eggs Benedict with Ceaser salad. After this we went back to the con around 11 and I needed to go to bed, my head was still spinning from the night before. (lol)