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Posted 6 years agoReminder that I'm around. I'm still working on my backlog. I am very, very sorry it is taking me so long.
This is absolutely everything i focused on during this time of silence, i haven't left my room even other than to buy food. I have closed myself up and put myself to this task only.
I am currently working on getting professional help too with my mental state. I asked my friends to help and push me some time ago as well, although nothing came of it yet.
Weeks of my life are disappearing with little memory left of it to me, and I have anxiety attacks and nightmares at all times. I have broken down mentally from the stress and anxiety of trying to fix the mess I made and making people wait for so long. I understand this is not an excuse, but it is the situation I'm dealing with. Believe me that I'm trying with everything I have, I wish to move on from this state of my life and start over properly.
I want to remind people that for commission related deals the best way to reach me is through e-mail; I didn't even log in to my FA for a very long time and I didn't see the notes I received.
I would also like people to stop spreading misinformation where I have went; especially rumours about death, suicide or running. I will not run from my responsibilities and will keep working away at this.
(I will remove shouts too that suggest I am dead in order to stop people taking it seriously.)
The reason I'm silent and not updating is the overwhelming stress. I understand this is not professional from me, and I'm very sorry. I simply cannot take the mental strain for the time being, it's taking everything from me to not give up and keep going as it is. I know i am the one who messed up, and I'm putting all my effort into working it out.
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For those who are my new watchers, welcome, thank you for watching me!
Here is a quick recap of what is going on because I understand it's a little confusing for newcomers:
in 2014 I was a beginner and unknown artist and was kicked out of my home for being a queer. I had no savings, no family, no local job opportunities, no collateral for loans, i became homeless. I started taking furry commissions as a means to survive. But I could barely charge cents for my art at first, which led me using up my payments before i finished my works; leading me needing to take more commissions, using up before i finished.... you see where this became a vicious cycle. And by the time i realized where it is going I was too deep and couldn't back out. Years later my backlog became absolutely immense, and I was desperately searching for any other way to earn my living to put a stop to it; but there was simply nothing. Even in retrospect, I'm not sure what could i have done.
About 1.5 years ago I was able to rise prices enough where i was able to finish works faster and start refunding older commissions while also saving some for living costs. This is a very slow process, although it has been exponentially speeding up for the past months. I went into a silent hiatus while i work it all out; this was a hard decision that is making me feel a lot of guilt and self-hatred even, but i have been making progress; slow progress but it's progress.
This is the sticky situation I deal with. I apologize for the messy situation and the lack of updates.
I am working towards being able to restart with a clean state where i don't have to juggle refunds, overwork and starvation and prove myself to the community as a professional, reliable artist.
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Thank you for the overwhelming patience and support for everyone who has been putting up with me all this time.
This is absolutely everything i focused on during this time of silence, i haven't left my room even other than to buy food. I have closed myself up and put myself to this task only.
I am currently working on getting professional help too with my mental state. I asked my friends to help and push me some time ago as well, although nothing came of it yet.
Weeks of my life are disappearing with little memory left of it to me, and I have anxiety attacks and nightmares at all times. I have broken down mentally from the stress and anxiety of trying to fix the mess I made and making people wait for so long. I understand this is not an excuse, but it is the situation I'm dealing with. Believe me that I'm trying with everything I have, I wish to move on from this state of my life and start over properly.
I want to remind people that for commission related deals the best way to reach me is through e-mail; I didn't even log in to my FA for a very long time and I didn't see the notes I received.
I would also like people to stop spreading misinformation where I have went; especially rumours about death, suicide or running. I will not run from my responsibilities and will keep working away at this.
(I will remove shouts too that suggest I am dead in order to stop people taking it seriously.)
The reason I'm silent and not updating is the overwhelming stress. I understand this is not professional from me, and I'm very sorry. I simply cannot take the mental strain for the time being, it's taking everything from me to not give up and keep going as it is. I know i am the one who messed up, and I'm putting all my effort into working it out.
-
For those who are my new watchers, welcome, thank you for watching me!
Here is a quick recap of what is going on because I understand it's a little confusing for newcomers:
in 2014 I was a beginner and unknown artist and was kicked out of my home for being a queer. I had no savings, no family, no local job opportunities, no collateral for loans, i became homeless. I started taking furry commissions as a means to survive. But I could barely charge cents for my art at first, which led me using up my payments before i finished my works; leading me needing to take more commissions, using up before i finished.... you see where this became a vicious cycle. And by the time i realized where it is going I was too deep and couldn't back out. Years later my backlog became absolutely immense, and I was desperately searching for any other way to earn my living to put a stop to it; but there was simply nothing. Even in retrospect, I'm not sure what could i have done.
About 1.5 years ago I was able to rise prices enough where i was able to finish works faster and start refunding older commissions while also saving some for living costs. This is a very slow process, although it has been exponentially speeding up for the past months. I went into a silent hiatus while i work it all out; this was a hard decision that is making me feel a lot of guilt and self-hatred even, but i have been making progress; slow progress but it's progress.
This is the sticky situation I deal with. I apologize for the messy situation and the lack of updates.
I am working towards being able to restart with a clean state where i don't have to juggle refunds, overwork and starvation and prove myself to the community as a professional, reliable artist.
-
Thank you for the overwhelming patience and support for everyone who has been putting up with me all this time.
I'm around
Posted 7 years agoJust a small journal to note that I am around.
I'm not uploading since stress and anxiety overwhelmed me and I don't have it in me to be present online too much. my depression is completely going out of control and i try to focus all my energy and time to get done with my backlog.
I have progressed and I have completed images to upload as well, I really just don't have the strength to manage my online galleries at the moment.
for now i just wanted to signal some life sign so you guys know I didn't disappear. Hope you are all doing well! ~
I'm not uploading since stress and anxiety overwhelmed me and I don't have it in me to be present online too much. my depression is completely going out of control and i try to focus all my energy and time to get done with my backlog.
I have progressed and I have completed images to upload as well, I really just don't have the strength to manage my online galleries at the moment.
for now i just wanted to signal some life sign so you guys know I didn't disappear. Hope you are all doing well! ~
[OPEN] $50 speedpaint
Posted 7 years agoSorry I'm opening this slot on top of many existing ones, my stylus broke and I have no options, i really don't want to ask for donations yet again just after our cats MRI fundraiser.
the slot is for 1 thighs/waist up speed-paint slot with a simple background. Any species (including human or feral), any gender, no copyrighted characters/outfis, and as usual no NSFW.
Example 1 | Example 2
Payment is needed before 8PM GMT (today/Thursday) latest (~20 hours after posting this journal)
If taken soon enough I can do the sketch near immediately with my borrowed pen tonight, and finish the piece when i get the new one.
First come first serve, please claim in comment
Some story:
My stylus gave in. A new pen costs about ~45$ to replace.
I wanted to make a YCH after i finished up 3 or more commissions in the next 2-3 days, I can't proceed now.
At this moment I have a borrowed pen from storm-engineer who uses the same tablet model as I do, but only until the morning since he also needs it for work.
This feels rather awkward right after the cat fund raiser, life just has a strange humor when it comes to timing it seems. Any savings I had has gone towards cat medicine and bills in the past week, this is why I also couldn't afford the cat MRI. I'm just at an absolute 0 balance right now so every issue means a hasty new commission until I build myself back up a bit; this is why i planned on said YCH so i can give myself a bit of a leeway for cases like this; that will still happen sometime after the pen has been replaced.
the slot is for 1 thighs/waist up speed-paint slot with a simple background. Any species (including human or feral), any gender, no copyrighted characters/outfis, and as usual no NSFW.
Example 1 | Example 2
Payment is needed before 8PM GMT (today/Thursday) latest (~20 hours after posting this journal)
If taken soon enough I can do the sketch near immediately with my borrowed pen tonight, and finish the piece when i get the new one.
First come first serve, please claim in comment
Some story:
My stylus gave in. A new pen costs about ~45$ to replace.
I wanted to make a YCH after i finished up 3 or more commissions in the next 2-3 days, I can't proceed now.
