I felt like I should explain each character I created. Each character is essentially part of me and some represent a part of my life that has happened.

Aren Goldie - Aren is the main character who represents me. He's fun loving, but a bit childish every now and then. He's shy around strangers and only speaks to strangers when needed to however he's very open with his friends. His boyfriend is Mist Dragon. (aka, ) Aren is homosexual.

Nera - Nera represents my depression which is why he's a part of Aren. Nera is an angry individual who gets angry for no good reason. He's pretty much the complete opposite of Aren. He doesn't have any fun on account of him being pissed all the time. Being a demon, he's not interested in a relationship with a "mere mortal", but he doesn't mind the occasional fling using Aren's body especially if he uses it with a girl. Nera is pansexual.

Wolfie/Wuffie - Until recently, Wolfie and Wuffie didn't represent anything. Wuffie and Wolfie represent the events of my first dog (Shadow) and some time after she died we got a new dog (Max). To understand this representation, I have to dive into the character's backstory. Wuffie is a field agent working for Noire Corp to investigate Aren's family, but was captured by Aren's dad and transformed against her will into Wolfie. Wuffie is Shadow, who we put down after we thought she was suffering, and Wolfie is Max, the new dog we got back in December. Their story is how I miss my old dog and sometimes I wish she was back even though I love Max equally as much.

Wuffie is protective and friendly. She'd kill a man who threatened her loved ones. Wolfie is a care free kind of wolf who always wants to know what's going on with you. Wuffie is heterosexual, but when she's Wolfie, he's bisexual. (Note: Wuffie and Wolfie's gender changes depending on what form they're in. When they're an anthro, aka Wuffie, they're female, but when they're feral, aka Wolfie, they're male)

Wulf - Wulf doesn't represent anything. He's serious when it comes to his work. He'll stand up for others and take the blame for things he's done. He always has good intentions for others and doesn't seem to care what happens to him so long as the people around him are happy, especially Aren. He has a crush on Alaski. Wulf is heterosexual, but doesn't mind a causal fling with a guy; he's just not interested in guys romantically.

Dr. Noire - Dr. Noire doesn't represent anything. She's calm, collected, and intelligent. Dr. Noire doesn't let people know her first name, in fact, Dr. Ishika is the only one among my other characters who actually knows her first name. Dr. Noire has no interest in a relationship or sex at all and is therefore asexual.

Dr. Ishika Kuriame - Ishika doesn't represent anything. Ishika is crazy. Literally crazy "Genius and madness are two sides of the same coin." He's always quick to solve things with his signature rocket launcher or with anything that can produce massive explosions. He's a loud pervert who isn't afraid to come on to Alaski, Wuffie or Dr. Noire, but Dr. Noire is the only one that doesn't seem to mind. He's got a crush on Wulf. Ishika is bisexual.

Alaski - Alaski represents when I went out and started walking dogs. She's a spoiled brat who didn't understand the value of a dollar who had to start working for a living to truly understand what it means to work for a living and how giving gifts to others feels just as good as treating yourself to something. She stays with the latest trends and is a bit of a preppy girl; you could say she's a stereotypical cheerleader, daddy's little girl and quite popular. She has a crush on Dr. Ishika despite his perverted ways. Alaski is heterosexual.

...In about 2 hours where I am, but I'll be 22 tomorrow!

Lately I've not been very active on FA which is mainly due to school, games, and everyday life. I want to get back into writing, I really do, but I can't find the motivation anywhere. I've got ideas in my head, but nothing comes to mind when I start on my computer. Maybe I'll try tomorrow after homework and see where that gets me. I've got an idea involving a contest and gay relations. It'll be a one story thing instead of a series, but I think that'll be okay.

Until next time,
Aren19

I has one now. I'm so happy, now I can play games in 1080p! I'm so ready for the PS4 now!

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?

...is as follows:

Delphox
Pangoro
Gardevoir
Gourgeist
Dragalge
and Flygon.

It's a team prepared for anything!

I've noticed that I've become less active. It means I am alive, but I don't exactly know what to do anymore. I've got games to play, school to work on, and doing my job as a dog walker. I want to be a game writer and it's from the confidence I had from writing stories here. The positive feedback I've gotten from people (mostly on SoFurry) helped me realize that I may be good at writing which is why I'm getting my degree in Game Design. I wanted to thank those of you who've read my stories. If I get time again I hope to write some more (especially the stories that aren't even finished). I just wanted you guys to know that.

In other news, I paid off a PS4. Switching completely from Xbox ever since Microsoft tried to restrict people. I'll still have my 360, but with PS4 requiring PS Plus to play online, I'm not going to buy Gold anymore. June 2014 is when it expires. The first game I'm getting is Watch Dogs. I probably won't need PS Plus until Destiny comes out.

Also, I've been thinking that I haven't really been a furry all along. While people see themselves as what they see, I see my fursonas as characters based off of my personality, possibly not myself at all (except maybe for Aren which is just me in furry form). I enjoy the community though and I try to be tolerant of everything. I still love Mist and I'm glad to have met him through here. I'm not exactly sure if I am a furry, I may have joined the community out of curiosity and possibly it was nice to know people who liked vore like me. It made me feel glad that I wasn't weird for liking it and that it was normal for most people.

