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Posted 14 years agoNow that she's back in the atmosphere,
With drops of Jupiter in her hair.
She acts like summer and
Walks like rain,
Reminds me that there's a time to change.
Since the return from her stay on the
Moon, she listens like Spring and she
Talks like June.
I think that says a lot. I know it seems a little unusual, but I think it all has it's own little metaphors. Perception, I suppose - I could pick it all apart (I won't, but I could). It sounds nice, though, right? I mean, I dunno, just reading it over, you get a picture of what he means, why he's singin' it and what it's meant to convey. If you haven't heard that song, it's Drops of Jupiter by Train, look it up.
Anyway, I think it also highlights my mood, which one day, I'll update on time. I'm happy. I mean, there's a lot going against me at the moment (not gonna turn this into a "woe is me", so don't fret). But, here I am; I'm happy with me, who I am, what I am, what it is I stand for, what it is I believe in. I feel more normal than the people around me - which, trust me, is a lot when others consider them normality.
Part of me thinks it has something to do with seeing Rush on Saturday, part of me thinks it's just a sense of fulfillment I've managed to achieve through some writing in terms of articles and college work. I'm not 100% sure why, but I have this feeling that I'm finally getting there. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not, but all I know is I like how things are right now.
Watch this space.Read It and Weep, Fuckers.
Posted 14 years agoDear FurAffinity population and watcher readership,
I've not posted up a journal in quite some time, I know, so I appologise for not providing you with my over-baring, whiny, bitch ass, complaining asshole writings which seem to do nothing but blog myself in my existance and entirety, often by discussing my day to day life or my emotional bullshit, usually rounded up into a Scrubs-esque narrative, though always rantier, swearier, and there seems to be a distinct lacking of positive news. My life isn't all doom, gloom, emo and sadness, by the way. I just use here as a chance to vocalise my feelings, let go of any suppressed anger or frustration I'm holding onto and throw it out in one, big fuck-you themed piece of prose. I also noticed that my sentences are far, far too long, so I'll start working on that after this journal. I kind of wrote it all and then added this paragraph, which was only meant to last 200ish words to bring it up to 1000, but hey, that's how things progressed.
First up, I'd like to open with something basic and simple - it feels good to be back. Internet's been down for about two weeks now, so I've been stuck on my own little world and mindset, full of stress, college work, boredom and generally anything that comes up. To distract myself, I've been playing on the old GBA: Advance SP, watching movies, watching TV, writing documents up for college work and getting things done. Which, oddly enough, hasn't been enough of an escape, since I've been in my own head still. Ironically, this was supposed to be my two week holiday. A shame I lost out on most of it thanks to B-fuck-the-fucking-fuckers-T screwing me over for them.
Now, it's time to get on with business. In fact, it's quite important I get on with business. Mainly because there's a few things I need to cover. When I said I'm back, I mean I'm back in more than one way. Those of you who know me even remotely well will likely know that, lately, I've had some emotional turmoil playing on my mind and I've been a little off lately. Some people got really sick of me I'm sure - and to those people, thanks for putting up with me, and I'm sorry for being an annoying prick. Don't message to say I've not been, since I already know otherwise. Anyway, I'm back to being me; it feels very, very good. And it also gave me time to put a few things into context as well as a little time to put myself back on top of my own mental state, my emotional state, and I've been able to size a few people up.
I know, in my absence, there's certain people running around more than ever, likely spreading lies about how I feel, telling others to avoid me for whatever reason -
JinxyFalina I expect you've faced a large chunk of that, so I can only hope you get to see this and read it through, I've not been avoiding you and we need to get a good catch up soon. The people who run around telling you to avoid me, to stay away from me, to keep out of my path? Tell them to take their lies, their bullshit and their venomous, corroding slurs and words, roll them up into a big, tight ball, and to shove them so far up their own ass they can taste their crap along with their spite. People have their own opinions of me, and those who have it in their mind that they're bigger, better, smarter, faster - whatever they want to believe - I suggest you come and tell me your shit to my face. Time's running out, and if I have to come to you, I hope you know that I'm coming for you, and I'm gonna hit you harder than Japan felt the tsunami. Inappropriate joke? Maybe. But the metaphor does the job.
The bottom line to what I just said there - if you're on a high horse, get the fuck off. You're not perfect. You're not qualified to judge. You're not developed enough to make any kind of criticism - because when you do, you become just as heinous, just as vile, disgusting, outlandish and pathetic as those you try to cast a fucking hate on for wrong decisions. You become a hypocrite, not a martyr. I'll admit, there's some folk in the world, some people, who will set themselves out over and over to make mistake after mistake, who will put themselves ahead of the pack in their own mind even though they are so far down the food chain they can't get onto the first rung of the ladder - but there are also those who make mistakes. That's called 'normality', yet you become so fucking focused on the fact that they made a wrong turn or move, that you become annoyingly determined to hit them with all that you've got to feel...superior. Leason - superiority is NOT chosen, it is given and granted. You work for it, you earn it, and you are rewarded with it by those in a higher power. If you are inane enough to decided you have it before it is granted, you should fuck so far off, we'll need a compass, a map, a navigator, a team of translators, a plane, a pair of pilots, and a rich investor to find your sorry ass and proclaim it the nineth wonder of the world.
In other news, however still important,
SinkingShips and I are back together (he has about thirty thousand FA accounts, and he actually makes up around 70% of the population, but we haven't told Fender yet, so keep it hushed up), so if you'd be good enough to congratulate us, that'd be aces. It's long and complicated as to how the decision came about, however it was made, and I'm happy with it. If you ain't, go suck a cactus or something equally as painful, strenuous and productive.
1035 words as well as two pages of Microsoft Works documentation. Suck it, bitches.
I've not posted up a journal in quite some time, I know, so I appologise for not providing you with my over-baring, whiny, bitch ass, complaining asshole writings which seem to do nothing but blog myself in my existance and entirety, often by discussing my day to day life or my emotional bullshit, usually rounded up into a Scrubs-esque narrative, though always rantier, swearier, and there seems to be a distinct lacking of positive news. My life isn't all doom, gloom, emo and sadness, by the way. I just use here as a chance to vocalise my feelings, let go of any suppressed anger or frustration I'm holding onto and throw it out in one, big fuck-you themed piece of prose. I also noticed that my sentences are far, far too long, so I'll start working on that after this journal. I kind of wrote it all and then added this paragraph, which was only meant to last 200ish words to bring it up to 1000, but hey, that's how things progressed.
First up, I'd like to open with something basic and simple - it feels good to be back. Internet's been down for about two weeks now, so I've been stuck on my own little world and mindset, full of stress, college work, boredom and generally anything that comes up. To distract myself, I've been playing on the old GBA: Advance SP, watching movies, watching TV, writing documents up for college work and getting things done. Which, oddly enough, hasn't been enough of an escape, since I've been in my own head still. Ironically, this was supposed to be my two week holiday. A shame I lost out on most of it thanks to B-fuck-the-fucking-fuckers-T screwing me over for them.
Now, it's time to get on with business. In fact, it's quite important I get on with business. Mainly because there's a few things I need to cover. When I said I'm back, I mean I'm back in more than one way. Those of you who know me even remotely well will likely know that, lately, I've had some emotional turmoil playing on my mind and I've been a little off lately. Some people got really sick of me I'm sure - and to those people, thanks for putting up with me, and I'm sorry for being an annoying prick. Don't message to say I've not been, since I already know otherwise. Anyway, I'm back to being me; it feels very, very good. And it also gave me time to put a few things into context as well as a little time to put myself back on top of my own mental state, my emotional state, and I've been able to size a few people up.
