Just haven't been feeling like it for a while... I don't know why.

I'm still here, just lack motivation to draw and all. I have made a rough sketch, but didn't push for it to become a full picture. I'm sorry for not providing content these last few months, hope you folks understand 3:

I have literally lost my passion for drawing. Can't get myself to do anything art related, not even upload anything because I can't find the will to. I'm also predicting mom will annoy and yell the fuck at me this August, and I can't even put my august internship vacation after hers to avoid some of this mess. RIP artwork this year I guess. I'm just too broken atm. Psychologist is only in November because public health services are far inferior. And I've got next to nobody on my side IRL.

I feel so alone...

What is wrong with me...

Well once again I passed every subject with decent scores, my performance this semester was average, the same as the last semester, and once again I managed to clear every subject this semester. (As of when I wrote this, I passed 4 of 5, and the last one is pretty much guaranteed) This september, I'll be starting my final year of University, and hopefully I'll be employed by then.

But for now, I'm going to relax and keep the summer to myself. (And my internship, but that one's really chill) I'm going back to drawing art sometime soon, I'm going to start with an art trade to break the ice, then I'll re-open commissions and draw my own stuff as well. My recovery back to my layman self will take a while, but once that's done, I'll draw.

Now to take my chill pill. See you folks soon :3

4th Semester exam period is a gogo! Tbh this is the least stressful exam period I've ever had. I've become accustomed to them, and at the same time, not feeling any pressure to score well, since my dreams were shattered and broken. It sucks, but oh well. (This is also why I'm feeling a bit nihilistic lately) I still want to study for them so I don't go in there like a complete idiot. So yeah art is still going on a pure standstill until at least 18 June. Then I'll re-open commissions, get back into doing stuff semi regularly and just enjoy the summer.

After that, the next year will be the final year of my degree. I will attempt to actually be employed on the final semester. Blessed be Thanos if I succeed.

Just wanted to update you folks on what I'm doing. See you folks soon :3

Let's try this again! Gonna shade my new pic :3 LIve in 20 hours or so.

http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime

I got so caught up in my django python project that I realize I must finish this project first then I can bother streaming. I'll try again to gather willpower to stream next weekend (Not this one), but rest assured that when the Summer solistice begins, I'll try to get back into a more artsy mood.

I definitely want to revert back to a more peaceful lifestyle, and definitely want to start drawing again. Also we hedge ever close to August, so that one special event I do every year is coming back :3 I'll make it bigger than the previous times!

I can literally only stream on wednesday since I want to continue the project tommorow and I'll be busy with University on the rest of the weekdays. So yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Will shade new pic then.

EDIT 2019.05.01: Going to stream on Friday since I want to work on the project today. I apologize.
EDIT 2019.05.03: I'm too meh to stream tonight. Will do some other time, idk. But this weekend.

Going to stream linework and flat color of my latest art. An additional stream will be had at an unknown date for shading. (Depends on how far behind I am on projects)

> Stream is SFW
> Time is in GMT, AKA 17:00 EST
> I will just be working on the art, anything else is either me playing videos or music

Tune in/follow at http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime at the time above.

Gotta buy a stylus before I begin trying to draw things. Shame they have short lifespans.

Until 28 April I'm on vacation... at least on the University part. I will have my nights free, however I still need to do my internship. But the relief and extra free time will give me room to attempt some drawings. Even though I'm not worry free on this vacation (Projects Projects Projects), I will have enhough time to attempt something, maybe at the end of next week.

So yeah gonna try to draw a sketch per day this next weekend. I alone will decide what to draw. Don't fully expect something to come out, since I may be too far gone at this time, but if I am successful, these pictures will see color.

Thanks for listening, see you folks soon. :)

Weeee, intercalars are done! :3

Still no art mood here though, but still alive!

Article 13 just passed at the fascist European Union, as a response, and to keep in touch with my ever growing need for distracting entertainment, and to stay with you guys in case the worst comes to pass, I've installed VPNs on every device I own. These are some insane crazy times for this world, and right now I just feel like there is no hope. We'll all either be enslaved or dead in some manufactured war. I feel like I am here just to watch everything go to shit, with all that is going on with these toxic politics and draconian laws. It's hard to not be devoid of any hope for the future.

So I merely exist these days. Sure I'm getting a degree and have an internship to get to, but for how long will I reap the benefits until some kind of bs screws my life around or kills me? I feel as though everything my country worked for in 1974 is being erased by a bunch of authoritarian assholes we didn't even get to elect. At this point, I just stopped caring. If Youtube goes down here, I'll just VPN around it, trying to keep my nihilistic tendencies drowned in with mindless entertainment. If I can't, then I'll just crawl back to watching the same Blu-rays and DVDs that I own for eternity. Whatever. All is lost. There is no hope.

I might be sounding crazy, but this is my reaction to a fascist government ignoring the needs of the people. And since uprisings aren't working these days, I might as well crawl to a hole once everything goes to shit.

