Yep, I'm going back to college.
Tiny issue, is that while I'm getting a grant I am also still getting a loan.
A loan that is more than what I make in a year for a year.

SO The plan is to hopefully put away $20 a week so when I graduate I can pay it off within the grace period.

I will be accepting points for commissions
I will be holding a raffle for every $20 I make!

☆ RAFFLE GOAL POINTS ☆

Only people who watch me will be in the raffle

☆ B&W Sketch
☆ Color Sketch
☆ Bust
☆ Pagedoll
☆ Chibi
☆ Painterly Chibi
☆ Single Character
☆ Painterly Character
☆ Couple
☆ Wallpaper
☆ Painterly Wallpaper
and
☆ Repeat ☆

WON'T DRAW:

-Zombies (unless they're sexy or badass)
-Robots
-Cityscapes
-Watersports/Scat
-Actual Rape/Non-consensual
-My characters with yours sexually (unless it's a lovely lady they approve of)
-Offensive targeting things (racism, hate, religious-bashing, iffy types of gore)
-Child porn
-Anything I find uncomfortable (I will let you know)

SO I got accepted. I applied for financial aid it's still pending. I just paid $200 to secure my spot but REALLY just so I could see the status of my financial aid. Which is stupid. Either let me know, or don't. Don't make me spend $200 just to know in general. Orientation is on Friday and next Friday is some other transfer student stuff that's supposed to hopefully help. If I don't get it in time though, chances are I'm gonna freak out and bounce unless someone constantly reassures me that it's okay to make payments and helps me with it. I didn't even add classes yet since I'm still in panic mode. I'm gonna be in panic mode until this is all set. Chances are Brian will take care of me, but that still doesn't stop my anxiety from freaking me the fuck out.

So if I get mad or whatever, it's not really you. It's my anxiety. It's super high right now.

I tried to submit them here, but they kept rotating the pics.

SO INSTEAD HERE ARE SOME LINKS
COME MEET TED

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I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER TO SOUTHERN CONNECTICUT STATE UNIVERSITY WOOOOOOOO

I didn't think I'd actually get in because they only accept certain grades/gpa levels and let's face it.... depression is the worst motivator to make you do anything. Some classes I got Ds (science....) I also didn't do as well my last semester at HCC because of my seizures. BUT I WAS ACCEPTED ANYWAYS! YEAAAAAAH

So haveta finish the financial aid stuff, hopefully I'll get it all done in time, and be able to sign up and take classes. I'm both excited and terrified.
I've had friends who went to both Community College and Universities.... Universities are way different and more impersonal, and let's face it, I am very personal. People who went to the Universities liked the Communities better (by like, a way lot).
But it's mostly tuition that I'm worried about.

Quickly followed by books. Buuut I've gotten around that issue before, so not THAT worried about it.

Super hoping I do it all in time D: <3333

So my dumbass agreed to help with a new project. Poke fangame.

So there will probably be a lot of designs or some whatever....
Of course I won't be working alone, because I agreed, but also because I wouldn't know wtf to do and would probably drop it after a week or 2 because I'd feel useless or some other.

But I will be doing some of the designs, most of the art work, help with some of the spriting (maybe). Chances are I will probably just get bored enough to just do some of the designs, help with the story, names, places, ect and just do the basic artwork and let someone else run off with the designs and do the spriting and blowing life into them.

Don't know the rest of the official stuff, but we're still stuck on the ground and might lift off in... I give it a month or 4 before someone starts to actually code shit.

ALSO WE GOT A NEW ADDITION TO OUR FAMILY

We got a new puppy!
His name is Teddy.
He's a bichon/maltese mix.
He's very vocal. Especially about someone leaving the room. in general...
He has what I call puppy time (bursts of energy and extreme playfulness)
My dad got him a stuffed red dinosaur (stegosaurus), he loves it (it might be his new security bear).
He gets along very well with Cody (my other dog baby).
Sadly I do occasionally have to send him off the bed to go play with his dinosaur so he'll leave Cody to Cody time (sleeping/resting).
I tell him to "show that dinosaur who's boss!" and he does that doggy head killer shake thing xD <333
He is mouthing, but is very gentle with it (we're still training him of course).
Yes I will post pictures of him, and not just some random: LOOKIT HIM! but more of serious photography stuff.... probably mostly sleeping though.

