Okay so a bit of bad news, unfortunately because of how bad sales have been, and due to lack of an income, book 2 might be delayed until further noticed. I prefer to release this info sooner than later, but at the moment I don't even possess enough for food.

That being said, I apologize but until sales pick up drastically, or until I can make a real income, or in a possible case sales pick up to make a real income, book 2 may be complete in the near future, but the book will not release until possible, I am sorry.

If any of you wish to help, for those who have read it, you can help by telling friends and family, any avid reader about it. So once again apologies for this inconvenience

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A friend of mine has em, and she's gonna be living with me soon... ima play with em

In the last two months I've discovered quite a few things about my body I did not know... well not quite a few but just two things. I have anxiety, and my family's heart disease. However, my heart disease has not been triggered by bad health, oh no, in fact, my health is perfect according to doctors, at least on paper. But mental health on the other hand, is the problem. Apparently stress, anxiety and other mental distress can cause heart attacks.

I found out about this heart condition in me only about a day ago, and trying to type this through the pain right now. 8AM on Saturday August 24, after no sleep at all, I discovered the pain and the symptoms escalated. They had been happening for several hours at the point and finally my left arm had gone completely numb. The pain subsided eventually and I passed out, not sure how or when though, or maybe I was just in such shock the pain knocked me out.

Moving on, I coped with it for the day, was recommended to use Bayer until I could see the doctor Monday but might need to go to the ER sooner than that if things get worse. The anxiety is making me feel like my chest is on fire, my heart keeps pounding rapidly, and occasional loss of feeling in my left arm comes and goes. I've noticed this pain before in my life but it was due to one thing, emotional distress, caused by loneliness. I didn't think much of it, or maybe it was just me over reacting as a teenager, but as the years went on I kept track of it and noticed it ONLY occurred during these circumstances.

After trying to see what might be causing it, I realized, it in fact was multiple things leading to loneliness. The pain of people abandoning me, friends mainly, ones I trusted, that I knew for years. I know I always say, years don't make the difference, the person you knew 5 minutes could be your best man/bridesmaid and the one you knew your whole life could ruin your marriage. Not saying literally, just an example. But moving on, women I've been in relationships with, in fact only a few and only 1 in my life didn't do me wrong, and she's gone unfortunately. Others though, I can't say the same, but I digress.

Between the women that have lied to me, cheated on me, the friends that lied to me, threw me aside, and being without someone, a lover specifically, my body begins to metaphorically, deteriorate. I'll eat right, my body functions properly, but my heart begins to pain, and give up, and my will dies. I don't need more friends, I'm happy with the friends that haven't betrayed me and have been there for me, especially 3, Elizabeth, friends for 18 years and Charles, friends for 9 years, and Jerry for 6 years.

What I truly need, is that one person, I can lay next to at night, hold, kiss, tell her I love her, or even during the day, but hopefully, should work not get in the way because of possible night jobs, sleep together happily. That's all I want, and all I need. Friends are nice, but they don't give what the heart wants or needs.

That's when I was born, I'm now 24 woo~

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Check it out, my second book is coming, but still has a bit of work left to be done, including a new title I'm debating on. Check out the facebook page and comment to vote under the newest post!

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Now and forever. After losing everything, after losing everyone that claimed their love to me, the only one that showed truly how much she loved me is gone. And has been gone for 3 years now, because fate is cruel. I found that someone, and she passed away. I can't take the pain, the lies, the broken promises anymore, from others. I'm nothing more than an experiment to people.

All I want is a simple life, a wife, a child or two, and that's it. If we'd need to struggle I could care less so long as I have my family. I yearn to be a father, to raise a child from birth, to see the look in their eyes when they say they love their daddy. To hear from my wife everyday, how much she loves me, is all I ask, nothing more. I don't care about who makes dinner, I'll make it too, or even together. Teach the kids how to do things for themselves as they grow up, step by step.

This is all I want out of life, not the heartache of lies, broken promises, what could've been. I just want, love, and family.

But it's too much to ask for. No matter how many times I fail. I don't want love anymore, I just want to live, and just live, no one else, no significant other. Give me that, and I'll make due, than getting constantly hit with broken promises.

People need to stick to shit. You want an equal relationship where both are treated equally with respect, then do that. Don't say that one moment then expect the other to act as if everything's their fault for their own mistakes. Seriously, people take responsibility, don't make up shit, don't tell one side of the story. If something's wrong, and you're gonna bitch up a storm to someone, tell them EVERYTHING, not the thing that makes your other look like the bad one.

To tell someone to "shut the fuck up, you fucking piece of shit" because you only want to see everything from your view, and not everything for everyone, that's selfish. I'm not allowed to have anxiety, because I'm the guy. It's not allowed to affect me, and make me throw up, or anything. No, if it does then I'm supposed to suck it up, and act like I'm fine and dandy. But if that's how shit is gonna be, that's not a relationship worth being in.

