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Posted 5 months agoJust a quick journal to let folks know that if you're using Bluesky, I'm most active over there!
My Personal account:
https://bsky.app/profile/anuvia.bsky.social
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https://bsky.app/profile/orcadragon.bsky.social
See ya all there
My Personal account:
https://bsky.app/profile/anuvia.bsky.social
The NSFW and Fatty art account:
https://bsky.app/profile/orcadragon.bsky.social
See ya all there
Discord Server!
Posted 3 years ago✨So for those of you who like my work/art and want to chill, I've gone ahead and made a discord server that everyone is welcome to join!
There are special channels for patreon/subscribestar members, but anyone is welcome!
-> https://discord.gg/k52UpqhgDQ
🔞No Minors allowed 🔞
There are special channels for patreon/subscribestar members, but anyone is welcome!
-> https://discord.gg/k52UpqhgDQ
🔞No Minors allowed 🔞
Twitter!
Posted 3 years agoIt's time to chat: Commissions/Refunds/Workflow
Posted 3 years agoI've been hesitant to talk about my personal life in too much detail because I've never felt it was really appropriate but when it's become such a big factor in my work, I feel like it's time that I open up and speak about exactly what has been going on for me in the last two years to better explain why my work flow and art output have been so heavily delayed.
For those who do not want to read further, I will get to the main point here and now: If you have a commission with me that has not yet been completed and want to discuss it with me, please feel free to email me at Anuvia@gmail.com; If you don't get a response within about 48 hours, please send me an FA note as I've been having issues with gmail and the spam folder. If you'd like a refund, the option is there or you can choose to wait it out with me; I will not be bothered by either choice and will be glad to accommodate as much as I can. My original goal was to try and clear my queue out by the end of March but due to my living situation, this wasn't viable and I want to formally extend this offer to anyone on my queue.
With that being said, it's time to get into the personal stuff and by no means, is anyone obligated to read beyond here, but I wanted to be transparent with things to help explain why someone who formally used to be well known for my quick turn around times ended up being so slow. Typing this out has been hard because I feel ashamed to have to even discuss my private life, let alone relive some of the thigs I've been through, but I feel like it needs to be discussed. Please keep in mind that this is more or less a "tip of the iceberg" thing and I'm only really detailing the important things to keep this from becoming a novel.
The Start / Fiancé cheats and walks out
For those who weren't aware; Back in December of 2018 I was formally engaged. My partner at the time was quite the character and you all know how rose colored glasses can be. He forced me to abandon a lot of my hobbies, told me I couldn't talk to male friends online anymore, and after plans to move to another state were cancelled he refused to get new roommates to occupy the house I had been renting in Arizona for several years before. He demanded we keep the place alone, just the two of us to be more like a "real couple". This was his first time living out of his family's house and I don't think he understood the reality of the situation, however he would not back down and I caved. We considered moving into a smaller place, however the housing market in the US (and especially in Arizona) made our options for smaller places just as expensive, if not more than the price we had already been locked into, even with rent increases. I made the majority of income between us and was often the one who had to cover for his short comings and support him as well. It was a struggle, but I always made sure we got by.
Before dating, my partner at the time was well aware that I am aesexual and was okay with this fact, however on the rare occasion I could find it in me to be able to "perform" and I guess this gave him the wrong idea. He began to emotionally manipulate me and gaslight me for not giving enough sex, and no matter what I said it was never enough of a reason. I offered the option of having an open relationship but he refused stating "I'd rather die than cheat, and that is cheating"; I even later found out he proposed to me under the impression that it would make me put out more. Instead, this led to him trying to break up with me and said he needed space, so I went to my family's place for a week. I had a suspicion there was something going on and got a ride with my father to bring me back home without warning. We both walked in to find him packing up things in the house (many of which were mine) and with his new girlfriend sitting on the couch. He had been cheating on me and planned to rob me blind and run before I came home, only after having sex with this girl in -my bed- multiple times while I was away and letting the dogs pee inside the house instead of letting them outside because he was too busy with his new girl to acknowledge them. It was a horrific mess that I was left to clean up. As you can imagine, this did not go well and he refused to communicate further; He grabbed what he could carry and walked out. For months, he never came back but also refused to pay his end of living expenses on house we rented despite being a cosigner on the lease. He was claiming to pay shared bills but was instead pocketing the money and letting me come to find utilities turned off. He did come back and tried to extort me for ownership of the dog we got together, stating that I could keep her if I wouldn't try to get him to pay for his end of the bills/etc before throwing a tantrum and wrapping a leash around the dog's neck and trying to drag her out the front door, choking her. This was a whole incident in itself.
I was suddenly all alone in a four bedroom house, I couldn't afford to break the lease and if I did, I had nowhere to go. I had to fight a pseudo custody battle over the dog because I refused to give her up after he choked her, I had to pay everything myself and my savings dwindled. Battling with him over the dog, finances, transferring bills to my name, etc kept me busy all day every damn day, It was exhausting and just made me feel so alone, abandoned and undesirable on top of overwhelmed. Depression came in hard and set the precedent for the emotional downward spiral I would continue to experience.
Medical Issues
During this time of being alone, I also suffered multiple medical issues; After he left, I was in charge of all the household chores (not that he did many before) and while being in the backyard pulling weeds, I made the mistake of wearing short-shorts. It's Arizona, so it gets pretty toasty outside and I didn't really think about much else other than my comfort. About a week later, I was feeling very ill and actually worried it may have been covid, as this was when it was starting to become a pandemic. Every night I was getting sicker and sicker and I felt like I was going to die. While laying in bed, I noticed a pain on my right buttock where the butt meets the leg and decided to go to an Urgent Care the next day. I am always reluctant to get medical attention when I need it because due to my obligations as a provider for not just my former fiancé, but my ex prior, insurance was not something I could afford so I've always had to "gut through" any issues. In this case, I made the right call as when I entered the exam room and showed them the painful spot, it ended up being a venomous spider bite. The staff were amazed that I was able to even stand or walk, let alone drive myself to the Urgent Care. It turned out, I was suffering from septic shock due to the bite causing tissue to die under my skin. They immediately had to cut out the section of the bite in the office and access the situation; The cavity beneath the bite was incredibly large and had to be cleaned out and be packed with gauze -every day for two weeks-; The staff had also never seen this type of bite before and were asking for consent documenting it, which I gave so maybe someday, my butt will be in an Arizona physician's book or something, lol. I spent every day for the two weeks around my birthday going to that Urgent care for them to empty and repack the gauze and it was utter misery. I was told that, had I waited another 24-48 hours, I would have been in the ICU fighting for my life and I "felt" like I was dying because I was.
Because I'm not shy about this (and because I find medical stuff interesting), I've decided to share pictures snapped by the doctors of my poor, bruised and battered bum on my behalf. Content Warning; open wound:
-> The wound after it had been cut and filled with gauze
-> Marker drawn around the wound to illustrate how extensive the damage under the skin was
As you could imagine, mundane tasks like, even sitting at my desk became impossible for weeks. During this time, I also broke my toewhile trying to pack my Ex's things up since he refused to come get them (and popped the toe back into place myself) and had a dental emergency that took me out for a few days, too.
Again, I did not have insurance so what little funds I had left in savings were drained quickly.
More recently, I also caught Covid via means of an anti-vax family member and it took me out for a considerable amount of time.
Home/Financial Issues
Because of all the things happening to me throughout that span of a year, my time became so very very limited to work, and because I promised myself to never become an artist that keeps taking coms when I cannot finish them, I stopped taking commissions, no matter how far my savings sunk. On rare occasions when I could finish a batch, I'd take a few more but I never took very many. I couldn't bring myself to open for more when I had a backlog and this put me further into the hole. I began doing work as a doordash driver on the side to try and keep my head above water and would sell adopts when I had the time. I wasn't doing great financially but at least I was still able to work and get things done. I eventually did get one room mate, however they could not afford to pay a fair split of rent, but I let them come anyways because any help on the rent/utilities was better than none, however towards the end of their time there, they were let go of work due to having multiple hospital visits that caused them to take time off of work, leaving the utilities on me mostly. Other small, but expensive occurrences kept happening and I was starting to drown financially.
The company I had been renting this house from was not the greatest and I had so many issues with them. I originally rented the property in 2015 from a different company but they ended up selling off all their properties and contracts to a new one and I was suddenly told my pet deposits were now nonrefundable fees and they never responded to any problems or maintenance requests in a timely manner. When the air conditioning broke in the dead of Arizona summer (usually around 110-115 °F / 43-46°C), they made the house near unlivable for 10 days before they fixed the unit (In Arizona, it is the law that landlords must repair air units within ten days, they waited the longest they could). When the ceiling later developed a leak form improper air conditioning installation, I called the emergency line and was told "they'd get to it"; Over a week later my ceiling caved in because no one came to do anything about it.
Eventually, I discovered my rental company was trying to get more money for the house and decided to evict me with no appeal to stay unless I was willing to pay $1000 more than I already did, and that just was not possible given the rent way already raised to $1950 by this point. The housing market in Phoenix had grown so much that the property I rented in 2015 for $1475 was (after I left) relisted for $3000 per month and all other options in the area were out of my price range. I had nowhere to go, no savings, no nothing so I took what money I had left and began preparing for a move. It was decided I would be living with my family in the meantime until the market settled down but my family are not the most kind of people so I was told that I would only be allowed to bring some clothes and my PC; Everything else I owned was to be put in a storage unit where it still remains. The move was horrendous for me and for a few months, it was just me spending my time Packing/sorting/etc everything in that house by myself. It was grueling, emotionally impactful to find things left by not just one, but two previous partners, former roomates, etc. I was sorting and running things to goodwill every day, especially towards the end while trying to manage working, friends, etc. My room mate and I did hire movers to take the heavy furniture to the storage unit (which also keeps raising it's rates), but we couldn't afford to keep them to move boxes. My roommate ended up leaving earlier than I did and I had to make dozens upon dozens of trips to the storage unit, fitting whatever boxes I could into my small car and dragging them up and down the floors by myself. I was so overwhelmed, stressed, broke, and tired that I was feeling more than ill at this time; I passed out at the storage unit one evening for a short period of time; I fell down the stairs carrying heavy books, I was covered in bruises and cuts and my depression that had been growing was devouring me alive. By the day I had to leave, I didn't even mage to get all my things; I had to leave so many personal items, memories, etc and it still haunts me when I lay down at night. A statue of a wolf my grandmother bought me 15 years ago was the final casualty; It fell out of the back of my car and shattered in the driveway as I was putting the last things in to leave and I broke down. It was the final straw.
On November 2nd, 2021, I pulled out from the driveway of the place I called home for nearly 7 years and never looked back. I was on my way back to Southern California to live with family, which was going to be way worse than I could have anticipated.
Current Life / Depression / Abuse
Since November, I have been living with my family. My mother and father are your "typical" boomers where I have to listen to right-wing conspiracies all day and night and they constantly assert that Trump is a god and speak poorly of LGBTQ persons; As one myself, this is extremely taxing on a daily basis. But that's nothing compared to the way I am treated here. Not a single day goes by without one of my parents reminding me that I am a complete waste of space, a failure, a "fat piece of shit" or say things like "if you weren't so useless maybe we wouldn't pick on you". Every little aspect of me is constantly being beat down and my mother actively goes out of her way to do harmful things to me. The abuse is honestly nonstop and I don't want to get into the nitty gritty details, but for the close friends I disclose these incidents to, they can verify that it's pretty darn bad.
