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General | Posted 15 years ago*It was quiet as usual, not a sound or activity was heard or seen. When a figure wearing a hooded robe walks out in the open. The head moves around to survey the room and shook his head disapproving.*
"This will never do." It spoke, clearly male, "Time to kick it up!"
*He snapped his fingers and a boom radio pops into existence. It lands on the ground and the figure pushes the play button and a dance music started to play: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHcVU5cGUNE&feature=relmfu . As the music started to play the figure moved slowly to the beat and then picked up the pace with the music. As soon as the phrase 'Drop the beat' was heard the robe dropped on ground as the figure revealed himself. *
APienkoss smirked at the viewers, "The Insanity is f'in back!
*He continued to dance to the music as the place started to become more lively as many different kinds of character came out and started to dance as well. APienkoss smirked as he raised his right hand to his face level and spark of ran across his hand and between his fingers.*
"And this time, I am going to show everyone why I am known as Chaos Reborn, Order's Nightmare, the Insane Genius Writer!" APienkoss said with a smirk as his eyes showed a bright glow of determination and will never seen before.
"This will never do." It spoke, clearly male, "Time to kick it up!"
*He snapped his fingers and a boom radio pops into existence. It lands on the ground and the figure pushes the play button and a dance music started to play: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHcVU5cGUNE&feature=relmfu . As the music started to play the figure moved slowly to the beat and then picked up the pace with the music. As soon as the phrase 'Drop the beat' was heard the robe dropped on ground as the figure revealed himself. *
APienkoss smirked at the viewers, "The Insanity is f'in back!
*He continued to dance to the music as the place started to become more lively as many different kinds of character came out and started to dance as well. APienkoss smirked as he raised his right hand to his face level and spark of ran across his hand and between his fingers.*
"And this time, I am going to show everyone why I am known as Chaos Reborn, Order's Nightmare, the Insane Genius Writer!" APienkoss said with a smirk as his eyes showed a bright glow of determination and will never seen before.
1 Year Yet a Eternality
General | Posted 15 years agoI would have posted this yesterday but alot of things came up and I didn't have the chance. ^^u
And to also point out that i did meet with my father and while the reason of why he did what he did and that he acknowledged what he did was wrong, it is not just the matter of time and the direction of the path to see on how long the trust could be rebuild and made better.
Anyway, onto what this post is really about.
To those that have been reading my post and what not, it has been a full year ever since the events with the two girls that betrayed my trust by not telling me the truth. It is not like I am still mourning, pinning or what not; it is just as I was about to come to terms; the events with my father happened and that became the focus. Now that everything is settled, this is being brought up as it was not resolve yet personally.
Looking back on it, I had a feeling that it would happen. After Hakiri and myself separated on good terms and when I tried to contact her, she never responded back. I felt that deep in my being, that maybe she found someone where she lived. Of course I push the idea away as I thought it was something out of fear and worry. I believe that even if that was true, she would at least tell me about.
But of course we all know how that turned out ^^u. And even finding out that the other girl, her friend, actually became engaged which she basically followed her example.
So it wasn't the fact that the love was hurt, it was the fact that my trust in them was damaged by not telling me the truth and even to go as far as to make it sound like I was the one at fault.
Of course that was a year ago and alot of things have happened; though times but with good times as well.
Now my friend asked me the question of how do I feel about them now. Do I hate them?
In truth......... No I don't.
Of course I don't love them anymore nor trust them, however I still wonder on how they are doing and hope that everything is alright. I don't go anymore because as they and they're friends all boasted for me to stay out of their lives for good, I intend to keep that promise.
In the end, all I can really feel for them is pity. Because no matter what they say, they basically let their fears take control of them and they made their choices because of it.
And with this post, I can finally put this and my father's action in the past and truly move on.
Ironically enough, I'm starting to feel my wings starting to spread once again, stronger then before. ^^
And to also point out that i did meet with my father and while the reason of why he did what he did and that he acknowledged what he did was wrong, it is not just the matter of time and the direction of the path to see on how long the trust could be rebuild and made better.
Anyway, onto what this post is really about.
To those that have been reading my post and what not, it has been a full year ever since the events with the two girls that betrayed my trust by not telling me the truth. It is not like I am still mourning, pinning or what not; it is just as I was about to come to terms; the events with my father happened and that became the focus. Now that everything is settled, this is being brought up as it was not resolve yet personally.
Looking back on it, I had a feeling that it would happen. After Hakiri and myself separated on good terms and when I tried to contact her, she never responded back. I felt that deep in my being, that maybe she found someone where she lived. Of course I push the idea away as I thought it was something out of fear and worry. I believe that even if that was true, she would at least tell me about.
But of course we all know how that turned out ^^u. And even finding out that the other girl, her friend, actually became engaged which she basically followed her example.
So it wasn't the fact that the love was hurt, it was the fact that my trust in them was damaged by not telling me the truth and even to go as far as to make it sound like I was the one at fault.
Of course that was a year ago and alot of things have happened; though times but with good times as well.
Now my friend asked me the question of how do I feel about them now. Do I hate them?
In truth......... No I don't.
Of course I don't love them anymore nor trust them, however I still wonder on how they are doing and hope that everything is alright. I don't go anymore because as they and they're friends all boasted for me to stay out of their lives for good, I intend to keep that promise.
In the end, all I can really feel for them is pity. Because no matter what they say, they basically let their fears take control of them and they made their choices because of it.
And with this post, I can finally put this and my father's action in the past and truly move on.
Ironically enough, I'm starting to feel my wings starting to spread once again, stronger then before. ^^
The Time has Come
General | Posted 15 years agoI know it has been along time since I have wrote anything here, but alot of things have happened with personal stuff. One of those is the reason of why I am writing this entry about.
As many of you know about the whole situation with my 'father', two months ago in the month of June, my emotional state reached a critical point with internally dealing with the whole situation. It got bad that I started having 'dark thoughts' of not being around...............
But I knew better then that so I released all of my emotions in a email that I sent to him and a copy to my mother. I wrote down everything I was feeling at the time and the entire months of the problem. It worked that I didn't have any dark thoughts and felt the pressure released.
However, my 'old man' didn't write anything back; even though I wrote at the end 'Don't even write this back....' because I knew that he would either brush this off as a 'me, me, me' problem or let his angry take control and make things worse. That was in June.........
Now today I have received a email from him, saying that he wants to meet in person sometime tomorrow, so I gave the time and location.
So after 9-10 months of this, it has come down to this.
Don't know if it will turn out like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPGLfVnXb3M
*Maybe not like that, but in the sense of being the first step to recovery*
Or it will end up like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KByltmWvxk&feature=related
Have to wait and see........
As many of you know about the whole situation with my 'father', two months ago in the month of June, my emotional state reached a critical point with internally dealing with the whole situation. It got bad that I started having 'dark thoughts' of not being around...............
But I knew better then that so I released all of my emotions in a email that I sent to him and a copy to my mother. I wrote down everything I was feeling at the time and the entire months of the problem. It worked that I didn't have any dark thoughts and felt the pressure released.
However, my 'old man' didn't write anything back; even though I wrote at the end 'Don't even write this back....' because I knew that he would either brush this off as a 'me, me, me' problem or let his angry take control and make things worse. That was in June.........
Now today I have received a email from him, saying that he wants to meet in person sometime tomorrow, so I gave the time and location.
So after 9-10 months of this, it has come down to this.
Don't know if it will turn out like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPGLfVnXb3M
*Maybe not like that, but in the sense of being the first step to recovery*
Or it will end up like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KByltmWvxk&feature=related
Have to wait and see........
It is Time..........
General | Posted 15 years ago(The door opens to reveal a bed room as a figure steps inside. The figure smirked as he pushes a button on his clicker as music starts to fill the room: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPeT-kMlAGQ&feature=related )
"Let's get started......."
(He raised his right hand and the X-box 360 and PS3 system float up and are placed in a open bag, following them are a couple of games and dvds as the bag zips itself up.)
"Gaming Bag set!"
(He raised his left hand and a few article of clothes, under shirt and underwear, and hygiene care float and are placed in another bag as it zips up.)
"Clothing Bag Set!"
(He looks directly in front of him as a PSP, notebook, pens and a few other items float into a shoulder bag.)
"And lastly......."
(He walks over to a huge chest and pulls out a set of keys. he unlocks the chest to reveal another smaller chest and repeats the process over and over until he reached a small folder with the words "New Girls for the GD Sexy Pose" and handles it with care as he slips it into his shoulder bag. APienkoss smirks as he turns to the readers with a smirk and reposition his glasses a bit)
"A-kon 2010, here I come." APienkoss said, "Let's rock baby!"
"Let's get started......."
(He raised his right hand and the X-box 360 and PS3 system float up and are placed in a open bag, following them are a couple of games and dvds as the bag zips itself up.)
"Gaming Bag set!"
(He raised his left hand and a few article of clothes, under shirt and underwear, and hygiene care float and are placed in another bag as it zips up.)
"Clothing Bag Set!"
(He looks directly in front of him as a PSP, notebook, pens and a few other items float into a shoulder bag.)
"And lastly......."
(He walks over to a huge chest and pulls out a set of keys. he unlocks the chest to reveal another smaller chest and repeats the process over and over until he reached a small folder with the words "New Girls for the GD Sexy Pose" and handles it with care as he slips it into his shoulder bag. APienkoss smirks as he turns to the readers with a smirk and reposition his glasses a bit)
"A-kon 2010, here I come." APienkoss said, "Let's rock baby!"
Being a Part of a Meme
General | Posted 15 years agoI know that it has been a long time since my last post, in which I knew that there would be no takers since probably 99.999999% have taken that post in the wrong way ^^u
Anyway, this post should cause some reaction over a certain meme on the internet.