That's all it takes to realize when a relationship is dead. As much as one can love another, if the other does not return such affection, does not in the least, feel something, it is dead. However...

I was given this threat, that should I fuck up at all, then we were through. As if I were some rapist or abusive partner, no I spoiled her. Gave her anything she wanted, without a single thought, without a blink. I did everything for her, but because her friends think I deserve one single solitary chance, that's all I get, should I ever make a mistake.

I have anxiety, that kind of threat, of losing love, with anxiety, don't go well together, in fact, lead to me vomiting due to fear of loss. I've lost love before, a love that was so beautiful, so amazing, it tore me to shreds and lead me down a dark place for more than a year.

When I asked, is our relationship really so frail, that all I get is one chance, she simply replied, that I asked the impossible. It apparently, is something that cannot be answered. That said, I've been hurt, too many times, and time and time again have I been hurt by fickle people, who allow others to play with their mind. I'm done, love is something I had once, but I'll never have it back again.

So it seems that no matter what I do, I'm not enough to make anyone happy in life. I can wait on hand and knee, to do everything for them, I can be everything they want, but it's never enough. All I am, is some person to fill in a hole until someone better comes along. That's all I've ever been to all but one person that I know for a fact.

In short, don't know where my current relationship is going, even though things had been great between us until just 2 weeks ago. I was hoping it was just some little thing, but now she's just taking everything out on me. Avoiding me, not even sleeping in the same bed as me. I cook and clean for her, I make sure to do everything so all she has to do is relax and enjoy herself, nothing more.

To top this all off, I'm also dealing with issues finding work still, someone who helped me before doesn't want to talk to me anymore even though I kept trying to keep in contact but he removed me twice on skype, fucking awesome person there. My book sales are still in the shitter to add to it all as well.

In short I find myself to be a disappointment to everyone I come in contact with, and never seem to be able to do enough for anyone.

People let's get something straight, and this is in general, this is directed towards no one in specific however someone is the reason this was brought up.

If you've got feelings for someone, and the person OBVIOUSLY has feelings for you, don't be a fucking idiot when they say something to you and act like you don't have a thing for them, especially if you're single.

You shouldn't be getting upset, and dissolving your friendship because you wasted time, made them look like an idiot for wanting to be with you. You wanna be with someone, say something, don't sit on the side thinking they're gonna wait forever. It's pretty heartless to do so, and then to top it off, get mad when they do move on.

I'm taken now, and happy to be taken. I wasn't happy to be lead to believe that there's no spark anymore, and that's why I moved on.

Cenny's having an art raffle and it's huge~ go check it out :D http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4502099/

Finally out of NY, gonna start saving up to move out to Colorado the moment I get enough money to ^_^

It seems everyone likes to lie to me about helping me, and give me nothing, not even a couch to crash out for a couple of months while I pick myself up. So long story short, goodbye, won't see you again come april 2nd

Just thought I should do a few things talking about the characters of the book, give a little insight. So today I want to talk about a major character of this trilogy

Aleria, The Demon Hunter

Aleria is a human from Earth. She was born in what is North America, and lost both her parents at a young age. Demons took the life of all from her village, her family included, leaving this mere child as the lone survivor. This child grew to be the most renowned demon slayer, becoming the leader of an encampment. Those who know her look up to her, and the demons that have met her, have met the fate her family has seen.

She swears herself to end the demon's reign of terror on Earth, and especially hunt the demons that killed her family. Being one of the main characters of the trilogy, you get to see as the trilogy progresses. Her character drastically evolves as the trilogy goes on, and you get to see her destiny unfold.

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They're the biggest liars and the ones you trust most til they stab you in the back last minute. But that's just the everyday average person. A liar waiting to make everything worse in an already bad situation right? Well if any of you had read my previous journal entries, a certain liar went back on his word just about 2 days ago it seems by avoiding me the last couple of days. He's too cowardly to even say a thing on his own behalf and must send someone else to do the work for himself. This is the everyday, average, person, a liar, and coward.

is doing a YCH auction with Cynder. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4414847/ Take a peak and go join now guys :D https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10082828/ here's the pic :3

So thanks to I will be having a place to stay and be looking for work in his state as well. I'm going to be moving in with him on the week of the 18th thanks so much for all the support, and thank you Nars for helping me

I need to have a lot of sales be made in order to get a place of my own. A raw number, I only have 10 sales made with my book so far. I need to make a total of 490 sales so I move to a place of my own, and have enough food for myself to last at least a month. This will provide me with $2000, to move to someplace of my own and transportation to hopefully find a job of my own outside of this forsaken place they call a state. So if anyone at all can help me, I have an advertisement ready in case anyone wants to spread the word.

