Going on a school trip :3 im so exciteeee

I wont be at a computer till sunday tho so don't expect much from me :3

So I'm leaving to go on my trip to Chicago tomorrow night and I think I might be getting sick o~o

NOO THIS CAN'T HAPPEN I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS ALL FRIKKEN YEAR ;A;

I keep coughing and I've been feeling drowsy all day (even on a full night of sleep with a nap after school)

FUCK

But my mom will think I'm weird if I go to bed this early

uggggh I hope I don't fall asleep at my desk again, that shit fucks up my back so bad

So obviously I haven't been able to draw, I've just been busy with friends and school (mostly friends lol)

Sorry for that but my life is just really happy right now and I want to keep it that way for as long as possible. Drawing has just been not enjoyable for me at all recently, at least digitally.

Gahh I'm too lazy to make one tho :P no offense to locke's sexy eyebrows but I want a new one of apocalypse

My mom made me come to the bingo and I'm kicking serious ass rn
This is fun, I hope I win some money o3o

Like, I have different shelves dedicated to different fandoms and their merch, but my Captain America shelf is so empty :C

Kinda ironic though because Captain America is literally the bae I love him so much it's not even funny. but it's just so sad considering how empty that fuckin shelf is, most of it isn't even Cap stuff, it's also got my marvel movies and a Hulk comic.

Like, My Star Trek Shelf and Pokemon Shelf are so badass and then theres the empty ass cap shelf just looking sorry for itself XD

I'M SORRY BAE, I FAILED YOU


On another note theres a shit ton of Marvel merch everywhere with the new avengers movie out it's so good :O My wallet hurts so bad though

Like, she's yelling at me in the middle of walmart to try on clothes even though she knows it makes me really uncomfortable

I know it's weird but still, forcing me to do it isn't gonna make me any less uncomfortable.

Had a long fun day of shopping And such with my friend

Went to the flea market in the morning and got some comic books and a little star trek phaser, then went to target and found a cute little Discord keychain and some pokemon cards, some stuff for the bae shelf at 5 below (my Captain America hoard owo) and the motherfuckin Edler Scrolls Anthology at walmart for 20 bucks. Plus we got Chinese food :3

After that we hung out, watched Captain America and played Skyrim

Then had a fire and played COD (I kicked his ass, but if you ask him he'd say I cheated. I didn't lol)

I'm so tired but I haven't had that good of a day in a while

I've been out and about as much as possible, I feel like I've been neglecting to have any fun

We're sitting around the fire vaping and talking
Funnnn

Saw the new Avengers movie :3

It was pretty awesome, not gonna talk about it though because spoilers lol

Ugh help meeee

Why can I never sleep holy shit this is getting annoying
I just wanna get out of bed and draw but at the same time I'm super tired

So I found the battery thing I was missing from my xbox controller and started playing skyrim again... Oops ;D

This game never gets old to me, no matter how many times I have played it

Where I just feel like wearing my tail out :P Going to walmart with ren's tail on like the furry trash I am lol

Tomorrow is the funeral, then after that I'm gonna try and go back to business as usual with my life. It's gonna be a short service, like an hour at most with only close friends and family allowed (mostly to keep his crazy girlfriend away. she's the one who found him and literally told the police she didn't think he had any family even though she knew about my aunt and us. the police literally had to find my grandma's obituary to find out about us, hours later ://)

I'm not looking forward to going back to school, I know everyone's gonna make a huge fuss over all this and I'm honestly just ready to move on with my life. Dealing with my dad has always been a huge weight on my shoulders and while it seems cruel to say I really feel relieved that it's all over.

He was so sick with his addiction, he was beyond help. He really was a good person deep down but he was just so broken he couldn't be fixed. Just goes to show, you may think you're really fucking cool by drinking and doing drugs but even a good person can end up dead at 53. (or 54? I don't even know how old he was) That shit is NOT good for you.

-sigh-

This is just a lot for me. I'm gonna go draw and get this off my mind, I kinda wanna stream to have a little company but no one comes unless I'm drawing free shit.

My mom and aunt went up to his house and got some things, his dog included

I missed her, she's alright but a bit sad. Poor baby must be so confused.

Her name is Dayla, shes a little fluffy beagle mix. My mom is letting me keep her. Shes so snuggly, hopefully she gets along with my little Thomas, he's not fond of dogs but shes really gentle

I'm alright, my family is alright, Dayla's alright. We're getting by. Thanks for listening

Everything in the last journal still stands
Ill be ok, I'll probably not be on for a few weeks except to distract myself

He just, bled out. From the inside. Too much damage from alcohol and drugs. Nothing could have saved him

I'm ok, my family is ok, we just need time

Thank you for tolerating my journals, this really is like my diary for venting and otherwise

They have the thick foam mats for the bottoms of fursuit feet for super cheap!! Like 3 bucks for a pack of em! They even have them in colors o3o

I saw that and figured it would be helpful

It's pokemon and its so great omg

I'm totally wearing it with ren o3o

for a contest on vine :3

Yup, I haven't streamed in ages :P Would anyone come?

Suck My Cups the shiny octillery

need I say more?