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Posted 3 months agoSorry it's been a while since I have posted anything. I've been dealing with a lot of B.S. I understand that everyone has problems and I'm not trying to upstage anyone else that is having a hard time. I've had people suggested that I quit and go to some other place, however that is easier said than done. Being broke, at or below poverty level and having a discriminatory legal background limit this from happening. My greedy boss hires felons knowing he can treat them as he pleases and get away with it most of the time. If someone doesn't kiss his butt, he finds some way to shaft them. He comes off as a nice guy and wants to help and be a friend, however as time moves forward, he shows his true identity, a narcissus. He's always right and knows everything but everyone else is wrong and stupid.
He hired me 8 years ago to work on his ranch where I've bled, poured sweat and tears along with having some broken bones. He had originally hired me about six months prior at a salary of $800 per month and a place to stay with water and electric to detail his limousines for his rental business. The place I had been allowed to stay was on the northwest side of the city and his business was on the northeast central. The place was a shutdown strip club for years that had no a/c or heat, no shower, barely running water and electricity. He said he would be giving me a raise when I worked on the ranch after a few months which never happened. I had become ranch manager unknowingly after about six months due to the boss firing the previous manager over selling a dog that had showed up on the ranch after trying to find the owner had been exhausted. They were playing cat and mouse with each other by the ex-ranch manager telling me that he was coming back and the boss acted like he was coming back. I had tried to get the boss to get the supplies the animals needed that the ex-ranch manager told me to get for them for a year, but he refused to. The law got involved because of his neglect and he was blame shifting it on me and another ranch hand at that time saying that we never told him. A year later he fired the other ranch hand and agreed for him to rent the place he was staying for $600 a month. About a week later the boss told him $800 because the electric costs so much. The boss did this in reality so he wouldn't have to pay me out of his pocket.
4 years ago, I had asked the boss if I could bring someone to the ranch to help me and he told me to do the best I can. So, I had brought my friend to the ranch to help me. My plan was to have him help me for a while to learn what needed to be taken care of so I could go visit my mother for a couple of days since it had been so long since the last time I had seen her. When the boss had finally found out that the guy was here, he had refused to pay him for his work and has held it over my head until this day still. I had paid him half of my salary. My friend died about 8 months later from a blood clot that had broken loose in his leg and blocked his lung. R.I.P. About 8 months afterwards my mother whom I hadn't seen in about 10 years, due to my legal problems, had passed too. Sometime during this period, the boss and I had gotten into an argument about finances. I had asked him for a budget for the ranch, he told me not to tell him how to run his business, that he has been in business for 35 years. I told him that I was trying to better myself so I could start my business but instead I have to waste my money on his crap. People said I should ask family members or friends with getting the business started, however, I don't have any family members that I have contact with and my friends are broke due to the circumstances of their lives, or they are just greedy as well.
About three years ago the boss made me and the ex-ranch hand start paying for the electric bill. It's bull crap for me because the well is on the one I have to pay for, which isn't all of my personal usage. The boss's son lives out here frequently. Everyone washes laundry on mine. I have to water his animals which is about 2 hours of run time twice a week. Also, about this time we had to have the well pump replaced. The end of last year he made us pay $300 a month for it. $800 coming in $1100 going out. WTF! I was getting somewhat reimbursement for the stuff spent on the ranch until this.
I have learned to place myself into other's shoes when it comes to my thought process. I have been in certain situations or have been hurt in some way that I try not to do the same to others. I help people when I'm able to, but it's come at a cost to me multiple times, so I unfortunately have become a bit selfish. I feel like I should help, however I am not sure if I can trust anyone. Example is I was on a side job and stopped by the gas station to get some fuel before I went home. Someone had pulled up asking if I can help them out. They gave me a song and dance of how they were on their way from California to Florida and had lost their wallet along the way. Being the nice guy I try to be, I was going to give them $50 that I could spare. Once they had seen my small wad of cash they ended up selling me two rings and a necklace for $350 which put me short of what I needed to pay a bill. The jewelry looked to be legit because they had stamps, but wrong. The next day I took them to the jewelry store to have them tested and of course they were fakes, about $50 total off of Wish or something similar. They took that chapter from Zombie Land.
Here recently I had helped an ex-girlfriend out of a situation which was a big mistake. She had been obsessing over me for the last 20 years. She has idealized this life with me that just isn't going to work because I am not in love with her. I love her as a person but that's as far as it goes with me. She's like a succubus draining me of myself and finances. I'm slightly empathic and she has too much drama in her life. She's angry at the world and it is bringing the dark side out in me that I despise. I had released the dark side once in middle school and I have been trying to keep it in check since then. I had been bullied a lot and this one day I had enough of it. I had a blackout rage. When I came out of it, I knocked one guy out and bloodied two others. 5 guys had me pinned down up against the lockers. All of them were bigger than I was.
