Some of you remember on twitter I said I made a new Telegram group. I always talked about wanting to get away from gooning but it turns out I just needed to sort out my priorities and then accept being a freak. It.... wasn't easy.
Well it just turned into a regular gooning group which is fine.

I'm just really glad to have them. There are a lot of familiar faces and they really help me feel like myself.

For a while I wanted friends but it turns out I had to get them from a different source (ie not my community), now that I have that security, here I am gooning and producing again.

I will take care of myself like how a daddy would smash his son, hm? 🤗

Recently I met someone important to me

And I like to call him "my son"

To me, it feels like I can finally be the person I want to be.

I never felt so right being Alex and being like a "daddy wolf" before.

He is very kind and always looks out for me.

Sometimes he can get carried away and keep calling me cute lol.

But meeting him reminds me of another person I really liked who I sadly had to stop speaking to.

I am glad I met him. Thanks to him, it feels like this 'toxin' is finally washed away .

I never thought I'd say this in my life, but I really like playing as Alex on Telegram.
I think its because I always was Alex so it feels disingenous to be someone else (like Tristan for example).

But there are many conversations I have, my life is not just gooning. Maybe I forgot this, and probably forgot about the happiness I had in the past, but I am really glad to have returned to Alex again, he makes me feel really happy.

As my support system is increasing in my life, it feels like more and more I can return to the creator I was, but obviously now I am a different person, and truly I am very happy for all the support I have received in this fandom, it really changed my life for the better. But you know, maybe some things are better left in the past.

Deep in the landscape,

Lies an island close to the edge of the world,

In ages past,
It is said that a meteor landed on this island, and from there, the native people of Midgard began to congregate.

This place is known as the Midgard Island.

A place where Ezin is told to investigate. But simply mentioning the word strikes fear in the heart of Unchantis citizens, who say that the island brings death and misfortune.

Still, Ezin presses onward, not out of sheer curiosity, but simply to seek validation from his peers, and also to be away from the people who make him feel alone.

The ship ride to the island is long and stormy.
But when they approach the island, and Ezin at last sets foot on the island, he is surrounded by the calm waters, serene birdsong, and finds himself at a loss.

This was the place said to bring ruin and death?

In the distance, he spots a young woman waiting for him. The smile she wears on her face is geninue, and lights up what little fire is left in Ezin's heart.

To my Alex,

I want to hold you,
Accept you and embrace you,

As you are the wolf who first came into this fandom through your love for stories.

Even though you have always been a pervert,
Your Tristan will remain forever in your heart.

To my Alex,
I want to heal you and embrace you,
And accept you for all you are.

Because one day,
That love will prove to be true.

It was finally an amazing year for me in terms of writing. Of course, I got a lot of people interested in my channel too.

I hope you guys check out my favourite stories of 2025. I really put in so much effort in these works. I am making archives of my favourite short-form content I made in my channel this year. As well as that, I am going to release a few more VN-style works this year, based on SFW stories I've already written, and of course the Midgard Island project.

https://twitter.com/tristanthewolf5.....39776342466784

Hey guys just letting you know I'm switching to Alex on my personal Telegram for a bit. It'll be done when I have the new icon. He's really handsome and I don't have bad memories of him anymore. So I wanna try it out for a bit ^^

Hahahaha XD I managed to change name to AlexNightmurr to tristan but I never have changed my journal start and end text for years XD

it used to be "musky wolf enters", "musky wolf exits" XD

That's so funny XD

I can just imagine seeing some concerning journal by me with those words XD

I'm very sorry so I changed it now *rubs back of head*

Well lately I've been advised to take a backseat from writing as well as using the Internet as a crutch for my mental health. I'm really sorry for my journal posts that I post and delete afterwards and I will apologise as many times as it takes for my behaviour online. Its like I said before, I just need to stop giving in to the feeling of being alone. And it's probably not nearly going to be as difficult as it was. I definitely have been driving myself into a wall for a while. But it doesn't have to be like this. It can just be better if I move on.
🤗❤️

I love you guys and I wanna be silly.

New project - Republishing VN style stories with non-copyrighted artwork

Hi guys in the best interest of everyone I am deciding to republish my VN style stories with commissioned artwork - only particular ones that I have an interest in.

- VN style stories have been removed on FA as they use Themefinland's artwork

I really don't feel comfortable with these stories out there using artwork I don't have permission for, I find it way more enjoyable and rewarding to commission artwork of stories I love anyway.

Update 9 of the Big Archive will include VN style story links (using artwork with permission).

Thanks guys for 1100 followers on twitter, also I am being particular with who joins my Telegram channel, but I am trying to keep familiar faces around, only people I can trust and that look non sus.

Thanks everyone :>

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2

Sorry if I haven't talked to some people in a while or pushed them away

I'm still making efforts to improve my life

I've left what times I'm available on my Telegram, if you do have questions, feel free to contact me, but to be quite honest with you, I have fallen out of contact with a lot of people for a good reason.

And finally my life is looking more positive, so I will only accept other people who are positive and influential in my space.

I'm always open to chat, just respect my boundaries and don't treat me like a tool. I'm kind of tired and jaded of a lot of things in this fandom, so it's why I spend a lot more time to myself recently

As well as that, just focusing on my stories and projects, but it will come in time, a long long time, it might take for me to feel comfortable with my community and content output again

It will take a long time to reach my goals so I'm taking care of myself.

