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2025 *Update*
General | Posted a week agoHello FA!
2025 is almost over and what a wild ride it has been. Many of you know that I've had multitude of health struggles and triumphs. In 2022 and 2024 I had a stroke. I've finished speech therapy and as an educator it behooved me to teach myself. So here are the positives for 2025: Recovered from TB (YAY!), made huge improvements in recovering from the strokes - relearned how to talk (thank you speech therapy), type, drive, write, etc. This is huge and my doctors are thrilled. I've also lost 60lbs this year which after two years of being sedentary I'm stoked to start my health journey in earnest. The sad news: I have slowed cognitive function and little to no short term memory. This may get better or may be permanent. I am still several years behind on uploading commissioned art. Due to my memory lapses I'm gonna need your help. Artists deserve all the credit praise and promotion. I'm proud of every piece and my characters being brought to life give me so much joy. If I have failed to remember please forgive me. This is not intentional at all. I truly am struggling and if I haven't reached out or been very social - know it's my mind isn't as sharp and the struggle is real. I miss everyone and have no bad juju at all. Basically everyone and anyone will get a clean slate from me and I hope that together we can enjoy this ride called life. Be kind to each other - this stays with me and even if my memory wanes I'm here for you all and look forward to sharing more hobbies, games, art, and stories together. Happy Holidays and may 2026 be YOUR year!!!! *HUGS* Thanks for reading my rambles!
2025 is almost over and what a wild ride it has been. Many of you know that I've had multitude of health struggles and triumphs. In 2022 and 2024 I had a stroke. I've finished speech therapy and as an educator it behooved me to teach myself. So here are the positives for 2025: Recovered from TB (YAY!), made huge improvements in recovering from the strokes - relearned how to talk (thank you speech therapy), type, drive, write, etc. This is huge and my doctors are thrilled. I've also lost 60lbs this year which after two years of being sedentary I'm stoked to start my health journey in earnest. The sad news: I have slowed cognitive function and little to no short term memory. This may get better or may be permanent. I am still several years behind on uploading commissioned art. Due to my memory lapses I'm gonna need your help. Artists deserve all the credit praise and promotion. I'm proud of every piece and my characters being brought to life give me so much joy. If I have failed to remember please forgive me. This is not intentional at all. I truly am struggling and if I haven't reached out or been very social - know it's my mind isn't as sharp and the struggle is real. I miss everyone and have no bad juju at all. Basically everyone and anyone will get a clean slate from me and I hope that together we can enjoy this ride called life. Be kind to each other - this stays with me and even if my memory wanes I'm here for you all and look forward to sharing more hobbies, games, art, and stories together. Happy Holidays and may 2026 be YOUR year!!!! *HUGS* Thanks for reading my rambles!
Reminder/Minor Update 2024
General | Posted a year agoHello FA!!
I hope all of you and yours are doing well and not melting in all this heat! I just wanted to leave a journal cause the last 4 weeks I've been having more than usual short term memory problems and wanted to mass post that if I engaged for a commission or if you are waiting on ref sheets or payment to please forgive me and send me a note. Sadly I had another minor stroke back in april or may they can't pin it down and it's re-affected my healing brain to where the short term memory is lost or next to non existent. I start my next round of treatments in September through January but that should be it. Sadly the mixed news is there is not much more the docs can do for my poor body. I'm gonna live every day as best I can and visit and see as much of the world as I can before my time runs out. I'm working potentially with a couple publishers and editors on the real story of the Catfox and her family so hopefully before my mind is completely gone it will be posted. I plan on paying for it to be free for anyone with any donations to go to charity. I've been on FA since 2009 but created Angelis the Catfox with buttwings in 2007. So I'm gonna semi retire her as her time is coming to an end. I'm not leaving FA or getting art but I've started a new character that is gonna be my OC for new adventures as I navigate this last portion of my life. I hope you will like Enola Reven Starr as much as I do. Gotta couple pieces of her already. I'm gonna see if my friends will help me catch up on my art posting I've got HUNDREDS I'm behind on posting so bear with me and my rambly self as I get things going. Thanks as always for being awesome. Until I remember to write again!
I hope all of you and yours are doing well and not melting in all this heat! I just wanted to leave a journal cause the last 4 weeks I've been having more than usual short term memory problems and wanted to mass post that if I engaged for a commission or if you are waiting on ref sheets or payment to please forgive me and send me a note. Sadly I had another minor stroke back in april or may they can't pin it down and it's re-affected my healing brain to where the short term memory is lost or next to non existent. I start my next round of treatments in September through January but that should be it. Sadly the mixed news is there is not much more the docs can do for my poor body. I'm gonna live every day as best I can and visit and see as much of the world as I can before my time runs out. I'm working potentially with a couple publishers and editors on the real story of the Catfox and her family so hopefully before my mind is completely gone it will be posted. I plan on paying for it to be free for anyone with any donations to go to charity. I've been on FA since 2009 but created Angelis the Catfox with buttwings in 2007. So I'm gonna semi retire her as her time is coming to an end. I'm not leaving FA or getting art but I've started a new character that is gonna be my OC for new adventures as I navigate this last portion of my life. I hope you will like Enola Reven Starr as much as I do. Gotta couple pieces of her already. I'm gonna see if my friends will help me catch up on my art posting I've got HUNDREDS I'm behind on posting so bear with me and my rambly self as I get things going. Thanks as always for being awesome. Until I remember to write again!
2024 Year Plus *UPDATE*
General | Posted 2 years agoDearest FA Community,
It's been a long time hasn't it? Well, my last journal was a wall of text of unfortunate events. I'd love to tell you all that everything is back to normal and that I'm totally fine. Sadly, I'm still on the road to recovery. However, let me tell you some of the positives. I'm typing this journal on my own. So I've relearned how to type. YAY! Next, I've relearned how to drive (however, only short distances cause nervous) YAY! I finished Speech therapy and can now talk again fairly consistently. I occasionally will for instance call a t-shirt a painting. Otherwise, Vocally my vocal cords have healed but I may not be able to sing anymore. So mixed Yay boo? I did go through Neuro Psychology and discovered that while the CT, MRI and other tests show no damage. I present with deficits. Long term memory is excellent. Short term no - kinda crappy still. However, as of late January 2024 I started socializing again after more than a year of isolation. so YAY! Rebuilding my life with these deficits and now need for major PTSD therapy and trauma therapy from the assault in 2022 they say I'll be in intensive therapy through 2025. Most people would be ashamed of this or feel a stigma. Y'all know me the catfox with buttwings and we shouldn't be ashamed because we need a little help. We need to de stigmatize people who have mental and physical issues that need help. None of us are perfect. Now in my eyes all of you are perfectly imperfect just as you are. So I posted on all my social media at the end of December 2023 that I was going to take 2024 and for once be absolutely selfish. What I mean by that is I'm gonna do the therapy, I'm gonna learn to set boundaries, I'm going to stop letting people let me slip through the cracks and only engaged with if I can do something for them. I love to help you all know that but the catfox is hurt needs healing ... needs patience and your support. Let me be honest ... having cancer was easier than what I'm going through right now. So I am commissioning again and I am excited. I am very very behind on posting. I truly apologize to the artist and to the fans of my characters. They deserve to be displayed acknowledged and I will do my best to start getting more posted in a timelier manner. I've heard that there is drama in this community well to be fair where there are people there inevitably is drama. I can say in the more than a decade I've been here I've only had 1 minor instance of a miscommunication. Otherwise NO drama. I want to thank you all who have contributed to give a safe space to be well ME - this has been the first place to ever let me be me. So Thank you all very much. Know that I am not gonna tell you the ongoing drama and trauma that has happened in 2023 ... let's just say right her and right now I'm in a safe place and safe space and have some RL support and with this I am going to take on 2024 and be the best person behind the catfox I can be. So much love and yes NANOWRIMO will be a thing and where the status of the stories are ... is that it will either be 5 novellas or a trilogy that I will post for free after I edit it or pay for editing. Welp another huge wall of text but hopefully this will put some of your concerns to bed cause I am gonna be ok ... I've decided :3 Take care of each other and be patient with me if I forget something write me please don't get upset or let something fester. I promise I don't bite unless you into that kinda thing wink wink :3 Until next time!
