Hi folks

I'm in the process of re-evaluating my telegram channels and making a plan for the future for myself in the fandom as a content creator

I will return in 2026, but to do so I need to re-do my social media (telegram only), so please bear with me

My telegram channel (created 2025) is now private (closed off), and I am in the process of updating all the links in the channel and on Furaffinity.

I'm about 50% done with this now but will update you next year. Have a good one guys and look forward to my submissions! ^^

The conversations I have with people nowadays are just as good as gooning. I need to think carefully about my new lifestyle and what I want in the future. I have achieved what I want already, but I would like to keep in this direction, and possibly return to a more comforting lifestyle like before, right? It's something that might need a lot of work, so maybe I can go back to private journalling for a bit while I figure it out.

It isn't a sad post just a random vent.

To be honest you guys, I've never had a happy life. I was bullied constantly in school, and my parents were always very strict and mean to me. My parents are a lot easier now. But it's hard for my mind to move on.

Lately I'm realising how sad and upset I used to be and just how much of a shit life I had honestly. Yeah, of course I wanted to die, or something. You know, it's really sad. We often make our worst decisions in desperation. I hope everyone gets better and happy.

I just don't know what else to say. But this is what I feel, so...

I want to move on but I love speaking to you all and knowing you're there.

I want to love my mother. I want to forget about all the comments she made in the past and I want to make her proud and happy to see me. I want to bake her brownies and see her happy for a time. I want to sit there for 15 mins and listen to her talk about her interests. And I want to leave when it feels like it gets too much.

And I want her to go to bed happy knowing her son loves her.

I don't want to overextend myself for my family but I don't want to cut them out neither. This is what my heart says...

Hey guys! A new ref sheet of Alex is in process! It is being created by https://x.com/lanladeo

I have hope he will knock it out of the park and create something I truly enjoy.
In fact, I don't doubt it at all ....

More info: https://t.me/ALXNWritings2/4283

Hello you guys.

The island story WAS reaching a completed state, but...

Well, as the document is well and truly being worked on, more inspiration just keeps hitting me. The plot is ironed out and all big events are accounted for. After 6 months of autistic obsession over the world I built and am sharing to you now, I can finally come to the fun part which is writing it. I want to write more small moments in the story to increase the quality. A majority of the story is based on drafts I wrote from October 2024-June 2025, but now that it finally feels like a story, I want to expand the world even more and make it nicer to read.

Because of this I'll do a hard cap to release the story before 2026. Its gone on long enough and I want to move on eventually.

Thanks

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2

Hiya folks. I added a sticker pack for my Ezin character from my Midgard Island story.

https://t.me/addstickers/EzinMidgardIsland

New art has been posted for my story: https://t.me/ALXNWritings2/4153

The story that I am writing is coming along well. It is about a lonely mercenary called Ezin (pictured) who travels to an island fated to bring rumour and death because he wants to die. But when he arrives at the island, he meets a woman he falls in love with instantly, and they resolve to uncover the secrets of the islands together, due to their shared goals and interests.

Along the way, they uncover the truth behind the island's many mysteries: the voices that ring out at night, the ominous mist which surrounds the island, and the pair find themsevles through adventure.

It is currently 50 pages and 9k words long, it will be released in a few weeks as I'm polishing up the final details of the story now. I've been working on it for a year now ^^

When I first started creating the Midgard Island story, I was really alone in my life, but now I have someone important to call a friend, and my life has improved in small steps. I do hope that maybe my story helps other people find the strength to move forward. Personally, I wrote this story as a way to express my feelings and just get better.

I am a nice guy generally, but my mental health used to be bad for a long time. it is nice to see that after so many years I have improved as a person, and able to write and do the things that I enjoy.

Honestly my life hasn't changed that much. But I am able to combat the growing sadness more and more each day and I am getting some good friends. I do like being by myself a lot more nowadays

I don't know. I'm just such a sensitive guy. It's hard when you've reacted to things your entire life instead of just thinking things through. Lol

Does anyone feel that bullying in the fandom nowadays is quite common?

I was bullied a lot. But things are much better now.

what's your experience? Please let me know ^_^

I have updated the character profile for Ezin to be more true to his character, show his feelings and personality more appropriately. The reason I did this was because the original character profile was using text I made in 2022 and it was really outdated and didn't portray his character properly.

Thanks, stay subbed to my channel for more updates!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60756842/

When I first looked back on my posts as Alex, when I first came into the fandom, I was really upset. It was because I completely sexualised myself and pretending to be a dom wolf 24/7 whereas I'm only like that 50% of the time. That is why i considered retiring him. I totally get why I broke down now. I just couldn't comprehend being like that. Nowadays, it is nice to share my thoughts without judgement and openly be myself. It is a good time.

Since meeting my son, a light has been cast on my life

A light brighter than any I've ever seen.

I think it is the light of a friend.

Not someone just being horny with over the Internet, but as an actual living person who wants to interact with me,

It is always rare to interact with these people,

But when it happens, I think it is truly amazing

The feeling of a "good friend".

I think it is an important feeling and probably steered me from a bad path,

This I know with all my heart.

And although the past is cloudy,

I truly can never forget how happy I was in those moments, with friends, just being with others,

Is in itself something that should not be taken for granted.