Thanks everyone ^_^

Hello everyone, a couple of things

Firstly, thank you for 250 subscribers on my telegram channel

Secondly, allow me to apologies for kicking everyone out last week, it happened because I was very upset looking back on my old posts and I had a crisis of identity

I hope this clears some things up, and you are welcome to join if you like to lurk, I've only made it as a personal journal for myself and for people to lurk,

Thank you :)

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2

I wanted to talk about my friend journey

As someone who didn't have friends in school at all

I was usually someone who spoke before I thought and I probably still am

I am really glad that even with difficulties in this fandom I have been able to get the friends I desire.

I have never felt this feeling before in my life.
Somehow, all the suffering has been worth it.

I wanted to talk about the game Fantasy Life because I believe it is a truly wonderful game filled to the brim from end to end with charm. I hope more people play it and enjoy this game. Even though the multiplayer elements are undercooked, I still play it with my friends often since it's a very good way to level and get materials. I hope more people play this game and notice its charm as well as Mr Uematsu's music.

I am glad I rediscovered my roots in my love for writing. If 13 year old me would know what I'm doing now I think he would be very happy. Moreover I am glad to have overcome my troubles in this fandom and I am glad I am away from all the toxicity and doing things that I enjoy for nobody but myself. This is the life I was supposed to lead, and it took me quite a few years to achieve this goal. I wish dearly to be surrounded by friends I know irl but you can't have everything.

I will open Telegram comments on my channel when I have someone to moderate for me

In the meantime I would like to ask how are all of you doing?

Hi folks I will stop writing short-form NSFW content on my Telegram channel (posted on the day), as it doesn't make me feel right

what I'll do is that I'll just pop any of these fantasies into my private draft channel then put them into an archive/document when I feel like its time.

Please accept my apologies for pushing so many people away
There is nothing I can do except learn from it and try to remain calm in the years to come.

Hiya folks

I think it's about time we say goodbye to Alex, or maybe what you knew of him.

I was thinking of selling him or deleting my posts of him but I didn't really want to do that cuz I put so much effort in my stories and stuff for him.

So I think what I'll do is stop imagining myself as Alex. And just be Tristan.

It's possible I may commission Alex in the future especially with Tristan because father son stuff is peak, on god.

And I will probably make stories with him in the future.

But definitely good for me to leave the big buff wolf around, I think Alex has always been an archetype rather than actually me.

I'm happy to do this, my AD was closed off some time ago and I'm glad I left my kinky stories behind, as well as my interest for it kind of plummeted to the ground. It makes me happy to move on and spread my wings so to speak

I am glad such things are happening and bringing me closer to me hehe.

As well as that you can see my behaviour everywhere has normalised. So it's good.

Lately looking back on my old posts really made me have a crisis of identity

But in the end I managed to recover, so I think the right thing to say is that I'll leave Alex behind.

Looking at things, seeing no more horny Alex (well, much reduced), my behaviour on twitter, my reduced presence on THAT other site, and now I made steps for my privacy by privating my nerd/vent channel (which is silly)

It seems as though the change to Tristan was successful in pretty much everything I wanted

It is good I am not divided anymore

If I continued the way I am, I would really be at odds with myself. Pervy gooner and cute boy can't be too strong, they must be balanced

Like Avatar yes.

All I need now is confidence

I am planning a return to the furry fandom, I'm working on a lot of things in the background. Mostly stories, I'll be gone for around 3-6 months. Once I come back I'll be 'gone' again...

I am taking a social media break, just... living the life that I made for myself.

This includes my Telegram channel as well.

Also I was discharged from the health service because I am a lot happier now.

Please note all these updates and previous updates to the archives now also reflect on FA where the updated documents can be downloaded / viewed. Thanks all bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Update to "AlexNightmurr's Writings - Death Wolf Story Collection"

- Grey background added to text for easy reading experience

Update to "AlexNightmurr's Writings - The Definitive Collection" (2020 works)

- Grey background added to text for easy reading experience

Update to "AlexNightmurr Writings - 2021 Works - Volume #1"

- Grey background added to text for easy reading experience

Update to "AlexNightmurr Writings - 2021 Works - Volume #2"

- Grey background added to text for easy reading experience

Update to "AlexNightmurr Writings - 2021 Works - Volume #3" (not posted to FA)

- Grey background added to text for easy reading experience
- Updated to fix an issue with one of my stories being posted where it shouldn't be.

Update to AlexNightmurr's Big Archive

- File updated to reflect these current changes. The AlexNightmurr Writings Archive pdf documents have had their names changed for easy of visibility

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2

Because I will mention this story in the new scalie superiority document I will upload, I decided to re-upload this story. When I first released the story at that published date, it got over 4k views. It was truly incredible. And made a furry crush of mine (at the time) cum very hard, so I was happy.

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2/1668

Hi folks thanks for continuing to support. I consolidated an archive for my new Telegram channels (Tristan's Corner 2023-2024) and Alex's/Tristan's Writings (2025-present).

It is a really good archive with some really good stories towards the end so please enjoy. I can't upload it to FA so I'll post a journal here. Thanks guys and take care.

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2/1520

hiya folks.

a new work announcement!

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2/1496