At this moment I have a borrowed pen from storm-engineer who uses the same tablet model as I do, but only until the morning since he also needs it for work.
This feels rather awkward right after the cat fund raiser, life just has a strange humor when it comes to timing it seems. Any savings I had has gone towards cat medicine and bills in the past week, this is why I also couldn't afford the cat MRI. I'm just at an absolute 0 balance right now so every issue means a hasty new commission until I build myself back up a bit; this is why i planned on said YCH so i can give myself a bit of a leeway for cases like this; that will still happen sometime after the pen has been replaced.
Fundraiser is up for our kitty!! (Epilepsy)
Posted 7 years agoUPDATE
Wow guys, we reached and even surpassed the goal in 14 hours! Just 14 hours that's crazy!Thank you so much everyone, i can't thank you enough!
Along with the Paypal me donations we collected $425, in half a day!
We got an appointment for tomorrow at the clinic and taking her there. The excess donations will be spent on cat-food and cat-toys.
You are all amazing I have no words, just thank you!
Special thanks for
RoePipi
Pogostix and her mom
DampfLoque
♠ fek
and one anonymous donatorYou made a huge difference for Jacqueline!
Will update with photos on the YouCaring site tomorrow as we take her there!
The donation page is still up for a while, any extra will be sent on her and her (step)brother Cica, absolutely none of the donation will be kept to ourselves naturally.
Our cat Jacqueline is having epileptic seizures, we took her to the vet and we were recommended to get her an MRI scan, but we cannot afford that on our own.
My roomie storm-engineer as started a fundraiser page:
https://www.youcaring.com/jacquelinethecat-1042144
During an epileptic seizure she is completely incapacitated and helplessly throws herself all over on the floor, lasting for minutes at a time. It's horribly painful to watch. She is now on a try-out medicine, but it is not guaranteed to work and we will possibly have to test new options until something just works; as the vet explained there isn't much else to do. The MRI scan would help identifying or closing out a lot of possible options, although there is a chance it will reveal nothing. Any medicine that works will have to be given to her twice a day for the rest of her life, as well as an extra relief medicine in case of a seizure.
For now she is being made into an indoor cat and is under constant monitoring. She is otherwise a very lively cat who absolutely loves playing outside, it's heartbreaking to see her cry to be let out and get so bored and anxious when we just can't do that. We will want to buy a harness so we can take her to walks at least soon.
The condition is dangerous and possibly fatal; the largest risk being her getting a seizures and not be able to move from water, heights, any sharp objects, dogs, cars, etc; during a seizures she cannot control her body and cannot defend herself. We are keeping her inside to prevent this. However the seizures are also very demanding of her internal organs, especially the heart. The movements can strain her muscles, and her constantly slamming herself to the floor/walls/anything nearby causes her to gain injuries.
The MRI scan costs about 330USD, + there are a few extra expenses for transporting the cat to the capital to the clinic where they have the needed equipment.
Every little donation or even just sharing the YouCare page would help greatly, and we will be incredibly grateful for any help!
~ Storm and Aki
*EDIT*
We noticed that the minimum donation on YouCare is 5$
If you can only spare a dollar or so we can accept it through https://www.paypal.me/StormEngineer
(which will of course not appear in the YouCare goal but it would help just as much!)
our cat has epilepsy :(
Posted 7 years agoUPDATE
NEW JOURNAL WITH FUNDRAISER LINK: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25729729/
My roomie is now putting together a fundraiser page for our cat Jacqueline.
she has been having very bad epileptic seizures, we are very worried about her. we took her to the vet already and she needs to be taken to the pet clinic. her condition can be fatal, she is now on tryout medicines and waiting to get an MRI. this is really stressing us out, our cats are precious and this is very difficult to deal with. MRI is rather expensive and we can't afford it right away; we could barely manage to pay the vet and buy her first month's daily medicine and the emergency relief meds for when she has seizures.
i will be giving more details in a new journal post later tonight when the fundraiser page is up.
i will be making at least one YCH soon for some living expenses, and possibly one for the cat expenses depending on how that fundraiser will go. of course her well being is the most important thing now and will have priority over anything else.
thank you all for your patience, will update asap
NEW JOURNAL WITH FUNDRAISER LINK: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25729729/
My roomie is now putting together a fundraiser page for our cat Jacqueline.
she has been having very bad epileptic seizures, we are very worried about her. we took her to the vet already and she needs to be taken to the pet clinic. her condition can be fatal, she is now on tryout medicines and waiting to get an MRI. this is really stressing us out, our cats are precious and this is very difficult to deal with. MRI is rather expensive and we can't afford it right away; we could barely manage to pay the vet and buy her first month's daily medicine and the emergency relief meds for when she has seizures.
i will be giving more details in a new journal post later tonight when the fundraiser page is up.
i will be making at least one YCH soon for some living expenses, and possibly one for the cat expenses depending on how that fundraiser will go. of course her well being is the most important thing now and will have priority over anything else.
thank you all for your patience, will update asap
Made a Buy me a coffee, and updates soon
Posted 8 years agoHoi!
After some silence I'm back!
I will be uploading new paintings very soon!
I created a https://www.buymeacoffee.com/akitary account, if you feel like you can support me through i will be very grateful ^^
I have currently went through some heavy sickness and depression, i went silent because i didn't want to drag others down with my bad mood. But I'm back on full power now! Despite the issues I did manage to finish a few works and i will be showing them in the close future!
Hope everyone is doing well! <3
[CLOSED] 4 Rough color painting slots open
Posted 8 years agoCLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED // CLOSED
price is per character, either bust or fullbody.
+5USD for implied background or larger props.
+30USD for full background (possibly more if very complex)
Can be any species, any gender, feral or not
Cannot be NSFW, nude, or copyrighted content.
They will be delivered with my Small icons refund batch within the next week.
Fullybody portrait with no background
Feral with simple background
Bust portrait
1. IllIVIllI
2. SegoliaFlak
3. Fuzzy_Toaster
4. KamikazeOtium
First Come First Serve, claim in Comment
These pieces are painted just enough to read nicely and have a cool impact, but aren't detailed. Thanks to this they are fast to make and they have the potential to be much more energetic than rendered to the teeth paintings.50USD
price is per character, either bust or fullbody.
+5USD for implied background or larger props.
+30USD for full background (possibly more if very complex)
Can be any species, any gender, feral or not
Cannot be NSFW, nude, or copyrighted content.
They will be delivered with my Small icons refund batch within the next week.
Examples
Fullybody portrait with implied backgroundFullybody portrait with no background
Feral with simple background
Bust portrait
1. IllIVIllI
2. SegoliaFlak
3. Fuzzy_Toaster
4. KamikazeOtium
My queue
Posted 8 years agoThis journal was automatically updated: 2017-9-26 1:57:23 GMT+2
Note: Sorry about the weird not descriptive titles for the commissions, they are just made so I know what project it is, and now I'm way too lazy to name them all one by one afterwards.
