To all my siblings of trans umbrella - BIG HUG!!! We are strong and we are amazing! Let's keep being us and shine through any challenges!!! Don't forget to support your non-binary siblings today especially!

Hi guys! Making it straight to the point - my depression been kicking my ass last weeks. I am very sorry that I am not able to deliver sketches to those who I gave a certain a time point, and overall I am very sorry to disappoint everyone for lacking. To be quite honest, I have been doing really good and feeling pretty productive before this began. And my main concern is that depression came back in full force and won't leave, that I am back at the start of my fight that began a couple years ago, that... Well, I think I've made my point. I am just afraid.
But! It's just dumb to think this way and I know that and my close people know that and don't let me feel given up, which I am forever grateful for.
I brushed my teeth today, ate some food, drank more water than one glass, tried to draw something. I am getting back on track and I will get back on track. Just need some time which means that my art will be slow for now. Sorry, once again.
I wish you guys to have a cozy rest of the day and more happiness. You deserve it!
(btw did y'all see that american health government ad on main page, i'm-)

So in December I am going to do 30 sketches (1 per day except for 31st) just for practice and fun! But I have stumbled onto this dilemma - should I post them here? Should I post them initially in scraps? Maybe I should post them as is and put in scraps later? Tell me your opinion on this, would love to hear what you think!
(also yeah most of them will be lewd cuz... uh... i just love drawing lewd stuff...)

Check out her trade piece!!!!! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29422389/

Thanks a lot everyone for taking a chance, really appreciate all the support and nice words! Actually made me feel better and more motivated :'3
Now, let's announce the winners!
I used random dot org to pick FOUR (cuz A LOT of people joined! thanks!!) random numbers from 1 to 32 and here they are:
- 25  atheriummonado
- 18  shadowfirewolf
- 8  sekeinookami
- 4  glassy

YAY! If a winner won't answer to my note in 48 I will reroll them, I think that's fair!
Thank you everyone once again for all the watches, wishes, favs and overall niceness <33
Will probably do free sketch raffles once a month maybe? Not sure but will definitely do them more often ★

So, you might have noticed that I wasn't posting for quite some time x)
Been having some rough times with depression and overall life but I can't give to it too much and have to strike back with productivity and inspiration!
As a gratitude for you guys still following and supporting me I would like to giveaway some sketch drawings of one character you ask!
Just comment here that you would like to join the giveaway and I will assign you a number to do a raffle later. I will choose 3 winners in 24 hours :3
luv y'all xoxo xb

i haven't posted a new art for 2 days and I feel like I am getting KILLED by anxiety like ??? relax?? you're doing ok and you're letting your hand rest??

thanks for listening to my tedtalk

Hi, hope everyone is having a good day and if you're not - let me share with you some of the happiness I now have <3

Happiness is a big word, for me in particular. I've always been a person that made happiness impossible by evaluating its' meaning to unreachable levels - I thought that I could be happy ONLY if every single detail of my life was perfect, if I didn't have a single worry and whole world was in an amazing condition. And every time I heard people saying "oh, happiness is in small moments and it's hard to catch when you're trying" I was like NYYEEEHHH!

But now I understand. I might not be content with my current situation, I might have plenty of problems, but the feeling that I am doing something cool and having fun with it - it really does give a feel of everything nice, huh? I NEVER expected drawing to be that key part of me I needed so much (even though it was a big part of my life since I was 3, like DUH ALICE) to feel happiness. I knew that I need to have work and be productive with it to feel good about myself and even though I've experienced working to the last sweat - I forgot how important is it that your work can fulfill that personal individual need most of us have. For me it's creativity. And even though right now I don't make any money from drawing - seeing how people close to me are doing it and make a living from it, how being an artist right now in this moment is a profitable profession like almost any other - it does already feel like I can make this bigger than hobby while keeping it as a hobby.

Seeing all this support I am getting is sooo goooood, I know that it sounds a bit brattish and maybe I don't even deserve it but I do feel like I deserve it and on this site people don't lie about things they like, at least from what I can tell. And it's really neat. So, I just plastered a whole ass essay and I am sorry for that, basically what I am trying to say is that all of this makes me feel good and I want to thank you for that! I appreciate your support A LOT!