I suppose in my situation don't choose and so that the life line does not end before it should It's worth thinking about some kind of provision. But this does not mean that my head has cleared up and I am full of joy and confidence that will do something. I'm still worried and don't know how to react to this. With my characteristics and lifestyle, it is unlikely that anything adequate could have happened. And by the way, take a rest didn't work out, free will are practically none left. So don't expect anything until I get myself together.

I feel uncomfortable looking at my work and at NSFW in general. All these fetishes... it's wrong. Looking back, I regret letting it get so ingrained in my head. On the other hand I think it was in me and it is unlikely that I will be able to get rid of it. But I want to at least limit them somehow. It was fun, but now I'm really scared.
Maybe it's temporary, but the feeling is pretty bad.