It's been a long time hasn't it? Well, my last journal was a wall of text of unfortunate events. I'd love to tell you all that everything is back to normal and that I'm totally fine. Sadly, I'm still on the road to recovery. However, let me tell you some of the positives. I'm typing this journal on my own. So I've relearned how to type. YAY! Next, I've relearned how to drive (however, only short distances cause nervous) YAY! I finished Speech therapy and can now talk again fairly consistently. I occasionally will for instance call a t-shirt a painting. Otherwise, Vocally my vocal cords have healed but I may not be able to sing anymore. So mixed Yay boo? I did go through Neuro Psychology and discovered that while the CT, MRI and other tests show no damage. I present with deficits. Long term memory is excellent. Short term no - kinda crappy still. However, as of late January 2024 I started socializing again after more than a year of isolation. so YAY! Rebuilding my life with these deficits and now need for major PTSD therapy and trauma therapy from the assault in 2022 they say I'll be in intensive therapy through 2025. Most people would be ashamed of this or feel a stigma. Y'all know me the catfox with buttwings and we shouldn't be ashamed because we need a little help. We need to de stigmatize people who have mental and physical issues that need help. None of us are perfect. Now in my eyes all of you are perfectly imperfect just as you are. So I posted on all my social media at the end of December 2023 that I was going to take 2024 and for once be absolutely selfish. What I mean by that is I'm gonna do the therapy, I'm gonna learn to set boundaries, I'm going to stop letting people let me slip through the cracks and only engaged with if I can do something for them. I love to help you all know that but the catfox is hurt needs healing ... needs patience and your support. Let me be honest ... having cancer was easier than what I'm going through right now. So I am commissioning again and I am excited. I am very very behind on posting. I truly apologize to the artist and to the fans of my characters. They deserve to be displayed acknowledged and I will do my best to start getting more posted in a timelier manner. I've heard that there is drama in this community well to be fair where there are people there inevitably is drama. I can say in the more than a decade I've been here I've only had 1 minor instance of a miscommunication. Otherwise NO drama. I want to thank you all who have contributed to give a safe space to be well ME - this has been the first place to ever let me be me. So Thank you all very much. Know that I am not gonna tell you the ongoing drama and trauma that has happened in 2023 ... let's just say right her and right now I'm in a safe place and safe space and have some RL support and with this I am going to take on 2024 and be the best person behind the catfox I can be. So much love and yes NANOWRIMO will be a thing and where the status of the stories are ... is that it will either be 5 novellas or a trilogy that I will post for free after I edit it or pay for editing. Welp another huge wall of text but hopefully this will put some of your concerns to bed cause I am gonna be ok ... I've decided :3 Take care of each other and be patient with me if I forget something write me please don't get upset or let something fester. I promise I don't bite unless you into that kinda thing wink wink :3 Until next time!
6 Month **UPDATE**
General | Posted 2 years agoDearest FA,
It's been six months since I told you all of the bad things that happened last October and now I am doing well enough to give you an update. The struggle is real sometimes but like usual I have hope. I'm in Speech, Physical Therapy, and hopefully Occupational soon. I see a neurologist finally who plans on doing the correct and appropriate testing to find out what really happened to me in October. Most of you were wondering if I was able to get a lawyer to take my case.
Short answer is No. While we are in a better place socially - most women are still not believed when they say they have been violated or traumatized. Because that hospital case claimed I was a drug addict and put it in my chart as such. They made me look terrible and every lawyer says that until this new neurologist and my other doctors prove otherwise I'll lose the case and have to constantly relive what happened.
I've lost a lot and it's really difficult sometimes to be positive after all I am only human. The catfox pilot is currently having legit brain damages. As far as I know all owed monies for commissions are all caught up and I haven't had anyone write to say that I've forgotten something important. I am driving but only short distances. I'm able to be on discord now and talk and play low key games. I will be going on twitter and twitch and updating about not being able to stream or do any voice work for another 4 months.
The physical therapist and speech therapist think they can help me with getting back to an improved state. The therapist said my body is weaker than when I had cancer. That was humbling. Yet it is so true. I need help with a lot of things I used to do on my own. I want to clean my house, cook, and bake, paint, and write again. Not to say I'm not doing minor bits and bobs ... just not the same.
My bestie and I usually take at least 2 road trips by now. Plus Moonblossom had to go back cause of the visa thing again. I miss her a lot. Good friends accept you no matter what and she helped me even when I kept forgetting everything and constantly repeating myself. So - yeah I'm still totally behind on posting arts. I just got this years Nano picture done for November and I can't wait for you all to see it. I plan on competing this year even if I'm not fully healed.
It's time to reclaim my life even if I have to make more modifications to make it work. So now that you know where I stand - know that I am here for you broken brain and all. Don't be a stranger and if you wanna share a commission I am up for it. Just know that any lewd stuff especially with the catfox herself will NOT be cannon in her stories. The kids and orphans are off the table and so is Eros sorry boys and girls he's too in love with Angelis to stray. But I've adopted even more and some of the kids are coming of age - so poke if interested in investing in one of their stories.
Take care of yourselves, don't forget to eat and stay hydrated ok? I'm still here to listen but know I may forget easily what you have told me. That could be a bonus as I'd be the best secret keeper ever! This is your friendly neighborhood catfox signing off for now. Much love and gratitude for you all <3
It's been six months since I told you all of the bad things that happened last October and now I am doing well enough to give you an update. The struggle is real sometimes but like usual I have hope. I'm in Speech, Physical Therapy, and hopefully Occupational soon. I see a neurologist finally who plans on doing the correct and appropriate testing to find out what really happened to me in October. Most of you were wondering if I was able to get a lawyer to take my case.
Short answer is No. While we are in a better place socially - most women are still not believed when they say they have been violated or traumatized. Because that hospital case claimed I was a drug addict and put it in my chart as such. They made me look terrible and every lawyer says that until this new neurologist and my other doctors prove otherwise I'll lose the case and have to constantly relive what happened.
I've lost a lot and it's really difficult sometimes to be positive after all I am only human. The catfox pilot is currently having legit brain damages. As far as I know all owed monies for commissions are all caught up and I haven't had anyone write to say that I've forgotten something important. I am driving but only short distances. I'm able to be on discord now and talk and play low key games. I will be going on twitter and twitch and updating about not being able to stream or do any voice work for another 4 months.
The physical therapist and speech therapist think they can help me with getting back to an improved state. The therapist said my body is weaker than when I had cancer. That was humbling. Yet it is so true. I need help with a lot of things I used to do on my own. I want to clean my house, cook, and bake, paint, and write again. Not to say I'm not doing minor bits and bobs ... just not the same.
My bestie and I usually take at least 2 road trips by now. Plus Moonblossom had to go back cause of the visa thing again. I miss her a lot. Good friends accept you no matter what and she helped me even when I kept forgetting everything and constantly repeating myself. So - yeah I'm still totally behind on posting arts. I just got this years Nano picture done for November and I can't wait for you all to see it. I plan on competing this year even if I'm not fully healed.
It's time to reclaim my life even if I have to make more modifications to make it work. So now that you know where I stand - know that I am here for you broken brain and all. Don't be a stranger and if you wanna share a commission I am up for it. Just know that any lewd stuff especially with the catfox herself will NOT be cannon in her stories. The kids and orphans are off the table and so is Eros sorry boys and girls he's too in love with Angelis to stray. But I've adopted even more and some of the kids are coming of age - so poke if interested in investing in one of their stories.
Take care of yourselves, don't forget to eat and stay hydrated ok? I'm still here to listen but know I may forget easily what you have told me. That could be a bonus as I'd be the best secret keeper ever! This is your friendly neighborhood catfox signing off for now. Much love and gratitude for you all <3
Nanowrimo 2022 & Why I've been gone
General | Posted 3 years agoDearest FA
It's been a year since I gave you all an update but it's because as usual it will be a long winded thing. So let's skip and give you the only version I can legally. I'm putting a ** TRIGGER ** WARNING so if you read on you've been warned...
On October 10, 2022 I was found unresponsive in my bed. Somehow I was still breathing on my own but I had no access to my body. I was essentially dead and alive ... it was Shroedingers human essentially. I was rushed to the hospital and that's when the involuntary body thrashing happened because I was non verbal even though inside my head I was screaming what the hell was wrong but my body wouldn't respond so all I could do wash thrash. The tragedy of this is the fact the hospital ER called me a drug addict claimed it was an overdose and everyone who knows me even you all who have known me since I've been her in 2009 know that I have had cancer and multiple auto immune conditions. So there is NO way in hell I'd be doing drugs cause of all the chemo and other medications. So that biased opinion of what was happening the orderlies, nurses, and other staff decided to treat me horrendously. I was abused and I won't go into details here because it's just disgustingly horrible. lets just say they left me practically naked, played with my body used it to make videos and it was 5 men and 1 woman involved as they hid me in a room in the basement of the hospital to do these horrible things. Why I am just now speaking out is because the final diagnosis was a neurological stroke due to medication counteraction from the new biologics and other prescription meds to treat my myriad of health problems. I am alive and I am healing it's just going to take awhile. The worst thing is because it was a type of stroke my brain is the most effected. I tell my body do the thing and there is a lagg. Even in complex speech and of course a massive loss of memories. So for Nanowrimo I'm going to write the ugly details of what happened to me while I was trapped inside my own body while the abuse of my body happened as a way to recount and help build my case. I cannot post more here for legal reasons as it's an ongoing investigation. But you wanna know the worst of it all? The day I was found unresponsive was 2 days after the death of my sweet kitty Leonard the Lump it was the 12 death anniversary of my friend Ruthie ... it was the same week that last year I lost Scott and Sarah to Suicide. October is a really hard month for me and that is only the tip of the trauma iceberg. So if I promised you something or if we were supposed to do something together PLEASE reach out, be patient with me while I am healing. I want to reconnect with you all and even if I have partially forgotten you it's not malicious it's literally my brain had to "reboot" and it's still reconnecting. My doctors have me on a 1 year recovery plan starting with memories from 16 onwards (due to all the trauma before 16 it was best to start with something positive and work from there) So I started with music from 1993 and beyond. The memories are coming back. Every week or every good day I push myself. As a matter of fact I drove for the first time the other day only 3 miles but still. I'm relearning lots of things. Video games as long as they are not graphic or particle intensive I do ok with. I'm back to reading and as you can see here I'm writing fairly coherently ... not perfect but getting there. So while I am gonna ask Moonblossom to help me post on here and finish my seriously overdue art pieces that deserve attention and I did commission while I was in the midst of this and my friend and hubby helped me with the site to make sure payments and ref sheets got out for my art commissions. However, like I said the memories are foggy still and I beg for patience.