The story is that last year, in 2009, there was a commercial that was aired in Settle area of Washington state for the Sakura-con anime convention. And some time after it was aired, it became a huge internet meme sensations.
The commercial in question: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP5lz2CYNR4
Now pay attention to the guy on the :14 mark...........
(waits for a few minutes)
Yes, I am the 'And Gaming' guy for those of you that know of this meme. ^^u of course I still can't figure out how a simple commercial like this became such a big deal on the internet. I will admit that there are some creative memes some people have done, but at the same time there are some that try to seem 'insulting' which are sad 99.9% of the time.
As for why I didn't mention this sooner, ^.- no body asked :p
Seriously, it was a simple commercial and since I am study for my degree in media Production, it was interesting to see how a commercial is done and what not.
So while there are people that do memes on fur and other places, ^^u I am part of a meme without even realizing it
Anyway, I am going to relax before going into work by watching some tv programs........
(pops open a Rumane bootle, drinks and turns to the readers)
"And Gaming!" XD
Anyway, this post should cause some reaction over a certain meme on the internet.
The story is that last year, in 2009, there was a commercial that was aired in Settle area of Washington state for the Sakura-con anime convention. And some time after it was aired, it became a huge internet meme sensations.
The commercial in question: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP5lz2CYNR4
Now pay attention to the guy on the :14 mark...........
(waits for a few minutes)
Yes, I am the 'And Gaming' guy for those of you that know of this meme. ^^u of course I still can't figure out how a simple commercial like this became such a big deal on the internet. I will admit that there are some creative memes some people have done, but at the same time there are some that try to seem 'insulting' which are sad 99.9% of the time.
As for why I didn't mention this sooner, ^.- no body asked :p
Seriously, it was a simple commercial and since I am study for my degree in media Production, it was interesting to see how a commercial is done and what not.
So while there are people that do memes on fur and other places, ^^u I am part of a meme without even realizing it
Anyway, I am going to relax before going into work by watching some tv programs........
(pops open a Rumane bootle, drinks and turns to the readers)
"And Gaming!" XD
Looking for...... (too shy to say it)
General | Posted 15 years ago(Chibi-APienkoss stands with his arms crossed and taping his right index finger on his arm. His face express the struggle to say something but couldn't. He grunts and groans as the internal struggle grew as his face turn bright red)
"I can't do it!!"
(he rapidly digs a hole in the ground, jumps in and pulls a huge rock to cover the hole. A Chibi-Urd appears and sighs deeply)
"To everyone out there wondering what is going on, I'll have to be the one to explain it." Urd said and sighs deeply, "Eventhough a certain someone should be doing this."
"I can't help it!" APienkoss' muffled voice from under the rock said.
"Anyway, His love of his life Elektra Stone has a 'collection' of lovers with him as her number 1." Urd Explained as she held up a image of Elektra glomping APienkoss, "And she basically wants APienkoss to have his own collection of female lovers."
Urd grinned as a japanese flag appeared behind with graffiti falling down. "In other words, his own harem!!"
A sweat drop appeared on the rock.
"So I mention that Elektra used her 'charms' on you......"
"I think they get it." APienkoss' muffle voice said.
Urd turns back to the readers, "So if there are any females out there that are interested, you know where to find him."
"I'll be under here for a good while." APienkoss' muffled voice said.
"Until Elektra or any other female comes by and unleash your Shy-ken." Urd said with a smirk.
"Say what!?" APienkoss muffled voice shouted.
"I can't do it!!"
(he rapidly digs a hole in the ground, jumps in and pulls a huge rock to cover the hole. A Chibi-Urd appears and sighs deeply)
"To everyone out there wondering what is going on, I'll have to be the one to explain it." Urd said and sighs deeply, "Eventhough a certain someone should be doing this."
"I can't help it!" APienkoss' muffled voice from under the rock said.
"Anyway, His love of his life Elektra Stone has a 'collection' of lovers with him as her number 1." Urd Explained as she held up a image of Elektra glomping APienkoss, "And she basically wants APienkoss to have his own collection of female lovers."
Urd grinned as a japanese flag appeared behind with graffiti falling down. "In other words, his own harem!!"
A sweat drop appeared on the rock.
"So I mention that Elektra used her 'charms' on you......"
"I think they get it." APienkoss' muffle voice said.
Urd turns back to the readers, "So if there are any females out there that are interested, you know where to find him."
"I'll be under here for a good while." APienkoss' muffled voice said.
"Until Elektra or any other female comes by and unleash your Shy-ken." Urd said with a smirk.
"Say what!?" APienkoss muffled voice shouted.
Finally Found It
General | Posted 15 years agoIt has been along time since I wrote anything here ^^u between being busy with work and classes, its no surprised huh.
Well last night I found a answer to that something that has been bugging me for a long time. If people who have been reading my journals for a long time know about what happened with the whole Sa-chen incident. While I have been long over what has happened, there was one question in my mind that has been plaguing me for the longest time.
Why?
Why did Sa-chan and Courts acted the way they did, and why was Sa-chan 'afraid' of me? Since that happened, I have been trying to figure out what I did or something that made them acted the way they did. Well last night I was with my female friends and was watching Ouran High School Host Club. Since Sa-chan liked that show alot and Haruhi reminded me of Sa-chan, I thought about all that happened, good and bad, when the answer came to me.
Perhaps because I was too good to be true.
What I mean by that is I try to be who I am in real life while I am online. Since there are alot of 'bad' people who use the internet for the wrong reasons, I try to be at least the part where I am who I am, being honest and so on. So between keeping in touch with them from time to time and even going as far as to writing a Yaoi fiction to show my feelings, they might have feared that I am not who I am and thus this whole thing started. It may not be the truth or the answer to what I am looking for, but this one seems as close to what may have been the reason.
And this is more proof of my feelings about them. While I was hurt, betrayed and even anger at the whole situation; in all honesty I never was angry nor hate them back then and even now. I think it is pointless to hate or be angry at someone when fear and paranoia cloud their eyes from what is really in front of them. Even now, I still hope for the best of them and hope that maybe one day, somewhere down the line, if our paths do cross again; that maybe we can be friends again.
Well last night I found a answer to that something that has been bugging me for a long time. If people who have been reading my journals for a long time know about what happened with the whole Sa-chen incident. While I have been long over what has happened, there was one question in my mind that has been plaguing me for the longest time.
Why?
Why did Sa-chan and Courts acted the way they did, and why was Sa-chan 'afraid' of me? Since that happened, I have been trying to figure out what I did or something that made them acted the way they did. Well last night I was with my female friends and was watching Ouran High School Host Club. Since Sa-chan liked that show alot and Haruhi reminded me of Sa-chan, I thought about all that happened, good and bad, when the answer came to me.
Perhaps because I was too good to be true.
What I mean by that is I try to be who I am in real life while I am online. Since there are alot of 'bad' people who use the internet for the wrong reasons, I try to be at least the part where I am who I am, being honest and so on. So between keeping in touch with them from time to time and even going as far as to writing a Yaoi fiction to show my feelings, they might have feared that I am not who I am and thus this whole thing started. It may not be the truth or the answer to what I am looking for, but this one seems as close to what may have been the reason.
And this is more proof of my feelings about them. While I was hurt, betrayed and even anger at the whole situation; in all honesty I never was angry nor hate them back then and even now. I think it is pointless to hate or be angry at someone when fear and paranoia cloud their eyes from what is really in front of them. Even now, I still hope for the best of them and hope that maybe one day, somewhere down the line, if our paths do cross again; that maybe we can be friends again.
In memory of a old friend......
General | Posted 15 years agoIts way past midnight and I am having a hard time falling asleep. And there is a reason for alot of sleeping problems as of late...........
Within a for days it will be the month of April, and that month has a dark moment in my life. Nine years ago, I lost a good friend of mine and I learned the truth the hard way. I met her at the beginning of the winter of 2000, she was short of two dollars and I offered it to her and she tackle glomp me to the ground and wanted to get married. And that is how we first met and became friends. It was on a monday, April 2001, when there was no school and I was hanging out with my friends at a center near the church. I was pulled aside and was informed that his friend died on saturday from drug overdose. So we basically took him out and did stuff to keep his mind busy and what not. It was when we got back to the center that I learned that the person that died was her, Tessa. The moment I heard that, my entire world stopped and was destroyed on the spot.
It was at that moment that I was experiencing the pain of losing a friend. It wasn't her death that bothers me, it was something that I couldn't do..........
two days later after hearing the news, the principle of our school let the students have the option of going to her funeral that was beginning held. I couldn't go, making up the excuse that I had alot of assignments to catch up. But in truth, I didn't want to go because if I did, then I would have to accept the fact that she really is gone. At that moment,I didn't want to believe and like on that day, I hid myself and balled my eyes out.
That is one of the few regrets of my life, and I know I more or less deserve it for being a coward...............
Since then I have been dealing with this feeling and still searching of where she is buried. Even if I don't find it, I will still look for it.
In a bit, I will post a fic that I wrote a few weeks after that time which is a memorial; if anyone out there is even looking at my page ^^u
Within a for days it will be the month of April, and that month has a dark moment in my life. Nine years ago, I lost a good friend of mine and I learned the truth the hard way. I met her at the beginning of the winter of 2000, she was short of two dollars and I offered it to her and she tackle glomp me to the ground and wanted to get married. And that is how we first met and became friends. It was on a monday, April 2001, when there was no school and I was hanging out with my friends at a center near the church. I was pulled aside and was informed that his friend died on saturday from drug overdose. So we basically took him out and did stuff to keep his mind busy and what not. It was when we got back to the center that I learned that the person that died was her, Tessa. The moment I heard that, my entire world stopped and was destroyed on the spot.