Sorry for the babble but it flows out in multiple directions. Please feel free to state your opinions.
He hired me 8 years ago to work on his ranch where I've bled, poured sweat and tears along with having some broken bones. He had originally hired me about six months prior at a salary of $800 per month and a place to stay with water and electric to detail his limousines for his rental business. The place I had been allowed to stay was on the northwest side of the city and his business was on the northeast central. The place was a shutdown strip club for years that had no a/c or heat, no shower, barely running water and electricity. He said he would be giving me a raise when I worked on the ranch after a few months which never happened. I had become ranch manager unknowingly after about six months due to the boss firing the previous manager over selling a dog that had showed up on the ranch after trying to find the owner had been exhausted. They were playing cat and mouse with each other by the ex-ranch manager telling me that he was coming back and the boss acted like he was coming back. I had tried to get the boss to get the supplies the animals needed that the ex-ranch manager told me to get for them for a year, but he refused to. The law got involved because of his neglect and he was blame shifting it on me and another ranch hand at that time saying that we never told him. A year later he fired the other ranch hand and agreed for him to rent the place he was staying for $600 a month. About a week later the boss told him $800 because the electric costs so much. The boss did this in reality so he wouldn't have to pay me out of his pocket.
4 years ago, I had asked the boss if I could bring someone to the ranch to help me and he told me to do the best I can. So, I had brought my friend to the ranch to help me. My plan was to have him help me for a while to learn what needed to be taken care of so I could go visit my mother for a couple of days since it had been so long since the last time I had seen her. When the boss had finally found out that the guy was here, he had refused to pay him for his work and has held it over my head until this day still. I had paid him half of my salary. My friend died about 8 months later from a blood clot that had broken loose in his leg and blocked his lung. R.I.P. About 8 months afterwards my mother whom I hadn't seen in about 10 years, due to my legal problems, had passed too. Sometime during this period, the boss and I had gotten into an argument about finances. I had asked him for a budget for the ranch, he told me not to tell him how to run his business, that he has been in business for 35 years. I told him that I was trying to better myself so I could start my business but instead I have to waste my money on his crap. People said I should ask family members or friends with getting the business started, however, I don't have any family members that I have contact with and my friends are broke due to the circumstances of their lives, or they are just greedy as well.
About three years ago the boss made me and the ex-ranch hand start paying for the electric bill. It's bull crap for me because the well is on the one I have to pay for, which isn't all of my personal usage. The boss's son lives out here frequently. Everyone washes laundry on mine. I have to water his animals which is about 2 hours of run time twice a week. Also, about this time we had to have the well pump replaced. The end of last year he made us pay $300 a month for it. $800 coming in $1100 going out. WTF! I was getting somewhat reimbursement for the stuff spent on the ranch until this.
I have learned to place myself into other's shoes when it comes to my thought process. I have been in certain situations or have been hurt in some way that I try not to do the same to others. I help people when I'm able to, but it's come at a cost to me multiple times, so I unfortunately have become a bit selfish. I feel like I should help, however I am not sure if I can trust anyone. Example is I was on a side job and stopped by the gas station to get some fuel before I went home. Someone had pulled up asking if I can help them out. They gave me a song and dance of how they were on their way from California to Florida and had lost their wallet along the way. Being the nice guy I try to be, I was going to give them $50 that I could spare. Once they had seen my small wad of cash they ended up selling me two rings and a necklace for $350 which put me short of what I needed to pay a bill. The jewelry looked to be legit because they had stamps, but wrong. The next day I took them to the jewelry store to have them tested and of course they were fakes, about $50 total off of Wish or something similar. They took that chapter from Zombie Land.
Here recently I had helped an ex-girlfriend out of a situation which was a big mistake. She had been obsessing over me for the last 20 years. She has idealized this life with me that just isn't going to work because I am not in love with her. I love her as a person but that's as far as it goes with me. She's like a succubus draining me of myself and finances. I'm slightly empathic and she has too much drama in her life. She's angry at the world and it is bringing the dark side out in me that I despise. I had released the dark side once in middle school and I have been trying to keep it in check since then. I had been bullied a lot and this one day I had enough of it. I had a blackout rage. When I came out of it, I knocked one guy out and bloodied two others. 5 guys had me pinned down up against the lockers. All of them were bigger than I was.
Sorry for the babble but it flows out in multiple directions. Please feel free to state your opinions.
Still here...
Posted 3 years agoI'm sorry for the long delay in getting some stuff posted but I'm still working on getting my laptop fixed. It's taken me so long because of my cheap ass boss doesn't want to treat me right. Hopefully I can get it done soon. Thanks for your patience.
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