Hi there!

It's been quite time since my last update or drawing shared.
I'm still practicing my drawing skills everyday. Improving my characters design. But i still feel that i didn't improve enough. I think i'm in a some kind of loop.. but i think i'm getting somewhere, i think i'm reaching what i'm looking for.

And life is getting quite hard. Me being a caretaker (of my family) it's difficult to handle.
I'm trying my best to keep drawing and not loosing my motivations and passion for art. Maybe soon things will get better, or worse, who knows. I'm giving my best to keep a positive actitude.
It's just hard.. my situation, feeling alone, having noone to just talk and chill, everyone just moved foward away..
But that's part of life i guess.

I will keep giving my best to someday reach my goals and start sharing more drawings again like before, i really miss those days, you can't imagine how much i miss those days.



For all of you still being there, thanks. Thanks for being so patience. Maybe some people just give up on me and i can understand why perfectly..
But i will keep walking and moving foward, even if this path is just lonely. Sorry for the vent.

Hello and sorry for the hiatus.

I'm planning on coming back sharing my drawings again. I've been drawing and practicing but.. i feel they aren't good enough yet.

I hope this Xmas feeling help me to cheer up and give it a try again.
See you soon! (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

Happy new year from Canary Islands!
🎊🎉🥳🎉🎊🎉🥳🎉🎊🎉🥳🎉🎊

I really hope this years comes with all of new experiences and happy moments for all of you!

I really hope you had a beautiful Christmas eve and i wish for you to have wonderful Hollidays!!

If i get it in time, i will do a Christmas drawing soon!

[English]
I have another code for Bluesky 🔵☁️ !!
Let me know in the comments if you want it.

[Español]
¡Tengo otro código para Bluesky 🔵☁️ !
Decidme en los comentarios si os interesa.

Hello!
I have a code for bsky. Anyone interested?

I have my ¡Cielito Azul! (BSky) at last quq

Thanks to for the code quq

Let me know your @ to follow you too!! (Only mutuals pls)

~ https://bsky.app/profile/aniadawson.bsky.social
~ https://bsky.app/profile/aniadawson.bsky.social
~ https://bsky.app/profile/aniadawson.bsky.social

Hello~

Long time not sharing any drawings.. Well, i've been feeling kinda lost and down all this time.

I wanted to take some time to clear up my mind and recover of.. things.. So, if everything keeps going well enough maybe i will be able to go back to my "silly-loving" drawings. I think i have prepared my boys to come back.. i only need the strengh to start making drawings of them.

It's been 7 or 8 years since i started sharing what i do. My illusions, the boys (my male OC) that made me.. keep going on life.
I'm just so afraid of everything getting all wrong again.. i'm still afraid of those people that hurt me could be still out there.. ready to bring back all the "Your male ocs are too good to be straight, or to love a woman like you"
And i kept changing them.. changing their designs, to understand what makes those people behave like that.

At the same time, i feel very sad to feel unable to show to you, the good people out there that cheer me up.
I want.. to come back, i want to feel strong again, i want to keep making what i love.. what fullfill my emptyness.
So yes.. if everything keeps geting better, i will be more than happy to show you all what i've been making, to present you my all reborn "husbandos" (kinda silly word xD but i still like it)

~ So well.. if you reached to this end thank you so much for reading, and let me know what you think in the comment sections. I'm so eager to read and talk with all of you.
Even if i'm not a "big artist" i'm happy to have you, so if you are still there.. thank you.

Let's see how it goes this month! nwn)/

If you are interested, here is the link for the Commission price page.
-> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51671819/

Do you want me keep sharing WIPs (Work in progress) of what i'm working on?

Or wait until it's finished? (If i finish it..)

Merry Christmas everyone!! I hope you have a wonderful christmas eve.

Don't eat too much or you will end with a stomach ache.

So yes, i created a profile on Itaku. Looks pretty cool, i like the design and how the page works :3 I don't know if something is going to happen to Twitter, but at least Itaku works pretty similar like Twitter.

If you want you can follow me there too nwn I would really appreciate it.

