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Posted 11 years agoOne of the hardest parts about getting work done is not having any air conditioner. I hope that someday I can afford to move somewhere nicer with some ac or something. Every time I try to draw I end up with a pool of sweat on my legs. (I have a crappy desk so I draw with my tablet in my lap)
The nibs of my tablet pen have been MELTING at the tip. Luckily I have replacement ones but it's horrifying to see.
I've been taking 2-3 cold showers daily and have felt generally lethargic. I can't wait until summer is over. >:[
The nibs of my tablet pen have been MELTING at the tip. Luckily I have replacement ones but it's horrifying to see.
I've been taking 2-3 cold showers daily and have felt generally lethargic. I can't wait until summer is over. >:[
I'm back. I'm sorry.
Posted 11 years agoDoes anyone remember me?
I just left everyone, just like that.
Well... why?
I guess I gave up. On life. On everything. I hated myself. I couldn't draw. I didn't forget how, I just couldn't. I put my pen to the paper, and everything was wrong. I felt sick. I couldn't draw for more than 10 minutes at a time without feeling like my stomach was going to explode. I hated what I was doing, and I hated that I hated it.
I took on too many things to do at once and couldn't fulfill any of them. People trusted me and cared for me and were patient with me, and I did nothing. I ran away.
Throughout my life, all I've ever done is give up and run away when I was too scared to take care of my problems. I'm not a good person.
I've been suffering from depression my whole life but in the past few years it's gotten really bad and hasn't been improving.
I'm borderline anorexic. Every little problem keeps me awake at night. I can't fall asleep and when I do, I can't wake up. I sleep 12+ hours in the day.
I struggle to do daily things like feed myself and take a shower. No energy. Nothing.
I've been trying everything I can to find myself. To find happiness and joy again. To enjoy the one passion I thought I had.
I don't know what happened to me.
I suddenly stopped being myself.
All of my inner demons just took hold of me and told me that I was nothing. That I could do nothing.
I'm looking into getting therapy, maybe some medication. When I can. It's complicated.
It's like, I need to do something, but in order to do that thing, I have to do several other things, and in order to do those things, I have to do several other other things. I've been feeling like I'm starring at the biggest mountain I've ever seen and somehow have to figure out how to climb it.
I want to show that I'm sorry to everyone and myself, but I don't know how.
Maybe the first step is to stop running away.
---
I finally got my FA account back. If you are owed a commission and haven't contacted me yet please contact me at kittensarethebestmedicine[at]gmail.com
I'm very sorry for those who I troubled. I promise I'm working hard to get better. I will be working every day until I get what I need done. I'll never disappear like this again unless I'm actually dead or something.
I just left everyone, just like that.
Well... why?
I guess I gave up. On life. On everything. I hated myself. I couldn't draw. I didn't forget how, I just couldn't. I put my pen to the paper, and everything was wrong. I felt sick. I couldn't draw for more than 10 minutes at a time without feeling like my stomach was going to explode. I hated what I was doing, and I hated that I hated it.
I took on too many things to do at once and couldn't fulfill any of them. People trusted me and cared for me and were patient with me, and I did nothing. I ran away.
Throughout my life, all I've ever done is give up and run away when I was too scared to take care of my problems. I'm not a good person.
I've been suffering from depression my whole life but in the past few years it's gotten really bad and hasn't been improving.
I'm borderline anorexic. Every little problem keeps me awake at night. I can't fall asleep and when I do, I can't wake up. I sleep 12+ hours in the day.
I struggle to do daily things like feed myself and take a shower. No energy. Nothing.
I've been trying everything I can to find myself. To find happiness and joy again. To enjoy the one passion I thought I had.
I don't know what happened to me.
I suddenly stopped being myself.
All of my inner demons just took hold of me and told me that I was nothing. That I could do nothing.
I'm looking into getting therapy, maybe some medication. When I can. It's complicated.
It's like, I need to do something, but in order to do that thing, I have to do several other things, and in order to do those things, I have to do several other other things. I've been feeling like I'm starring at the biggest mountain I've ever seen and somehow have to figure out how to climb it.
I want to show that I'm sorry to everyone and myself, but I don't know how.
Maybe the first step is to stop running away.
