See the journal here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11201556/
And please spread the word. If 1000 people each donated only $10, I’d have enough for a half-decent, non-deathtrap car. But as it stands now, I’m losing money faster than I’m making it.

On August 19, 2025, at approximately 7:30am local time, I was driving to a non-profit peanut butter factory to do a volunteer shift. I was on a very dangerous road (FM-1960) with people cutting lanes constantly, and I was just trying to match the flow of traffic. I had my phone, but I wasn’t touching it, I only used it for turn-by-turn GPS.

I must have blinked, because suddenly there was another car in front of me. I tried to hit the brakes, but in my panic, my foot hit the wrong pedal: I accelerated.

Next thing I know... my hood is crumpled, my headlight is gone, there’s a bang and a ringing in my ears, there's an airbag in my face, and there's the smell of chemical explosive (used to deploy the airbag) in my nose.

I only had liability insurance. Now I have nothing. By some miracle, nobody was seriously injured, but my life is completely ruined.

Please help me. I don't have a car anymore, I can no longer look for a job (this is Houston, Texas), I no longer have a mobile sanctuary from my abusive parents... I don't know what to do.

My friends are starting a fundraiser (I still don't trust GoFundMe), $9k to get me started in finding a replacement car, but I'm currently too traumatized by the event. I'm not sure if I can ever get back behind the wheel.

Update: Here's the fundraiser.
https://plush.city/@mynameistillian.....67356479179036

Update 2: I've raised $230 so far of my $9000 goal, but $70 already got spent on monthly crap (leaving me with 160), as donations are currently my only source of income (I'm working on that though!)… I've done some math though: If 1000 people each donate just $10, that's $10000 freaking dollars. Fundraisers like this literally only work if everyone gets involved, so please tell everyone that you possibly can. The quicker this is achieved, the less of it that I'll lose to other expenses. Please, everyone. I'm counting on you.

GoFundMe is… unavailable to me, because of a security "feature" where they keep deleting my login credentials for no reason. So that leaves…
My paypal is: https://paypal.me/amaroq
My zelle phone number is (262) 314-8426
CashApp is $AmaroqSoftfur

I do also have a Patreon, but I’m afraid I don’t make anything… so I can’t in good conscience share a link to my Patreon.

Please, everyone. You guys are my only hope. Please spread the word to as many people as possible.

Not sure what to do. I’m still looking for a job (I lost my job in January of 2024), but I’ve been looking for over a year without any luck. I’m struggling to pay for gas, or anything else really.

And GoFundMe is still nigh unusable because of the login system constantly failing to register correct passwords.

Any advice at all would be appreciated. I’d rather not have to sell a kidney, or my fursona, or my car, or anything else like that.

Please. Help.

Only one person donated, and because certain people illegally have access to my bank account, they were able to trace that one donation to the original fundraiser post, which caused me to get into even more trouble. The fundraiser literally made things worse.

I'm sorry for being a failure to everyone.

Edit: This was originally supposed to be a sort of low-effort suicide note (though I feel like it might not have been apparent), but my heart wasn't really in it and I have since been convinced not to off myself.
Please read my previous journal instead: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10712674/

I live in Houston, Texas... In a mold-infested house. It is making me sick and affecting me mentally, and it's affecting my parents as well.

I need help with organizing, cleaning and packing my stuff, and I don't trust my parents.
Send me a note, contact me on telegram or discord, anything, just... Help me.

Anybody who does come to help, you're welcome to keep anything that I don't explicitly say you can't have.

My telegram: [at]Lycanphoenix
My discord: [at]amaroqthekitsune

Please beware of mycotoxins. I don't want anyone getting super sick.

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I have a car.

P.S.: Money also helps, though not quite as much as your physical presence and physical assistance. If you'd like to donate, my PayPal is amaroqthewolf[at]gmail[dot]com, and my CashApp is $AmaroqSoftfur.

I have until September 1st to come up with about $100 to $200 more than what I currently have. I only make $10/hr before taxes, I work less than 40 hours a week, and I missed a ton of hours recently due to being sick. Any help at all would be appreciated.

My paypal is amaroqthewolf@gmail.com. My cashapp is "Amaroq Softfur". If you can't donate, then at least spread the word.

I’m currently wanting $650 for the full rights to my fursona, including all artwork. Hopefully that is more palatable than $1000.

And just so everyone understands, this is a self-worth crisis more than a monetary crisis, so I might lower the price even further.

$1000 for my kitsune. Note me for contact details if you’re interested.

I’ve been unemployed for a month, and despite my constant searching, I am extremely pessimistic about my odds (I’ve applied to dozens of jobs, and I keep getting rejection notices). I also estimate no more than two weeks of unemployment before the people I live with start getting totalitarian.

I am currently umemployed, and my job hunt is not going well. I’m looking for any possible way to make some extra cash to hold me over until I have a job again.

