So I have a job, I have distractions, and I feel far from the furry community. Y'all be bitches, btw.
God do I love the prawns that you furfags put out, but I don't have a fursona. Goddamn even typing that shit makes me feel dirty. But I'm not an animal soul or some bullshit. I'm human and mortal and stupid and booze-addled but maybe I want to pretend for a bit. That's fine. But you fucks had better know it's either pretend or mental illness.
I need to get to bed. This shit tires me out.

Back in the day, fursonæ were, just like, characters you played. The whole therianthropic otherkin bullshit where "this is my real self" or whatever is a sign of mental illness.
That said, I guess it's OK to have a character that represents a fictionalized you, but so often they're mary sue bullshit characters that I just want to light on fire.
Make characters that are idealized but flawed, and try to have more depth than your typical murrsona.
Also, sparkledog characters with glowing blue skin and angel wings and 2 technicolor wangs or whatever are not 'cool.' They are self-indulgent wankery.

Also, something about the average penis size on murrsonas is ridiculous. when 9 inches or so is 'average,' and 'realistic' penes are rarely under 7 inches, something's seriously wrong. Like, it's not even that I dislike large dongs. It's just that the big dicks are kind of blatant masturbatory fantasy, especially for characters that should ostensibly be 'people.'
The same holds true for breasts. Huge tits should not be on skinny or muscular women. Those body types should have smaller breasts. I get that people enjoy sexual characteristics, and I do as well, but try to have some goddamn sense, people.

Also, don't understand AT ALL the cuntboi phenomenon.
Or avians giving blowjobs. THAT SHOULD NOT WORK. You want to have an avian character? Fine. But accept that oral should not be able to occur in that case.

I am just rambling like a madman now. That is good. I get into my best fits when like this.
The above is why I'm so hesitant to call myself a furry.
There is just so much wankery and self-aggrandizement that I simply cannot fathom associating myself with the fandom at large.
From -certain people's- hugbox do-no-wrong gaggle of fan-fellatio to others' blatant lack of social tact in any sense, the furry community is a mess and a half.

Some people seem normal enough, others just plain have good art. But I don't know if I'd ever want to re-enter the furry community at large.
Who knows. I might attend an MFF some year and just spend the entire time drunk off my ass.

I'd be some kind of scavenger.
because my jokes are rotten, and when I talk, I carry-on. Get it? carrion? I'm a horrible person.

I REALLY SHOULD GET TO SLEEP GODDAMN.
I AM AN INSOMNIAC BOOZEHOUND OCD CRAZY PERSON.
...it's hard to draw finished art.
I think I might upload some of my better sketches.
If anyone is reading this, add input as needed.

I'm really thinking I should maybe post some art on here, but then I get all bitchy and feel like, "goddamn furfags" and leave it be.
Would it be worth it to post some of my art on here, instead of just on my deviantart?
...I'm not asking an actual question, I'm just working it out on my lonesome.
and yes, I think I will.
fuck.
I feel like a sellout or some shit.
also, I am not going to be posting porneaux.