Possible Thursday Stream (finished)
Posted 4 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Thursday February 24th, hopefully starting by 1pm PST (4 EST). I will be working on BadgerBen's image, and if falxxx shows up, theirs too, but I have no way to contact falxxx, so perhaps not. I may potentially take 1 or 2 new commissions if there's time and/or I feel up to it?
Here's the usual commission info, in case it's relevant:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Stream's over and the list is finally finished. Currently I don't have any plans for more streams in the immediate future, but if I do stream again down the road, I aim to stick with only taking 2-3 pics per stream.
Here's the usual commission info, in case it's relevant:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Stream's over and the list is finally finished. Currently I don't have any plans for more streams in the immediate future, but if I do stream again down the road, I aim to stick with only taking 2-3 pics per stream.
Saturday Stream Again (finished)
Posted 5 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Saturday February 13th, hopefully starting by 1pm PST (4 EST). I won't be taking any new commissions; I'll only be working on the leftover list from last time, because so many people wanted one. However, I may only be able to do 2 or 3 pics. Here's the list:
Chespi
FullSpartand
Ralord
falxxx
BadgerBen
I'll try to go in order, but will prioritize the people that are present. Or if they can't be present, they could send me a note in advance.
Here's the usual commission info for those people:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for) Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Stream is over. Still have 2 names left, hopefully I'll be able to finish them soon-ish.
Chespi
FullSpartand
Ralord
falxxx
BadgerBen
I'll try to go in order, but will prioritize the people that are present. Or if they can't be present, they could send me a note in advance.
Here's the usual commission info for those people:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for) Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Stream is over. Still have 2 names left, hopefully I'll be able to finish them soon-ish.
Saturday Stream Continuation (finished)
Posted 5 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Saturday January 23rd, hopefully starting around 12-1pm PST (3-4 EST). I won't be taking any new commissions; I'll only be working on the leftover list from last time, because so many people wanted one. However, I may only be able to do 2 or 3 pics. Here's the list:
Max O-Zuma
Chespi
FullSpartand
Ralord
falxxx
I'll try to go in order, but will prioritize the people that are present. Or if they can't be present, they could send me a note in advance.
Here's the usual commission info for those people:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for) Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I seemed to be really out of it and was only able to complete one picture :( I'll have to try and schedule another stream sometime.
Max O-Zuma
Chespi
FullSpartand
Ralord
falxxx
I'll try to go in order, but will prioritize the people that are present. Or if they can't be present, they could send me a note in advance.
Here's the usual commission info for those people:
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009677/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40009845/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for) Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat with your idea. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I seemed to be really out of it and was only able to complete one picture :( I'll have to try and schedule another stream sometime.
Boxing Day Stream (finished)
Posted 5 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Saturday December 26th, hopefully starting around 12-1pm PST (3-4 EST), and I'll continue as long as I'm able. I realize this is a lot shorter notice than I usually give, so I expect a smaller turnout than usual. It might also be a shorter stream than past ones because I haven't had much energy lately.
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37847561/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but I may favor people that haven't gotten sketches before. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Thanks for coming. I got way more requests than I anticipated, so I may do another stream to try and finish the rest if I find the time.
Single-character sketches will be about $17-18, but might be adjusted for complexity. I'd prefer simpler ideas if possible.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37847561/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but I may favor people that haven't gotten sketches before. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: Thanks for coming. I got way more requests than I anticipated, so I may do another stream to try and finish the rest if I find the time.
Folders / Commissions Update
Posted 5 years agoI finally took some time and added more folders to my gallery to make it easier to find certain things. Folders added:
My Characters:
Koni - In case she starts seeing more use :shrug:
Other Characters:
Individual folders for Amaterasu, Krystal, Toriel, Isabelle, Freya, Cynder, and Pokemon, so they're easier to find and not all lumped together under 'Video Game Girls'
Cartoon Girls - Any non-video game, non-pony characters, probably should've been there a long time ago
(if you think any other characters need their own folders, let me know and I'll see if I agree)
Miscellaneous Categories
My Art - Everything that I have personally done
Personal Favorites - My overall favorite pics, both my own and from others
Breast Expansion - Dedicated boob growth folder
The Biggest - For people that want to see the biggest boobs and/or butts in my gallery
References - Character ref sheets and any other pics I frequently use for reference
Super G Rated - Everything that's (hopefully) safe for all ages (this already existed but never called attention to it)
Just figured I would mention it in case people like to know that sort of thing (also because it took a while to sort through)
Before I closed commissions around 2 years ago, there were a couple people that had asked me about commissions, but I had to put them on hold until I felt able to handle doing them again. Currently I'm working on pics for those few people using my old prices. I'm not accepting any new commissions at this time, but I still want to get these past ones done so they don't haunt me (and also because these people have been extremely patient). Once those are finished, I'll be working on the YCH pics that I'd offered a year-and-a-half ago https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30454557/
Once all of these responsibilities are finished, I don't yet know if I'll be re-opening for commissions. If I do, the prices will definitely be raised. A lot of artists have raised their prices in recent times, and I also need to earn what my time and effort is worth, which I feel was priced pretty low in the past. If I do decide to open again, I'll put up a new price sheet, and the handful of people that contacted me during my hiatus will have first dibs.
