sorry to my friends chatting with me via text and by phone...

I am not myself since my best friend was shot in a drive by....


*story time*
I went for a visit to a very old friend of mine... I have known him since elementary school... I lost touch with him during highschool... he manages to find my phone number and messages me and says we should hang out. we meet up at the nearby club and go in for a few drinks and a few games of poker... when it started to get late we walked out and when we got 3 blocks away from the joint we suddenly came across a group of thugs driving in a red vehicle... I then suddenly hear shouting and then gunfire... I dove behind the nearby dumpster in terror... when the shooting stopped I only see smoke as the vehicle peels away... I then notice on the ground my friend Luke is laying on the ground covered in blood, i call for police and ambulance on my phone and as i wait and try to stop the bleeding... he stopped breathing just before the ambulance arrived... he suffered 5 bullets to the chest, 3 of them punctured his lungs... I am completely traumatized and in still in shock from his death...


a day to see someone close ive known since childhood... turned into a night of bloodshed, terror, and sorrow... and forever a scar... in my mind and heart... a scar that bleeds and cries for the loss...

RIP Luke... may your soul rest easy and your murderers receive swift punishment for their crime. I am sorry your death came so soon... I wish I could have pulled you to safety before you were shot...

stolen from god i cant remember


1. Had sex?
Yes I have.

2. Bought Condoms?
plenty of times

3. Gotten somebody Pregnant?
I sure hope not!

4. Failed A Class?
Yes... sadly... more than i should of...

5. Kissed A Boy?
certainly did

6. Kissed A Girl?
I sure did

7. Used A Little Paper Bag for Lunch?
only on field trips... most the time it was a smurfs lunch box.

8. Had A Job?
I have had 5 jobs...

9. Slipped On Ice?
way too many times

10. Missed The School Bus?
a few times... sucked having to chase them down...

11. Fucked a girl?
yes i have

12. Bullied Someone On The Internet?
um... actually the art of trolling... yes i have in the past... not any more though... it gets tiresome after a while...

13. Sexted?
many many times, i would say i could make it a career. lol.

14. Sex In Public?
would if i could....

15. Played On A Sports Team?
tried for the schools golf team... apparently the par to be accepted is to hit a minimum of 300 yrds...

16. Smoked Weed?
yes... peer pressure started it in freshman year... but after having a certain injury i now smoke it medically for my back.

17. Smoked Cigarettes?
yes

18. Smoked A Cigar?
yes

19. Drank Alcohol?
yup

20. Watched porn?
yes i have

21. Skipped class?
yes

22. Gotten Arrested?
i was tackled, maced, cuffed, and thrown in back of a cop car... but they mistaken me for a certain criminal, a murderer... so they payed 500$ for the inconvenience.

23. Done meth?
never have, never will.

24. Been To A Wedding?
plenty of them

25. Fell in love with a bestfriend?
once... but it was never meant to be.

26. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?
the computer is my drug, lol. I am usually around a computer at least 10 hours a day.

27. Watched TV For 5 Hours Straight?
before i had computer, yeah.

28. Been Late For Work?
once.

29. Been Late For School?
yes

30. Kissed In The Rain?
i don't like being in rain... have you ever smelled a wet dog? eww...

31. Showered With Someone Else?
lol yes, i have. it was always fun, wash my back i wash yours. grope me here and i grope you back? lol!

32. Failed My Drivers Test?
I took unofficial driver test, and passed... but i cant pass the written test... some reason...

33. Cheated on a ex?
never, its not my nature.

34. Been Outside My Home Country?
I have always been in the US... never left...

35. Been On A Road Trip Longer Than 5 Hours?
yeah... loooong journy...

36. Had Lice?
Oh god... living nightmare those things are.... but scabies... damn those things are worse than lice... and i have had both....

37. Gotten My Heart Broken?
yes...

38. Had A Credit Card?
I only use debit

39. Been To A Professional Sports Game?
blazers games, and many times

40. Broken A Bone?
yes... SUCKS!

41. Sexual preference, BI/Gay/Lesbian/Straight/Pan?
well... i believe im bi... because i been gay for a long time... and suddenly this one girl came along and i was stricken... sooo.. BI.... i am bi.

42. Won A Trophy?
never... i never gotten a trophy...

43. Cut Myself?
back in highschool... i was depressed because of my haunting memory of abuse... so my way of taking my mind off it was cutting myself... but i realized i had more to life than just weeping of what i been through... and should focus on what i will change in my future and shine light to others that there is more than just moping about...

44. Had An STD.?
don't think so... never seen any signs, always used a condom, tests always come out clean ^_^

45. Got Engaged?
almost... i was asked to marry on new years... but a week after the proposal... i was asked to give the ring back....... i was heart broken...