It was at that moment that I was experiencing the pain of losing a friend. It wasn't her death that bothers me, it was something that I couldn't do..........
two days later after hearing the news, the principle of our school let the students have the option of going to her funeral that was beginning held. I couldn't go, making up the excuse that I had alot of assignments to catch up. But in truth, I didn't want to go because if I did, then I would have to accept the fact that she really is gone. At that moment,I didn't want to believe and like on that day, I hid myself and balled my eyes out.
That is one of the few regrets of my life, and I know I more or less deserve it for being a coward...............
Since then I have been dealing with this feeling and still searching of where she is buried. Even if I don't find it, I will still look for it.
In a bit, I will post a fic that I wrote a few weeks after that time which is a memorial; if anyone out there is even looking at my page ^^u
APienkoss' Profile
General | Posted 16 years agoThis is something that I have been meaning to do for while but never really had the time, ^^ nor anyone else in the past was interested to know. But I figure I make my 'APienkoss' Profile ass to give some people a idea of my character.
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Name: Alexander Pienkoss aka in the multiverse as APienkoss
Height: Normal-1st level state - 6'1
Weight: 155 pounds
Age: over a trillion years old
Body type: Muscular frame with a lean built
Weakness: Shyness and using his energy against him
His outfit: A Sepiroth's clothing that he found when he first experience traveling to other realities and landed in the world of FF7.
His hair: normally long, curly/wavy but when powered up to his first form, become spiky like super sayjin 2 style
His face mark: Two black stripes similar to Brittany Diggers.
Other clothing: a pair of sunglasses.
History:.............
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^.- to be continued
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Name: Alexander Pienkoss aka in the multiverse as APienkoss
Height: Normal-1st level state - 6'1
Weight: 155 pounds
Age: over a trillion years old
Body type: Muscular frame with a lean built
Weakness: Shyness and using his energy against him
His outfit: A Sepiroth's clothing that he found when he first experience traveling to other realities and landed in the world of FF7.
His hair: normally long, curly/wavy but when powered up to his first form, become spiky like super sayjin 2 style
His face mark: Two black stripes similar to Brittany Diggers.
Other clothing: a pair of sunglasses.
History:.............
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^.- to be continued
How to Crack a Writer's Block Revived
General | Posted 16 years agoConfused about the title huh
Well years ago I wrote a series called 'How to Crack a Writer's Block' which is short stories of jokes and parodies that pop into my mind. I figure for a change of pace, since my past journals have been the down points in my life, that I would post something funny.
So enjoy ^^
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We find APienkoss sitting on a couch at home with his two adopted daughters; Tiffany Gia Diggers-Pienkoss and Aruru Pienkoss. As to how APienkoss have two daughters from the Gold Digger World and Utawarerumono, that is another story…….
Currently the girls were watching their favorite show, while APienkoss was griming with illness.
‘Pokemon, it just had to be the soul-less over used Pokemon………..” APienkoss thought to himself.
He looks at his watch and kisses his daughters on their foreheads and got up from the couch, “Well little ones, I have to go out and look for a job now.”
“Do you have to do Daddy?” Tiffany asked.
“Didn’t you already have a job before?” Aruru asked.
APienkoss sweat drop, “Well……..”
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“Let’s spilt up gang!” Fred said to the gang in front of a factory.
On a rooftop across from the factory, APienkoss aimed his sniper rifle. He pulled the trigger four times; each one was followed by four bodies hitting the ground.
“Raggy!!!”
APienkoss fired his last shot as the sound of a body hitting the ground was heard. He stood and turn towards a guy in a noodle like monster costume.
“That is how you get rid of those meddling kids.” APienkoss said as he took a briefcase full of money from the ground.
“Huh and I was going to scare them away with this Ghost of a Noodle Monster from Outer Space.” The guy said.
APienkoss gives him a flat stare, “You are a moron.”
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“And didn’t you try out for the role in Final Fantasy 12?” Tiffany asked.
APienkoss sweat drop even more, “Uhhhhhhhh…….”
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APienkoss, dressed in Vaan’s outfit, was walking with the gang through a forest.
“Hmmmmmm, a chocolate bunny.” APienkoss said.
“What was that?” Fran asked as she turned to him.
“Well you have dark skin and rabbit ears.” APienkoss explained with a smile, “A chocolate bunny.”
A few minutes later……….
“Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!” APienkoss screamed as he ran from a rain of arrows.
Everyone else was sweat dropping at the scene.
“This doesn’t seem right.” Penelo said.
“Yeah, and I don’t get why he said, ‘Ashe has a fat ass’.” Balthear said in a ponder look.
“What did he say!?” Ashe said with a pissed off look with a blood red aura surrounding her.
A few seconds later…………
“I said Phat Ashe!! APienkoss shouted as he ran from Ashe and Fran, both expressing killer intent, “Phat Ashe!!!!!”
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“Let’s just say those jobs didn’t last to long as I hoped.” APienkoss said with a nervous smile as he walks towards the back door, “Now you father is going to go out and find a job.”
APienkoss looks back at them and smiles at them.
“I’ll find a job in a snap.”
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At the Pokemon Center………
“Can you heal my Bulbsaur?”
“How about my Pikachu?”
APienkoss left eye twitched as a vein started to appear on his forehead. He stood behind the counter as different Trainers asked him for different task.
‘Why did I ever take this job……..’ APienkoss thought to himself, ‘At least it can’t get any worse…….’
Suddenly a young boy rushed into the Center, “Guess what, they discovered 1000 more Pokemon!!!”
A second later, viewing the planet from outer space, the planet exploded into bits. Floating in the center of the destruction, APienkoss was breathing heavily as veins were seen on his forehead. He suddenly shook his head clear as he looked around the scene.
“Does this mean I don’t get my pay check?” APienkoss said with sweat drop.
At Central…………….
APienkoss, dressed up in a State Alchemist uniform, hid in the closet of Roy Mustang with Edward Elric.
“Are you sure this will work?” Ed asked in a whisper.
“Trust me.” APienkoss said with a smirk and whisper.
They peeked through the slits of the door to see Roy and Riza working.
APienkoss cleared his throat and spoke in Riza’s voice, “Roy Mustang is dead sexy in a mini-skirt.”
Roy Mustang looked up at Riza with a confuse look, “What was that Hawkeye?”
“I didn’t say anything Sir.” Riza said.
APienkoss and Ed were trying hard to hold in their laughter as APienkoss cleared his throat again.
“I’d like to tap that sexy tight ass of yours Riza.” APienkoss said in Roy’s voice.
Roy had a shiver of fear as he looked up to see a Riza with a blood red aura around her as she pulls out her guns. Ed and APienkoss were laughing their butts off as they watched the one sided battle. They stopped laughing when the doors open to reveal a beaten, shot and uniform in tatters Roy with a very pissed off look on his face. Ed and APienkoss were sweating as they were caught.
“Pienkoss.” Roy said with a low growl.
“Y-yes sir?” APienkoss said in a worry toned of voice.
Mustang lifted one of his gloved hands, “You’re fired.”
Outside of Central, an explosion was heard as something was shot through the roof with a scream.
Castlevania………..
“Man, Dracula doesn’t pay me enough to clean this place up.” APienkoss mumbled to himself and growled as a Bloody Zombie walked by, “Hey I just cleaned that spot!!!!!”
APienkoss growled as he started to clean up the blood spots. He reaches into a room and sees a floating purple crystal.
“This looks familiar…….”
He lightly taps it and suddenly finds himself incased in a glowing purple coffin. APienkoss blinked his eyes as he found himself in a bed room.
“What the heck?”
He gulped as he felt a pair of arm wrapped around him and a lick on his neck.
“Welcome to my ‘parlor of love’ darkling.” Succubus said with a lustful tone of voice.
Outside, the purple coffin started to bounce around franticly, “Get me out of here!!!!!”
Midgar, 7th Heaven Bar…………
“This job should be easy.” APienkoss said as he stood behind the bar counter, “Although I wonder what is taking Tifa and the others so long from the mission.”
He suddenly heard a noise coming from above. He looks up and eeps as he saw the roof come crashing down on him. A few hours later, APienkoss pulls himself out of the rubble of the destroyed Sector.
“Well……” APienkoss said as he started to pick the rubble out of his hair, “That job fell apart and came crashing down on me…….”
At the View…………
“I am God, whatever I say I am right!” Rose O’Donald said, “I am full of hot air and ego is coming out of my butt!”
All of the women started to chat mindlessly and over dramatizing about anything. APienkoss sat there with a bored look as he sighs.
“Anybody want a dead goat?”
He tossed a dead goat on the ground and the women jumped onto it, tearing it up in a bloody mess.
“I’m out of here.” APienkoss said as he stood up and started to walk away, “This just proves that they have no souls.”
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It was late in the evening; Tiffany and Aruru were asleep in their beds as APienkoss was writing in his notebook in his bedroom.
“Well I have tried every single job out there and nothing has worked.”
He suddenly hears his cell-phone ring and he answers it.
“Hello? Yes this is him. Yes? Really? Thank you so much!”
The next night……
A car pulls up to a house. APienkoss, dressed in a dark blue button shirt and black pants, steps up with a bag holding a delivery order. He walks up to the front doors and knocks on the door.
“Roma’s Pizza and Pasta Delivery Service.” APienkoss calls out, “One order of Calzone, Pasta Trio and a Greek Salad!”
“Come in!”
APienkoss opens the door and walks inside. He walks into the living room and places the bag on the table.
“The order comes to 20.17.” APienkoss calls out, looking around for the owner.
“How about a big ‘tip’?” A female voice said.
He turns around and blushes hard as he sees Hevn, from Get Backers, standing their in a lingerie that shows off everything.
