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General | Posted 8 years agoFucking knights took their win on the first game of the franchise. Fuck we needed this as a city. Neal and Fleury all fuckin day.
Man can today just be over?
General | Posted 8 years agoFirst my city, this city I love and cherish, where Ive found love and happiness and direction, where I've lived and experienced so much, was the target of the worst mass shooting in US history. Some sick piece of shit bringing such death and misery. It sickens and saddens and enrages me.
And then to top it all a personal hero of mine, someone who got me through some really hard times, passed away too.
I'm just done with today. Rest in peace Tom Petty. Rest in peace everyone. You all deserved better.
And then to top it all a personal hero of mine, someone who got me through some really hard times, passed away too.
I'm just done with today. Rest in peace Tom Petty. Rest in peace everyone. You all deserved better.
Destiny 2
General | Posted 8 years agoAnyone playin Destiny 2 on ps4? If you are lemme know, maybe we can jam sometime.
New job
General | Posted 9 years agoDuuuuude. I was offered a new job yesterday! I'm crazy excited about it, it's in my field of study and the kind of job I was looking to get when I graduated. Plus I'm making honestly like 2.5x as much as I am now. 4 day work weeks, plus holidays.
Feels good to be finally starting a career.
Feels good to be finally starting a career.
legion
General | Posted 9 years agoAnyone playing legion now?
I'm on the horde and can always use someone to play with :P.
Lemme know if you are, maybe we can rock together or something sometime.
I'm on the horde and can always use someone to play with :P.
Lemme know if you are, maybe we can rock together or something sometime.
Stream games maybe?
General | Posted 9 years agoWould anyone want to come watch? Nothing serious or frequent, just something I'm thinking about doing now that I've upgraded my pc and internet :p
How I've been feeling.
General | Posted 10 years agoStressed, lonely, depressed, and lost. Mostly.
And I've been listening to Say Anything a lot too. Which is probably a terrible decision at the end of the day. Jesus shit, if anyone can make you feel like a real piece of shit, it's Max Bemis. Glorious motherfucker <3.
It just seems like so many things that I used to enjoy so much just... don't do it for me anymore. Or they make me feel worse. Idk. I've just been feeling hollow and empty a lot lately, and I'm not sure how to turn it around.... And until I do I guess I'll just keep poppin Hebrews (go buy that album, holy shit is it amazing.)
So to spam one more Bemis song, here's one that I really connect to in a lot of ways lately.
And I've been listening to Say Anything a lot too. Which is probably a terrible decision at the end of the day. Jesus shit, if anyone can make you feel like a real piece of shit, it's Max Bemis. Glorious motherfucker <3.
It just seems like so many things that I used to enjoy so much just... don't do it for me anymore. Or they make me feel worse. Idk. I've just been feeling hollow and empty a lot lately, and I'm not sure how to turn it around.... And until I do I guess I'll just keep poppin Hebrews (go buy that album, holy shit is it amazing.)
So to spam one more Bemis song, here's one that I really connect to in a lot of ways lately.
Six Six Six
Say Anything
I believe in God but I've no reason to follow.
Lost my virginity to myself, I'm just sparks and meat.
I believe in love, but I'm gassy, dank and hollow.
I'd rather drink, smoke, die young, be reborn and repeat.
I belong in jail, but I lied my way to heaven, with a wife who hasn't learned that I'm Satan yet.
I want to burn my art, so I can carve one twee and modern, but I'll just serenade the chemicals. It's the cure that's hardly medical.
Six, six, six, I need a fix.
Never better, I'm a little bit sick.
I hold a grudge and a burden.
I hold a tongue and an organ.
Bang, bang, bang, I hit and ran, left my inner child dead in the drain.
I hold the fire and the hunger. I hold the name and the number: six, six, six.
Unimpressed by the symmetry of death.
Drown in butter 'til there's no hope left.
It's alright.
You think I'm worthy of your wandering eye?
I'm just a strung out, overweight Jewish guy.
So Lord, help me.
Six, six, six, I need a fix.
Never better, I'm a little bit sick.
I hold a grudge and a burden.
I hold a tongue and an organ.
Bang, bang, bang, I hit and ran, left my inner child dead in the drain.
I hold the fire and the hunger. I hold the name and the number: six, six, six.
You don't want to make, me come down.
You're trying to let it go, and opening your mouth.
You won't win.
You will bow down.
So let it go, no.
So let it go now.
All I want is to dethrone God, so I can be crucified
Crucified, crucified.