The Categories mark batches which make it easier for me to handle so many projects. The names of batches only mark what it will mostly deal with but it can have other projects listed as well. They are made so that they can be handled about a week each. They might change.
globusak, emg - ██████████
IllIVIllI, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
SegoliaFlak, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
Fuzzy_Toaster, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
Artherion, Icon - ██████████
Calista, Icon - ██████████
Hachiro_Tanaka, Icon - ██████████
Kodalynx, Icon - ██████████
MonsterTooth, Icon - ██████████
Murlz, Icon - ██████████
Spiderdragon, Icon - ██████████
Talakestreal, Icon - ██████████
Talakestreal, Icon - ██████████
Twilonangel, Icon - ██████████
Boha, #3 Legend YCH slot#3 - ██████████
Boha, #4 Legend YCH slot#4 - ██████████
Fowlgon, Legend YCH slot#2 - ██████████
Isuna, Ouroboros YCH - ██████████
Mitziwolfdragon, Legend YCH slot#1 - ██████████
Nekohikaru, Sketch YCH - ██████████
~Ace~ , collab YCH slot#2 - ██████████
Isuna, Demon YCH - ██████████
Kraz, Halloween mini yCH - ██████████
kyeramoon , bondage YCH - ██████████
Luna_kitsune, Arabian YCH - ██████████
NotSoRad, collab YCH slot#1 - ██████████
Runa216, Custume YCH - ██████████
Selianth, Bath YCH - ██████████
Shinar, Cleric YCH - ██████████
Calacene, hoursie - ██████████
Chalkbunny, costume speedie - ██████████
Cryptozoo, speedpaint - ██████████
Defiance, hoursie - ██████████
Demalyxdragon, rough - ██████████
Icebanshee, rough - ██████████
JayFerret, GOT portrait - ██████████
Jinxy_Falina , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, experimental - ██████████
Kiese, half off comisses - ██████████
Kiese, bones - ██████████
Kiris, half off comisses - ██████████
Ozamaki, costume speedie - ██████████
Ozamaki, Custume YCH - ██████████
Ratze, half off comisses - ██████████
Rawr-Z, costume speedie - ██████████
Saguacro, Rough - ██████████
Sevech, speedpaint - ██████████
Thesiggy, portrait - ██████████
Thisisnostras, emg - ██████████
Warwick, rough - ██████████
Wilsonjackal, half off comisses - ██████████
Yksi , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
Amaru, Trad illustration - ██████████
Axikor, Illustration - ██████████
Britshi, Illustration - ██████████
hotwert, Illustration - ██████████
Kalowolf, illust - ██████████
Ozawk, Illustration - ██████████
ShadowFirelaw , grumpycat - ██████████
Nalz, illustration - ██████████
Ozamaki, Hookie collab - ██████████
Ryn, refsheet - ██████████
Thesiggy, 200$ emg comm - ██████████
Amaru, Raffle icon - ██████████
FuzzyAlpaca, Sketch - ██████████
Hanazelya, Icon - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, icon - ██████████
Kodalynx, sketch - ██████████
RobertBobtheKitty, sketch - ██████████
Sci_dragon, sketch - ██████████
Shinigamisquirell, sketch - ██████████
Thecrazydragon, sketch? - ██████████
Gamestreamer, Not decided yet - ██████████
Guardian-hawk, 500 watcher badge - ██████████
Keetah, Free request - ██████████
Icewhisper, Undecided - ██████████
lipton, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Masterful , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
tehalbi, 10k kiriban - ██████████
whoosh-, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Zuboko, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Note: Sorry about the weird not descriptive titles for the commissions, they are just made so I know what project it is, and now I'm way too lazy to name them all one by one afterwards.
The Categories mark batches which make it easier for me to handle so many projects. The names of batches only mark what it will mostly deal with but it can have other projects listed as well. They are made so that they can be handled about a week each. They might change.
Small icons
Dottipink, Speedpaint - ██████████globusak, emg - ██████████
IllIVIllI, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
SegoliaFlak, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
Fuzzy_Toaster, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, Rough speedpaint - ██████████
Artherion, Icon - ██████████
Calista, Icon - ██████████
Hachiro_Tanaka, Icon - ██████████
Kodalynx, Icon - ██████████
MonsterTooth, Icon - ██████████
Murlz, Icon - ██████████
Spiderdragon, Icon - ██████████
Talakestreal, Icon - ██████████
Talakestreal, Icon - ██████████
Twilonangel, Icon - ██████████
YCH A
aBoyWithscales, Lord resting YCH - ██████████Boha, #3 Legend YCH slot#3 - ██████████
Boha, #4 Legend YCH slot#4 - ██████████
Fowlgon, Legend YCH slot#2 - ██████████
Isuna, Ouroboros YCH - ██████████
Mitziwolfdragon, Legend YCH slot#1 - ██████████
Nekohikaru, Sketch YCH - ██████████
YCH B
-, (October living costs cover) - ██████████~Ace~ , collab YCH slot#2 - ██████████
Isuna, Demon YCH - ██████████
Kraz, Halloween mini yCH - ██████████
kyeramoon , bondage YCH - ██████████
Luna_kitsune, Arabian YCH - ██████████
NotSoRad, collab YCH slot#1 - ██████████
Runa216, Custume YCH - ██████████
Selianth, Bath YCH - ██████████
Shinar, Cleric YCH - ██████████
Hoursies
BabyStar, Compensation speedpaint - ██████████Calacene, hoursie - ██████████
Chalkbunny, costume speedie - ██████████
Cryptozoo, speedpaint - ██████████
Defiance, hoursie - ██████████
Demalyxdragon, rough - ██████████
Icebanshee, rough - ██████████
JayFerret, GOT portrait - ██████████
Jinxy_Falina , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, experimental - ██████████
Kiese, half off comisses - ██████████
Kiese, bones - ██████████
Kiris, half off comisses - ██████████
Ozamaki, costume speedie - ██████████
Ozamaki, Custume YCH - ██████████
Ratze, half off comisses - ██████████
Rawr-Z, costume speedie - ██████████
Saguacro, Rough - ██████████
Sevech, speedpaint - ██████████
Thesiggy, portrait - ██████████
Thisisnostras, emg - ██████████
Warwick, rough - ██████████
Wilsonjackal, half off comisses - ██████████
Yksi , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
Large works A
aBoyWithscales, Custom Illustration - ██████████Amaru, Trad illustration - ██████████
Axikor, Illustration - ██████████
Britshi, Illustration - ██████████
hotwert, Illustration - ██████████
Kalowolf, illust - ██████████
Ozawk, Illustration - ██████████
ShadowFirelaw , grumpycat - ██████████
Large works B
Defiance, Steampunk 3 character illustration - ██████████Nalz, illustration - ██████████
Ozamaki, Hookie collab - ██████████
Ryn, refsheet - ██████████
Thesiggy, 200$ emg comm - ██████████
Small works (icons, sketches)
-, (November living costs cover) - ██████████Amaru, Raffle icon - ██████████
FuzzyAlpaca, Sketch - ██████████
Hanazelya, Icon - ██████████
KamikazeOtium, icon - ██████████
Kodalynx, sketch - ██████████
RobertBobtheKitty, sketch - ██████████
Sci_dragon, sketch - ██████████
Shinigamisquirell, sketch - ██████████
Thecrazydragon, sketch? - ██████████
Gamestreamer, Not decided yet - ██████████
Guardian-hawk, 500 watcher badge - ██████████
Keetah, Free request - ██████████
Icewhisper, Undecided - ██████████
lipton, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Masterful , 14 christmas sp - ██████████
tehalbi, 10k kiriban - ██████████
whoosh-, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Zuboko, 10k kiriban - ██████████
Queue reset
Posted 8 years ago187 hours left. Started with 471!
If you followed my journal from the recent past, I have finally grabbed myself together and refunding or completing my whole queue. Mostly refunding.
In this journal I will be updating this progress. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8416005/
This is a link to my full Queue. ← my script needs fixing it will update when i had time to do that
If you followed my journal from the recent past, I have finally grabbed myself together and refunding or completing my whole queue. Mostly refunding.
In this journal I will be updating this progress. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8416005/
This is a link to my full Queue. ← my script needs fixing it will update when i had time to do that
If you want your refund or commission to be processed sooner, please note me, I will do my best to get things done as fast as it's possible.
Unread notes don't display in archive
Posted 8 years agoUnread notes don't display in the archive as I have discovered. (I use the beta theme)
so if you accidentally archive something, like I managed to, you will be very confused to where is that note you have a notification of, but doesn't seem to be anywhere in your note list.
That's what happened with me.
However, that lost note i had is now marked read because i saved all my notes yesterday: so I have no idea which one was it.
Even if I did save by hand and not automatized, I'm not sure I could have just remembered which one of the 3061 notes I haven't seen before.
I just hope it wasn't too important. I suppose if it was I would have been contacted again since.
But just in case: if I didn't answer your note from the past and you wanted me to, please try again.
This bothers me so much honestly, I really hope no one thinks I'm avoiding them ;-;
so if you accidentally archive something, like I managed to, you will be very confused to where is that note you have a notification of, but doesn't seem to be anywhere in your note list.
That's what happened with me.