I know, in my absence, there's certain people running around more than ever, likely spreading lies about how I feel, telling others to avoid me for whatever reason -
JinxyFalina I expect you've faced a large chunk of that, so I can only hope you get to see this and read it through, I've not been avoiding you and we need to get a good catch up soon. The people who run around telling you to avoid me, to stay away from me, to keep out of my path? Tell them to take their lies, their bullshit and their venomous, corroding slurs and words, roll them up into a big, tight ball, and to shove them so far up their own ass they can taste their crap along with their spite. People have their own opinions of me, and those who have it in their mind that they're bigger, better, smarter, faster - whatever they want to believe - I suggest you come and tell me your shit to my face. Time's running out, and if I have to come to you, I hope you know that I'm coming for you, and I'm gonna hit you harder than Japan felt the tsunami. Inappropriate joke? Maybe. But the metaphor does the job.The bottom line to what I just said there - if you're on a high horse, get the fuck off. You're not perfect. You're not qualified to judge. You're not developed enough to make any kind of criticism - because when you do, you become just as heinous, just as vile, disgusting, outlandish and pathetic as those you try to cast a fucking hate on for wrong decisions. You become a hypocrite, not a martyr. I'll admit, there's some folk in the world, some people, who will set themselves out over and over to make mistake after mistake, who will put themselves ahead of the pack in their own mind even though they are so far down the food chain they can't get onto the first rung of the ladder - but there are also those who make mistakes. That's called 'normality', yet you become so fucking focused on the fact that they made a wrong turn or move, that you become annoyingly determined to hit them with all that you've got to feel...superior. Leason - superiority is NOT chosen, it is given and granted. You work for it, you earn it, and you are rewarded with it by those in a higher power. If you are inane enough to decided you have it before it is granted, you should fuck so far off, we'll need a compass, a map, a navigator, a team of translators, a plane, a pair of pilots, and a rich investor to find your sorry ass and proclaim it the nineth wonder of the world.
In other news, however still important,
SinkingShips and I are back together (he has about thirty thousand FA accounts, and he actually makes up around 70% of the population, but we haven't told Fender yet, so keep it hushed up), so if you'd be good enough to congratulate us, that'd be aces. It's long and complicated as to how the decision came about, however it was made, and I'm happy with it. If you ain't, go suck a cactus or something equally as painful, strenuous and productive.1035 words as well as two pages of Microsoft Works documentation. Suck it, bitches.
Decision time.
Posted 14 years agoThe world has a funny way of expecting to dictate your moves and actions, be it the people around you, pressuring or pushing you into doing something you do or don't want to do, the ideas around you that make you behave like you do, or the experiences that shape you, or even just the outside forces that is life itself, making things happen because that's what life does. Though, there's the rare occasions where all of that means nothing, and what was likely supposed to happen inevitably doesn't, spawning a new individual or chain of events within the lives of anyone affected. You're pushed to certain limits sometimes by it all, or you face decisions that you otherwise never wanted to make. Every decision has an outcome, a preset level of actions - when you do one thing, you set wheels for the next, and every step you take you progress further and further into it. The route can change, but a destination is always waiting. You don't win. You just make choices that worked out well for you, or you don't. Welcome to the fucking world.
I have so many decisions, so many moves I could make, I make one move to one route and I change a situation, I do the opposite, I change a situation. There's no give or take, no basic plotted line, no simple way to progress forwards on backwards. It's all just one big weird following. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I don't know where I'm gonna go. I don't know the best route, I don't know the best choice. I don't know where one road will lead and another well end. I don't know how long it will stretch, how far it will reach, how deep it will push or how far it will go. I don't know how shallow it is or how bad a course it'll be. Will I get hurt? If so, physically? Emotionally? Both? What if I don't? Will I be happy? Or will I be sad? Will I be indecisive or condescending? Out of my depth or in control? I don't know. It's fucking annoying, because I barely know where I am or where I stand. I don't know if I'm about to make the best decision of my life or the worst fuck-up I've ever encountered.
A part of me, is kinda screaming that I'm about to screw myself over, and I'm not exactly sure how or why. I'm not sure if it's the decision I'm about to make or if it's just the gut feeling I have. I'm not even sure if I win in the situation I'm in, to be honest. There doesn't seem to be a great way forward, every direction is just another rough road into a shit patch. I lose something either way, and I gain nothing. I can ask for all the advice I want or need - and I have asked multiple sources - but I get responses for either direction. So now it's down to me. As I've said, I don't know what I want to do, but I know the questions I have to ask, the responses I need to get before I can get a decision, though it doesn't help for two days I've not been able to speak to the person concerned since I think they're avoiding me right now till tomorrow. Not helping the situation much.
We'll see where this goes, or how it goes. I wonder if it'll be sorted quietly or if things will explode. Only time will tell.
I have so many decisions, so many moves I could make, I make one move to one route and I change a situation, I do the opposite, I change a situation. There's no give or take, no basic plotted line, no simple way to progress forwards on backwards. It's all just one big weird following. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I don't know where I'm gonna go. I don't know the best route, I don't know the best choice. I don't know where one road will lead and another well end. I don't know how long it will stretch, how far it will reach, how deep it will push or how far it will go. I don't know how shallow it is or how bad a course it'll be. Will I get hurt? If so, physically? Emotionally? Both? What if I don't? Will I be happy? Or will I be sad? Will I be indecisive or condescending? Out of my depth or in control? I don't know. It's fucking annoying, because I barely know where I am or where I stand. I don't know if I'm about to make the best decision of my life or the worst fuck-up I've ever encountered.
A part of me, is kinda screaming that I'm about to screw myself over, and I'm not exactly sure how or why. I'm not sure if it's the decision I'm about to make or if it's just the gut feeling I have. I'm not even sure if I win in the situation I'm in, to be honest. There doesn't seem to be a great way forward, every direction is just another rough road into a shit patch. I lose something either way, and I gain nothing. I can ask for all the advice I want or need - and I have asked multiple sources - but I get responses for either direction. So now it's down to me. As I've said, I don't know what I want to do, but I know the questions I have to ask, the responses I need to get before I can get a decision, though it doesn't help for two days I've not been able to speak to the person concerned since I think they're avoiding me right now till tomorrow. Not helping the situation much.
We'll see where this goes, or how it goes. I wonder if it'll be sorted quietly or if things will explode. Only time will tell.
To Whom It May Concern..
Posted 14 years agoI'm sorry.
Life Till Now
Posted 14 years ago"Help me if you can,
It's just that this,
Is not the way
I'm wired so could you please
Help me understand why?
You're giving into all these
Reckless dark desires you're,
Lyin' to yourself again.."
Not filled one of these out for a while, probably should, since a lot has been going on. Still unemployed - loving it. You know, besides the lack of money, but I can deal with that at some point, it's not like I'm fucked forever, it's just till I find another job. I've done my exit interview, handed back the uniform, I've filled out the leaving forms - I'm officially out of there completely. Which works great for me, since they're all making up their own wee stories about why I walked rather come and ask me themselves. Funny, eh? Well, fuck 'em - I tried to extend the branch, tried to be nice on leaving, and they didn't want to return it. They can go and fuck themselves as far as I'm concerned.
Feb 10th - I turned 18. Yeah, you heard me right. I turned 18 this year, this February, 2 weeks ago. I snuck under the radar for quite a long time, and very people actually knew. I've been in the fandom since I was about..15? That's quite a long period of time, no matter who you are. Anyone who had it planned to use on me, the dirt is gone - I'm legal now, you've missed your window and opportunity.
Giving a shout out here to JinxyFalina by the way, she's known me for all that time and been there as a good friend whenever she can be, so I just hope she gets to see this and knows I'm always there for her, no matter what anyone says. She knows what I'm talking about. Which is also another note, by the way, if you're talking shit about me to her or trying to keep us from being friends, rethink and check yourself. Otherwise..I'll have to kick your ass.
Not sure if there's much left for me to say.
Peace.Update 31 Jan 2011
Posted 15 years agoI've not posted one of these in a while. So, time to dive right in.
Why did the collie quit McDonald's? Because he has a life to live and would rather not spend it in jail for blowing a customer or two the fuck away since they're arseholes - that's right, I quit my job. :D Smart move? Financially, no, personally, one of the best decisions I've ever made. I can find another job for the same hours at better pay, for a start. And, it's making me feel a lot less depressed and shit that I have been so, great decision. A lot of my old workmates (namely, all of em) haven't spoken to me since I left, and I can't help but think that's because they hate me now - if that's the case, they can shove it up their dickhole.
