I've got to do some thinking on chapter eleven. Theres at least one scene with the bad guys I'm going to delete for sure. But the other scenes probably all need complete make overs. Its kinda frustrating that I've had to rewrite the whole book again, but at least its a pheonix from the flames. I'm practically completely certain that I will not be making my deadline of October 31st either. There is just so much that I need to change, and one month is just too much. Unless I quit my job, but that doesn't seem like a good idea. I'm pretty sure now though, that I'm going to tell them to give me fewer hours so that I can wrte. Oh my boss is going to love to hear that, especially since she wants me to be a manager and work fourty hours. My parents also aren't going to be happy with the hours either. Tough, deal with it I say!

Thanks for listening to the update.

Alright guys, first time I've ever done one of these things before. Who knows, I might even do it right. (on a totally random note, for whatever reason I'm able to type at normal speed right now in FA. That hasn't happened in oh, 5 weeks or something... Weird.)

First discovered this from  luircin

~How often do you get writer’s block?
Riht now never. Editing a novel that I've had in my head for years doesn't give you much room for writers block. Not only that, but the characters are writing themselves, so that helps a great deal as well. Once in a great while I stumble across a writer's speedbump when I'm trying to do dialog and stuff, but even that doesn't last long.

~How do you fix it?
I usually mentally grab the character thats lost his or her lines and slap them around until their tongue gets loose again. In reality though, if the words aren't coming, its time to take a break and do the other parts of writing which don't involve writing, aka letting my imagnation loose for a while.

~Do you type or write by hand?
The first stages of writing for me are by hand. I have an old ratty beat up notebook with all sorts of story ideas, notes, characters, names, places, novels, series, whole darn worlds... All of that is hand written, but once it is, then its time to actually type. Then I pull out my trusty acer laptop and go to town!

~Do you save everything you write?
Pretty much unless its chat logs or something like that. I've got old notes from years ago. Granted a lot of stuff from before I decided I was a writer is gone forever, but oh well. But yes, I save like crazy now. I have my laptop, then my desk top as a copy of everything, then I have two flash drives with copies (one in my desk, the other in the fire box.), then I have a nice portable hard drive with a back up version as a just in case elsewhere, and to top it all off my novel is backed up offsite so if everything gets smashed I haven’t lost much. ^^ I be the save dragon!

~Do you ever go back to an old idea long after you abandoned it?
I haven’t yet, though I have thought about going back to my first several works and redoing them with my new practiced style and everything. Of course I’ve been trying to finish this darn novel first. I really should do nothing but write, sleep, eat, go to work, and repeat.

~Do you have a constructive critic?
Quite honestly, no I don’t. This is one thing that scares me. Either I’m the greatest writer the world has ever known, or people are too scared to hurt my feelings with my writing. I need constructive criticism, but I’ve received very little. Most of what I hear is “great job”, “You should publish this”, “it’s a good story”. I appreciate it very much, but I need someone that can make me cry, and then bring me back from the brink of throwing my manuscript in the fireplace and help me turn the darn thing into gold. If you can do that, I have a very important request. SEND ME A NOTE DARN IT! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!?!

~Did you ever write a novel?
Yes, its currently in the middle of the second draft. I have plans for… At least sixteen other novels, and quite possibly more too. I just need to get out of retail and learn how to sit and write all day long and ignore the less important things like sleeping and eating to get everything done.

~What genre would you love to write but haven’t?
Romance, Mystery, Science Fiction, Non-fiction, Modern day Fiction. Shoot, I’ve even thought about writing erotica.

~What’s one genre you have never written, and probably never will?
Westerns. Yeah there you go. Most likely won’t ever do one of those. However, the whole idea of a good old cowboy dragon is just awesome… Oh darn story idea incoming…

~How many writing projects are you working on right now?
Invading Will: A young dragon, an angry scout from the nation of Freeraven, and a druid from the north are brought together by an insidious trap designed to ensnare the fate of a small kingdom.
Tarak episode one: (short story) A guardian dragon looks after his village, and even after being with them for hundreds of years finds that its still not an easy job.
Imperium Rising: (Season one) (script) Earth, you’re not alone. Earth, its not friendly out there. Earth, its time to learn what your future holds for you, prepare for the fight of your lives. (This is in conjuction with other animators and artists. Its quite possibly the largest project and most detailed project I’ve ever worked on in my life. Its 9 years in the making. I’ll keep you all posted though.)

