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Posted 14 years agoOkay, so a lot of you who keep an eye on me are probably wondering: Where the hell have I been, what the hell have I been doing, and why aren't there any new stories or chapters to "Watch Over Me, Father" up yet? The answer to that is two part; the first and main reason is that I've been working lately; at the start of the summer, it was between my job and working around the rental house my parents owned on top of work at home. Currently, it's my job and settling down after moving out of my parent's house. Suffice to say, it's been an exceptionally busy summer. Secondly, school; it's starting in just two more weeks and I'm working my ass off to try and get everything organized for that. My success thus far has been limited due to my internet being far more stubborn than it has any right to be in terms of the school website.
Despite that, I have been writing, both for Niveus' story (I have art of him finally, go look! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6191634 ) and a story for a new character that I am absolutely entranced by named Afon Tenau; a few people may remember me mentioning her in the past, but I've finally started developing a firm story for her, taking what little time I have during my breaks at work to continue writing. The only downside is... the story is written neatly down in a little leather journal I have, and I have yet to take the time to transfer what I have written onto the computer. I am still writing when I get the chance, though, I promise! Expect to see the equivalent of a "Chapter One" on Afon's story soon, and as for "Watch Over Me, Father," it's the same in that I just haven't made a computer transfer for Ch. 6 yet, so expect to see that relatively soon! I'd like to say I'll have both done before the end of August, but... I honestly have no clue how school is going to pool out and I'm working pretty steadily over the next few weeks before school starts, so we'll see how much I get done.
So, that's that! "Watch Over Me, Father" Ch. 6 is done and just needs to be typed up, and I've written roughly two thirds of Afon's first chapter. Hoping to get in some serious writing time over the next couple of weeks, and I hope you all are willing to forgive me for slacking off on my FA duties in lieu of real life duties n.n;;
Despite that, I have been writing, both for Niveus' story (I have art of him finally, go look! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6191634 ) and a story for a new character that I am absolutely entranced by named Afon Tenau; a few people may remember me mentioning her in the past, but I've finally started developing a firm story for her, taking what little time I have during my breaks at work to continue writing. The only downside is... the story is written neatly down in a little leather journal I have, and I have yet to take the time to transfer what I have written onto the computer. I am still writing when I get the chance, though, I promise! Expect to see the equivalent of a "Chapter One" on Afon's story soon, and as for "Watch Over Me, Father," it's the same in that I just haven't made a computer transfer for Ch. 6 yet, so expect to see that relatively soon! I'd like to say I'll have both done before the end of August, but... I honestly have no clue how school is going to pool out and I'm working pretty steadily over the next few weeks before school starts, so we'll see how much I get done.
So, that's that! "Watch Over Me, Father" Ch. 6 is done and just needs to be typed up, and I've written roughly two thirds of Afon's first chapter. Hoping to get in some serious writing time over the next couple of weeks, and I hope you all are willing to forgive me for slacking off on my FA duties in lieu of real life duties n.n;;
Repost: Anti-Bullying
Posted 14 years agoA 15 year old girl holds hands with her 1 year old son. People call her a slut, no one knows she was raped at 13.
People call another Guy fat, No one knows he has a serious disease causing him to be overweight .
People call an old man ugly, No one knew he had a serious injury to his face while fighting for our country in the war.
Repost this if you are against bullying and stereotyping. I bet 95% of you won't.
Copy and paste on a new journal entry if you are against bullying and profiling.
Stolen from Leros
People call another Guy fat, No one knows he has a serious disease causing him to be overweight .
People call an old man ugly, No one knew he had a serious injury to his face while fighting for our country in the war.
Repost this if you are against bullying and stereotyping. I bet 95% of you won't.
Copy and paste on a new journal entry if you are against bullying and profiling.
Stolen from Leros
God I'm a nerd sometimes...