He's a cute baby and a wonderful addition to our family. He does sleep with us, and him and Cody do have their own side of the bed (of course).

Please remember, I am friendly and I do like people talking at me if it's friendly and encouraging. I mean talking at, since sometimes I won't reply cause idk how to since I love what said person said so much that whatever I say back simply won't be enough or show how much I appreciate them and their kind words. I suck. But I do adore you guys and all your support!

Just go read it, it's beautiful

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My cousin is gonna come over soonish (this week) to braid my hair. I'm gonna keep gettin my hurr braided until I'm done swimming. Just a lil warning so no one freaks out :D Cause I'm super serious about progress pics! Once a week! But I need you guys' help D: Cause I work a lil jerb that just barely pays my bills.

I'm not yet there, but I'm gettin there :3



Still taking commissions, everyone who buys a commission to help out I'll throw in a surprise bonus!

Any and all help is appreciated!
Please remember I'm willing to take paypal, snail mail USD, and money orders :3
If you don't want a commission, but still wanna help, please spread the word, or just donate to me please!

You guys are awesome

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Remember you're amazing! Someone cares about you! You're awesome!

Still taking commissions, everyone who buys a commission to help out I'll throw in a surprise bonus!

Any and all help is appreciated!
Please remember I'm willing to take paypal, snail mail USD, and money orders :3
If you don't want a commission, but still wanna help, please spread the word, or just donate to me please!

You guys are awesome

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Remember you're amazing! Someone cares about you! You're awesome!

Some people are probably wondering a LOT about why I want to lose weight when I support love, body love, ALL love, do not judge based on weight or anything like that. I just love and support people.

I am mad at myself. Not because I got bigger, absolutely not. I don't care about that, I do love me and I do love how my other supports and loves me and doesn't think I'm overweight or heavy or anything like that.

I'm mad that I let people, family, get to me. I'm mad that I can't fit into my favorite clothes. I'm mad that I can't find a T-shirt in the chick section of a store that FITS me! That isn't like $30. I like guy clothes more than half the time, but when I go shopping I don't want that to be my only option, especially if the rest of it fits me fine, just one part is really really tight. Like uncomfortable, just: Nope, fuck that. Even if I try to stretch out the sleeves. I'm mad when I go to put on pants that fit me JUST LAST WEEK and they stop as they're getting to my thighs. That all of a sudden some pants won't reach across my body so I can button them.

I have pants that range from size 6-18. I keep giving away clothes that don't fit me, because I can't fuckin wear them! I have them cause I like them, but I can't fit in them anymore! Of course some pants still fit and women's pant sizes amount to shit. At one point I was wearing size 4-10 and they all fit perfectly. At one point I fit into a 00. Yeah, that's a size; and at the same time I fit into a size 6.

So I'm not mad at the size numbers (all the time), I'm mad that I can't fit them! Because of that my choices in pants are really small. I have a LOT, but I can only fit in so much. That and I'm really mad at my thighs rubbing together. That's mostly been an issue, but now I can't wear shorts without my legs hurting when I walk. I do not like that. It's hotter than balls and I'd like to be cool.

I'm also sick of my family giving me grief about it and comparing me to my 15 year old self..... seriously. I was 15. You want me 20 something whatever to look like I did in sophmore year? You're talking shit about my body because I don't look like I did nearly 8 years ago????

I don't care about looking like my 15 year old self. I really fuckin don't. I have more stretch marks, some are angry lookin, yeah they make me self conscious, but apparently when I take pics they don't show up. So whatever.

I just want people to leave me alone and stop talkin shit about me needing to lose weight.
Starting a conversation with: Wow! Babe, you need to lose some weight.
Is not awesome. It's not cool. It's really not nice, it's pretty rude. I know once I lose weight I'll have to work on another thing they'll find, but at least I'll be able to fit into clothes I already own and be able to pay for other things I need and the rudeness with drop a notch or 4.

