I have had alot of what i would call parental figures over my life. My real father my moms fiance who latter replaced my real father for 4 years. Many daddy furs and i have lost all of them in some form or another. But all of that pales in comparison to my most recent loss. My mothers fiance or now that he is gone my father died after a terrible fight with lung cancer 10 days ago. I rarely talk about my problems with others. To be brutally honest cause i get repetitive responses like "im sorry i wish i could help" or something along that line. But this is to much for me to bare and not to talk about it with others. The loss of a father in the fashion is by far one of the worst ways to lose someone and to this end shook me to my core. I haven't been communication with anyone in a decent fashion as of late and people are starting to wonder why. Well this is why i have been drowning in my own misery at the notion of having lost a father figure now in everyway. The full gravity of the situation has yet to fully hit home until the funeral on the 18th this month it probably won't. Ill be honest when it does im expecting to fall apart finally from watching a strong proud man wither away like a dying plant then expire right before my own eyes. If i hadn't of woken up and come out into the living room at the time i did he would have died alone. I just hope that through all of this that he finally doesn't have to endure the tremendous pain and loss of pride he had to endure has he started falling apart and became less and less dependent. Off all the ways i could honor him i think i honored his fight the best way anyone could.
We gave the man a viking send off. Big party lost of food and a funeral pyre that we put his favorite guitar in. It was hard seeing my mother in such stress but it was a true honor to call him my father and to commemorate his loss in such a way.

Anyway thanks for listening hopefully not to far down the road ill be back to my normal self

Hey everyone check out toddlergirl she is doing a free art stream :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5011088/

CHeck out the new artist he is doing babyfur you should go sign up for it!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4801707/

Well my 20th birthday is 3 days away and now im craving some art but I will not be able to get any through paying for them. So i am wondering are any of you furs willing to do a request for me? I am really craving a pic for my birthday since i have not had one in quite sometime.

You want a shot to be in a comic? Well here is your chance take advantage now while you still can

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4197626/

Im posting this knowing im probably not going to get a response but yeah. My Christmas left me in shock practically all that i feared that would go wrong did. First i got no presents at all from anyone ever though every single person got big expensive gifts like tablets and all i got was a bag of candy that wasn't even mine Dx. Next every person i asked for help for padding for a Christmas c out ended up having something happen to them that prevented me from cubbing out or getting padding. I haven’t worth in 4 months now and my ocd is driving me bonkers. Next i got promised a blizzard that was predicted a week in advanced. all of this would have been negated by the blizzard had it Happened but lone behold i got less than a inch of snow and the blizzard went 60 miles to the south west of us. I should be upset about this next part but wtf im getting sick of everyone telling me im sorry i wish i could help. I just want one person who will hug me and give me kind words of encouragement instead of im sorry i wish i could do something Dx

*breathes deeply and sighs* If i could find just one person who is willing to loan me padding and ill return the favour i would be a happy cub. But it seems like every time i make the deal i get short stick and the person falls through on their side

anyway excuse my rants all of you have a nice day *hugs all of you*

lea lion is holding a contest for a back to school picture

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3781220/

attention baqbyfurs tatergator is holding a art raffle if there are over 100 entires by the time it ends he will select 3 winners ^^ details inside this link

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3781235/

Attention all cubs Wolf moon desire is doing free babyfur art for all who are intrested a link to her journal is at the bottom of this one ^^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3715546/

Hmm i have been entertaining the idea for about a year of writing a sci fi war epic based around furries. Now i have only started writing it recently but i am liking the product thus far. I am intending to post a random battle story to test my ability at creating battle scenes and when i do i meed reviews and crtique to show me what i need to do for improvment. If this works out in a positive fashion i will begin posting the actual story in the near future. I will give more info on the story itself soon

Aleksander