Working on commissions! I am sloowwllyyy getting them done, I promise none of you have been forgotten. But I also understand if youre feeling annoyed after so long -- I really cant blame you. I'm just hoping yall can hang in there a little longer. I am making progress even if slowly!

Hey guys, I'm not going to be taking commissions for a while. I was approved for disability benefits. I'm going to use that money to stay afloat and work on completing commissions I owe before I take on any more, IF I decide to take on more. I may just stick to making occasional YCHs in the future

I won't disappear once commissions are completed. I am an artist by default, I would just be focusing more on my own work and occasional gifts at that point.

Thank you to all of you who have been so supportive and understanding during all of this. I am working on completing commissions slowly but surely. I got pretty backed up, not drawing fast enough. It's overwhelming but we'll get there. I promise I won't leave commissions unfinished.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61351533

Here it is! :3

Got a couple fun YCH ideas I'm gonna try to post today! Stay tuned!

I need $200 to be able to pay this months bills. If youre looking to get a comm/YCH, please consider me! The link below will bring you to my open YCHs!

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....4817/Open-YCHs

(I hate begging SO MUCH but I am struggling ;_;)

Ah, sorry guys, I have a lot going on.

I'm going to be very open right now, but I have been trying to get approved for disability benefits for the past 2 years. I was denied twice and just had a hearing on May 28th. my attorney is hopeful. He thinks I'm going to be approved based on how the hearing went and the judge's responses. I have to wait a few months before I get a letter stating his decision, which I truly hope is positive. But dealing with all of this legal stuff, doing the hearing, was a real lot. On top of that, I am dealing with conflict in the family again, and I am just exhausted and very stressed out right now. I'm doing what I can to get into a more relaxed and positive mental state but I need a bit. thank you for understanding guys

It's my 33rd birthday! I am now officially an adult, according to Hobbits. x3

Activity is gonna die down a bit,

1. Migraine 🥲 my neck has been out and it's causing a lot of pain

2. My birthday is coming up (19th) and I'm going on vacation!

Hey guys! I'm doing a lot better off the meds, like yeah they helped with my anxiety but (and I know i said this before, but its very true) it really messed with my motivation. And I think it was actually making me kind of depressed! I thought LIFE was depressing me, I mean I do HAVE reasons to be depressed, but that really isnt MY normal, to feel that way. I'm feeling a lot better off the meds. I have a lot more energy!

I am currently going through my list of commissions and updating each commissioner with a WIP. I know some people have been waiting a WHILE and I feel so bad, I'm sorry guys. But, to those of you who haven't heard from me in a while and are waiting for an update, you WILL be getting a WIP soon!

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/lestifer

Lestifer's story revolves around victims he vores, give me a follow over there if thats your kind of thing! <3

DISPLAY NAME CHANGE, YEEESSSS! weve been waiting for YEARS XD Thanks FA staff! I can finally be TITAN.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60597746

Me and my boyfriend's characters!

Do you guys have any recommendations for where I could sell my digital comic? I know of a few websites but I'm not sure which is the best/most user-friendly.

I made a new account for my OC, Lestifer! Check it out, and give me a follow over there if it seems like it might be your thing! (His story is 1000000% vore oriented, so I think a lot of you would be interested haha)

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/lestifer

(I haven't posted anything yet but the plan is to take what I've already posted here, and repost it there. Then just post all his stuff on that account from now on.)

Thank you so much guys, I'm really looking forward to working more on his story and his comics. <3

I am finally working on my own personal comic! It will be a pay to view thing but I think the first page of every comic I'll give free ~

It's gonna be online. Anybody have recommendations of where I should post??

It's basically going to be Lestifer's story, and revolve around him seeking out his victims ~ (who he DEVOURS) it will eventually include his boyfriend, MY boyfriend's character, as well!

Here's Lestifer if you're unfamiliar: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48398153

Im thinking to make a separate account for Lestifer and all his stuff!

I'll keep ya posted!

Thank you guys so much, I'm honored you like my work!!

I'm gonna do another raffle soon!