When it comes to answer to DM's and comments and whatnot I am behind the keyboard but sometimes I have to have help with words so it will be either Moonblossom or Sardonyx helping me or even Clyde or Tails when they are available. They are good friends and became part of my RL because of this social platform. I missed both Moonblossom and Toorima's wedding due to all these issues but because of this place I've survived so much and with your help I plan on fighting to get better faster than even the doctors say. You know how stubborn I am and I will fight to be back in full force. Thanks to you all for being awesome and I can't wait to get back to stories and art, twitch streaming and gaming again ASAP. Look forward to it and until we speak again BE EXCELLENT TO EACH OTHER! Cause if we aren't going to who will?
I'll try not to update so far apart from now on. This is you friendly neighborhood Angelis the Catfox signing off for now.
It's been a year since I gave you all an update but it's because as usual it will be a long winded thing. So let's skip and give you the only version I can legally. I'm putting a ** TRIGGER ** WARNING so if you read on you've been warned...
On October 10, 2022 I was found unresponsive in my bed. Somehow I was still breathing on my own but I had no access to my body. I was essentially dead and alive ... it was Shroedingers human essentially. I was rushed to the hospital and that's when the involuntary body thrashing happened because I was non verbal even though inside my head I was screaming what the hell was wrong but my body wouldn't respond so all I could do wash thrash. The tragedy of this is the fact the hospital ER called me a drug addict claimed it was an overdose and everyone who knows me even you all who have known me since I've been her in 2009 know that I have had cancer and multiple auto immune conditions. So there is NO way in hell I'd be doing drugs cause of all the chemo and other medications. So that biased opinion of what was happening the orderlies, nurses, and other staff decided to treat me horrendously. I was abused and I won't go into details here because it's just disgustingly horrible. lets just say they left me practically naked, played with my body used it to make videos and it was 5 men and 1 woman involved as they hid me in a room in the basement of the hospital to do these horrible things. Why I am just now speaking out is because the final diagnosis was a neurological stroke due to medication counteraction from the new biologics and other prescription meds to treat my myriad of health problems. I am alive and I am healing it's just going to take awhile. The worst thing is because it was a type of stroke my brain is the most effected. I tell my body do the thing and there is a lagg. Even in complex speech and of course a massive loss of memories. So for Nanowrimo I'm going to write the ugly details of what happened to me while I was trapped inside my own body while the abuse of my body happened as a way to recount and help build my case. I cannot post more here for legal reasons as it's an ongoing investigation. But you wanna know the worst of it all? The day I was found unresponsive was 2 days after the death of my sweet kitty Leonard the Lump it was the 12 death anniversary of my friend Ruthie ... it was the same week that last year I lost Scott and Sarah to Suicide. October is a really hard month for me and that is only the tip of the trauma iceberg. So if I promised you something or if we were supposed to do something together PLEASE reach out, be patient with me while I am healing. I want to reconnect with you all and even if I have partially forgotten you it's not malicious it's literally my brain had to "reboot" and it's still reconnecting. My doctors have me on a 1 year recovery plan starting with memories from 16 onwards (due to all the trauma before 16 it was best to start with something positive and work from there) So I started with music from 1993 and beyond. The memories are coming back. Every week or every good day I push myself. As a matter of fact I drove for the first time the other day only 3 miles but still. I'm relearning lots of things. Video games as long as they are not graphic or particle intensive I do ok with. I'm back to reading and as you can see here I'm writing fairly coherently ... not perfect but getting there. So while I am gonna ask Moonblossom to help me post on here and finish my seriously overdue art pieces that deserve attention and I did commission while I was in the midst of this and my friend and hubby helped me with the site to make sure payments and ref sheets got out for my art commissions. However, like I said the memories are foggy still and I beg for patience.
When it comes to answer to DM's and comments and whatnot I am behind the keyboard but sometimes I have to have help with words so it will be either Moonblossom or Sardonyx helping me or even Clyde or Tails when they are available. They are good friends and became part of my RL because of this social platform. I missed both Moonblossom and Toorima's wedding due to all these issues but because of this place I've survived so much and with your help I plan on fighting to get better faster than even the doctors say. You know how stubborn I am and I will fight to be back in full force. Thanks to you all for being awesome and I can't wait to get back to stories and art, twitch streaming and gaming again ASAP. Look forward to it and until we speak again BE EXCELLENT TO EACH OTHER! Cause if we aren't going to who will?
I'll try not to update so far apart from now on. This is you friendly neighborhood Angelis the Catfox signing off for now.
November 2021 Update
General | Posted 4 years agoHello FA,
Hoping all is well for you and yours. It's been over 8 months since I wrote a journal or gave an update. A lot can change in so little time. So let me give you a lowdown on what I couldn't say before and follow up with what is going on now.
1. Late 2020 i.e. October - I had a huge amount of tragedy that I'm still not fulling coping with now. I had two friends commit suicide within a week of each other. It's literally been over a year and I still can't get over it fully. Especially because the second friend I've had over 20 years. That was a hard hard situation to deal with especially because it wasn't a conscientious suicide. It was an accidental medical neglect manslaughter from my friends husband. The long and short of it is the man had political pull from his family and it all got swept under the rug. That I believe is why I can't come to grips and move on. So I'm campaigning for everyone to try and be kind cause often there are scars that you can't see on the surface and it costs nothing to be kind.
2. June 2021 My niece after struggling with being a single mom and a hood rat with an addiction problem - Passed away after getting out of jail and getting her 1st month sobriety chip. She was in the halfway house and somehow still snuck drugs in and overdosed. This devastated my family. She was the oldest of the next generation and died at the tender age of 27. She leaves behind two children. My heart wrenches to see my niece lose her battle in this fashion when things were starting to look like she was gonna beat the odds. There's much more to this story but it's not mine to tell. The kids however, is where my heart really is at. Her second husband and father of child #2 passed away in January this year. So losing both of them in such a short time. Hasn't been easy to deal with. Oh and I did attempt to adopt my great nephew however, because I have had cancer ... my state decided I'm an unfit parent. Again a whole other story to talk about another time.
3. August 2021 GOOD NEWS Legit no more sad stuff for the moment. on August 5, 2021 I got kicked out of Oncology!!! Yes that's right - I am in FULL remission. No more chemo - no more infusions! So long as it doesn't come creeping back I'm good. I still have auto immune disorders but the big bad C word is Gone baby GONE! After all that sad stuff we all needed a pick me up for real!
4. November 2021 - It's that time of year again NANOWRIMO! I have competed every year since 2009. This year is no exception today is the 5th and I've already hit 17k out of 50k words! Woot Woot! I have a good feeling that I will win! Plus it brings awareness to adult literacy programs and programs for young writer camps and to help people get their stories published for the world to read! Pretty cool right? Join me!!!!
5. I'm gonna leave you with this - a self published book author has granted me permission to read her first published work on Twitch! Yes that's right in December the lunch hour is coming back and I'll be reading to all you fine folks to promote her book as her second one is about to be published. Something to look forward to as well!!! Also, Moonblossom yes I calling her out - she made me organize all my commissioned art into folders and because it messed up my flow there will be an art dump of sorts as I organize the folders into FA. I'm also taking offers on several characters. So feel free to look around and see if someone catches your eye. I might consider selling them. I've got surgery in 2022 I gotta save up for.
So yeah here's my year in a nutshell - I've missed you all and I'm totally still here if you need me. I'm grateful to all of you for sticking around sending me notes and comments to keep my spirits up and while I keep traveling this wild ride called life. Thank you all - Please be kind and excellent to each other! Until next time ...
Hoping all is well for you and yours. It's been over 8 months since I wrote a journal or gave an update. A lot can change in so little time. So let me give you a lowdown on what I couldn't say before and follow up with what is going on now.
1. Late 2020 i.e. October - I had a huge amount of tragedy that I'm still not fulling coping with now. I had two friends commit suicide within a week of each other. It's literally been over a year and I still can't get over it fully. Especially because the second friend I've had over 20 years. That was a hard hard situation to deal with especially because it wasn't a conscientious suicide. It was an accidental medical neglect manslaughter from my friends husband. The long and short of it is the man had political pull from his family and it all got swept under the rug. That I believe is why I can't come to grips and move on. So I'm campaigning for everyone to try and be kind cause often there are scars that you can't see on the surface and it costs nothing to be kind.
2. June 2021 My niece after struggling with being a single mom and a hood rat with an addiction problem - Passed away after getting out of jail and getting her 1st month sobriety chip. She was in the halfway house and somehow still snuck drugs in and overdosed. This devastated my family. She was the oldest of the next generation and died at the tender age of 27. She leaves behind two children. My heart wrenches to see my niece lose her battle in this fashion when things were starting to look like she was gonna beat the odds. There's much more to this story but it's not mine to tell. The kids however, is where my heart really is at. Her second husband and father of child #2 passed away in January this year. So losing both of them in such a short time. Hasn't been easy to deal with. Oh and I did attempt to adopt my great nephew however, because I have had cancer ... my state decided I'm an unfit parent. Again a whole other story to talk about another time.
3. August 2021 GOOD NEWS Legit no more sad stuff for the moment. on August 5, 2021 I got kicked out of Oncology!!! Yes that's right - I am in FULL remission. No more chemo - no more infusions! So long as it doesn't come creeping back I'm good. I still have auto immune disorders but the big bad C word is Gone baby GONE! After all that sad stuff we all needed a pick me up for real!
4. November 2021 - It's that time of year again NANOWRIMO! I have competed every year since 2009. This year is no exception today is the 5th and I've already hit 17k out of 50k words! Woot Woot! I have a good feeling that I will win! Plus it brings awareness to adult literacy programs and programs for young writer camps and to help people get their stories published for the world to read! Pretty cool right? Join me!!!!