I guess long story short, I'm addressing old commission requests but don't want anyone to get excited yet. Thanks a lot to everyone that's been patient with me these last couple years. Thanks for reading.
My Characters:
Koni - In case she starts seeing more use :shrug:
Other Characters:
Individual folders for Amaterasu, Krystal, Toriel, Isabelle, Freya, Cynder, and Pokemon, so they're easier to find and not all lumped together under 'Video Game Girls'
Cartoon Girls - Any non-video game, non-pony characters, probably should've been there a long time ago
(if you think any other characters need their own folders, let me know and I'll see if I agree)
Miscellaneous Categories
My Art - Everything that I have personally done
Personal Favorites - My overall favorite pics, both my own and from others
Breast Expansion - Dedicated boob growth folder
The Biggest - For people that want to see the biggest boobs and/or butts in my gallery
References - Character ref sheets and any other pics I frequently use for reference
Super G Rated - Everything that's (hopefully) safe for all ages (this already existed but never called attention to it)
Just figured I would mention it in case people like to know that sort of thing (also because it took a while to sort through)
Before I closed commissions around 2 years ago, there were a couple people that had asked me about commissions, but I had to put them on hold until I felt able to handle doing them again. Currently I'm working on pics for those few people using my old prices. I'm not accepting any new commissions at this time, but I still want to get these past ones done so they don't haunt me (and also because these people have been extremely patient). Once those are finished, I'll be working on the YCH pics that I'd offered a year-and-a-half ago https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30454557/
Once all of these responsibilities are finished, I don't yet know if I'll be re-opening for commissions. If I do, the prices will definitely be raised. A lot of artists have raised their prices in recent times, and I also need to earn what my time and effort is worth, which I feel was priced pretty low in the past. If I do decide to open again, I'll put up a new price sheet, and the handful of people that contacted me during my hiatus will have first dibs.
I guess long story short, I'm addressing old commission requests but don't want anyone to get excited yet. Thanks a lot to everyone that's been patient with me these last couple years. Thanks for reading.
Sketch Stream Continuation on Saturday (finished)
Posted 5 years agoUnless something else comes up, I'm planning to stream again on Saturday August 8th, starting around 12-1pm PDT (3-4 EDT), as long as I'm able. I had a much bigger turnout for my last stream than I expected and had a lot of people I couldn't get to, so I wanted to continue that list for the people that didn't get their chance. I won't be taking any new sketch commissions unless no one from the list is present. In that unlikely case, the info can be found in my previous journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9546391
EDIT: Stream is over, thanks for coming.
EDIT: Stream is over, thanks for coming.
Possible Sketch Stream on Friday (finished)
Posted 5 years agoI don't know for certain what the rest of the week will be like, but assuming I'm free, I'm hoping to do a digital sketch stream Friday or Saturday July 10th/11th, hopefully starting around 12-1pm PST (3-4 EST), and I'll continue as long as I'm able.
I haven't decided yet, but I'll probably either make the stream either Pokemon-themed again, or give preference to people that have not gotten a sketch commission from me before. Maybe both?
Single-character sketches will be about $15-20 depending on complexity, possibly more for detailed designs or whatnot, and I may generally lean towards the upper end of prices this time. Multi-character things might be negotiable if there's a small list.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770656/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but again, I might favor either Pokemon pics or newbies. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I decided to give priority to both newbies and Pokemon.
EDIT 2: Stream is over! I had a lot more people wanting a spot than usual, so I might do another one soonish to get to the people that I couldn't today, if I have the opportunity. Don't know if or when yet.
I haven't decided yet, but I'll probably either make the stream either Pokemon-themed again, or give preference to people that have not gotten a sketch commission from me before. Maybe both?
Single-character sketches will be about $15-20 depending on complexity, possibly more for detailed designs or whatnot, and I may generally lean towards the upper end of prices this time. Multi-character things might be negotiable if there's a small list.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35770656/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but again, I might favor either Pokemon pics or newbies. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I decided to give priority to both newbies and Pokemon.
EDIT 2: Stream is over! I had a lot more people wanting a spot than usual, so I might do another one soonish to get to the people that I couldn't today, if I have the opportunity. Don't know if or when yet.