All I want! All I want! All I want! All I want!S
General | Posted 10 years agoWhen I watch you, I wanna do you right where you're standing (yeah)
Right on the foyer, on this dark day, right in plain view (oh yeah)
Of the whole ghetto. The boots stomp meadows, but we ignore that (yeah)
You're lovely, baby. This war is crazy. I won't let you down (Oh no no)
No, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you
Hell no no, oh no, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you
Hell no no.
No, oh no no no!
And when our city, vast and shitty, falls to the axis (yeah)
They'll search the buildings, collect gold fillings, wallets and rings (oh yeah)
But Ms. Black Eyeliner, you'd look finer with each day in hiding (oh yeah)
Beneath the wormwood, oooh, love me so good.
They won't hear us screw away the day. I'll make you say:
(Alive! Alive!
Alive with love, alive with love tonight)
No, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you
Hell no no, oh no, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you
Hell no no.
Our Treblinka is alive with the glory of love!
Treblinka, alive, with the glory of love, yeah!
Should they catch us and dispatch us to those separate work camps,
I'll dream about you. I will not doubt you with the passing of time (oh yeah)
Should they kill me, your love will fill me, as warm as the bullets (yeah)
I'll know my purpose. This war was worth this. I won't let you down.
No, I won't
No, I won't
No, I won't
(Alive! Alive!)
(Alive with love, alive with love tonight)
Hell no no, oh no (Alive! Alive!)
I won't let them take you, won't let them take you (Alive with love, alive with love tonight)
Hell no, no
No, no
thanks again BemisDo you like animals?
General | Posted 10 years agoof course you do. you wouldn't be here if you didnt.
A very good friend of mine has a sick bby guinea pig, and she doesn't have enough money to get it the treatment he needs :c
She's selling some really cute designs and stuff for cheap, and anything she gets will help immensely with the bills. Go take a look, purchase something if you want something, signal boost if you can, anything will help.
Castiel the guinea pig thanks you <3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7055287/
A very good friend of mine has a sick bby guinea pig, and she doesn't have enough money to get it the treatment he needs :c
She's selling some really cute designs and stuff for cheap, and anything she gets will help immensely with the bills. Go take a look, purchase something if you want something, signal boost if you can, anything will help.
Castiel the guinea pig thanks you <3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7055287/
That one song that describes you
General | Posted 10 years agoOr me. yknow. whatever.
"Do Better"
Life is not a spark in space,
An episode of Will and Grace
Controversial yet mundane.
Debrah's messing with your brain.
Even Scientologists
Know there's more to all of this.
You search the ruins for trap doors.
Wonder what you're put here for.
Simple as a hint of gas
Climbing nostrils as you pass,
Making Harvard graduates
Feel childish when they laugh at it.
Climb the rungs to kingdom come.
Sour Patch to acid tongue.
Are you opposed to having fun?
You clench the world between your buns.
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
Your life is always the post of something else.
Where is the present in the way that you present yourself?
It's disgusting how little that you try:
The existential equivalent of pink eye.
Drink alone and watch TV.
You're expecting harmonies
To tap your tune with silver spoons,
The anthem of impending doom.
Guiding Satan's steady hand.
Forcing Beatles to disband.
It's ego freaks and drama queens
The young at heart know what I mean.
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
Better than that
You're a fraud
Thank God and learn to keep your shirt on.
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world
You'd burn so brightly
You'd burn so brightly in the dark
You'd burn so brightly
You'd burn so
You'd burn so
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
Better than that
You're a fraud
Thank God and learn to keep your shirt on.
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
You could do better
You could do better
You could be the greatest man in the world (woah!)
We could do better
We could do better
We could be the greatest band in the world (woah!)
© Say Anything.
Thanks BemisB
General | Posted 10 years agoWoke up this morning and it seemed to me,
that every night turns out to be
A little more like Bukowski.
And yeah, I know he's a pretty good read.
But God who'd wanna be?
God who'd wanna be such an asshole?
God who'd wanna be?
God who'd wanna be such an asshole?
Well we sat on the edge of the river,
the crowd screamed, "Sacrifice the liver!"
If God takes life, he's an Indian giver.
So tell me now why, you'll tell me never.
Who would wanna be?
Who would wanna be such a control freak?
Well who would wanna be?
Who would wanna be such a control freak?
Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.
Well take what you want from me. You deserve it all.
Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.
But one time out of ten, everything is perfect for us all.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.
Here we go!
If God controls the land and disease,
keeps a watchful eye on me,
If he's really so damn mighty,
my problem is I can't see,
well who would wanna be?