5. I'm gonna leave you with this - a self published book author has granted me permission to read her first published work on Twitch! Yes that's right in December the lunch hour is coming back and I'll be reading to all you fine folks to promote her book as her second one is about to be published. Something to look forward to as well!!! Also, Moonblossom yes I calling her out - she made me organize all my commissioned art into folders and because it messed up my flow there will be an art dump of sorts as I organize the folders into FA. I'm also taking offers on several characters. So feel free to look around and see if someone catches your eye. I might consider selling them. I've got surgery in 2022 I gotta save up for.
So yeah here's my year in a nutshell - I've missed you all and I'm totally still here if you need me. I'm grateful to all of you for sticking around sending me notes and comments to keep my spirits up and while I keep traveling this wild ride called life. Thank you all - Please be kind and excellent to each other! Until next time ...
2021 Art Dump & Update
General | Posted 4 years agoDear FA,
How are things going? Hope y'all are surviving this pandemic as well as you can. I'm grateful and lucky enough to so far been Negative for the Covid. However, I've been in quarantine since March 2020 (I'm so bored and have the worst cabin fever ever!) A lot happened in 2020 and as much as I'd love to give you all the juicy tidbits it's really not that entertaining.
My health is as good as it's been in over 10 years. My scores are decent (better than ever) but they were so bad they really had nowhere to go but up! So YAY! I did start Livestreaming on Twitch like I promised but as the pandemic drug on I got lackluster in my performances and they came to a sort of grinding halt. I do intend to stream again just not sure there is interest.
Games - Well I've been playing Holdfast, FF14, WOW, Diablo3 (on PC) Code: Realize, Collar X Malice, Animal Crossing (Nintendo Switch) Send me your friend codes :3
Art Dump - OK I just realized I'm still posting art that I bought or commissioned back in 2018 - I mean C'mon that's rediculous am I right?!?! So you are going to see a bit of an art dump as I start pushing forward with trying to catch up on all the arts that deserve to be shared. Artists that put their hard work needs to be displayed properly and credit where credits are due. I've been so lucky to commission art pieces of my OC's and adopt even more of them and they deserve attention! So please be patient while I catch up and if you see an artist you recognize please let me know especially because some adopts came from Toyhouse and I didn't get the names of the creators for some of the pieces.
As always - THANK YOU all for being wonderful and supportive this community has been fantastic and I'm very appreciative for everything. This year I've decided to open up splitting commissions with you lovely peeps with any of my characters. SFW preferred but if you got a huge crush on one of my characters I will consider splitting a NSFW exception being my catfox unless you got a really good concept or story behind it.
So until next time be well and I look forward to hearing from you! Take care everyone!
How are things going? Hope y'all are surviving this pandemic as well as you can. I'm grateful and lucky enough to so far been Negative for the Covid. However, I've been in quarantine since March 2020 (I'm so bored and have the worst cabin fever ever!) A lot happened in 2020 and as much as I'd love to give you all the juicy tidbits it's really not that entertaining.
My health is as good as it's been in over 10 years. My scores are decent (better than ever) but they were so bad they really had nowhere to go but up! So YAY! I did start Livestreaming on Twitch like I promised but as the pandemic drug on I got lackluster in my performances and they came to a sort of grinding halt. I do intend to stream again just not sure there is interest.
Games - Well I've been playing Holdfast, FF14, WOW, Diablo3 (on PC) Code: Realize, Collar X Malice, Animal Crossing (Nintendo Switch) Send me your friend codes :3
Art Dump - OK I just realized I'm still posting art that I bought or commissioned back in 2018 - I mean C'mon that's rediculous am I right?!?! So you are going to see a bit of an art dump as I start pushing forward with trying to catch up on all the arts that deserve to be shared. Artists that put their hard work needs to be displayed properly and credit where credits are due. I've been so lucky to commission art pieces of my OC's and adopt even more of them and they deserve attention! So please be patient while I catch up and if you see an artist you recognize please let me know especially because some adopts came from Toyhouse and I didn't get the names of the creators for some of the pieces.
As always - THANK YOU all for being wonderful and supportive this community has been fantastic and I'm very appreciative for everything. This year I've decided to open up splitting commissions with you lovely peeps with any of my characters. SFW preferred but if you got a huge crush on one of my characters I will consider splitting a NSFW exception being my catfox unless you got a really good concept or story behind it.
So until next time be well and I look forward to hearing from you! Take care everyone!
Updates and Links *GOOD NEWS*
General | Posted 5 years agoDearest FA,
I finally got all my test results in. You've all waited a long time and been extremely patient. THANK YOU all so very much for your support, friendship, and companionship. These last few years have been rough; however - we are at a turning point. The cancer did NOT come back and I did NOT get any additional auto immune disorders at this time!!
Do y'all know what that means??? I've got the clearance to start traveling again and working towards living my life. Granted, I'll never be able to work a 40 hour/week standard job ever again. (I miss teaching so dang much) Still, my treatments for the 3 auto immune disorders are hard but manageable.
Together we've made it through the tunnel and now it's time to enjoy my 40's (GASP AND SHOCK) I know I know I'm 40 now and have to reflect upon my life and purpose while I continue to trudge along. With my support network including all of YOU, this journey is finally in a place I'm happy to be in.
Still can't thank you all enough... I'm so lucky and blessed. Now I promised to start streaming and I HAVE!!! I'm also importing the streams to Youtube (unedited) No monetization if I clicked all the buttons. This is just my way of hanging out with you all in potential real time and regain my confidence to speak on a mic.
The purpose of these streams is to be more social and if I get enough confidence I'll start teaching through these mediums or maybe even share some of my traditional art in real time. So here comes the links!!!
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/angelfacegames
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCG.....gqXjNnbrZQgF-Q
Once again thank you for being awesome and look forward to some Win a date night with my characters and I may even be opening auditions for the Hareem and or opening up for RP again. We shall see .... Til next time!!
I finally got all my test results in. You've all waited a long time and been extremely patient. THANK YOU all so very much for your support, friendship, and companionship. These last few years have been rough; however - we are at a turning point. The cancer did NOT come back and I did NOT get any additional auto immune disorders at this time!!
Do y'all know what that means??? I've got the clearance to start traveling again and working towards living my life. Granted, I'll never be able to work a 40 hour/week standard job ever again. (I miss teaching so dang much) Still, my treatments for the 3 auto immune disorders are hard but manageable.
Together we've made it through the tunnel and now it's time to enjoy my 40's (GASP AND SHOCK) I know I know I'm 40 now and have to reflect upon my life and purpose while I continue to trudge along. With my support network including all of YOU, this journey is finally in a place I'm happy to be in.
Still can't thank you all enough... I'm so lucky and blessed. Now I promised to start streaming and I HAVE!!! I'm also importing the streams to Youtube (unedited) No monetization if I clicked all the buttons. This is just my way of hanging out with you all in potential real time and regain my confidence to speak on a mic.
The purpose of these streams is to be more social and if I get enough confidence I'll start teaching through these mediums or maybe even share some of my traditional art in real time. So here comes the links!!!
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/angelfacegames
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCG.....gqXjNnbrZQgF-Q
Once again thank you for being awesome and look forward to some Win a date night with my characters and I may even be opening auditions for the Hareem and or opening up for RP again. We shall see .... Til next time!!
Looking for Artist for Twitch Art
General | Posted 6 years agoHello FA,
I'm desperately trying to find someone to do my Twitch channel art. I've asked a couple of my favorite artists but a lot of them are busy and don't understand what I'm looking for. So those of you who enjoy watching twitch streams and recognize the channel art and the little emoticons, would you please help me find someone who can do these things for me? I've been streaming on Discord lately with friends to get my confidence back. I was told that when I play aggressive games and rage it's quite entertaining. I'd like to start sharing that with you. I also discovered that Twitch doesn't mind if you do things like art. So maybe y'all would like to watch me randomly paint all the things... who knows. Throwing it out there. Still waiting on the final biopsy reports so can't give you an update on that. However, overall I'm starting to improve and get back out there stirring ALL the mischief.
Until next time,
I'm desperately trying to find someone to do my Twitch channel art. I've asked a couple of my favorite artists but a lot of them are busy and don't understand what I'm looking for. So those of you who enjoy watching twitch streams and recognize the channel art and the little emoticons, would you please help me find someone who can do these things for me? I've been streaming on Discord lately with friends to get my confidence back. I was told that when I play aggressive games and rage it's quite entertaining. I'd like to start sharing that with you. I also discovered that Twitch doesn't mind if you do things like art. So maybe y'all would like to watch me randomly paint all the things... who knows. Throwing it out there. Still waiting on the final biopsy reports so can't give you an update on that. However, overall I'm starting to improve and get back out there stirring ALL the mischief.
Until next time,
Update: February 2020
General | Posted 6 years agoDearest FA Friends and Fam,
*Warning* Very long journal ahead!
Almost all of my tests are finally back and treatments are underway. Last time I wrote because of the heart concerns. So let me update you for a moment. I've got a good heart - it's capable of functioning at 98% efficiency. So the question comes about what about those scary 160/130 BP results? What was causing you so much chest pain? The answers are simple and yet complicated. (as is tradition)
My heart after nuclear testing, heart monitoring, stress/exertion etc. Showed a clear indication that I was in tachycardia 6-8 hours a day every day. That is what was causing the majority of my dizzy/faint spells, chest pain, and the constant adrenaline. This also affected sleep and exacerbated my insomnia. My hopes was that maybe now that I'm "middle aged" I'm showing signs of a mental condition of anxiety.