~Do you write for a living? Do you want to?
Not yet, but that’s the key. I am a writer, even if I have to live in a darn cardboard box to prove it. I have the determination to be one, and I will be one. I am only ashamed that I don’t write more than I do now.

~Have you ever written something for a magazine or newspaper?
No, though I have thought about it a great deal. One of the big reasons why I haven’t is that I can’t justify writing a little article or short story when I still have my first novel unfinished. Shoot, I feel guilty about that short story above, but you have to have some variety once in a great while.

~Have you ever won an award for your writing?
Yes, oddly enough I was published in a book of American poetry while I was in high school. The weird thing is I don’t write poetry, and I don’t much like writing the stuff either. Somehow the judges thought my short little thing was brilliant and submitted it to be published that year. The book is still down there too, maybe I should post that thing… Hmm…

~What are your five favorite words?
Green, conundrum, pancake, cookies, plot, why

~Do you ever write based on your dreams?
Based on my dreams, no. However, there are bits and pieces of dreams that have been making their way into stories and plans for years now. Beware, this could be bad for our heroes team, when I dream I don’t kid around.

~Do you favor happy endings, sad endings, or cliff-hangers?
I like happy endings, however I feel my characters have to earn them. So most of the time there is a cliff hanger, and then another and another and another until those heroes have thoroughly saved the world twice over and probably an additional time from themselves too. I like my stories epic, and because of that no story ever ends. MHA HA HA!

~Have you ever written based on an artwork you’ve seen?
You know, I can’t recall. I think I have, but I can’t think what it would have been. I draw a lot of inspiration from artwork though. All you artists out there, keep up the good work, you have no idea how much I appreciate your hard work. But anyway, for the fun of it, artwork from these people have given me some ideas for things in the future. This is in no way a complete list….
…Ok, I changed my mind. I am not going to put up my entire watch list. Because quite honestly, I’ve gathered at least something from everyone on it. I’ve taken at least a shred of inspiration from each and every one of you people out there, and quite a few of you out there that I haven’t watched, don’t know me, the list goes on.
I would love to do some stories based on a few pictures, but I really need to do other things first sadly. I hope perhaps soon I can, we shall see.

Alright, if I'm going to hit my deadline of October the 31st for finishing my novel, I've got 58 days total from right now. Actually I have more like, 57 days and 30 minutes. For all you technical people I have one-thousand three hundred sixty-eight hours, thirty-one minutes, and five seconds from the moment I just looked up at the clock. Can I rewrite twelve chapters in tha much time? Who knows!? I've never tried it before, so maybe I can.

I've got to admit, I'm starting to feel the pressure. So much more to do, and so little time to do it in. So many additions and things to take out. Oh my gosh, so much DIALOG to do. I can't belive I could write such trash when I first started. And then people tell me that the thing is great and amazing and wonderful, oh go publish it right now. >.<

So here's the plan, I'm going to get me as a cheerleader and cheer myself on to finish this momentous project! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2742919 see?  Kiguren has helped make this possible. Now with my self cheerleading team, I can get back to work knowing that I can do this!

I can do this!
I can really do this!
Oh my gosh, ITS SO MUCH WORK!

Alrighty everyone, I’ve got a special request this time. Tonight, about an hour and a half ago actually, a new idea for a couple short stories crashed into my brain like a cabinet of china tipped over by a boy that wanted to see how much noise he could make. At the very least I’ve got a short story that’s going to get done, and done soon. The trick is, I’d like to have a small reference picture done of one of the characters for two reasons. First, I think it’d be cool. Secondly, I’d like to use them as the story’s icon or heading or something.

