Been nearly 3 years since my last update. There isn't much new going on though.

So after thinking it over for some time, I've decided to start doing my depraved fetish art again. Not sure how regular the submissions will be given my job, but I'll work on it. I have some stuff to upload, but I'll do it later when I can be arsed.

That's it really. Stay tuned.

It is now, time for update. I was going to wait a little longer until there was a finished art piece to upload, but as it's taking a while, I figured I'd just do it now.

I'm still working through cannabis addiciton, but the situation is better now and I am able to put more time and efffort into art and other things. I've been looking over the art on the channel so far and I am not happy with it. So I've been focusing on practicing and character design while not fretting over an upload schedule.

This leads onto the type of art I'm doing. I've been focused on fetish art ever since I've started, but I just don't enjoy doing it anymore. I know a lot of you here because of that type of art, but doing it just makes me feel dead inside. I think it's just wasted potential and it feeds into the addiction and makes it worse, plus it's more enjoyable to character designs and other stuffs.
As a result, I'm qutting doing fetish art, permanently. The past work done with be deleted over time and the art channel will undergo a change as a result. I'm sorry for those who are here and have added me for that type of art, but I just can't anymore.

Instead, I'll be working on my own IP. At this point I don't quite know what form this IP with take, but there are characters in the pipeline and world that is being built. I've uploaded a WIP at the same time for yee to see.
As for the other characters I've done so fare (Trorzennan, Xorvellith, long monkeh dude, etc), they'll be re-purposed in the future. Maybe a superhero thing with Tror as the lead, but it could be anything at this point.

I'm also going to put more effort into streaming, both art and gaming....and maybe darts >.>

Yeeeee that is all the things.

Just to let ye peeps know, I won't be uploading for a while due to my personal life getting in the way. I'm still dealing with my aforementioned problems and haven't had much chance to do any art. Going to be making some changes to my page when I'm ready to make a return.

That be it.

I'm going to try out a bit of streaming, both art and Dark Souls 3. Come see me fumble through my first stream in years.

https://www.twitch.tv/akendolfr
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5.....LnE2bZpRrM7rHw

Please ignore the crap banner work.

So just a quick update incase you're wondering why things are getting delayed yet again, plus some more info on the M Y S T E R Y P R O J E C T.

I got myself addicted to cannabis again. I managed to quit for about 4 months earlier this year, but my stupid arse thought I could go back to it and do it on a moderate level. I immediately failed of course, and I've been going through periods of quitting and starting up again. It's happened so many times now I've lost count and constantly going through withdrawals has been seriously messing with my state of mind. It got so bad I just spontaneously broke down in tears at work.

So yet again I'm working to quit, and this time I won't be going back.

As for the project in question. It's going to be a macro/micro, vore and paw themed visual novel. So far:
- The idea for the story is locked in. I have an idea of the events in the story, but a lot of it is still up in the air.
- The structure of the game is locked in, subject to some changes.
- The character designs are pretty much done. There is:
* Trorzennan the horse
* Velzhir the baboon
* Adoelis the rabbit
* Fahlnier the raccoon
* <TBC> the german shepherd (I contemplated a hyena, wolf, iguana, bear, an god damn dinosaur, then ultimately settled on none of the above :v)
* Xorvellith the goat (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45375771/ this dude, who shall be redrawn)
- The personalities of this are....somewhat locked in.

At some point, when I have something substantial and sellable, I'll be putting this onto Patreon or a similar platform.

So yah. Feel free to ask me things are what's going on.

Tis very early yet, but I'm moving forward with an idea I've had for a while now. I've just spent near £650 on a Artist 24 Pro and protector film. I'll make an update when it arrives. Should be 7 days or so.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWxZpm7CHD0

Touch the goose.

Well it has been about 18 months since I made a serious post about things. I've been meaning to do it earlier, but there has been so much stuff getting on top of me that I just never really go around to it. Now that I have a bit of free time, I can finally get it done.