Itaku-> https://itaku.ee/profile/aniadawson

If you are interested let me know nwn Remember that i'm using Ko-fi for the payments nwn

~~~~Prices ----> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45376341/

Well, i want to apologize to all of you for not uploading any drawing lately.
I'm just feeling quite down.. I'm still doing drawings but i'm still searching for the perfect story/husbando to show and doing things about them.

I get you are tired of me creating all new characters and doing nothing more after their creation, but i just get disappointed when i'm trying to think of their stories.
It just.. doesn't work, no matter how hard i try work on them, it is like something inside me just.. turn off.

In a moment i'm so happy and full of inspiration, and the other they all that happiness and inspiration just disappear..

I know that i'm the problem of all of this, because i want these stories to be my adventures and i try really hard to defy myself on those stories. Making them a reflexion of my own life and fears to face them.

I just want you to know i'm not the "ordinary" artist. My art inself is my personal escape, my personal way to dream about the life i can not have..
Adventures, other worlds, time traveling, etc.. all of that just to feel that just for a moment i'm out of this pityfull reality.

So, if you just follow me 'cause you're looking for big muscles guys or sex.. then it is time for you to unfollow.. so you won't get disappointed.

~Thanks for reading.

Hello everyone.

Neo-sama and i had a talk about our realtionship. We had a bautiful relation of six years, but either way, it was hard for the two of us, because the distance between us. So we decided to postpose until we meet in person. So for now we will be best friends and still support each other. Those times were the best of our realtionship, we laughed, we cried, and supported on each hard time, but there was a deep and constant feeling of have each other by his/her side. And the better way to have a healthy relation is having a friendship and until we met we could be in the relationship that both wanted to be. And so, this text was wrote by both of us and put in our profiles as the same format, cause both agree. You can still find content about us and will see future content whit us, casue we are not that type of silly and toxic relation that never talks or hate other after "THE TALK" XD

We hope you understand and we are grateful of your support about our relationship.

See you next time òuó and thanks for reading.

Holidays are over and its time to go back to "work" x'D I re-opened commission but adoptables are still in my mind, i need time to create them...

But until that, i will be able to do commissions again. So, i'm ready and full energy to start again :3 I update the information on the drescription, so check it out pls! >w<)/

Here is the commission page -> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45376341/

BUT... at least the whole world is on 2022 by now, so :>

Really thanks to all of you that keep following the crazy ideas of this girl. I really appreciate it.
I have my own purposes for this 2022:
- Keep drawing!!
- Stop dumping ideas and drawings..
- Keep trying to get rid of my depression. It will always coming back but i hope i can learn to get it controlled.
- Maybe start learning to sewing and tailoring, to create clothing and dresses for myself or even maybe selling them too.

I really wish i could have the time i had before to draw.. but well, maybe i will try to get a graphic tablet to draw fast, at least to get the sketch faster.

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Soooo.. How was your end of year party? Did you were able to be with your family or just by your own at home?
I had a pijamas party x'DD really comfy at home with only my parents and my brother.

~ Status Report ~
Well, probably you see i'm not dead 'cause i'm retweeting things xd (if you do follow me on twitter :>)
But to be honest, i'm not really in the mood of sharing any drawings anymore (at least for now) Maybe just depression hiting quite hard this time.. or the lack of privacy to do drawings freely
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Well, i'm just working on more ideas, characters, husbandos, etc..
Maybe i should stop watching others arts, i just keep watching what they do and watch back to my drawing and think (I'm just doing sh*t)..
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But, as i said, may be just depressive talking and thinking, do not take this seriously. I think i'm just releasing pain out of my chest.. too many things happened this two years (kinda since quite the end of 2019)
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It isn't really related to the pandemic, i'm used to be alone and completely lock up at home (even if i don't like it) I think it's called "social anxiety"?
Just too scare to meet new people or face people at the street, i don't like anyone looking at me.
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So many times i wished to be invicible.. Let's just not enter into that sh*et xd It's enough of the depressing things.
Sometimes they say, depression is the key for inspiration for artist... if that's true maybe i'm not a true artist 'cause i just feeling stuck x'd
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Let's just cut out all of this, and if you made it until the end.. well.. thank you for taking your time to read some crazy things of a random girl, really appreciated.
You earned this cute Solgaleo, take care of him!
(I wish to know who's the artist but google just don't tell..)
-> https://pm1.narvii.com/6137/f14b2fb.....844c92c_hq.jpg

[I was thinking of taking ot the "+" but they look as a very good way to separate the text, so i leave them there x'd]

So yes, for now commissions are completely closed. I'm gonna try with adoptables at least once per month, i still don't know.

Doing commissions is complicated for me right now. The fact of create a character or an scene from the scratch just with a sort story or description it makes me quite anxiety if i'm not in the mood of doing, for example, lions.
Doing adoptables at least i can control my mood of doing one month aliens like, or the next one dragons, etc.. i could take some advantage of my mood to fully create 3 or more character to sell.

I have just one more commission to do, and the last one.

Just checking out how you all guys are doing. Usually doesn't work because noone anwser.. but well, noone can say i did not tried x'd

I tried for a quite time to be more comunicative and talktive on twitter, doesn't work either.. At least i did talk to a very few people but some of then just disappear or stop talking.
Usually to talk with someone i preffer Twitter, so if you are interested:
-> https://twitter.com/AniaDawson

Maybe some day this site will add some kind of real time chat, i preffer that instead the notes.

~Well, i will try to not get too depressive and i will try to keep creating some journals to just talk a bit xd

Hello there! Lately, i've been thinking about start creating adoptables to sell, but i'm still not sure.

Since i love creating character i thought maybe doing adoptables could work better than wait for commissions for me.

What do you think?

I need it... qwq i need Mass Effect Legendary Edition.. Let's see if i get enough commissions to buy it for Xbox One QuQ

It even include every DLC, it such a good recompilation of the 3 games with all the extra content included *U*

Maybe could anyone be interested on Mass Effect style commission?
It's good to practice Mass Effect species or style :3

Let me know if you are interested please! >u< Of course, if you want any other kind of commission (not related to mass effect) you can ask too.

-> Commission Information page-> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26556792/

So yeah, that "special offer" was a complete failure x'D Well, no more "nsfw" drawings anymore.
NSFW are not my thing, i just wanted to try even if i'm not feeling that good doing those kind of drawings. I only do NSFW for my boyfriend, i know he like it.

So yeah, the "special offer" is over. Let's see if someone ask me something else someday.

This Tuesday the game Oddworld Soulstorm will be released and honestly i can't wait x'DDD

I can say that i don't like buying games in their release day but, i could do an exception this time.

The game price is 49€ (or 50€ xP)

If i could get just one commission of $23 (cellshading) to buy it, i could afford the rest.
So, if you want help me to get it, let me know >w<)/

Well, problably you know what happen the past month.
-> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9822060/

Looks like the publication has been deleted. I think is over, but amazon didn't sent to me any message about this... Well, as long as my drawing got deleted from Amazon i'll be happy.

Thanks you all for the help, advices and support. I'm happy all of this is over.