College is going well - I've seen people being bounced off of the course but that's their own damn fault, right? I've done all my work, handed it in when it's due, been on top of it, it's not that hard. But, hey, always a couple of lazy pricks on your course, no matter where you are. Just unfortunate they did that at college level, where not handing work in is enough to have them put out the class and off the course.
I'm losing my bedroom for two weeks - it's bittersweet, I'm not gonna have a bed while my cousin is visiting, but she's from Australia and I haven't seen her since I was tiny. At this point, my parents are more of an issue than losing my room - they have a severe issue with communication and then a knack for trying to make me feel bad for doing something wrong, even though it's the exact thing they just told me to do. As you can say, they're brain surgeons, especially when I'm the only one giving up his room and being called selfish, makes total sense, right?
By the way, I love
RoarW Just sayin'.
Why did the collie quit McDonald's? Because he has a life to live and would rather not spend it in jail for blowing a customer or two the fuck away since they're arseholes - that's right, I quit my job. :D Smart move? Financially, no, personally, one of the best decisions I've ever made. I can find another job for the same hours at better pay, for a start. And, it's making me feel a lot less depressed and shit that I have been so, great decision. A lot of my old workmates (namely, all of em) haven't spoken to me since I left, and I can't help but think that's because they hate me now - if that's the case, they can shove it up their dickhole.
College is going well - I've seen people being bounced off of the course but that's their own damn fault, right? I've done all my work, handed it in when it's due, been on top of it, it's not that hard. But, hey, always a couple of lazy pricks on your course, no matter where you are. Just unfortunate they did that at college level, where not handing work in is enough to have them put out the class and off the course.
I'm losing my bedroom for two weeks - it's bittersweet, I'm not gonna have a bed while my cousin is visiting, but she's from Australia and I haven't seen her since I was tiny. At this point, my parents are more of an issue than losing my room - they have a severe issue with communication and then a knack for trying to make me feel bad for doing something wrong, even though it's the exact thing they just told me to do. As you can say, they're brain surgeons, especially when I'm the only one giving up his room and being called selfish, makes total sense, right?
By the way, I love
RoarW Just sayin'.Don't you know, about the word?
Posted 15 years agoNew Year Meme
Posted 15 years agoStolen from JinxyFalina
1) Where did you begin 2010?
At home in bed.
2) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Well, I had just come off my birthday, but I was fairly happy.
3) Were you in school anytime this year?
Yep.
4) How did you earn your money?
Not till I got a job a few months ago, but workin' through McDonald's, ugh..
5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yeah, visiting my mother when she had to be taken in for care.
6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Not directly, nope.
7) Would you relive 2010 over and over again?
Nope.
8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Dude, I've not even HAD that kinda money to spend.
9) Did you know anybody who got married?
Hm..don't think so.
10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yeah, lets not get into that, though..
11) Did you know anyone who had a baby?
Yeah, my ex.
12) Did you move anywhere?
Nah, stayed where I am.
13) What concerts/shows did you go to?
None that I can think of..does cinema for Toy Story 3 count?
14) Are you registered to vote?
Nah.
15) Do you still have the same job as you did in 2009?
I was unemployed in '09.
16) Has anyone betrayed you in 2010?
Aye, my trust anyway.
17) Where do you live now?
Glasgow, Scotland.
18) Describe your birthday?
Family came over to wish me a good one.
19) What’s one thing you thought you’d never do but did in 2010?
I..hm..good question..not sure..
20) What has been your favorite moment?
Vacation in Florida.
21) What’s something you learned about yourself?
I'm always gonna have my own back.
22) Any new additions to your family?
Not mine specifically.
23) What was your best month?
February I guess.
24) Were you in a relationship this year?
Mhm.
25) What music will you remember 2010 by?
Bob Dylan - The Times Are A Changin'
26) Favorite book you read?
Lovin' Steven Adler's autobiography.
27) Favorite Movie?
Toy Story 3
28) Favorite TV show?
Still Game
29) New friend?
College folks, so a fair few.
30) Would you say you’ve changed since the beginning of this year?
Completely.
31) Do you think 2011 will be better or worse?
If it's worse, I'm not gonna make it to the other end.
JinxyFalina1) Where did you begin 2010?
At home in bed.
2) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
Well, I had just come off my birthday, but I was fairly happy.
3) Were you in school anytime this year?
Yep.
4) How did you earn your money?
Not till I got a job a few months ago, but workin' through McDonald's, ugh..
5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yeah, visiting my mother when she had to be taken in for care.
6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Not directly, nope.
7) Would you relive 2010 over and over again?
Nope.
8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Dude, I've not even HAD that kinda money to spend.
9) Did you know anybody who got married?
Hm..don't think so.
10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yeah, lets not get into that, though..
11) Did you know anyone who had a baby?
Yeah, my ex.
12) Did you move anywhere?
Nah, stayed where I am.
13) What concerts/shows did you go to?
None that I can think of..does cinema for Toy Story 3 count?
14) Are you registered to vote?
Nah.
15) Do you still have the same job as you did in 2009?
I was unemployed in '09.
16) Has anyone betrayed you in 2010?
Aye, my trust anyway.
17) Where do you live now?
Glasgow, Scotland.
18) Describe your birthday?
Family came over to wish me a good one.
19) What’s one thing you thought you’d never do but did in 2010?
I..hm..good question..not sure..
20) What has been your favorite moment?
Vacation in Florida.
21) What’s something you learned about yourself?
I'm always gonna have my own back.
22) Any new additions to your family?
Not mine specifically.
23) What was your best month?
February I guess.
24) Were you in a relationship this year?
Mhm.
25) What music will you remember 2010 by?
Bob Dylan - The Times Are A Changin'
26) Favorite book you read?
Lovin' Steven Adler's autobiography.
27) Favorite Movie?
Toy Story 3
28) Favorite TV show?
Still Game
29) New friend?
College folks, so a fair few.
30) Would you say you’ve changed since the beginning of this year?
Completely.
31) Do you think 2011 will be better or worse?
If it's worse, I'm not gonna make it to the other end.
...Gaaaaaaaaah...
Posted 15 years agoEver feel like you've died? Not literally dead, but a lot of you is just..gone? I dunno, over the past few months, I've stopped being able to care about people. Well, namely, the public, stopped caring as much about how they feel or how they might react to something I say - feeling like what I say is what they deserve and if it offends them, then to fuck with 'em. I'm losing so much faith in mankind, losing any caring or ability to care about them. That's never been me, I used to put others before me all the time, but now, I feel like they should all be taking a back seat..like I'm better than them..
That doesn't apply to everyone, by the way. Those who I trust as friends or more, they still have me as I always have been, but even then, at times I feel like even they've noticed a change in me or how I act/react. It's..it's not a good thing, really. At least not for me, because what bothers me most, is they are noting there's something wrong in/with me.
I suppose the positive side to it is my feeling of eliteness (if that's even a word) is motivation to fix the things about me I don't like. My weight is one, I'm starting to eat a little better and do more physically. I'm looking at ways to drop more weight and start adding more muscle. Not to what I used to be - I used to be a tall, skinny guy. Now, I'm tall and heavy. So, I need to try and be tall and muscular, add muscle mass so I'm not too stocky or too lithe. In my head, I can see myself as I want to be. Big, built..I dunno, I can see it. I suppose it would be cool to be the most muscular guy in my work.
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu soon. Fuck yeah. Once I get to a good level, I can start adding Gracie logo stuff and have it be official. You won't get it if you're not big on MMA, but if I can get to the Helios Gracie level, I'll have done well in my life.
I dunno. Maybe it's subjective, maybe it's temporary, I do feel better whenever I'm away from that place. It's killing me from the inside, slowly..like I was intaking a fuckin' badass toxin. I can feel it..I feel myself slowly collapsing, in work..if the cutlery wasn't plastic, folk would be fucked. That's all I can say.