If anyone is interested, please let me know, I’ll give you a description of this dragon. Also for the fun of it I could throw you in on the story as well if you wanted. I’ll take other requests if you wouldn’t want to be in the story, but we’d have to talk about it of course. If it breaks the story its all a no go sorry, but I’m willing to work with you on it. If no one wants to play along, well, its your loss then, because the story’s getting done one way or the other. I like this character too much to pass him by.

I hope this to be pretty soon too actually, I’m hoping on just a little short story this time, but who knows, I might have a short series if I really like the guy as much as I think I do now. Anyway, I thought I’d give everyone a heads up and whatnot. Don’t mind me, I’m a babbling writer. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’ve got a little village to go make….

*scampers off into the woods, then sounds of maddened carpentry soon follows*

I will copy-paste a rather lengthy description of myself from Pounced.org. I figure since its public there, I might as well make it public here. Not like anyone will have any sort of privacy in the future anyways huh? :P

Anyway, enjoy! Maybe you'll learn something about me for the fun of it.

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This is your chance to get to know me rather well before you actually get to know me. I’ll have the different search categories listed below so that way it will be easier to see who I am compared to what you’re looking for. Look below for the bold headings as guidance.

<b>Casual Friend Section:</b>
I like friends; its as simple as that. If you’re looking for someone just to talk to for a little while, or just something interesting to do for the day that’s fine with me. However, I am one of your “safety first” sort of people. I don’t particularly like the idea of meeting up until I know you, for that matter same with phone calls. I know that might seem pretty harsh, but its just how I operate. Let’s chat on a messenger for a while, or through email a while. I’m sure there is always something to learn about each other and fun things to do. Check out my Likes section below for some possible topics to play with. Hope to see you. ^^

<b>Good Friend Section:</b>
This is something that I am always looking for. A good friend is as rare as gold anymore. I have few that I put into this category, and I am always looking for more. Usually a good friend is built over time, and through a strong relationship of caring about one another, learning about each other, and listening to each other. A lot of the casual friendship section above fits here, but with a good friend, I am willing to go the extra mile. Drop me a line, the sooner the better because that means the more time we have together to hang out and have fun with life.

<b>Quick Yiff Section:</b>
Quite honestly, I am very skeptical of this section. I am one of those dragons that don’t see the use for a quick yiff. I would much rather have a long lasting relationship with a person that I love. I would think that a quick yiff would only either abuse and use another person, or leave myself open to be abused and used. These are things that I don’t want to bring to anyone, nor do I want them to happen to me. If you’re looking at me for a quick yiff, I ask that you leave me alone. If you’re looking for a life long partner to life, now let’s look at the Long Term section below.

<b>Short Term Section:</b>
I don’t even see what the point of a short term relationship is. I must not really understand the idea behind a short term relationship. This isn’t some sort of weird mate on loan program or anything is it? Well anyway, I don’t think that a short term relationship is what I’m looking for either. I doubt there would be as much abuse and using as there would be in a quick yiff, but this sort of relationship might be even worse, because it implies you or I will be leaving the relationship. Why set yourself up for pain and hurt intentionally? I think it would be much better for everyone to either stick with the Quick Yiff, or the Long Term relationship. See either of those sections. Or if I’ve completely misunderstood this sort of relationship, please contact me and tell me what I’ve done wrong. I’m always open to corrections.

<b>Long Term Section:</b>
This is something that I have been trying to find for years, and so far have only met with failure. I seem to have the tendency of attracting highly insecure people, or people that want to just bully me about. I’m tired of that sort of thing. I want a companion through life, someone that I can share the ups and the downs with together. I’m looking for someone that I can care for, care about, and care for others with. I’ve had years to think about what this sort of long term relationship would be like, but I have also come to understand that no one is perfect. So there won’t be a description of what my dream partner is, because that person isn’t out there. However, my perfect match with all their flaws, now that person is out there somewhere. Perhaps these words have reached them.

Things you may want to look through before you just immeadiately think that you and I are destined to be, written in the stars, and bonded soul to soul… Orientation and Gender section, Likes section, Dislikes section, as well as Opinions of Myself section.

