I've talked about my condition before.
Electromagnetic Hypersensitivity.
Makes you imagine..
Ack nooo, stay away... Nooooo. I'm too sensitive and it'll hurt....

NOPE.
It's more like...
Hmmm? What's that? Looks like mine*yoink* Oh! That looks like mine too.
Then the cells in my body get back more energy than they sent out. This causes them to start running at abnormal rates.
*sigh*
Tell that to a doctor and they run tests for mental illness. All green btw.

Why did I have to be born with an expert level disability. So expert it hides behind a misleading name.

Just had to vent somewhere.

Been homeless since November. Started a GoFundMe.
https://gofund.me/02b296a2
If you're poor it's fine, just gimme a share if you can.

I am a member of the race of intelligent life.
God is intelligent,
Jesus is intelligent.

Those not part of the race of intelligent life do not share the same path of all life's father or his first born son.

Adam was the test for humanity. Eve was Adams test against humans reproductive instinct against god's law.

He failed.

Eve was not given a chance to prove herself.... {According to human recorded history.}

Jesus returned to his life because his "self" was not turned into Ash.
Do not burn your living soul into ash.

I could be wrong..... but what if I am right....................

Satan has no supernatural power... just like polititions do not.
No weapons, no power, to a prisoner on earth.
Just thousands of years of experience.

The lessons in the bible at that.
Lessons.
Think on your own.
Decide on your own.
Understand on your own.

Everyone is judged person by person.
Do not let someone else decide for you.
Satan counts on the stupidity of humans.....please do not let him win.

Evolution vs Creation.

What if both are right?

Creation of everything.

Life pops up on various worlds.

Intelligent life shows up on some.

Time to test.

War, slavery, rulership, poverty, nobles, serfs....

Hmmm. Need a blank slate.

He made his own.

ADAM.

Create him. Support him with life. Plants. Animals both male and female.

Teach him. Give him responcibilities. Wait.....

Adam is alone, no females.

Eve. Teach her.

Adam... prrobably late teens, early twenties. Teaching vs Sex...........................................

Satan. Been around humans. Seen all the sex. All the lies......... Father of lies? or corrupted by humans and used what he learned from us.

I don't care if you flame me, hate me, ridcule me. As long as you think about it instead of BLINDLY believing what someone around 2000 years ago said.

You can read all about it here.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/ar.....es/PMC7139347/

I posted about mine before. This month google finally gave me that link above.... but they didn't test living em fields. =(

The moment you are born you are a blank slate. The next day... you have a dy's worth of experienced written on you. Even if you can't remember.

Evolutionists. Creationists. They are both right and wrong according to just what I personally think.

You live a year as a baby and everything you see, feel and hear affects you the most because you are lacking information of the world around you. The ones filling you with information is the family around you. Parents. Siblings. Grandparents. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins. All of them pouring in information and attitudes. All of this since Ape became Man. The World of Man floods babies with the decisions made by those before and those in power. If you wanted to see if a race was able to be what you wanted them to be... would you take what others have shaped and filled or... make your own and fill it with what you wanted.

Adam.

The first human "CREATED BY GOD". Not the first man. Not the first human. The first directly created by the creator of our world. Then taught, by no one other than our creator himself. Eve? Heh. I wonder if my creation Adam will properly pass on the teachings I gave him to the next generation.

Seeing how powerful sex and porn in our world is.... I don't think adam taught Eve much at all except how to make it feel better for him.... but I am a bitter man and prone to feeling negative at my own race.

This is my own belief. You don't have to agree, you don't have to share it, hell you could think it's blaphemy. I don't care. Your beliefs are yours and mine are mine...

But if one person opens their mind and tries to think about the writing of a people 2000 years ago. Not in America, north or south, but in the middle east. Wondering just what was "Common Knoledge" back then and trying to think outside of what decievers, liars, and politiions are filling your head with.

Than I will be happy.