The thing is in May of 2019 I sought out treatment both from my general doc and a therapist. They agreed that I was showing symptoms of it and because I have PTSD it might be time to consider medication on top of therapy. Now I haven't been in therapy since my early 20's. Not that I have a problem with it ... it was more the therapist said I've got the smarts and the willpower to handle things and therefore didn't need help anymore.
I've lived in relative peace these last 16 years. I mean I haven't had any major abuse or trauma since roughly 2004. I broke the statistic. I got out. Yet sometimes some wounds never fully heal. My doctor and therapist agree that sadly when trauma and abuse exist during the developmental years the juvenile brain is not formed enough to be able to handle certain trauma and it potentially will stick around the rest of one's lifetime.
This makes sense and yet I still kinda want to argue the nature vs nurture theory in regards to this. However, medically I can understand that the brain of a child is not formed enough to cognitively comprehend and adapt as effectively as a fully developed brain of a well adjusted adult. Now granted we could all talk about all these topics til the cows come home. I think that's another journal topic.
I digress, almost totally went off the rails there. The gist of it is this, I'm in a place now since I've survived all those years of chemo, therapies, treatments for multiple health conditions. Now that I'm in plain treatment and maintenance mode it seems my mind had started to relax enough to begin the healing process of everything I suppressed because of "survival mode".
Hence the heart troubles. My general doc and the cardiologist have now got me on BP and Beta blockers to slow my heart rate down so it stops thinking I'm being chased by lions all the time. Both doctors believe that the BP stuff will go away within 3-6 months. Because of all the healthy lifestyle changes I've made since I'm no longer "surviving". This is the takeaway folks.
I told y'all I'd fight down the gremlins and keep on ticking. Surviving I know how to do. The thing I need to learn to do now is to LIVE ... actually LIVE. There is more to life than just getting through the day and hoping to get another one. There's more to life than the grind and working for the weekend. So since we started treatments I've only had to take anxiety medications about 3x in the last 3 weeks... so roughly once a week. My BP is now a healthy 120/80 consistently.
So yeah, I have 3 auto immune diseases. However, that's not stopping me from trying to have a life again. I'm dying my hair funky colors (changes every month) in the last 14 months since I finished Chemo my hair is already halfway down my back again. (Shocking right?) I'm at the gym twice a week up to 2 hours a session. I also do Tai Chi twice a week as well. (highly recommend)
I've started to stream again, it's sporadic but I'm regaining my confidence a little at a time. The last thing I need to get back to is writing and painting. These are the current goals. With your support which you have been so generous in giving... I'm motivated to make y'all proud.
The final results are for the diagnosing of either another auto immune or cancer. Notice I stuck this at the bottom. Cause I'm not worried. I was down in the dumps before but now it's time to kick name and take ass! I want to sincerely thank you all for your kindness, your support, your friendship, your companionship. This community has given me the strength and the will to keep on keeping on. I have such mad love for all the amazing people I've met here and the artists that I've been able to support. This is a great place with great people.
Til next time...
*Warning* Very long journal ahead!
Almost all of my tests are finally back and treatments are underway. Last time I wrote because of the heart concerns. So let me update you for a moment. I've got a good heart - it's capable of functioning at 98% efficiency. So the question comes about what about those scary 160/130 BP results? What was causing you so much chest pain? The answers are simple and yet complicated. (as is tradition)
My heart after nuclear testing, heart monitoring, stress/exertion etc. Showed a clear indication that I was in tachycardia 6-8 hours a day every day. That is what was causing the majority of my dizzy/faint spells, chest pain, and the constant adrenaline. This also affected sleep and exacerbated my insomnia. My hopes was that maybe now that I'm "middle aged" I'm showing signs of a mental condition of anxiety.
The thing is in May of 2019 I sought out treatment both from my general doc and a therapist. They agreed that I was showing symptoms of it and because I have PTSD it might be time to consider medication on top of therapy. Now I haven't been in therapy since my early 20's. Not that I have a problem with it ... it was more the therapist said I've got the smarts and the willpower to handle things and therefore didn't need help anymore.
I've lived in relative peace these last 16 years. I mean I haven't had any major abuse or trauma since roughly 2004. I broke the statistic. I got out. Yet sometimes some wounds never fully heal. My doctor and therapist agree that sadly when trauma and abuse exist during the developmental years the juvenile brain is not formed enough to be able to handle certain trauma and it potentially will stick around the rest of one's lifetime.
This makes sense and yet I still kinda want to argue the nature vs nurture theory in regards to this. However, medically I can understand that the brain of a child is not formed enough to cognitively comprehend and adapt as effectively as a fully developed brain of a well adjusted adult. Now granted we could all talk about all these topics til the cows come home. I think that's another journal topic.
I digress, almost totally went off the rails there. The gist of it is this, I'm in a place now since I've survived all those years of chemo, therapies, treatments for multiple health conditions. Now that I'm in plain treatment and maintenance mode it seems my mind had started to relax enough to begin the healing process of everything I suppressed because of "survival mode".
Hence the heart troubles. My general doc and the cardiologist have now got me on BP and Beta blockers to slow my heart rate down so it stops thinking I'm being chased by lions all the time. Both doctors believe that the BP stuff will go away within 3-6 months. Because of all the healthy lifestyle changes I've made since I'm no longer "surviving". This is the takeaway folks.
I told y'all I'd fight down the gremlins and keep on ticking. Surviving I know how to do. The thing I need to learn to do now is to LIVE ... actually LIVE. There is more to life than just getting through the day and hoping to get another one. There's more to life than the grind and working for the weekend. So since we started treatments I've only had to take anxiety medications about 3x in the last 3 weeks... so roughly once a week. My BP is now a healthy 120/80 consistently.
So yeah, I have 3 auto immune diseases. However, that's not stopping me from trying to have a life again. I'm dying my hair funky colors (changes every month) in the last 14 months since I finished Chemo my hair is already halfway down my back again. (Shocking right?) I'm at the gym twice a week up to 2 hours a session. I also do Tai Chi twice a week as well. (highly recommend)
I've started to stream again, it's sporadic but I'm regaining my confidence a little at a time. The last thing I need to get back to is writing and painting. These are the current goals. With your support which you have been so generous in giving... I'm motivated to make y'all proud.
The final results are for the diagnosing of either another auto immune or cancer. Notice I stuck this at the bottom. Cause I'm not worried. I was down in the dumps before but now it's time to kick name and take ass! I want to sincerely thank you all for your kindness, your support, your friendship, your companionship. This community has given me the strength and the will to keep on keeping on. I have such mad love for all the amazing people I've met here and the artists that I've been able to support. This is a great place with great people.
Til next time...
MIA for a minute
General | Posted 6 years agoHello FA,
So I warned y'all a couple months ago a lot has been happening. Both mentally and physically there have been some stuff n things and I'll get into details later on but just know that I'm gonna be MIA for a couple weeks or longer. I've been having chest pains that just doesn't go away. I figured I'd better get it checked out. Well now begins tons of testing and whatnot.
Today the cardiologist heard heart murmurs and my blood pressure was 160/130. I'm really close to stroking out right now so for a little while I need to slow my roll and try to relax. Nuclear testing will start on Thursday as well as wearing heart monitors etc. through to next week. Then we will do Stress testing. Depending on those results will determine if surgery is necessary.
This is on top of a ton of other stuff I haven't disclosed. I'm concerned, worried, anxious, etc. etc. Y'all know me by now, it's going to take a lot to take me down and this will be no exception. The fight is on the gauntlet is thrown so while I'm off defeating apparent heart gremlins just be good to each other and when I get back I'll finish my backlogg of art that needs posting.
I miss y'all and I have been streaming but it's sporadic and either on Twitch or Discord. Will try to be more mindful to post here as well so you can pop in and join me. Til next time ok? *HUGS*
So I warned y'all a couple months ago a lot has been happening. Both mentally and physically there have been some stuff n things and I'll get into details later on but just know that I'm gonna be MIA for a couple weeks or longer. I've been having chest pains that just doesn't go away. I figured I'd better get it checked out. Well now begins tons of testing and whatnot.
Today the cardiologist heard heart murmurs and my blood pressure was 160/130. I'm really close to stroking out right now so for a little while I need to slow my roll and try to relax. Nuclear testing will start on Thursday as well as wearing heart monitors etc. through to next week. Then we will do Stress testing. Depending on those results will determine if surgery is necessary.
This is on top of a ton of other stuff I haven't disclosed. I'm concerned, worried, anxious, etc. etc. Y'all know me by now, it's going to take a lot to take me down and this will be no exception. The fight is on the gauntlet is thrown so while I'm off defeating apparent heart gremlins just be good to each other and when I get back I'll finish my backlogg of art that needs posting.
I miss y'all and I have been streaming but it's sporadic and either on Twitch or Discord. Will try to be more mindful to post here as well so you can pop in and join me. Til next time ok? *HUGS*
Nanowrimo 2019 Update
General | Posted 6 years ago Welp,
I'm on the road as I write this from my phone. So forgive auto correct and bad grammar eh? So last week I fractured a finger. I was slated to win the competition on the 17th at the rate I was writing. You're probably wonder how the heck did this woman fracture her finger and do please make it interesting. Well I hope my dear friends and fam ... I was sword fighting ... you heard me ... I was sword fighting against a shield basher and took a hit.
Now let's sweeten this story up a bit shall we? He didn't even knock me on my ass. I stood my ground against his assault and he was the one on the ground in the fetal position for not making sure I didn't go down and stay down. Now most of you know I'm only 5' tall in real life. I'm short.