<b>Orientation and Gender Section:</b>
My primary gender orientation is straight. Quite honestly, I like females. There is nothing wrong with that, and I doubt there ever will be. I am pretty darn sure that when I end up with my life long partner, that partner will be a female.

I have no problems at all with someone that is gay or lesbian. I believe that everyone is important, and has an absolute right to seek happiness in their own way. I won’t ever fault you for wanting whatever it is that you want. That being said, please don’t think my orientation is any sort of way to stop us talking. Some of my best friends are gay actually, though I don’t know off the top of my head if I have any lesbian friends. But anyway…

As I said before I am pretty sure my life partner will be female, but I also believe in love. Love, in its truest sense, is rarer than a good friend, in fact it’s the rarest thing in this world I believe. I’ve long since told myself that if I find the perfect match for me, and that person is a male, then who cares what the blasted world thinks. And that includes my parents that would never accept it, ha take that parents! I will say though, that if you’re male and thinking there might be a chance here, take things very slowly.

On another thought, I think I’d like to take any relationship slowly anyway. Why rush when you can smell the roses on the way and enjoy each other’s company eh?

<b>Likes Section:</b>
Chinese food, especially fried rice.
Luke warm spring days.
Sunsets, they are always breath taking.
Writing first drafts of stories.
Playing computer games, RPGs, RTS, Sims, Tower Defense, Adventure games.
Fantasy stories, especially with dragons in them.
Long hair, darn sexy yes it is.
Skirts, also darn sexy, yes they are.
Listening to someone singing.
Understand the lyrics of songs.
Music types: Techno, New age Symphony, Electronica, Modern Jazz?, New Age, Classical Symphony, Video game Remixes and Originals.
Numismatics.
Movies: Fantasy, Science fiction, Anime, and an occasional romance.
Canoeing and Kayaking, down those calmer rivers. None of that White water yet.
Hikes or long walks, both in the neighborhood and out on trails.
Time alone, I’m an introvert and sometimes you just have to have your own time.
Deep conversations, especially spiritual conversations.
Art, but I can’t draw, would love to learn.
Collaboration on projects, always love working with other people.
The color blue.
Dogs the most, but I also like cats, birds, fish, ferrets, mice, gerbils, those little hermit crabs, pets in general. Horses intimidate me a little bit, but I think with time I could get used to them.
Kindness, Sympathy, Honor, Dignity, Honesty.
Cuddling with the one you love… I miss that so much.
Mornings off. Ok, whole days off.
Board games, and card games. Especially Settlers of Catan.
Peanutbutter cups.
Freedom.

<b>Dislikes Section:</b>
Waking up early.
When my computer doesn’t work, or any computer doesn’t work.
My room when it gets too messy.
Not being able to live on my own.
Cheese, on pretty much everything. I’ll eat it, but its not my favorite. Very few exceptions.
Large crowds, but its not a phobia. I just prefer one on one conversations and whatnot.
Being cold.
Bug bites.
Tons of Piercings. I can tolerate them just fine though.
Close-minded people
People that are rude to workers in retail, because I work in retail.
Being angry, depressed, sad, or any of that.
Not knowing why.
People that cheat in a relationship.
People imposing things on others.
Hard core fetishes. I’m just not wild or crazy enough to handle that sort of thing.
Rap.
Pushy people.
Dishonesty, Hatred, Anger, Injustice,

<b>Opinion of Myself Section:</b>
Alright, this is something I’ve never really tried before, so bear with me. I’m going to tell you exactly what I think about myself. I’ll try to leave out exaggerations, modesty, and give you my purest opinion of myself. Its not everything, but hey it’s a different side of my mind that most people don’t get to see.

I’m a good friend, quite possibly one of the best you’ll ever have once we get to really know each other. If I feel we’re good friends, I will do everything in my power to help you out through the thick and the thin. There are limits I will even for my friends, but one thing is for sure, I try darn hard.

Whenever I get it in my mind that something needs to be done, and as long as I see its important, I work hard to get it done. I won’t let things stand in my way. If there are obstacles, I will find a way around them. Persistence is one of my greatest gifts, and I know how to use it, and when to use it.