Sketch Stream on Thursday (finished)
Posted 5 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Thursday April 2nd, hopefully starting around 12-1pm PST (3-4 EST), and I'll continue as long as I'm able. Ordinarily I wouldn't consider doing a non-weekend stream, but I figure a lot of people are going to be at home anyway due to covid isolation/quarantine.
Single-character sketches will be about $15-20 depending on complexity, possibly more for detailed designs or whatnot, and I may generally lean towards the upper end of prices this time. Multi-character things might be negotiable if there's a small list.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403417/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but I might favor characters I personally like if there are multiple people asking for sketches at once. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I originally wrote "Thursday April 3rd" because I'm dumb and can't read a calendar apparently, I meant Thursday the 2nd.
EDIT 2: Oops, forgot to update and say the stream was over, thanks to the viewers.
Single-character sketches will be about $15-20 depending on complexity, possibly more for detailed designs or whatnot, and I may generally lean towards the upper end of prices this time. Multi-character things might be negotiable if there's a small list.
Quality samples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403719/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403356/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34403417/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). Mostly first-come first-serve, but I might favor characters I personally like if there are multiple people asking for sketches at once. Send me an FA note or a whisper in chat if you'd like a sketch. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note beforehand. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still find something to draw on my own, for the sake of practice.
EDIT: I originally wrote "Thursday April 3rd" because I'm dumb and can't read a calendar apparently, I meant Thursday the 2nd.
EDIT 2: Oops, forgot to update and say the stream was over, thanks to the viewers.
February trip
Posted 6 years agoJust wanted to let people know that I'll be away on a trip from February 16-22, so I won't be able to respond to any messages or anything during that time, and possibly a couple days before/after as well.
Pokemon Sketch Stream on Saturday (finished)
Posted 6 years agoAssuming nothing goes awry or unexpectedly comes up, I'm planning to do a digital sketch stream Saturday December 28th, hopefully starting around 12-1pm PST (3-4 EST), and I'll continue as long as I'm able.
This will be a Pokemon-themed stream, so I won't do any non-Pokemon pics, but you're welcome to use your own Pokemon characters if you like. If you'd like a sketch, please tell me what Pokemon you'd like, boob size, and theme or pose, but you can say "artist's choice" to the latter two, if you wish. Please keep in mind that there are quite a few Pokemon that I won't draw, including bug-based ones, object-based ones, or anything else that I don't think anthropomorphizes well (unless you want a regular, non-anthro/non-busty Pokemon), so please don't be upset if I refuse. I also apologize if I end up being rather slow, because I've hardly drawn anything for a long time.
Single-character sketches will be $15-20 depending on complexity; Mega Pokemon or particularly complex designs will probably be more like $20-25.
Quality samples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27031675/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27031631/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737232/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). First-come first-serve, send me an FA note or a whisper in chat. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still draw some Pokemon on my own, because I need some practice.
EDIT: Stream's over, thank you very much to all the viewers! I'll upload the images soon.
This will be a Pokemon-themed stream, so I won't do any non-Pokemon pics, but you're welcome to use your own Pokemon characters if you like. If you'd like a sketch, please tell me what Pokemon you'd like, boob size, and theme or pose, but you can say "artist's choice" to the latter two, if you wish. Please keep in mind that there are quite a few Pokemon that I won't draw, including bug-based ones, object-based ones, or anything else that I don't think anthropomorphizes well (unless you want a regular, non-anthro/non-busty Pokemon), so please don't be upset if I refuse. I also apologize if I end up being rather slow, because I've hardly drawn anything for a long time.
Single-character sketches will be $15-20 depending on complexity; Mega Pokemon or particularly complex designs will probably be more like $20-25.
Quality samples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27031675/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27031631/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737232/
Boob size chart (any size up to Extreme is fine): https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Normal commission rules apply (no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). First-come first-serve, send me an FA note or a whisper in chat. If you'd like to 'reserve' a spot in advance or can't be there for the stream, you can send me a note. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
If for whatever reason there's no interest, I may still draw some Pokemon on my own, because I need some practice.
EDIT: Stream's over, thank you very much to all the viewers! I'll upload the images soon.
small update
Posted 6 years agoI've been quiet for a long time, thought I should give a little update or something. Not a whole lot has changed, I still feel oppressed by work and regularly too exhausted to do much on my own time, and I've probably become even less social than before (if that's even possible). I'm doing my best to pick myself up while I have Christmas break, and I'm going to see if anything can change at work to make it easier on me. Thanks to those that showed their support on my last journals.
I'm going to try and finally upload commissions and other pics I've gotten long ago in the next little bit, because I've been holding on to them for way too long.
I'm planning to try and stream again sometime soon to try and get myself back into drawing again. I don't know when exactly yet, but I'm hoping it'll be this coming weekend, or during the following week. Chances are, it'll be a Pokemon-focused one.