Y'all also know that since the end of chemo I've been crushing it at the gym to rebuild my broken body one step at a time. So to not only take down and out an opponent but be able to stand up in victory was cathartic for me. I may not win this years Nanowrimo but I won some of my confidence back and some of myself back as well. To me this is something priceless and not everyone comes out of their fights as winners but I always look for the little victories or the lessons through the tough ones.
I hope you can too. I've had some really crappy results in the last couple of weeks but I'm literally on the road driving halfway across the country so gotta cut this short. I'll let you know what's up in December upon my return. Until then you know the drill... *HUGS*
I'm on the road as I write this from my phone. So forgive auto correct and bad grammar eh? So last week I fractured a finger. I was slated to win the competition on the 17th at the rate I was writing. You're probably wonder how the heck did this woman fracture her finger and do please make it interesting. Well I hope my dear friends and fam ... I was sword fighting ... you heard me ... I was sword fighting against a shield basher and took a hit.
Now let's sweeten this story up a bit shall we? He didn't even knock me on my ass. I stood my ground against his assault and he was the one on the ground in the fetal position for not making sure I didn't go down and stay down. Now most of you know I'm only 5' tall in real life. I'm short.
Y'all also know that since the end of chemo I've been crushing it at the gym to rebuild my broken body one step at a time. So to not only take down and out an opponent but be able to stand up in victory was cathartic for me. I may not win this years Nanowrimo but I won some of my confidence back and some of myself back as well. To me this is something priceless and not everyone comes out of their fights as winners but I always look for the little victories or the lessons through the tough ones.
I hope you can too. I've had some really crappy results in the last couple of weeks but I'm literally on the road driving halfway across the country so gotta cut this short. I'll let you know what's up in December upon my return. Until then you know the drill... *HUGS*
Nanowrimo 2019
General | Posted 6 years agoHello FA!!!
I should be updating you on what the heck has been going on in my world but it's November and y'all know I compete every year. So I won last year and got a lot of story lines potentially flushed out. However, I found myself dissatisfied with the names and how some of the story was going. So this year I'm flushing out the names. Y'all know my famous Catfox is named Angelis and the focus of these stories. Eros is her fated soul mate. Yet when I'm writing stories about them the names don't fit.
So forgive me for not posting any of the stories over the last couple of years. I just didn't think they were up to scratch. It was mostly word vomit to hit the goal and get random squirrels out of my brain. So there will be changes to the character names. Going to work on the origin story this year and see what you all make of it. So a teaser to please you a little while you impatiently wait for me to get my but in gear.
Angelis is now Alice Bloom Eros is now Prince Konstance of Underhill The brothers are Aaron and Edmund Albright. Sub characters Peri and Rudy for team Edmund Raven and Nikkoh are team Aaron
Chronos and Limbo assist Konstance - Now that this is more fleshed out and more sensible when I'm writing hopefully y'all will be pleased with the result! It's day 1 of Nanowrimo and I'm about to hit my word count for today but I need to get ahead and beat last years 20 days. I need to go out of town on the 14th so I really only have 13 1/2 days lol. Wish me luck. I promise to tell you all about the health and drama as soon as Nano is done.
Until next time ...
I should be updating you on what the heck has been going on in my world but it's November and y'all know I compete every year. So I won last year and got a lot of story lines potentially flushed out. However, I found myself dissatisfied with the names and how some of the story was going. So this year I'm flushing out the names. Y'all know my famous Catfox is named Angelis and the focus of these stories. Eros is her fated soul mate. Yet when I'm writing stories about them the names don't fit.
So forgive me for not posting any of the stories over the last couple of years. I just didn't think they were up to scratch. It was mostly word vomit to hit the goal and get random squirrels out of my brain. So there will be changes to the character names. Going to work on the origin story this year and see what you all make of it. So a teaser to please you a little while you impatiently wait for me to get my but in gear.
Angelis is now Alice Bloom Eros is now Prince Konstance of Underhill The brothers are Aaron and Edmund Albright. Sub characters Peri and Rudy for team Edmund Raven and Nikkoh are team Aaron
Chronos and Limbo assist Konstance - Now that this is more fleshed out and more sensible when I'm writing hopefully y'all will be pleased with the result! It's day 1 of Nanowrimo and I'm about to hit my word count for today but I need to get ahead and beat last years 20 days. I need to go out of town on the 14th so I really only have 13 1/2 days lol. Wish me luck. I promise to tell you all about the health and drama as soon as Nano is done.
Until next time ...
My heart is so heavy
General | Posted 6 years agoDear FA,
I've been away from home more often than not in 2019. My world tipped again and though physically I'm recovering from all the things that have happened to me - I'm struggling now with all that is happening to those around me. Pushing myself to get stronger so that I can take on more responsibilities is daunting. My stepdad has cancer and my mom's left lung is still collapsed. I've been traveling back and forth from my place to theirs to help wherever I can. My doctors are worried that I'm over doing it. It's true and I know that I am over doing it. However, who else would do what I do??????
It's difficult but I'm grateful that both my mom and stepdad know they can rely on me even though I live over 300 miles away. They have other kids that live within blocks of them that do NOTHING. This is what boggles my mind... how can you watch your parents be sick and suffering and do NOTHING??? I don't get it. So here I go again, another 300 mile trip to help where I can. I'm not going to stop but I will promise you my dear friends and internet family that I will do my best to be mindful of my own limitations. It's the best I can promise to you.
The other thing that weighs heavy is I have a friend in transition right now. They are in their mid 20's and the struggle for them is enormous. Not enough support, not enough money, not enough allies. So before I head out of town I'm taking this week to help them get to their doctors appointments and to hold their hand because that's what friends and allies do. They do what they can when they can. Just like right now so many of you reading this have helped ME during all the things in my life.
I'm trying to pay it forward. I'm using LOVE and LOYALTY to push back Hate and Ignorance - I'm one voice but by all the gods I'm going to use it. For no one should ever feel totally alone - It's awful and if I can be of help to any one of you, I'm here. ALWAYS.
I know this post is more ranty than I normally do but I had to get this off my chest before I put my cape back on and attempt to fix my world. Forgive me if I've been neglectful it's not been on purpose I swear it. Everyone here has been nothing but amazing to me and I'd be lost without you. THANK YOU everyone for being a brightness in all the worlds dark you keep guiding me home and keeping me on the right path.
I'll get back to posting soon and as always - Be excellent to each other -
I've been away from home more often than not in 2019. My world tipped again and though physically I'm recovering from all the things that have happened to me - I'm struggling now with all that is happening to those around me. Pushing myself to get stronger so that I can take on more responsibilities is daunting. My stepdad has cancer and my mom's left lung is still collapsed. I've been traveling back and forth from my place to theirs to help wherever I can. My doctors are worried that I'm over doing it. It's true and I know that I am over doing it. However, who else would do what I do??????
It's difficult but I'm grateful that both my mom and stepdad know they can rely on me even though I live over 300 miles away. They have other kids that live within blocks of them that do NOTHING. This is what boggles my mind... how can you watch your parents be sick and suffering and do NOTHING??? I don't get it. So here I go again, another 300 mile trip to help where I can. I'm not going to stop but I will promise you my dear friends and internet family that I will do my best to be mindful of my own limitations. It's the best I can promise to you.
The other thing that weighs heavy is I have a friend in transition right now. They are in their mid 20's and the struggle for them is enormous. Not enough support, not enough money, not enough allies. So before I head out of town I'm taking this week to help them get to their doctors appointments and to hold their hand because that's what friends and allies do. They do what they can when they can. Just like right now so many of you reading this have helped ME during all the things in my life.
I'm trying to pay it forward. I'm using LOVE and LOYALTY to push back Hate and Ignorance - I'm one voice but by all the gods I'm going to use it. For no one should ever feel totally alone - It's awful and if I can be of help to any one of you, I'm here. ALWAYS.
I know this post is more ranty than I normally do but I had to get this off my chest before I put my cape back on and attempt to fix my world. Forgive me if I've been neglectful it's not been on purpose I swear it. Everyone here has been nothing but amazing to me and I'd be lost without you. THANK YOU everyone for being a brightness in all the worlds dark you keep guiding me home and keeping me on the right path.
I'll get back to posting soon and as always - Be excellent to each other -
Woah - Halfway there!
General | Posted 6 years agoGreetings FA!
Tis been a minute or many many more since I left a blurb about the comings and goings of the person behind the infamous Catfox we all know and love. Many of you know that it had been rough over the last couple of years and at the beginning of 2019 I came off chemo. I was supposed to go back on it in April. Luckily for me a new biologic came available that was compatible with a second biologic. Technically it is chemo but both are pill form and much much easier on the body. So YAY no hospital infusions for awhile WOHOO!!!
This is great news for many reasons. The last three years of intense treatments have nearly broken me mind, body, and spirit. I've had some dark dark times and though I am fighting it is often a struggle. The main things/people/etc that have helped me through it all is from the amazing people reading this journal. FA for all it's faults has been a safe haven of sorts for me. I've met some AMAZING artists, watchers, fans etc. through this social website that have been a huge part of my support network.
I've been lucky that zero negativity has been thrown my way here and most has been nothing but LOVE. Such a blessing this has been. As you see more and more pieces added to my gallery I'm certain some of you wonder if I'm independently wealthy to have such a gallery and whatnot. I assure you I am on disability a fixed income. I used to be a Development Specialist and I absolutely LOVED teaching. It also provided me at the time a wonderful stable income.