Posted 14 years agoSo my dorm-mate asked me if I had any Magic the Gathering cards to test his new deck against yesterday. I used to play a lot with my roommate, so I still had a few cards in the room... And after seeing some of the stuff he got from the new set, I was all "Oh wow, new Vulshok and Leonin cards? I gotta get in on this! *quickly run to card store and buy five packs* Yay, I got all the new Leonin and Vulshok cards!" Proceed to half an hour later, when I'm looking at the cards going "... wow. I am... depressingly nerdy sometimes," which then led to, five minutes later, "I wonder if I could make a deck using Koth of the Hammer and Ajani Goldmane, and base it around Vulshok and Leonins?" *pull up computer, look up all available cards from last two sets and upcoming set. Stop. Feel depressed and sulk. Continue looking* "Fucking god, I'm pathetic!"
GREAT TRAGEDY! >.< I could have been spending all this time doing something productive, writing being the big one... and instead I ended up making a 'want list' of cards for MtG. What a goddam nerd I am...
GREAT TRAGEDY! >.< I could have been spending all this time doing something productive, writing being the big one... and instead I ended up making a 'want list' of cards for MtG. What a goddam nerd I am...
I write too much
Posted 14 years agoI have come to this conclusion based on a homework assignment that I just finished; I received this assignment yesterday, to be due tomorrow; it was originally assigned two weeks ago, but I was sick and therefore missed it until this last Tuesday, where I learned that other students were getting it back. After discussing it with the teacher, he said that I could turn it in on Friday with a 10% dock in my grade. Unfortunately, the guidelines were not posted that Tuesday night, so I sent him a message and he got them posted on Wednesday.
I spent from about midnight to six writing this five page paper; on the required list was five sources (I went with four because one of the sources is impossible for me to get with only two days to do this), all of which I had to use and quote from, in addition to an explanation of democratization. The idea was to address a potential change in the political system and to discuss the benefits of said change, and the arguments against it.
I wrote out this five page paper, wrote up my bibliography and sources page... and then I realized that I'd been writing in the Microsoft Office's new line spacing format "Multiple" when I was supposed to be writing in double spaced. So I fixed this.
I wrote a NINE PAGE PAPER last night. Nine fricken pages on a subject that I don't even care that much about; I just don't want to lose the full 100 points that this paper is worth. I get the feeling that perhaps I write too much. Just maybe.
I spent from about midnight to six writing this five page paper; on the required list was five sources (I went with four because one of the sources is impossible for me to get with only two days to do this), all of which I had to use and quote from, in addition to an explanation of democratization. The idea was to address a potential change in the political system and to discuss the benefits of said change, and the arguments against it.
I wrote out this five page paper, wrote up my bibliography and sources page... and then I realized that I'd been writing in the Microsoft Office's new line spacing format "Multiple" when I was supposed to be writing in double spaced. So I fixed this.
I wrote a NINE PAGE PAPER last night. Nine fricken pages on a subject that I don't even care that much about; I just don't want to lose the full 100 points that this paper is worth. I get the feeling that perhaps I write too much. Just maybe.
Minor Infestation...
Posted 14 years agoOf cunt boy images. Oh dear god. Not to insult anybody who loves cunt boys, but... I take issue when I log into FA just to check if anything new is here and there are not one, but two cunt boy images. Not even on the front page; on the home screen, where there's only ten or so images total. Two cunt boy images. DISSATISFACTION!
Again, no offense to those who like cunt boys. I personally do not like them and therefore dislike seeing images based on them. Is what it is, don't hurt me.
Again, no offense to those who like cunt boys. I personally do not like them and therefore dislike seeing images based on them. Is what it is, don't hurt me.
Just realized something
Posted 14 years agoSo I'm taking a quick break from my studies, just gonna pop on FA, check my submissions, do a little browsing, and all of a sudden it hits me why FA frustrates me sometimes.
The only artwork that is high enough quality with enough effort put in it to fave is... porn. Almost without exception, if you see a piece of artwork and it's got the red lining, there's a fairly decent chance that when you go in, you'll say "Oh my, that's a fantastic piece of art." Assuming you're fingers aren't busy down below, that is... Anyway. in comparison, though, you have to literally hunt to find any good artwork that isn't depicting someone getting down and dirty. It's frustrating. A while ago I was asking myself why so much of my favorite gallery was porn; well, now I know. I can't even say it's like... percentage based. I mean, sure, there's infinitely more clean posts than non, and yet... it's like one in every four red-lined posts are decent enough to pop in and say 'that's some decent art'. In the meantime... I've just skimmed through ten pages of FA, most of it general and mature, and I found a grand total of 'one' piece of art even worth looking at. Thankfully, it was also a good enough piece to fave...