However, that lost note i had is now marked read because i saved all my notes yesterday: so I have no idea which one was it.
Even if I did save by hand and not automatized, I'm not sure I could have just remembered which one of the 3061 notes I haven't seen before.
I just hope it wasn't too important. I suppose if it was I would have been contacted again since.
But just in case: if I didn't answer your note from the past and you wanted me to, please try again.
This bothers me so much honestly, I really hope no one thinks I'm avoiding them ;-;
Backlog plans (and a survey)
Posted 8 years agoHey~
If you kept up with my journals you know i had a huge crash in my life during the past year+. In very short, I messed up many things, life messed me up in many ways, and I have a very large backlog on me now that's holding me back from progressing with anyone's order or with my own life.
Thanks to the patience of my clients (you) and supporters my backlog is less than half of it's size from when it peaked; 380 hours instead of nearly 800 from months ago. which is already a huge huge difference.
The problem: I have to work on old commissions to get done with them, but I can only work if I can eat, but I can only eat if I take on new works, but I can only take on new works if I also work on my old commissions first to gt done with them so I have space to take on new things, but I can only work if I eat, but I can only eat if I take on new works... you get the idea, it's a never ending cycle.
The solution(?): My idea is to do some YCH-s for Halloween (4 in total), and from these new, higher level artworks with higher payments refund my remaining queue in it's near entirety (not all, just most)
Of course for this I will need the approval and patience of my current commissioners. I will ask everyone what they want 1 by 1 and not force refund those who would rather wait.
So that's my plan and that's what I'm working on now.
I added a survey too, filling it out is anonymous (unless you give your name). It would be nice to see your opinions guys!
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
*EDIT*
I want to add in some numbers here in response to some of the feedback I have been getting.
Most of my old backlog was taken for under 2$/h average payment (because I was ignorant to pricing and I had so little faith in myself), while my new prices with which I'm selling is over 20$. The point of that plan is that I can now take on 10 times less work to refund old work; as in that 4 Halloween pieces would cover that 40 I would want to cancel.
*EDIT 2*
Thank you for the overwhelmingly positive and supporting survey feedback so far guys, it's so humbling and you are all too kind ;-;
*EDIT 3*
this might be important to emphasize that i won't refund everything, not even all super old pieces, only those i can't finish within reasonable time (from now).
The pieces will be refunded in priority of: who wants it to be refunded, how much is completed of the piece, how much the piece is stuck, and only then how much it was paid for.
As always, thank you for the support for all of you!
If you kept up with my journals you know i had a huge crash in my life during the past year+. In very short, I messed up many things, life messed me up in many ways, and I have a very large backlog on me now that's holding me back from progressing with anyone's order or with my own life.
Thanks to the patience of my clients (you) and supporters my backlog is less than half of it's size from when it peaked; 380 hours instead of nearly 800 from months ago. which is already a huge huge difference.
The problem: I have to work on old commissions to get done with them, but I can only work if I can eat, but I can only eat if I take on new works, but I can only take on new works if I also work on my old commissions first to gt done with them so I have space to take on new things, but I can only work if I eat, but I can only eat if I take on new works... you get the idea, it's a never ending cycle.
The solution(?): My idea is to do some YCH-s for Halloween (4 in total), and from these new, higher level artworks with higher payments refund my remaining queue in it's near entirety (not all, just most)
Of course for this I will need the approval and patience of my current commissioners. I will ask everyone what they want 1 by 1 and not force refund those who would rather wait.
So that's my plan and that's what I'm working on now.
I added a survey too, filling it out is anonymous (unless you give your name). It would be nice to see your opinions guys!
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
https://goo.gl/forms/MJNHsUd5tcPSYE9M2
*EDIT*
I want to add in some numbers here in response to some of the feedback I have been getting.
Most of my old backlog was taken for under 2$/h average payment (because I was ignorant to pricing and I had so little faith in myself), while my new prices with which I'm selling is over 20$. The point of that plan is that I can now take on 10 times less work to refund old work; as in that 4 Halloween pieces would cover that 40 I would want to cancel.
*EDIT 2*
Thank you for the overwhelmingly positive and supporting survey feedback so far guys, it's so humbling and you are all too kind ;-;
*EDIT 3*
this might be important to emphasize that i won't refund everything, not even all super old pieces, only those i can't finish within reasonable time (from now).
The pieces will be refunded in priority of: who wants it to be refunded, how much is completed of the piece, how much the piece is stuck, and only then how much it was paid for.
As always, thank you for the support for all of you!
Friend has YCH and adopt! it is really good, check them out!
Posted 8 years agothe awesome 
obelys has an adopt and a YCH up!
both are so good HOW ARE THEY NOT GONE YET???
a badass huntress YCH:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
(taken)
the adorbs squirrel adopt:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
Go now and give them some love! D:
obelys has an adopt and a YCH up!both are so good HOW ARE THEY NOT GONE YET???
a badass huntress YCH:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24543356/
(taken)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24570726/
Go now and give them some love! D:
Thank you for 4000 followers! D:
Posted 8 years agoThank you guys, this was a really nice number to wake up this morning!
I love this community to bits!
I love this community to bits!
Re-starting my Patreon
Posted 8 years agoHey guys!
I'm planning on remaking my Patreon. I just wiped it clean earlier today, it had outdated rewards and goals and everything.
New tiers would include real time video files of my paintings, my overpaints I did for FurryArtchat 3.0 and other small tutorials, and redlining/critiquing.
Before you worry, no i will not put any artworks behind a paywall. There will always only be additional or early content.
Raffles are illegal to hold on Patreon, please do not suggest that, not gonna happen.
But the main thing is, i am considering changing it to be per illustration rather than per month. I would of course only count larger illustrations, not speedpaints or adopts or whatnots. (You can set a limit on Patreon for a maximum monthly support, I can't work people out of their wallets)
Here is a poll about that: http://www.strawpoll.me/13646451
I will be making a second Patreon (yes that is allowed) as I will be starting my comic soon. It is something I planned to do since I was a little kid, the same World and stories inspire me for two decades now, and I'm excited to start sharing this World with you!
The comic will be free to access for sure, there will be early access, WIP shots, prints, merch and cameo-s as patreon rewards. so again, no paywalling for artworks.
It will start out slowly with my backlog and all, my clients are still the most important priority in my life, but I do want to get this thing started too alongside commission work.
I welcome any feedback!
I'm planning on remaking my Patreon. I just wiped it clean earlier today, it had outdated rewards and goals and everything.
New tiers would include real time video files of my paintings, my overpaints I did for FurryArtchat 3.0 and other small tutorials, and redlining/critiquing.
Before you worry, no i will not put any artworks behind a paywall. There will always only be additional or early content.
Raffles are illegal to hold on Patreon, please do not suggest that, not gonna happen.
But the main thing is, i am considering changing it to be per illustration rather than per month. I would of course only count larger illustrations, not speedpaints or adopts or whatnots. (You can set a limit on Patreon for a maximum monthly support, I can't work people out of their wallets)
Here is a poll about that: http://www.strawpoll.me/13646451
I will be making a second Patreon (yes that is allowed) as I will be starting my comic soon. It is something I planned to do since I was a little kid, the same World and stories inspire me for two decades now, and I'm excited to start sharing this World with you!
The comic will be free to access for sure, there will be early access, WIP shots, prints, merch and cameo-s as patreon rewards. so again, no paywalling for artworks.
It will start out slowly with my backlog and all, my clients are still the most important priority in my life, but I do want to get this thing started too alongside commission work.
I welcome any feedback!
A personal update on the past 6 months (it's long)
Posted 8 years agoHey guys~
I feel like I'm overdue to talk about what happened in the past 6 months exactly and why was I on hiatus for so long.
As with many furry artists, it started with depression. General enxiety, self-hate, feeling down all the time. But i sucked it up; I did not want to be one of those artists who give in to depression. I went on and forced myself to keep going. For years.