Who would wanna be such a control freak?
Well who would wanna be?
Who would wanna be such a control freak?
Evil home stereo, what good songs do you know?
Evil me, oh yeah I know, what good curves can you throw?
Well all that icing and all that cake,
I can't make it to your wedding, but I'm sure I'll be at your wake.
You were talk, talk, talk, talkin' in circles that day,
when you get to the point make sure that I'm still awake, OK?
Went to bed and didn't see
why every day turns out to be
a little bit more like Bukowski.
And yeah, I know he's a pretty good read.
But God who'd wanna be?
God who'd wanna be such an asshole?
©Issac Brockreally sick
General | Posted 10 years agoJust when i thought that life couldn't shit on me anymore.
Now i can't fucking breathe. I'm like, legitimately scared. My deepest breaths are still shallow as puddle after a light rain in the desert. Feels like im suffocating constantly.
Well, i suppose if nobody hears from me again, a safe assumption would be that i suffocated in my sleep. Fun.
Now i can't fucking breathe. I'm like, legitimately scared. My deepest breaths are still shallow as puddle after a light rain in the desert. Feels like im suffocating constantly.
Well, i suppose if nobody hears from me again, a safe assumption would be that i suffocated in my sleep. Fun.
V
General | Posted 10 years agoThe first time I saw you was in your apartment
I had followed my friends single-file through the darkness
I looked your direction for excessive inspection
And I could not muster the courage to say a single word
For a while we were playing this game that your friends bought
But everyone cheated and no one could spell
You didn't say much of anything
I must have come off annoying, cause you went to bed
I walk home with my eyes low
Dreaming up conversations we'll have tomorrow
Your loose ends, my new friends
All the classes in high school we fell asleep in
But now I can hardly close my eyes
The next time I saw you was in your apartment
Oh, why do I keep ending up here on starlit evenings?
I should be home sleeping
But this time you sat next to me on the couch
(dude, nice!)
I stare out the window
Hands glued tight and sore
Praying to God-knows-what
That you would sever what's stuck
With something shiny from the kitchen drawer
I walk home with my eyes low
Dreaming up conversations we'll have tomorrow
Your loose ends, my new friends
All the classes in high school we fell asleep in
But now I can hardly close my eyes
I was wondering if, maybe, you wanted to hang out tonight
We could make dinner or something
© Modern BaseballHoly crap my head
General | Posted 10 years agoIt's throbbing and painful. BUT i kinda had that coming to me really.
I had like... a little bit of a party last night haha. Just me and my buddy. And we got like stupid drunk. More so than I've ever been in my life lmao.
We had like 2 pitchers of beer at a restaurant, about 3 12 oz bottles of sake, 1 big ass bottle of sake, and i had a beer to end the night. Found out this morning that he passed out on the bathroom floor after he threw up lol. I handled it a little better. Just a bit of a hangover, despite drinking tons of water before i went to bed. I was gonna drink more, but i kinda passed out too. Sooo. Yeah. I still feel like I'm kinda drunk right now as I type this lol.
Anyways, the reason for the party in the first place. IIIIIII...
Got a promotion at work yesterday :D. I'm officially a supervisor now. Or, yknow. I will be Wednesday when I start officially. Came with a small raise, but I'm getting a LOT more hours now. Normally, I'd only end up with 30 hours a week when it was really busy, like around a major holiday or just in December in general, etc. But now I'm gonna get like 24- 30 hours regardless. Even when it gets dumb slow in a few months.
The position itself is just like... a low level supervisor. I'm gonna supervise people, but I don't have to deal with any administrative nonsense. So that's nice. Really though, what I'm most happy about is now I'm in a primo position to move up into the midlevel supervisor position. Which comes with another raise, etc. My boss just interviewed for this one though because she REALLY needed a closer much more than she needed a shift supervisor. But before too long I'm certain she'll start looking for a shift supervisor and I'll be a definite front runner for that. So I'm super hype.
Yay.
I had like... a little bit of a party last night haha. Just me and my buddy. And we got like stupid drunk. More so than I've ever been in my life lmao.
We had like 2 pitchers of beer at a restaurant, about 3 12 oz bottles of sake, 1 big ass bottle of sake, and i had a beer to end the night. Found out this morning that he passed out on the bathroom floor after he threw up lol. I handled it a little better. Just a bit of a hangover, despite drinking tons of water before i went to bed. I was gonna drink more, but i kinda passed out too. Sooo. Yeah. I still feel like I'm kinda drunk right now as I type this lol.