I would make an excellent partner. I care deeply about those I love. While I will never be perfect, I will always do my best for them. I understand there are times when I am wrong, or that you need time to yourself. I understand that sometimes you’ll hate me, or that I’ll be angry and might even hate you. But for my partner, there is always a way to work things out.

I would make a good father. I’m good with kids, they usually seem to have a good time when I get to play with them. I’m able to teach, though have no degrees or anything like that. Plus I think kids are cool in general.

I’m a good listener. I listen well, and I can listen to you for a very long time. I give mostly good advice, though I will warn you when I don’t know everything. Even if I don’t know you very well I will care about your situation until you prove yourself to not be worth my time.

<b>Miscellaneous Section:</b>
This is just for random whatever. Other notes that I think might be important for others to know. Who knows, you might find something interesting in here. Then again, I might just bore the teeth out of you.

I’m an aspiring writer. I have a book manuscript finished as of when I wrote this, and I’m working on editing it so I can try to get the book published. I really enjoy working on fantasy stories, and I have a few short stories already finished. My current novel is going to be part of a series, all things working out that is. This series is actually the beginning of a whole line of stories about this particular world. I’ve got enough ideas to probably do about twelve books in all. Then there’s all the other story ideas I have floating about in my head. Now if only I could find the time to actually do that much writing.

I’m a dragon as you probably guessed from my ad here. The way I am a dragon is deeply tied with my own self image and idea of who I am. At one point in the past, I was a dragon. I have since reincarnated here on Earth and am now a human. I understand of course, that I am human, but I also believe that my soul is now both part dragon and part human. I don’t think that makes me any better than anyone else, and it doesn’t make me all that much different either. It gives me a few different perspectives on life though, and I believe that my draconic heritage has helped me live a better life than if I hadn’t known. To me, who I was and what I am now are the same, contiguous being. My online personality is just as I am in the real world, and I wouldn’t have it either way. I identify with the name Ahndeleck, or Ahn, as I would my given name. In some instances, I feel stronger attachment to Ahndeleck and Ahn than what I was given.

I’m a deeply spiritual person as well, as you might have guessed from the small paragraph above. I believe that life continues for eternity, and that we are all constantly developing.

<b>Links Section:</b>
My Fur Affinity Account: Not very active since I am still working on my book. Otherwise it’s the most active journal and updates place that I am willing to share at this point.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ahndeleck/

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All my commentors from the previous journal were definately right. Its not worth going back to the game, I just got out of FFXI not too terribly long ago. The last thing I need to do is get sucked into another one. Especially with a book on the way. Thank you all for your input.

On a side note, anyone know why if I type pretty fast in a web browser why it might not register all my key strokes? I notice it does that a lot here and on my Facebook account... Kinda bothers me, but I can't find any reason why.

My little brother decided to get back into World of Warcraft. And now that has me thinking about going back into World of Warcraft. What do you think? Is it worth going back to that game? Anyone here that I know that plays it? Or should I ignore it completely and move on?

The last couple days, I've been toying with the idea of changing the ending to my book. I would be altering the last two chapters, then adding an additional chapter after that. I'll have to let the idea stew in my mind.

Yeterday was a pretty important day, because I finished the blue line on my manuscript. The blue line is where I go through and find what I think I need to change to make the book better. Its usually the shortet part of the whole process, but its very imporant. Perhaps I'll scan up one page to show everyone just for the fun of it, even though its not really art now is it?

Anyway, what this means is that I can focus all of my remaining time on the second draft. Part of te good news is that I'm already about a third done with the second draft as it is. The bad news is I'm against a pretty steep deadline on this thing. I plan on having it done befor NaNoWriMo this year, November 1st. That doesn't give me a whole lot of time to wade through 100,000 words worth of novel. But it must be done, and I plan on doing it!

Charge!!!

I love Spore, its a wonderful creative game that actually does a game right. Then they make an expansion for the game that gives the game a depth that is absolutely astounding. I was so excited about this expansion that I did something rare for me, I pre-ordered the game from EA dirrectly. That is where this drama begins.

