I don't make many journals here, or post art. So... lets rectify that.

Not much going on. Life, sure, but thats about it.

Something I miss is Role Play. I just don't do it anymore and wish I had my old friend to still Role Play with. I sorta just fell out of it when IMVU got too heavy, and I got no more friends who do it. Meh...
There are lots of things I miss. Old friends who I probably will never see or speak too again. Maybe for the better, but that don't stop me missing them. Meh. Oh well.

I still got commissions up. If anyone wants one of those, throw me a note.

Strangely I had a rather quiet friend be heartfelt tonight. Its unusual for him.. her? He wants to be a girl. Really loyal and goofy.
Anyway, he got all concerned for me tonight for some reason. Its nice, but I ain't exactly something to be concerned about. I'm still mostly convinced that I ain't a good person.
but listen to me self-hate. I didn't start writing this journal to get pity. I started writing a journal for the hell of it and now just typing out whatever comes to mind.

I got a Tumblr too. I should probably link it here somewhere on my FA page.. Come to think of it, I really need to mess with my FA page and rewrite some stuff. Things change with my stuff. Maybe tomorrow. Tonight I'm tired.

Guess thats all.

Nada.

THIS. WAS. IT. This was the Godzilla remake we have been waiting for! After all these years of Godzilla, this was the proper remake we have always wanted. THIS. WAS. GODZILLA.

I won't dare spoil a thing. Godzilla is awesome, MUTO is awesome, the action is great, the acting is good, and all went perfect.

...I did miss the first ten minutes of the movie. CURSES! I bought my ticket in advance over two weeks ago and when I went to the theater, I found out that they were closed due to a broken water line outside nearby that I guess affected the plumbing for the building.
Got a refund, and then I raced to another theater because I was sure not gonna miss this momentous occasion.

And the audience... well, it wasn't that bad. I had a fear everyone was gonna laugh at this movie cause its Godzilla, since no one respects Godzilla. Well... people were giggling a bit at how people said "Good-zella!" as the Japanese do, and a bit of that...
BUT THEN THEY WERE CHEERING! People were legitimately rooting and cheering wildly for Godzilla as he was brawling with the MUTO and it was glorious. And when he used that breath weapon? PEOPLE ROARED WITH EXCITEMENT! I went "BOOYA! GO GODZILLA GO!" and everyone was going wild! It was amazing! That moment where it happened... I was so happy. It was. Was. Perfect.

I will certainly be seeing this movie again with family and friends.

Amazing night.

posted it here http://akitymh.deviantart.com/journ.....Info-432363295

Yes, I now got commissions open. I did one a few weeks ago, and decided to do more!

Now this is Fur Affinity, so bear in mind... I won't be drawing porn. Sorry guys and girls, but Paypal don't allow that. I know you don't gotta say what you're paying for, but I am an honest guy and I don't wanna risk it.

Now I won't be super expensive with this. I know skiilled artists who go for 50 dollars a commission in some cases, or at least 25.
I won't go that high. In fact, I probably won't go over 20. 10 at average.

This is how it works. Contact me through a note, we'll discuss stuff, come to a price and I'll do my best.

Alright, guess thats it. Commissions are officially open!

Title sums it up...
Oy so my dad came home and it was raining. He let the dogs out. My mom tried to tell him its raining and she doesn't want wet dogs int he house.
So my dad flipped his shit! Lovely... He took his coffee cup, threw it through the window and shattered it. Then he got in my moms face, screamed at her, yelling, etc, and even threatened her life.

So after that I went outside and pretended to leave. I was waiting for him to leave, so I could... Well, at first I though about trying to attack him. Hurt him some how... I sure felt like it. But instead I ended up yelling at him, calling him every word in the book and telling him what I though about his bullshit, what he just did, and how wrong he is... Yada Yada, I basically threw everything I could think of at him.

So yeah... after that he left, and now I'm in the middle of a lot of turmoil. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be around him! I want to go as far away as possible I don't have to look at him anymore.
But my fish, geckos and other belongings... plus where would I go?

I'm scared, I'm angry, I'm confused and I have no idea what to do with myself! AHH!!

Ugh... I wish he could work a double at work so this event would've have happened.

Whats worse is that I'm alone tonight. A lot of you are probably asleep, or not online, or other various reasons.

I don't know what to do man... I just have no idea...

You know... no one really watches me or anything. So I don't know who will give a damn about how I feel or.. whatever... but I don't know what else to do.

I don't really have many friends. Most people that I do talk to usually can't stand me... But why? Am I bad person? I seem to get told that a lot by how people react to me...
Ever since I was in school I never understood why people avoided me.. or picked on me... or hated me, hit me, told lies about me. All I wondered was "What did I do to them? What is it that makes me bad?". And questions like that followed me through out school. Nothing made sense to me.

It even follows me here on FA and DA. I got a few people I consider friends... but they don't seem to like me... They usually don't ever want to do a Art Trade with me, or Request from me... or talk to me... Or like my ideas.
And not just friends. One person I didn't even talk to just blocked me once and I still don't know why.

So why? I do not understand why people don't like me. I ain't a bad person... Am I? I never hurt anyone. I never talked bad about people behind there back... I'm usually really nice. A bit clingy, yeah, but that's because I feel happy when some one actually does talk to me.

In the whole world, only one person talks to me every day and seems to enjoy it. But there are days were she isn't there either...

So... what is wrong with me? Why am I this horrible person that no one seems to like?