---
I finally got my FA account back. If you are owed a commission and haven't contacted me yet please contact me at kittensarethebestmedicine[at]gmail.com
I'm very sorry for those who I troubled. I promise I'm working hard to get better. I will be working every day until I get what I need done. I'll never disappear like this again unless I'm actually dead or something.
Commission list: Reposting
Posted 13 years agoNot really ordered since I do everything sporadically.
IF YOU ARE NOT ON THIS BUT SHOULD BE LIST PLEASE SEND ME A PM. I LOST MOST OF MY PMS SOMEHOW, NOT SURE WHY.
1. [Confidential]
2.
vanillacrepe -30%
3.
kaiizree - 60% complete
4.
Jadlardia
5.
Zippo
6.
Venicethehedgehog
7.
Jimperator
8.
shade1111
9.
potistheron
10.
kalu
11.
linck
12.
mizrik
13. [E-C-Lover from DA]
14. [AMMONAL DA]
15. [A guy from Youtube]
16. [VeggieBad on DA]
IF YOU ARE NOT ON THIS BUT SHOULD BE LIST PLEASE SEND ME A PM. I LOST MOST OF MY PMS SOMEHOW, NOT SURE WHY.
1. [Confidential]
2.
vanillacrepe -30%3.
kaiizree - 60% complete4.
Jadlardia5.
Zippo6.
Venicethehedgehog7.
Jimperator8.
shade11119.
potistheron10.
kalu11.
linck12.
mizrik13. [E-C-Lover from DA]
14. [AMMONAL DA]
15. [A guy from Youtube]
16. [VeggieBad on DA]
My brother's girlfriend died.
Posted 13 years agoMy brother is heart broken, and it really hurts to see how he's affected by this.
Ashley had a bloodclot on her brain, and she died in her sleep a few days ago.
She couldn't get better because she couldn't afford to get better. Hospital bills are expensive.
In her death, she has left her two young children. No, my brother is not their father, he was taking care of them when Ashley and him were together.
But now by law the children must go to the father, which is terrible. The father abused Ashley, which is why she left him. He was a bad person and I'm upset that it's happening this way.
My brother will not be able to take care of these children any longer and he will never see the girl he fought so hard for any more.
It hurts, because, as much as I love my brother I know there's nothing I can do to help him. We had a hard time when our Grandpa died of cancer several months ago, after the years of struggling we saw him go through. But I did not know Ashley like he did, and he is suffering more than anyone else.
My heart hurts for this girl, but more than ever it hurts for him.
Right now my family and Ashley's both do not have enough money to afford a proper funeral.
I don't normally ask for money for free, but as my tablet is broken, and I have no way of doing commissions, if anyone could donate a couple of dollars my brother and I would greatly appreciate it.
http://www.indiegogo.com/Ashley-Nicole-Folken
You can donate even as small as $1.
If you can't donate at all- that's fine, but maybe spread the word if you could?
I'm already asking my mom to spend any money she was going to on me for my birthday on the funeral for my brother.
I don't want a birthday present, I just want to bring as much peace to my poor brother as I possibly can.
Thank you for reading.
Ashley had a bloodclot on her brain, and she died in her sleep a few days ago.
She couldn't get better because she couldn't afford to get better. Hospital bills are expensive.
In her death, she has left her two young children. No, my brother is not their father, he was taking care of them when Ashley and him were together.
But now by law the children must go to the father, which is terrible. The father abused Ashley, which is why she left him. He was a bad person and I'm upset that it's happening this way.
My brother will not be able to take care of these children any longer and he will never see the girl he fought so hard for any more.
It hurts, because, as much as I love my brother I know there's nothing I can do to help him. We had a hard time when our Grandpa died of cancer several months ago, after the years of struggling we saw him go through. But I did not know Ashley like he did, and he is suffering more than anyone else.
My heart hurts for this girl, but more than ever it hurts for him.
Right now my family and Ashley's both do not have enough money to afford a proper funeral.
I don't normally ask for money for free, but as my tablet is broken, and I have no way of doing commissions, if anyone could donate a couple of dollars my brother and I would greatly appreciate it.
http://www.indiegogo.com/Ashley-Nicole-Folken
You can donate even as small as $1.
If you can't donate at all- that's fine, but maybe spread the word if you could?
I'm already asking my mom to spend any money she was going to on me for my birthday on the funeral for my brother.
I don't want a birthday present, I just want to bring as much peace to my poor brother as I possibly can.
