well, im alive yall, i know its been awhile since i last posted on here, i will try to fix that in the near future

well, its been a year since i laid my girl to rest out at the ranch..... not much has changed, still pissed, still hurt, and wish to god the dog i have now was more behaved like princess was, i need a good recipe on a good dog stew

as stated in my last journal my dog was put down due to cancer, i got her buryed today this morning in the spot i think she liked the most out at the ranch, shes buryed neck to a tree facing the main road so she could see people coming in.

it was hard on me to do, i dug the grave and buryed her youngest pup like 9 or 10 years ago, it wasnt as bad as diging princess's grave, i tried to bury her wraped up in my mates robe, and resting on a pillow, but due to the ground being frozen i couldnt dig down far enough for the pillow, so shes resting with my mates robe wraped around her, what killed me the most, was after i stuck her in the grave the first time, i had to pick her back up and remove the pillow, the robe came open enough for her tail to be seen, and it looked like it was wagging, as if to say she was happy at how i was facing her *sighs* once we covred her with dirt i i broke down, she was finaly put to rest, and i would never see her again in the world..

damn this world, and damn this worlds sicknesses

rest in peace my baby girl...

well life is so crule. i just had to put my dog down tonight due to cancer, or something, she hasnt eaten much if any in the last 3 weeks, and shes been throwing up, took her to the vets a few times, and the last time he said he could do surgery on her, but he would only give her 4 to 6 months, provided she even made it off the table... well lastnight she had a seizure, scared the hell out of us, but she pulled out of it, then at 5pm today she got put to sleep, i prayed it would be quick and painless for her, it was quick, but i doubt it was painless, because as she was going to sleep she was snorting and trying to fight it, that had to be harder then her actully being dead, all i could do was tell her im sorry over and over again while balling my eyes out, she was my best friend for 11 and a half years, she was there for me when no one eles was, when everyone turned there backs on me, she didnt, i had alot of good times with her, she was my baby girl, but i suppose now her job is done, and is passed onto my mate, she will be missed greatly, not just by me, but by my mother, my aunt, my uncle, and my little cousins, and my mate which only had the pleasure of knowing such a good dog for a short time *sighs* i dont ask for sympathy, im only typing of this fucking journal cause its making me feel better to do it, everyone loved princess, everyone that met her loved her, and ive been told i raised her very well...

*sighs* good bye my baby girl, i hope you rest well, and i will see you again......

this was sent to me by a friend of mine, and i felt it needed to be expressed..


I'm not raciest but its true
You call me:
"redneck"
"Hillbilly"
"Slaker"
"Cracker"
"Honkey"
"Whitey"
"Gringo"
"Sage"
and you think it's OK.

But when I call you:
jungle bunny
spear chucker
coon
wet back
jiggaboo
porch monkey
sand nigger
rag head
towelhead
Camel Jockey
Gook
Spook
NIGGER
KIKE
slant eyes
or Chink
you call me a racist.


--You have the United Negro College Fund.
--You have Martin Luther King Day.
--You have Black History Month.
--You have Cesar Chavez Day.
--You have Yom Hashoah
--You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
--You have the NAACP.
--You have BET.


--If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist.
--If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist.
--If we had white history month... we'd be racist.
--If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist.
--If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist.
--In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racist.
--Did you know that some high school students decided to make a club for only the white students because the other ethnicities had them. they all got sent to court for being racist but the african-american, Latino, and Asia clubs were not even questioned.
--You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.


I am white and I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.
Why is it that only whites can be racists?
Now watch, I'll be racist for reposting this....

So what? no-one will re-post this for fear of being called racist

If you agree with this then repost saying "I'm not a RACIST but it's true."

lately ive been getting tired of being confused as a female, or as a bird (since i go by the name raven right now) when im a wolf fox hybrid, ive been givin the idea of making a name out of the letters that make up my species, but my creative imagonation died on me, can anyone help?

fox (grey/silver/arctic
wolf (timber/arctic)
kitsune
wolven

cant use the name wolven cause thats my brothers name lol

O.o is anyone eles having problems with myfursona.com? i keep getting a account suspended error