Around my birthday last year it got to an all time low point. I was having nightmares every night and even awake, I couldn't sleep for long times, or when I did it was horrible. My anxiety was so high it was almost like a constant panic attack that just doesn't stop, constantly feeling my own heart beat and being paranoid of everything. I tried to ignore these feelings and keep working. But eventually, thoughts started to flood my mind and it became hard to focus on anything. At first it was just distracting, swear words or pictures I wish I had forgotten coming back to me. But with time they got worse, it was more and more personal. About my father, my friends I don't see anymore, my dead family members, and eventually the thought of suicide started to appear. and I want to be clear - it was not an intent, but a very alarming disruptive thought that just kept creeping back into my brain, not matter how hard I tried to concentrate on working instead. In fact, the more I pushed myself the worse it got.
And I didn't tell anyone, I kept silent because any time I thought about it I was instantly flooded with thoughts: "no, you do not deserve it, you brought this on yourself, don't drag others in". And looking back now, that was a horrible and irrational worry, and it kept me from getting better for much longer than it would have been neccessary.
It didn't matter if I worked 12 hours a day, I could barely get anything done. I found myself walking outside of my room and I didn't remember when I got up from my work, I was generally slow and did too many mistakes that needed constant fixing. I was unconfident in my art and in myself. I was even considering quitting art.
And my health started to further degrade. Edema, dizziness, I was getting scared something serious might happen.
So I thought I will take a few days off. Then the days became weeks, the weeks months. days or weeks skipped by and they were just a blur after, like if i just dozed off and didn't understand where time went.
It was difficult to get a hold of myself again.
I had to remember why I started art, what I want to do with my life and where I am heading. That is why I allowed myself to do so many personal works in March/April.
It took many attempts and many weeks, but I managed to fix my sleeping shcedule and start living like a human again. I took up some online art classes, and started to better scedule my time, and better diet, take more walks and take better care of myself.
For most of the time, I was lurking in a chat room full of other artists, taking feedback on my art and where to take it, that helped a lot with gaining back confidence in it.
And one important decision I made that helped me get through all this is that I have to stop pushing so hard all the time. Take time off regularly, get hobbies, start reading again, take the weekends off, and keep to it. I forbid myself to put 3 extra hours into a day just because I feel like I can. Because in the end, if I can keep my sanity and energy I can get much more work done in that less remaining time I spend on work.
The nightmares and the anxiety stopped early summer, but I was still very scared to come back and be around people again. What if like before I just fall back? How can I face my watchers?
I now have adjusted to my new schedule. I had but one anxiety attack in the entire last month and I could get commissions done again wtih a reasonable speed. And most importantly, the disruptive thoughts are gone. (Besides the one that's shouting I want cake, but he's been there in all my life anyway.)
And I started having a familiar feeling, one I once had in high school; a feeling of ambition and confidence. But this time it's not one of those fleeting whims I had before, where i felt inspired for a day or a week; made a journal and then burnt myself out in a few days again; it has been a constant, strong and deep feeling, one that didn't just die off on the first little obstacle.
I feel I found myself again, the person who keeps their promise and gets shit done, who had large dreams and worked for them with all his heart, and didnt screw around whining about waking up early or having to revise something, he just does it.
I resumed commission work earlier this month in full force. (I did work on the queue occasinally the whole time still, just not an incredibly lot. Meaning: I sometimes did some work guilt ridden that was so bad anyway I couldn't show it as progress.)
Now I will work 44 hours a week instead of 60+ I forced last year. I will also take Schoolism classes (the 15$/mo ones), learn 3D modelling and keep working out.
There was one more thing that Bobby Chiu said and stuck with me: start living like you succeeded.
I always said I will get back in shape or dress well when I finished this backlog. But I realized, dumping myself into depression and self-punishing to the point I feel inhuman isn't helping anyone. So I changed that mentality. Not from one day to the other, and it's still a work in progress, but getting there.
And that brings us to now.I finally started uploading again and being active. It feels really, really good to be back home! I missed you guys!
If you read all this wall of text, wow you are a good listener, thanks!
And thank you everyone else for still being around and putting up with me!
Lot's of art to be seen soon from Akitary!
And more collabs are on the way too!
I feel like I'm overdue to talk about what happened in the past 6 months exactly and why was I on hiatus for so long.
As with many furry artists, it started with depression. General enxiety, self-hate, feeling down all the time. But i sucked it up; I did not want to be one of those artists who give in to depression. I went on and forced myself to keep going. For years.
Around my birthday last year it got to an all time low point. I was having nightmares every night and even awake, I couldn't sleep for long times, or when I did it was horrible. My anxiety was so high it was almost like a constant panic attack that just doesn't stop, constantly feeling my own heart beat and being paranoid of everything. I tried to ignore these feelings and keep working. But eventually, thoughts started to flood my mind and it became hard to focus on anything. At first it was just distracting, swear words or pictures I wish I had forgotten coming back to me. But with time they got worse, it was more and more personal. About my father, my friends I don't see anymore, my dead family members, and eventually the thought of suicide started to appear. and I want to be clear - it was not an intent, but a very alarming disruptive thought that just kept creeping back into my brain, not matter how hard I tried to concentrate on working instead. In fact, the more I pushed myself the worse it got.
And I didn't tell anyone, I kept silent because any time I thought about it I was instantly flooded with thoughts: "no, you do not deserve it, you brought this on yourself, don't drag others in". And looking back now, that was a horrible and irrational worry, and it kept me from getting better for much longer than it would have been neccessary.
It didn't matter if I worked 12 hours a day, I could barely get anything done. I found myself walking outside of my room and I didn't remember when I got up from my work, I was generally slow and did too many mistakes that needed constant fixing. I was unconfident in my art and in myself. I was even considering quitting art.
And my health started to further degrade. Edema, dizziness, I was getting scared something serious might happen.
So I thought I will take a few days off. Then the days became weeks, the weeks months. days or weeks skipped by and they were just a blur after, like if i just dozed off and didn't understand where time went.
It was difficult to get a hold of myself again.
I had to remember why I started art, what I want to do with my life and where I am heading. That is why I allowed myself to do so many personal works in March/April.
It took many attempts and many weeks, but I managed to fix my sleeping shcedule and start living like a human again. I took up some online art classes, and started to better scedule my time, and better diet, take more walks and take better care of myself.
For most of the time, I was lurking in a chat room full of other artists, taking feedback on my art and where to take it, that helped a lot with gaining back confidence in it.
And one important decision I made that helped me get through all this is that I have to stop pushing so hard all the time. Take time off regularly, get hobbies, start reading again, take the weekends off, and keep to it. I forbid myself to put 3 extra hours into a day just because I feel like I can. Because in the end, if I can keep my sanity and energy I can get much more work done in that less remaining time I spend on work.
The nightmares and the anxiety stopped early summer, but I was still very scared to come back and be around people again. What if like before I just fall back? How can I face my watchers?
I now have adjusted to my new schedule. I had but one anxiety attack in the entire last month and I could get commissions done again wtih a reasonable speed. And most importantly, the disruptive thoughts are gone. (Besides the one that's shouting I want cake, but he's been there in all my life anyway.)
And I started having a familiar feeling, one I once had in high school; a feeling of ambition and confidence. But this time it's not one of those fleeting whims I had before, where i felt inspired for a day or a week; made a journal and then burnt myself out in a few days again; it has been a constant, strong and deep feeling, one that didn't just die off on the first little obstacle.
I feel I found myself again, the person who keeps their promise and gets shit done, who had large dreams and worked for them with all his heart, and didnt screw around whining about waking up early or having to revise something, he just does it.
I resumed commission work earlier this month in full force. (I did work on the queue occasinally the whole time still, just not an incredibly lot. Meaning: I sometimes did some work guilt ridden that was so bad anyway I couldn't show it as progress.)
Now I will work 44 hours a week instead of 60+ I forced last year. I will also take Schoolism classes (the 15$/mo ones), learn 3D modelling and keep working out.
There was one more thing that Bobby Chiu said and stuck with me: start living like you succeeded.
I always said I will get back in shape or dress well when I finished this backlog. But I realized, dumping myself into depression and self-punishing to the point I feel inhuman isn't helping anyone. So I changed that mentality. Not from one day to the other, and it's still a work in progress, but getting there.