Anyway, no, I'm not mad, so dun' feel like you should sympathize with me. It just makes me a little sad that people can't seem to put the same amount of effort into clean artistry that they put into the dirty stuff. Oh well. Aki will live, and Aki will continue studying. Gonna end this here; back to studying. But to anybody watching me who can draw/photoshop/whatever you do, makes (mostly) clean art, and puts all their effort into it - kudos to you.
The only artwork that is high enough quality with enough effort put in it to fave is... porn. Almost without exception, if you see a piece of artwork and it's got the red lining, there's a fairly decent chance that when you go in, you'll say "Oh my, that's a fantastic piece of art." Assuming you're fingers aren't busy down below, that is... Anyway. in comparison, though, you have to literally hunt to find any good artwork that isn't depicting someone getting down and dirty. It's frustrating. A while ago I was asking myself why so much of my favorite gallery was porn; well, now I know. I can't even say it's like... percentage based. I mean, sure, there's infinitely more clean posts than non, and yet... it's like one in every four red-lined posts are decent enough to pop in and say 'that's some decent art'. In the meantime... I've just skimmed through ten pages of FA, most of it general and mature, and I found a grand total of 'one' piece of art even worth looking at. Thankfully, it was also a good enough piece to fave...
Anyway, no, I'm not mad, so dun' feel like you should sympathize with me. It just makes me a little sad that people can't seem to put the same amount of effort into clean artistry that they put into the dirty stuff. Oh well. Aki will live, and Aki will continue studying. Gonna end this here; back to studying. But to anybody watching me who can draw/photoshop/whatever you do, makes (mostly) clean art, and puts all their effort into it - kudos to you.
Expanding my horizons as a writer
Posted 14 years agoSo, obviously, I've got a pretty solid grasp on the kinds of writing I do; mostly modern day fiction, dealing with the lives of my characters, sometimes with minor conflict but mostly taking the 'slice of life' approach. I intend to keep this as my main style of writing, and to that, consider Niveus my pinnacle creation for that style. But... I've been feeling a bit dissatisfied with Afon's character despite how much I love her basic concept, so I've decided to take a new approach and, with her story, step out of my comfort range.
Now, I know, I posted her character sheet as a 'modern day' female, but I'll be taking that down shortly. Rather than having her as a modern woman, I instead am considering making her story into a historical fiction. Make her Celtic, develop a situation for her, and make her story something closer to a legend or local myth. Suffice to say... if I decide to go through with this, it's going to be difficult for me. But I love the concept. As an added plus... I can't help it, the potential character art that I could commission of her as a Celtic woman make me swoon a little.
Anyways... I'm thinking of making her kind of the princess moonlighting as a brawler. So on the one hand... silks, fine dresses, jewelry, womanly things. on the other, scruffy outfits, flamboyancy, and hand gloves (I just had a heart attack of joy inside saying that...). The whole 'two sides of a life' thing... Who knows, it may just be a local legend of the brawler princess, or it may develop into an epic of her life, starting as the brawler, and eventually becoming a hero and legend. We'll see.
Now, I know, I posted her character sheet as a 'modern day' female, but I'll be taking that down shortly. Rather than having her as a modern woman, I instead am considering making her story into a historical fiction. Make her Celtic, develop a situation for her, and make her story something closer to a legend or local myth. Suffice to say... if I decide to go through with this, it's going to be difficult for me. But I love the concept. As an added plus... I can't help it, the potential character art that I could commission of her as a Celtic woman make me swoon a little.