46. Done ecstasy?
once... bad bad bad bad bad... i was so high on it that i wanted to have sex with everything...

47. Tried Out To Be On A TV Show?
yeah, i was going to be an actor for a geeky guy on some show i can remember... but i didn't look geeky enough...

48. Rode In A Taxi?
yeah... expensive as hell... i'd rather just drive myself... if i could...

49. Been To Prom?
yeah, with my very first prom date.

50. Played A Drinking Game?
i have played 30 different drinking games. beer pong is over played so i got a book on different drinking games... like "if watching little mermaid, drink a shot each time a song breaks out, and drink beer each time aeriel's name is called.

51. Stayed Up For 24 Hours Or More?
waaay too many times.

52. Been To A Concert?
a few

53. Had A Three-Some?
yes i have

54. Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?
yes

55. Been In A Car Accident?
yup, 8 times... none my fault.

56. Had Braces?
not teeth braces, but ive had leg braces.

57. Learned Another Language?
I have learned bits of german, spanish, african, and french.... but mostly i studied german.

58. Killed An Animal?
deer hunting, and fishing... AND THEY ARE ALL DELICIOUS!

59. Been At A Yard Sale?
yeah, best deals dude.

60. Been To A Japanese Steakhouse?
LOL I LOVE THOSE!

61. Wore Make Up?
i have... and it burned soo bad...

62. Talked To Someone Via Webcam?
yes

63. Lost My Virginity Before I Was 16?
lost it at... 14...

64. Had My Wisdom Teeth Taken Out?
not yet... still waiting for that...

65. Kissed Someone A Different Race Than Myself?
yes i have

66. Snuck Out Of The House?
lol all the time

67. Bought Porn?
i never baught them... i draw them, lol.

68. Had A Virus On My Computer?
9-10 of my computers have had a virus...

69. Had Oral Sex?
yup

70. Dyed My Hair?
blond, black, and blue. not at same time though.

71. Gone Skinny Dipping?
lol, yes i used to own my own 8ft deep pool, skinnied all the time in that, i even hung a sign near it saying "welcome to our pool, bathing suits optional."

72. Graduated From College?
nope

73. Wore Someone Else’s Clothes?
yeah

74. Voted In A Presidential Election?
yes... its a long piss of shit to go through... but it must be done, my vote must be counted.

75. Rode In An Ambulance?
yeah

76. Rode In A Helicopter?
not yet

77. Caught The Stove On Fire?
lol multiple times when i was a kid, didnt know how to cook back then.

78. Got In A Verbal Fight?
thats daily for me... i always verbal fight my father...

79. Met Someone Famous?
i have, shaken the hand of Donald Trump, had dinner with the guy on hells kitchen, and partied with lmfao 2 days before they were filmed doing "im sexy and i know it. so yeah, i have done more than met with famous people. btw this is not even close to half of the famous people i been with. (few more throw outs, will smith, brittany Spears, hulk hogan) hulk hogan about 20 times.

80. Been On Vacation?
yes i have.

82. Been On A Boat?
quite a few times.

81. Been On An Airplane?
yeah, about 8 times at least.

83. Broken Something Expensive?
unfortunately... i broke a $29,000 grand piano... do i have to pay it off? nope.

84. Had Surgery?
in my right ear..... if i didnt i would be deaf... so now im only half deaf.

85. Been In Love?
yes

86. Beat A Video Game?
i have beaten every game i owned... and the stack of games is as tall as 8ft.

87. Found Something Valuable On The Ground?
a hundred dollar bill, a un-used mp3 player 20gig, and trench knife.

88. Made A Survey?
yup, made quite a few of them.

89. Stalked Someone On A Social Network?
lol i never stalk.

90. Prank Called Someone?
yeah, i had a special untraceable phone while using a voice mask box and called out anyone telling them to pay up the mafia, and leave the money in a reinforced black suitcase and leave it behind the bush at the front of the childrens hospital. i stopped doing that when i heard in the news that a $50,000 suitcase was found at the front of the childrens hospital in california...

91. Been To A Library Outside Of School?
yeah, many times! the books they have are much better than those governmently controlled supplies of shits the school gets.

92. Spent Over $100 Shopping In One Day?
i spend average $200 on food, just guess how much is on clothes...

93. Cut My Hair And Hated It?
yeah... bowl cuts... never get them.....

94. Peed Outside?
yup, out in the woods.

95. Went Fishing?
yes, i mentioned that earlier.

96. Helped With Charity?
i'm a furry, it's what we do

97. Taken A Pregnancy Test?
lol no, and never because im a guy.

98. Been Rejected By A Crush?
yup

99. Been Suspended From School?
*sigh* yes... said i was a threat...

100. Broken a mirror?
yeah... i leaned it against the wall but after leaving... it managed to tip over when i was gone...