It is actually a blessing. There is a reason why people like me,

And although that reason may be different now,
I truly believe that my happiness will mend all my broken bridges.

I recently made a minecraft world with my dear friend and I wanted to show it to you.

https://youtu.be/4M5NpnwuvoE?feature=shared

1: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61808417/
2: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61808428/
3: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61808438/

To be honest, the story behind me making this comic is kind of sad. For a while, I felt really lonely. Honestly, most of this year I felt really lonely and sad. But talking with this person, sharing our interest in Mr Uematsu's musics and talking about Final Fantasy made me so happy I couldn't stop crying. So, I stayed up at 2am to make that comic, but emotionally I was so drained and it had very bad effects on my job. This is why I pushed everyone away because I wanted to concentrate on my responsibilities. But I think I know better than to push people away now.

It is indeed very much like a sex hub (but I do frequent those places), however, there's been times where I've been really cheered up by people there.

To be honest, a lot of these people on SL have emotionally supported me more than people I met irl.

For example, I met this handsome dragon one time, and through our conversations he really made me happy.
Sure he was looking for a good fuck but also he really cheered me up with his words and the things we shared.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61808417/

I might go to Bluesky to make more friends. What's your experience like there?

Recently I met someone important to me

And I like to call him "my son"

To me, it feels like I can finally be the person I want to be.

I never felt so right being Alex and being like a "daddy wolf" before.

He is very kind and always looks out for me.

Sometimes he can get carried away and keep calling me cute lol.

But meeting him reminds me of another person I really liked who I sadly had to stop speaking to.

I am glad I met him. Thanks to him, it feels like this 'toxin' is finally washed away .

Deep in the landscape,

Lies an island close to the edge of the world,

In ages past,
It is said that a meteor landed on this island, and from there, the native people of Midgard began to congregate.

This place is known as the Midgard Island.

A place where Ezin is told to investigate. But simply mentioning the word strikes fear in the heart of Unchantis citizens, who say that the island brings death and misfortune.

Still, Ezin presses onward, not out of sheer curiosity, but simply to seek validation from his peers, and also to be away from the people who make him feel alone.

The ship ride to the island is long and stormy.
But when they approach the island, and Ezin at last sets foot on the island, he is surrounded by the calm waters, serene birdsong, and finds himself at a loss.

This was the place said to bring ruin and death?

In the distance, he spots a young woman waiting for him. The smile she wears on her face is geninue, and lights up what little fire is left in Ezin's heart.

It was finally an amazing year for me in terms of writing. Of course, I got a lot of people interested in my channel too.

I hope you guys check out my favourite stories of 2025. I really put in so much effort in these works. I am making archives of my favourite short-form content I made in my channel this year. As well as that, I am going to release a few more VN-style works this year, based on SFW stories I've already written, and of course the Midgard Island project.

https://twitter.com/tristanthewolf5.....39776342466784

Well lately I've been advised to take a backseat from writing as well as using the Internet as a crutch for my mental health. I'm really sorry for my journal posts that I post and delete afterwards and I will apologise as many times as it takes for my behaviour online. Its like I said before, I just need to stop giving in to the feeling of being alone. And it's probably not nearly going to be as difficult as it was. I definitely have been driving myself into a wall for a while. But it doesn't have to be like this. It can just be better if I move on.
🤗❤️

I love you guys and I wanna be silly.

New project - Republishing VN style stories with non-copyrighted artwork

Hi guys in the best interest of everyone I am deciding to republish my VN style stories with commissioned artwork - only particular ones that I have an interest in.

- VN style stories have been removed on FA as they use Themefinland's artwork

I really don't feel comfortable with these stories out there using artwork I don't have permission for, I find it way more enjoyable and rewarding to commission artwork of stories I love anyway.

Update 9 of the Big Archive will include VN style story links (using artwork with permission).

Sorry if I haven't talked to some people in a while or pushed them away

I'm still making efforts to improve my life

I've left what times I'm available on my Telegram, if you do have questions, feel free to contact me, but to be quite honest with you, I have fallen out of contact with a lot of people for a good reason.

And finally my life is looking more positive, so I will only accept other people who are positive and influential in my space.

I'm always open to chat, just respect my boundaries and don't treat me like a tool. I'm kind of tired and jaded of a lot of things in this fandom, so it's why I spend a lot more time to myself recently

As well as that, just focusing on my stories and projects, but it will come in time, a long long time, it might take for me to feel comfortable with my community and content output again

It will take a long time to reach my goals so I'm taking care of myself.

Thanks everyone ^_^

Hello everyone, a couple of things

Firstly, thank you for 250 subscribers on my telegram channel

Secondly, allow me to apologies for kicking everyone out last week, it happened because I was very upset looking back on my old posts and I had a crisis of identity

I hope this clears some things up, and you are welcome to join if you like to lurk, I've only made it as a personal journal for myself and for people to lurk,

Thank you :)

https://t.me/ALXNWritings2

I wanted to talk about my friend journey

As someone who didn't have friends in school at all

I was usually someone who spoke before I thought and I probably still am

I am really glad that even with difficulties in this fandom I have been able to get the friends I desire.

I have never felt this feeling before in my life.
Somehow, all the suffering has been worth it.