Been going through my memories since I have learned about my Electromagnetic Hypersensitivity. So many things make sense that didn't before. I dunno if this is common or uncommon, so I am going to share what I have learned about myself. In case it can help someone else who has EMH.
Sign 1
Dog & Cats. I love animals. Petting them, playing with them. Then... I'd shoo them away because I was uncomfortable and making them go somewhere else made it go away.
If this happens to you, you may have EMH.
People.
Not comfortable around them. Staying near someone for extended periods of time, not hours or day but months, has you feeling ill or negative sickly reactions in your body you can't figure out why it's happening.
For me it's the craps. Not watery, that slick mudd that can make a fart a dangerous event.
IF something like this happens to you, you may have EMH.
Your personal Electromagnetic Field is overwhelmed!
I become a motormouth. In a store, the checkout lines are all full. Many people crowded for 10 minutes or longer. I personally become a motor mouth. I can't stop it. Whatever I am thinking about just pour out at the person at the register.
This can also happen around 3 horses and 2 people combo. My one and only Horseback ride. I spent the entire ride ruining the experience for the rest because all I did was complain and whine. I don't do this. I bottle it in then complain to myself when I am alone.
If something happens, that doesn't normally happen, when you are in a crowded area for a period of time. You may have EMH.
To find out if you have this. There are 2 things. An EM field blocking item or going out for a weekend solo. Doesn't matter where, just go where no one else, Human or Animal, is around.
My EM Field item, doesn't block but it does reduce it. It's Called Shungite stone. IT's base material is Carbon and the higher quantity of shungite the rarer it is. Dunno what the % is in mine but it's probably mid grade. Hopefully I can get some that's over 90% someday.

Ya know. I wonder. Since she can't be woken up unless she recieved true loves's first kiss. How many rescuers, or the dragons, had their way with her while she was helplessly in an enchanted sleep that nothing could wake her until that kiss?

I watch BeaStars and everytime I wish they were anatomically correct. That hooved animals had hooves instead of evolved ape feet. That the hands were more paw like and llegs were not plantigrade but Digigrade, Human bodies with a mask and tail strap on is all I see.... but I love the story and interaction so I watchh it over and over.

As a lil kid I was so sick it came out my mouth and nose. Too young to blow my nose properly the smell stayed. Anytime I got a runny nose the smell came back. trauma for tossing my cookies formed. From day one in school I was bullied. I separated school and home by only doing anything related to school at school. No time to do it I didn't do it. During this time childhood sicknesses showed my trauma from earlier. It seems type A bloodtypes can be hindered by stress so starting in Jr high I started getting sick a little more often, this was slowed by a teacher showing me the joys of reading by lending me Call of the Wild a stress reliever but not enough to stop it.. More pronounced in high school until I was getting sick in various ways more often than I was well. So my parents pulled me out of school.

It took 5 years of my mother checking books in the library to start rebuilding my immune system. We also found out that Aloe Vera Gel was VERY good against my trauma event, so much that from 10 until now I have only tossed twice and Alcohol was involved in one. @..@
I was reading almost all the time during this time, or playing on console, escaping the real world for better places. However I was running out of new books to read, then my parents got me a computer and Free AoL gave me the world of the internet. Art and books, finding drawn porn according to the taste I had had since I was a kid and pretended to be a Fox Dragon Warrior. Found mucks and muds, learning about and frequently practicing the art of dual erotic storycrafting.
My immune system had gotten recovered enough that I figured I could work so I went applying. Over 20. No High School Diploma. Found out my stamina was crippled. Found out by doing random yard work and road side recycling. I still went around applying, and from then until now have had a total of 6 interviews. After interview 5 I went and signed up for the GED test. Then forgot about it. Letter in the mail with a date... no studying.. just went that day and took it. I'm rather proud of those scores.

1. 50
2. 56
3. 57
4. 80
5. 55

And then silence. The 6th interview came only because I knew the manager casually but they wanted a Minimum 2 years experience. Yea. During all this time I did get hired one time without an interview. During the Albertsons strike, scab work. Next day while I was working I was told I was being let go..... 2 managers had hired people and only one of them was right. Everyone the other hired were let go. I think that was what put a bullet into my job search chances.

Around this time small time yard service companies surged in population with lots of tools and machines. Another event, while traveling and picking up cans a truck pulled to the side of the road in front of me. 4 guys piled out of it and began walking both sides in both directions carrying bags. From that day foreward 3-5$ in cans a trip turned to 3-5 cans per trip.

Depression. Looking at a bottle of Pine Sol and thinking, "How would that taste?" My survival instinct. Don't think about it. Don't remember it. Forget. I drowned myself in the internet. Anything to distract myself. My books were put into storage due to events leading to loss of our home into a smaller rental.