“I think I’ll move on to the ‘desert’.” Hevn said as she licked her lips and sway walk her way towards him.
“Wha……Wha…….Wha…….Wha……..Wha…..” APienkoss stuttered as he walked backwards.
Hevn leap towards him, locking her lips onto his and making him fall backwards on the couch.
A few hours later, at Roma’s Pizza and Pasta, the doors chime open as a middle ages Mexican woman looks up with a smile.
“So you got a tip?” She asked.
APienkoss stood there, with many lip stick marks on his face, wobbling legs, his shirt button uneven and moving from side to side.
“I got a big tip alright…….” APienkoss said as he fell face first on the ground, “I can’t feel my legs………”
And that is how APienkoss found a job at a Roma’s Pizza and Pasta…………
Well years ago I wrote a series called 'How to Crack a Writer's Block' which is short stories of jokes and parodies that pop into my mind. I figure for a change of pace, since my past journals have been the down points in my life, that I would post something funny.
So enjoy ^^
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We find APienkoss sitting on a couch at home with his two adopted daughters; Tiffany Gia Diggers-Pienkoss and Aruru Pienkoss. As to how APienkoss have two daughters from the Gold Digger World and Utawarerumono, that is another story…….
Currently the girls were watching their favorite show, while APienkoss was griming with illness.
‘Pokemon, it just had to be the soul-less over used Pokemon………..” APienkoss thought to himself.
He looks at his watch and kisses his daughters on their foreheads and got up from the couch, “Well little ones, I have to go out and look for a job now.”
“Do you have to do Daddy?” Tiffany asked.
“Didn’t you already have a job before?” Aruru asked.
APienkoss sweat drop, “Well……..”
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“Let’s spilt up gang!” Fred said to the gang in front of a factory.
On a rooftop across from the factory, APienkoss aimed his sniper rifle. He pulled the trigger four times; each one was followed by four bodies hitting the ground.
“Raggy!!!”
APienkoss fired his last shot as the sound of a body hitting the ground was heard. He stood and turn towards a guy in a noodle like monster costume.
“That is how you get rid of those meddling kids.” APienkoss said as he took a briefcase full of money from the ground.
“Huh and I was going to scare them away with this Ghost of a Noodle Monster from Outer Space.” The guy said.
APienkoss gives him a flat stare, “You are a moron.”
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“And didn’t you try out for the role in Final Fantasy 12?” Tiffany asked.
APienkoss sweat drop even more, “Uhhhhhhhh…….”
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APienkoss, dressed in Vaan’s outfit, was walking with the gang through a forest.
“Hmmmmmm, a chocolate bunny.” APienkoss said.
“What was that?” Fran asked as she turned to him.
“Well you have dark skin and rabbit ears.” APienkoss explained with a smile, “A chocolate bunny.”
A few minutes later……….
“Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!” APienkoss screamed as he ran from a rain of arrows.
Everyone else was sweat dropping at the scene.
“This doesn’t seem right.” Penelo said.
“Yeah, and I don’t get why he said, ‘Ashe has a fat ass’.” Balthear said in a ponder look.
“What did he say!?” Ashe said with a pissed off look with a blood red aura surrounding her.
A few seconds later…………
“I said Phat Ashe!! APienkoss shouted as he ran from Ashe and Fran, both expressing killer intent, “Phat Ashe!!!!!”
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“Let’s just say those jobs didn’t last to long as I hoped.” APienkoss said with a nervous smile as he walks towards the back door, “Now you father is going to go out and find a job.”
APienkoss looks back at them and smiles at them.
“I’ll find a job in a snap.”
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At the Pokemon Center………
“Can you heal my Bulbsaur?”
“How about my Pikachu?”
APienkoss left eye twitched as a vein started to appear on his forehead. He stood behind the counter as different Trainers asked him for different task.
‘Why did I ever take this job……..’ APienkoss thought to himself, ‘At least it can’t get any worse…….’
Suddenly a young boy rushed into the Center, “Guess what, they discovered 1000 more Pokemon!!!”
A second later, viewing the planet from outer space, the planet exploded into bits. Floating in the center of the destruction, APienkoss was breathing heavily as veins were seen on his forehead. He suddenly shook his head clear as he looked around the scene.
“Does this mean I don’t get my pay check?” APienkoss said with sweat drop.
At Central…………….
APienkoss, dressed up in a State Alchemist uniform, hid in the closet of Roy Mustang with Edward Elric.
“Are you sure this will work?” Ed asked in a whisper.
“Trust me.” APienkoss said with a smirk and whisper.
They peeked through the slits of the door to see Roy and Riza working.
APienkoss cleared his throat and spoke in Riza’s voice, “Roy Mustang is dead sexy in a mini-skirt.”
Roy Mustang looked up at Riza with a confuse look, “What was that Hawkeye?”
“I didn’t say anything Sir.” Riza said.
APienkoss and Ed were trying hard to hold in their laughter as APienkoss cleared his throat again.
“I’d like to tap that sexy tight ass of yours Riza.” APienkoss said in Roy’s voice.
Roy had a shiver of fear as he looked up to see a Riza with a blood red aura around her as she pulls out her guns. Ed and APienkoss were laughing their butts off as they watched the one sided battle. They stopped laughing when the doors open to reveal a beaten, shot and uniform in tatters Roy with a very pissed off look on his face. Ed and APienkoss were sweating as they were caught.
“Pienkoss.” Roy said with a low growl.
“Y-yes sir?” APienkoss said in a worry toned of voice.
Mustang lifted one of his gloved hands, “You’re fired.”
Outside of Central, an explosion was heard as something was shot through the roof with a scream.
Castlevania………..
“Man, Dracula doesn’t pay me enough to clean this place up.” APienkoss mumbled to himself and growled as a Bloody Zombie walked by, “Hey I just cleaned that spot!!!!!”
APienkoss growled as he started to clean up the blood spots. He reaches into a room and sees a floating purple crystal.
“This looks familiar…….”
He lightly taps it and suddenly finds himself incased in a glowing purple coffin. APienkoss blinked his eyes as he found himself in a bed room.
“What the heck?”
He gulped as he felt a pair of arm wrapped around him and a lick on his neck.
“Welcome to my ‘parlor of love’ darkling.” Succubus said with a lustful tone of voice.
Outside, the purple coffin started to bounce around franticly, “Get me out of here!!!!!”
Midgar, 7th Heaven Bar…………
“This job should be easy.” APienkoss said as he stood behind the bar counter, “Although I wonder what is taking Tifa and the others so long from the mission.”
He suddenly heard a noise coming from above. He looks up and eeps as he saw the roof come crashing down on him. A few hours later, APienkoss pulls himself out of the rubble of the destroyed Sector.
“Well……” APienkoss said as he started to pick the rubble out of his hair, “That job fell apart and came crashing down on me…….”
At the View…………
“I am God, whatever I say I am right!” Rose O’Donald said, “I am full of hot air and ego is coming out of my butt!”
All of the women started to chat mindlessly and over dramatizing about anything. APienkoss sat there with a bored look as he sighs.
“Anybody want a dead goat?”
He tossed a dead goat on the ground and the women jumped onto it, tearing it up in a bloody mess.
“I’m out of here.” APienkoss said as he stood up and started to walk away, “This just proves that they have no souls.”
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It was late in the evening; Tiffany and Aruru were asleep in their beds as APienkoss was writing in his notebook in his bedroom.
“Well I have tried every single job out there and nothing has worked.”
He suddenly hears his cell-phone ring and he answers it.
“Hello? Yes this is him. Yes? Really? Thank you so much!”
The next night……
A car pulls up to a house. APienkoss, dressed in a dark blue button shirt and black pants, steps up with a bag holding a delivery order. He walks up to the front doors and knocks on the door.
“Roma’s Pizza and Pasta Delivery Service.” APienkoss calls out, “One order of Calzone, Pasta Trio and a Greek Salad!”
“Come in!”
APienkoss opens the door and walks inside. He walks into the living room and places the bag on the table.
“The order comes to 20.17.” APienkoss calls out, looking around for the owner.
“How about a big ‘tip’?” A female voice said.
He turns around and blushes hard as he sees Hevn, from Get Backers, standing their in a lingerie that shows off everything.
“I think I’ll move on to the ‘desert’.” Hevn said as she licked her lips and sway walk her way towards him.
“Wha……Wha…….Wha…….Wha……..Wha…..” APienkoss stuttered as he walked backwards.
Hevn leap towards him, locking her lips onto his and making him fall backwards on the couch.
A few hours later, at Roma’s Pizza and Pasta, the doors chime open as a middle ages Mexican woman looks up with a smile.
“So you got a tip?” She asked.
APienkoss stood there, with many lip stick marks on his face, wobbling legs, his shirt button uneven and moving from side to side.
“I got a big tip alright…….” APienkoss said as he fell face first on the ground, “I can’t feel my legs………”
And that is how APienkoss found a job at a Roma’s Pizza and Pasta…………
A True Valentines Day
General | Posted 16 years agoHope that everyone is having a good V-Day, and to those that are not fans of this day, are at least having a good day.
I know that there are some people that think either good things about today while others disregard this man-made holiday as a market game. To me, this day has a more deeper meaning.
To those that have read my Mortal, Angel and Demon's Tome; then you know that this day is not a good day for me. Ever since that day, I have looked at this day as a memorial to a child that died 16 years ago and a great 'sin' that could not be forgiven. Although moving away from that town and having a good life, the pain that followed me never seemed to waive or even faded. That was until 2 years ago that a single did something that I never thought could happen.
She admitted her feelings for me on this very same day.