101. Thrown up on someone?
oh god no... i never have and will never let it come to that. lol.

102. Lied to your parents?
yes, to protect my brother from my evil step mother, who punished us with a metal spoon with drilled holes and spanked us bare bottom with it, and then when she is done with it, would slap our face till its beat red and bleeding.... yeah... rough past...

yeah you read right... i am bored, and wanting to sketch and chat and what not... but this damnable block is blocking me... i just want to chat a bit and draw but that block aint lettin it happen...

*sits and noms on some chips*

any suggestions on what i should draw? i have slacked a bit on drawing lately and i need to catch up on my drawing before i forget how to draw, lol.

keep in mind i will pick and choose which ones i will draw... and the ones i pick will be mentioned in the post thanking the one who suggested it.

thank you and spill the beans now.

oh and be sure to tell your friends to help out. ^_^

well sure i like trades, but this is for a friend  lanuka

she is a good artist looking for other artists willing to trade image for image.

Heres link to her journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:27262309

im looking for anyone willing to participate to sing in my song (La la land)

lyrics are simple, and follow the chorus beat in E

Lyrics:

lets
go
to
the
let, let us go
to the land
la la land
lala

let us go where the sweetest things grow from anything you could ever know

you can see, out for miles, trees of sweets, chocolate things, roads of-

gummy drops, rivers of soda pops, fields icecream crops, trees of twizzler tops,
try our stringy candy, you will find that its dandy, like our caramel taffy, it sure come quite in handy,
we got many sweets, head on out of the streets, come and grab your seats, feast on all of our treats, in lala laaaaaand.....

*pause 4 beats*
(whispered)
Lala land


(song: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8293810/)

if you participate in the song, I will reward you with a full free of charge full body portrait of any furson you wish, as long as you have the rights of that character or privilege of course.

*reason i dont sing it*
I DONT have a good singing voice... i barely can keep a bass tone...

so one of my friends *non furry* suggested that because i am not too shabby with my music skills, that i should offer the 10 people on the web, for me to make a ringtone of a 15 second song.

so i agreed to offer you all a chance to land in and get a free phone ringtone of whatever you want me to create.

whether it be a song or a funny quote sentence. but i will not copy anything from anyone else, like already made songs or cut and pastes from movies. yada yada yada.....


just post below saying "DO WANT!"
and then share this journal with some friends who would be interested in a rington custom made to their wants.

HAVE FUN!!!



oh btw, androids and iphones just need to download from the song post and add it to their playlist and it can be used as a ringtone. in case you didnt know how. *phones must have web access*

Just ended... and i only got friends who wished me a happy birthday... my mom only said " eat your breakfast and get you home"... at all that night ... well birthdays are going out of style nowadays

Yeah, my buddy has loaned me his tablet, I'm back in business! Message me on my notes of what you want with references ( if you have them) and be specific on everything. I'll quote the price, and if you agree to it the ill get to it asap.

Btw I'm never good at guessing and most artists will agree with me, it bugs us if you don't provide all details or ask us to be creative on your characters looks.

Anyways commissions are open!!!!!!!!

So yeah... i decided to chill with friends... and they all smoke weed because they have green cards... i got contact high and apparently they found out I'm a furry artist... so they instantly agreed that we all work on making the book.. me the artist and them the writers... so about this book... it's a children's book for adults... like it's written like a kid book but it's themes are adult... and the guy is literally going to pay me not only per picture but i also get a percent of the sales. Sometimes good things come from pot lol.

Yup, i got a puppy. She was about to be put down because nobody wanted her. She was one of the puppies that was mass bred because of high demand in California. Soon nobody needed them anymore.... so they locked them in boxes for until they died....

A handful of survivors were left and rescued but they needed a family and someone to care for them... i took in Sophia.

She is now a healthy 5lbs deer eared chuaua. She is now energetic, and loves to cuddle. She has a new life. And a better one.

It makes everything funny, and then when you sober up you have to clean the broken glass of your stupid friends who thought the could break windows with their face.... ugh...

That's right, I'm bored and feeling artistic. I'm doing free art because I'm just going to draw with a mouse. Besides i don't have a tablet anymore... anyways just show me a reference and say what you want, the more detailed means takes longer to make. Feel free to tell others, i don't care. Oh and if you don't tell me what you want when you post a ref, I'll personally rape em... so be specific or you may get your ass raided by this butt pirate. I give you fair warning. I have my right to do as i please if you say nothing and offer your ref.

* all artwork will be done by me and will be done if good reference is provided, those who don't explain what they want outof it will have their character raped in however i choose.* you have been warned.

I found out where my memory cards where. The kids i babysit hid them from me when i told them that they are not allowed to see what's in them... clever kids hid them behind the laundry room shelving unit. Clever... and i found a good working mouse so i can sort of doodle again. I'll miss the tablet, but hey why complain when my trio most important items were found safe. Lol

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3087119/

Do it, not many slots left.

