now i need to test it out. any volunteers? =evil grin= hehe.

the owner of this fucking farm my mom runs wants the property looking nice cuz hes selling it and he wants new people to rent the house. im suppose to get payed for doing work but no luck. we borrowed a brush hog from a friend so i can mow like a good boy and fucking hurrying to get the place looking nice i didnt see the kitten we brought up. found him to late to save him. r.i.p oreo. i fuckin told my mom we shouldnt brought him up. she just thinks the barn is a place to drop off cats. its not.

im thinking of having a project when im at college. i was thinking of dropping a 2.5L KLZE V6 in my 96 ford escort or jacking up my 94 gmc jimmy. i realy want a 90s bmw m3 turbo, 60s-92 camaro, 94 and up mustang, plymouth satellite, roadrunner, a crx or honda hatch, a 80s buick regal -grand national-, or a early challenger or a 90s supra. but theres to many cars to pick from idk what to pick from. im thinking a 4 banger is fun and good on gas but a big block can wreck shit.

A couple frends and me will be going and hanging out at the fair grounds if anyone wants to come.

fuckin finally getting out of this horrible place. i have my own apartment already just waiting on getting parts for my truck so i can finally scrap my car and i can start moving my stuff.

another kitten is dieing hes gasping for air but crys. hes very cold and tofar gone to. dude what the fuck. all because one cat my sis brought in that everything is dieing. i dont think i can burry anymore animals. i cant take this shit.

yesterday my mom woke me up to dig a hole. i asked for what and she told me nikita passed. he was a white husky with baby blue eyes and he just turned 16 years old. got him when he was a pup. i just finished digging a hole and burrying a few minutes ago and one of the kittens from a litter passed this morning so i made a little spot outside my window. i realy miss them. i cant write any more cuz tears are dripping on my keys.

the smallest of my cats litter just past away a lill bit ago. she/he was only a week old and didnt even see the world yet. found her cold this morning and spent all day warming up towels for her. she took her last breath and is gone. i fucking hate when the things i love disappear. i hope she'll be good in heaven.

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my kitten Missy just passed away. she was inlabor with her kittens and my mom found her downstairs not moving. she was a calico munchkin. and 4yrs old. R.I.P missy. i hope u and ur kittens are ok in heaven. im gonna hide for a while and cry.

saturday 30th. at 200-230pm meet up then have some fun. bring money if u wanna ride rides or get some food. idk if furry wear is welcome, collars i can see u can wear, but if u wanna wear a tail or ears or suit bring a bookbag just in case if ur not aloud an u can put it in there so no one steals it or i can let u keep them in my car. swimming if u want i just dont know how much every thing will cost.

I didnt realize its finally back. now they need to play the old good shows.

idk, my dad died when i was 2 and my grampa died 7 year ago on the 15th. so the only father figure is my uncle but with family problems i hardly see him, i do sneek out to chill with him and his friend once in a while. they have a beast 1970 chevell 454. hehe. never met any members on my dad side. and every boy friend my mom goes out with are either jerks,assholes or moochers. i hope i dont turn out that way. hehe. i have a few more rants and things to say but im to lazy. hehe

I hung out with 2 of my oldest friends i know. I havent seen them since graduation and they changed. They deal drugs and do them heavily now. my other skater friend i found out he got locked up for some stuff at the age of 15. he had his own sponcers like boards, trucks, and shoes. and he chose drugs and a gang over that. My other friends are either in lock up or on house arrest i found out. they would rather deal drugs to make money then get clean and get a good paying job. Ones an amazing artist and computer geek and the other is a pro on the lathe and c and c and machining. i just hope they dont get in too deep with drugs and stuff. staying home, sneeking around the neighbor hood so they wont get jumped by old dealers and buyers they ripped off and carrying knives for protection isnt a good life.

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Cant wait to get my grimy hands on another one again.

im trying to scratch up some cash for taxes and other stuff and i might let my truck go. its a project but worth it. its a 1994 gmc jimmy older boxy style. 4 door 4x4. i just put a trans and t-case in it and now puting it all back together. its black wif grey inter. itll need a windshield, and front window motors and maybe a rear wiper motor. and maybe some odds and ends. its rust free. only seen erie winter twice. came from florida. its an auto and a 4.3 vortec v6 in it. i have a stack of receipts of what i have done and some extra parts and transmissions and t-cases. i really dont wanna sell it but moneys tight right now.

i cracked the windshield on my truck lastyear and finaly i found someone selling one for cheep except i had to cut it out. i started to cut it out and more then half way done the string i used to cut the stuff from the windshield frayed and took a chunk out of the glass and a 4in crack fourmed. bullsh!t. i cut the rest of it out and payed the guy. and going to my barn today a pickup came out of a gravel pit and a rock took a chunk out of my escort windshield. bull. i know my car isnt inspected i just dont have to time to patch a hole and put a new ty rod in. and now this, its in the drivers view so now it cant be inspected. what z f#ck!!!

god i cant sleep. its too hot, nothings on tv, stupid birds squawking outside my window, my fox plushie bugging me. futon killing my back. mmmh ritz crackerfuls and pepsi.