That doesn't apply to everyone, by the way. Those who I trust as friends or more, they still have me as I always have been, but even then, at times I feel like even they've noticed a change in me or how I act/react. It's..it's not a good thing, really. At least not for me, because what bothers me most, is they are noting there's something wrong in/with me.
I suppose the positive side to it is my feeling of eliteness (if that's even a word) is motivation to fix the things about me I don't like. My weight is one, I'm starting to eat a little better and do more physically. I'm looking at ways to drop more weight and start adding more muscle. Not to what I used to be - I used to be a tall, skinny guy. Now, I'm tall and heavy. So, I need to try and be tall and muscular, add muscle mass so I'm not too stocky or too lithe. In my head, I can see myself as I want to be. Big, built..I dunno, I can see it. I suppose it would be cool to be the most muscular guy in my work.
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu soon. Fuck yeah. Once I get to a good level, I can start adding Gracie logo stuff and have it be official. You won't get it if you're not big on MMA, but if I can get to the Helios Gracie level, I'll have done well in my life.
I dunno. Maybe it's subjective, maybe it's temporary, I do feel better whenever I'm away from that place. It's killing me from the inside, slowly..like I was intaking a fuckin' badass toxin. I can feel it..I feel myself slowly collapsing, in work..if the cutlery wasn't plastic, folk would be fucked. That's all I can say.
Mh
Posted 15 years agoWeeeell..not done one of these in a while.
Work sucks. It's official. McDonalds customers, nine times outta ten, deserve to die. Lazy, selfish, complaining little pricks, concerned with having a whine about every minor detail. "OHMAHGAWDDERISMAYOONTHISCHICKENMAYOGETRIDOFIT! D:<" Feck off. There's a door over there, use it. Please, fucking, leave. Before I take this sandwich and shove it so far up your ass, you'll be tasting Big Mac for weeks.
I'm worried about a friend. She knows who she is, haven't been able to get a hold of her in a long time, but I'm still worried about her. So yeah, I'm hoping she's OK.
I'm..so fucking tired, it's unreal. I'm just..ya know, near enough collapsing point these days, so I need a day to just lay about, do nothing and sleep soon, it'll do me a lot of good, I could do with a battery recharge. Plus, my bed is tauntingly comfy, so sleeping won't be an issue. Coincidentally, anyone noticed while you're tired, your bed seems to notice this and thus enhances its comfort levels? I did, it was an odd moment for me.
I probably have more to talk about, but to be honest I can't remember what at this point..good sign maybe? I dunno, I feel like I've fucked my head with drugs, except I've never taken any in my life. Straight Edge, fuck yeah.
Work sucks. It's official. McDonalds customers, nine times outta ten, deserve to die. Lazy, selfish, complaining little pricks, concerned with having a whine about every minor detail. "OHMAHGAWDDERISMAYOONTHISCHICKENMAYOGETRIDOFIT! D:<" Feck off. There's a door over there, use it. Please, fucking, leave. Before I take this sandwich and shove it so far up your ass, you'll be tasting Big Mac for weeks.
I'm worried about a friend. She knows who she is, haven't been able to get a hold of her in a long time, but I'm still worried about her. So yeah, I'm hoping she's OK.
I'm..so fucking tired, it's unreal. I'm just..ya know, near enough collapsing point these days, so I need a day to just lay about, do nothing and sleep soon, it'll do me a lot of good, I could do with a battery recharge. Plus, my bed is tauntingly comfy, so sleeping won't be an issue. Coincidentally, anyone noticed while you're tired, your bed seems to notice this and thus enhances its comfort levels? I did, it was an odd moment for me.
I probably have more to talk about, but to be honest I can't remember what at this point..good sign maybe? I dunno, I feel like I've fucked my head with drugs, except I've never taken any in my life. Straight Edge, fuck yeah.
Yes or No
Posted 15 years agoStolen from 
Arygwen
Rules:
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? ---No
Been arrested? ---No
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---No
Slept in until 5 PM? ---Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---No
Ran a red light? ---No
Been suspended from school? ---No
Experienced love at first sight? ---Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? ---No
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? ---Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? ---No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---Yes
Kissed in the rain? ---No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? ---Yes
Seen someone die? ---No
Played spin-the-bottle? ---Yes
Sang in the shower? ---Yes
Smoked a cigar? ---No
Sat on a rooftop? ---Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? ---Yes
Eaten a bug? ---Yes
Sleepwalked? ---No
Walked a moonlit beach? ---No
Ridden a motorcycle? ---No
Dumped someone? ---Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? ---Yes
Hit a home run? ---No
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? ---No
Been falling-down drunk? ---No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes..
Eaten snake? ---No
Marched/Protested? ---No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---No
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---No
Been in a band? ---Yes
Knitted? ---No
Been on TV? ---No
Shot a gun? ---No
Skinny-dipped? ---No
Caused someone to need stitches? ---No
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---Yes
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? ---No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---Yes
Passed out when not drinking? ---Yes
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? ---No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? ---Yes
Peed your pants in public? ---No
Written graffiti? ---Yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---No
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---No
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes
I just wanna say I didn't kill the animal in cold blood, it was fishing..
ArygwenRules:
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? ---No
Been arrested? ---No
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---No
Slept in until 5 PM? ---Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---No
Ran a red light? ---No
Been suspended from school? ---No
Experienced love at first sight? ---Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? ---No
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? ---Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? ---No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---Yes
Kissed in the rain? ---No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? ---Yes
Seen someone die? ---No
Played spin-the-bottle? ---Yes
Sang in the shower? ---Yes
Smoked a cigar? ---No
Sat on a rooftop? ---Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? ---Yes
Eaten a bug? ---Yes
Sleepwalked? ---No
Walked a moonlit beach? ---No
Ridden a motorcycle? ---No
Dumped someone? ---Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? ---Yes
Hit a home run? ---No
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? ---No
Been falling-down drunk? ---No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes..
Eaten snake? ---No
Marched/Protested? ---No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---No
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---No
Been in a band? ---Yes
Knitted? ---No
Been on TV? ---No
Shot a gun? ---No
Skinny-dipped? ---No
Caused someone to need stitches? ---No
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---Yes
Had surgery? --- Yes
Streaked? ---No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---Yes
Passed out when not drinking? ---Yes
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? ---No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? ---Yes
Peed your pants in public? ---No
Written graffiti? ---Yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---No
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---No
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes
I just wanna say I didn't kill the animal in cold blood, it was fishing..
This country is fucked..
Posted 15 years agoThat's right - it is. I don't care who you are, I don't give a shit about your political views or how you want to argue it, because the truth of the matter is this - the UK is circling the drain. Now, that's part to do with David Cameron and his little butt buddy, Clegg.
From what's happening, I think the easiest way to word it is "I hate this government and this countries direction." First off, we have the student college/uni fee rise, now, I understand raising them, I really do, and I don't expect all the Americans out there to stand behind us since you all pay such a huge sum to get into college or uni. What has me angry is the principle of it. Now, Nick Clegg promised that in power, they wouldn't happen, and he said 6000 would be unacceptable - and yet here the government are implementing a plan to raise it to 9000 in fees. See the issue? If you say it won't happen, even in a coalition government, how in the FUCK does it go up an extra 3000? I could have understood if they said they had to go up and would be at around 3000, maybe even 4000 at a push. But, when you say 6000 is too much, and then you want to charge 9000, haven't you completely gone back on your fuckin' word?
That sparked student demos - which by the way I am totally in support of. The problem is, the government don't want to listen to the students, they're not interested in what they have to say. So, in turn, students turn aggressive, because that will get the governments attention, and I personally think it hasn't gone far enough yet. If anything, it should become bigger, harder hitting, the government ARE starting to take notice, and that was the goal in the first place. They underestimated the students and they paid the price for it.