Thank you for reading.
My cat had kittens today- with some complications
Posted 14 years agoShe had 5, but one was still born. :( There were some complications...
She only broke the outer lining on one of her kittens, I had to manually pop the rest open and wash their faces so they could breathe. At one point she decided she wasn't happy with her bedding and left her kittens there- so I drastically threw together a new box for her and she's currently content with it.
I waited a while and the mother didn't want to do anything about the placentas, so I snipped them off myself, going off of guides online.
One has gimpy arms that are like a T-rex, he moves like he is trying to swim/dig... he can't stimulate his mothers nipples to get milk out of them :( I tried very hard to get him to feed by squeezing the nipples and holding his head next to it... not much luck. I bought some formula and an eye-dropper... (Actually spent the recent commisison money I got from FBW- thanks guys!) - tried feeding him that but he didn't seem to want it, I had to manually open it's mouth (my hands were shaking like crazy).. I've never done this before and am very worried. I've spent my entire day supervising these kittens.
Right now I'm trying my best to leave the mother alone while she naps, I put some food in her box that she ate very quickly, and a cup full of water that she lapped up- thankfully.
Anyway, I'm worried about little Rex, I hope he can survive. He is the runt of the group, and with arms that don't seem to work properly he is going to have a tough time.
I was planning on finishing some commissions today but the kitten birth caught me by surprise (I thought it wouldn't happen for at least 2 more weeks...)
I'm so stressed out right now but I'm hoping to get some work done tonight anyway. This is my first kitten birth- hopefully I will be able to afford to get her fixed soon so this doesn't happen again. I admit I love kittens, but finding home for these guys will be an issue... I definitely wasn't ready to go through this today!
She only broke the outer lining on one of her kittens, I had to manually pop the rest open and wash their faces so they could breathe. At one point she decided she wasn't happy with her bedding and left her kittens there- so I drastically threw together a new box for her and she's currently content with it.
I waited a while and the mother didn't want to do anything about the placentas, so I snipped them off myself, going off of guides online.
One has gimpy arms that are like a T-rex, he moves like he is trying to swim/dig... he can't stimulate his mothers nipples to get milk out of them :( I tried very hard to get him to feed by squeezing the nipples and holding his head next to it... not much luck. I bought some formula and an eye-dropper... (Actually spent the recent commisison money I got from FBW- thanks guys!) - tried feeding him that but he didn't seem to want it, I had to manually open it's mouth (my hands were shaking like crazy).. I've never done this before and am very worried. I've spent my entire day supervising these kittens.
Right now I'm trying my best to leave the mother alone while she naps, I put some food in her box that she ate very quickly, and a cup full of water that she lapped up- thankfully.
Anyway, I'm worried about little Rex, I hope he can survive. He is the runt of the group, and with arms that don't seem to work properly he is going to have a tough time.
I was planning on finishing some commissions today but the kitten birth caught me by surprise (I thought it wouldn't happen for at least 2 more weeks...)
I'm so stressed out right now but I'm hoping to get some work done tonight anyway. This is my first kitten birth- hopefully I will be able to afford to get her fixed soon so this doesn't happen again. I admit I love kittens, but finding home for these guys will be an issue... I definitely wasn't ready to go through this today!
Anyone use Inkbunny?
Posted 14 years agoI just started using mine that's been abandoned for an entire year, so if you want to add me I'm here: https://inkbunny.net/Angel
Also I found out they allow humans now, just not in a pornographic manner. :P
Also I found out they allow humans now, just not in a pornographic manner. :P
Dan Green is a furry...
Posted 14 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TNFFmFOwnY
Listen towards the end, totally worth it.
Also, NSFW sounds. If you want to find the actual porn video- that's up to you.
Listen towards the end, totally worth it.
Also, NSFW sounds. If you want to find the actual porn video- that's up to you.
Cub arts + Inkbunny
Posted 15 years agohttp://inkbunny.net/Angel
I has an inkbunny...rarely use it. But I will use it to post commissions that are inappropriate for here. So you can add me there if you are interested in such or if you commissioned me there.
Also hope you all had a great Thanksgiving.
I has an inkbunny...rarely use it. But I will use it to post commissions that are inappropriate for here. So you can add me there if you are interested in such or if you commissioned me there.
Also hope you all had a great Thanksgiving.