Anyways, the reason for the party in the first place. IIIIIII...
Got a promotion at work yesterday :D. I'm officially a supervisor now. Or, yknow. I will be Wednesday when I start officially. Came with a small raise, but I'm getting a LOT more hours now. Normally, I'd only end up with 30 hours a week when it was really busy, like around a major holiday or just in December in general, etc. But now I'm gonna get like 24- 30 hours regardless. Even when it gets dumb slow in a few months.
The position itself is just like... a low level supervisor. I'm gonna supervise people, but I don't have to deal with any administrative nonsense. So that's nice. Really though, what I'm most happy about is now I'm in a primo position to move up into the midlevel supervisor position. Which comes with another raise, etc. My boss just interviewed for this one though because she REALLY needed a closer much more than she needed a shift supervisor. But before too long I'm certain she'll start looking for a shift supervisor and I'll be a definite front runner for that. So I'm super hype.
Yay.
Thank you, Toh Kay, you smarmy prick.
General | Posted 10 years agoSomewhere in the Between
You were gone when we found you
You were practically surrounded, you were trapped
But the opposition stalled, their blood ran cold
When they saw the look of love in your eyes
Maybe the times we had, they weren't that bad
And everything else was part of the plan
We sang: "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the alpha, omega, beginning and the end
And we all just idolize the dead
So you were born, and that was a good day
Someday you'll die, and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
You had a love and that love had you
And nothing mattered, you were fine
And some will complain, they're just bitter, what a shame
They know that loving and losing is better than nothing at all
Maybe the times we had, they weren't that bad
And everything else was part of our path
We sang: "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the anthem, the slogan, the summary of events
And we all just idealize the past
So you were born, and that was a good day
Someday you'll die, and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
Maybe the times we had, they weren't that bad
And everything else was part of the plan
We sang: "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the alpha, omega, beginning and the end
And we all just idolize the dead
So you were born, and that was a good day
Someday you'll die, and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
And someday soon my friends, this ride will come to an end
But we can't just get in line again
© Streetlight Manifesto/ Tomas Kalnoky
Someone stole my character
General | Posted 10 years agoLel.
Edit: proof it's me f-list people :D
Edit: proof it's me f-list people :D
I JUST REALIZED
General | Posted 10 years agoThat i have a ps4.
I mean, i've known that for a while now, but i just realized what that means. I can totally stream myself getting my ass kicked to the world. Is there anyone that would want to come watch? I picked up bloodborne and its a lot of fun. I can do some experimenting and try to get my stream going and see what kind of quality i can get.
In any case, lemme know if you'd want to come watch and hangout.
I mean, i've known that for a while now, but i just realized what that means. I can totally stream myself getting my ass kicked to the world. Is there anyone that would want to come watch? I picked up bloodborne and its a lot of fun. I can do some experimenting and try to get my stream going and see what kind of quality i can get.
In any case, lemme know if you'd want to come watch and hangout.
Halp.
General | Posted 11 years agoI fucking love me some Monster Hunter. It's honestly one of my favorite franchises of all time.
But for real, Ive been staring at Monster Hunter stuff on Amazon for like 30 minutes. I want it all. Seriously, whoever buys me that gore magala plush, or the tigrex plush, or the gravios plush, or the brachydios plush, or the gore magala stand thing, or the deviljho or the zinogre(s) plushes goes right to the top of the list in my books. And I'd love them forever. Seriously, if I got any of these I'd die.
Also, if anyone is playing 4u currently, hit me up if you want to hunt some time. I'm kinda far along in my gathering hall, but I'd love to hunt with people. I'm on like all the time lmao.
But for real, Ive been staring at Monster Hunter stuff on Amazon for like 30 minutes. I want it all. Seriously, whoever buys me that gore magala plush, or the tigrex plush, or the gravios plush, or the brachydios plush, or the gore magala stand thing, or the deviljho or the zinogre(s) plushes goes right to the top of the list in my books. And I'd love them forever. Seriously, if I got any of these I'd die.
Also, if anyone is playing 4u currently, hit me up if you want to hunt some time. I'm kinda far along in my gathering hall, but I'd love to hunt with people. I'm on like all the time lmao.
terrible day. dunk. honest.
General | Posted 11 years agoSo. Today fuckin sucked lol. I got some badish news today and got told Simeon that really pissed me off bad. So I did what any normal person would do. I got drunk.