My flash drive, it holds all my art and its missing and it is my only way too transfer data. Irreplaceable art not even posted and gone.........

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired... i have been ill on and off for two months now and it drives me mad that as soon as i recover i get sick with something else few days later. I've gone through a cold, flu, something i can't pronounce that stands for liquid in lungs, food poisoning, and finally false death which means i was sleeping without a beating heart for who knows how long, but i was cold without a batting heart when it was morning... one thing was that it scared everyone, including me, cause i could feel my body was cold and numb... the kind of numb when you lose feeling in your feet, but instead over the entire body...

Why do i feel like some one is trying to kill me?

Just want to wish the best for every one.

I unfortunately won't have a Christmas to attend and not get any presents, but that won't mean I'll not have a happy holiday.

Just cause my family is broke and won't invite me over for the holidays doesn't mean i can't spend it with my friends.

Merry Christmas!

omg my eyes, i swear i nearly lost my vision from what one of my relatives sent me... ugh i am gonna get sick...

i was just casually chatting with him and suddenly he sends a link to me that had only one word in it that i could read, and it said inversion...

i ignored it for 10 mins then he asked if i clicked it... i said no but he demanded i see it quickly... so i click it and suddenly i see the worse sight a man could ever set eyes on...

warning content written below is sick and demented and plain horrible, do not read if you cant handle it and dont wish to have nightmares for months. I mean it it will scar your fucking mind forever.







here it goes:
it was a picture of a man with his hands and feet chained together, and he was hung upside down by a.. thing clamped to his penis ONLY his penis and swear to god his dick looked like it was tearing. and just as i was about to throw up, it turned out it was a gif image and his penis tore completely off! AGH!!!

(slams face a million times but doesnt get rid of the image)

FUUUUCK i am scarred for life with the image of that..... I wish i never clicked it... were is a fucking drill when you need to drill the images out!

so this guy wanted to sell me a laptop and i been wanting a laptop for a long time... I said i need an up to date laptop with lots of memory and wireless... he told me it was up to date, has loads of memory and said it had wireless... and i just pay him 20 bucks on the spot...

well lets just say when he delivered the laptop the next day and i fired up the power on it.... NOT ONLY did it barely have 4 gigs of memory... but its not wireless and the shell was made before 1998.... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU

what a waist of $20....

I tried to demand money back but he keeps telling me final purchases are final and can't be refunded...

i tried to call the cops on false sales and he tells them he didnt sell me a laptop... later find out that the guy was a laptop thief and has stolen every laptop in his display... he gets arrested... but i don't get my money... cops only said sorry and told me to never trust a unlicensed sale...

Damnit now im $20 bucks short again to buying important things i need and I am still unemployed... GOD.... kill me now instead of stomping my face in the curb..... please....

yah i got 2 videos of me on youtube... and its me being dorky to bad touch and cameltoe...

go ahead and see what i mean. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QFyveAx-k0 and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYW9J2-KN0Y&feature=player_profilepage

Okay simple as can be.

I created a new species called Haaktai. an alien race with resemblance of insects and humanoids.

No real rules to have your own alien created and made into a picture.

just color in your Haaktai at http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6823191/ and then send me the link on that page.

anyone could be a winner.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6823191/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6823191/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6823191/

DO IT

I really need to get up to $300 for a new tablet

so here is the deal everyone, if you donate to help me get a new tablet you will get a picture, regardless of how much you donate.

the deal that you are getting is this

Donate $1-$5 and you get a 1 character sketch (512x512)

Donate $6-$10 you get that sketch inked in and cleaned OR 2 sketches equivalent (512x512)

Donate $11-$15 you get your character flat colored OR 1 inked and cleaned with sketch OR 3 sketches (850x1169)

Donate $16-$20 you get the character colored/shaded with a background "equivilent to 4 sketchs or 2 inked/cleaned or flat colored with sketch" (850x1169)

If you donate $20 for the character colored/shaded you can add $10 per additional character

https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=ZWS3UWEHX4CKQ

Current:$0/$300


if you cant donate, you can spread the word, tell everyone.

sooooo i went to a bar called legends... lets just say i drank 12 mixed drinks, 6 jello shots, and 2 long island teas......fffffffuuuuuck i am smashed... good news thogh....


I sang kareoke, got the whole crowed ta sing along. LIKE A BOSS!!! XD good night everyone, im munna sleep this off and hope i dunt get a hangover XD LOL

a friend of mine sent me a few links and said they would make me laugh... well he lied...

bigassmessage.com/5d53d <---- this just hurt my eyes

bigassmessage.com/15d83 <---- and this hurt my eyes and really pissed me off... *seizure warning*