To me, it felt like a huge bright light flashing in a dark place and feeling waves crashing into you while being blinded from the light. At first I was afraid and shook up, given the fact that this never happened before in my life, that I didn't accept it at first and backed away. After a few days of recovering, I learned to accept the feelings and went for it. Of course a few weeks later I learned of Sa-chan and Court's feelings for me, back then, and then meeting Electra and the rest that followed in my other posts.
Now as to why I am writing this post, well I believe that you should do something so special that you never do on a regular basis. Giving flowers, candy, cards and so are don't count as you should do those almost every day to your love one. Like last year, Keara, Sa-chan and Courts enjoy Yaoi and for last V-day, I did something that shocked everyone; I myself wrote three Yaoi fics that can be found here. I did that because of what I have mentioned but also because I usually expressed my love to others by accepting a piece of what they enjoy. A example is with Xero and Jen, both enjoy racing so I accepted a piece and whenever I can watch a race on TV and try to at least get into a conversation about it, ^^u although I still suck at small talk
Anyway, the point i am making is that instead of following what the market says you should do; try doing something really special for someone you love. And to those that are single; if I guy like me that has been through what would destroy anyone on all levels can find love; then anything is possible.
Just simply follow what your heart tells you
I know that there are some people that think either good things about today while others disregard this man-made holiday as a market game. To me, this day has a more deeper meaning.
To those that have read my Mortal, Angel and Demon's Tome; then you know that this day is not a good day for me. Ever since that day, I have looked at this day as a memorial to a child that died 16 years ago and a great 'sin' that could not be forgiven. Although moving away from that town and having a good life, the pain that followed me never seemed to waive or even faded. That was until 2 years ago that a single did something that I never thought could happen.
She admitted her feelings for me on this very same day.
To me, it felt like a huge bright light flashing in a dark place and feeling waves crashing into you while being blinded from the light. At first I was afraid and shook up, given the fact that this never happened before in my life, that I didn't accept it at first and backed away. After a few days of recovering, I learned to accept the feelings and went for it. Of course a few weeks later I learned of Sa-chan and Court's feelings for me, back then, and then meeting Electra and the rest that followed in my other posts.
Now as to why I am writing this post, well I believe that you should do something so special that you never do on a regular basis. Giving flowers, candy, cards and so are don't count as you should do those almost every day to your love one. Like last year, Keara, Sa-chan and Courts enjoy Yaoi and for last V-day, I did something that shocked everyone; I myself wrote three Yaoi fics that can be found here. I did that because of what I have mentioned but also because I usually expressed my love to others by accepting a piece of what they enjoy. A example is with Xero and Jen, both enjoy racing so I accepted a piece and whenever I can watch a race on TV and try to at least get into a conversation about it, ^^u although I still suck at small talk
Anyway, the point i am making is that instead of following what the market says you should do; try doing something really special for someone you love. And to those that are single; if I guy like me that has been through what would destroy anyone on all levels can find love; then anything is possible.
Just simply follow what your heart tells you
The Day After
General | Posted 16 years agoWell Yesterday was my birthday and it went alright for the most part it went alright. The night before I went to the midnight release and picked up my copy of Bioshock 2 and Dante's Inferno and been playing Dante's Inferno for the most part. Although for the most part had to spend it alone since my friend's were either at work or asleep in the morning and my mother worked for most of the day.
^^u Although not surprised that there wasn't anything posted here on Fur by some people I know; since I am still a 'nobody' in the sense that I haven't really stood out in this community.
Anyway, I hope that at least everyone had a good day yesterday and today as well
^^u Although not surprised that there wasn't anything posted here on Fur by some people I know; since I am still a 'nobody' in the sense that I haven't really stood out in this community.
Anyway, I hope that at least everyone had a good day yesterday and today as well
My Birthday
General | Posted 16 years agoHello out there in Fur Affinity
As I mention in my my last post about my birthday; its on the 9th of this month; next tuesday actually.
I know to some people that these days are really important, but lately to me; its just starting to feel it is not as important. This started on my 18th, a day day for most teenagers, and I was really looking forward to it. But nothing much happened as all of my friends were either busy with work or sick and my parents were busy at that time, so that day ended with me just buying a cupcake with a single candle on it. And then from there on out, I started to celebrate my birthdays alone.
Now this is not meant to be a downer or anything, as there were some moments on my birthdays that really gave me what I wanted. And what I usually want on my birthday is to be surprised and just to have people that I care about have a good time, even if it not celebrating my birthday.
And some people have the wrong idea that they have to spend alot of money for my gift which is not want I want. Just to see the resolve that my friend's and family do for me is the greatest gift. Like one birthday, at a convention, I was down because everyone was busy to even acknowledge my birthday. But later that evening, I was surprised when I got back to the room and found everyone surprising me and holding up a huge poster with different signs and drawings. To me, that was the greatest gift I have gotten.
Sadly my 'father' didn't think so, before I left I left a note for a 'gift' idea which was a PS3. I already knew that I wasn't going to get it, in fact I brought one a few months later, but I simply wanted to be surprised and hoped my parents could at least either try or come up with something else beside giving me cash. But when I got back, all I found was cash and my father saying "A PS3? Nice try but that is never going to happen."
I don't even expecting anything from him next week...........
Anyway, enough rambling. Just wanted to get this out of my chest.
Hope everyone is doing alright
As I mention in my my last post about my birthday; its on the 9th of this month; next tuesday actually.
I know to some people that these days are really important, but lately to me; its just starting to feel it is not as important. This started on my 18th, a day day for most teenagers, and I was really looking forward to it. But nothing much happened as all of my friends were either busy with work or sick and my parents were busy at that time, so that day ended with me just buying a cupcake with a single candle on it. And then from there on out, I started to celebrate my birthdays alone.
Now this is not meant to be a downer or anything, as there were some moments on my birthdays that really gave me what I wanted. And what I usually want on my birthday is to be surprised and just to have people that I care about have a good time, even if it not celebrating my birthday.
And some people have the wrong idea that they have to spend alot of money for my gift which is not want I want. Just to see the resolve that my friend's and family do for me is the greatest gift. Like one birthday, at a convention, I was down because everyone was busy to even acknowledge my birthday. But later that evening, I was surprised when I got back to the room and found everyone surprising me and holding up a huge poster with different signs and drawings. To me, that was the greatest gift I have gotten.
Sadly my 'father' didn't think so, before I left I left a note for a 'gift' idea which was a PS3. I already knew that I wasn't going to get it, in fact I brought one a few months later, but I simply wanted to be surprised and hoped my parents could at least either try or come up with something else beside giving me cash. But when I got back, all I found was cash and my father saying "A PS3? Nice try but that is never going to happen."
I don't even expecting anything from him next week...........
Anyway, enough rambling. Just wanted to get this out of my chest.
Hope everyone is doing alright
Long Time No Post ^^u
General | Posted 16 years agoBeen awhile since I have posted anything huh
Well I have been alright, started classes last week and work is about as fine as it could be ^^u
As with my Father.............. Well I haven't heard anything from him and he more or least is not even responding to my emails. And they are simply 'How you do' type with some information like phone calls for him and such. At this point, I highly doubt he will even call or do anything for my 26th birthday coming up on the 9th of February, although from time to time I had to celebrate my birthday's alone since I was 18th, but that's another post for another time. At this point, I have about absolute zero trust and faith in him.
Started writing again, which should cause alot of 'WTF' around here ^^u
And that is mostly it
Well I have been alright, started classes last week and work is about as fine as it could be ^^u
As with my Father.............. Well I haven't heard anything from him and he more or least is not even responding to my emails. And they are simply 'How you do' type with some information like phone calls for him and such. At this point, I highly doubt he will even call or do anything for my 26th birthday coming up on the 9th of February, although from time to time I had to celebrate my birthday's alone since I was 18th, but that's another post for another time. At this point, I have about absolute zero trust and faith in him.
Started writing again, which should cause alot of 'WTF' around here ^^u
And that is mostly it
Worst Scenario for the New Year
General | Posted 16 years agoI hoped that everyone had a good Christmas and a start of a good year.
As for me, things were going alright; but today the worst case has happened. A week before, I was informed that my father wanted to meet with my mother with me out of the house. So while I was at work, my parents met. For awhile I didn't hear anything from my phone and on one of my breaks, I rushed home to see if everything is alright. No one was at home and my mother's cell phone was turned off. A few hours later, I got a text from my father to call him when I have a chance. I sneaked off and gave him a call and......
He and my mother met and he wants a divorce from my mother.
After a few more minutes of talking, I manage to ask one of the management in charge, one that knew what was going on in my life, and got off from work a hour early. I waited and my mother, went to church with her friends, came home and all I can say is that she was a mixed emotions; anger/sad/depressed/relief and so on.
To the people that have been reading these posts for a while, probably knew that this was going to be the end result. In truth, I knew it as well but I wanted to believe that maybe it could turn around and after sometime apart that they can solve their problems and start living again. But sadly, hard facts of reality can crush that idea.
As for me, I really don't know how I feel since I am the type that is more concern with others I care about and then I worry about myself. So right now I am more concern with my mother then how I feel. And to the people that have read my Mortal, Angel and Demon's Tome already know, I have been destroyed countless times.
I know that there isn't anything anyone can do or say, heck even offer free commission, that can do anything about this. Even before I wasn't sure to even write this. But I went ahead to see if something could happen, as to what that something is; I have no idea.
So the New Year begins divorce and even more trials ahead, sometimes I even forget what a peaceful, normal life was like........
As for me, things were going alright; but today the worst case has happened. A week before, I was informed that my father wanted to meet with my mother with me out of the house. So while I was at work, my parents met. For awhile I didn't hear anything from my phone and on one of my breaks, I rushed home to see if everything is alright. No one was at home and my mother's cell phone was turned off. A few hours later, I got a text from my father to call him when I have a chance. I sneaked off and gave him a call and......