Then, we have this snow suddenly hitting us in Scotland, where they decided that it wasn't gonna be much - in fact, they didn't even check the weather for Scotland, just England and broadcast it throughout the UK - which ended up being a disaster as the snow came on HARD. I can't get out my own street without hiking more or less, the buses are off, trains, taxis, roads are shut, motorways and junctions closed, it's a standstill. I spent 27 hours in town and was stranded there rather than being able to get home, then had to walk from my grans, 2 and a half hours to collect my brother from school and bring him back, then to make it 3 and a half hours as I walked my aunt from my grans to her own apartment. I ended up spending the night there while my mother, father and brother stayed over at the grandparents. Another hour or so hike home the next day since the car had to be abandoned at the bottom of a hill, since it was too snow coated to drive up it, then today we had to take a new route to get it to the house, and dig it into a parking space. Looking good, right?
Now, I hear about this idea of if you get caught carrying a knife or a level of crime, rather than get arrested, you get community service. Now, anyone who knows me well will know how fuckin' angry that has me. My friend was killed by someone carrying a knife, the killer was my cousin - he ADMITTED to the murder, and then he was let out on bail, sent out of town to a safehouse and is doing well. He got away with murder..and now they're making more and more opportunities for this to happen. As horrible as this may sound, I think it's time we introduced more extreme politics. Like, if you're a conservative, you should just be shot since it's more humane that way.
From what's happening, I think the easiest way to word it is "I hate this government and this countries direction." First off, we have the student college/uni fee rise, now, I understand raising them, I really do, and I don't expect all the Americans out there to stand behind us since you all pay such a huge sum to get into college or uni. What has me angry is the principle of it. Now, Nick Clegg promised that in power, they wouldn't happen, and he said 6000 would be unacceptable - and yet here the government are implementing a plan to raise it to 9000 in fees. See the issue? If you say it won't happen, even in a coalition government, how in the FUCK does it go up an extra 3000? I could have understood if they said they had to go up and would be at around 3000, maybe even 4000 at a push. But, when you say 6000 is too much, and then you want to charge 9000, haven't you completely gone back on your fuckin' word?
That sparked student demos - which by the way I am totally in support of. The problem is, the government don't want to listen to the students, they're not interested in what they have to say. So, in turn, students turn aggressive, because that will get the governments attention, and I personally think it hasn't gone far enough yet. If anything, it should become bigger, harder hitting, the government ARE starting to take notice, and that was the goal in the first place. They underestimated the students and they paid the price for it.
Then, we have this snow suddenly hitting us in Scotland, where they decided that it wasn't gonna be much - in fact, they didn't even check the weather for Scotland, just England and broadcast it throughout the UK - which ended up being a disaster as the snow came on HARD. I can't get out my own street without hiking more or less, the buses are off, trains, taxis, roads are shut, motorways and junctions closed, it's a standstill. I spent 27 hours in town and was stranded there rather than being able to get home, then had to walk from my grans, 2 and a half hours to collect my brother from school and bring him back, then to make it 3 and a half hours as I walked my aunt from my grans to her own apartment. I ended up spending the night there while my mother, father and brother stayed over at the grandparents. Another hour or so hike home the next day since the car had to be abandoned at the bottom of a hill, since it was too snow coated to drive up it, then today we had to take a new route to get it to the house, and dig it into a parking space. Looking good, right?
Now, I hear about this idea of if you get caught carrying a knife or a level of crime, rather than get arrested, you get community service. Now, anyone who knows me well will know how fuckin' angry that has me. My friend was killed by someone carrying a knife, the killer was my cousin - he ADMITTED to the murder, and then he was let out on bail, sent out of town to a safehouse and is doing well. He got away with murder..and now they're making more and more opportunities for this to happen. As horrible as this may sound, I think it's time we introduced more extreme politics. Like, if you're a conservative, you should just be shot since it's more humane that way.
Huh..
Posted 15 years agoFor the past few days, I've been looking for something to put here, something to complain about but in an entertaining way because, at the end of the day, no-one's gonna read this thing if it bores them to death, right? Anyway, that's been pretty much it, I've been looking to find something bitchy, or funny, or witty to say, and I've not come with anything. For the first time in a while, things, despite being a bit fucked up, being a little more difficult than I'm used to, money being tighter..they're not too bad. Everything has a counter balance, really.
I heard about my cousin today, the killer. He's doing well. That annoys me, a lot, since as far as I'm concerned, he should be in jail for what he did. But, on the flip side, my cousin from Australia is coming to visit in two months, so she'll be here for my birthday, which is set to look pretty good.
People from my college class keep coming to me for help with all their work, every piece of it, but at the same time, I know what I'm doing, even though some of them have been in the classes more than myself, so it's difficult for them to really say a word against my performance. The lecturers have regularly commented on my good performance.
Shit tons of people keep coming to me for advice, or relationship advice, or to complain about their lack of relationship (some doing that despite having 6 other boyfriends at the same time, and that, sadly, is not an exaggeration). At the same time, I know my life isn't that turbulent because I lay things out in a nice, easy, straightforward and linear as is possible in certain situations.
I have a job, but it's at McDonald's.
So, that's it really.
I heard about my cousin today, the killer. He's doing well. That annoys me, a lot, since as far as I'm concerned, he should be in jail for what he did. But, on the flip side, my cousin from Australia is coming to visit in two months, so she'll be here for my birthday, which is set to look pretty good.
People from my college class keep coming to me for help with all their work, every piece of it, but at the same time, I know what I'm doing, even though some of them have been in the classes more than myself, so it's difficult for them to really say a word against my performance. The lecturers have regularly commented on my good performance.
Shit tons of people keep coming to me for advice, or relationship advice, or to complain about their lack of relationship (some doing that despite having 6 other boyfriends at the same time, and that, sadly, is not an exaggeration). At the same time, I know my life isn't that turbulent because I lay things out in a nice, easy, straightforward and linear as is possible in certain situations.
I have a job, but it's at McDonald's.
So, that's it really.
Greedy Bastard Royals..
Posted 15 years agoDear Royal Family,
It has come to my attention that your wedding is being largely mediacised and spoken about as though it is of great importance. I, however, have several questions.
1) Why the fuck are we paying for it you greedy bastards? We already owe you money just for existing, the least you can do is pay for your own fucking events.
2) Why do you keep telling us we'll make a ton of money from this? We won't see a penny of it due to there being a conservative government in place.
3) Why do you seem to think you're even RELEVANT anymore? You are figurehead and a title with no power in today's society, and anyone who says you influence them are fucking moronic due to the fact you do NOTHING all day and still get millions for it.
4) Why are we hearing about your wedding when real people are dying in a war at the present time? Thousands of people get married a day, you're not that special.
Please take the following points, shove your answers up your arse and cease to exist.
Yours truely,
The population.
It has come to my attention that your wedding is being largely mediacised and spoken about as though it is of great importance. I, however, have several questions.
1) Why the fuck are we paying for it you greedy bastards? We already owe you money just for existing, the least you can do is pay for your own fucking events.
2) Why do you keep telling us we'll make a ton of money from this? We won't see a penny of it due to there being a conservative government in place.
3) Why do you seem to think you're even RELEVANT anymore? You are figurehead and a title with no power in today's society, and anyone who says you influence them are fucking moronic due to the fact you do NOTHING all day and still get millions for it.
4) Why are we hearing about your wedding when real people are dying in a war at the present time? Thousands of people get married a day, you're not that special.
Please take the following points, shove your answers up your arse and cease to exist.
Yours truely,
The population.
Answer some questions about me, aye?
Posted 15 years agoNicked it from JinxyFalina because I can. I want to see answers, go.
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
JinxyFalina because I can. I want to see answers, go.1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
Soooo..
Posted 15 years agoSo I figured I may as well do a little life update, because it'll let me get my article abilities on the move, since this is good practice for college and blah blah blah. So! Lets begin.