And that brings us to now.I finally started uploading again and being active. It feels really, really good to be back home! I missed you guys!
If you read all this wall of text, wow you are a good listener, thanks!
And thank you everyone else for still being around and putting up with me!
Lot's of art to be seen soon from Akitary!
And more collabs are on the way too!
IF YOU NOTED ME AND I DIDNT ANSWER PLEASE READ THIS
Posted 8 years agoHey!
I have an unread note i cannot find in this inbox; i have the notification and cant see a message. im not sure how, if its a glitch or im blind.
I dont even know if i really have a note or if its just a counter glitch.
i was relatively inactive in the past ~5-6 months too, i dont know when its from.
anyway if you noted me but i didnt answer please resend!!
or e-mail me at akitary.art[at]gmail.com
or Telegram me at akitaryART
here is my notifications:
https://i.gyazo.com/657b98dd2e3d426.....3df8919826.png
and my notes 7 months backwards: (small and censored so noone can make out personal information)
https://i.gyazo.com/0d7af372a8b19fd.....66fd5a0fe7.png
*frustrated*
*EDIT*
THERE ISN'T EVEN A SUPPORT TICKET SUBMISSION PAGE RN (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻
*EDIT 2*
OR an e-mail address to send issues about.
*EDIT 3*
I found how to submit a ticket and I did so!
(It wasnt in the Support Menu Help which said the help pageis a WIP, but Settings -> Report a ticket. )
I hope its just a counter error and there is noone thinking im not opening their notes ;-;
*EDIT 4*
So staff answered. I do have a note in the system, but I can't see it for some reason. Still working on it.
*EDIT 5*
the issue was added here: http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....-site.1624642/
case closed it seems
I have an unread note i cannot find in this inbox; i have the notification and cant see a message. im not sure how, if its a glitch or im blind.
I dont even know if i really have a note or if its just a counter glitch.
i was relatively inactive in the past ~5-6 months too, i dont know when its from.
anyway if you noted me but i didnt answer please resend!!
or e-mail me at akitary.art[at]gmail.com
or Telegram me at akitaryART
here is my notifications:
https://i.gyazo.com/657b98dd2e3d426.....3df8919826.png
and my notes 7 months backwards: (small and censored so noone can make out personal information)
https://i.gyazo.com/0d7af372a8b19fd.....66fd5a0fe7.png
*frustrated*
*EDIT*
THERE ISN'T EVEN A SUPPORT TICKET SUBMISSION PAGE RN (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻
*EDIT 2*
OR an e-mail address to send issues about.
*EDIT 3*
I found how to submit a ticket and I did so!
(It wasnt in the Support Menu Help which said the help pageis a WIP, but Settings -> Report a ticket. )
I hope its just a counter error and there is noone thinking im not opening their notes ;-;
*EDIT 4*
So staff answered. I do have a note in the system, but I can't see it for some reason. Still working on it.
*EDIT 5*
the issue was added here: http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....-site.1624642/
case closed it seems
Still around
Posted 8 years agoHi!
Not much to update on just a check in that I'm still nearby and working on my backlog!
I have a large backlog on uploading images as well. I do not feel the strenght to be active right now, but I will come back to full activity eventually!
I can still be reached on akitary.art[at]gmail.com for any important message.
*EDIT
i decided to try and upload pieces after all. I will do so at a slow pace though, I hope that is alright. (As in one every few days and not all at once)
Not much to update on just a check in that I'm still nearby and working on my backlog!
I have a large backlog on uploading images as well. I do not feel the strenght to be active right now, but I will come back to full activity eventually!
I can still be reached on akitary.art[at]gmail.com for any important message.
*EDIT
i decided to try and upload pieces after all. I will do so at a slow pace though, I hope that is alright. (As in one every few days and not all at once)
An update/I'm alive
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone
I'm sorry for the lack of updates in the past few months. I am alive and still working on my queue.
I originally only wanted to stay away from any stress for a few days; then days became weeks and weeks became months, and I have a very hard time coping how it already became May.
I have worked on pieces and have a backlog of images to upload soon!
And while my health didn't get better I have learnt to handle it much better by now, so there is progress!
I will also look into refunding over half of my existing queue; i would not like to refund anything I'm over halfway done with by now, or have sold in my latest batches. If you would like to be prioritized in refund please note me or e-mail me on akitary.art[at]gmail.com
This was a very hard decision I had to make; I would not want to drop any commissions if it were up to me, but with my health getting worse every day it is unlikely i can ever progress with the speed and productivity I once could. I will not close shop, but I want to clear my current backlog and only keep a small list if possible in the future, one I can trust myself to complete in a timely manner.
I may stay silent for a bit more, but just know that me not uploading doesn't mean I abandoned the account. I will come back for sure, I have to sort my own emotions and life first.
Thank you for the outstanding patience and support from all of you I got so far, it is undeserved by me but greatly appreciated!
I'm sorry for the lack of updates in the past few months. I am alive and still working on my queue.
I originally only wanted to stay away from any stress for a few days; then days became weeks and weeks became months, and I have a very hard time coping how it already became May.
I have worked on pieces and have a backlog of images to upload soon!
And while my health didn't get better I have learnt to handle it much better by now, so there is progress!
I will also look into refunding over half of my existing queue; i would not like to refund anything I'm over halfway done with by now, or have sold in my latest batches. If you would like to be prioritized in refund please note me or e-mail me on akitary.art[at]gmail.com
This was a very hard decision I had to make; I would not want to drop any commissions if it were up to me, but with my health getting worse every day it is unlikely i can ever progress with the speed and productivity I once could. I will not close shop, but I want to clear my current backlog and only keep a small list if possible in the future, one I can trust myself to complete in a timely manner.
I may stay silent for a bit more, but just know that me not uploading doesn't mean I abandoned the account. I will come back for sure, I have to sort my own emotions and life first.
Thank you for the outstanding patience and support from all of you I got so far, it is undeserved by me but greatly appreciated!
[both closed] PWYW Wingits and donations
Posted 8 years agoEDIT
THESE COMMISSIONS ARE TEMPORARILY CLOSED
Thank you so much guys!
I got 15 hours so far! I will reopen when I'm done with those, possibly still on this week, I don't want to pile on too much for at once.
Please look out for journals. If you want instant notifications of my openings, watch me through
sergals Telegram bot!
EDIT 2
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EDIT 3
Thank you for the support everyone! On tracks. Update soon!
---
Hi guys ~
I was giving a lot of thought on what should the next steps be. If you haven't followed, I have a worsening heart failure, and on top my relatives cornered me into a 400$ debt for a phone company I used to have a contract with. I want to progress with old commissions the most, and I also want to be able to live. I will open some commissions, but please note that my old commissions have priority so I will take them on in small time periods. I have a huge and scary backlog that is holding me back from continuing with my life at this point. I still want to finish in early 2017 as I planned, even if as early as January is unrealistic anymore.
If you would like to help, donations are extremely appreciated by either ko-fi or directly to my roomie's Paypal, shunkawakan.witko[at]gmail.com (please attach a "G" for gift in a message so I know you mean it as gift and not as the PWYW slots from below)
PWYW Commissions:
$15/hour, pay what you want "cat in the bag" (wingit) pieces - value for price is guaranteed! (10 min minimum)
you offer any payment, i draw for that long (10 minutes is $2.5)
you can give a keyword for the commission so it's controlled by you a bit. that can be a word or a song.
$11/HOUR IF THE KEYWORD IS RELATED TO CHRISTMAS
OR Christmas lights animated icon, $35 (I can do it for existing rendered icons if the original artist consents, it will be 5$ for just the animation then. I can also render linearted icons to match the style, its 20$ then, also need consent)
I want to do my old icons too, I was thinking on offering rendered head shots in their stead as an option since I enjoy working on those more. More on that in a later journal.
!! DUE TO MY QUESTIONABLE HEALTH CONDITIONS, I CANNOT GUARANTEE TO FINISH EVERYTHING BY CHRISTMAS. I will do my best though.
- NO NSFW
- i can do humans, ferals, anthros. I cannot paint pokemons or other copyrighted things, including cosplay and armors, sorry.