I've been very concerned about my mental health as of late. I usually don't like to self-diagnose myself on these issues, but I've been reading up on how I've recently been feeling and behaving and I fear that there is a small chance that I might be bi-polar. I read up on this just before I called my local GP to book a therapy appointment so I am just waiting up on that.
I should've of done this earlier to be honest. Because of increasingly erratic behaviour, things have just been getting more difficult. I resigned from my last position because of a paranoid thought I had in my mind, but worse than that, I've pushed away the closest friend I've ever had.
All of this has been made worse by a cannabis addiction I've had for some time now and it's just made everything much worse. Hell, I'm even high when I making this post.

I want my closest friend back, I want to be employed in a stable job, I want to get rid of this addiction and I want my mind to be in balance again so I can start functioning like the responsible adult I used to be.

Tonight, I'm making a start on getting my life back together, which is part of the motivation to make this post. I've binned all of my weed and got rid of any weed related items in the apartment and I'm marking tomorrow as the first day of quitting. I'm going to put everything into getting a job, getting my social life back, my mental health in order and I'll eventually make something of my life.

Alongside this, I'm going to put a lot more time in my art projects. Right now I'm putting most of the focus on my two characters; Itsuki and Akendolfr. I'm going to make a indefinite series of comics using this characters and keep it PG or PG-13 maybe and separate from my other works. That's not to say I've stopped doing the usual stuff I do, that will still come.

I'm still in the practice stages of doing art and I still do a bit of experimentation, but I've settled on a chosen style and I'm working hard to try and keep the uploads regular.

I've also put some thought into trying out 360 panoramic art. We shall see.

Yes, that is all the things.

Aye it really has been a while since I have updated my journal with current goings on. I just tend not to really have much to put into the journal and I forget it actually exists. But, it has been just over a year now since I have written anything and I think it is about time to say something to whomever may notice.

Quite a few unfortunate things had happened since the last journal entry. I was evicted from my previous apartment due to being issued a Section 21 notice. My understanding of the notice is limited, but I shall try and explain. A Section 21 notice is a no-fault eviction; it gives the landlord the power to evict people without giving a reason after the initial tenancy period is up. I had not done anything to bring the eviction upon myself by breaking any of the rule regarding my tenancy, so I can only assume it was because the landlord had pans to renovate the building I was residing in given that it had some major problems. The rooms were leaking, the mould was atrocious and the windows had to be replaced with ones that could actually be opened. This turned out to be a good thing though: I got my full deposit back, and I managed to find a better apartment close to the city. So, despite the stress it caused, I have ended up in a better position.

Few months later, I was unfortunately I was made redundant from my job due to the Crayola virus. While I had been dreaded losing my job for a while, even before the virus has caught anyone's attention, I must say I'm feeling a lot more positive than I thought I would be in this situation. I think it's mainly because (a) the department I was working in at the time was gradually running low on work and so it seemed like it was inevitably going to close anyway, (b) I had been mentally preparing myself for the time that I may lose my job due to lack of work, and © the job itself was just making me miserable anyway, so I think just getting away from that current position has greatly lifted my mood and made me more positive about things in general. So that's everything on the work side. Of course now I am currently looking for a new position; something that hopefully will pay a bit more.

Now that I currently have more free time I've been doing a lot more art lately, and also I have taken a much needed break from video games as I had reached the point where they simply were not fun anymore. I may just decide to give up on games altogether, we shall see. This of course has given me even more free time, to the point where I'm actually running out of things to keep myself busy. I still do play guitar so maybe I shall do more of that. I've also pondered possibly writing some fiction, working on my touch-typing skills and my grammar in the process.

This brings me onto something else, that being RPing. I MIGHT (and I stress the word "might") try RPing again. It's something that I have been putting off doing because of some previous past experiences: finding people who are willing to the put a similar amount of effort in as I do in the RP, having the patience to actually take part in an RP, and having the confidence in myself to try RPing again. Hopefully I'll run into someone I can get along with and whom will give me the opportunity to try it out again. I'd like to properly have a updated ref pic of my fursona first before I consider trying it out again. I am in the process of doing one and it should be uploaded within a few days.

So yeeeeee this is all the main stuff that has happened to me in the past year, but I'm coming out of it with a more positive attitude than I had last year, so I'm feeling pretty good :v

I never use my journal on FA, never really know what to write on it. I figured I might as well use it now and again to let peeps who may be following what I ma currently doing. Right now I'm doing streaming stuffs on Twitch....so yah, that is a thing :v

https://www.twitch.tv/akendolfr