I've been getting really into my lifestyle choice - I dunno, I mean, before I was just happy I decided to go straightedge, but now..it just feels much better. Me. Maybe it was partly because people came into work throwing up non-stop due to being hung over and I won't befall that fate, but even then, I've just been wanting to make it more part of my day to day being. Tattoos being a start (I want Straight Edge across my back in ye ole' English font along with an X on both biceps in the middle of a design), and once I get my Brazilian Jiu Jitsu classes on the go, I'll be looking as good as I feel hopefully in a short space of time.
College is amazing. Even if it's killing me slowly. 6am starts, just aren't fun, man. That's something I need to get used to still, and I likely won't. But I need to try, I suppose. It's not a bad thing, mind you, I end up walking like an hour a day just specifically, and that's a good health improver and weight loser, and then I climb a set of stairs up six flights (I've been jumping out of that with the lift lately, so I'm gonna try adding it back in just for the fact that I'm adding extra gradiant to every commute) so in a few months, I'll hopefully have lost weight. You know, depending if my work haven't fattened me up with the free lunch that comes with every shift. Damn you, McDonalds.
I have so much pent up energy and just..gaaah. I think I need to go out and fight someone. Seriously, not a personal vendetta fight, just a controlled one where we step up, slug for a bit, hug after and get on like nothing happened. No winners, no "so no face shots", just a scrap for a few minutes and move on. Either that or I need to go for a run one night when the moon is out. I keep looking at the stars and thinking of different people, so they get associated with pretty much every night I go through now. I dunno, kinda awesome, though occasionally makes me feel a little lonely, yet cool for me in the same process. I guess I kinda like looking out the window, seeing a few stars and then pointing, just to say "there's Roar, oh and Jinxy, and dad!" Ya know? Makes the world a little more bearable when it becomes shit and fucked up.
Otherwise, the bad stuff..I suppose really just comes to the aggravating people in life - a couple of college mates who's names will remain anonymous however will be given a stern talking to in the near future, along with some folk who just..gah. When you say you're "insane" because it makes you think you're cool and edgy, then you're a fucking moron. My cousin went insane. He killed my friend. I've yet to be able to mourn him properly, say a goodbye, because I'm related to him, and can't get near enough to any of his tributes just to say "goodbye" and go. It's fucking annoying, when this dude thinks that being "insane" makes him dark and edgy and clever and mysterious and cool - it makes him a fucking failure. At life, in general situations, just makes him a waste of space. He tried to fuck with my head once, apparently, but I didn't see where it got psychological, so again, he failed.
Otherwise, yeah. Life is great. Comment as you wish on this, I'll respond if ya do. Or not if you don't, I dunno how many folk will read it, but, eh.
I've been getting really into my lifestyle choice - I dunno, I mean, before I was just happy I decided to go straightedge, but now..it just feels much better. Me. Maybe it was partly because people came into work throwing up non-stop due to being hung over and I won't befall that fate, but even then, I've just been wanting to make it more part of my day to day being. Tattoos being a start (I want Straight Edge across my back in ye ole' English font along with an X on both biceps in the middle of a design), and once I get my Brazilian Jiu Jitsu classes on the go, I'll be looking as good as I feel hopefully in a short space of time.
College is amazing. Even if it's killing me slowly. 6am starts, just aren't fun, man. That's something I need to get used to still, and I likely won't. But I need to try, I suppose. It's not a bad thing, mind you, I end up walking like an hour a day just specifically, and that's a good health improver and weight loser, and then I climb a set of stairs up six flights (I've been jumping out of that with the lift lately, so I'm gonna try adding it back in just for the fact that I'm adding extra gradiant to every commute) so in a few months, I'll hopefully have lost weight. You know, depending if my work haven't fattened me up with the free lunch that comes with every shift. Damn you, McDonalds.
I have so much pent up energy and just..gaaah. I think I need to go out and fight someone. Seriously, not a personal vendetta fight, just a controlled one where we step up, slug for a bit, hug after and get on like nothing happened. No winners, no "so no face shots", just a scrap for a few minutes and move on. Either that or I need to go for a run one night when the moon is out. I keep looking at the stars and thinking of different people, so they get associated with pretty much every night I go through now. I dunno, kinda awesome, though occasionally makes me feel a little lonely, yet cool for me in the same process. I guess I kinda like looking out the window, seeing a few stars and then pointing, just to say "there's Roar, oh and Jinxy, and dad!" Ya know? Makes the world a little more bearable when it becomes shit and fucked up.
Otherwise, the bad stuff..I suppose really just comes to the aggravating people in life - a couple of college mates who's names will remain anonymous however will be given a stern talking to in the near future, along with some folk who just..gah. When you say you're "insane" because it makes you think you're cool and edgy, then you're a fucking moron. My cousin went insane. He killed my friend. I've yet to be able to mourn him properly, say a goodbye, because I'm related to him, and can't get near enough to any of his tributes just to say "goodbye" and go. It's fucking annoying, when this dude thinks that being "insane" makes him dark and edgy and clever and mysterious and cool - it makes him a fucking failure. At life, in general situations, just makes him a waste of space. He tried to fuck with my head once, apparently, but I didn't see where it got psychological, so again, he failed.
Otherwise, yeah. Life is great. Comment as you wish on this, I'll respond if ya do. Or not if you don't, I dunno how many folk will read it, but, eh.
Free Arts, Yo!
Posted 15 years agoSo..this person needs a third woman, now, you could be a female and want in, or, you could be a male and want to do a gender swap - thems the choices!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1808522/
There's the journal, do as it says, GOGOGOGOGOGO!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1808522/
There's the journal, do as it says, GOGOGOGOGOGO!
Group Art For Halloween!
Posted 15 years agoSo, this dude, 
neofur14, is doing a big group art piece and is looking for people who want in!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:14969967 This is the good sirs journal to get in, do eet!
neofur14, is doing a big group art piece and is looking for people who want in!http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:14969967 This is the good sirs journal to get in, do eet!
Nice Guys STILL Finish Last
Posted 15 years agoStolen from my best friend JinxyFalina Keepin' it real and all that shit in the hood, yo.
♥To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"
♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls
♥To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥To every guy that really would.
♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes
♥To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.
♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.
♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.
♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them
♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door
♥To every guy that gave his heart.
♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image
If you are a nice guy repost this with: "Nice guys STILL finish last"
If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "To Every Guy"
JinxyFalina Keepin' it real and all that shit in the hood, yo.♥To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"
♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"
♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls
♥To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥To every guy that really would.
♥To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥To every guy that cried in front of her...
♥To every guy that she cried in front of...
♥To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
♥To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
♥To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
♥To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes
♥To every guy that would give his seat up...
♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
♥To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
♥To every guy who told his secrets to her.
♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.
♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
♥To every guy that believed in her dreams.
♥To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them
♥To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
♥To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door
♥To every guy that gave his heart.
♥To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...
I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image
If you are a nice guy repost this with: "Nice guys STILL finish last"
If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "To Every Guy"
This Is The Fuckin' Way
Posted 15 years agoYa know, looking back, it's always been kinda the same thing. "This is what you're gonna be, gonna do, grow up as, grow up into", and every trend somewhere down the line, I broke those up one by one. I was gonna grow up to join the physical labour trade of things like being an electrician - I'm studying media. I was gonna grow up to be incredibly intelligent on paper, my last few years at High School were a pisstake. I was gonna grow up around self destructive friends who's stupidity would eventually lead to my own demise and/or serious injury. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs - and only ever got drunk once. Everything I was set to be by someone else's standards, I fucked up the plan.
I couldn't be prouder. See, as I sit here, maybe it's the feeling that I want to go for a fight because I haven't been in one for far too long, or maybe it's just because I'm young and I can..but I feel..alive. Like, totally, utterly, explosively, knife up your ass, gun down your throat, but you just got saved by the swat team alive. Sure, I grew up a bit over the years - learned to just be me, stop following a crowd if I don't like the trend, learned to think for myself and how to act responsibly, take care of myself, live, and grow, and become, but I also learned another set of important things.
1) Don't live by someone elses standards. If they're not your own, they are wrong. If you can't find area for compromise, time to deal with the situation, but don't complain because you don't want to ask them to flex what can be flexed with you.