- my comfort zone is fantasy and anthros, i can likely get much further in progress with that
- 7$ will be a rough sketch, 20-30$ will be an icon or a detailed sketch, 40-50$ will be a speedpaint probably, 60-80 could be a bust or a more complex speedpaint, 100$ is maybe a very nice speedpaint or some simple illustration, over a 100 it will be an illustration. these are just estimations though. The Christmas ones are going to be a bit higher level accordingly. I will generally avoid having to draw tidy and clean lines.
- payment is sent when it is convenient to you, before, after or half front.
CLAIM by commenting or note-ing how much time you would like to buy, references, and a keyword, or in case if an icon, a reference.
If its very important to be finished by Christmas then please attach that information.
If you send a gift or a payment, please attach "G" for gift or "P" for payment so I know whats what, thank you, and don't forget to tell your username!
If you send a payment with no explanation anywhere don't expect a drawing in return please.
I will have a YCH with a demonic/monters theme to it opening sometime too, it may take a week or two for it to be ready as my priority is heavily on already ongoing commissions.
I'm also working on putting my queue back online soon. I may start tweeting my WIP-s or work every day, is anyone interested? @akitaryART
THESE COMMISSIONS ARE TEMPORARILY CLOSED
Thank you so much guys!
I got 15 hours so far! I will reopen when I'm done with those, possibly still on this week, I don't want to pile on too much for at once.
Please look out for journals. If you want instant notifications of my openings, watch me through
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Thank you for the support everyone! On tracks. Update soon!
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Hi guys ~
I was giving a lot of thought on what should the next steps be. If you haven't followed, I have a worsening heart failure, and on top my relatives cornered me into a 400$ debt for a phone company I used to have a contract with. I want to progress with old commissions the most, and I also want to be able to live. I will open some commissions, but please note that my old commissions have priority so I will take them on in small time periods. I have a huge and scary backlog that is holding me back from continuing with my life at this point. I still want to finish in early 2017 as I planned, even if as early as January is unrealistic anymore.
If you would like to help, donations are extremely appreciated by either ko-fi or directly to my roomie's Paypal, shunkawakan.witko[at]gmail.com (please attach a "G" for gift in a message so I know you mean it as gift and not as the PWYW slots from below)
PWYW Commissions:
$15/hour, pay what you want "cat in the bag" (wingit) pieces - value for price is guaranteed! (10 min minimum)
you offer any payment, i draw for that long (10 minutes is $2.5)
you can give a keyword for the commission so it's controlled by you a bit. that can be a word or a song.
$11/HOUR IF THE KEYWORD IS RELATED TO CHRISTMAS
OR Christmas lights animated icon, $35 (I can do it for existing rendered icons if the original artist consents, it will be 5$ for just the animation then. I can also render linearted icons to match the style, its 20$ then, also need consent)
I want to do my old icons too, I was thinking on offering rendered head shots in their stead as an option since I enjoy working on those more. More on that in a later journal.
!! DUE TO MY QUESTIONABLE HEALTH CONDITIONS, I CANNOT GUARANTEE TO FINISH EVERYTHING BY CHRISTMAS. I will do my best though.
- NO NSFW
- i can do humans, ferals, anthros. I cannot paint pokemons or other copyrighted things, including cosplay and armors, sorry.
- my comfort zone is fantasy and anthros, i can likely get much further in progress with that
- 7$ will be a rough sketch, 20-30$ will be an icon or a detailed sketch, 40-50$ will be a speedpaint probably, 60-80 could be a bust or a more complex speedpaint, 100$ is maybe a very nice speedpaint or some simple illustration, over a 100 it will be an illustration. these are just estimations though. The Christmas ones are going to be a bit higher level accordingly. I will generally avoid having to draw tidy and clean lines.
- payment is sent when it is convenient to you, before, after or half front.
CLAIM by commenting or note-ing how much time you would like to buy, references, and a keyword, or in case if an icon, a reference.
If its very important to be finished by Christmas then please attach that information.
If you send a gift or a payment, please attach "G" for gift or "P" for payment so I know whats what, thank you, and don't forget to tell your username!
If you send a payment with no explanation anywhere don't expect a drawing in return please.
I will have a YCH with a demonic/monters theme to it opening sometime too, it may take a week or two for it to be ready as my priority is heavily on already ongoing commissions.
I'm also working on putting my queue back online soon. I may start tweeting my WIP-s or work every day, is anyone interested? @akitaryART
All better now
Posted 8 years agoThank you everyone for the unending support and kindness you gave me in this past week. It was amazing of you all!!
I feel a lot better now. I can properly walk and breath again. I want to take this last day off, I still feel a bit of pain and dizziness, but I should be able to work again by tomorrow! Depression really gets to me physically with my heart failure getting worse. This probably wasn't the last time I broke but I will do my best to keep it at bay for a long time.
Few days ago I also developed pneumonia and with it fever. It was quite ugly. But today I woke up to feel much better all of a sudden! I feel super motivated to jump back into commissions as soon as I can!
Special thanks to those who donated to me through Paypal or the ko-fi link through my profile page, even though I didn't ask for any help, it was a really pleasant surprise, just the sheer amount of people who sent a little help added up to over 50 dollars which is just incredible. I couldn't thank everyone in PM-s because some of these were sent anonymous or by a name I couldn't identify, but please know I'm very very grateful to you!! Thank you!!!
I will now concentrate hard on getting rid of the very last symptoms and I will start completing images soon again!
Thank you everyone! ^^
I feel a lot better now. I can properly walk and breath again. I want to take this last day off, I still feel a bit of pain and dizziness, but I should be able to work again by tomorrow! Depression really gets to me physically with my heart failure getting worse. This probably wasn't the last time I broke but I will do my best to keep it at bay for a long time.
Few days ago I also developed pneumonia and with it fever. It was quite ugly. But today I woke up to feel much better all of a sudden! I feel super motivated to jump back into commissions as soon as I can!
Special thanks to those who donated to me through Paypal or the ko-fi link through my profile page, even though I didn't ask for any help, it was a really pleasant surprise, just the sheer amount of people who sent a little help added up to over 50 dollars which is just incredible. I couldn't thank everyone in PM-s because some of these were sent anonymous or by a name I couldn't identify, but please know I'm very very grateful to you!! Thank you!!!
I will now concentrate hard on getting rid of the very last symptoms and I will start completing images soon again!
Thank you everyone! ^^
Has it really been a month??
Posted 8 years agoHi~
I swear I did not realize I was inactive for so long. I usually don't allow myself to be social when I'm on the low curve of depression because I'm very negative and dark about everything, it never lasted this long.
Few things happened why it was;
Lot's of sad new here.
That one YCH week didn't cover everything I wanted it to after all and I was left with severe financial struggles, cutting ends and leaving me feel really failed.
My relatives came barging in and harassing me - I never told them my address, they only knew the general area and harassed our neighbors until they found out where I live about a year ago. They showed up again 2 weeks ago, shouted from the street with disgusting remarks, it was horrible to endure, I almost had to call the police on them. They withheld some bills from ever reaching me, only handing me after it got a lawyer-fee added to it since they were trying to reach me for over 2 years; ; a single month payment i forgot to resolve back when i left that place with that fee blew out to be almost 400USD. I have no idea what to do about it. I can already not afford to eat properly, I couldn't but a hoodie for the winter, this is just impossible and fucking unfair.
Then I got down about my art, it just wasn't succeeding and I felt really stuck on everything. Right when I would have needed to get things done the most.
My condition is strongly dependent on my stress levels, and as it was expected, it got really bad, almost fell back to my June state with edema, pain and exhaustion. I have never felt so burnt out and hopeless.
And this is a really small thing, but it really put me down; ever since Fantastic beasts was announced I was looking so forward seeing it, I watched every stream and stalked every tweet about it with excitement - just to be here, not able to afford a ticket to go and see it. It might be a really insignificant thing, but I feel just really really defeated.
My birthday was always a very depressive time of year for me. This year I can't even drink myself over it as since summer i am never to drink alcohol again for my condition, and then there is that 400$ bs. No Christmas either this year I guess.