By living here, my time is not my own; During the day, I am required to be on call for whatever task they want completed from things as mundane as "run downstairs and bring me up a drink" to "If you don't wash the floors in the whole house, we will be turning off the wifi". Every. Day. The bedroom I've been assigned to live in has no lock on the door and my parents burst in whenever they feel like to give an inspection/insult me. I am not allowed to put my PC in my room though; It's in a small storage area that it'ss own weird little room that has no airflow, ventilation and is packed wall to wall with things my family is storing. My desk is a hand me down that is wedged between towers of stuff that I am not allowed to move. During the day, it's hot and muggy in this area and at night, I need to work in utter silence to make sure I don't wake them up. I'm also forbidden from sleeping in late, despite staying up to see the sunrise when I try to work. I have -no privacy- either, as the storage area I am forced to work in has no door; just a basically transparent curtain that people walk in and out of as they please. I've begged to move my PC into the room I'm staying in, even if it would be oppressively cramped but I'm always met with rants about how ungrateful and entitled I am so I gave up. Unfortunately, I am the child of an unwanted pregnancy that forced two people to get married that otherwise didn't want to and I am reminded of that near daily. I can't leave at the moment because the market rates of rentals -and the requirements to even have the pleasure of paying to apply- are beyond my reach right now, so this is where I am stuck for the time being. I try my best to work as often as I can muster, but on some days where I am home alone as of late, there's another big problem effecting me....
Depression.
I understand that depression is not something that just stop someone from doing their job, but as of late the weight of everything from the last several years and beyond has just been too much to bare and I'm embarrassed to admit that it's overtaken me. I've been fighting it as hard as I could over the last few years, but it's been such a losing battle that I feel like I've lost so much of myself. I don't find much joy in any of my hobbies anymore, I've hit a point where not only have I stopped eating much anymore, but I've developed an aversion to food that's caused a rapid weightloss for me that while, yes I am overweight, is not a healthy way to lose weight. I cannot sleep at night, I'm constantly getting hurt/sick/etc, Anxiety has suddenly become a serious issue for me, I'm always exhausted/fatigued when I can sleep and in the last month or so, I've felt as if the "life" has begun leaving my body. I genuinely do not mean to sound overdramatic, but I can't find another way to express the feelings I've been experiencing. The depression I've been experiencing is utterly debilitating and often times, I'll stare at a blank canvas and burst into tears because I can't bring myself to create. I have forced my way through it on many days, but others I find myself curling into bed and crying. Between my ex-fiancé, my parents and -especially- my ex-partner before that, the amount of emotional abuse I've suffered has made me feel distant and unlovable making me close myself off. Suddenly finding myself alone in that big house left an emptiness in my chest and then losing that place I called home for 7 years devastated me. In a single swoop, I felt as if I lost everything; My freedom, my independence and self reliance, etc. Tenfold after finding myself here in my own family's home where I'm made to feel like human scum for my shortcomings and failures. Guilt plagues me constantly for all my mistakes and failures; Every day that goes by and I don't draw something, I feel guilty. Every time I see my commission list and don't make progress, I break. The severity of this depression has made even the simplest of tasks for me feel impossible; Just getting dressed or leaving my bed is a task; I breakdown crying without even knowing why and thoughts of wanting to just lay down and never wake up or worse plague me. This year, I spent my 33rd birthday in utter despair, to such an extent I was genuinely about to admit myself to the ER for safety's sake. Some days are better than others, but overall it's been getting worse as time goes on and everyday I look in the mirror and think to myself "That's not "me" anymore" and it scares me.
Moving Forward
As things currently stand, I'm working to fix my circumstances as much as I possibly can. I am grateful to have close friends I love dearly and they've helped me start to feel worthy of love again. An upside to financially crippling myself was that upon moving back to CA, I was able to get myself health insurance for the first time in over a decade and I have already made preparations to seek medical assistance and guidance on my depression so I can resume a functional state. This is my top priority right now as well as getting other medical issues I've been forced to neglect taken care of (Hypothyroidism). I have been working still, but the pace is admittingly slow, but still doing my damndest. While where I live right now is a huge factor in my mental/emotional state, the sooner I can rebuild my savings the sooner I can get out of here and back to having my own life, and that is what I will be doing from here on out.
Art/Commissions
My goal right now is to clear out my queue, be it in refunds or finished work and start fresh. It causes me extreme anxiety/discomfort to have outstanding work, and some of you have been so patient with me that I can never begin to express how grateful I am for it. I understand completely that all of these issues I've been having are not your problem at all, nor have I ever truly vocalized them publicly in such a fashion before. I apologize for not being more upfront with what's been going on, I just genuinely never want to make my life problems anyone else's, nor do I ever think I deserve sympathy for the long wait. What matters most to me is making things right and this is my open call for folks to clean things up. You all deserve it, and quite honestly, I need it. I want to start fresh, I want to come back to enjoying what I do and I want to win the battle against this depression and put the last few years behind me.
One of my biggest mistakes has been the fact I have been underpricing my work for far too long. I always used to consider myself a "budget friendly" artist but in the end, I was just hurting myself too much to do it. In the past, I was able to do 8 commissions in a single day, but ever since the SWAT incident, my wrists cannot keep up with that kind of schedule. I take longer than ever before for each piece now, but I hadn't really raised my prices to reflect that change. Additionally, in spending more time on them, I've come to really analyze my work and refine aspects of it, to which I think had been of great benefit to it if you ask me. The amount of time and care I've been putting into finished work these days has been paying off, at least in my opinion, and I'd much rather focus on quality as opposed to being "cheap". It's given me a renewed enjoyment for my craft and I've been finding myself more able to win the battle against my depression to draw. Drawing/being an artist is one of the most important things to me in my life; It's what I love and I never want to abandon it, but I will need to rethink how I approach it and learn to value myself more. I've never considered myself to be an especially "good" artist; Heck I often refer to myself as "a low tier" artist and I think in doing so, I was lowering my self worth in the process. No more of that.
In Conclusion:
If you've read this far, I genuinely appreciate it. I know that long, rambling "woe is me" types of journals can be very off putting or make people run away from an artist; It's for these reasons I held so much in for so long to my own detriment. If I have learned anything from the last few years it's that -it's okay if you can't handle things all by yourself and it's okay to ask for help. The longer you kill yourself to try and do it alone, the worse off you'll be for it-. I'm going to do everything I can to move forward and be the best damn artist I can and the support people give me in my work drives me so much and I wouldn't be half the artist I am now without you all. Thank you for liking what I do; From those who've followed me for over a decade, to those who are newer followers, you have my sincerest gratitude and I hope I can continue to produce stuff -we both like-!
If You have an Existing Commission with Me
Please shoot me an email at anuvia[at]gmail.com with the title "Commission" and think about what you'd like to do from here on out! If you got a commission and want to keep it, I will absolutely honor the old prices and offer you to change the idea/character/etc for the slot. If you'd rather have a refund, please know that is also okay and by no means is my journal here meant to try and guilt you out of asking for that; I want you to do what you think is best for YOU! I will hold no ill will and you'll be welcome to commission me again in the future once I am back in the saddle and back to being the reputable artist I was in the past.
-IMPORTANT- If you email me and don't hear back within about 48 hours, feel free to send me a poke either here via Private Message or DM me on twitter. Gmail has always given me such strange issues about sending emails to spam, so in the coming weeks I plan to make a new email PURELY for commission conversations and ONLY commission conversations to help alleviate this issue since nothing else has (even speaking to support). Just understand that I am absolutely not ignoring anyone on purpose!
Thank you again and know I love you all!
For those who do not want to read further, I will get to the main point here and now: If you have a commission with me that has not yet been completed and want to discuss it with me, please feel free to email me at Anuvia@gmail.com; If you don't get a response within about 48 hours, please send me an FA note as I've been having issues with gmail and the spam folder. If you'd like a refund, the option is there or you can choose to wait it out with me; I will not be bothered by either choice and will be glad to accommodate as much as I can. My original goal was to try and clear my queue out by the end of March but due to my living situation, this wasn't viable and I want to formally extend this offer to anyone on my queue.
With that being said, it's time to get into the personal stuff and by no means, is anyone obligated to read beyond here, but I wanted to be transparent with things to help explain why someone who formally used to be well known for my quick turn around times ended up being so slow. Typing this out has been hard because I feel ashamed to have to even discuss my private life, let alone relive some of the thigs I've been through, but I feel like it needs to be discussed. Please keep in mind that this is more or less a "tip of the iceberg" thing and I'm only really detailing the important things to keep this from becoming a novel.
The Start / Fiancé cheats and walks out
For those who weren't aware; Back in December of 2018 I was formally engaged. My partner at the time was quite the character and you all know how rose colored glasses can be. He forced me to abandon a lot of my hobbies, told me I couldn't talk to male friends online anymore, and after plans to move to another state were cancelled he refused to get new roommates to occupy the house I had been renting in Arizona for several years before. He demanded we keep the place alone, just the two of us to be more like a "real couple". This was his first time living out of his family's house and I don't think he understood the reality of the situation, however he would not back down and I caved. We considered moving into a smaller place, however the housing market in the US (and especially in Arizona) made our options for smaller places just as expensive, if not more than the price we had already been locked into, even with rent increases. I made the majority of income between us and was often the one who had to cover for his short comings and support him as well. It was a struggle, but I always made sure we got by.
Before dating, my partner at the time was well aware that I am aesexual and was okay with this fact, however on the rare occasion I could find it in me to be able to "perform" and I guess this gave him the wrong idea. He began to emotionally manipulate me and gaslight me for not giving enough sex, and no matter what I said it was never enough of a reason. I offered the option of having an open relationship but he refused stating "I'd rather die than cheat, and that is cheating"; I even later found out he proposed to me under the impression that it would make me put out more. Instead, this led to him trying to break up with me and said he needed space, so I went to my family's place for a week. I had a suspicion there was something going on and got a ride with my father to bring me back home without warning. We both walked in to find him packing up things in the house (many of which were mine) and with his new girlfriend sitting on the couch. He had been cheating on me and planned to rob me blind and run before I came home, only after having sex with this girl in -my bed- multiple times while I was away and letting the dogs pee inside the house instead of letting them outside because he was too busy with his new girl to acknowledge them. It was a horrific mess that I was left to clean up. As you can imagine, this did not go well and he refused to communicate further; He grabbed what he could carry and walked out. For months, he never came back but also refused to pay his end of living expenses on house we rented despite being a cosigner on the lease. He was claiming to pay shared bills but was instead pocketing the money and letting me come to find utilities turned off. He did come back and tried to extort me for ownership of the dog we got together, stating that I could keep her if I wouldn't try to get him to pay for his end of the bills/etc before throwing a tantrum and wrapping a leash around the dog's neck and trying to drag her out the front door, choking her. This was a whole incident in itself.
I was suddenly all alone in a four bedroom house, I couldn't afford to break the lease and if I did, I had nowhere to go. I had to fight a pseudo custody battle over the dog because I refused to give her up after he choked her, I had to pay everything myself and my savings dwindled. Battling with him over the dog, finances, transferring bills to my name, etc kept me busy all day every damn day, It was exhausting and just made me feel so alone, abandoned and undesirable on top of overwhelmed. Depression came in hard and set the precedent for the emotional downward spiral I would continue to experience.