He and my mother met and he wants a divorce from my mother.
After a few more minutes of talking, I manage to ask one of the management in charge, one that knew what was going on in my life, and got off from work a hour early. I waited and my mother, went to church with her friends, came home and all I can say is that she was a mixed emotions; anger/sad/depressed/relief and so on.
To the people that have been reading these posts for a while, probably knew that this was going to be the end result. In truth, I knew it as well but I wanted to believe that maybe it could turn around and after sometime apart that they can solve their problems and start living again. But sadly, hard facts of reality can crush that idea.
As for me, I really don't know how I feel since I am the type that is more concern with others I care about and then I worry about myself. So right now I am more concern with my mother then how I feel. And to the people that have read my Mortal, Angel and Demon's Tome already know, I have been destroyed countless times.
I know that there isn't anything anyone can do or say, heck even offer free commission, that can do anything about this. Even before I wasn't sure to even write this. But I went ahead to see if something could happen, as to what that something is; I have no idea.
So the New Year begins divorce and even more trials ahead, sometimes I even forget what a peaceful, normal life was like........
Christmas
General | Posted 16 years agoWell looks like Fur is back up and running, which is good because it gets boring after awhile when there is nothing interesting going on online.
Alot of things have happened when Fur was down, but the more recent is that last night my mother and myself met with my father at a restaurant for his birthday.While I have to say that everything went alright without a hitch and it was gooding feeling those same feelings that I once felt before all of this, I'm still feeling unsure if things are really alright or is it once again another 'performance'.......
Anyway, this brings up another problem that I have been facing for awhile, and its nothing major or anything. Usually around this time of year, I feel the excitement and spirit of Christmas because its the time to really spend time with family, friends and people that you really care about. But ever since my father left home and mother, I don't feel the same; just a empty void feeling in my heart. I know that there is nothing else anyone can do, even I don't feel like getting anything for Christmas, nor am I expecting anything of the sorts. To me, gifts are not that important; for its the resolve one does in order to get or do something special for that person is what really matters.
And the one thing I would like for Christmas, is to have my family back again.
^^u Lately is seems that I have been posting more downers then uppers, sorry about that.
And to everyone out there, have a Merry Christmas and enjoy it with the ones you love and care about
Alot of things have happened when Fur was down, but the more recent is that last night my mother and myself met with my father at a restaurant for his birthday.While I have to say that everything went alright without a hitch and it was gooding feeling those same feelings that I once felt before all of this, I'm still feeling unsure if things are really alright or is it once again another 'performance'.......
Anyway, this brings up another problem that I have been facing for awhile, and its nothing major or anything. Usually around this time of year, I feel the excitement and spirit of Christmas because its the time to really spend time with family, friends and people that you really care about. But ever since my father left home and mother, I don't feel the same; just a empty void feeling in my heart. I know that there is nothing else anyone can do, even I don't feel like getting anything for Christmas, nor am I expecting anything of the sorts. To me, gifts are not that important; for its the resolve one does in order to get or do something special for that person is what really matters.
And the one thing I would like for Christmas, is to have my family back again.
^^u Lately is seems that I have been posting more downers then uppers, sorry about that.
And to everyone out there, have a Merry Christmas and enjoy it with the ones you love and care about
Another Horror.......
General | Posted 16 years agoIf everyone remembers from my journal post: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/980499/
Well I have found another trailer of the said 'King of Fighters' movie and it looks even worse then before O.O
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9387zmssuE&feature=related
Well I have found another trailer of the said 'King of Fighters' movie and it looks even worse then before O.O
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9387zmssuE&feature=related
Shyness
General | Posted 16 years agoTo continue on posting good things, I figure I post something that should be interesting
To the people that have been watching me all this time and who have known me, know that I am shy with the opposite sex ^^u hence why I am known as the Legendary Shy Boy. And for some reason, in real life, my female friends use my 'weakness' to either get back me for some puns and jokes or to keep my mouth shut ^^u.
Since being on the site, I have seen many different kinds of artwork that made me turn red easily as some many have noticed.
And recently I have been curious on how each different artist on this site would interpret using my weakness, or in simple terms, teasing my shyness. And it could range from cute levels to adult levels, in a hetero, normal way ^^u.
But I know that it won't come to past as for artwork doesn't come for free and I can't do a trade since I can't draw if my life depended on it. ^^u So this is only going to be stuck in the wonder state then seeing it.
And that's all I have to write
To the people that have been watching me all this time and who have known me, know that I am shy with the opposite sex ^^u hence why I am known as the Legendary Shy Boy. And for some reason, in real life, my female friends use my 'weakness' to either get back me for some puns and jokes or to keep my mouth shut ^^u.
Since being on the site, I have seen many different kinds of artwork that made me turn red easily as some many have noticed.
And recently I have been curious on how each different artist on this site would interpret using my weakness, or in simple terms, teasing my shyness. And it could range from cute levels to adult levels, in a hetero, normal way ^^u.
But I know that it won't come to past as for artwork doesn't come for free and I can't do a trade since I can't draw if my life depended on it. ^^u So this is only going to be stuck in the wonder state then seeing it.
And that's all I have to write
Interesting Halloween
General | Posted 16 years agoWell I figure it it time for something good and up-lifting from my recent postings.
Basically this Halloween weekend I went to a anime convention called Oni-con and I had alot of fun, as for who i was cosplaying as look at the part 3:44 of this vid to find out ^^ : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHzRyBTOiUc
Now as I say for the interesting part, let me put it in this way:
Friday:
1. I walked around with a female cosplayer of Reno from FF7 and almost got asked to do some Yaoi poses for pictures in which 'Reno' was excited and wanted to be on top =O.O=
Saturday:
1. I got glomped tackled to the ground a couple of time X.X Which not prepared hurt alot.....
2. I was caught in some fangirls hugs for awhile until their friends had to pry them off me =O.O=
3. Everytime I say the phrase 'No love for Zack', I get glomped, dragged off and other things =O.O=
4. And I got kissed many times that it took awhile to wash off the lip stick marks off my face ==O.O==
5. And finally I got hit on by alot of underage girls and by guys that as soon as they were distracted I ran O.o
And the last part for Saturday was funny as for the first time I brought a Hentai DVd called Words Worth, thanks by the advice of Maverikat, and sent a text to my friend at the con and other people to know about it; calling it 'graduation'. Anyway, near the end of the day I caught up with my friends and they were excited and calling me the man of the hour. It wasn't until I mentioned of the dvd that they were quiet and they informed me that they thought that I got laid.........
(slaps his forehead) How can one mistaken buying a hentai DVD meaning getting Laid is beyond me...
So yeah, my weekend has been interesting to say the least ^^uu
Basically this Halloween weekend I went to a anime convention called Oni-con and I had alot of fun, as for who i was cosplaying as look at the part 3:44 of this vid to find out ^^ : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHzRyBTOiUc
Now as I say for the interesting part, let me put it in this way:
Friday:
1. I walked around with a female cosplayer of Reno from FF7 and almost got asked to do some Yaoi poses for pictures in which 'Reno' was excited and wanted to be on top =O.O=
Saturday:
1. I got glomped tackled to the ground a couple of time X.X Which not prepared hurt alot.....
2. I was caught in some fangirls hugs for awhile until their friends had to pry them off me =O.O=
3. Everytime I say the phrase 'No love for Zack', I get glomped, dragged off and other things =O.O=
4. And I got kissed many times that it took awhile to wash off the lip stick marks off my face ==O.O==
5. And finally I got hit on by alot of underage girls and by guys that as soon as they were distracted I ran O.o
And the last part for Saturday was funny as for the first time I brought a Hentai DVd called Words Worth, thanks by the advice of Maverikat, and sent a text to my friend at the con and other people to know about it; calling it 'graduation'. Anyway, near the end of the day I caught up with my friends and they were excited and calling me the man of the hour. It wasn't until I mentioned of the dvd that they were quiet and they informed me that they thought that I got laid.........
(slaps his forehead) How can one mistaken buying a hentai DVD meaning getting Laid is beyond me...
So yeah, my weekend has been interesting to say the least ^^uu
Finding Another Truth.......
General | Posted 16 years agoIts funny on how Life works. Ever had moments in your life that you knew that something was up but didn't what to look into it because it really didn't involved you.
The best way to describe it s this, last night after work I called my father to find out how he is doing and perhaps learn a bit of what is going on. So we talked about thirty minutes and it relieved a fact that I have known for awhile but didn't want to believe it or thought that it could get better. First off, he said that he is never planning on coming back home; that he would rather be homeless under a bridge or die in a car wreck and that if I had any 'magical' thoughts that we could become a family again, it is never going to happen. Second, he confirmed that there was some problems between him and my mother and that he didn't just up and left on a short noticed, that he has been thinking about for a long time. He left because he felt that there was nothing in the marriage anymore and that he is trying to find his old and happy self again. And thirdly, he told me that while he is proud of what I have done so far and still loves me, he said that up to this point, my life has been a privilege; that everything has been given to me on a sliver platter and that if my mother dies the next and such, I would not survive long on my own. All and all, he simply said that I should just get over what has happened and move on with my life.
After that phone call, I have been in deep thought. And have come to this conclusion:
That he is wrong.
True, maybe my life has been given to me, but there were times when I try to repay and give some of it back in return. But they either didn't want it or say that it was not needed. And given my life, it was no walk in the part; given that I have died god knows how many times and even how many times I have been remade or reborn.
I still love my parents, that has never changed even after all of this. From here on out, this entire thing between them is theirs I want absolutely nothing to do with it anymore. Let my father think what he will of me, but in truth he doesn't truly know what I am capable of, like Gohan from Dragonball Z.
I know that there are some people out there that may be tired of hearing the 'emo' moments that I have been posting, but I rather speak the truth and get it out off my chest.