I realize that some people have waited on commission inquiries for over a year now, and I'm terribly sorry I haven't been able to address them yet. If things go well then maybe I can finally address those too.
Merry Christmas.
I'm going to try and finally upload commissions and other pics I've gotten long ago in the next little bit, because I've been holding on to them for way too long.
I'm planning to try and stream again sometime soon to try and get myself back into drawing again. I don't know when exactly yet, but I'm hoping it'll be this coming weekend, or during the following week. Chances are, it'll be a Pokemon-focused one.
I realize that some people have waited on commission inquiries for over a year now, and I'm terribly sorry I haven't been able to address them yet. If things go well then maybe I can finally address those too.
Merry Christmas.
birthday
Posted 6 years agoOh yeah... My birthday's coming up in just a few days, on April 15. Usually I try to say it a couple weeks or a month in advance, but I dunno. I don't think it really matters, at this point I feel like a birthday only reminds me of how little I've done in the past year :( Thanks to anyone that wants to leave a birthday wish, though.
I completely missed out on Rina March, I'm going to try and get a few pics of her done, then try to deal with outstanding commission requests. Unfortunately, I don't know how long either of those will take.
I completely missed out on Rina March, I'm going to try and get a few pics of her done, then try to deal with outstanding commission requests. Unfortunately, I don't know how long either of those will take.
Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be doing this anymore
Posted 7 years agochoo choo, here comes the mope train
Even though I try to keep up a mostly-positive exterior most of the time, I typically don't feel very good about myself. I hardly ever get anything done. So often I come home from work and just don't feel like going through the effort of doing anything personal, I just end up doing a whole lot of nothing and watching stuff on Youtube or whatever, and it takes a lot of forcing myself to do something to work up the motivation to actually do some art. Part of it is likely because I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough stuff for FA (my characters, fanart, etc), so I try to make myself do some FA stuff, and that means I'm not working on anything not for FA, like trying to develop any kind of personal project or get anywhere with my desired career. It's this neverending loop of "I should do _____, but I should also do _____, but maybe I should do _____ instead..." I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere trying to give appropriate attention to multiple directions. I have no idea how other people are able to do it.
I can't really say I feel like I've accomplished much in my time here either... I've been posting art on FA for about 9 1/2 years now and I still haven't done anything really substantial with my characters. I still haven't even done updated reference pages for Rina, Niko, or Claire; I did Maple in March 2013 and Jazz in October that year, and since then just keep putting it off and never dealing with it. They really need it too; I feel like almost every time I commission someone for Rina, they don't do her hair properly or give her massive hips even after I specifically note that she should have small hips, it's just really frustrating. And even though last year I started trying to do "character months" to get myself actually drawing my characters again, each time I always end up scrambling to try and do stuff when the month's almost over and stuff gets done later than intended. I haven't even colored a personal pic in a year http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26435771/ , and the last one was a year before that http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22609477/ , and again nearly a year before that one http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19684182/ just because I always feel like "this takes too long to make it look nice..." Another part of the problem is likely because I constantly feel like I'll never be "good enough" for people to actually care about my stuff, and that really drains a lot of motivation.
Speaking of not accomplishing anything, I'm perpetually behind on looking at FA messages (journals, submissions, etc), it always gets to a point where I have to say "Okay, I need to sit down for an hour or so to go through all this stuff", and then because of how long it takes I end up not touching it again until a huge pile's built up again. I don't know how the people that watch several hundred others do it, I can't even keep up with <50. It's another big drain on any time I have and usually ends with me wanting to do anything other than still be on the computer.
I really haven't earned myself much popularity or friends either. By now I have barely a couple people that try to talk to me at all; there were more people that would chat with me in the past, but they've all dropped away, most likely because I just don't know how to talk to people or strike up a conversation. I'd love to talk to people more often and make new friends and be less of an asocial loser, but I just don't know how to converse or be interesting at all; I find it hard to imagine anyone else caring about the stuff I care about. One friend that was very close even suddenly blew up and shut me out, seemingly because I didn't talk to them enough. It's absolutely not any kind of personal or individual beef that I have with anyone that makes me not converse, it's just me being a worthless loser that can't talk to anyone. On top of that, I earned myself a stalker creep that's maybe one of the worst people I've had the misfortune of meeting. You know who you are; get lost and stop stalking me and all the people that have loose connections to me, because I will not under any circumstances treat you politely after all the crap you've done to me and my friends.