Medical Issues
During this time of being alone, I also suffered multiple medical issues; After he left, I was in charge of all the household chores (not that he did many before) and while being in the backyard pulling weeds, I made the mistake of wearing short-shorts. It's Arizona, so it gets pretty toasty outside and I didn't really think about much else other than my comfort. About a week later, I was feeling very ill and actually worried it may have been covid, as this was when it was starting to become a pandemic. Every night I was getting sicker and sicker and I felt like I was going to die. While laying in bed, I noticed a pain on my right buttock where the butt meets the leg and decided to go to an Urgent Care the next day. I am always reluctant to get medical attention when I need it because due to my obligations as a provider for not just my former fiancé, but my ex prior, insurance was not something I could afford so I've always had to "gut through" any issues. In this case, I made the right call as when I entered the exam room and showed them the painful spot, it ended up being a venomous spider bite. The staff were amazed that I was able to even stand or walk, let alone drive myself to the Urgent Care. It turned out, I was suffering from septic shock due to the bite causing tissue to die under my skin. They immediately had to cut out the section of the bite in the office and access the situation; The cavity beneath the bite was incredibly large and had to be cleaned out and be packed with gauze -every day for two weeks-; The staff had also never seen this type of bite before and were asking for consent documenting it, which I gave so maybe someday, my butt will be in an Arizona physician's book or something, lol. I spent every day for the two weeks around my birthday going to that Urgent care for them to empty and repack the gauze and it was utter misery. I was told that, had I waited another 24-48 hours, I would have been in the ICU fighting for my life and I "felt" like I was dying because I was.
Because I'm not shy about this (and because I find medical stuff interesting), I've decided to share pictures snapped by the doctors of my poor, bruised and battered bum on my behalf. Content Warning; open wound:
-> The wound after it had been cut and filled with gauze
-> Marker drawn around the wound to illustrate how extensive the damage under the skin was
As you could imagine, mundane tasks like, even sitting at my desk became impossible for weeks. During this time, I also broke my toewhile trying to pack my Ex's things up since he refused to come get them (and popped the toe back into place myself) and had a dental emergency that took me out for a few days, too.
Again, I did not have insurance so what little funds I had left in savings were drained quickly.
More recently, I also caught Covid via means of an anti-vax family member and it took me out for a considerable amount of time.
Home/Financial Issues
Because of all the things happening to me throughout that span of a year, my time became so very very limited to work, and because I promised myself to never become an artist that keeps taking coms when I cannot finish them, I stopped taking commissions, no matter how far my savings sunk. On rare occasions when I could finish a batch, I'd take a few more but I never took very many. I couldn't bring myself to open for more when I had a backlog and this put me further into the hole. I began doing work as a doordash driver on the side to try and keep my head above water and would sell adopts when I had the time. I wasn't doing great financially but at least I was still able to work and get things done. I eventually did get one room mate, however they could not afford to pay a fair split of rent, but I let them come anyways because any help on the rent/utilities was better than none, however towards the end of their time there, they were let go of work due to having multiple hospital visits that caused them to take time off of work, leaving the utilities on me mostly. Other small, but expensive occurrences kept happening and I was starting to drown financially.
The company I had been renting this house from was not the greatest and I had so many issues with them. I originally rented the property in 2015 from a different company but they ended up selling off all their properties and contracts to a new one and I was suddenly told my pet deposits were now nonrefundable fees and they never responded to any problems or maintenance requests in a timely manner. When the air conditioning broke in the dead of Arizona summer (usually around 110-115 °F / 43-46°C), they made the house near unlivable for 10 days before they fixed the unit (In Arizona, it is the law that landlords must repair air units within ten days, they waited the longest they could). When the ceiling later developed a leak form improper air conditioning installation, I called the emergency line and was told "they'd get to it"; Over a week later my ceiling caved in because no one came to do anything about it.
Eventually, I discovered my rental company was trying to get more money for the house and decided to evict me with no appeal to stay unless I was willing to pay $1000 more than I already did, and that just was not possible given the rent way already raised to $1950 by this point. The housing market in Phoenix had grown so much that the property I rented in 2015 for $1475 was (after I left) relisted for $3000 per month and all other options in the area were out of my price range. I had nowhere to go, no savings, no nothing so I took what money I had left and began preparing for a move. It was decided I would be living with my family in the meantime until the market settled down but my family are not the most kind of people so I was told that I would only be allowed to bring some clothes and my PC; Everything else I owned was to be put in a storage unit where it still remains. The move was horrendous for me and for a few months, it was just me spending my time Packing/sorting/etc everything in that house by myself. It was grueling, emotionally impactful to find things left by not just one, but two previous partners, former roomates, etc. I was sorting and running things to goodwill every day, especially towards the end while trying to manage working, friends, etc. My room mate and I did hire movers to take the heavy furniture to the storage unit (which also keeps raising it's rates), but we couldn't afford to keep them to move boxes. My roommate ended up leaving earlier than I did and I had to make dozens upon dozens of trips to the storage unit, fitting whatever boxes I could into my small car and dragging them up and down the floors by myself. I was so overwhelmed, stressed, broke, and tired that I was feeling more than ill at this time; I passed out at the storage unit one evening for a short period of time; I fell down the stairs carrying heavy books, I was covered in bruises and cuts and my depression that had been growing was devouring me alive. By the day I had to leave, I didn't even mage to get all my things; I had to leave so many personal items, memories, etc and it still haunts me when I lay down at night. A statue of a wolf my grandmother bought me 15 years ago was the final casualty; It fell out of the back of my car and shattered in the driveway as I was putting the last things in to leave and I broke down. It was the final straw.
On November 2nd, 2021, I pulled out from the driveway of the place I called home for nearly 7 years and never looked back. I was on my way back to Southern California to live with family, which was going to be way worse than I could have anticipated.
Current Life / Depression / Abuse
Since November, I have been living with my family. My mother and father are your "typical" boomers where I have to listen to right-wing conspiracies all day and night and they constantly assert that Trump is a god and speak poorly of LGBTQ persons; As one myself, this is extremely taxing on a daily basis. But that's nothing compared to the way I am treated here. Not a single day goes by without one of my parents reminding me that I am a complete waste of space, a failure, a "fat piece of shit" or say things like "if you weren't so useless maybe we wouldn't pick on you". Every little aspect of me is constantly being beat down and my mother actively goes out of her way to do harmful things to me. The abuse is honestly nonstop and I don't want to get into the nitty gritty details, but for the close friends I disclose these incidents to, they can verify that it's pretty darn bad.
By living here, my time is not my own; During the day, I am required to be on call for whatever task they want completed from things as mundane as "run downstairs and bring me up a drink" to "If you don't wash the floors in the whole house, we will be turning off the wifi". Every. Day. The bedroom I've been assigned to live in has no lock on the door and my parents burst in whenever they feel like to give an inspection/insult me. I am not allowed to put my PC in my room though; It's in a small storage area that it'ss own weird little room that has no airflow, ventilation and is packed wall to wall with things my family is storing. My desk is a hand me down that is wedged between towers of stuff that I am not allowed to move. During the day, it's hot and muggy in this area and at night, I need to work in utter silence to make sure I don't wake them up. I'm also forbidden from sleeping in late, despite staying up to see the sunrise when I try to work. I have -no privacy- either, as the storage area I am forced to work in has no door; just a basically transparent curtain that people walk in and out of as they please. I've begged to move my PC into the room I'm staying in, even if it would be oppressively cramped but I'm always met with rants about how ungrateful and entitled I am so I gave up. Unfortunately, I am the child of an unwanted pregnancy that forced two people to get married that otherwise didn't want to and I am reminded of that near daily. I can't leave at the moment because the market rates of rentals -and the requirements to even have the pleasure of paying to apply- are beyond my reach right now, so this is where I am stuck for the time being. I try my best to work as often as I can muster, but on some days where I am home alone as of late, there's another big problem effecting me....
Depression.
I understand that depression is not something that just stop someone from doing their job, but as of late the weight of everything from the last several years and beyond has just been too much to bare and I'm embarrassed to admit that it's overtaken me. I've been fighting it as hard as I could over the last few years, but it's been such a losing battle that I feel like I've lost so much of myself. I don't find much joy in any of my hobbies anymore, I've hit a point where not only have I stopped eating much anymore, but I've developed an aversion to food that's caused a rapid weightloss for me that while, yes I am overweight, is not a healthy way to lose weight. I cannot sleep at night, I'm constantly getting hurt/sick/etc, Anxiety has suddenly become a serious issue for me, I'm always exhausted/fatigued when I can sleep and in the last month or so, I've felt as if the "life" has begun leaving my body. I genuinely do not mean to sound overdramatic, but I can't find another way to express the feelings I've been experiencing. The depression I've been experiencing is utterly debilitating and often times, I'll stare at a blank canvas and burst into tears because I can't bring myself to create. I have forced my way through it on many days, but others I find myself curling into bed and crying. Between my ex-fiancé, my parents and -especially- my ex-partner before that, the amount of emotional abuse I've suffered has made me feel distant and unlovable making me close myself off. Suddenly finding myself alone in that big house left an emptiness in my chest and then losing that place I called home for 7 years devastated me. In a single swoop, I felt as if I lost everything; My freedom, my independence and self reliance, etc. Tenfold after finding myself here in my own family's home where I'm made to feel like human scum for my shortcomings and failures. Guilt plagues me constantly for all my mistakes and failures; Every day that goes by and I don't draw something, I feel guilty. Every time I see my commission list and don't make progress, I break. The severity of this depression has made even the simplest of tasks for me feel impossible; Just getting dressed or leaving my bed is a task; I breakdown crying without even knowing why and thoughts of wanting to just lay down and never wake up or worse plague me. This year, I spent my 33rd birthday in utter despair, to such an extent I was genuinely about to admit myself to the ER for safety's sake. Some days are better than others, but overall it's been getting worse as time goes on and everyday I look in the mirror and think to myself "That's not "me" anymore" and it scares me.
Moving Forward
As things currently stand, I'm working to fix my circumstances as much as I possibly can. I am grateful to have close friends I love dearly and they've helped me start to feel worthy of love again. An upside to financially crippling myself was that upon moving back to CA, I was able to get myself health insurance for the first time in over a decade and I have already made preparations to seek medical assistance and guidance on my depression so I can resume a functional state. This is my top priority right now as well as getting other medical issues I've been forced to neglect taken care of (Hypothyroidism). I have been working still, but the pace is admittingly slow, but still doing my damndest. While where I live right now is a huge factor in my mental/emotional state, the sooner I can rebuild my savings the sooner I can get out of here and back to having my own life, and that is what I will be doing from here on out.
Art/Commissions
My goal right now is to clear out my queue, be it in refunds or finished work and start fresh. It causes me extreme anxiety/discomfort to have outstanding work, and some of you have been so patient with me that I can never begin to express how grateful I am for it. I understand completely that all of these issues I've been having are not your problem at all, nor have I ever truly vocalized them publicly in such a fashion before. I apologize for not being more upfront with what's been going on, I just genuinely never want to make my life problems anyone else's, nor do I ever think I deserve sympathy for the long wait. What matters most to me is making things right and this is my open call for folks to clean things up. You all deserve it, and quite honestly, I need it. I want to start fresh, I want to come back to enjoying what I do and I want to win the battle against this depression and put the last few years behind me.