Donations, Loans, anything helps.
Hell, I’m even considering putting my fursona up for sale.

Leave a comment, send me a note, or poke me on Telegram (@Lycanphoenix) or Discord (Amaroq the Kitsune#1092).

I don't even know how or where to begin...

So many horrible things have happened to me in the few months... The past few DAYS even... And so much of it is my fault...

I just... I just can't take it anymore! I might end up attempting suicide if things don't get better...

I just want the pain to stop. That's all I fucking want. I just want the pain to fucking stop...

https://twitter.com/astarwind/statu.....701131264?s=21
https://twitter.com/astarwind/statu.....876340230?s=21

Due to a combination of numerous factors (which I would rather not completely elaborate at this time), I am going to be cleaning up my Watchlist on FA.

Not only will I be unwatching inactive accounts or accounts that I am no longer interested in, I will also be unwatching accounts belonging to banned or deceased users, accounts which have been disabled, have me blocked, etc.

If you are currently watching me, and are either concerned that I have recently unwatched you or may unwatch you in the future, please comment on my journal or send me a note. You may also feel free to do so if you just wish to say hi. I never block anyone, so I promise your messages will be at least read. Do not fret if you don't receive a response.

Since we're at it... If you would like to Unwatch me, this is an ample opportunity to do so.
Here is a complete list of everyone currently watching me.
Here is a complete list of everyone I'm currently watching.

It is continually evident to me that my profile should undergo some long overdue construction. I'm sure many of you have noticed that most of the profile information is currently completely empty, but those of you who've been with me for a sufficiently long time might have seen it back when it was quite populated! It will take some time for me to get everything set up again, especially due to my often lacking freetime and privacy, as well as constantly having to juggle between different devices with their own limitations (not at all helped by the fact I recently lost my phone, which I will address in another issue).

A lot has happened in just the past couple of years. There is a lot that needs to be caught up with. I'll see you all on the other side, hopefully with a beautifully written profile in my hands~

 Nuxaria is doing emergency commissions. Please take a look right away.
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8753193/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27495789/

A small disclaimer: This message is not directed at anyone in particular, and as personal policy, I will not name any names unless you specifically wish to be known (I do not expect you to, though).

I understand that I have some issues. Serious ones. I can be clingy, impatient, pushy, emotionally volatile, and even a little bit stalkerish (as according to some folks), but you have to understand that I do not do these things on purpose (especially not the stalkerish part)! I don't have a lot of experience with social interaction, and I tend to master some concepts a lot more slowly than others do.

Some things that might be obvious to most people are not so obvious to me. This does not excuse my past behavior, but it should at least help you understand why I take some things (like suddenly being blocked without obvious warning or explanation) a lot more personally than I probably should. It is why I often jump from one extreme to another when I feel I have wronged somebody. I do not try to offend anyone on purpose.

Now that I recognize I have some of these issues, though, I am trying my best to work on them. This does not come easy, old habits can die hard. I make terrible first impressions on people the first time around, and while I probably don't deserve every second chance that comes my way, I do appreciate when they do come my way, and I will try to make the most of them. I will do my best to make amends however possible, and try to prevent future incidents from occurring. I must reiterate; this will not come easy to me. I will sometimes fail, and when I do I may kick and scream, but I cannot see the future, and neither can you. If I get that second chance to begin with, and you help me understand just what it was I've done wrong, then I might succeed. If you help me overcome my obstacles, then I know I will eventually become a better person, and get a chance to finally give back to those friends and communities who have given me so much.

So I implore you. Help me. If I make a mistake, tell me. Help me read between the lines. Tell me what you think I'm trying to say, so I know in advance if I've rubbed you the wrong way, and tell me what I can do to keep from rubbing others the wrong way.

Most importantly, though, if you would like me to give you space, please just tell me, don't just remove me as a friend or a contact, or press the ignore button. Actually telling me that you need some time to yourself is much more respectful, because you will be getting your message across much more clearly, and I will do my best to honor your request, and when you are eventually ready to speak again, I will be able to make amends. If you just Ignore me, though, then I will never know when you want to speak again, and you will never know when I have apologized.

If you have any thoughts on this subject, please send me a note or post on my guestbook containing the word "Apple Fox", or synonyms thereof, so I know right away what you're talking about. I am not just looking for people on my friend's list, but also anyone who is bookmarking me, and if you happen to know anyone who was hurt by me but probably hasn't read this message yet, then please forward this to them (I would suggest using some level of discretion though; they want me to give them space for a reason).

I will be signing off for the night. Please do not try to message me on F-chat if you see me logged in, since it's unlikely that I will actually be present to see your message.

Goodnight, friends. I look forward to any messages you might send me!

 Reian has last been active in 2012, and has not been heard from since. Nobody is sure if they are even safe or still alive.

Somebody please help  Ainoko find out what happened to them, because they are getting quite worried.