I'm getting ready to draw up a new limited YCH, I'm thinking I'll do 10 slots. I'm gonna sketch it up on paper ~

Okay but I actually love this font

This is totally random but INTERESTING --

I found out I can sketch on paper, then literally trace over the paper-drawing with my stylus over my art tablet.

I don't really need to do that since I can just take a picture of the paper sketch and upload it into my art program

but I was curious to see if that'd work and it did xD

I'm fully off the meds now and the withdrawals are kicking my BUTT. I've been shaking for 3 days straight and I feel like I'm non-stop being chased by a macro (which is MY thing! I'M the Big Guy, here!). This macro also stepped on me, prior to the chase.

AKA I am SUFFERING

I'm doing what I can to keep level-headed and keep my body calm, but good GOD, I'm going through it at the moment, just FYI

I'm surprisingly still more able to work on commissions than I was on the meds, the meds were kind of messing with me.

Hey guys! Another update.

CHOLESTEROL:
I got blood work and turns out I needed to go on pills to lower my cholesterol. I've been eating very healthy and exercising as well as taking the pills. but that gave me quite a scare! doc said I had a 46% chance of having a heart attack within the next 10 years, so that was concerning. That's close to 50/50, no thanks! luckily she checked it. the pills and lifestyle changes help, I'm sure they've lowered it already. some people get bad side effects from the pills, but I fortunately haven't experienced any. 👍

ANXIETY MEDS:
I'm almost off my anxiety meds now. I should be completely off in a couple weeks. I was really struggling with withdrawal symptoms but they've started to settle. minor symptoms now, that I can manage. I suspect I'll have a few days where I struggle a little bit once I'm completely off but as of right now I'm doing okay!

ARTING:
For a while now, I'd been getting migraines every time I worked on commissions. I have switched my arrangement multiple times, trying to find a solution. Trying different chairs, one of them a kneeling chair -- not even that worked. I've realized the only.way I can prevent migraines while working on digital commissions is by standing. I've moved my tablet and all else that I need to a space where I'm able to stand. It helps A LOT!!! I haven't had a single migraine since. I will say that standing in one spot for that long hurts my feet, but wearing shoes and using a yoga matt helps to reduce the pain. And anyway, I'd rather have sore feet than a migraine any day. I don't think I've ever experienced a pain greater than a migraine and this is coming from someone who's had broken limbs and invasive surgeries. I seriously pity anyone who gets them.

BUT ANYWAY, if you're a digital artist and struggle with neck or back pain, consider standing.

It's interesting but I never struggle from neck pain, no matter the position, when I draw traditionally. I'm considering offering traditional commissions as well as digital. I know how to make key frames, the ones used in traditional animation -- it might be cool to offer that. I wonder how many of you would be interested?

I'm having some awful withdrawal symptoms from going off the meds but when I'm not withdrawing I have so much more energy, I think I'm definitely making the right choice going off these! I'm working on comms right now <3

Hey guys, I know I've been really slow lately, and I want to apologize again. I haven't forgotten anyone, I promise. I have a list of everyone who has commissioned me, and who I'm working on, what progress has been made. I know some of you have been waiting quite a while, and I feel really bad, I really am very sorry. I intend to finish every piece, they're on my mind all the time, I'm just slow at the moment. I know I've said this in previous journals and I feel kind of repetitive, but it is on-going that I've been having a hard time lately.

I started therapy some time last year, and also went on medication for my anxiety last year. I decided to do the therapy and go on the medication because I was really struggling with my home life, and was hoping the anxiety meds would help me to get a job so I could move out. I'm Autistic, I was diagnosed with Asperger's Sydrome when I was in my teens, so I've always been a bit awkward socially and have dealt with a lot of bullying as a result. My social anxiety is pretty bad, I'm borderline agorophobic -- it's difficult for me to even go to the grocery store, some days. But anyway, I was hoping the therapy and meds would help me to cope with the struggles of my home life and also reduce my anxiety so I could get a job and save for my own place.