One of my biggest mistakes has been the fact I have been underpricing my work for far too long. I always used to consider myself a "budget friendly" artist but in the end, I was just hurting myself too much to do it. In the past, I was able to do 8 commissions in a single day, but ever since the SWAT incident, my wrists cannot keep up with that kind of schedule. I take longer than ever before for each piece now, but I hadn't really raised my prices to reflect that change. Additionally, in spending more time on them, I've come to really analyze my work and refine aspects of it, to which I think had been of great benefit to it if you ask me. The amount of time and care I've been putting into finished work these days has been paying off, at least in my opinion, and I'd much rather focus on quality as opposed to being "cheap". It's given me a renewed enjoyment for my craft and I've been finding myself more able to win the battle against my depression to draw. Drawing/being an artist is one of the most important things to me in my life; It's what I love and I never want to abandon it, but I will need to rethink how I approach it and learn to value myself more. I've never considered myself to be an especially "good" artist; Heck I often refer to myself as "a low tier" artist and I think in doing so, I was lowering my self worth in the process. No more of that.
In Conclusion:
If you've read this far, I genuinely appreciate it. I know that long, rambling "woe is me" types of journals can be very off putting or make people run away from an artist; It's for these reasons I held so much in for so long to my own detriment. If I have learned anything from the last few years it's that -it's okay if you can't handle things all by yourself and it's okay to ask for help. The longer you kill yourself to try and do it alone, the worse off you'll be for it-. I'm going to do everything I can to move forward and be the best damn artist I can and the support people give me in my work drives me so much and I wouldn't be half the artist I am now without you all. Thank you for liking what I do; From those who've followed me for over a decade, to those who are newer followers, you have my sincerest gratitude and I hope I can continue to produce stuff -we both like-!
If You have an Existing Commission with Me
Please shoot me an email at anuvia[at]gmail.com with the title "Commission" and think about what you'd like to do from here on out! If you got a commission and want to keep it, I will absolutely honor the old prices and offer you to change the idea/character/etc for the slot. If you'd rather have a refund, please know that is also okay and by no means is my journal here meant to try and guilt you out of asking for that; I want you to do what you think is best for YOU! I will hold no ill will and you'll be welcome to commission me again in the future once I am back in the saddle and back to being the reputable artist I was in the past.
-IMPORTANT- If you email me and don't hear back within about 48 hours, feel free to send me a poke either here via Private Message or DM me on twitter. Gmail has always given me such strange issues about sending emails to spam, so in the coming weeks I plan to make a new email PURELY for commission conversations and ONLY commission conversations to help alleviate this issue since nothing else has (even speaking to support). Just understand that I am absolutely not ignoring anyone on purpose!
Thank you again and know I love you all!
Cel-shaded Commission Slots: OPEN (limited)
Posted 4 years agoHey there, folks!
So it's been a long while since I've formally opened for commission slots; I've had a hell of a year and a half and it's been a really tough one to navigate and time just has not been available for me to push out as much work as I used to. I'm currently pushing through my last few items on my list from before (and bless folks for being patient with me while I work through some serious irl stuff), but I'm starting to be able to hit a point of normalcy again and I need to get back to the grindstone. Right now, I'm currently dealing with moving since the company I've been renting my current residence from for the last six years and opted to sell the property out from under me, leaving me in somewhat of a scramble. I was originally meant to move on June 30th but thanks to a Presidential mandate, I was given the ability to stay where I am until July 31st and I plan to use this time to put my nose to the grindstone and pack while I can! That being said, expenses are piling up and I need to take a very small batch of commissions to keep afloat in the meantime; My older stuff if a priority right now and I'll be using the next few days to plow through those and and then move onto this small batch I'm taking!
You may have also noticed that I am adding a price increase! I have always tried to keep my prices relatively low to make my work accessible to as many people as I can, however had hit a point where $70 for a full body, cel shaded drawing has become a bit unsustainable for me. The time and effort I put into these works was just not equating a livable wage so I had to raise some prices a bit. I'm still unsure of how much I want to raise them; I had originally planned to go a little higher but I wanted to use this small batch to test out the new prices. That being said, these prices are not set in stone so if you've been wanting something from me, this may be a good chance to grab something before prices may increase more ;u;!
Slots are very limited as I can only take so much right now and properly manage my time!
I have a small number of slots open right now for those who may be wanting one!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://forms.gle/F4B2jQv8zM9inkWC9 <-
Information
Single Character Commission: $110
Two Character slot: $200
🔹 Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
🔹 There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
🔹 Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
🔹 Props are allowed within reason!
🔹 There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
🔹 most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations. If you're not sure, you can always ask!
🔹 Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
🔹 I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
🔹 Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
🔹 Slots are limited and not everyone may get picked; I will try to use a first come-first served system though.
Examples:
-Examples showing my new style for cel-shade commissions:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41833753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42411136/
I don't have many examples since this is a very new style for me however hopefully that will change after a few folks snag some slots~
So it's been a long while since I've formally opened for commission slots; I've had a hell of a year and a half and it's been a really tough one to navigate and time just has not been available for me to push out as much work as I used to. I'm currently pushing through my last few items on my list from before (and bless folks for being patient with me while I work through some serious irl stuff), but I'm starting to be able to hit a point of normalcy again and I need to get back to the grindstone. Right now, I'm currently dealing with moving since the company I've been renting my current residence from for the last six years and opted to sell the property out from under me, leaving me in somewhat of a scramble. I was originally meant to move on June 30th but thanks to a Presidential mandate, I was given the ability to stay where I am until July 31st and I plan to use this time to put my nose to the grindstone and pack while I can! That being said, expenses are piling up and I need to take a very small batch of commissions to keep afloat in the meantime; My older stuff if a priority right now and I'll be using the next few days to plow through those and and then move onto this small batch I'm taking!
You may have also noticed that I am adding a price increase! I have always tried to keep my prices relatively low to make my work accessible to as many people as I can, however had hit a point where $70 for a full body, cel shaded drawing has become a bit unsustainable for me. The time and effort I put into these works was just not equating a livable wage so I had to raise some prices a bit. I'm still unsure of how much I want to raise them; I had originally planned to go a little higher but I wanted to use this small batch to test out the new prices. That being said, these prices are not set in stone so if you've been wanting something from me, this may be a good chance to grab something before prices may increase more ;u;!
Slots are very limited as I can only take so much right now and properly manage my time!
I have a small number of slots open right now for those who may be wanting one!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://forms.gle/F4B2jQv8zM9inkWC9 <-
Information
Single Character Commission: $110
Two Character slot: $200
🔹 Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
🔹 There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
🔹 Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
🔹 Props are allowed within reason!
🔹 There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
🔹 most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations. If you're not sure, you can always ask!
🔹 Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
🔹 I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
🔹 Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
🔹 Slots are limited and not everyone may get picked; I will try to use a first come-first served system though.
Examples:
-Examples showing my new style for cel-shade commissions:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41833753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/42411136/
I don't have many examples since this is a very new style for me however hopefully that will change after a few folks snag some slots~
Art Dump - Sorry!
Posted 4 years agoJust a quick apology for the large amount of art I've been uploading today;
I've been neglecting uploading here as much as I should be and real life stuff (Some really rough things I don't want to get into, right now) has really been getting me behind on a multitude of things; I'm doing my best to play catch up right now and I appreciate everyone's patience.
I've been neglecting uploading here as much as I should be and real life stuff (Some really rough things I don't want to get into, right now) has really been getting me behind on a multitude of things; I'm doing my best to play catch up right now and I appreciate everyone's patience.
Sketch Com Slots -OPEN
Posted 4 years agoI've been getting through these pretty quickly and I'm nearing the end of my list, so I wanted to open for a few more slots~ Still limited though since I'll be doing many while I'm out of town!
If you'd like a slot, send me a Note with your character reference, what you'd like them doing and your Paypal address (for invoicing!)
(this is a rare time that I am using notes)
Info
🔹 Slots are $60 for waist up; $75 for full body
🔹 Single character only
🔹 any body type ok
🔹 Sketches are flat colored
🔹 All species/genders ok!
🔹 Note me to claim
🔹 Examples below
EXAMPLES:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357966/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357932/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34206240/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357805/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357736/
If you'd like a slot, send me a Note with your character reference, what you'd like them doing and your Paypal address (for invoicing!)
(this is a rare time that I am using notes)
Info
🔹 Slots are $60 for waist up; $75 for full body
🔹 Single character only
🔹 any body type ok
🔹 Sketches are flat colored
🔹 All species/genders ok!
🔹 Note me to claim
🔹 Examples below
EXAMPLES:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357966/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357932/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34206240/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357805/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357736/
A few Sketch Commission Slots -Open
Posted 5 years agoTaking a small batch of sketch commissions to work on between things~
If you'd like a slot, send me a Note with your character reference, what you'd like them doing and your Paypal address (for invoicing!)
(this is a rare time that I am using notes)
Info
🔹 Slots are $60 for waist up; $75 for full body
🔹 Single character only
🔹 any body type ok
🔹 Sketches are flat colored
🔹 All species/genders ok!
🔹 Note me to claim
🔹 Examples below
EXAMPLES:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357966/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357932/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34206240/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357805/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357736/
If you'd like a slot, send me a Note with your character reference, what you'd like them doing and your Paypal address (for invoicing!)
(this is a rare time that I am using notes)
Info
🔹 Slots are $60 for waist up; $75 for full body
🔹 Single character only
🔹 any body type ok
🔹 Sketches are flat colored
🔹 All species/genders ok!
🔹 Note me to claim
🔹 Examples below
EXAMPLES:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357966/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357932/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34206240/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357805/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39357736/
What do you like about my art?
Posted 6 years agoIt's been a while since I made a journal here!
I've been going through yet another really tough time (that I don't really wish to get into), but I do want to ask ya'll a question that would help me a lot! It's not related to my current emotional/real life trials but it IS something I am very curious in hearing about!
What aspects about my art do you all enjoy? What made you follow me?
Honest answers are always welcome!
I've been going through yet another really tough time (that I don't really wish to get into), but I do want to ask ya'll a question that would help me a lot! It's not related to my current emotional/real life trials but it IS something I am very curious in hearing about!
What aspects about my art do you all enjoy? What made you follow me?
Honest answers are always welcome!
Update! 5/27 - Shinies + The story of How I injured my wrist
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
Update:
I want to apologize for not having been around as much as I usually like to! I've been extremely busy lately and it's put a wrench in a lot of plans as of late given much of my real life hold ups have been unexpected. Even with a lot of busy life situations though, I have been chugging along with commissions and still knocking out my sketch commission queue! I'm hoping to have it completely cleared out by the 1st and I'm planning on pulling a few all nighters to make that happen! I also plan on adding the final page of the weight gain drive as soon as possible; I feel awful it had to be sidelined for a bit. Also as a shout out, zilbah is the highest donator and who will be taking that pretty Leopard gal home as their very own character!