So far I got a donation and talk of saving up for commissions.

I'm still not sure what those people want, but I'm still taking commissions.
I'm excited about the prospects to be able to exercise!


Any and all help is appreciated!
Please remember I'm willing to take paypal, snail mail USD, and money orders :3
If you don't want a commission, but still wanna help, please spread the word, or just donate to me please!

Thank you <333

To me this is funny. If you are this type of customer, please stop. By closing time, means everything is taken care of at that time, the registers are down, not you can come in AS LONG AS YOU GET THERE BY THAT TIME!

So yesterday I'm at work (please remember I only work nights so I'm closing) and I go to lock up the door :D It's 8:57pm, we close at 9pm. 9pm the registers are shut down, we cannot help anyone at 9pm. There are no registers to ring people up.

I already made the announcement that we were closing soon, I already rang out all the other people, I already did ALL THE THINGS.

I lock the door, go in the back to get my backpack, put it up front and go pick some things that I would have liked to buy if it were less busy for myself.
I hear a loud thunky CLANG CLANG CLANG.

I locked both doors, wtf is that?
IT'S A PAIR OF CUSTOMERS 8D Who somehow got through the first locked door. The 1st door's lock is still in 'lock mode' as I'm gonna call it.
So they're pulling the doors as HARD as they can trying to get in!

They smile and are liek: IT'S NOT 9 O'CLOCK YET! OUR PHONE SAYS IT'S NOT 9 O'CLOCK! OPEN THE DOOR!
Their phone says it's 8:59pm.
And I'm like: What? No. It's like 9, the registers are down at 9, I can't.
I take out my ipod to look at the seconds >.>
Them: SHOW US YOUR PHONE! IT DOESN'T SAY 9
So I show them my ipod, and go to unlock it to show them the seconds, by the time I do that, it's 9pm
Them: YOU CHANGED THE TIME ON YOUR PHONE!
Me: What??? xD (I laughed.... a lot.) It's 9! No, we're closed!
My laughing made them so mad xD I couldn't help it.
-current night manager comes to take the monies-
Them: IS THAT YOUR MANAGER!?
Me: Yeah
Them: WE WANNA TALK TO HER >:C
Me: Kaaaay~ -goes tell her they wanna talk to her-
She goes to tell them no, and they flip out because they were told no
I stop paying attention, cause I'm still laughing. They threaten to call and tell on us FOR DOING OUR JOB.

That's what happened :D That's how I got 'in trouble' cause I laughed at their stupidity. I laughed... so hard.
I was both amused and annoyed at being yelled at, for doing my job.

Guys I currently cannot afford a membership to the YMCA, but I really want/need it.

It's the only place in walking distance with a pool, which cause of my boobs and health, swimming is the only form of exercise (besides yoga) that I'm comfortable with. Most other workouts hurt my boobs/back, or I run out of breath quickly (asthma).
I don't have any friends with a pool (nearby) or open.
I am trying very hard to lose weight for health and self image reasons.

I wanna be happy and proud of me! I have my on/off days, but I was happier when I weighed less, and I ruin my day every time I step on a scale or look in a mirror on my off days.

SUPPORT MY WEIGHT LOSS! HELP SUPPORT ME!

I do commissions, and I'm open to other pieces that aren't on my price sheet.
Any and all help is appreciated! If you don't want a commission, but still wanna help, please spread this, the word, or just donate to me please!

I'm willing to take paypal, snail mail USD, and money orders!

I'll post pics of my progress bi weekly until I hit a weight I'm happy with :3 -if this goes well-

PLEASE AND THANK YOU BABES!!!!

Because I'm not a dick and know some people just won't look.



I've recently added and changed some prices, and in about a month the prices will go up.
Prices will go up anywhere from $5 - $20 at least.

There was a minor change to my tos, but any change is a change.