I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I still absolutely love and adore cute ladies with massive boobs, but I'm worried that I'm never going to get out of this hole I'm in, and can't help but wonder if it's better in the long run to try and focus instead on stuff I could actually share with people publicly instead. There are a few people that have already asked me about commissions in the last few months, and I had to tell them "I'm really sorry, I can't until I finish the ones currently on my list and it may be several months before I'm able to...", so I certainly feel obligated to do work for those people at the very least; as well as try and get through Rina March, because she's the only character not to have her month yet. But beyond that I'm not sure what the future holds. Quitting FA would really suck and I don't want to do it, but maybe it's been more trouble than it's worth. I just don't know. <:(
Sorry to lay out this dump of emotions on anyone that takes the time to read it. Please leave me your thoughts if you have any, I guess.
Even though I try to keep up a mostly-positive exterior most of the time, I typically don't feel very good about myself. I hardly ever get anything done. So often I come home from work and just don't feel like going through the effort of doing anything personal, I just end up doing a whole lot of nothing and watching stuff on Youtube or whatever, and it takes a lot of forcing myself to do something to work up the motivation to actually do some art. Part of it is likely because I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough stuff for FA (my characters, fanart, etc), so I try to make myself do some FA stuff, and that means I'm not working on anything not for FA, like trying to develop any kind of personal project or get anywhere with my desired career. It's this neverending loop of "I should do _____, but I should also do _____, but maybe I should do _____ instead..." I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere trying to give appropriate attention to multiple directions. I have no idea how other people are able to do it.
I can't really say I feel like I've accomplished much in my time here either... I've been posting art on FA for about 9 1/2 years now and I still haven't done anything really substantial with my characters. I still haven't even done updated reference pages for Rina, Niko, or Claire; I did Maple in March 2013 and Jazz in October that year, and since then just keep putting it off and never dealing with it. They really need it too; I feel like almost every time I commission someone for Rina, they don't do her hair properly or give her massive hips even after I specifically note that she should have small hips, it's just really frustrating. And even though last year I started trying to do "character months" to get myself actually drawing my characters again, each time I always end up scrambling to try and do stuff when the month's almost over and stuff gets done later than intended. I haven't even colored a personal pic in a year http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26435771/ , and the last one was a year before that http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22609477/ , and again nearly a year before that one http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19684182/ just because I always feel like "this takes too long to make it look nice..." Another part of the problem is likely because I constantly feel like I'll never be "good enough" for people to actually care about my stuff, and that really drains a lot of motivation.
Speaking of not accomplishing anything, I'm perpetually behind on looking at FA messages (journals, submissions, etc), it always gets to a point where I have to say "Okay, I need to sit down for an hour or so to go through all this stuff", and then because of how long it takes I end up not touching it again until a huge pile's built up again. I don't know how the people that watch several hundred others do it, I can't even keep up with <50. It's another big drain on any time I have and usually ends with me wanting to do anything other than still be on the computer.
I really haven't earned myself much popularity or friends either. By now I have barely a couple people that try to talk to me at all; there were more people that would chat with me in the past, but they've all dropped away, most likely because I just don't know how to talk to people or strike up a conversation. I'd love to talk to people more often and make new friends and be less of an asocial loser, but I just don't know how to converse or be interesting at all; I find it hard to imagine anyone else caring about the stuff I care about. One friend that was very close even suddenly blew up and shut me out, seemingly because I didn't talk to them enough. It's absolutely not any kind of personal or individual beef that I have with anyone that makes me not converse, it's just me being a worthless loser that can't talk to anyone. On top of that, I earned myself a stalker creep that's maybe one of the worst people I've had the misfortune of meeting. You know who you are; get lost and stop stalking me and all the people that have loose connections to me, because I will not under any circumstances treat you politely after all the crap you've done to me and my friends.
I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I still absolutely love and adore cute ladies with massive boobs, but I'm worried that I'm never going to get out of this hole I'm in, and can't help but wonder if it's better in the long run to try and focus instead on stuff I could actually share with people publicly instead. There are a few people that have already asked me about commissions in the last few months, and I had to tell them "I'm really sorry, I can't until I finish the ones currently on my list and it may be several months before I'm able to...", so I certainly feel obligated to do work for those people at the very least; as well as try and get through Rina March, because she's the only character not to have her month yet. But beyond that I'm not sure what the future holds. Quitting FA would really suck and I don't want to do it, but maybe it's been more trouble than it's worth. I just don't know. <:(
Sorry to lay out this dump of emotions on anyone that takes the time to read it. Please leave me your thoughts if you have any, I guess.
Badgerben stream thing
Posted 7 years agothis is a thing i gotta do
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30210964/
badgerben doing a random draw stream thing
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30210964/
badgerben doing a random draw stream thingNeed dogs (Edit: resolved)
Posted 7 years agoReally should have put this up sooner...