I have 2 brothers. I am the oldest. Middle brother was... left to his own devices. Over ten years after him my youngest bro was born and spoiled Rotten. He's grown into a Karl, if you know the term. He decides stuff on his own about things he doesn't own without asking. He moved almost 300$ of books from the nice dry space it was in and under a hole big enough to fit your hand through. By the time I found out... black fungus. The bottom had 2 egg crates that managed to survive. Yea, the bottom was dry. Out of respect for my mother I didn't kill my little brother.... barely.

You know the trauma from the beginning? It had grown during this time. We used to take yearly trips. Weekend mostly, sometimes a week. One week trip.. I was sick. Nothing happened but it was the type where itt could.. I was constantly afraid and had two bottles Aloe vera with me at all times. I got better... the day we left, so there were no good memories. I never went on another trip with the family again. I had the brown waterfall happen and just once... both ways. *sigh* Now everytime it happens the fear and anxiety triggers. Ran low on Aloe Vera Gel and had to drive an hour to another city to get more... kept needing to go but was constipated. took a while once home to go.... and then it never stopped the entire night. I rarely leave the city I am in anymore. The trauma dug in deep and wrapped around multiple things crippling me.

I am over 4 decades old. Never been able to stand on my own. Parents who watched it all happen never threw me out so I am very lucky in that aspect. The past 10 years I actually was living in a Van on the old rental property. So I had solitude and used it to get Food suppliment. Signed up to online hiring sites. Almost nothing came of it. Got called by a place over a 100 miles away, but no living accomodations. Had to let that pass p..q it was only a month ago.

Why all this now? Landlord put the rental up for sale and one of those potential buyers saw something and reported it to code. Result, Resident uninhabitable. New place rent is almost double. My Karl brother actually got a job and got his name on the lease. Power Trip. Threats to have me thrown out unless I do what he wants, based on what he 'thinks' was happening. Partially my fault yes but his version is heavily slanted by what he believes. How he let me know all the orders and threats?
An email sent by the guy in the room who's door is 4 feet away.

I am either going to kill that idiot... or the next stimulus check will come and I will take it, traumas and all, and take to the roads to either live or die there rather than become a Murderer.

The place we've been renting at was just declared uninhabitable. So we got to get out. Landlord came over and we were supposed to check out another house but the landlord of that place is no where to be found. It's just ... *sigh* I had to vent somewhere.

I've played this game for a couple of years. It's celebrating it's 10th anniversary right now. So it's dated, a bit left out in the rush of games, has limited support from the company that owns it.

However it's Character creation is AWESOME.

So many options even for a furry.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T7M.....ature=youtu.be

Robin Hood. Maid Marion.

As a kid they shaped my life. I wanted to be a Hero just like him. Pretending to be a Fox scientist, Fox Dragon Warrior, Fox Mage.
Marion was my first childhood crush. I grew up out of her but not Foxes.

Still have Robin as a male hero role model even after over 3 decades since first watching it in a Theater.

Then a couple years ago I fell back in love with Marion thanks to this...

https://jeftoon01.deviantart.com/ar.....rian-278936967

My mother... is dead.

The day it happened I started crying... so hard I was starting to scream my throat raw. My body is strange. When the pain in my throat got to a point my emotions just... stopped. I felt nothing all day. Only the pain in my throat a reminder of what happened. It's been about 2 months. During that time anything that tugs the heartstrings would shake through my heart... and I swear I hear a little boy's voice screaming for a mama that will never, ever, answer.

I'm 40 years old. I was a total's mama's boy. I still am. While I don't feel the grief on the outside.. I still react. Eating more tastey things for comfort.. running out of money on my food card 2 weeks before it will refill. Yesterday my brother and father went to the beach we went often to as kids to spend the weekend to spread her ashes. I couldn't make it, I woke up getting sick... Was I really getting sick or was it another aspect of the grief bound up inside of me.

Normally I see myself as a scruffy old gray wolf... now I see a cub in a corner clutching a plush fox wearing a t-shirt with the words "Please hug"

It hurts so damned much.

I won't do spoilers.