Well that is not how it is now. Yet - I set aside a certain amount of $$ per month and share that towards artists to show my LOVE and support of their craft and creativity. BONUS I get to see my characters come to life and display them all over the place \o/ YAY! With that said - don't hesitate if you have an idea and my characters would fit in. I'm amenable to a lot of things and if it's not a rush I could save up and go havsies!
With all this said I hope you are all doing well and enjoying the summer weather. On my end it's HOT HOT HOT and I'm melting. Yet I still love all the trees and flowers as they continue to bloom and bring back all the birds to enjoy. So be excellent to each other and know that I'm sort of back around again YAY! Until next time!!
Tis been a minute or many many more since I left a blurb about the comings and goings of the person behind the infamous Catfox we all know and love. Many of you know that it had been rough over the last couple of years and at the beginning of 2019 I came off chemo. I was supposed to go back on it in April. Luckily for me a new biologic came available that was compatible with a second biologic. Technically it is chemo but both are pill form and much much easier on the body. So YAY no hospital infusions for awhile WOHOO!!!
This is great news for many reasons. The last three years of intense treatments have nearly broken me mind, body, and spirit. I've had some dark dark times and though I am fighting it is often a struggle. The main things/people/etc that have helped me through it all is from the amazing people reading this journal. FA for all it's faults has been a safe haven of sorts for me. I've met some AMAZING artists, watchers, fans etc. through this social website that have been a huge part of my support network.
I've been lucky that zero negativity has been thrown my way here and most has been nothing but LOVE. Such a blessing this has been. As you see more and more pieces added to my gallery I'm certain some of you wonder if I'm independently wealthy to have such a gallery and whatnot. I assure you I am on disability a fixed income. I used to be a Development Specialist and I absolutely LOVED teaching. It also provided me at the time a wonderful stable income.
Well that is not how it is now. Yet - I set aside a certain amount of $$ per month and share that towards artists to show my LOVE and support of their craft and creativity. BONUS I get to see my characters come to life and display them all over the place \o/ YAY! With that said - don't hesitate if you have an idea and my characters would fit in. I'm amenable to a lot of things and if it's not a rush I could save up and go havsies!
With all this said I hope you are all doing well and enjoying the summer weather. On my end it's HOT HOT HOT and I'm melting. Yet I still love all the trees and flowers as they continue to bloom and bring back all the birds to enjoy. So be excellent to each other and know that I'm sort of back around again YAY! Until next time!!
*Advertisment* Friend needs to sell OC
General | Posted 7 years agoMy sweet friend 
Toorima Has to let go of one of her awesome characters seen here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30332720/ It's a really amazing character and would help her out financially - so Go check out the chara and see if they would fit in with your character family today!!
Toorima Has to let go of one of her awesome characters seen here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30332720/ It's a really amazing character and would help her out financially - so Go check out the chara and see if they would fit in with your character family today!! *Advertisement* OC For Sale
General | Posted 7 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/30318410/
One of my favorite artists
shinjii Is having car troubles and has decided to give up her beautiful Siamese girl to a good home. The character includes an additional 14 pieces of artwork. If you can consider giving this lovely a new home and helping out an awesome artist, then please do so!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30318410/
One of my favorite artists
shinjii Is having car troubles and has decided to give up her beautiful Siamese girl to a good home. The character includes an additional 14 pieces of artwork. If you can consider giving this lovely a new home and helping out an awesome artist, then please do so! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30318410/
2019 So far
General | Posted 7 years agoHello FA!
It's been over a month since I last gave any sort of update. So let me tell you what's been going on in the wacky world of the Catfox! Healthwise, I'm stabilizing for a change! This is great news y'all! I'm not on chemo currently and won't go back on it til April 2019.
Secondly - I've been streaming! Yes! I actually have been streaming! I'm still nervous as all get go but I don't mind it. As it lets me actually chatter with people in real time while playing games together! I'm open to some suggestions as I'm kind of tired of streaming Fallout 76.
Thirdly - I'm still a year behind in posting art. Do y'all mind if I do a huge art dump?? I'd like to get all the fantastic pieces that I've commissioned or been gifted up on the gallery ASAP.
Fourthly - Traditional Art . . . I've lost all confidence in myself I've only painted twice this winter when normally I'd have at least 30+ paintings done by now. Granted I've got about 150 laying around the dining room probably getting ruined cause I have no proper way to store them... but still - I miss creating.
Lastly - I've still been actively playing a multitude of games both PC and on the Switch. When I'm not gaming I'm binge watching shows/movies while Crocheting. I'm working on two awesome projects. A temperature blanket based on the high temps in my city and a Queen sized afghan. Both are coming along. Would you like to see?
As always, thank you for being super awesome to me throughout these last few years of health issues. I'm very confident that this year will be a decent year for me and that should mean more time together! Thanks and Be Excellent to each other!!!
-Angelis
It's been over a month since I last gave any sort of update. So let me tell you what's been going on in the wacky world of the Catfox! Healthwise, I'm stabilizing for a change! This is great news y'all! I'm not on chemo currently and won't go back on it til April 2019.
Secondly - I've been streaming! Yes! I actually have been streaming! I'm still nervous as all get go but I don't mind it. As it lets me actually chatter with people in real time while playing games together! I'm open to some suggestions as I'm kind of tired of streaming Fallout 76.
Thirdly - I'm still a year behind in posting art. Do y'all mind if I do a huge art dump?? I'd like to get all the fantastic pieces that I've commissioned or been gifted up on the gallery ASAP.
Fourthly - Traditional Art . . . I've lost all confidence in myself I've only painted twice this winter when normally I'd have at least 30+ paintings done by now. Granted I've got about 150 laying around the dining room probably getting ruined cause I have no proper way to store them... but still - I miss creating.
Lastly - I've still been actively playing a multitude of games both PC and on the Switch. When I'm not gaming I'm binge watching shows/movies while Crocheting. I'm working on two awesome projects. A temperature blanket based on the high temps in my city and a Queen sized afghan. Both are coming along. Would you like to see?
As always, thank you for being super awesome to me throughout these last few years of health issues. I'm very confident that this year will be a decent year for me and that should mean more time together! Thanks and Be Excellent to each other!!!
-Angelis
I've been Streaming
General | Posted 7 years agoSo I've been streaming over the last couple of days my journey through Fallout76 - this is to get sound and background noises under control and to distract me. Today will be my last stream until next week but so far I've already reached lvl 7. Let's see how far we can go eh? Join me if you feel like or watch yesterdays streams to catch up. https://www.twitch.tv/angelfacegames
NANOWRIMO 2018 RESULTS!
General | Posted 7 years agoDear FA,
I WON! Yes you heard right! For the first time since 2009 - I WON! I actually received my winning count on November 26 with proof that I did indeed win! I'm elated and with that meant I had to take the last few days off of the computer to recover.
This means dear readers I might just release some of the stories I wrote over the last several years! OMG new content!! I appreciate everyone's support and I coulnd't have done this without YOU!
Now for the less happy go lucky - I've had to take the last few days off the computer to recover my hands. I ended up in the hospital twice for x-rays, exams, and the like. It's not looking great - so right now I'm going to do my best to post the remaining pictures I've commissioned. Write stories for the charas I've adopted. Then lightly edit the stories I've created and leave you all with lots of pretty things. So hang in there with me ok?
Thank you all so very much!
I WON! Yes you heard right! For the first time since 2009 - I WON! I actually received my winning count on November 26 with proof that I did indeed win! I'm elated and with that meant I had to take the last few days off of the computer to recover.
This means dear readers I might just release some of the stories I wrote over the last several years! OMG new content!! I appreciate everyone's support and I coulnd't have done this without YOU!
Now for the less happy go lucky - I've had to take the last few days off the computer to recover my hands. I ended up in the hospital twice for x-rays, exams, and the like. It's not looking great - so right now I'm going to do my best to post the remaining pictures I've commissioned. Write stories for the charas I've adopted. Then lightly edit the stories I've created and leave you all with lots of pretty things. So hang in there with me ok?
Thank you all so very much!
NANOWRIMO 2018
General | Posted 7 years agoHello FA,
Gentle readers the time has come around again and this year I will be victorious even if it is only a personal victory. I've been struggling mentally, and physically with my disability and limitation. However, the warrior within me demands I break these bonds and stop wallowing in my own self despair. It is time for my sword to reignite ... to allow it's flame to burst forth again.
So I shall put forth the effort to bring the stories burning inside my head to be put to digital paper. Eros and Anna have not been done with me at all. The kids are screaming and demanded to be alive...
So yes, I may be hard to reach but know that I'm trying to write ... yes my hands are total shit ... but I plan to try my best to listen to my body and take many breaks. I may not hit the 50, 000 goal but I'm going to write something. If it looks good I may bring back our star crossed ill fated love birds together in the end... one can hope...
For now be well - and should you join me ... well I'm not hard to find really. NANOWRIMO let your writer's voice be heard!
-Angelis
Gentle readers the time has come around again and this year I will be victorious even if it is only a personal victory. I've been struggling mentally, and physically with my disability and limitation. However, the warrior within me demands I break these bonds and stop wallowing in my own self despair. It is time for my sword to reignite ... to allow it's flame to burst forth again.
So I shall put forth the effort to bring the stories burning inside my head to be put to digital paper. Eros and Anna have not been done with me at all. The kids are screaming and demanded to be alive...
So yes, I may be hard to reach but know that I'm trying to write ... yes my hands are total shit ... but I plan to try my best to listen to my body and take many breaks. I may not hit the 50, 000 goal but I'm going to write something. If it looks good I may bring back our star crossed ill fated love birds together in the end... one can hope...