You'll notice a ' * ' next to "all transactions are final"
because there are few circumstances to get a refund, and some people flip out when you can't just 'get one'.
Some people feel like they can be scammed because of it and honestly it's for my protection of assets more than the commissioners.
I admit this, and I'm not ashamed or embarrassed by it.

So my parents are getting divorced. My dad is a wreck. I'm a daddy's girl.
He has access to guns and I am worried for him. As bitchy as she is, she makes him happy.

So this is wrecking me internally since I feel that it's not my place to say anything since it's not my relationship.
idk what she wants.
But somehow she told my dad that getting a divorce would make her happy. I don't know anything other than that.
If they'll stay together, just be friends, or just show up at family functions together... if that.
idk.


Not even 24 hours after I show them my wedding dress. Woo, go team...

Nothing super terrible that's held me up, just life. Work has given me more hours, but I also have other errands to do and favors to do and the like.
Brian's sister is having a baby, the shower is on Saturday and then my mom wants us to go visit family in New York :T

I've just been busy, I haven't even been playing my game.

The heat/humidity makes it hard to go to sleep, then it makes it hard to wake up,
so by the time I wake up, I have an hour to get ready for work...
Then my mom likes to leave a few hours early for IDK why! But I'm usually an hour early for work.

So yeah... that's been a thing.

That and some minor depression of idk wtf you guys like about my art and idk what to improve on or who to draw and I'm floatin with no directions.
Normally I don't care, I do my own thing, but I do like hearing feedback, kinda, and then I decide whether or not to focus on that or the opposite of that. It just makes me feel nice BI

That and my tummy... it's got some squish... and my upper arms too..... not a fan.
Until the stupid credit card is paid off I don't wanna go to the Y, so that means I can't swim it off.
I wanna swim, doing laps is like my favorite thing to do in the pool. and it's not even doing laps (to me)
It's just racing... repeatedly... until they're laps >3>

Some poor self image things, lack of self love goin on. It's a thing and it makes it hard to art and idk why >:C

But you guys can help try to fix it if you want. Not gonna stop you. Criticism n stuff will be ignored cause... no.

Totally stole this from  chargirl5000

I would like you guys to answer these things so I can work on it, and consider them :3
That and now I need to know/dying of curiosity. Please, answer :3


Sooo what is it that made you watch me?


What about my art do you like?


What do you dislike?


What do you want me to try to do?


What do you want to see more of?


What do you want to see less of?


Which of my characters do you want to see more of?


Do you want me to reuse poses for different characters, but not make them ych's/tcby?


-other- (feel free to say or suggest anything else)

There's a group contest on dA that has $50+ art prizes!
Yes I am one of the art people :3

So if you have a dA, feel free to join the group and enter the contest <333

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I just noticed the time! I am arting, it's a ref, that's why it's taking so much time. I will post it as soon as I'm done with it though c: And it does NOT count as tmro's art piece, cause why would it?

I've been trying to do one art piece a day. So far, so good. Even sketches are acceptable. Until I finish the .//hack series, it might just continue to be sketches unless I'm taking a break for whatever reason.

I know that I am not infinite in having ideas, but I do accept suggestions! I also do fanart! of things I like/watch/read. I will leave a kinda list at the bottom of things I might consider doing fanart of.

PLEASE SUGGEST THINGS! -this is in NO way free commissions or requests-

Just leave a comment below and if I like it or end up needing, I might draw it or be inspired and base it off the idea. For some who don't know me very well, that might mean I looked at it, liked it a lot, and something TOTALLY different happened. But I will still thank you and mention you for helping me make the piece, through brain power.


FANART MAYBES -short list-
Please remember I prefer to draw women
Feel free to suggest something you think I know/might like not on the list

Harry Potter
Inuyasha
Pokemon
Adventure Time
Disney things
Dreamworks movies
Pixar movies
Fooly Cooly
Boomerang Cartoons/Hanna Barbera cartoons
Batman
Studio Ghibli
Wicked
Rocky Horror Picture Show
Creamsicle
Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt

I have a bad habit of making journals at night and I forget to post to both dA and FA, but I don't forget to post art at least.

