Obviously I am not really on here anymore. I have no real reason to be here either. I enjoy the art sometimes but that's about it. The only reason I came here was to support my then boyfriend. However that relationship has been over with for nearly 3 years now. I'm sure no one is going to read this either, since I never made any friends here. I guess this is just in case someone stumbled across this at some point.

I am happy now. My life is 10x better then it was. My fiance treats me like a Queen, and I adore him for it. We are trying to have a baby at the moment. I hope it's soon. I want to be a mom more then anything else in the world.

So there's that.

After many months of fighting, and basically coming extremely close to ending our relationship.. We finally made it past those negative emotions. I feel good again, and that in turn makes him feel good. I've missed feeling this good and I am so thankful that these feelings are coming back to me. I've been told that every relationship has its ups and downs and after this I truly believe that. However we over came those negative emotions and have now returned to peace. What else?

Oh yeah yesterday was our five year anniversary. That's a huge thing to me, since most people our age don't even make it to a year let alone five of them. Not to mention the entire day was perfect.. I couldn't have asked for a better time out with him.

I've also decided to start playing WOW when I get my laptop. It'll give me something to do besides troll on sites and be bored out of my mind.

That's about it really.

I love Kusai forever and ever <3 <3

So its pretty obvious at least to me that I probably won't be making any friends on this particular site. I'm not social enough and that kinda sucks since I'm trying to meet some new people so I actually have cool people in my life again. It probably doesn't help that I'm not a total pervert and therefore don't really have a lot to talk about. (Not saying that everyone on here is like that but a good many seem to be) So my page will remain inactive and I will truly be wasting my time here on FA, I can only gawk at fanart for so long each day before it becomes tedious and annoying to me, Hm, what else has been going on in my world as of late?

My boyfriend and I have been staying at our friends house for a couple of days. It's cool to be there but again I have social issues that interfere with me being bubbly and girly. I'm very quiet by nature and would honestly rather sick and observe than talk a lot. I have to be extremely comfortable with you as a person to talk for hours on in.

I've also come down to the conclusion that it is best for me to actually let go of my past. That is what is hurting me each and every single day... I've got to just bite the bullet and let it all go from my spirit. If that makes any sense. I can get no real solace and answers for the crap that was done to me over the years, so why hang onto it? Seems relatively pointless if you ask me... All I'm doing is hurting myself more and that gets old too.

I'm just going to forgive the people that hurt me. Straight up forgiveness and just move on with everything. I have a pretty decent life so why let the past destroy that ya know? I have a wonderful lover, I have a few close friends i do anything for, I have a job, I have an apartment, I even have a car... So what is the problem? Enough is enough. Its time to be happy and make things work for me for a change.

Easter was great this year, nothing dramatic happened. ^^: I spent time with my family and then with some friends so all in all it was a very good day. I wish more holidays were like that. :( What else?

Oh yeah. My hunny and I finally managed to get our room switched, I'm pretty damn excited about that. It's a lot nicer and almost seems friendlier. If that makes any sense.

Today I'm selling my car hopefully.

That's about it really, my life is horribly boring. lol

how I should feel anymore
I am at a loss..
seriously