Most of you who've commissioned me or have followed me for a long time know that having a queue take this long is really out of character for me and I appreciate everyone being patient and understanding while I try to deal with real life and art! This month has been exceptionally difficult as near the beginning, My fiance had to have surgery done on his wrist. It's nothing serious by any means though! However it did make me have to pick up some extra chores/real life things so he could fully recover. In addition to that, this month I also found out my mother suffered from a heart attack and had to spend some significant time in the hospital. Less than three days after coming home from her stay, she had to go back and was diagnosed with Pancreatitis and had to spend another few days in the hospital. She is home and doing better now, but it's really left a deep emotional mark on me and gave me a reminder of human mortality, especially with my own family. I think a lot of us grow up thinking that our parents are invincible until the day comes when they're suddenly not.. I haven't been able to go visit her as of yet, though I very much would like to if I can in the near future; but bills/rent/ect all comes first so that's just life, but I admit it's really been weighing heavy on me. I will be opening for a few larger scale commissions later today to help get rent paid and and hopefully have enough left over to plan a drive out to my parent's place.
Shinies:
I've gone ahead and enabled the shinies system here on FA because I think it's a neat feature to add to the site! I'm not typically one who gets donations or anything and I certainly am not the type to ask for them either; I've always preferred to work for things, even in emergencies. But It is neat to have an on site "tip" system and I am always grateful to anyone who feels inclined to send something my way ;u;! A lot of other artists are having trust issues with the Shinies system but thanks to my first donator, rekzar (thank you!), I have been able to check it out and see that it should be safe and work well! So don't worry, I certainly won't ask for tips and such, but if someone does feel inclined, then I appreciate it greatly!
How I hurt my Hand:
(Content Warning: Police)
This is the bombshell of the journal that I've been wanting to talk about and explain for a while, especially with how mysterious I was previously when dodging "what happened". The reason I did not explain what happened was because a third party made me feel pressured/almost afraid to discuss what happened and after over a year now, I've since ejected that party from my life.
So how did my hand/wrists get hurt back in March of 2018?
My House was swatted on March 28th, 2018. Yes, as in the scenario when police bust open your front door, run in with loaded guns and escort you off the premises in handcuffs.
To give a quick summary (without naming names), back in March of 2018, My household consisted of a total of five people/furries including myself (all shall remain nameless in this journal). One of said roommates, who had been a close friend for several years had been accused of stealing property from their place of work (omitted) and had an investigation against them. I was not privy to the extent of what they were accused of, so I thought it was a minor misunderstanding with their workplace given the way I was told about it (It turned out not to be minor at all) and thought nothing of it; I trusted this person completely and gave them my loyalty and trust as a friend. This was a mistake. While I have no clue (nor do I care to find out at this point) on weather or not they are guilty of what they had been accused of, their situation led to -my house- being bombarded at 6:10am on the morning of Wednesday, March 28th 2018. The front door was rammed open and destroyed and we were all woken up, handcuffed and taken to the street with assault rifles being pointed at us. The did give all of us about 30 seconds to throw some clothes on quickly before we were handcuffed and sat on the curb across the street from the house in 42 degree weather that morning. I was yelling and begging the swat officers to not harm the dogs and the investigator present to grab my cat before she went out the non-existent front door. All of us were shocked and had no clue what happened to us some of us wondered if we pissed off someone online, but we were quickly informed of the situation. While we were outside, the house was torn apart; mattresses flipped, dressers and drawers emptied and in the case of the master bedroom (where my fiance and I reside), our end tables were busted and broken and the closet was overturned and many fragile items and family air looms were destroyed. I had to beg the investigator let me keep my PC, which she did allow only if I let her go through it, so I had to have the added humiliation of watching police and swat officers stand there looking at the furry porn I drew and cringing while I could say nothing, my house was in shambles and I was still recovering from the shock. Many things were taken as "evidence" and to this day have not been returned; Things like my Direct TV receiver (which cost me $600 to pay off, but only after I had to continue to pay a $120 monthly service fee until I could afford the lump sum to pay off the box and cancel the service), my old cell phone, things that were in my safe. All of it gone and never to be returned. One roommate had their Playstation 4 taken but was thankfully able to get it back; they were the only one who was returned anything. We were also left without a front door and told it was on us to fix, so my fiance spent a full day doing what he could with limited tools to put the door back together enough so it could even be closed; all on very little sleep. It was a traumatic day for everyone and it still haunts me to this day over a year later. The only redeeming factor about this day was that the local police who assisted the swat felt very bad for us and bought us donuts and calmed us all down.
Now, where did my wrists get hurt? Well, for those of you who've met me irl you can attest that I am not a small woman by any stretch of the imagination. I'm tall and heavy (I'm a fatass). When I was handcuffed and sat on the low curb, the cuffs I was given were to small for my hands and began to make them turn purple; I asked for assistance and I was eventually given bigger cuffs later but not before a swat officer needed me to stand up and go speak with an investigator about my roommate. When "helping" me up, the swat officers lifted my body from the ground BY the handcuffs; specifically the metal chain linking the two hands together. Given I am a heavy person, this was extremely painful and caused all my body weight to be placed on my wrists. The pain of this moment was excruciating and left a lasting pain in my wrists that is still strong a year later. This is what has caused my slow down on art and this is what has put me at a disadvantage with a lot of my life plans. Thankfully, I am the only one who suffered any extensive injuries from this event, but thus far it's not gone away and has severely inhibited my ability to do my job. I have considered going to my fall back career that I had lined up, which would be to practice as a CPT/Phlebotomist/a person who draws blood (I paid thousands of dollars to get my certification and have it as a backup years ago), however the steadiness of my hands has decreased so much that if I can't draw without pain, I certainly can't put needles into someone's vein!
It's amazing how one situation can completely wreck your life's plans. This whole scenario has caused me a lot of depression and emotional turmoil over the last year and it's been really hard to get through it. The sense of betrayal that a close friend would lie to my face constantly when I gave them my full trust, that they'd steal equipment from their work while living under my roof to boot, that they'd not be truthful about their situation and put everyone in the house at risk? Anger that the career I worked my entire life for could potentially be ripped away from me and even the backup career I spent thousands to secure is not viable now either, Hurt that this happened in my home when I offered other people a "safe" place to call home, regret that I didn't see through lies and bs sooner...and of course the agony of wanting desperately to work/draw and having to force myself to quit when the pain got to be too much. It's been a long road and things are getting better; I've learned to live with the wrist pain and I am actively pushing forward on not letting it stop me from living the life I want to and thanks to the support of my amazing Fiance, sharksahoy, I am overcoming the emotional aspects. It's hard, but it is getting better.
Since then, the roommate who caused this no longer lives here and I do not keep contact with them anymore. As a matter of fact, the only people who live here now are my fiance and myself, which has caused a big rent hike for both of us but we are getting by! The other two roommates left (for different reasons) on good terms and are still friends to this day and I am so sorry they had to endure this horror with us. My fiance and I also have since seen a lawyer about what we can do given the property and personal damage done to us during this event, but she was quick to let us know that there is nothing we can do to seek compensation so it's a "you're up shit's creek without a paddle" scenario.
It's taken me a while to finally explain what happened and I want everyone to know that by telling the truth of what happened, I am not expecting anything from my followers or friends. I wanted to be truthful and transparent with you all and that's about it! I admit it's cathartic to not have to keep quiet about this anymore as well. I appreciate you all taking the time to listen and thanks for sticking with me this last year even though my art production has been a lot lower. I'm working to get it back up to speed and you guys motivate me so deeply! Your support really does make all the difference <3
Update:
I want to apologize for not having been around as much as I usually like to! I've been extremely busy lately and it's put a wrench in a lot of plans as of late given much of my real life hold ups have been unexpected. Even with a lot of busy life situations though, I have been chugging along with commissions and still knocking out my sketch commission queue! I'm hoping to have it completely cleared out by the 1st and I'm planning on pulling a few all nighters to make that happen! I also plan on adding the final page of the weight gain drive as soon as possible; I feel awful it had to be sidelined for a bit. Also as a shout out, zilbah is the highest donator and who will be taking that pretty Leopard gal home as their very own character!
Most of you who've commissioned me or have followed me for a long time know that having a queue take this long is really out of character for me and I appreciate everyone being patient and understanding while I try to deal with real life and art! This month has been exceptionally difficult as near the beginning, My fiance had to have surgery done on his wrist. It's nothing serious by any means though! However it did make me have to pick up some extra chores/real life things so he could fully recover. In addition to that, this month I also found out my mother suffered from a heart attack and had to spend some significant time in the hospital. Less than three days after coming home from her stay, she had to go back and was diagnosed with Pancreatitis and had to spend another few days in the hospital. She is home and doing better now, but it's really left a deep emotional mark on me and gave me a reminder of human mortality, especially with my own family. I think a lot of us grow up thinking that our parents are invincible until the day comes when they're suddenly not.. I haven't been able to go visit her as of yet, though I very much would like to if I can in the near future; but bills/rent/ect all comes first so that's just life, but I admit it's really been weighing heavy on me. I will be opening for a few larger scale commissions later today to help get rent paid and and hopefully have enough left over to plan a drive out to my parent's place.
Shinies:
I've gone ahead and enabled the shinies system here on FA because I think it's a neat feature to add to the site! I'm not typically one who gets donations or anything and I certainly am not the type to ask for them either; I've always preferred to work for things, even in emergencies. But It is neat to have an on site "tip" system and I am always grateful to anyone who feels inclined to send something my way ;u;! A lot of other artists are having trust issues with the Shinies system but thanks to my first donator, rekzar (thank you!), I have been able to check it out and see that it should be safe and work well! So don't worry, I certainly won't ask for tips and such, but if someone does feel inclined, then I appreciate it greatly!
How I hurt my Hand:
(Content Warning: Police)
This is the bombshell of the journal that I've been wanting to talk about and explain for a while, especially with how mysterious I was previously when dodging "what happened". The reason I did not explain what happened was because a third party made me feel pressured/almost afraid to discuss what happened and after over a year now, I've since ejected that party from my life.
So how did my hand/wrists get hurt back in March of 2018?
My House was swatted on March 28th, 2018. Yes, as in the scenario when police bust open your front door, run in with loaded guns and escort you off the premises in handcuffs.
To give a quick summary (without naming names), back in March of 2018, My household consisted of a total of five people/furries including myself (all shall remain nameless in this journal). One of said roommates, who had been a close friend for several years had been accused of stealing property from their place of work (omitted) and had an investigation against them. I was not privy to the extent of what they were accused of, so I thought it was a minor misunderstanding with their workplace given the way I was told about it (It turned out not to be minor at all) and thought nothing of it; I trusted this person completely and gave them my loyalty and trust as a friend. This was a mistake. While I have no clue (nor do I care to find out at this point) on weather or not they are guilty of what they had been accused of, their situation led to -my house- being bombarded at 6:10am on the morning of Wednesday, March 28th 2018. The front door was rammed open and destroyed and we were all woken up, handcuffed and taken to the street with assault rifles being pointed at us. The did give all of us about 30 seconds to throw some clothes on quickly before we were handcuffed and sat on the curb across the street from the house in 42 degree weather that morning. I was yelling and begging the swat officers to not harm the dogs and the investigator present to grab my cat before she went out the non-existent front door. All of us were shocked and had no clue what happened to us some of us wondered if we pissed off someone online, but we were quickly informed of the situation. While we were outside, the house was torn apart; mattresses flipped, dressers and drawers emptied and in the case of the master bedroom (where my fiance and I reside), our end tables were busted and broken and the closet was overturned and many fragile items and family air looms were destroyed. I had to beg the investigator let me keep my PC, which she did allow only if I let her go through it, so I had to have the added humiliation of watching police and swat officers stand there looking at the furry porn I drew and cringing while I could say nothing, my house was in shambles and I was still recovering from the shock. Many things were taken as "evidence" and to this day have not been returned; Things like my Direct TV receiver (which cost me $600 to pay off, but only after I had to continue to pay a $120 monthly service fee until I could afford the lump sum to pay off the box and cancel the service), my old cell phone, things that were in my safe. All of it gone and never to be returned. One roommate had their Playstation 4 taken but was thankfully able to get it back; they were the only one who was returned anything. We were also left without a front door and told it was on us to fix, so my fiance spent a full day doing what he could with limited tools to put the door back together enough so it could even be closed; all on very little sleep. It was a traumatic day for everyone and it still haunts me to this day over a year later. The only redeeming factor about this day was that the local police who assisted the swat felt very bad for us and bought us donuts and calmed us all down.