Anyways... I'm thinking of making her kind of the princess moonlighting as a brawler. So on the one hand... silks, fine dresses, jewelry, womanly things. on the other, scruffy outfits, flamboyancy, and hand gloves (I just had a heart attack of joy inside saying that...). The whole 'two sides of a life' thing... Who knows, it may just be a local legend of the brawler princess, or it may develop into an epic of her life, starting as the brawler, and eventually becoming a hero and legend. We'll see.
To those watching me -
Posted 14 years agoI did some spring cleaning. Cleaned out my submission list so I only had one of each submission, took down all of the stuff from Gail, cleared out most of my journals, and even revamped my profile page. So, on the schedule for all those watching me, three things: One, making sure that if you're watching me, it's for the right reason. Two, I'll be absent for a while. Three, what I'll be throwing up (in scraps) during said absence for those who continue watching me to read over if they feel like it.
So, first things first: If you're not watching me because of my stories or poems, I'm going to have to ask that you remove me from your watch list. I appreciate it if you like the art on my page, but frankly, aside from two, maybe three pencil line arts, it's all commissions - and I don't really have control over when said commissions are going to come in, since I haven't actually commissioned any of them myself. They've all been gifts. So, since I don't get commissions very often, and I don't personally submit artwork, that leaves me with my stories and poems - and if you don't want to read my stories or poems, then you're probably watching the wrong girl.
Secondly, finals. Oh god, finals. I found out last week that I'm completely screwed in two weeks if I don't get my ass in gear and study until my eyes bleed. Three finals are cumulative, one is not, and one is just a final portfolio. Unfortunately, two of the three cumulative finals are the subjects I have the most difficulty with, so yeah. I'm going to be parking my cute little ass down, pulling up a magnifying glass, and searching for every possible meaning to those classes in my books - not to mention having to work on the final portfolio and general homework while I'm doing that. It's gonna be busy, and so, I won't exactly have any real constructive activity here on FA in that time frame.
Third, I'm probably going to start throwing up character bios. Nothing too big, just basic information on them, concept thoughts, their little quirks and unique markings if they have any. Some characters I've used, some that are still just floating around in my head... It's like free writing, if when you free wrote you were writing down one of your multiple personalities. All in all, it'll just be an easy, structured stress relief for me, and it may introduce you to a new character you like or help you know an older character better.
Alright, that's that. Thanks for taking the time to read this, everyone; have a good spring, and avoid the allergens like the plague!
So, first things first: If you're not watching me because of my stories or poems, I'm going to have to ask that you remove me from your watch list. I appreciate it if you like the art on my page, but frankly, aside from two, maybe three pencil line arts, it's all commissions - and I don't really have control over when said commissions are going to come in, since I haven't actually commissioned any of them myself. They've all been gifts. So, since I don't get commissions very often, and I don't personally submit artwork, that leaves me with my stories and poems - and if you don't want to read my stories or poems, then you're probably watching the wrong girl.
Secondly, finals. Oh god, finals. I found out last week that I'm completely screwed in two weeks if I don't get my ass in gear and study until my eyes bleed. Three finals are cumulative, one is not, and one is just a final portfolio. Unfortunately, two of the three cumulative finals are the subjects I have the most difficulty with, so yeah. I'm going to be parking my cute little ass down, pulling up a magnifying glass, and searching for every possible meaning to those classes in my books - not to mention having to work on the final portfolio and general homework while I'm doing that. It's gonna be busy, and so, I won't exactly have any real constructive activity here on FA in that time frame.
Third, I'm probably going to start throwing up character bios. Nothing too big, just basic information on them, concept thoughts, their little quirks and unique markings if they have any. Some characters I've used, some that are still just floating around in my head... It's like free writing, if when you free wrote you were writing down one of your multiple personalities. All in all, it'll just be an easy, structured stress relief for me, and it may introduce you to a new character you like or help you know an older character better.
Alright, that's that. Thanks for taking the time to read this, everyone; have a good spring, and avoid the allergens like the plague!
To Every Guy
Posted 15 years agoSnagged this off of 
because I couldn't help but think of how true it was...
♥To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"
♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls
♥To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥To every guy that really would.
♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes
♥To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.
♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.
♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.
♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them
♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door
♥To every guy that gave his heart.
♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not re post this cuz they care more about their image
If you are a nice guy re post this with: "Nice guys STILL finish last "
If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
re post this with: "To Every Guy"
because I couldn't help but think of how true it was...♥To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"
♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls
♥To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥To every guy that really would.
♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes
♥To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.
♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.
♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.
♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them
♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door
♥To every guy that gave his heart.
♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not re post this cuz they care more about their image
If you are a nice guy re post this with: "Nice guys STILL finish last "
If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
re post this with: "To Every Guy"
The meanings behind The Door to December and The Storm
Posted 15 years agoThe intended message behind "The Door to December" is that when sick and tired of life's ups and downs, of the judgment other people cast over you and other people, and of feeling and/or dealing with the joys and sorrows and loves and hates that are a part of daily life, it's okay to retreat into a cold and unfeeling stage; to retreat to a world of solitude and freeze your heart, so that the world doesn't burn you; it also warns of the dangers of doing this, saying that while it's alright to do it, you have to be careful not to get lost in the world, and let your heart and feeling be frozen in place.
Hopefully that makes sense to everyone.
"The Storm"'s message is simpler; simply that life's daily routines can get old (I'm sure we all know that...), and that sometimes we need a dramatic change to come and sweep our lives off their feet, so that things become interesting again.
To everyone who voiced an opinion under the actual poems, if I haven't thanked you in the submission comments then here's a huge thank you for all of you here in the journal n.n
Hopefully that makes sense to everyone.
"The Storm"'s message is simpler; simply that life's daily routines can get old (I'm sure we all know that...), and that sometimes we need a dramatic change to come and sweep our lives off their feet, so that things become interesting again.
To everyone who voiced an opinion under the actual poems, if I haven't thanked you in the submission comments then here's a huge thank you for all of you here in the journal n.n
What is it that you fear most?
Posted 15 years agoThat's a question that I think everybody has to ask themselves. It can be something ridiculous, it can be something reasonable. But everyone has to ask what they fear most, and what they don't fear. And then they have to ask why.
I don't fear death. To fear death is to fear the unknown, and I'm willing to let the unknown reveal itself to me in time, whether that time is sooner or later. Because I don't fear the unknown, I don't fear the great unknown that is death.
I don't fear pain. I don't like it, and I certainly don't go out of my way to hurt myself, but I know pain is a part of life, and so I don't fear it.
I don't fear the public opinion. I know that no matter what the general public says, if I remain happy with myself, that's the most important thing, and therefore I do not fear opinion.
I don't fear loneliness. As long as I have my writings, I will have a world all to my own inside of me, and while I would long for human contact, I would survive, because it is my duty as living, breathing being to preserve my existence until the very last.
What I fear the most is myself. I'm afraid of hurting other people, physically and emotionally. I know I can hurt, I can scar, bruise, and pummel another living creature. I know that I have the capacity to kill in cold blood, if necessary. That capacity, that ability to hurt and kill, goes so far against what I believe in that knowing I could do it, that I would do it, is what I fear the most.
I don't fear death. To fear death is to fear the unknown, and I'm willing to let the unknown reveal itself to me in time, whether that time is sooner or later. Because I don't fear the unknown, I don't fear the great unknown that is death.
I don't fear pain. I don't like it, and I certainly don't go out of my way to hurt myself, but I know pain is a part of life, and so I don't fear it.
I don't fear the public opinion. I know that no matter what the general public says, if I remain happy with myself, that's the most important thing, and therefore I do not fear opinion.
I don't fear loneliness. As long as I have my writings, I will have a world all to my own inside of me, and while I would long for human contact, I would survive, because it is my duty as living, breathing being to preserve my existence until the very last.
What I fear the most is myself. I'm afraid of hurting other people, physically and emotionally. I know I can hurt, I can scar, bruise, and pummel another living creature. I know that I have the capacity to kill in cold blood, if necessary. That capacity, that ability to hurt and kill, goes so far against what I believe in that knowing I could do it, that I would do it, is what I fear the most.