I pre-order the game back in Feburary, and its to be released in May. Well of course they have to push the release date back, realatively common in the gaming industry. I was dissapointed, but I know it would be worth the wait. The new release date would be July the 23rd. Well I'm going about my business and low and behold I find the game on the 21st! Its the full retail game, on sale at a local Best Buy before the game comes out. I know thats actually unlawful, or even illeagal, so I decide to tell EA about it. Well they blow me off of course.

Granted, I'm just a little peon that doiesn't know anything and can't proove it. I should have gone about that a little dirfferently. Still though, they could have been a little nicer about it. I work in retail, I know what I saw EA...

Well, I don't bother with the mess because I know I'll be getting my game in two more days and it won't be an issue then, I'll hve Galactic Adventures! Hurray! The 23rd comes and goes, and no package addressed to me. I wait the next day the same way, still no package. I decide that sometimes the mail gets a little busy so I'll give them the benefit of the doubt, I wait a whole week before I contact EA Games customer service.

It took them ten days, count that 10 days, to discover there was a system error in my order and that it was never processed. I would have thought that having to log in to a customer service account linked with my order, that they could tell there was a problem in one day. Ok maybe two or three for research time, but still ten days is dropping the ball badly. So they give me the option to go ahead with the order, or to cancel the order. I tell them to cancel the order because I don't want to mess with the $40.27 it would be to get it from them. I would rather pay the $29.95 from the Illeagal Best Buy and pay local taxes than support EA Games.

Now comes the fun part. Yesterday, one month from when I saw the game out in stores, one month from when I should have had the game in my house, I recieve an email saying that my order has been shipped. THE MORONS SHIPED ME MY GAME THAT I CANCLED ONE WHOLE MONTH AFTER I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET IT! What sort of customer service is that!?! They dragged their feet on the issue, dragged it out far too long. Then they don't even listen to what I want to do, they didn't even cancel the order. Tell me that there is more to canceling an order other than a few clicks of a computer. It can not be that hard. If it is, then EA Games drastically needs to learn a better way to do business.

The end result is that I'll never buy anything from them again. This whole mess has proven to me that they don't have a blasted clue what they are doing. I strongly urge all of you to stop messing with that abomination of a business as well. They don't deserve our money for service like that. Good games or not, if you can't support your customers, then you don't deserve business.

I am so angry with them, its not even funny. I've not been this mad in years.

In the indeterminate future, I will have a chance at a new job. The position hasn't opened yet, but its definately got some good points. Namely its enough money for me to actually live on my own, on my own four feet as it were. I don't know the details of the job other than, government bean counter or some such stuff. Truely though, that wouldn't be so bad, even when its the hard part of the year. The downside is that I'd have to move from where I am now, a place that I am growing attached to. But, I suppose that making a living is very important isn't it?

Yesterday at work one of the ladies that runs the printing service told me she really liked my novel. Which is a good sign I think. Thats the second person that seems to sincerely enjoy reading it. However, that also might pose to be a bit of a problem since they are enjoying the origional version more than my edited version. Perhaps I should rethink how and what I am editing...

Something to think about anyway. Still though, I can take pride in another small victory, someone likes what I write. That feels so good, you have no idea.

Alright, honestly, there isn't a whole lot I'm trying to tell the world here. I'm mostly just playing with the new keyboard that I bought today. Its pretty neat, and it has buttons. The combined force of those two things means that its nearly irresistable. Also combined with the fact that I wore off several letters on my old keyboard, made all the reasons I needed to buy this new one. Its smaller than I usually get, and its more like a laptop keyboard, which is kinda cool I suppose.

Anyway, on some other fun notes. I've been plotting and planning. I'm still working on my novel, and haven't finished it yet, but I am closer now than I was say a year ago. This might seem like a good thing and all, but sadly I've come up with a whole new novel that I'll need to write in the future. This means that I am even further behind than I was before. At this rate, I will never catch up on the work.