I currently live with my family, and before therapy/meds, was dissociating frequently due to not being able to handle the mental illnesses in my home. I unfortunately live in a rather toxic household. Without going too deep into it, there has been domestic violence on multiple occassions. It has calmed down over the years, but I have PTSD from some of the things that happened. And even when things are okay with one member of the family, they're not okay with the other, and it's just a very stressful and triggering place to live.

So I have anxiety inside and outside of my home, and I was hoping the therapy and medication would not only help me to cope with my current situation, but also help me to get a job so I could save and move out. The medication has helped with some of my anxiety, but I do still have a significant amount of anxiety (still am too anxious to get a job), and one of the side-effects of the medication is constant drowsiness. I've been having a really hard time finding the energy and motivation to work on commissions, or do much of anything to be honest. Lately I've been having to rely on donations just to pay my bills (I have a very small family, just the immediate family, because we left a religion the extended family is still in. We were disfellowshipped, and considered apostates, and they're not supposed to interact with us, and haven't since I was young. But, point is, I can't rely on family to help me pay my bills -- my immediate family is struggling financially, themselves, and I don't have anybody else). I'm really very lucky, and grateful for those who have donated to me, it's helped me so much these past few months. Seriously, thank you. <3

Anyway -- I don't think my current medication is doing for me what I need it to do. While it does help a little with the anxiety, I do still have anxiety, and the side-effects are awful. I brought it up to my psychiatrist, and we are currently working on lowering my dose so that I can go on something else, something with less side-effects. Either that, or I'll just go hollistic -- I'm not sure yet. But at the moment, I am working on going off the current meds I'm on. Just being on the lower dose, I already have more energy, it's probably why I'm even able to write this very long journal lol

But I wanted to update, give those of you who are waiting for me to complete their commissions a bit more information. I promise I'm not just being negligent, or trying to cheat anyone. I'm very grateful for those that have commissioned me, and happy that others are interested enough in my work to commission me at all. I promise that I have every intention of completing the commissions, I'm just currently struggling to do so in a timely fashion. If you can continue to be patient with me, I would be so grateful. I promise promise promise I won't forget your commission. <3

I'll close this out with saying that I'm working on making things work. I haven't given up, and I don't plan on giving up. If you can hang in there while I'm working things out, I truly would be very appreciative <3 And thank you to those who HAVE been so patient and understanding during this time, it means the world to me.

(If you are able to and want to Donate, you can do so here ---> https://gofund.me/f36db7a3 Thank you so much for your consideration)

MY GOFUNDME: https://gofund.me/9cc853a9

Hey guys, I'm struggling a bit, if you can take the time to check out my GOFUNDME and read this, that'd be great. Donations would be greatly appreciated <3

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Seeking Support to Secure a Safe and Stable Living Situation

I am reaching out in hopes of finding compassionate individuals who can provide financial support during a particularly challenging time in my life. Living with Autism has presented numerous obstacles, and I currently find myself in a situation where I desperately need assistance from others to secure a safe and stable living environment.

Due to my Autism, I have been unable to secure consistent employment. Unfortunately, this has made it so that I am unable to move out of my current living situation, which has become increasingly toxic and detrimental to my well-being.

The environment I am in is causing me significant emotional distress, and I fear that without help, my mental and physical health will continue to deteriorate. I am in urgent need of donations to raise the funds necessary to secure a safe place to live, where I can focus on my well-being and potentially engage in programs and services that can help me reach my full potential.

Your donation, no matter how big or small, would bring me closer to escaping this harmful environment and building a more secure future. Funds raised will go directly towards bills and helping me to save for a new home.

I am grateful for any consideration you can give to my situation. Please share this with others in your network who may also be able to provide support. I am hopeful that with the kindness of strangers, I can overcome this difficult period and create a more positive living situation that will allow me to thrive.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story and for any help you may be able to provide.

MY GOFUNDME: https://gofund.me/9cc853a9

Ahh I feel embarrassed but I'm kind of desperate 3: if you can check out my GoFundMe, that would be great. Thanks guys

https://gofund.me/e3a12f00