Idk, now though I just. Ugh. I always want to be honest with people whenever I get drunk, and now... there's something I wanna clear up with someone. Sometime important to me. You ever have that moment where you want to tell someone something really important but just.... can't? That's me now. Ugh.
Idk. Maybe I will... idk lol.
Idk, now though I just. Ugh. I always want to be honest with people whenever I get drunk, and now... there's something I wanna clear up with someone. Sometime important to me. You ever have that moment where you want to tell someone something really important but just.... can't? That's me now. Ugh.
Idk. Maybe I will... idk lol.
I'm going to lose someone soon...
General | Posted 11 years agoI woke up and kinda realized. And then it hit me a lot harder than I thought it would...
I.... just hope it isn't too bad...
I.... just hope it isn't too bad...
PSN and updates.
General | Posted 11 years agoHello everyone. I hope you're all doing okay. I'm doing pretty alright I suppose. Have some feelings about things that like... I think are good but I just don't know for sure. You know how it is.
Anyways, does anyone have a PSN account? I got my ps4 and made an account, but I don't know anyone with one or what anyone plays haha.
Been busy at work. Just completed day 9 of my 11 day stretch of work without a day off. Demo people are busy around christmas so it would seem. But I can't argue with that money ahah. I am getting a little tired. Got most of my christmas shopping and stuff done. Gonna talk to a buddy of mine and see about something, but other than that I just have to actually go buy my brother's gift and that's about it. So yey.
Anyways, does anyone have a PSN account? I got my ps4 and made an account, but I don't know anyone with one or what anyone plays haha.
Been busy at work. Just completed day 9 of my 11 day stretch of work without a day off. Demo people are busy around christmas so it would seem. But I can't argue with that money ahah. I am getting a little tired. Got most of my christmas shopping and stuff done. Gonna talk to a buddy of mine and see about something, but other than that I just have to actually go buy my brother's gift and that's about it. So yey.
Down and out
General | Posted 11 years agoJust in a pretty crap mood really...
I had probably the worst day I've ever had at work yesterday, and just... idk. I'm fed up with people I guess. I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels. I'm trying and trying and trying, and what's coming of it? What do I have to show for working so damn hard, day in and day out? I'm tired, I'm stressed, I'm exhausted, and it feels like every single thing that I've been looking forward to has just been taken from me...
I'm tired of feeling this way, and I'm tired of writing these journals... Can I just get SOMETHING to go my way for once? for my plans to actually work out?.....
I had probably the worst day I've ever had at work yesterday, and just... idk. I'm fed up with people I guess. I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels. I'm trying and trying and trying, and what's coming of it? What do I have to show for working so damn hard, day in and day out? I'm tired, I'm stressed, I'm exhausted, and it feels like every single thing that I've been looking forward to has just been taken from me...
I'm tired of feeling this way, and I'm tired of writing these journals... Can I just get SOMETHING to go my way for once? for my plans to actually work out?.....
Today is just started for me, havent even gone to work yet..
General | Posted 11 years agoAnd my day is already freaking horrible......
Honestly, I don't even know why I still try anymore....
Honestly, I don't even know why I still try anymore....
Crap day. Anyone open for commissions?
General | Posted 11 years agoWork was kinda frustrating today but that's okay. People just annoy me. Like, we'd all supposed to be in the back by 5:10 to wash dishes and clean carts. Yet I was the only one back on time. The next person back was 4 minutes late. That's like a huge deal because we only have 20 minutes to clean. So when everyone is 4-10 minutes late, that puts us crazy far behind. So I had to bust me ass and clean freaking 3 of the 5 carts by myself. That was stupid.
Anyways, I'm considering getting a commission done for a friend uwu. And myself. 2, maybe 3 characters. Something nice, because I'm a dumb jerk and I hurry someone who means a lot to me. Just a little something for an apology (or at least part of an apology) and to maybe make her day a little brighter. Because she's an amazing person and she deserves it uvu. Just lemme know, it might be a little but I am looking uvu
Anyways, I'm considering getting a commission done for a friend uwu. And myself. 2, maybe 3 characters. Something nice, because I'm a dumb jerk and I hurry someone who means a lot to me. Just a little something for an apology (or at least part of an apology) and to maybe make her day a little brighter. Because she's an amazing person and she deserves it uvu. Just lemme know, it might be a little but I am looking uvu
Rough day at work. Talk anyone?
General | Posted 11 years agoJust kinda had a shitty/frustrating day at work today, but thankfully its over now. Kinda lonely, anyone wanna talk? I'm on skype now uwu