For now be well - and should you join me ... well I'm not hard to find really. NANOWRIMO let your writer's voice be heard!
-Angelis
9/14/2018 AMA (Ask Me Anything) Catfox Edition
General | Posted 7 years agoI've decided to give this a try. I've got appointments on Friday so you'll have the whole day to ask me the things! This edition we will focus on questions geared towards the buttwinged beauty herself. Angelis the Catfox. AMA means ask her anything! I promise I'll try to answer any question given <3 <3 <3
Be excellent to each other!
Be excellent to each other!
2018 Happy New Year a little late
General | Posted 8 years agoDearest FA -
Hello friends and family here on FA! It's been awhile and like always it's due to health that usually keeps me away from you all. I've had a couple of road blocks health wise in January which put off some of my plans. However, I'm happy to tell you all that good things are on the horizon.
I mentioned in my December update that I was changing my profile here on FA and adjusting things. Tonight I've been working on folders to show off my characters as the family has grown a TON. I'm also behind on uploading images, so if I spam please forgive me.
Next up is I will be working on categorizing my traditional art sketches and acrylic paintings. Those are going to be moved to my Deviant Art account. I've also set up a Picarto acct so that I could stream my digital art progress when time allows.
The good news I wanted to share with you all is that I'm still going to art classes and progressing. I LOVE going to class and learning and the community involved. The next big thing is I'm saving up for a digital tablet so that I can learn digital art as well as my traditional so keep an eye for that. Other good news, my health is progressing and I will succeed. I've even got a physical trainer and go to the gym 2-3 times a week. I've regained a TON of mobility and strength and I am so excited and can't wait to show you guys how much your support has helped me.
Streaming should be happening right now I finally have the new headset, the microphone stand and even webcam. Now it's deciding what game to start with and what people want me to talk about while I stream. So feedback is welcome.
That's it for now, thank you everyone! I truly appreciate each and everyone one of you for the likes, favorites, comments, shouts, and notes. Y'all are great and please be excellent to each other.
Until we speak again,
-Angelis
Hello friends and family here on FA! It's been awhile and like always it's due to health that usually keeps me away from you all. I've had a couple of road blocks health wise in January which put off some of my plans. However, I'm happy to tell you all that good things are on the horizon.
I mentioned in my December update that I was changing my profile here on FA and adjusting things. Tonight I've been working on folders to show off my characters as the family has grown a TON. I'm also behind on uploading images, so if I spam please forgive me.
Next up is I will be working on categorizing my traditional art sketches and acrylic paintings. Those are going to be moved to my Deviant Art account. I've also set up a Picarto acct so that I could stream my digital art progress when time allows.
The good news I wanted to share with you all is that I'm still going to art classes and progressing. I LOVE going to class and learning and the community involved. The next big thing is I'm saving up for a digital tablet so that I can learn digital art as well as my traditional so keep an eye for that. Other good news, my health is progressing and I will succeed. I've even got a physical trainer and go to the gym 2-3 times a week. I've regained a TON of mobility and strength and I am so excited and can't wait to show you guys how much your support has helped me.
Streaming should be happening right now I finally have the new headset, the microphone stand and even webcam. Now it's deciding what game to start with and what people want me to talk about while I stream. So feedback is welcome.
That's it for now, thank you everyone! I truly appreciate each and everyone one of you for the likes, favorites, comments, shouts, and notes. Y'all are great and please be excellent to each other.
Until we speak again,
-Angelis
December Update & Changes to my Profile
General | Posted 8 years agoHello FA,
Long time no update right? So life is complicated as usual and I've decided to make some changes to my presence here on FA. Soon you will see a bit of a purge of art off of my gallery and scraps. This is due to the fact I'm moving these pieces over to DeviantArt. All of the pieces that I have commissioned of my OC's and the stories involving them will remain here. All personal art, traditional art etc. that is what will be going over to the new site.
So there is now a couple of places to find me. Twitch for when I feel froggy to play and chatter, Picarto for when I feel up to digital arting, Deviantart to see my progress in art school and painting, FA for all the stories and OC art and commissioned pieces.
Deviantart: https://theangelface.deviantart.com/
Picarto: https://picarto.tv/Stickfigures4life
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/angelfacegames
I want to thank you all so very much for your kindness and support. I've come a long way and it is partially because of the community you have given me. This holiday season I've had time to reflect on all the wonderful things I "HAVE" instead of worrying and bemoaning what I don't. So THANK YOU everyone - you ROCK!
The hareem that cheers me up with art and stories of our characters and the shenanigans, please keep these coming as they make me happy. The friends that send me notes and pictures of everyday things and stuff to keep me in the loop, I love this and keep them coming. The casual friend who pops on and leaves me a note or a comment, please keep these coming too. I may not be efficient with my responses but the time you take to reach out is impactful and brings me joy.
I have adopted a handful more characters and will be getting them posted asap, I also have plots for new stories involving all the current characters that needs to be worked on and will get them out to you as time allows. Plus, I am very behind on commissioned pieces and gifts that should be shared with you all. I apologize for being so slow.
Many of you have said "Hey what happened to all the twitch and other stuff?" Yeah I know I took forever and a day to replace my broken equipment. For Christmas I got a lovely new Microphone stand and pop filter, new graphics card, new monitor, new webcam.... Soooo that should pretty much mean SOOON all the things will start happening. Take heart!
Happy Holidays everyone and please remember to be excellent to each other!
Until we speak again,
-Angelis
Long time no update right? So life is complicated as usual and I've decided to make some changes to my presence here on FA. Soon you will see a bit of a purge of art off of my gallery and scraps. This is due to the fact I'm moving these pieces over to DeviantArt. All of the pieces that I have commissioned of my OC's and the stories involving them will remain here. All personal art, traditional art etc. that is what will be going over to the new site.
So there is now a couple of places to find me. Twitch for when I feel froggy to play and chatter, Picarto for when I feel up to digital arting, Deviantart to see my progress in art school and painting, FA for all the stories and OC art and commissioned pieces.
Deviantart: https://theangelface.deviantart.com/
Picarto: https://picarto.tv/Stickfigures4life
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/angelfacegames
I want to thank you all so very much for your kindness and support. I've come a long way and it is partially because of the community you have given me. This holiday season I've had time to reflect on all the wonderful things I "HAVE" instead of worrying and bemoaning what I don't. So THANK YOU everyone - you ROCK!
The hareem that cheers me up with art and stories of our characters and the shenanigans, please keep these coming as they make me happy. The friends that send me notes and pictures of everyday things and stuff to keep me in the loop, I love this and keep them coming. The casual friend who pops on and leaves me a note or a comment, please keep these coming too. I may not be efficient with my responses but the time you take to reach out is impactful and brings me joy.
I have adopted a handful more characters and will be getting them posted asap, I also have plots for new stories involving all the current characters that needs to be worked on and will get them out to you as time allows. Plus, I am very behind on commissioned pieces and gifts that should be shared with you all. I apologize for being so slow.
Many of you have said "Hey what happened to all the twitch and other stuff?" Yeah I know I took forever and a day to replace my broken equipment. For Christmas I got a lovely new Microphone stand and pop filter, new graphics card, new monitor, new webcam.... Soooo that should pretty much mean SOOON all the things will start happening. Take heart!
Happy Holidays everyone and please remember to be excellent to each other!
Until we speak again,
-Angelis
August 2017 Update
General | Posted 8 years agoHello everyone!
I hope that you are all doing well. I haven't updated in over 4 months mostly because I didn't have the words to say what needed to be said. Figuratively, when I get really quiet it usually means I am very sick and not enough spoons to even keep people updated. Now with that said let's get on with the update right?
I spent most of June in the hospital and of course had to register with the oncology center and to be honest once I received that letter I lost hope for a moment, I lost my positivity for a moment, I just was lost. Throughout this situation I tried to come to terms with everything and look at it with proper perspective. This was a challenge.
During this time there has been countless doctor visits and tests and options and blah blah blah etc. In the end my decisions are to continue to treat the RA and chemo every 4 months and the rest is ... what it is. I choose to fight, survive, and dance the days away.
So I may not be super active here, do expect an art dump both commissioned and my paintings, and do expect to start seeing me slowly get back to being social. I am also playing video games again which means when my voice stabilizes I will stream and share with you all.
Your kindness and support have been huge with me, I am very lucky to have found this community and you wonderful peeps who have kept me feeling good and positive and given me strength to do what needs doing. Thank you all so very very much.
Be excellent to each other,
-Angelis
I hope that you are all doing well. I haven't updated in over 4 months mostly because I didn't have the words to say what needed to be said. Figuratively, when I get really quiet it usually means I am very sick and not enough spoons to even keep people updated. Now with that said let's get on with the update right?
I spent most of June in the hospital and of course had to register with the oncology center and to be honest once I received that letter I lost hope for a moment, I lost my positivity for a moment, I just was lost. Throughout this situation I tried to come to terms with everything and look at it with proper perspective. This was a challenge.
During this time there has been countless doctor visits and tests and options and blah blah blah etc. In the end my decisions are to continue to treat the RA and chemo every 4 months and the rest is ... what it is. I choose to fight, survive, and dance the days away.
So I may not be super active here, do expect an art dump both commissioned and my paintings, and do expect to start seeing me slowly get back to being social. I am also playing video games again which means when my voice stabilizes I will stream and share with you all.
Your kindness and support have been huge with me, I am very lucky to have found this community and you wonderful peeps who have kept me feeling good and positive and given me strength to do what needs doing. Thank you all so very very much.
Be excellent to each other,
-Angelis
