I'm not sure how to start this. I suppose it would be best to apologize for being gone for so long without a word. I didn't intend to make anyone worry for my health. Mostly I just needed to take a break from the internet for a while to focus on my real life. Reconnecting with friends and family who had drifted away during the lock down succeeded in bringing together the support network I needed. I am healthy again. Not just back to normal, but better than normal.

I never wanted to make people worry. I had imagined that everyone would just forget about me after a little while. That's fairly cold reasoning, but I was feeling extremely down on myself at the time. I hope you can all understand.

For anyone out there struggling with depression, anxiety, or other issues, don't be afraid to reach out to someone. Depression is especially insidious in the way it isolates you to further compound itself. Most importantly, don't delay seeking professional help.

-AS

Hello, I hope this journal entry finds all my friends well.

Sorry to scare any of you. I am perfectly fine and healthy. I've just decided to disable my discord account. I found that it was hurting my productivity. I was sort of obsessing over it, and spending too much time chatting and not enough time focusing on writing, drawing and my real life.

I may make a new account in the future. But for now if there's something important just send me a note here on furaffinity, I'll check often enough.

In my mind, this will be a sort of writer's retreat. I need space to work on myself, then I'm hoping to pump out some great stories this year.

I thank all of my friends for being so kind and supportive. With patience we will create great things.

-AS

I am considering re-opening commissions, but the main issue for me is payment. I've had some issues with Paypal and would prefer to avoid it if possible. I've been looking into Bitcoin, but I know that would just complicate things for the buyer. So, does anyone have any input on this? Are there better alternatives to Paypal? Would you be willing to pay for a commission with Bitcoin?

It's coming soon. It will be the first time any of my stories has gotten a part three, and it's only a year late. Yeah, I feel like I must be the laziest writer ever.

I have a habit of deleting my old stories and artwork. When I go through my gallery and see my old work I feel embarrassed about creating things that are low quality. Sometimes I just decide to erase them from existence so I don't feel as bad. Though I understand how this can be annoying for people who like an image/story and want to look at/read it again only for it to vanish. But I want to at least be able to open my gallery without feeling so ashamed that I close the browser tab. I dread re-reading my own stories, because it hurts to find errors that I missed while editing. This makes writing sequels tricky.

I guess im writing this journal to reach out and see if other artists/writers feel the same way. Do you ever feel shame/embarrassment when you look at the oldest entries in your gallery? If so, what do you do about it?

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