Can anyone suggest to me any dog/wolf girl characters from cartoons/video games/etc that would be up my alley? At the moment I can think of:
Isabelle from Animal Crossing
Merveille from Solatorobo
Amaterasu from Okami
I'm trying to think of one more, but there's just nothing coming to mind. Maybe there's someone obvious I've missed?
EDIT: I decided to pick Lucario from Pokemon. Thanks for the suggestions.
Can anyone suggest to me any dog/wolf girl characters from cartoons/video games/etc that would be up my alley? At the moment I can think of:
Isabelle from Animal Crossing
Merveille from Solatorobo
Amaterasu from Okami
I'm trying to think of one more, but there's just nothing coming to mind. Maybe there's someone obvious I've missed?
EDIT: I decided to pick Lucario from Pokemon. Thanks for the suggestions.
Commissions Re-Open
Posted 7 years agoI don't know how many people have actually noticed, but I've been semi-officially closed for commissions for a fair while now. I never announced it publicly or anything, I've just been too overwhelmed to actually seriously work on much for some time. In any case, I'm going to formally open for commissions again and thought I better make sure it's known.
As always, my price sheet can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ (I should update this with recent samples)
Additional (and updated) samples can be found in my Commission Info tab: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/allrights/ or in my Gallery: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/allrights/ (look in the Commissions folder for all past commission work)
And full commission information details can be found in this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5012124/ (perhaps TOO much detail, I should consider rewriting it)
I'm also going to try offering sequences; depending on the number of characters/number of frames, each frame may be given "extra character" price or be considered full seperate images.
As for the number of slots, don't take the 2 slots listed on my page to heart; there's no effective limit to how many slots I'll take unless I suddenly get swamped with a bunch at once. Likewise, ignore that everything on my Commission Info tab indicates 1 slot each; that's just to make the text green instead of red...
In short; I offer sketches, clean drawings, flat colors, and shaded colors. I do not draw adult content. Huge boobs are my specialty, but I don't mind drawing things without huge boobs either. Please send me a note if interested, and if you have any questions, please feel free to comment here or send me a note.
As always, my price sheet can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ (I should update this with recent samples)
Additional (and updated) samples can be found in my Commission Info tab: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/allrights/ or in my Gallery: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/allrights/ (look in the Commissions folder for all past commission work)
And full commission information details can be found in this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5012124/ (perhaps TOO much detail, I should consider rewriting it)
I'm also going to try offering sequences; depending on the number of characters/number of frames, each frame may be given "extra character" price or be considered full seperate images.
As for the number of slots, don't take the 2 slots listed on my page to heart; there's no effective limit to how many slots I'll take unless I suddenly get swamped with a bunch at once. Likewise, ignore that everything on my Commission Info tab indicates 1 slot each; that's just to make the text green instead of red...
In short; I offer sketches, clean drawings, flat colors, and shaded colors. I do not draw adult content. Huge boobs are my specialty, but I don't mind drawing things without huge boobs either. Please send me a note if interested, and if you have any questions, please feel free to comment here or send me a note.
Short stream today (finished)
Posted 7 years agoI'm planning to do a digital sketch commission stream around 1pm PDT/ 4pm EDT (about 2 hours from now). It's probably going to be a short stream though, I may only take 2 sketches.
Single-character sketches will be available for about $15 (USD); multiple-character things might be negotiable.
Samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843520/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064178/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737232/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737202/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). First-come first-serve, send me an FA note or a whisper in chat. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
Stream's over, thank you for coming!
Single-character sketches will be available for about $15 (USD); multiple-character things might be negotiable.
Samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843520/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064178/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737232/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23737202/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). First-come first-serve, send me an FA note or a whisper in chat. I'll put up a notification image when the stream starts.
Stream's over, thank you for coming!
buh
Posted 7 years agobuh
Sorry I've been inactive for so long. I've just had a lot of stuff to deal with, and I've also been feeling just poopy and bad for a very long time. Haven't had the drive to draw like I wish I did. Didn't accomplish anything I intended to do last year, probably not even from the year before that.
I think I'm sorta getting a little better, maybe; work has been lightening up a bit and I've pushed myself to do some things recently. Hopefully I can keep that up.
Something I thought of to try and push myself to do more art is to give my characters 'theme months' and challenge myself to do X number of pictures featuring them throughout the month. At the moment I'm thinking something like Robo-January (Robo-kitty), Rina March, Maple May, Jazz July, Clairetember (September), and Niko November. Spacing them out like so should hopefully keep me from burning out or anything. Guess we'll see how that goes come May.
I've been neglecting to upload commissions and stuff I've gotten from others too; I'm going to try and make that happen sooner rather than later. In case anyone cares to know, I have stuff to upload from (in no particular order):
(waiting on one more)
(if they ever get finished)

I'm considering maybe doing a digital sketch stream this weekend, but I don't really know yet if it'll pan out. Maybe another weekend if not.