Now, where did my wrists get hurt? Well, for those of you who've met me irl you can attest that I am not a small woman by any stretch of the imagination. I'm tall and heavy (I'm a fatass). When I was handcuffed and sat on the low curb, the cuffs I was given were to small for my hands and began to make them turn purple; I asked for assistance and I was eventually given bigger cuffs later but not before a swat officer needed me to stand up and go speak with an investigator about my roommate. When "helping" me up, the swat officers lifted my body from the ground BY the handcuffs; specifically the metal chain linking the two hands together. Given I am a heavy person, this was extremely painful and caused all my body weight to be placed on my wrists. The pain of this moment was excruciating and left a lasting pain in my wrists that is still strong a year later. This is what has caused my slow down on art and this is what has put me at a disadvantage with a lot of my life plans. Thankfully, I am the only one who suffered any extensive injuries from this event, but thus far it's not gone away and has severely inhibited my ability to do my job. I have considered going to my fall back career that I had lined up, which would be to practice as a CPT/Phlebotomist/a person who draws blood (I paid thousands of dollars to get my certification and have it as a backup years ago), however the steadiness of my hands has decreased so much that if I can't draw without pain, I certainly can't put needles into someone's vein!
It's amazing how one situation can completely wreck your life's plans. This whole scenario has caused me a lot of depression and emotional turmoil over the last year and it's been really hard to get through it. The sense of betrayal that a close friend would lie to my face constantly when I gave them my full trust, that they'd steal equipment from their work while living under my roof to boot, that they'd not be truthful about their situation and put everyone in the house at risk? Anger that the career I worked my entire life for could potentially be ripped away from me and even the backup career I spent thousands to secure is not viable now either, Hurt that this happened in my home when I offered other people a "safe" place to call home, regret that I didn't see through lies and bs sooner...and of course the agony of wanting desperately to work/draw and having to force myself to quit when the pain got to be too much. It's been a long road and things are getting better; I've learned to live with the wrist pain and I am actively pushing forward on not letting it stop me from living the life I want to and thanks to the support of my amazing Fiance, sharksahoy, I am overcoming the emotional aspects. It's hard, but it is getting better.
Since then, the roommate who caused this no longer lives here and I do not keep contact with them anymore. As a matter of fact, the only people who live here now are my fiance and myself, which has caused a big rent hike for both of us but we are getting by! The other two roommates left (for different reasons) on good terms and are still friends to this day and I am so sorry they had to endure this horror with us. My fiance and I also have since seen a lawyer about what we can do given the property and personal damage done to us during this event, but she was quick to let us know that there is nothing we can do to seek compensation so it's a "you're up shit's creek without a paddle" scenario.
It's taken me a while to finally explain what happened and I want everyone to know that by telling the truth of what happened, I am not expecting anything from my followers or friends. I wanted to be truthful and transparent with you all and that's about it! I admit it's cathartic to not have to keep quiet about this anymore as well. I appreciate you all taking the time to listen and thanks for sticking with me this last year even though my art production has been a lot lower. I'm working to get it back up to speed and you guys motivate me so deeply! Your support really does make all the difference <3
Weight Gain Drive -ENDING SOON
Posted 6 years agoJust letting everyone know that my weight gain drive IS still currently going and I will be finishing up the final page in the next few days!
Thanks everyone for following and participating, I appreciate it so very much!
Thanks everyone for following and participating, I appreciate it so very much!
Sketch Commissions - OPEN
Posted 6 years agoI have a small number of slots open right now for those who may be wanting one!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ There are no WIPS for sketch commissions!
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ There are no WIPS for sketch commissions!
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Update!
Posted 6 years agoHey folks!
So I wanted to put out a Journal to let folks know that I'm still around and working hard on my queue! I apologize for being a lot slower than normal with my output but I'm still trying to adjust to wrist pain from my injury last year and have had to force myself to take things a little slower as I go! That being said, I am still working daily on commissions and am always around if you need to contact me! A BIG request from folks though is that if you want to contact me for or related to commissions, please be sure to use email! I know I have big red letters that say "No Notes, use email" on my profile, but I think some folks miss it! I unfortunately don't check notes often as folks tend to use them to try and strike up small talk and it can get commission notes lost! Plus, I really like to keep all conversation related to commission in the same place so it serves as an easy reference point for both me and the customer! I apologize I don't keep up with notes but I do check my email often and that's a great place to hit me up!
I also want to mention that another aspect of my slow down is because so many of you have requested previews or wips of these sketch commissions! I totally understand wanting to take a peek at things before it's finalized, but in the future I may not offer this option anymore as Sketch commissions are meant to be budget friendly, quick and fast! I've had some issues with sending folks WIPS and not hearing back for, in some cases, two weeks and I've had others request total re-draws and many edits! I am totally fine with folks asking for edits and such, but I want to make sure everyone is aware that it does cause a bit of a slow down and hope folks don't mind too much! At my current pace, I am looking to have the entire queue of sketch commissions gone within the next week and a half and the last folks who haven't gotten wips that requested them will be getting them in the next few days!
Also thanks a ton to those who've been participating in my weight gain drive! I will most likely be ending it very soon and it's been a fun side-project that I've had a blast working on with all of you!
Thanks a ton for your patience and I am always super grateful that you all trust me with your characters and I'm glad I get to serve you all as an artist!
So I wanted to put out a Journal to let folks know that I'm still around and working hard on my queue! I apologize for being a lot slower than normal with my output but I'm still trying to adjust to wrist pain from my injury last year and have had to force myself to take things a little slower as I go! That being said, I am still working daily on commissions and am always around if you need to contact me! A BIG request from folks though is that if you want to contact me for or related to commissions, please be sure to use email! I know I have big red letters that say "No Notes, use email" on my profile, but I think some folks miss it! I unfortunately don't check notes often as folks tend to use them to try and strike up small talk and it can get commission notes lost! Plus, I really like to keep all conversation related to commission in the same place so it serves as an easy reference point for both me and the customer! I apologize I don't keep up with notes but I do check my email often and that's a great place to hit me up!
I also want to mention that another aspect of my slow down is because so many of you have requested previews or wips of these sketch commissions! I totally understand wanting to take a peek at things before it's finalized, but in the future I may not offer this option anymore as Sketch commissions are meant to be budget friendly, quick and fast! I've had some issues with sending folks WIPS and not hearing back for, in some cases, two weeks and I've had others request total re-draws and many edits! I am totally fine with folks asking for edits and such, but I want to make sure everyone is aware that it does cause a bit of a slow down and hope folks don't mind too much! At my current pace, I am looking to have the entire queue of sketch commissions gone within the next week and a half and the last folks who haven't gotten wips that requested them will be getting them in the next few days!
Also thanks a ton to those who've been participating in my weight gain drive! I will most likely be ending it very soon and it's been a fun side-project that I've had a blast working on with all of you!
Thanks a ton for your patience and I am always super grateful that you all trust me with your characters and I'm glad I get to serve you all as an artist!
Sketch Commissions - OPEN
Posted 6 years agoA few slots are available for sketch commissions, but not too many for the time being; Just taking a few for bills!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Sketch Commissions -Still Open
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
So I've decided to keep sketch commissions open for a little while longer since this form of commission work has been doing wonders for taking a lot of stress off my wrists and also gives me the ability to get them done pretty efficiently! I'm glad that so many folks enjoy these types of commissions so I wanted to keep the steam going and allow more folks to benefit from my stream prices without having to actually catch one! Again, I don't think I'll be taking stream commissions for a while so if you like my cheaper commission option, this is for you!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
So I've decided to keep sketch commissions open for a little while longer since this form of commission work has been doing wonders for taking a lot of stress off my wrists and also gives me the ability to get them done pretty efficiently! I'm glad that so many folks enjoy these types of commissions so I wanted to keep the steam going and allow more folks to benefit from my stream prices without having to actually catch one! Again, I don't think I'll be taking stream commissions for a while so if you like my cheaper commission option, this is for you!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Question for my fans! All Opinions welcome!
Posted 6 years agoSO GUYS, I have a question for you all!
I want to make a Dakimakura of one of my OCs and I'm not sure who to choose! Which of these characters would -you- wanna snuggle with the most?
Friday (Female)
Aiden (Male)
Aevis (Female bodied with male lower bits)
Lady Arcanine (Female, plump lady)
Carmen (Female)
Let me know so I can plan it out!
I want to make a Dakimakura of one of my OCs and I'm not sure who to choose! Which of these characters would -you- wanna snuggle with the most?
Friday (Female)
Aiden (Male)
Aevis (Female bodied with male lower bits)
Lady Arcanine (Female, plump lady)
Carmen (Female)
Let me know so I can plan it out!
Final Call for Sketch commissions! -Only a few slots left
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
I already did a last call about 4 days ago, but I've been powering through these pretty quick and wanted to offer a few extra spots for any late comers who still wanted a sketch commission slot!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
I already did a last call about 4 days ago, but I've been powering through these pretty quick and wanted to offer a few extra spots for any late comers who still wanted a sketch commission slot!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Final Call for Sketch commissions!
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
Just letting everyone know that I'm putting in the last call for folks to submit sketch commission forms! Just to let you guys know, I do not plan to do any streams for a bit due to my wrist pain so this is the only way to get one of these sketch commissions! I will be working on these throughout the next week and a half and if I finish them sooner, I may reopen more slots!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Just letting everyone know that I'm putting in the last call for folks to submit sketch commission forms! Just to let you guys know, I do not plan to do any streams for a bit due to my wrist pain so this is the only way to get one of these sketch commissions! I will be working on these throughout the next week and a half and if I finish them sooner, I may reopen more slots!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Sketch Commissions -Extended Opening!
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
So I've decided to continue keeping these slots open for a while! I normally do these types of commissions in streams only but honestly it's been really rough on my injured wrists so I'm trying a consistent opening for this week! Sketch commissions taken right now are scheduled to be completed this week so they have a very quick turn around!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
So I've decided to continue keeping these slots open for a while! I normally do these types of commissions in streams only but honestly it's been really rough on my injured wrists so I'm trying a consistent opening for this week! Sketch commissions taken right now are scheduled to be completed this week so they have a very quick turn around!