2) Don't get in situations you can only blow up eventually. There's times where shit's will hit the fan, and there's times where shit is gonna totally blow up in your face, and it's your own fault. When that happens, don't come crying to someone else like it shouldn't have - it's easy to assess a bad situation you put yourself in.
3) Start to be your eccentric self. Start wearing that crazy shirt or those weird jeans, that unusual makeup or that odd piece of jewlerry, be YOU for fuck sake. Not you around your boss with everyone you, not you around your family with everyone you, you as you without the need to change your social styles. Why lock yourself away?
4) Stop grabbing onto things because you heard from someone else - someone else might be very wrong, because they don't know exactly what is your tastes and likes. Maybe they will be right, but if they suggest it, decide if you want to do it, not "oh, hey, I heard it's the best evar!!!1!!one! wanna play?!" "SUUUUURE!!!!!111!1!1oneoneone!!!2!! :D" because you're following it just cuz this guy assured you. For fuck sake, insurances assure you they will cover you, and we all know the bullshit they play.
5) For the fucking love of god, stop FMLing, stop self wallowing, pitying, whatever, because I don't have time for you and neither does the world. Your third of six boyfriends left you cuz of neglect? Tough shit. My cousin murdered my friend who wasn't even 15 because he cheated on his boyfriend with said friend, but I've seemed to come out of that fiasco fine, so why is you fucking up supposed to make me want to empathise?
And finally, stop misrepresenting. If you're not blunt, don't call yourself blunt. If you're not rich, stop claiming to have money. If you didn't fuck your mother? Don't call yourself a motherfucker to be funny. Pulp Fiction and Samuel L Jackson is the only times mothafucka is funny.
I couldn't be prouder. See, as I sit here, maybe it's the feeling that I want to go for a fight because I haven't been in one for far too long, or maybe it's just because I'm young and I can..but I feel..alive. Like, totally, utterly, explosively, knife up your ass, gun down your throat, but you just got saved by the swat team alive. Sure, I grew up a bit over the years - learned to just be me, stop following a crowd if I don't like the trend, learned to think for myself and how to act responsibly, take care of myself, live, and grow, and become, but I also learned another set of important things.
1) Don't live by someone elses standards. If they're not your own, they are wrong. If you can't find area for compromise, time to deal with the situation, but don't complain because you don't want to ask them to flex what can be flexed with you.
2) Don't get in situations you can only blow up eventually. There's times where shit's will hit the fan, and there's times where shit is gonna totally blow up in your face, and it's your own fault. When that happens, don't come crying to someone else like it shouldn't have - it's easy to assess a bad situation you put yourself in.
3) Start to be your eccentric self. Start wearing that crazy shirt or those weird jeans, that unusual makeup or that odd piece of jewlerry, be YOU for fuck sake. Not you around your boss with everyone you, not you around your family with everyone you, you as you without the need to change your social styles. Why lock yourself away?
4) Stop grabbing onto things because you heard from someone else - someone else might be very wrong, because they don't know exactly what is your tastes and likes. Maybe they will be right, but if they suggest it, decide if you want to do it, not "oh, hey, I heard it's the best evar!!!1!!one! wanna play?!" "SUUUUURE!!!!!111!1!1oneoneone!!!2!! :D" because you're following it just cuz this guy assured you. For fuck sake, insurances assure you they will cover you, and we all know the bullshit they play.
5) For the fucking love of god, stop FMLing, stop self wallowing, pitying, whatever, because I don't have time for you and neither does the world. Your third of six boyfriends left you cuz of neglect? Tough shit. My cousin murdered my friend who wasn't even 15 because he cheated on his boyfriend with said friend, but I've seemed to come out of that fiasco fine, so why is you fucking up supposed to make me want to empathise?
And finally, stop misrepresenting. If you're not blunt, don't call yourself blunt. If you're not rich, stop claiming to have money. If you didn't fuck your mother? Don't call yourself a motherfucker to be funny. Pulp Fiction and Samuel L Jackson is the only times mothafucka is funny.
Good art? Here's the place.
Posted 15 years agoAlright, so, basically, I stumbled across the page of one 
hellhound09 and rather liked what I saw. I've watched him, and saw that he's taking commissions. His work is good, hard done, high quality, professionally coloured, the whole shebang. Now, I've had no money to do anything with, however will be noting him in the near future so that he might do me some work. The guy is doing all that good, high quality art, for some damn good prices. How good? This good.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1771869/
So, yeah, buyers and those of art appreciation, enjoy!
hellhound09 and rather liked what I saw. I've watched him, and saw that he's taking commissions. His work is good, hard done, high quality, professionally coloured, the whole shebang. Now, I've had no money to do anything with, however will be noting him in the near future so that he might do me some work. The guy is doing all that good, high quality art, for some damn good prices. How good? This good.http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1771869/
So, yeah, buyers and those of art appreciation, enjoy!
Sometimes You Gotta Act The Part
Posted 15 years agoYou know, it's fun knowing you can still, REALLY get under peoples skin when it suits you. After a good hour or two arguing with a guy, won't name names, he was pretty much putting up with me being obtuse, me doing it totally on purpose, for no other reason that he had earlier talked to me like I'm a complete dickhead. Well, want to talk to me that way? Take your vitamins, say your prayers, take a seat and watch the fireworks - 'cause shit's gonna happen now, it might not kick in right away, but just wait till the big ones hit.
So, we're arguing over how many chances you give someone before you start to talk to them like they're a cunt. He did it, apparently humouring me, and apparently letting me know I was pushing an opinion in his face; which I'd have apologised for if he had mentioned it. But he didn't. And then started to talk to me like I'm a twat and a prick - oh dear, I'm the bad guy because he failed to communicate, how awesome. Oh well. So that goes on as a little argument for a while, him criticising how I look up to Maynard Keenan, how it's me glorifying a flaw when, you know, me glorifying a lifestyle choice is actually telling him how awesome his problems are. Sure. Ok. By this point, the tone of how he's said everything has really done my tits in.
So then that eventually dies, I'm a bit annoyed at him, but hey, happens. But then a new one starts up. Uh oh, now I'm being pointlessly rebellious for no reason! No, actually, it's because I didn't just fold and spend money I didn't have when I didn't need to, because some wankers changed a uniform coding and never bothered to communicate it until AFTER the whole uniform was paid for. It may not be public outrage, but I'm not going and buying another pair of new shoes when I had already purchased a pair of new shoes for starting my sixth and final year - a style which had never been a problem previously. Being unreasonable? No, just not willing to spend extra money on a place I didn't like much for an item that was probably never gonna get used otherwise. That's not being unreasonable - that's just avoiding being a retarded consumer. Of course, it's no fun if you aren't being difficult and unagreeable for the sake of it too.
Eventually, that cools and dies. Then we go onto politics. Ok, so politics get heated, and ya know what, it was a nice back and forth, until the first conversation comes up. So, you know where this is going - if it wasn't fun the first time, this time will be abysmal. So apparently I brought it up, but I'm pretty sure I didn't. I think he brought it up, but he's pretty sure he didn't. So there's a problem and battle right there. By this point, I'm going with it and now just being difficult for no other reason than he was talking to me like I'm one earlier - this is him finding out, actually, I can be a REAL dickhead when it suits me. At this point, he's seen more resistance than a UK company with unfair wages. Shit is escalating and it's gonna continue doing so, he's getting more and more frustrated, and I'm just stubbornly sticking to my guns - I know their wrong, but to hell with it, the aim by this point is to show him when I'm really being a dick, I'll stick it out and do the job right. Eventually, he decides to fuck with it, life is too short and he's going to bed.
So kids, what's the moral of the story? Show some fuckin' respect and don't try to make the other guy feel like he's a total idiot because it suits you to and you're a smidgen annoyed - he might decide just to set out to piss you the fuck off like a real dickhead would. Will I be hated for it? Probably. Will he think next time? Doubt it. Was it worth it? Most definitely.
