My wife and I are back from Missouri now, still trying to get back settled in. I started back at my job at the hotel on October 7th, and it's currently slated for a full grand opening on November 15th, just in time for our busiest time of the year. I worried about everything that would happen when I lost my job after the Nashville flood, but now that I look back on it, I feel that it might not have been the horrible thing I thought it was. My stress levels are much lower, I feel refreshed, and I'm closer to Mary than I have ever been in my life. Because of this disaster, it gave me time to re-examine every aspect of my life, and gave me something that I was worried I wouldn't get. A second chance. I love you all, even though we don't talk much. I don't have many friends irl, so I'm glad I at least have all of you on here. Hopefully, I will be a better writer and better friend now that I have had s much tim to recoup...

On Sunday, May 30th Mary and I will be leaving for her folks house in Missouri. I am so excited, I can't wait to get a break from my family's house. I love them, but I'll enjoy the lack of stress. We'll be gone for 6 weeks, but we're taking the computer with us so we can keep in touch with everyone. I'll finally have a chance to work uninterrupted on my writing. The only good thing that's come out of the flood is this chance to slip away for a while. I'm sorry for my drama rants recently, I'm just glad to have friends who will put up with it.

As of around midnight yesterday, I could be out of a job for weeks to months... The retaining wall between where I work, the Gaylord Opryland Commissary, and the Cumberland river was overtaken. My place of work is under 10 feet of water right now and the connecting hotel is under 9 feet in its worst spots. There are no plans as of yet to offer us any kind of recompence or unemployment yet... They say their goal of reopening is Christmas... CHRISTMAS! What the hell do they think we're supposed to do in the meantime. We have families to support too, and bills to pay. We cannot afford to lose this much work. So as a result, though I know it will go ignored again... I'm reopening story commissions... Two dollar stories for one chapter. Anything beyond this will be another dollar per chapter. Just send me what you want, and I will try and do my best to give you what you ask for. I am not knowledgeable in many fetishes, so I cannot write such stories. Anything involving vore, scat, or watersports is completely out of the question. Please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers through things right now. If you want to commission me, our Paypal account is xandra_vega[at]yahoo.com . Thanks.

As most of you probably know now from Xan's journal, we need help... The bank has offered us a deal on our card that will save over $2300.00. We need to get the money together soon and any help is appreciated. I don't really expect any response to this as I had seen with my past few journals, but I have to try. I will do a story for anyone who contributes, not like that is much of a thank you but it's all I can do... Please, help us. This debt is getting to the point where they could soon sue us over it and I can barely keep our heads above water right now... If you want to contribute the paypal is xandravega[at]yahoo.com ... Thank you...

I first want to thank those of you who watch me for your patience. I had lost faith in my abilities as a writer, having been strickened with writer`s block for nearly two years after a bad breakup with a former trusted friend. After a conversation with a longtime friend, I decided it was time I did something about it. Instead of kicking myself over a lack of interest in my work, I think it`s finally time I just sat down and tried again. I will begin work on several new projects, as well as trying to better my existing projects. Maybe something I do will pique your interest too. I love you guys! <3

Today I lost a friend I never thought I'd lose. He was the strongest fighter I ever knew. He had a good heart, a loving soul, and was the most stubborn little @^&#* I ever knew. But I lost him today, and I know my life will never be the same after it. Fifteen years... I was eight when we first met. He bit me on the hand and I knew it was love at first sight. Even an eight year old could tell... But now he's gone. I guess I keep saying it because it doesn't seem real to me right now. I've managed only two tears since I found out. Rest in peace, Max... My beloved friend and companion. In fifteen years, only good memories of you prevail.

My beloved friend Max, a better pet could never be found...
1993-2008

The best friend I could have asked for...

Time to piss people off, so if I offend you, you can always stop watching me. Not like I get comments, reads, downloads, or anything else on my stories and poems. Thus why I never post shit here, but I digress...

Apparently, life is not as important as buying art devices. I mean, unless people take you up on your commisions, what good are they? A decent tablet costs more than 10 copays at the doctor. My wife has been bleeding for almost 4 years now, but no one seemed to care. Sure, every now and then someone would express concern, but many times as soon as her problems come up the subject would change. You know, a good friend not only stays around for support when they are down, but when their friends need support, they listen and offer to help. Hell, just an occaisional "I wish I knew what I could do to help you" would go a long way. We both need a second income, and she can't physically work with her problem, so she opens for commissions. She gets NO comments from any of her friends, while they go off and buy commissions from people who charge 3 times as much or more. A lot of you tried to convince her to open and said you would pay for her art... Still nothing. Not one comment, note, critique, fuck you, go suck your ass, your art sucks, you charge too much... NOTHING! What's wrong with this picture? I opened for commissions too... I got one comment from a true friend who advertised the journal... His journal was ignored as well. So I guess I can say I will probably be closing for commissions here, and trying to find people who are willing to purchase quality and not just pRon... To those of you who do care, we know who you are and we thank you, but... The rest of you can basically kiss my ass... And I say that with all the love in my heart. We still love you too, but the silent treatment does not fuel friendships very well.

Hate me if you wanna, I had to say it... I'm sure the flames will flow before long, but at least it's off my chest now.

Arek Koala, Mobi, Josh... Whatever you call me. That's that, rant over, and if you can't live with me after this, you can always -watch me.

Due to majorly bad circumstances and unending debt, I am open for comissions.
A one shot, one chapter story will cost $10.
Each additional chapter is $5 per chapter.
Trust me, I am desperate if I am going to charge people for it so... please spread the word around even if you don't buy from me. I need all the help I can get. What ever you want, I will write, as long as I am paid. Please help me out.

After months of searching, fighting, and screaming; Xan and I FINALLY have a Wii. Later today we're getting some Wii Points, and I will be adding friends to my list very soon. YAY!!!!!

Wii Code:

0441 4967 8117 2505

Heh, some of you may wonder what prompted this change? Number one, I like change. I feel the need to adapt myself when my original self gets old. Keeps the image fresh and ever-changing. Number two, the character was part of Xan's story, and I wanted a character that I had completely created on my own. Arek is part of a comic that Xan will be doing, but I will probably help her with the scripting on the male characters, especially Arek. And number three, I guess there was enough dragons around. I felt the need to become a koala... So I could be cute and snuggled by all! I guess those are the real reasons lol...

A fond good night and good day to ye all.