I will be making a shorter journal for my page in a moment.

Yeah. You know how I said I'd be doing that gaming marathon and then shit happened!?

Well I decided I wanted to finish play more anyways since it was popping up in my dreams. This game. invades. my. dreams.

SO! Just finished the story part for part for .//hack Quarantine. After I finish the bonus shit (if I ever finish it, I should though), I get to start the GU series. More excited since I was able to flag save, meaning I'm able to bring content, ect over from previous games. Not sure how that'll work though... kinda mad at my play time though since I know at some point I DID leave it on to just chill there so I didn't lose saving stuff since I don't remember what happened,but I couldn't save so some hours were added on making it over 100 hours of play time. So not sure how that'll mess up bonus content in the GU series or if it'll let me restart basically with Haseo.

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ALSO I've been trying to do one art piece a day. So far, so good. Even sketches are acceptable. Yesterday was annoying since I got on while maintenance was going on, I was sad. But thankfully I got on near the end of the thing so I didn't have to wait that long to post. Until I finish the .//hack series, it might just continue to be sketches unless I'm taking a break for whatever reason. 3 3/4 done, 4 more to go (CAUSE BONUS CONTENT)!

I know that I am not infinite in having ideas, but I do accept suggestions! I also do fanart! of things I like/watch/read. I will leave a kinda list at the bottom of things I might consider doing fanart of.

PLEASE SUGGEST THINGS! -this is in NO way free commissions or requests-

Just leave a comment below and if I like it or end up needing, I might draw it or be inspired and base it off the idea. For some who don't know me very well, that might mean I looked at it, liked it a lot, and something TOTALLY different happened. But I will still thank you and mention you for helping me make the piece, through brain power.



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Yeah. You know how I said I'd be doing that gaming marathon and then shit happened!?

Well I decided I wanted to finish play more anyways since it was popping up in my dreams. This game. invades. my. dreams.

SO! Just finished the story part for part for .//hack Quarantine. After I finish the bonus shit (if I ever finish it, I should though), I get to start the GU series. More excited since I was able to flag save, meaning I'm able to bring content, ect over from previous games. Not sure how that'll work though... kinda mad at my play time though since I know at some point I DID leave it on to just chill there so I didn't lose saving stuff since I don't remember what happened,but I couldn't save so some hours were added on making it over 100 hours of play time. So not sure how that'll mess up bonus content in the GU series or if it'll let me restart basically with Haseo.

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ALSO I've been trying to do one art piece a day. So far, so good. Even sketches are acceptable. Yesterday was annoying since I got on while maintenance was going on, I was sad. But thankfully I got on near the end of the thing so I didn't have to wait that long to post. Until I finish the .//hack series, it might just continue to be sketches unless I'm taking a break for whatever reason. 3 3/4 done, 4 more to go (CAUSE BONUS CONTENT)!

I know that I am not infinite in having ideas, but I do accept suggestions! I also do fanart! of things I like/watch/read. I will leave a kinda list at the bottom of things I might consider doing fanart of.

PLEASE SUGGEST THINGS! -this is in NO way free commissions or requests-

Just leave a comment below and if I like it or end up needing, I might draw it or be inspired and base it off the idea. For some who don't know me very well, that might mean I looked at it, liked it a lot, and something TOTALLY different happened. But I will still thank you and mention you for helping me make the piece, through brain power.


FANART MAYBES -short list-
Please remember I prefer to draw women
Feel free to suggest something you think I know/might like not on the list

Harry Potter
Inuyasha
Pokemon
Adventure Time
Disney things
Dreamworks movies
Pixar movies
Fooly Cooly
Boomerang Cartoons/Hanna Barbera cartoons
Batman
Studio Ghibli
Wicked
Rocky Horror Picture Show
Creamsicle
Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt

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Come join me lalalaalaaaa

So I disappeared for while cause I was playing awesome stuffs and yelling at people and the tv for the past few days with my bestie :D

We were playing Mario Party 2, among other games, but we gamed for about 12 hours straight yelling at each other. It was amazing and I'm barely sorry for not arting.