These are not first come, first served slots so don't hesitate to put a form in!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Sketch Commissions OPEN
Posted 6 years agoHey there everyone!
So every once in a while, I decide to offer up my sketch commissions for folks who may not be able to make it to my streams! As you all may know, I do not offer my sketch commissions as an option outside of streams so that's why I like to offer up a few slots here and there for folks who can't make it or may not have time zones that work well with my own! This batch will be completed by December 31st at the latest, so there is a relatively quick turn around time for them! I am taking limited slots, so please keep that in mind when deciding how soon to put in a form!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
So every once in a while, I decide to offer up my sketch commissions for folks who may not be able to make it to my streams! As you all may know, I do not offer my sketch commissions as an option outside of streams so that's why I like to offer up a few slots here and there for folks who can't make it or may not have time zones that work well with my own! This batch will be completed by December 31st at the latest, so there is a relatively quick turn around time for them! I am taking limited slots, so please keep that in mind when deciding how soon to put in a form!
If you're interested in a slot, please fill out this form!
-> https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link <-
Information
Flat color sketches: $55
(second character is an additional $55)
Cel shaded color sketches: $70
(second character is an additional $70)
+ Payment is upfront before I start your commission and a Paypal invoice will be sent to you!
+ There may be an extra charge for complex character designs
+ Backgrounds are not available for these commissions
+ Props are allowed within reason!
+ There is an extra charge for complex armor/outfits. Examples would be FFXI, FFXIV, WoW, Tera, Darksouls, overwatch, ect costumes/artifact armor/weapons/mounts, ect
+ most fetish material is okay except for Scat, watersports and underage characters in adult situations.
+ I reserve the right to decline a commission for content I don't feel comfortable drawing that may not be listed above.
+ Commissioner is free to post their commission wherever they please
+ Preview sketches are available upon request but are not given by default!
Examples:
-Flat Color-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29142523/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27914450/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775069/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23175867/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24819068/
-Cel Shaded-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775259/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29775120/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29551133/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29341230/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29158074/
Commission Inquiries + Extra
Posted 7 years agoHeyo folks, so it's been a while since I made a journal and given some recent situations, I wanted to address a few things for those who've been sending in commission inquires!
While I know I have had these rules/information posted on my profile/commissions tab...in bold letters....for over a year....I wanted to give some gentle reminders for those who may be trying to contact me for work! I am always very appreciative when people want to commission me and I value everyone dearly, but I admit that at times it can be a bit frustrating to have to explain or repeat myself when I've done my best to make things public knowledge! I'm hoping that formally addressing these things in a journal can be helpful!
First and foremost, I do not accept commissions in FA notes. I've got a "I do not use notes" notice in my profile in bold red letters, but I suppose some folks can miss things so I formally wanted to state that I will not accept a commission on just an FA note! For those of you who have noted me, you'll notice that I always say "please email me to continue this conversation"! This is because I do not view FA notes as neither a secure nor reliable place for discussing what is ultimately business! Emails are the most common way to handle any business transaction and provide dated, easily viewed receipts for both parties! I also will not take commission requests on messengers or social media (unless it's a twitter commission slot, which is very rare!). Again, the only place I will take commissions is either in streams or via email contact! I'm sorry if this is inconvenient but this is how I choose to run my business and hopefully folks can respect that! My email is and always has been on my FA profile, but just in case, it's Anuvia[at]gmail.com !
Next order of business is that it seems folks who do email me tend to ask for sketch commissions! Again, I hate to sound kind of like a jerk, but in my commission information tab, in bold letters, at the top and bottom of the listing and in their own table, my sketch commissions say "These are through Streams or Journals only!". I am true to my word on this! I do not accept sketch commissions, either flat colored or cel shaded, outside of streams or journal slots. This commission type is more or less me offering a cheaper, faster commission type for folks who happen to catch me in a stream and is done as a "special"! I understand not all commissioners can make it to streams, which is why I periodically do journal slots as well! My normally priced commission work is always available in emails though!
I know that my responses can be slow at times, but please give me some time when contacting me for a commission! I think it's a bit important to remember that I am only one person running a full business! I try to give as much personal time as I can to each and every email I receive and while it can take a while for me to get back to you, please understand I'm doing my best! If you don't hear from me right away, wait a few days and try to send a second to bump the first! I have no problem with this and it honestly helps me if I somehow miss something! I also tend to give my current customers priority on contact, so if you're inquiring, please don't hesitate to give a gentle reminder/poke! I will get to you asap!
I am often asked "why don't you stream more?" and the answer to that is; I stream when I can but the availability of time takes a back seat to my current queue and my wrist pain! I understand some folks have been very vocal about wishing I would stream more, but the truth be told is that I can only keep up with my wrist pain and what I can do on my queue at the time being. My commissioned work always takes priority over streams and I tend to only do streams when I am certain I can split my time evenly! That being said though, if you're wondering why I've been doing more adopts lately and streams have been less frequent; it's because of my wrist injury! I am doing my best to overcome the pain in manageable ways, but sadly my art is 100% of my income and there is no assistance for me when I'm in pain! I don't believe in taking donations or setting up a gofundme so I opt to make a few more adopts that I normally would to keep things running smooth! I will never ask for handouts and would much rather work through pain!
And as a final note, Please do not contact me on messengers like telegram or discord. I have never publicly given out my information or made a statement saying that contacting me by these means is acceptable! These are my private forms of contact that I rarely use, even with close friends. It's always very unnerving and creepy to me when a person I don't know at all suddenly contacts me like this, especially when it's 100% uninvited. If you need to chat with me for any reason, please use email! I do not conduct business outside of there and, I'm sorry to say, I don't have the time for uninvited small or casual chat!
Sorry if this journal is disjointed; I just wanted to address a few things!
While I know I have had these rules/information posted on my profile/commissions tab...in bold letters....for over a year....I wanted to give some gentle reminders for those who may be trying to contact me for work! I am always very appreciative when people want to commission me and I value everyone dearly, but I admit that at times it can be a bit frustrating to have to explain or repeat myself when I've done my best to make things public knowledge! I'm hoping that formally addressing these things in a journal can be helpful!
First and foremost, I do not accept commissions in FA notes. I've got a "I do not use notes" notice in my profile in bold red letters, but I suppose some folks can miss things so I formally wanted to state that I will not accept a commission on just an FA note! For those of you who have noted me, you'll notice that I always say "please email me to continue this conversation"! This is because I do not view FA notes as neither a secure nor reliable place for discussing what is ultimately business! Emails are the most common way to handle any business transaction and provide dated, easily viewed receipts for both parties! I also will not take commission requests on messengers or social media (unless it's a twitter commission slot, which is very rare!). Again, the only place I will take commissions is either in streams or via email contact! I'm sorry if this is inconvenient but this is how I choose to run my business and hopefully folks can respect that! My email is and always has been on my FA profile, but just in case, it's Anuvia[at]gmail.com !
Next order of business is that it seems folks who do email me tend to ask for sketch commissions! Again, I hate to sound kind of like a jerk, but in my commission information tab, in bold letters, at the top and bottom of the listing and in their own table, my sketch commissions say "These are through Streams or Journals only!". I am true to my word on this! I do not accept sketch commissions, either flat colored or cel shaded, outside of streams or journal slots. This commission type is more or less me offering a cheaper, faster commission type for folks who happen to catch me in a stream and is done as a "special"! I understand not all commissioners can make it to streams, which is why I periodically do journal slots as well! My normally priced commission work is always available in emails though!
I know that my responses can be slow at times, but please give me some time when contacting me for a commission! I think it's a bit important to remember that I am only one person running a full business! I try to give as much personal time as I can to each and every email I receive and while it can take a while for me to get back to you, please understand I'm doing my best! If you don't hear from me right away, wait a few days and try to send a second to bump the first! I have no problem with this and it honestly helps me if I somehow miss something! I also tend to give my current customers priority on contact, so if you're inquiring, please don't hesitate to give a gentle reminder/poke! I will get to you asap!
I am often asked "why don't you stream more?" and the answer to that is; I stream when I can but the availability of time takes a back seat to my current queue and my wrist pain! I understand some folks have been very vocal about wishing I would stream more, but the truth be told is that I can only keep up with my wrist pain and what I can do on my queue at the time being. My commissioned work always takes priority over streams and I tend to only do streams when I am certain I can split my time evenly! That being said though, if you're wondering why I've been doing more adopts lately and streams have been less frequent; it's because of my wrist injury! I am doing my best to overcome the pain in manageable ways, but sadly my art is 100% of my income and there is no assistance for me when I'm in pain! I don't believe in taking donations or setting up a gofundme so I opt to make a few more adopts that I normally would to keep things running smooth! I will never ask for handouts and would much rather work through pain!
And as a final note, Please do not contact me on messengers like telegram or discord. I have never publicly given out my information or made a statement saying that contacting me by these means is acceptable! These are my private forms of contact that I rarely use, even with close friends. It's always very unnerving and creepy to me when a person I don't know at all suddenly contacts me like this, especially when it's 100% uninvited. If you need to chat with me for any reason, please use email! I do not conduct business outside of there and, I'm sorry to say, I don't have the time for uninvited small or casual chat!
Sorry if this journal is disjointed; I just wanted to address a few things!
IMPORTANT UPDATE!
Posted 7 years agoHey there folks! I’ve been debating mentioning this for a while now, but I think it’s inportant to keep my fans and commissioners in on my life and what’s up.
Back in late March, I sustained a fairly significant injury to my wrists. I don’t want to go into details, but suffice to say, it left a bit of lasting damage on me. My hands just aren’t what they used to be ever since and there is a constant pain that persists throughout most of my days and it’s been causing a lot of issues on my end. I’m not going to go into detail about the daily/personal troubles it’s caused because my personal stuff isn’t really anyone’s concern but my own; the part I need to address to you guys is that it has caused a significant slow down on my ability to draw. I’m sure many of you have noticed that my output of art has been slower than usual, and for those of you who frequent my streams, you may have noticed that they have been pretty rare lately on top of the fact that I’m a lot slower while I draw in them than I used to be.
I’ve been doing my best to push through the pain and gut through it because my work is my life; I’ve given the vast majority of my life to making this my career and I can’t really stomach the thought of disappointing my commissioners. I think part of me has been determined to keep working and just hope it goes away eventually, but here we are, in June and I’ve come to realize that I can’t internalize the struggle anymore and I need to be open about my new problem.
What does this mean?
Please don’t fret if you’ve commissioned me; I want to first and foremost explain that I will not be canceling or stopping my commission work. I will be doing my best to fight through this pain and the problems (shaky hands) I’m dealing with and no one will be left behind with work. That’s not how I roll, that’s not how I am. What I am going to say is that I am hoping I can request a little patience with those who are currently on my queue as my speed has dropped significantly. I will always strive to give everyone the best quality I can because it’s not just my job, it’s my passion. It just may take a bit longer than usual and I sincerely apologize for this. To any current commissioners, if waiting a bit longer than normal is something you’re not willing to do, please contact me and we can work out a refund. There is no shame in that request as my injury isn’t anyone’s fault and my commissioners should not be forced to bare the burden of it. I understand that my ability to produce a service I was paid for should take precedence over anything else, so if you feel waiting isn’t something you’re up to, I will wholeheartedly be accepting of that choice and make sure we can come to a resolution!