Finally, it's my birthday pretty soon, on the 15th. I don't expect anything at this point, but appreciate any well-wishes.
now back to being mopey
Sorry I've been inactive for so long. I've just had a lot of stuff to deal with, and I've also been feeling just poopy and bad for a very long time. Haven't had the drive to draw like I wish I did. Didn't accomplish anything I intended to do last year, probably not even from the year before that.
I think I'm sorta getting a little better, maybe; work has been lightening up a bit and I've pushed myself to do some things recently. Hopefully I can keep that up.
Something I thought of to try and push myself to do more art is to give my characters 'theme months' and challenge myself to do X number of pictures featuring them throughout the month. At the moment I'm thinking something like Robo-January (Robo-kitty), Rina March, Maple May, Jazz July, Clairetember (September), and Niko November. Spacing them out like so should hopefully keep me from burning out or anything. Guess we'll see how that goes come May.
I've been neglecting to upload commissions and stuff I've gotten from others too; I'm going to try and make that happen sooner rather than later. In case anyone cares to know, I have stuff to upload from (in no particular order):
(waiting on one more)
(if they ever get finished)

I'm considering maybe doing a digital sketch stream this weekend, but I don't really know yet if it'll pan out. Maybe another weekend if not.
Finally, it's my birthday pretty soon, on the 15th. I don't expect anything at this point, but appreciate any well-wishes.
now back to being mopey
End of September Absence
Posted 8 years agoJust wanted to let everyone know that I'll be away on a trip from September 21-30, so I won't be able to respond to any messages or anything during that time. See you in October!
Trying to Stream this weekend (finished!)
Posted 8 years agoHeya, it's been a while since I've been active, due to various things. I'm trying my best to do a stream Saturday afternoon, hopefully starting around 2-3pm PDT/5-6pm EDT. I don't think anything should get in the way of that, but if for some reason I'm unable, then I'll try for Sunday instead. If that fails too... well, I'm not sure, maybe the following Sunday? >_<
Single-character sketches will be available for $15 (USD) (possibly more/less based on complexity/simplicity); multiple-character things (or multiple images) might be negotiable if there aren't too many people waiting?
Some samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064092/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064178/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064255/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064137/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). If you have any questions or would like to 'reserve a spot' in advance, please feel free to send me a note, and I can work on it even if you can't be there.
Don't know if anyone's noticed, but regular commissions ( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ ) have been closed for the last little while due to RL stuff. I'm aiming to re-open those too after the weekend; if anyone's interested, please feel free to send me a note on Monday or later!
STREAM'S OVER, THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT CAME!
Single-character sketches will be available for $15 (USD) (possibly more/less based on complexity/simplicity); multiple-character things (or multiple images) might be negotiable if there aren't too many people waiting?
Some samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064092/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064178/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064255/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22064137/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). If you have any questions or would like to 'reserve a spot' in advance, please feel free to send me a note, and I can work on it even if you can't be there.
Don't know if anyone's noticed, but regular commissions ( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ ) have been closed for the last little while due to RL stuff. I'm aiming to re-open those too after the weekend; if anyone's interested, please feel free to send me a note on Monday or later!
STREAM'S OVER, THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT CAME!
oh... birthday
Posted 8 years agoOh.
I kind of forgot that it was coming up (April 15). Guess I'm not really looking forward to it because it basically serves as a reminder of how little I've accomplished :/
MOPING EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I kind of forgot that it was coming up (April 15). Guess I'm not really looking forward to it because it basically serves as a reminder of how little I've accomplished :/
MOPING EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
2017 (+important update?)
Posted 9 years agoLate as usual :/
Well, to put it simply, I didn't accomplish any of the things I meant to do last year (reference sheets, uploading commissions, and so on), except for uploading OpenCanvas stuff. But recently I've had more drive (and perhaps a bit of fear of never accomplishing anything worthwhile as the years go on ;_; ) and I'm planning to make this year the year I finally push myself to do more personal art and stuff like that. I'm going to make certain that the next things I draw for myself will be Rina's, Niko's, and Claire's updated reference sheets, since they've been put off for way too long (2-3 years!!). I'm going to work on drawing things for myself instead of always waiting to commission others to draw them instead, and ideally find some way to find more inspiration and ideas for my own characters, which I've been lacking for some time.
Whatever the case, I hope everyone has a happy new year and a boobiful new year too :P
The "important update" is that Dropbox is soon removing the 'Public folder' feature that they've had for a long time, and I've had to rearrange my Dropbox files. Old links will still work for a little while longer, but if anyone needs access to them again for whatever reason (like old commissions), please let me know and I'll provide new links for you.