So, we're arguing over how many chances you give someone before you start to talk to them like they're a cunt. He did it, apparently humouring me, and apparently letting me know I was pushing an opinion in his face; which I'd have apologised for if he had mentioned it. But he didn't. And then started to talk to me like I'm a twat and a prick - oh dear, I'm the bad guy because he failed to communicate, how awesome. Oh well. So that goes on as a little argument for a while, him criticising how I look up to Maynard Keenan, how it's me glorifying a flaw when, you know, me glorifying a lifestyle choice is actually telling him how awesome his problems are. Sure. Ok. By this point, the tone of how he's said everything has really done my tits in.
So then that eventually dies, I'm a bit annoyed at him, but hey, happens. But then a new one starts up. Uh oh, now I'm being pointlessly rebellious for no reason! No, actually, it's because I didn't just fold and spend money I didn't have when I didn't need to, because some wankers changed a uniform coding and never bothered to communicate it until AFTER the whole uniform was paid for. It may not be public outrage, but I'm not going and buying another pair of new shoes when I had already purchased a pair of new shoes for starting my sixth and final year - a style which had never been a problem previously. Being unreasonable? No, just not willing to spend extra money on a place I didn't like much for an item that was probably never gonna get used otherwise. That's not being unreasonable - that's just avoiding being a retarded consumer. Of course, it's no fun if you aren't being difficult and unagreeable for the sake of it too.
Eventually, that cools and dies. Then we go onto politics. Ok, so politics get heated, and ya know what, it was a nice back and forth, until the first conversation comes up. So, you know where this is going - if it wasn't fun the first time, this time will be abysmal. So apparently I brought it up, but I'm pretty sure I didn't. I think he brought it up, but he's pretty sure he didn't. So there's a problem and battle right there. By this point, I'm going with it and now just being difficult for no other reason than he was talking to me like I'm one earlier - this is him finding out, actually, I can be a REAL dickhead when it suits me. At this point, he's seen more resistance than a UK company with unfair wages. Shit is escalating and it's gonna continue doing so, he's getting more and more frustrated, and I'm just stubbornly sticking to my guns - I know their wrong, but to hell with it, the aim by this point is to show him when I'm really being a dick, I'll stick it out and do the job right. Eventually, he decides to fuck with it, life is too short and he's going to bed.
So kids, what's the moral of the story? Show some fuckin' respect and don't try to make the other guy feel like he's a total idiot because it suits you to and you're a smidgen annoyed - he might decide just to set out to piss you the fuck off like a real dickhead would. Will I be hated for it? Probably. Will he think next time? Doubt it. Was it worth it? Most definitely.
My life is 87% happy, or 76% if you do final total/38x100..
Posted 16 years agoStolen from 
Essex_Ninetails
Here it goes:
[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 6
[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room. (It just doesn't work >.>)
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.(I've performed a few, too)
T 0 T A L: 7
[x] You have over 50 friends on myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 5
[ ] You own a car and/ or motorcycle
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life. (I failed 4 out of 5 prelims last year xD)
[x] You have friends.
T 0 T A L: 3
[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You own a pet. (3 dogs)
[x] You know the words to 5 songs. (JUST 5?)
[x] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.
T O T A L: 8
Now count your numbers and multiply by three.Then title this journal "My life is __% Happy"
Essex_NinetailsHere it goes:
[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 6
[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room. (It just doesn't work >.>)
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.(I've performed a few, too)
T 0 T A L: 7
[x] You have over 50 friends on myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 5
[ ] You own a car and/ or motorcycle
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life. (I failed 4 out of 5 prelims last year xD)
[x] You have friends.
T 0 T A L: 3
[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You own a pet. (3 dogs)
[x] You know the words to 5 songs. (JUST 5?)
[x] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.
T O T A L: 8
Now count your numbers and multiply by three.Then title this journal "My life is __% Happy"
5 Things Meme
Posted 16 years agoStolen from 
FudgySeel
Name five items within arms reach:
1: CDs
2: PS3 games
3: Guitars
4: Gameboy
5: PSP
Name your top five favorite songs, in no particular order:
1: "Blackbird" by Alter Bridge
2: "Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day
3: "Working Class Hero" by John Lennon
4: "People of the Sun" by Rage Against the Machine
5: "Cowboys From Hell" - Pantera
Name five languages that you would learn if you could:
1: Japanese
2: Spanish
3: Italian
4: Chinese
5: Gaelic
Name five politicians, not including Presidents, Prime Ministers, etc: And note if you like them or not... if you want
1: David Milliband
2: David Cameron
3: Alex Salmon
4: Alistar Darling
5: Duff Cooper
Name five things you want to do before you die:
1: Perform in front of a large crowd.
2: Travel back to Australia for a holiday and visit Ireland.
3: Become muscular.
4: Learn to wrestle.
5: Go to a con.
Name five friends to be tagged:
bureikuu 
Aaryn_Skychaser 
cherreh-blossom 
Ian_Saxxton 
Gadget
FudgySeelName five items within arms reach:
1: CDs
2: PS3 games
3: Guitars
4: Gameboy
5: PSP
Name your top five favorite songs, in no particular order:
1: "Blackbird" by Alter Bridge
2: "Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day
3: "Working Class Hero" by John Lennon
4: "People of the Sun" by Rage Against the Machine
5: "Cowboys From Hell" - Pantera
Name five languages that you would learn if you could:
1: Japanese
2: Spanish
3: Italian
4: Chinese
5: Gaelic
Name five politicians, not including Presidents, Prime Ministers, etc: And note if you like them or not... if you want
1: David Milliband
2: David Cameron
3: Alex Salmon
4: Alistar Darling
5: Duff Cooper
Name five things you want to do before you die:
1: Perform in front of a large crowd.
2: Travel back to Australia for a holiday and visit Ireland.
3: Become muscular.
4: Learn to wrestle.
5: Go to a con.
Name five friends to be tagged:
bureikuu 
Aaryn_Skychaser 
cherreh-blossom 
Ian_Saxxton 
GadgetBoyfriend Meme
Posted 16 years agoI found this meme on someone else's page, so I stole it.
This is about Bureikuu
1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Lion man,,or something to do with lions. He loves him his lions.
2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Honey and mustard.
3. Whats one food he doesn't like?
Meat. He's a veggievore.
4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
Wine :P That or coke methinks.
6. What size shoe does he wear?
UK 8 - 10
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
Hmm..crisps that look like things xD
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
Um..Not sure about specific fillings.
9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Mushrooms xD
10. What is his favorite cereal?
I...dunno xD
12. What is his favorite sports team?
Whoever my teams playing xD
13. Who did he vote for?
No-one, UK citizen.
14. Who is his best friend?
Me? :3
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Nom the phone when we talk on it xD
16. What is his heritage?
This is a tricky one because he's English but was brought up in Spain.
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?
Chocolaaaate :D
18. Did he play sports in high school?
As little as possible xD
19. What could he spend hours doing?
Walking around shops with friends xD
20. What is one unique talent he has?
He has loooaaaads!!
His best is his ability to make me love him more each day though <3
This is about
Bureikuu1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Lion man,,or something to do with lions. He loves him his lions.
2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Honey and mustard.
3. Whats one food he doesn't like?
Meat. He's a veggievore.
4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
Wine :P That or coke methinks.
6. What size shoe does he wear?
UK 8 - 10
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
Hmm..crisps that look like things xD
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
Um..Not sure about specific fillings.
9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Mushrooms xD
10. What is his favorite cereal?
I...dunno xD
12. What is his favorite sports team?
Whoever my teams playing xD
13. Who did he vote for?
No-one, UK citizen.
14. Who is his best friend?
Me? :3
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Nom the phone when we talk on it xD
16. What is his heritage?
This is a tricky one because he's English but was brought up in Spain.
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?
Chocolaaaate :D
18. Did he play sports in high school?
As little as possible xD
19. What could he spend hours doing?
Walking around shops with friends xD
20. What is one unique talent he has?
He has loooaaaads!!
His best is his ability to make me love him more each day though <3