For those who are willing to wait, I appreciate it beyond words can convey and I promise that despite my injury, I will still provide you with the best work I possibly can, just as I always have!
The other downside to this is that I am unsure of how much longer I can keep Commissions as my full time job. The speed required on my end to keep myself afloat isn’t quite there anymore. I don’t have a family that’s willing to help me out and I don’t ever foresee myself being willing to open things like “gofundme”. I’ve never opened anything like that I and I don’t think I ever will; it’s something I personally am against because my situation isn’t really deserving of such a thing. The truth is, I just have to suck it up and look for a new career path. I do have a Ko-Fi page for tips, but I’m not going to link it because I don’t feel right asking for any donations.
It’s been a really difficult time in my life to come to terms with this situation along with having to take several trips out of state in the last span of a month. I’ve worked my entire life to make drawing my career. I grew up being told it couldn’t be done and was was put down by family and even friends in my younger years who insisted it was a pipe dream. Yet, somehow, I did it. I gave everything I could to living my dream and I’m so happy I was able to live that part of my life. Sadly, all things come to a close and I’ve just been having a rough time emotionally coming to terms with the death of a dream, so to speak. I’m so grateful to have been able to draw for so many people and bring their ideas to life and I would never trade any of that for the world. I would be a liar if I didn’t say I’m not at least a little bitter; It’s hard to accept that everything you worked for in life can be taken away from you in moments, but if anything I’d rather use that as a means to remind folks to not take anything in life for granted! Not even your own body. I can stare at my hands in disgust at the fact they don’t work the way they used to, but it won’t change anything so I’d rather invest my time in trying to stay positive.
As it stands, I’m currently seeking standard employment to make sure I can stay above water and I’ve been working my tail off as fast as I can to make sure my commissioners don’t have to wait too long for anything. I may continue to draw after my queue is cleared but it will depend on the state of my hands at that point. It’s a “we’ll see” situation; though I think I will be hard pressed to completely give up on my career. I may do a stream today just to test the waters on my speed and to make sure my bills are covered, but I don’t think I’ll be doing many more anytime soon.
If you did read all of this, I appreciate it a ton! Take care and have a great day!
Back in late March, I sustained a fairly significant injury to my wrists. I don’t want to go into details, but suffice to say, it left a bit of lasting damage on me. My hands just aren’t what they used to be ever since and there is a constant pain that persists throughout most of my days and it’s been causing a lot of issues on my end. I’m not going to go into detail about the daily/personal troubles it’s caused because my personal stuff isn’t really anyone’s concern but my own; the part I need to address to you guys is that it has caused a significant slow down on my ability to draw. I’m sure many of you have noticed that my output of art has been slower than usual, and for those of you who frequent my streams, you may have noticed that they have been pretty rare lately on top of the fact that I’m a lot slower while I draw in them than I used to be.
I’ve been doing my best to push through the pain and gut through it because my work is my life; I’ve given the vast majority of my life to making this my career and I can’t really stomach the thought of disappointing my commissioners. I think part of me has been determined to keep working and just hope it goes away eventually, but here we are, in June and I’ve come to realize that I can’t internalize the struggle anymore and I need to be open about my new problem.
What does this mean?
Please don’t fret if you’ve commissioned me; I want to first and foremost explain that I will not be canceling or stopping my commission work. I will be doing my best to fight through this pain and the problems (shaky hands) I’m dealing with and no one will be left behind with work. That’s not how I roll, that’s not how I am. What I am going to say is that I am hoping I can request a little patience with those who are currently on my queue as my speed has dropped significantly. I will always strive to give everyone the best quality I can because it’s not just my job, it’s my passion. It just may take a bit longer than usual and I sincerely apologize for this. To any current commissioners, if waiting a bit longer than normal is something you’re not willing to do, please contact me and we can work out a refund. There is no shame in that request as my injury isn’t anyone’s fault and my commissioners should not be forced to bare the burden of it. I understand that my ability to produce a service I was paid for should take precedence over anything else, so if you feel waiting isn’t something you’re up to, I will wholeheartedly be accepting of that choice and make sure we can come to a resolution!
For those who are willing to wait, I appreciate it beyond words can convey and I promise that despite my injury, I will still provide you with the best work I possibly can, just as I always have!
The other downside to this is that I am unsure of how much longer I can keep Commissions as my full time job. The speed required on my end to keep myself afloat isn’t quite there anymore. I don’t have a family that’s willing to help me out and I don’t ever foresee myself being willing to open things like “gofundme”. I’ve never opened anything like that I and I don’t think I ever will; it’s something I personally am against because my situation isn’t really deserving of such a thing. The truth is, I just have to suck it up and look for a new career path. I do have a Ko-Fi page for tips, but I’m not going to link it because I don’t feel right asking for any donations.
It’s been a really difficult time in my life to come to terms with this situation along with having to take several trips out of state in the last span of a month. I’ve worked my entire life to make drawing my career. I grew up being told it couldn’t be done and was was put down by family and even friends in my younger years who insisted it was a pipe dream. Yet, somehow, I did it. I gave everything I could to living my dream and I’m so happy I was able to live that part of my life. Sadly, all things come to a close and I’ve just been having a rough time emotionally coming to terms with the death of a dream, so to speak. I’m so grateful to have been able to draw for so many people and bring their ideas to life and I would never trade any of that for the world. I would be a liar if I didn’t say I’m not at least a little bitter; It’s hard to accept that everything you worked for in life can be taken away from you in moments, but if anything I’d rather use that as a means to remind folks to not take anything in life for granted! Not even your own body. I can stare at my hands in disgust at the fact they don’t work the way they used to, but it won’t change anything so I’d rather invest my time in trying to stay positive.
As it stands, I’m currently seeking standard employment to make sure I can stay above water and I’ve been working my tail off as fast as I can to make sure my commissioners don’t have to wait too long for anything. I may continue to draw after my queue is cleared but it will depend on the state of my hands at that point. It’s a “we’ll see” situation; though I think I will be hard pressed to completely give up on my career. I may do a stream today just to test the waters on my speed and to make sure my bills are covered, but I don’t think I’ll be doing many more anytime soon.
If you did read all of this, I appreciate it a ton! Take care and have a great day!
Illustration Commissions Open! -Limited Slots -Discounted!
Posted 7 years agoI still have a few open slots for these, so I wanted to remind folks that the form is open and accepting!
I won't close the form proper for a few more days, so have at it! Also please remember that these are not first come first served, so do not get discouraged!
These slots are being offered at $80 instead of the normal $85!
(I will even drop it down to $70 is you're requesting feral/non anthro animals!)
If you would like a slot, Please fill out this form!
-> https://drive.google.com/open?id=1-.....1fOeNAODXFqY3M <-
EXAMPLES:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25638416/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25955833/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25308719/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23538057/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22940786/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22434674/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22425352/
Information:
+ MOST fetish material is okay though I reserve the right to decline some I may be uncomfortable with.
+ Additional Characters are $60
+ Simple backgrounds are included for free (flat colors, patterns, gradients, etc)
+ You CAN add a detailed background for $40, though the price does increase depending on what it is!
+ Payment is in USD via paypal only!
+ You will receive a high resolution copy along with a second websafe size
+ You may upload your commission anywhere you'd like!
+ If you see things you want changed or altered, please say! It's part of why I stream these live!
+ I will not redraw an entire image if the customer has been present during the process.
+ Please provide accurate references or make note of changes you need before I get going!
+ Complicated outfits may require an extra charge; This usually goes for video Game relic/artifact armors (WoW, FFXI, FFXIV, ect)
I won't close the form proper for a few more days, so have at it! Also please remember that these are not first come first served, so do not get discouraged!
These slots are being offered at $80 instead of the normal $85!
(I will even drop it down to $70 is you're requesting feral/non anthro animals!)
If you would like a slot, Please fill out this form!
-> https://drive.google.com/open?id=1-.....1fOeNAODXFqY3M <-
EXAMPLES:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25638416/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25955833/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25308719/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23538057/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22940786/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22434674/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22425352/
Information:
+ MOST fetish material is okay though I reserve the right to decline some I may be uncomfortable with.
+ Additional Characters are $60
+ Simple backgrounds are included for free (flat colors, patterns, gradients, etc)
+ You CAN add a detailed background for $40, though the price does increase depending on what it is!
+ Payment is in USD via paypal only!
+ You will receive a high resolution copy along with a second websafe size
+ You may upload your commission anywhere you'd like!
+ If you see things you want changed or altered, please say! It's part of why I stream these live!
+ I will not redraw an entire image if the customer has been present during the process.
+ Please provide accurate references or make note of changes you need before I get going!
+ Complicated outfits may require an extra charge; This usually goes for video Game relic/artifact armors (WoW, FFXI, FFXIV, ect)
Slow on emails! Out of town!
Posted 7 years agoJust a heads up to those trying to shoot emails my way!!
I’ve been out of town for the last several days on an impromptu family trip tat wasn’t planned, so emails have been a bit slow!
THE GOOD NEWS IS, I will be home later this evening after a five hour drive and emails will resume tomorrow morning along with work! I appreciate everyone’s patience with me these last few days and if you haven’t heard from me, that’s why!
I would have mentioned it before I left but I genuinely didn’t have time! I apologize deeply for this and again, I will be back to my normal grind tomorrow morning!!
Hope you all have a great day and to those next of you waiting for correspondence from me, be assured that I will be in contact soon!
I’ve been out of town for the last several days on an impromptu family trip tat wasn’t planned, so emails have been a bit slow!
THE GOOD NEWS IS, I will be home later this evening after a five hour drive and emails will resume tomorrow morning along with work! I appreciate everyone’s patience with me these last few days and if you haven’t heard from me, that’s why!
I would have mentioned it before I left but I genuinely didn’t have time! I apologize deeply for this and again, I will be back to my normal grind tomorrow morning!!
Hope you all have a great day and to those next of you waiting for correspondence from me, be assured that I will be in contact soon!
Sketch Commissions slots - OPEN
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
Opening another round of these since the last batch has been complete for a little bit now! I also wanted to mention as a gentle reminder that these types of commissions are ONLY available in streams or in journals so if you want to catch a slot outside of a stream, this is the only way! These are to be done offline for those who can’t make streams are done between my other coms!
Slots are OPEN!
-Prices-
-- $50 For flat colors
-- $65 for Cel Shaded
Images are all full bodies!
Please fill out this form if you are interested in a slot
https://goo.gl/forms/ABgola5ArVDSfmOq1
--EXAMPLES--
--Flat Colored:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25809014/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24047883/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24930873/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25175972/
-- Cel Shaded
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25497815/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25564448/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25495794/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25434928/
Opening another round of these since the last batch has been complete for a little bit now! I also wanted to mention as a gentle reminder that these types of commissions are ONLY available in streams or in journals so if you want to catch a slot outside of a stream, this is the only way! These are to be done offline for those who can’t make streams are done between my other coms!
Slots are OPEN!
-Prices-
-- $50 For flat colors
-- $65 for Cel Shaded
Images are all full bodies!
Please fill out this form if you are interested in a slot
https://goo.gl/forms/ABgola5ArVDSfmOq1
--EXAMPLES--
--Flat Colored:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25809014/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24047883/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24930873/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25175972/
-- Cel Shaded
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25497815/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25564448/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25495794/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25434928/