I apologize I hid until this all went away at least emotionally and I could once again be a functional person and artist. I worked on paid commissions mostly, though didn't really get anything done, everything was very forced and slow going. Hopefully now I can get back into the roll of things quickly.
I swear I did not realize I was inactive for so long. I usually don't allow myself to be social when I'm on the low curve of depression because I'm very negative and dark about everything, it never lasted this long.
Few things happened why it was;
Lot's of sad new here.
That one YCH week didn't cover everything I wanted it to after all and I was left with severe financial struggles, cutting ends and leaving me feel really failed.
My relatives came barging in and harassing me - I never told them my address, they only knew the general area and harassed our neighbors until they found out where I live about a year ago. They showed up again 2 weeks ago, shouted from the street with disgusting remarks, it was horrible to endure, I almost had to call the police on them. They withheld some bills from ever reaching me, only handing me after it got a lawyer-fee added to it since they were trying to reach me for over 2 years; ; a single month payment i forgot to resolve back when i left that place with that fee blew out to be almost 400USD. I have no idea what to do about it. I can already not afford to eat properly, I couldn't but a hoodie for the winter, this is just impossible and fucking unfair.
Then I got down about my art, it just wasn't succeeding and I felt really stuck on everything. Right when I would have needed to get things done the most.
My condition is strongly dependent on my stress levels, and as it was expected, it got really bad, almost fell back to my June state with edema, pain and exhaustion. I have never felt so burnt out and hopeless.
And this is a really small thing, but it really put me down; ever since Fantastic beasts was announced I was looking so forward seeing it, I watched every stream and stalked every tweet about it with excitement - just to be here, not able to afford a ticket to go and see it. It might be a really insignificant thing, but I feel just really really defeated.
My birthday was always a very depressive time of year for me. This year I can't even drink myself over it as since summer i am never to drink alcohol again for my condition, and then there is that 400$ bs. No Christmas either this year I guess.
I apologize I hid until this all went away at least emotionally and I could once again be a functional person and artist. I worked on paid commissions mostly, though didn't really get anything done, everything was very forced and slow going. Hopefully now I can get back into the roll of things quickly.
Issues with notes???
Posted 9 years agoSo lately with someone on PM it turned out I sent them a note ages ago, and they never got it.
I'm unsure if I just wanted to send it and didn't? I do take painkillers a lot and they make me forget things. Or compose notes, leave them open in a tab, go do something else, and accidentally close and never remember. That happens sometimes, but I have like 4 or 5 people whom I'm waiting a response for notes for weeks and nothing?
If you think I should have noted you, or you noted me and I didn't respond, please comment or try again? I have notes I sent that look like they are being read but no response after 2-3 reminder notes, it's just weird. If it was one person I would be like ok they are busy or hate my face whatever, but it's happening a lot lately.
I will start just shouting people I guess if I don't get answers for too long. I really don't know if I'm at fault here or note system or some combination of the two.
I'm unsure if I just wanted to send it and didn't? I do take painkillers a lot and they make me forget things. Or compose notes, leave them open in a tab, go do something else, and accidentally close and never remember. That happens sometimes, but I have like 4 or 5 people whom I'm waiting a response for notes for weeks and nothing?
If you think I should have noted you, or you noted me and I didn't respond, please comment or try again? I have notes I sent that look like they are being read but no response after 2-3 reminder notes, it's just weird. If it was one person I would be like ok they are busy or hate my face whatever, but it's happening a lot lately.
I will start just shouting people I guess if I don't get answers for too long. I really don't know if I'm at fault here or note system or some combination of the two.
[CLOSED] One sketch commissh, 17$
Posted 9 years agoFirst come first serve
Of this quality: https://gyazo.com/0b390bd7bd26795caeabbea3af1983fc
I will complete it tomorrow.
SFW only, no colors.
beforehand payment.
(This is a belated weekend commission, I could have sworn today was Friday up until a few minutes ago FFFFFFFFF >.< )
Of this quality: https://gyazo.com/0b390bd7bd26795caeabbea3af1983fc
I will complete it tomorrow.
SFW only, no colors.
beforehand payment.
(This is a belated weekend commission, I could have sworn today was Friday up until a few minutes ago FFFFFFFFF >.< )
I will go sleep for two days straight after this. Goodnight.
Posted 9 years agoLiterally.
I tried really hard to push out some more work today and finish anything before I take a break, but my body just refuses to work. i could barely throw a sketch together in 12 hours. my chest hurts, i can barely breath, i see vibrating white things in my peripheral from migraine since yesterday. its time to rest up, and as it happened before i dont think i'm getting up until wednesday night or so. I worked 16 hours in average in the last few days which honestly shouldn't be that demanding of me, but it is. I guess it's the fact that it wasn't just 16 hours, but 16 hours of very focused and hurried painting. Kinda like how you can run for miles but sprint only for seconds, and I did the sprinting for miles (ok that may be a slightly exaggerated analogy).
I will do weeks like these again until my backlog is over. I'm unsure if I can do 1 week on 1 week off, or I can only do one a month. I have to wait to see what's my condition.
i will be working like 10 hours a day instead of 16 otherwise, so plenty of progress still.
On a note; furry art is literally 100% of my life right now. I made a mistake 2 years ago and screwed myself over, and I'm living up to it, and casted away everything else to focus only on fixing it. I don't remember when I last left the house for anything other than groceries, when I had an anime marathon or even met with a friend at all besides my roommate (for obvious reasons). And even if I did go out, I would get a panic attack from guilt. I want to fix my stupid errors, and then start this furry thing over again, but do it well, and be timely, and fast, and good. And I can't thank you enough for the patience you are all giving me, it's really what lets me live on. just thank you.
So there you had my rambling. I take no responsibility of what I wrote, i am barely aware of what im doing.
this was just meant to be a notice that i'll be offline for a bit and may not answer or react to things until then.
Good night untils *burrows under layers of blankets to never be heard of again*
I tried really hard to push out some more work today and finish anything before I take a break, but my body just refuses to work. i could barely throw a sketch together in 12 hours. my chest hurts, i can barely breath, i see vibrating white things in my peripheral from migraine since yesterday. its time to rest up, and as it happened before i dont think i'm getting up until wednesday night or so. I worked 16 hours in average in the last few days which honestly shouldn't be that demanding of me, but it is. I guess it's the fact that it wasn't just 16 hours, but 16 hours of very focused and hurried painting. Kinda like how you can run for miles but sprint only for seconds, and I did the sprinting for miles (ok that may be a slightly exaggerated analogy).
I will do weeks like these again until my backlog is over. I'm unsure if I can do 1 week on 1 week off, or I can only do one a month. I have to wait to see what's my condition.
i will be working like 10 hours a day instead of 16 otherwise, so plenty of progress still.
On a note; furry art is literally 100% of my life right now. I made a mistake 2 years ago and screwed myself over, and I'm living up to it, and casted away everything else to focus only on fixing it. I don't remember when I last left the house for anything other than groceries, when I had an anime marathon or even met with a friend at all besides my roommate (for obvious reasons). And even if I did go out, I would get a panic attack from guilt. I want to fix my stupid errors, and then start this furry thing over again, but do it well, and be timely, and fast, and good. And I can't thank you enough for the patience you are all giving me, it's really what lets me live on. just thank you.
So there you had my rambling. I take no responsibility of what I wrote, i am barely aware of what im doing.
this was just meant to be a notice that i'll be offline for a bit and may not answer or react to things until then.
Good night untils *burrows under layers of blankets to never be heard of again*
Ongoing YCH by me, roomie also has slots left!
Posted 9 years agoThis YCH has 8 hours left!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
My roomie hasn't sold a single slot of his NSFW Halloween YCH, I don't get why I think it's a pretty cool image D:
LAST CHANCE TO GET ONE BEFORE HALLOWEEN!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21549985/
My roomie hasn't sold a single slot of his NSFW Halloween YCH, I don't get why I think it's a pretty cool image D:
LAST CHANCE TO GET ONE BEFORE HALLOWEEN!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21494715/
