thanks to all my friends and everyone who has been kind to me....

ok I do not post a lot, no suit always changing my fursona and over worked to death, I hear from so many of my friends they are leaving the fandom and they want nothing to do with the fandom anymore.............


I feel alone and like the drama had destroyed the fun we had before

It was awesome even though I did not hang out lot but say everything and everyone and had fun...... now feeling low it is over a long wait to it again.....

It feel like a kick in the nuts

so ac it out of the question.................

I asked for it off first and 3 month a head of anyone else then 3 other people in me department demand it off over me so I was basically told I was not going to get it cause I took a vac the first moth this year (so did everyone else) and so against our polices I done get it and I wanted to see everyone so badly.....................sad..............pissed

I mean asked first, let everyone know, and worked to my limits and beyond and still they do this to me......................


I need a hug or a bat.......

got everything set got the room and my badge.............. not looking forward to the drive but loving to go and see a lot of my friends and meeting a lot of people............ if anyone needs a room or know anyone that needs a room let me know

I should have time off for it this year but everyone seem to be going down one by one at work and with a boss that does not care till nothing happens............. I am like I am the only one in today everyone else is dead, sick, or quit.............

but I want to go to ac I met lots of cool guy on fa that go there and I want to see them and thank them for keeping me in this fandom when live is going to hell................

I want to room with someone and hopefully someone to drive with, each in our own cars.............


I really want to go because summer tends to be so super busy I can't go to meets or sleep sometime too

so I returned a tiny bit to the fur scene for a tiny bit but I think I am going to leave it again after the con in CT .............. I want to see some friends there but.....................

ok i been thinking for a long time very long time I been feeling weird by the fur groups there is a lot of weird things happening but I have not made any plans yet...........

ok I made the best thing ever I made apple cider brown sugar pork.................... so so fucking good.........

prep time: 3 mins
sit time: 8 - 10 hours
cook time: 12 hours (slow cooker)

3lbs center cut pork loin the dark meet end
2tsps garlic power
3/4 cup of brown sugar
one half of a half gallon of cider or just enough to cover it

mix the cider, sugar and garlic power together and put into a container with the pork and let sit in the frig over night (8-10 hours) then place the pork and the cider mix into a slow cooker for 12 hours on low heat.......... remember low and slow is so good remember to flip the pork at least once no dry spots

ok my legs hurt so bad after the bowl I sat down for a few on the couch and when I tried to stand I screamed and cried like a baby................... good thing my friend was over he carried me up to my room oh god it kills

I am thinking about teaching a small cooking class. the menu is up to them ones in the class. I have not worked out the info yet. idk how many people. idk what to do with if people can not eat a type of food..............


so much to work out.....................

ok it was my first fur con and a deep jump into the fur world and I must say it was good and bad........ I made tons of friends and loved everyone I hugged and got to know some awesome people. I love the fur suiters love soft things and them for doing it and showing no fear. I captured lots of furries ie. hugged them and walked away with them all in good love. there is tons of hot sexy muscled furries good I love muscles.



but I made a new stalker a bit too creepy.


but I love it