Well, its a big deal. No Cub Porn on Fur Affinity. This is my view on the subject.
Now, as an open person, I dont favor cub porn, nor do I reject it like an over reactive christian. Its just another fetish of fantasy fur community and if some one likes it... well, then they like it, its not my buisness and therefor not my problem.
My opinion is reasonable. Cub porn is still basicly child porn. Yes, its fantasy, but its still immoral and wrong as its a child and such a subject is severly frowned upon. Its understandable. So this ban on it is okay. Even though there is other reasons other then "right and wrong".
Now, the arguing side. While its not right, it is fantasy. Even in the real world, men are allowed to sexually fantasize and its legal. So ontop of that, this is fantasy and as well its furry, which makes it even less realistic.

So down too it, we have two reasonable arguments that both sides are going nuts about. Its becoming such a big deal, that somce artists are even leaving Fur Affinity because Cub Porn will be no longer allowed on FA. Which is fucking stupid, in my opinion since this is still a good site. Thats like joining Myspace for numbers.
This whole thing is getting to the point that there are death threats going around.
So while I dont really care about the Cub Porn debate, I think my opinion is rather strong in saying that there is alot of uncessary drama and fighting go on because of it. Alot of people are acting like plain out idiots.
I dont mean any offense but it isnt that big of a deal. While its free speech and desire, its a reasonable choice to make. So no one make a big deal about it.

well, with that said, I think I vented out my opinion on the issue. later.

Well today is Thanksgiving. No duh, right? Not that anyone is watching me or gonna care of what I type, but I feel compelled to type.
So we all got fat today, with Turkey and Stuffin. yep, Stuffed Turkeys..... fuck, gimme a stuffed Krystal instead ^_~ haha.

Okay moving on. Latley its been lonely. Alot of freinds tend to just dissapear or stop talking to me for weeks at a time. Not just one person either. I always feel like im being avoided cause of it. If I didnt have such a crappy life, I suppose I wouldent feel that way at all. But, sadly..(sigh)

Not much else going on. Im gonna try some more furry porn if I can. FUR! PORN! SMEX! Yay!

Well, thats all... Talk to me people, Befire I fade >,<

Well, while I cant commison people to help them and get more art, I at least have the power to spread the word about people that are doing commisions and are in need of money for there daily lives. Bills and etc.

first off,  luthienkitty a traditional artist. Not many do traditional stuff anymore, since its all Photoshop nowadays. Not that Photoshop is bad. Traditional just needs more love. Anyway, she does commisions for very reasonable prices and does a very good job at it too. Give her a buzz to get the scoup.

then we got  bittenwolf09. I dont know him or anything but he does good commisions too. Reasonable prices again. Give him a look up.



that is all for now.

Well its not anyone really watchs me on here but I still wanna talk about how FA changed.
Honestly, I dont think its as appealing as it use to be. Much like how Deviant Art(DA) updated and changed alot. They looked fine before so there wasnt really much reason to change the look in my opinion.
Oh well. I guess when you spend alot of time online, I guess you have to get use to updates otherwise you might go insane.

Thats all.

I havent done too much latley... then agian, I havent done too much ever. I havent drawn much in the last few months, let alone anything that perverted or anything I want to put on Fur Affinity here... I guess thats my fault. But not many people are watching me anyway, and those of you that are, thank you for watching.
Ill try to post more and I prey that I can do a good job.

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Well... I woke up this morning to some bad, and horrible news... A long distance freind of mine died last night. Treys brother, JJ, a dear freind of mine that I liked so much. He was like a brother to me and yet, hes gone... He was shot, by whom, I dont know. No one knows...
His brother, Trey, is really upset... so is Fuse, and so am I.

I ask those of you that read this, to pay respects, please.

Rest In Peace JJ, Role Player of Sonic The Hedgehog.... October 1st, 1991 To April 17th, 2010. Farewell my dear brother... The world bids you a kind farewell...

Well as above, this is my first Journal ever. I have to say, im quite impressed with Fur Affinity. Its like a more perverted version of Deviant Art. Sister site you could say. Its great. Now I can post my perverted and nude art without any complaints of worries of my art being to dirty on DA(Deviant Art) and shit.
To add on, I can now watch  Fisk who is Jay Naylor(Most of you know that) and  Wolfy-Nail who by far are some of the best yiff and fur artists in my opinion.

Now a little about my current life and what is going on. I have nothing in the works for Fur Affinity right now, im working on my Kaiju which will be posted on Deviant Art. If anyone wants to find me on Deviant Art too see those, my name on DA is AkantorMH, just as it is here.

What are Kaiju? Think Godzilla and giant monsters. Thats about it.

A sad down on my current life is that my dad came home drunk the other night... I was torn up. And im not sure but I think he was smoking Marijuana too cause he smelled strange and it made my head hurt. Yelled at me, Yelled at my mom. Now my mom smokes and drinks out of control, and she has no money caus she spends it all on herself. So she needs to stop... but my dad toke it WAY overboard and threatend to divorce her which is bad for me. I would move out if I had the power and leave this shit. But I have pets and pessesions I refuse to leave and dont have that sort of money.
He yelled at me too. I was hurt... all I did was look at him. I dont care if he was drunk or high or whatever, I refuse to forgive his sorry ass anytime soon or ever. Son of a bitch....

Thats about all for now that I have in store. Not many people watch me yet but for those of you that do, thank you for the watchs and favorites. Ill try to draw more great art in the future.

Thank you and goodnight