I watched the first Happy Feet. I never expected a second. I don't watch Tv so the fact it had come out was not known to me until I decided to watch the first again last night and there was Happy Feet 2 in the list.

......

Okay. How would they mess up one of my favorite movies with the second one. I give lots of stuff a chance to make or break itself, but previous experiance had me pessimistic.

I just finished watching it.


...
.....

I could kiss the guy who came up with it. It was BETTER than the first. (My opinion)

Enjoy the Penguins.

I watch Kissanime.com. Fills up lots of time. I start on # and end at Z watching everything that interests me in alphabetical order. Just today I came across the Anime Meitantei Holmes which turns everyones of the original series into a Dog type.

Watch, and Enjoy.

In school I never studied. If I couldn't finish homework at school it wasn't done. I averaged a B type score. Then high school. The effects of being bullied all the time produced stress that wrecked my immune system, it still does. Had to drop out. Took 2-3 years to recover, natural stuff and Vitamin C everyday, letting it rebuild. High school was over and I didn't want to go back to that. Went job hunting, no diploma, so you can guess the results.

So I went and applied for the GED, then forgot about it. Got the letter in the mail to go take it. Didn't study. The card I have from the scores just has numbers for the testing, doesn't say which is which but from 1 -> 5 I got 53, 77, 77, 99, 73. So I had a brain. Went out job hunting again. By this time I had put out hundreds of apps, 3 interviews. Now I had a GED, could not wait to hit the interviews. Even went to a new job help place that had opened in town. Turned stuff I did, like recycling cans collected along the road, into at home job titles.

Couple years later, hundreds of applications, 1 Interview. Severe depression. I stopped applying, under depression I just no longer had the drive. I had to stop can hunting. Some mexicans with trucks took over my routes in a force of 5. 1 person drove the other four took both sides of the street in both directions. My bro had a woman he worked for, he was moving to michigan and passed the word to her about me. Got some decent work and pay from her. 6 months later she moved to a town 40 miles away. Needed the place repainted. Last job for me. Painting inside of every room, walls and cieling. Painting the roof caused one of the disks in my back to squish. Didn't know it at the time. It basically removed all jobs with the requirement of hours on your feet or lifting 50 lbs.

I'm 40 years old, 5 interviews, lost count of applications. Damaged back. No work history. If it wasn't for awesome parents I would be ... dead. I couldn't survive homeless.

I'm out of ideas and the stuff I see about people wanting stuff like food support cut breaks me out in a cold sweat. I live in California.

Help.

Loaded into fura and spotted this beauty,

look, drool and share. The lady needs to be fought for.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17163064/

A month and week, or so, ago my computer went down. Couple days before thefirst so with some help from family I got a new mobo. Thought that was what died, new mobo but still down. Waited 30 days for next month's 100$ and got a new cpu. Hellish for a computer addict. Got the new cpu, it ran wonderfully for 40-60 minutes then bloomp.

Just sent it back to newegg for replacement and a hardware forum then told me my power supply was in a list withg others blacklisted for faulty and cheaper than dirt parts and 58% power effentiancy. Was a minor miracle it had lasted as long as it did. So now... another month. Also learned about those 80+ rating things I never paid much attention to.

So I am going 80+ gold at the very least. Went to check prices.. 50% off while supplies last... omg. Had to wait for bro to get off work before I could beg and plead for the money. 2 hours later SOLD OUT.

During this wholle time I had ads for computer fixing and cleaning up to help regain loading speed. No response in all this time.

I wanna cry.

I only post here when in trouble, I know, This time asking for help.

aree[at]artlover.com is my paypal.

Economy isn't good these days but one can hope, can't one?

ADD: Forgot to mention this is a borrow request with all intents to pay back over 1-2 months.

Blargh.

For those of you who don't know my family was in a situation where the previous renter of our apartment we were renting a room from left, since he moved into a place where utilities was part of the rent we got saddled with the 3000$ bill. Electricity was turned off a month ago. Gas about a week ago. Coold. I didn't give up in talking to them. Found one of those rare helpful people who got me in contact with another part of thier company. The guy who moved out had an active account on another building so it got moved there,

However to start up requires a deposite of 700$, the amount of 2 months at 12 months averaged together.

We get a total of 850 cash, 450 goes to rent. 400 in food stamps, which we run out of before the end of the month and we get 200 on the 7th and 10th respectively.