Again, sorry
The best way to describe it s this, last night after work I called my father to find out how he is doing and perhaps learn a bit of what is going on. So we talked about thirty minutes and it relieved a fact that I have known for awhile but didn't want to believe it or thought that it could get better. First off, he said that he is never planning on coming back home; that he would rather be homeless under a bridge or die in a car wreck and that if I had any 'magical' thoughts that we could become a family again, it is never going to happen. Second, he confirmed that there was some problems between him and my mother and that he didn't just up and left on a short noticed, that he has been thinking about for a long time. He left because he felt that there was nothing in the marriage anymore and that he is trying to find his old and happy self again. And thirdly, he told me that while he is proud of what I have done so far and still loves me, he said that up to this point, my life has been a privilege; that everything has been given to me on a sliver platter and that if my mother dies the next and such, I would not survive long on my own. All and all, he simply said that I should just get over what has happened and move on with my life.
After that phone call, I have been in deep thought. And have come to this conclusion:
That he is wrong.
True, maybe my life has been given to me, but there were times when I try to repay and give some of it back in return. But they either didn't want it or say that it was not needed. And given my life, it was no walk in the part; given that I have died god knows how many times and even how many times I have been remade or reborn.
I still love my parents, that has never changed even after all of this. From here on out, this entire thing between them is theirs I want absolutely nothing to do with it anymore. Let my father think what he will of me, but in truth he doesn't truly know what I am capable of, like Gohan from Dragonball Z.
I know that there are some people out there that may be tired of hearing the 'emo' moments that I have been posting, but I rather speak the truth and get it out off my chest.
Again, sorry
Worst Scenario.
General | Posted 16 years agoSomehow it seems like the Fall season is a curse for me............
Today I came home from my morning class and found two notes, one for me and my mother. They were from my father.........
And he basically left the home and my mother.
For the rest of the day and even now, I just felt numb emotionally. I had to basically call my mother and tell her to come home and had to watch my mother be in a wreck about all of this.
I don't even know what else to write in this journal...............
Today I came home from my morning class and found two notes, one for me and my mother. They were from my father.........
And he basically left the home and my mother.
For the rest of the day and even now, I just felt numb emotionally. I had to basically call my mother and tell her to come home and had to watch my mother be in a wreck about all of this.
I don't even know what else to write in this journal...............
The Horror........
General | Posted 16 years agoO.O I have seen true evil..............
http://www.destructoid.com/videos/oh-god-behind-the-scenes-of-the-king-of-fighters-movie-150786.phtml&t=video&nowplaying=Movies
http://www.destructoid.com/videos/oh-god-behind-the-scenes-of-the-king-of-fighters-movie-150786.phtml&t=video&nowplaying=Movies
Found the Truth
General | Posted 16 years agoWell, if anyone here remembers my journal post of the girl that had the boyfriend and kept me in the dark until I found out the hard way; yesterday I finally found out the truth that I have been looking for. Although it is a truth that I wasn't looking for...........
Let me back track to how this happen, on Sunday night, I was with my friends after coming to the realize that I am dead and forgotten. And since I have been holding it in all this time, I just broke down and cried. My friends with me at the time knew what was going on and when they saw me at that state, they become mad and found her page to send her pms about how they felt.
Well come yesterday I was drawn to her art page where she finally responded; the first half to my my friends while the last half was aimed at me:
Okay. Everyone who knows me knows me. I'm a docile person. I don't like getting angry, so I don't. I'm like a mom more then anything. Heck, Chris even gave me the nickname Sha-Mom. Any of my friends can vouch for me when I say I'll give you the shirt off my back. But you know what, I'm flat out pissed off now.
Recently, I've gotten messages. I know the person sending them means well, but harassing my friends and guilting...not cool. It is guilting too. They people who were supposed to relay the info think so, and so do I. Seriously, what happened to maturity? Apparently, it went missing. One of the messages I got (not from the person constantly messaging my friend) was basically a polite way of bitching me out for not telling someone a personal matter. You know what? WHO I DATE, WHEN I DATE And so forth....It's MY business. No one else's. This particular message was insulting, saying I had no right to not tell the person my own personal matters. Guess what? That is flat out bull shit. I have every right to do it. Because it's MY LIFE.
Tsakaki, one of my closest friends, dated a boy named Adric. They've since parted, but you know...I didn't know she was dating until I met the guy. Did I act like a ridiculous childish, high school mentality-angst ridden teen and whine and cry about how she owed it to me to tell me? NO. IT WAS HER BUSINESS. If I freaked out like a brat, then obviously I wouldn't have been her friend. She was happy. That was all the mattered. Heck, I didn't even give a second thought. The only thing I thought was 'Oh, hey! Boyfriend. Neat.'
So, you know what? Call me whatever you want. I don't care. There's one thing you should know though. This is MY LIFE. MY PERSONAL MATTERS. If anyone has 'No right' doing anything, you and your friends have NO RIGHT involving my closest friends and in certain ways family by making them do and say shit they don't want to, because it will upset me.
Seriously. I know I'm being a tad immature here. But I have a snapping point too. You just hit it. Seriously. This is reality. There are plenty of fish in the sea, so stop acting like you're alone in the desert with no water. Stop acting like a whiny brat and a high-schooler. Stop being over-dramatic, because, by this point, it's just not even worth it. AT ALL. You can't love someone you've never even met face-to-face, and only spoke to on the Internet. Stop looking for sympathy, because everything I've heard and been told, everything I've read about this goddamn matter, that's what it is. That's what people close to me see it as too. Anyone can tell. GROW UP. It's done.
To everyone not involved in this matter, I'm sorry you had to see me be a total bitch, but I needed that out. You understand. I don't snap. Like...ever. So, as you can guess, I'm hella pissed off and done with this grade schooler shit that went on. I still love you guys.I'm sure you agree with me.
And this was actually brought to my attention by one of her friends, who even ask me to tell my friends to stop bugging her. The irony is that she is protective of her with she is hurt and yet at the same time, my friends did what they did on their own. I was even called a coward for not defending someone I cared about. Well after reading this and seeing how she really feels, what is the point of defending someone that absolutely doesn't care about you.
So there is the Truth I have been looking. And even now, I'm not mad at her; since there is no point in me being mad as it wouldn't change the fact and would only bring me more pain.
So now I am done. If she and her friends want me to stay out of her life, then their wish is granted.
Ironic, when you are simply expressing on what you feel about the matter, wanting to know one simple fact and so on, and you are accused of making people guilty or as she said "Stop acting like a whiny brat and a high-schooler." But like I said, I don't care anymore, even now I am simply typing this to get the emotions and thoughts out, trying to be more open.
If anyone that feels outrage or whatever and wants to respond to what she says, you have the choice. Because as for me......
(dips his hands in a bucket of water and shakes his hands)
I wash my hands over this matter. From now on, she is on her own; dealing with the ups and downs of life.
Let me back track to how this happen, on Sunday night, I was with my friends after coming to the realize that I am dead and forgotten. And since I have been holding it in all this time, I just broke down and cried. My friends with me at the time knew what was going on and when they saw me at that state, they become mad and found her page to send her pms about how they felt.
Well come yesterday I was drawn to her art page where she finally responded; the first half to my my friends while the last half was aimed at me:
Okay. Everyone who knows me knows me. I'm a docile person. I don't like getting angry, so I don't. I'm like a mom more then anything. Heck, Chris even gave me the nickname Sha-Mom. Any of my friends can vouch for me when I say I'll give you the shirt off my back. But you know what, I'm flat out pissed off now.
Recently, I've gotten messages. I know the person sending them means well, but harassing my friends and guilting...not cool. It is guilting too. They people who were supposed to relay the info think so, and so do I. Seriously, what happened to maturity? Apparently, it went missing. One of the messages I got (not from the person constantly messaging my friend) was basically a polite way of bitching me out for not telling someone a personal matter. You know what? WHO I DATE, WHEN I DATE And so forth....It's MY business. No one else's. This particular message was insulting, saying I had no right to not tell the person my own personal matters. Guess what? That is flat out bull shit. I have every right to do it. Because it's MY LIFE.
Tsakaki, one of my closest friends, dated a boy named Adric. They've since parted, but you know...I didn't know she was dating until I met the guy. Did I act like a ridiculous childish, high school mentality-angst ridden teen and whine and cry about how she owed it to me to tell me? NO. IT WAS HER BUSINESS. If I freaked out like a brat, then obviously I wouldn't have been her friend. She was happy. That was all the mattered. Heck, I didn't even give a second thought. The only thing I thought was 'Oh, hey! Boyfriend. Neat.'
So, you know what? Call me whatever you want. I don't care. There's one thing you should know though. This is MY LIFE. MY PERSONAL MATTERS. If anyone has 'No right' doing anything, you and your friends have NO RIGHT involving my closest friends and in certain ways family by making them do and say shit they don't want to, because it will upset me.
Seriously. I know I'm being a tad immature here. But I have a snapping point too. You just hit it. Seriously. This is reality. There are plenty of fish in the sea, so stop acting like you're alone in the desert with no water. Stop acting like a whiny brat and a high-schooler. Stop being over-dramatic, because, by this point, it's just not even worth it. AT ALL. You can't love someone you've never even met face-to-face, and only spoke to on the Internet. Stop looking for sympathy, because everything I've heard and been told, everything I've read about this goddamn matter, that's what it is. That's what people close to me see it as too. Anyone can tell. GROW UP. It's done.
To everyone not involved in this matter, I'm sorry you had to see me be a total bitch, but I needed that out. You understand. I don't snap. Like...ever. So, as you can guess, I'm hella pissed off and done with this grade schooler shit that went on. I still love you guys.I'm sure you agree with me.