Today marks 7 years since I first posted Ish to sporewiki in kind of a beta variant of the character, and he has evolved into one of my most defined characters over the years, with his unique silly mindset that's also very dark at times. I would have drawn Ish by now, but my creative side of the brain isn't working at this time. Just wanted to make this journal to mark this.

I still post things however, I posted a picture someone made for me, check it out :3 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30853564/

Due to my terrible art mood and my heightened focus on real life atm, I have closed commissions for the unforseeable future. I will try to commission folks around, but right now I can't find anyone, if anyone knows someone, tell me. I'm looking for someone in the 20$ or below category at this time.

Greetings folks, I do realize I have not posted anything in a month, however, besides my lack of an art mood and a lack of motivation to draw anything, even badass scenes or even completing pictures, I also have an internship that's eating my morning. While I don't have University this carnival week, even then I can't get myself to draw. So I've been thinking of rolling for commissions in order to keep this gallery at least a bit more active while I recoup.

The good news is my boss seems to really like me, he says me and my partner work fast despite Microsoft Access being a slow PoS, and has even invited us for lunch today. I can believe this internship will become a full blown job if I keep going. But I still have a degree to get, and intercalar week is in 3 weeks, so I'm going to have a busy month of march. But even then, I wish I could fix my art mood. I honestly have no clue why I can't get myself to draw, it's like, my body won't let me.

Just wanted to let you guys know why I'm being the way I am right now. If anyone knows how to kickstart my art mood again, let me know. I really wish I knew why I'm so lazy about this.

Happy Carnival.

1. I got myself an internship, this time in the IT area, I'm going to need this to get used to my future work environment. I can't believe I was the one chosen though, it's insane. I'm starting on the 27th of Febuary, so plenty of time to prepare mentally. (Even though my mental state has seen better days, but it will heal.)

2. I've been putting off a drawing for a friend for a longass time. But I have committed to eventually finish it, so I'm intending to finish the sketch phase tommorow. (As of when I wrote this) But I'm afraid my lazy ass won't do anything... again. Geez I've been slow. "Art will soon follow", yeah I know.

3. Falxarx, my character, has begun to mean more to myself. This is because when I think about him doing stuff from being the usual monster/assassin to him doing silly things like going on a bus or leaning onto a computer with his big balloon claws, I get all smiley and happy, erasing any bad moods I may get. I really should draw him more, but with this garbage art mood, I may as well start commissioning again. Just wait a month or two. Speaking of which, I got that trade to post.

So that's me in Febuary. See you soon-ish.

Gonna break my laziness and stream the finalization of my Ekanos ref. Will stream at the time listed above.

http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime

Gonna line and flat color my balloon snake, while also modifying a few things here and there based on something I'll show you guys later on that I got. Be sure to appear at the time displayed in the title. (21:30 GMT, 16:30 EST)

http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime

EDIT 16:00 GMT: Delayed by 4 hours due to IRL issues.

* - Assuming I don't go full lazy again

Well I can confirm the 3rd semester of my Bachelor's degree in Computer Engineering has ended in another positive note. I can say for certain I have left nothing behind, having passed Database Fundamentals with a close pass. It was harder than I thought as the subject matter started getting complicated, but I pulled through. Concurrent Programming had the toughest exam and I slipped heavily on this one. Still passed. Operating Systems was a brilliant success though.

Two scores are left to be revealed, and I know they are going to be good so I can relax now. I'll draw something for Products7677 first then onto personal stuff, assuming I don't slip at all.

See you soon. I'm halfway through.

If anyone's wondering, Exam period is here, and I have 2 difficult exams to do. The first one is already done, and quite roughly. Ow. The second hard one is on 17 Jan, that will be the hardest one of them all. The other 3 on 12, 21 and 24 Jan are easy as fuck and I'm not going to bother worrying about them, just practicing for them. So I may have a slow art period until the monday after exams are finished, the 28th of January. Then I'll draw stuff. This time. Hopefully. I dunno.

In other sillier news, I'm excited because in 6 days time I get to own Predator 2018 on bluray disc, I've had it pre-ordered since 31 October, and the wait will be worth it since the movie made me thrilled all throughout when I was at the cinema way back in September, and I want to see my favorite scenes again in high definition and look at the special features :3 Yeah you can say I've been more into movies than videogames lately, I dunno, given the stagnation of the videogame industry these days, I guess that is a reason why I've moved on for now. I'll come back when gaming can be considered interesting again.

Now I'll leave you with some Iron Predator suits for you folks to enjoy, squeeee! *Throws them about*

Concluding the shading on a trade at the time seen above.

http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime

I'll do more work on the trade with  thetaoswordsman later on, perhaps on Sunday. Commissions are still open, but due to an exam period they will be done in their own time. Practice and preparation are vital.

I'll let everyone know when the next stream is in due time.

Also I can't seem to get any personal art going, all I'm doing is stuff for everyone else. Must be this laziness and lack of motivation. I'll pull through eventually.

Streaming trade for  TheTaoSwordsman at the time in the title. :3

http://picarto.tv/AndraighPrime