Please, I need this, if I don't make these sales, I'll have nothing.

Two families at war with themselves, and against others as well, this is what became known as the Twilight Wars. There was no easy way for the war to end, this is what everyone thought. 1700 years prior to Anorath's rise to rebel against the false king, people believed the war had truly ended. This was far from the case. The war simply was at rest for the time.

The true mastermind behind the war, was willing to wait, to see their master plan come to light. The true one controlling the events of the war, waits, they bide their time, not wanting anyone to grow wary of any possible uprisings.

This time of peace, was merely to let the time come that need be, for the true one they wish to show themselves. Who is the one behind the events of the war, and who is the one they are waiting for? This war will come to an end, but with many losses along the way. Neither side, may emerge victor in the end. Which family will succeed, or will both fall to the mercy of death?

If you really wish to see what the war will be like, begin here, and see what awaits those who lived during these dark times http://www.amazon.com/dp/B008RZXW28

Begin your journey, on the kindle, or kindle app (kindle app available free for tablets, smartphones and PCs) http://www.amazon.com/gp/feature.ht.....cId=1000493771

Look people, I have no luck getting work, and I need something to make an income. If you saw my last journal seen here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4399279/ I'm down to only 30 days left to get a place of my own, and I have no money for that, whatsoever.

I have my book that's on amazon.com that I've been advertising for more than half a year and I'm sitting at only 9 sales total. Until I make at least $100 in sales (I make 70% of the sales) I don't make a cent.

So please, I'm not asking you to give me cash, I'm asking you to buy my book that's only $6. I'm not asking for money for nothing in return, but please, at least buy it, maybe you'll like it more than you know. I don't know, but it does not, I repeat DOES NOT REQUIRE A KINDLE E-READER

It is available for the kindle yes, but there are free apps for the kindle that can be downloaded, you can get them for free on your smartphone, your ipad or whatever tablet you use, or even on your computer/laptop.

You can get the kindle app via this link http://www.amazon.com/gp/feature.ht.....cId=1000493771

And my book via this link http://www.amazon.com/dp/B008RZXW28 please, I'm not begging to give me money for nothing in return, just more sales, spread the word please.

Went to visit my grandmother today with my mother and sister. My grandmother's now threatening me to get a job or else get the fuck out, I have 30 days. Cause you know, threatening me makes other people hire people, that's how life works right?

Anyway, my grandmother then proceeded to ask my sister "Would you like it if your brother was out of a home and on the streets?" My sister replied with "If he's out of the house I don't have to see him anymore and my life gets better." Mind you I've protected her from numerous people worried about her and taken care of her for years, that's the thanks I get.

This is the lovely predicament I've been drawn into, isn't life wonderful? Because this has become a family thing now, my mother's boyfriend who's kept my mother on a leash (figuratively speaking people) I've had ample time to, well keep a roof over my head. He's 2 years older than me (my mother is 20 years older than me) so he knows being in this position. He's protecting me because he sees me like a brother. But he's not family, he's a friend of the family, and he can't protect me anymore.

I see I've gotten a few new watchers thanks to some help over the last few weeks. Possibly some due to a stroke of luck who knows hehe. But I do want to inform those who are curious to read a progressing fantasy series.

The Twilight Wars series, is a war between two beings known as demon, and ilua, dark and light fighting, in unexpected ways. Dark and light, they do not define, evil or good, but the actions they individually choose, lead to what their lives are like. The human world Earth, lay wait between the demon and ilua worlds, hoping for whichever side succeeds, spares mankind.

This series, is to be released, on a yearly bases, each book will come out over time, and in the end, you'll see the fate all the races have in store.

Link is available below, feel free to sample, or buy if you are intrigued. The kindle app is available for free for most any device as well, available on the same page as the book.

P.S.

On a side note, if anyone would like to lend a hand, spreading the word about my book, that would be most welcomed. Be it journal or simply telling others.

This is a very big publishing company. I'm talking about so big, if you don't have a name for yourself they likely don't give a shit about you. So...


I need as much help as possible with this one. It's a shot in the dark, but I want to get recognized by a large publishing company known as Bloomsbury. For those that only know about big name things, they are the ones that helped J.K. Rowling make her the success she is. But I need to have a name for myself so everyone please, as best as you can, spread the word about my book, let's make them consider me so I can work with them. Spread the word on anything you can, twitter, facebook, anything. Advertise the facebook page, or the link straight to amazon about it!

http://www.facebook.com/Twilight.Wa......Official.Page is the facebook page

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B008RZXW28 is the amazon link to the book.

Please any help possible anywhere would be of use. I need to get my name out there for them to recognize me, and hopefully I can actually make something of myself.