i hate people that defy me, dont listen, is better then me, or think that they know more then me. every one makes remarks that my car and how i drive is retarded, i always shift the next gear up fast. i never, sometime, go over 3000rpms. but i always laugh that my friends get poor gasmileage and there cars are breaking down alot. who shifts an auto. this guy i know always shifts his auto and wonder why his transmission is acting weird. he and a nother guy redline the crap out of ther cars and the one guy cant even drive his truck cuz it wont idle and wants to die, and who takes a bmw off road and beats the crap out of it. he always polishes it and cleans it but drives over curbs and drifts in dirt with it but when i kicked his door in he got all pissy and redlined the crap out of it in reverse down the block and drove through a cupples yard and he wants 3000 for it, its worth 500. yes my escort it not the best but i do regular check ups on it and never had a problem wif it. it has alot more miles on it then all my friends cars do and it never breaks down or has any problems. it almost has 190xxx miles. im planing on droping in a newer engine in it this winter.i have holes and sheet metal on my car and some how its better and outlasting everyones car or truck. i gonna laugh hard as fuck when one of ther engines blows up or ther tranys drops. the one dude was in my auto shop at central and i still know more then him. fucking 3 hours to try to change his starter on his bmw and 3 ppl try working on it and failed. i just laughed and watched. i hate when i tell someone something and they ignor or talk back, i told this dude a thousand times not to go in the back woods of my barn cuz there are horses, lama and a goat back there and if he spookes them they might run through the fence. the fences are so brilltle that when i bend them it snapes. i put a chain and lock on it and told him a bitch load of times dont go back there. what he do, breaks off my lock and still goes back there and he said he wasnt planning on horses being back there when he logs. its a fucking horse stable dude. i dont care if u planed it its not your property, you only rent the house and front yard. and tookover the side woods wif his junk. i almost mowed his fucking campsite and ran over his little cart and stuff twice wif the tractor and my truck. the fence i was a fraid would get broke by this huge draft horse if the guy spooked them and of corse the draft broke 2 lines and was loose in the field. it pisses me off. ive been there longer than any one there. 10 years of working up there =maybe more= and still things break when people dont listen. i fucking hate male grownup, some of them, alway did and always will. like the dude at the barn never listens to what i have to say, they think there better then me. when i was selling my cars they picked out stupid stuff and said what i did was junk. if a cars been in erie it will have rust on it even if its 30 years old, my camaro. something about them i just hate and wanna punch them. sorry if ur an adult fur. taking advantage. fuck fuck fuck kcuf. i traded my bmw for thin crx and the dude said he'll make payments its been over a month already and said he'll do half in ink =tattoo= and half in cash. its nice but i needed the money. 400 in ink and 250 cash. i traded my friend my 2 12s memphises for his 12s fockfurd plus he'll give me 75 the next day, =looks at watch= its been 3 weeks and my other friend ows me 20 of 40 from last year and he always says he broke but he always have money to put gas and led lights is our friends jeep.

i was born 5-12-92, axl ej b. , in bitburg germany. my dad was in the airforce thats y i was born there. came to colorado to live for a while then my dad passed away=took his own life= came to erie and been here ever since. failed 2nd grade. passed all of the other ones. =bearly= graduated last year. class of 2011. i have an older sis named aspen. my mom took over this barn i love when i was 6 and the owner told us to leave cuz my mom had to many horses and some other stuff, we left in 2004 and came back in jan. 2011. im vary excited the owner wanted us to come back. =the place was run into the ground, 6 managers ran the farm when we were gone= i built the whole down stairs, 8 stalls. got the tractor up and running, okish. fixed stalls that were broke. sorry got off track. i worked at the erie city garage my senior year. it was a fun job, quit before graduation cuz i thought i was going to college in cleveland but nothing happened and my moms to lazy to do my paper work. i bought and sold a cupple cars this sumer, a 82 camaro, 93 bmw, 90 crx, and i might be selling my 94 jimmy that im working on right now. i waisted all my money i had saved up and most of it went to my mom for bills and other stuff cuz shes to lazy to get a job. my sis works 40 -50 maybe more cus my mom uses her as a bank and drans her out. now i have to look for another job. =i hate working with many people around like mc donalds or any fast food= im supose to get payed working at the barn but im not and my moms new boy friend let himself fix everything which kindof drives me crazy. i like fixing stalls at the barn cuz i know what i did and were i fixed it and all that. my moms new boyfriend is kool but lazey he dose work but only helps somewhat wif the bills. hes been liveing at our house for the past month and he leaves light on and all that, eats all the food, cleans the hottub atleast 5-6 times a week and doesnt pay for the watter bill or gas. hes nice i love hanging out wif his little son. ok other things. i kicked the door of my bestfriends car cuz he wouldnt stop messing wif me now hes all p.oed. i do have a short temper, and i hate it. my car is breaking down on me, but it still makes it to cleveland and pitts to get car parts wif no problems. i wish i was rich and could buy a car i want and fix my truck and get a apartment or ask the owner of my barn if i could rent up there or live in the barn. what else, i wore a make it 2 tails in skool and many collars, got many compliments and the ladies and some gentalmen loved it. wasnt aloud to were the tails in my automotive shop class but i wore my collars. met plenty of furends and fur fans. hehe. umm, found out about the fandom in 00-01 and didnt get into it untill 04-05. =didnt have a computer for a while to research= never went to a con cuz neither have money or im just afraid of crowds or crowded places. i skateboard and bmx not great at it but its fun. i know there is a lot more but i hate typeing and spelling. hehe.