Also, I've acting very strangely lately. I've been hoarding art supplies like there is some sort of artistic apocalypse coming. Several different art books, more pencils than I've ever had in my life, a series of prismacolor markers, a super-fine point ink pen, and more paper than I know what to do with. I might have caught some sort of new disease or something. And its been expensive too is the worst part. Oh well, who knows what'll happen.

My ancestors were farmers. It wasn't glamerous or exciting, it was however hard work and necessary. Most of the world before me is exactly the same as my ancestors. Life is different now though.

Now we have technologies that make life easier. There is more free time today than ever. Life is the best its ever been. Or is it?

I have had a very easy life honestly. But its had its downfalls. The biggest is that I've forgotten life. Life is hard, there is no denying that. Most of my life has been trying to avoid that difficulty, why work hard when I can sit back and have a good time?

I see people today, and I look back to the past as well. I look at all this, and I feel ashamed of myself. Yes I have a full time job, and I do my time in it. But so many people around me have two jobs. Most people I know after they are done with work, go on to work on the house, do more schoolwork, or even chase after other constructive things in their lives. But I don't, I do my time at work, come home and generally sit around and do nothing.

Yes on several days I'll put in an extra hour before or after work to do some writing. But thats it. Is that "enough"? Am I just coasting in life? It seems like I am, compaired to everyone else. I have visions of several books to publish, but I don't know if it can happen as things are going.

Once again in my life, I feel the need to cut out something I am adicted to, video games. Since I was six I've been playing these things. They have given me many gifts in my life other than just a good time. I've developed a sense of imagination from them, and they have given me ideas and thoughts that have helped develop a good portion of my vision. I play hours and hours of games in a week, and I feel its just too much.

How do I get out of this loop? How do I get out of this addiction? I don't feel like I'm living right, I feel wrong. I feel that I need help, but I don't know what to do or where to go. I know it sounds pathetic compaired to a lot of other problems out there, and I'm sorry if I am going on about what might be a trivial problem. To me though, its a problem, and its been affecting my life in general I think.

Please if you read this far, I need your opinions, thoughts, support, suggestions. I'll take anything. And thank you for going through all this.

The store I work at is realatively popular. One of our customers is Richard D. Massey, and he recently published a new book called "Equals and Allies". He was kind enough to give me a signed copy of his book. And thats just plain pretty cool. Of course, I have no idea how good the book is, but details details.....

Isn't it amazing how sometimes you know you are a fool, but you do something anyway?

I bought some prismacolor art markers at work last night in the idea that I'm going to use them to draw with. Look at my account here, how often do I draw? I mean really, what in the blasted world am I thinking?

Although, the colors are pretty nice... And they draw pretty smooth... Its kinda cool...

*bows his head back over his scratch pad and doodles more*

Its amazing how much a little positive feedback can put you in a good mood. In the first time in, months maybe, I got some positive feedback on my novel. Its amazing when you get something like that, it truly is.

As a fun update, I'm editing chapter three for those of you that care. Other projects are going incredibly slowly though, but oh well.

For the people that know me online, I appologize that I haven't been on much lately. Life has been throwing me some oddity with my littlest brother being home. I hope to return to a more normal schedaul soon.

My project with Ley Crystals may be delayed even further. I shall update the fourth scene very soon. After that though, Ley Crystals will be my thrid priority project, due to the fact that a much bigger, more interesting, and viewer involved project has come along, and you'll like it too I'd wager. Anyway, I won't be abandoning this project, its just going to be slow. Besides, no one reads the thing anyway, so what would you be missing?

Alright, in light that I went on to get a Deviant Art site, I'm putting the Ley Crystals story on hold. This will not be a permanent hold however for the few that actually read this story. I will be continueing it once the DA site has caught up with this site. That way everyone gets the story at the same time with no favortism and drama like that. Anyway, hang on for a while and you'll have it back.

As a side note though, I'll be writing forward in the mean time just in case. Hopefully all will work out much better in the end. Thanks for reading the like one or two people that pay attention at all.

I've decided to go with Saturday updates here. Granted I expect basically no one to ever read any of my stuff. It seems the only way to get noticed on here is to have sex in ever episode, which I just won't do. If anyone ever reads the whole thing, I appreciate it. If I find a better place to put the story, I'll make note of the change when I make the move.