The most important one is the boob chart by Matsu-sensei that I've been using for a long time; I've already updated the links to it in my commission info and stuff, but here is the new link right here for your convenience: https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Um... yeah, that's all.
Well, to put it simply, I didn't accomplish any of the things I meant to do last year (reference sheets, uploading commissions, and so on), except for uploading OpenCanvas stuff. But recently I've had more drive (and perhaps a bit of fear of never accomplishing anything worthwhile as the years go on ;_; ) and I'm planning to make this year the year I finally push myself to do more personal art and stuff like that. I'm going to make certain that the next things I draw for myself will be Rina's, Niko's, and Claire's updated reference sheets, since they've been put off for way too long (2-3 years!!). I'm going to work on drawing things for myself instead of always waiting to commission others to draw them instead, and ideally find some way to find more inspiration and ideas for my own characters, which I've been lacking for some time.
Whatever the case, I hope everyone has a happy new year and a boobiful new year too :P
The "important update" is that Dropbox is soon removing the 'Public folder' feature that they've had for a long time, and I've had to rearrange my Dropbox files. Old links will still work for a little while longer, but if anyone needs access to them again for whatever reason (like old commissions), please let me know and I'll provide new links for you.
The most important one is the boob chart by Matsu-sensei that I've been using for a long time; I've already updated the links to it in my commission info and stuff, but here is the new link right here for your convenience: https://www.dropbox.com/s/wmjtlwil3.....ensei.png?dl=0
Um... yeah, that's all.
Short Stream tonight (Saturday) (finished!)
Posted 9 years agoAssuming nothing unexpected gets in the way, I'm planning to do a short stream tonight to do a sketch commission for someone that couldn't get one last time, around 7-8pm PST (10-11 EST). If there's enough time after, I MAY take one more, but I don't know for sure!
Possible Stream Monday (finished!)
Posted 9 years agoSince I'm currently on Christmas break from work, I thought I should try doing another digital sketch commission stream! I'm currently aiming for roughly 2:30~3 pm PST (5:30~6 EST) on Monday the 19th because I know that no other events should be occurring, but if that should fail then I will try for another time in the next week or two.
Single-character sketches will be available for $15 (USD); multiple-character things (or multiple images) might be negotiable if there aren't too many people waiting?
Samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759162/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759191/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759208/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843520/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843585/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843616/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). If you have any questions or would like to 'reserve a spot' in advance, please feel free to send me a note, and I can work on it even if you can't be there.
As always, regular commissions ( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ ) are open as well, just send me a note if interested!
EDIT: Stream finished, thank you all for coming! Depending on how things play out, I may potentially stream again within the next week or two.
Single-character sketches will be available for $15 (USD); multiple-character things (or multiple images) might be negotiable if there aren't too many people waiting?
Samples can be seen here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759162/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759191/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18759208/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843520/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843585/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18843616/
Normal commission rules apply (that is, no 18+ content or themes I don't care for). If you have any questions or would like to 'reserve a spot' in advance, please feel free to send me a note, and I can work on it even if you can't be there.
As always, regular commissions ( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19183937/ ) are open as well, just send me a note if interested!
EDIT: Stream finished, thank you all for coming! Depending on how things play out, I may potentially stream again within the next week or two.
Commission info / Image ratings update
Posted 9 years agoHey all, just a quick little update on a couple things;
Due to certain circumstances, I've amended my commission information with the following:
"SECOND-/THIRD-PARTY COLORING
Most of the time I'm okay with people coloring my art, but I must ask that you ask my permission before doing so; and if you're getting it colored by someone else, let me know by whom. I have had unpleasant experiences in the past and do not wish to allow that to happen again."
EDIT: Made it less unnecessarily wordy.
Additionally, because of a dispute on one of my recent uploads regarding content ratings, I sought advice from staff about FA's guidelines in further detail, and determined that a number of images in my gallery should be bumped up to Mature rating (the gist of it is that all boob-touching/grabbing/etc images should be considered Mature), which I have already done.
I imagine these changes won't affect most viewers, but nonetheless should be documented.
Due to certain circumstances, I've amended my commission information with the following:
"SECOND-/THIRD-PARTY COLORING
Most of the time I'm okay with people coloring my art, but I must ask that you ask my permission before doing so; and if you're getting it colored by someone else, let me know by whom. I have had unpleasant experiences in the past and do not wish to allow that to happen again."
EDIT: Made it less unnecessarily wordy.
Additionally, because of a dispute on one of my recent uploads regarding content ratings, I sought advice from staff about FA's guidelines in further detail, and determined that a number of images in my gallery should be bumped up to Mature rating (the gist of it is that all boob-touching/grabbing/etc images should be considered Mature), which I have already done.
I imagine these changes won't affect most viewers, but nonetheless should be documented.
FA+