The 700$ got divided over 4 months but we can only afford to run the Gas, we've got some plants to switch off the main power switch unless we need to wash clothing or something of the sort. We're not in immediate danger of freezing, when they turn it on 12-24, but any help with it would be much appreciated.

From the first call for help a month ago helpful furs have donated a total of 100$, for which we are grateful. I'm not an artist, so I don't have many watchers, so even if you can't directly help. A word of support or spreading it to your watchers would be much appreciated.

A couple weeks back our power was shut off. A new law states that if you've lived at a residence, even if you pay 200 a mo for rent/utilities, you are liable for the full bill. So when my brother was dragged out with his two kids by child services we found out he left behind a bill for 3,000$ that we had no way of paying.

We're gonna get solar panels to use some of the electronics but.. we get 800$ a mo from ssi, father can't work because of doctors and they won't list him as disabled, brother goes to colledge and I seem repel jobs with super powers.

My friends, the ones I thought I could count on in town. Who had been with us for years.. left us in this pit of quicksand and turned thier backs. I can use the car battery to get online for 30m-40m and got help from one of one of my online friends...

I'm a stranger to almost all of you, lurking at the edges and watching but... I'm asking for help from the furry community.

Pass the word along even if you can't, or won't, be able to help.

Paypal: aree[at]artlover.com (even 1$ will help)

If you have solar panels gathering dust.

Gary W Morgan Jr
622 1/2 Lucard
Taft, CA 93268


Edit: 12-20-12
Electric Bill: 700$
Funds Gathered: 100$
(Our own efforts will be counted as well)

For the past few months my family's been rooming at my brother's place. Mother, father, youngest brother and myself at his apartment with his 2 kids and wife. She's a primadonna and wants everything to be about her. Bailed on my brother twice, when that didn't work she took the kids. That got her results so she did it everytime. Moved out completely using money that had been given to her for school but stopped going to school. She ran out of money and came back. My brother's health made it so he got removed, too many panic and anxiety attacks. So he was on welfare. This month was his last wellfare check and he hadn't found a new job. His wife drained his bank account, bought some new clothes and took off to texas.

She took the rent, electric and food money, left the kids and my brother. We find out the owner of the rental was using the rent to make payments to the bank. Without it they are threatening to foreclose, if they won't give the owner an extension we will have 30 days to move out.

We're living on food stamps and my mother's SSI, which would cover the rent if we turned off everything else but this happened yesterday, we had spent the money on bills. So if the bank doesn't give an extension, we're homeless. We have no where to go and no one to count on.

I only write these things here when I can't find one of my few trusted friends online. Please, any advise on how to keep on trucking. I'm at the end of my emotional rope hanging over an abyss of ftotal breakdown.

In case my other messages don't get through. Not sure but I think my power supply is dying. x.x The pc froze twice so far and took switching off at the back to turn it off. The second time it didn't respond to the switch in the back. I went off in a pacing storm came back on one of those 'maybe this time' thoughts and it started up. It's still going but from what I can tell I need a new power supply. x.x

Edit: Problem solved.

Found a game, Closed beta testing it now.

Yea yea, tons of games out there. Kill this, mine that. I'm used to the same ol' same ol'. However this one is like Pokemon in the fact that the character you make does nothing in the fight beyond trying to catch a pet.

The pets you get do it all. I've heard, haven't found out if true or not, that there are over 800 types of pets available in China where the main game is. They level, use cards that give them skills in the combinations you choose, mate to have children stronger than they are, Evolve. Yes it does sound like pokemon I know but it's addicting just like it was.

There's eight different types to catch.
1. Beasts
2. Insects
3. Aquatics
4. Plants
5. Dragons
6. Humans
7. Demons
8. Robots

Then there is something else. You get to make your own farm. Yes a farm. Grow crops, raise animals. Collect poop, eggs, milk, butcher for meat or harvest for food for your pets. Or! You can take that into the cafe on your land and mix food up from recipes you get. This attracts game npcs to order stuff and if you impress them they send you free, even rare!, items.

You buy or find stuff to decorate the place, the more decorations the more popular your place is. Just make sure your cafe is stocked in the stuff they like, some are mean NPCs. o.o

If you want to check it out, go here.
http://mf.playpark.net/