Anyway, the plan is to keep going, and push hard towards the next scene this upcoming Saturday. Hopefully the world won't get so distracting that I lose my pace and get behind. It might happen, and if it does, bear with me. This is one story I don't plan to leave unfinished.

Novels, short stories, commisions, and this extended series, so much to write!

Some general changes to take note of. Origionally I was planing on taking the Ley Crystals story slowly and carefully. Upon looking about though, I'm just going to charge forward with the darn thing. No edits, minor proof-reading, it'll just get on here as a rough work from now on. If I end up getting a majority of complaints about the readability of the story, then I'll go through an editing process before posting. Otherwise, deal with it, mha ha ha!

In other news, now that I have a little bit more solid grasp on my life, I'll be able to work on the Ley Crystals project a bit more and speed up production. Maybe I'll actually get the story going and get into the interesting stuff before too long. Hopefully I will before everyone forgets that I'm even here. >.>

Also, looking down the timeline of life a little bit... Assumeing no interruptions to my current plans, there may actually be some drawings on here before too terribly long. Don't hold your breath for anytime soon though.

At work today, I recieved a complement from a co-worker that I truly appreciated. I went into the office and told one of my managers / friends that anytime they wanted, I would teach them what I know about "technology". The manager has been one of my close friends from long before, and he was thrust into his current position unwillingly, and since he knows little about computers, networks and printers, I figured I'd offer again to help him out.

Well this other lady I work with looks over to him and says something like, "He's just so sincere. He's the most sincere person I know." She went on like that for another maybe ten seconds or something. Other than my close manager friend that I work with, I don't get much praise from anyone else at work, and it felt good to hear something like that. Its one of those little things that means a whole lot.

However, what happened next is another of those little things, that worry you a little sometimes. Just after my manager agreed with her that I was a sincere person, she asks, "How is it that you don't have a girlfriend?" I looked at her, and couldn't even begin to answer that question. She went on, "How is it that someone as sincere as you don't have a girlfriend?" and on for a while. My manager decided to go into the story about my crazy ex-girlfriend, and I decided to leave without adding anything to the conversation.

But that got me thinking a little, why is it I don't have a girlfriend? The only reason I can think of is that I'm pretty much a hermit. It doesn't really bother me a great deal honestly, I am what I am. After finally being able to pull up old thoughts on the subject I just don't think someone like me, with how much I pull back into myself, can really be a good partner in the long run.

But its little things like comments from people that can mean a lot to you, and get you thinking. In the space of less than a minute today, I had two of those little comments that do stuff like that. Pretty amazing really.

The ice storm wasn't too bad at all for me really. I had power and heat the whole time. Two things most of my area didn't have for quite a few days, some still don't. Only minor trouble was that I lost net connection, but oh well no big deal.

The area is a mess though, trees all around me lost limbs and quite a few trees are completely down. Plus there has been a few messed up cars and wrecks too. Thankfully, none of them involved me. Missed work for two days, and yesterday was very very slow. But things are getting back to normal, so that's a good thing. I'll be around.

Alright, I'm working this up in about the worst ice storm I've seen in ten years. Luckily I still have power, and I'm hoping that I'll have power for the whole storm. We'll see. Anyway, there is a chance that I'll lose power and it might not be back up for quite some time. So, If anyone gets to missing me, I'm just probably without power.

On the bright side, with no power there isn't much distracting me from novels and short stories to write.

Hmmm... >.>

Alrighty! I finished the book a long while back and I've taken a pretty long break from working on it and writing in general. I sure needed a breather anyway, those last few months it felt all I did was write and go to work.

But that time is over, I'm pulling back all the copies that I've sent out and beginning on the process of editing the whole book. That task feels about as huge as writing the thing, only this time I have even less of an idea where I am going. Oh well, I'll just have to keep on going I suppose.

On a fun little side note, the last several months I've been working on my project for here. While I don't yet have anything new to post, the ideas are starting to gel together much better than I expected it to. A nice surprise, and I hope a nice read for you all later on.