And this was actually brought to my attention by one of her friends, who even ask me to tell my friends to stop bugging her. The irony is that she is protective of her with she is hurt and yet at the same time, my friends did what they did on their own. I was even called a coward for not defending someone I cared about. Well after reading this and seeing how she really feels, what is the point of defending someone that absolutely doesn't care about you.
So there is the Truth I have been looking. And even now, I'm not mad at her; since there is no point in me being mad as it wouldn't change the fact and would only bring me more pain.
So now I am done. If she and her friends want me to stay out of her life, then their wish is granted.
Ironic, when you are simply expressing on what you feel about the matter, wanting to know one simple fact and so on, and you are accused of making people guilty or as she said "Stop acting like a whiny brat and a high-schooler." But like I said, I don't care anymore, even now I am simply typing this to get the emotions and thoughts out, trying to be more open.
If anyone that feels outrage or whatever and wants to respond to what she says, you have the choice. Because as for me......
(dips his hands in a bucket of water and shakes his hands)
I wash my hands over this matter. From now on, she is on her own; dealing with the ups and downs of life.
About Me meme
General | Posted 16 years agoTaken from omegawolfj
• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
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- Name: Alexander Pienkoss
- Single or taken: Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: Feb. 09, 1984
- Sign: Aquarius
- Hair color: dirty blonde
- Eye color: blue
- Height: 6' 1"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight as a titanium rod ^^u
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• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
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- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: None, but if needed I shop at Wal-mart
- Favorite designer?: None ^^u
- What is your sexiest outfit?: =O.O= My what?
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: T-shirt and a pair of jeans
- What do you usually wear?: T-shirt and a pair of jeans
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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: The kind that washes my hair ^^u
- What are you listening to right now?: Rick Astley Take Me to Your Heart
- Who is the last person that called you?: My friend Sam
- How many buddies are online right now?: ^^u No idea
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Food: Italian and Japanese
- Girls' names: Nothing comes to mind ^^u
- Boys' names: Again, nothing comes to mind ^^u
- Subjects in school: Communication Media
- Animals: Cats, Wolves
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given anyone a bath?: =O.O= No
- Smoked?: Thank God no
- Bungee jumped?: No but would like to try one day
- Made yourself throw up?: Does a stomach virus count? ^^u
- Skinny dipped?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Ever been in love?: More times then twenty life times ^^u
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: As a kid yeah, but now no
- Pictured your crush naked?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Actually seen your crush naked?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Cried when someone died?: Oh yeah
- Lied: Try no too but sometimes here and there
- Fallen for your best friend?: Does them tripping me count? ^^u
- Used someone?: No
- Done something you regret?: Oh yeah
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: T-shirt and jeans
- Desktop picture: College computer
- CD in player: none
- DVD in player: none
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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: O.o ?
- Hugged: My friend Jamie
- You kissed: -.- never been kissed
- You IMed: Keara
- Talk to online: Keara
- You sexed it up with: =O.o= The what and what now?
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: Yep
- Open-minded?: Yep
- Arrogant?: I don't think so
- Insecure?: depends on how I am feeling
- Random?: Oh yeah
- Hungry?: when it is the right time ^^u
- Smart?: I like to think so ^^u
- Moody?: Depends on how I feel
- Organized?: Yep
- Shy?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Difficult?: Depends
- Bored easily?: Yep ^^u
- Obsessed?: Depends on what
- Angry?: Try not to be for alot of reason
- Happy?:Right now yeah
- Hyper?: A.D.D and A.D.H.D right here ^^u
- Trusting?: If you deserve it
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In the morning I: Have breakfast and head off to college
- Love is: A fact of life
- I dream about: ^^u Nothing I can remember about
- Sexual preference: +o.O= Girls
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
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- Coke or Pepsi: Coke.
- Flowers or candy: half and half
- Tall or short: Not a big deal
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• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: People with good humor
- Makes you smile: People important to me
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: No idea et ^^u
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: =^^= Yeah
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Been curious what it would be like from time to time
- Wish you were younger?: (shrugs) Not important
- Cry because someone said something to you?: When it hurts yeah
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Infinite plus 1 times ^^u
- Of guys I've kissed: Yeah not going to happen X.X
- Of girls I've kissed: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Of Cd's I own: Video games... to many to list
- Of scars on my body: physical a few, emotional and mental, a whole lot ^^u
• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
____________________________________________________________________________
- Name: Alexander Pienkoss
- Single or taken: Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: Feb. 09, 1984
- Sign: Aquarius
- Hair color: dirty blonde
- Eye color: blue
- Height: 6' 1"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight as a titanium rod ^^u
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• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
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- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: None, but if needed I shop at Wal-mart
- Favorite designer?: None ^^u
- What is your sexiest outfit?: =O.O= My what?
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: T-shirt and a pair of jeans
- What do you usually wear?: T-shirt and a pair of jeans
____________________________________________________________________________
• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
____________________________________________________________________________
- What kind of shampoo do you use?: The kind that washes my hair ^^u
- What are you listening to right now?: Rick Astley Take Me to Your Heart
- Who is the last person that called you?: My friend Sam
- How many buddies are online right now?: ^^u No idea
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Food: Italian and Japanese
- Girls' names: Nothing comes to mind ^^u
- Boys' names: Again, nothing comes to mind ^^u
- Subjects in school: Communication Media
- Animals: Cats, Wolves
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
____________________________________________________________________________
- Given anyone a bath?: =O.O= No
- Smoked?: Thank God no
- Bungee jumped?: No but would like to try one day
- Made yourself throw up?: Does a stomach virus count? ^^u
- Skinny dipped?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Ever been in love?: More times then twenty life times ^^u
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: As a kid yeah, but now no
- Pictured your crush naked?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Actually seen your crush naked?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Cried when someone died?: Oh yeah
- Lied: Try no too but sometimes here and there
- Fallen for your best friend?: Does them tripping me count? ^^u
- Used someone?: No
- Done something you regret?: Oh yeah
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: T-shirt and jeans
- Desktop picture: College computer
- CD in player: none
- DVD in player: none
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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: O.o ?
- Hugged: My friend Jamie
- You kissed: -.- never been kissed
- You IMed: Keara
- Talk to online: Keara
- You sexed it up with: =O.o= The what and what now?
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: Yep
- Open-minded?: Yep
- Arrogant?: I don't think so
- Insecure?: depends on how I am feeling
- Random?: Oh yeah
- Hungry?: when it is the right time ^^u
- Smart?: I like to think so ^^u
- Moody?: Depends on how I feel
- Organized?: Yep
- Shy?: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Difficult?: Depends
- Bored easily?: Yep ^^u
- Obsessed?: Depends on what
- Angry?: Try not to be for alot of reason
- Happy?:Right now yeah
- Hyper?: A.D.D and A.D.H.D right here ^^u
- Trusting?: If you deserve it
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In the morning I: Have breakfast and head off to college
- Love is: A fact of life
- I dream about: ^^u Nothing I can remember about
- Sexual preference: +o.O= Girls
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
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- Coke or Pepsi: Coke.
- Flowers or candy: half and half
- Tall or short: Not a big deal
___________________________________________________________________________
• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: People with good humor
- Makes you smile: People important to me
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: No idea et ^^u
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: =^^= Yeah
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Been curious what it would be like from time to time
- Wish you were younger?: (shrugs) Not important
- Cry because someone said something to you?: When it hurts yeah
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Infinite plus 1 times ^^u
- Of guys I've kissed: Yeah not going to happen X.X
- Of girls I've kissed: =O.O= Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Of Cd's I own: Video games... to many to list
- Of scars on my body: physical a few, emotional and mental, a whole lot ^^u
One Thing After Another........
General | Posted 16 years agoI wish that this is a good news from my last Journal entry but sadly it got worse..............
Last night I had a rude awakening when I found out why one of the three girls was avoiding me all this time. It was because during this entire time, she already had a boyfriend and she is moving in with him. What hurts the most is not because of that, but for the fact that she didn't tell me and avoiding me was her answer.............
Won't even lie and say that I cried and I died once again, which makes it 1,920 times I think, and feel like the biggest idiot. I know that I should have made a choice in the past, but I just didn't believe that it would be the best idea to pick just base on a online meeting. I mean if I did picked one of them and then met in person and we didn't click, then what about the others. I really did tried my best and be fair but I guess in the end I was only believing in a foolish dream...........
Guess in the end, Elektra http://www.furaffinity.net/user/elektrastone/ is the last one, if she is still out there or even wants me after all of this............
(sighs) Sorry if this is another downer but guess I am trying to follow Maverikat example and try to be more open. Beside the fact that I have been destroyed countless times and even more pain when I have recorded from the last time, in the end I have no choice but to continue to more on since I don't have a choice but to do so.
Last night I had a rude awakening when I found out why one of the three girls was avoiding me all this time. It was because during this entire time, she already had a boyfriend and she is moving in with him. What hurts the most is not because of that, but for the fact that she didn't tell me and avoiding me was her answer.............
Won't even lie and say that I cried and I died once again, which makes it 1,920 times I think, and feel like the biggest idiot. I know that I should have made a choice in the past, but I just didn't believe that it would be the best idea to pick just base on a online meeting. I mean if I did picked one of them and then met in person and we didn't click, then what about the others. I really did tried my best and be fair but I guess in the end I was only believing in a foolish dream...........
Guess in the end, Elektra http://www.furaffinity.net/user/elektrastone/ is the last one, if she is still out there or even wants me after all of this............
(sighs) Sorry if this is another downer but guess I am trying to follow Maverikat example and try to be more open. Beside the fact that I have been destroyed countless times and even more pain when I have recorded from the last time, in the end I have no choice but to continue to more on since I don't have a choice but to do so.