Well, I think that's it.
Aren Goldie

Remember a few journals ago where I said I was writing short stories? Yeah, those kind of got shuffled under the mat since school is being demanding and needing all my attention. I'm lucky to play games! Well, I haven't forgotten about those stories or my big project to have my characters in a stor- oh wait, that got changed. Thanks to Zegawa's help, I'm going to turn my big story project into a RPG game! Not sure if it can be posted on FA (RPG Maker), but I'm going to work on it as soon as I get the extra stuff for RPG Maker. I know how this'll all work out and I've got a sequel already in mind. Is this what it means to be a Game Designer? Well, maybe just a Game Writer.

Speaking of games, I'm getting a PS4. Not sure on the Xbox One yet. Even if they changed their policies, Microsoft tried to screw gamers over and the PS4 didn't have any of that to begin with. I may reconsider if an exclusive came out for the Xbox One that I'd be interested in. I should have stuck with my PS3. At least with the PS4 and Gaikai's stream system, we should be able to play PS1, PS2, and PS3 games. Yay, all those exclusives I wanted to play I may be able to!

Well, that's pretty much it. I'll still have my 360 even though I'm getting a PS4. I just hope that BioWare and Telltale put a system in with my choices from Mass Effect, Dragon Age, and The Walking Dead to carry over from Xbox 360 to PS4.

Until next time,
Aren19~

While I understand they are merged, sometimes I need to log into my Skype account. I'm beginning to separate everyone who I've added on my Skype account onto my Live account. If I've given you my Skype username (aren191), please add my Live account (shinobi.ronin@live.com) instead. The reason being that my school has had me be in teams for three of my classes and I need one of them to be professional with some exceptions. These exceptions are not negotiable and I will not name names here (I'll tell them myself), but this is important for both you and me if you want to keep talking to me that is.

~Aren19

Edit: If I have you on Steam you don't need to worry unless you prefer talking with me over Skype/Live. People on AIM, if you have another account (Live, Steam, or Skype) let me know so I can add you over there. AIM is just taking up space as it is since I'm not using it as much.

Edit 2: I'm also going to start cleaning up my contacts. If you haven't talked to me in a while or if I have both your MSN and Skype, I'm deleting your Skype. Some people won't be effected as I do want to keep talking with you, but I want to hear from you first. I'll also give you guys a chance to add my MSN account to your Skype so we can stay in contact.

I've worked through some of my block again and I'm working on two more stories. They won't be a series, but rather just some ideas I wanted to put out there.

The first one is about my mate Mist and his day visiting Sam from the Sam and Max franchise. There'll be some belly worship/rubs and vore, but no porn (Mist is technically a cub/hatchling).

The other story is about a wolf and rabbit playing a few rounds of a game, but the wolf has lost 50 times in a row. Getting bored of winning, the rabbit offers that the wolf forfeit their bet since it'll be obvious that the rabbit would win 100 wins before him. The wolf agrees, but forgets that there was a penalty for forfeiting before the 100 wins: the loser must perform or receive every sexual act that was on the list, even the ones they did before.

Let me know what you think and I hope to have these stories out soon before this new class gets to be too much for me.

~Aren19

If it's a new form for Mewtwo: Great, fine, whatever.

If it's Mewthree: Great, fine, whatever.

I don't care what it is, I'm just happy there was something new announced from Game Freak. We'll hear whether it's a new form or a new Pokemon all together. I won't take anyone else's word other than Game Freak. Unless they confirm which it is, I don't want to hear otherwise. If you've already accepted it as a new form or Mewthree, that's wonderful, but don't tell me what you say it is is true. God, people like that sound like they're trying to convert me to a certain religion saying it's the right one and if I don't choose it I'll go to hell.

~Aren19

According to serebii.net , Pokemon Smash will reveal a new Pokemon next week! Finally, more news on X and Y. On a side note, I'm readding AIM. I miss it.

Well, since I never really use it, I'm uninstalling AIM. Most of the people on it I either don't talk to them or I have them on Steam/Skype/MSN. Skype is turning into my main messenger, especially since MSN and Skype are now one. Add me on one of the accounts, or if you're a gamer, add me on Steam. I'm only adding people I know and if I'm asked in PMs.

Looking at all of these talented artists, it makes me wish I could draw better.
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Or have enough money to buy a commission. *Looks at my wallet, it's crying*
Sigh, a gamer's life is an expensive one.

~Aren19

So on March 1st, I got myself a Wii U. It was pretty much a birthday present to myself as well as celebrating one year at my school. All I have is Nintendo Land at the moment, but it's still fun.

Where's the booze?

I've been struck by the writing Gods!...If any existed that is. Anyway, I've noticed that I've been writing stories that have (somewhat) original characters with their own personalities and stories, but I've neglected my main characters! Shame on me. Well, Aren's is written (for those of you who've checked my f-list) and it's just a basic summary with no dialogue, but it gets right to the point. I'll be writing these back stories for Wolfie/Wuffie, Dr. Noire, Dr. Ishika Kuriame, Alaski, and maybe Nera. These stories will lead to me writing an actual series revolving around these 7 individuals as they try to stop the destruction of the world.

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That sounds like Final Fantasy. Well, screw it! These stories have been packed in the back of my mind for the last two years and all this creativity just now started to pour out. I'll begin by posting Aren's as an official story and after this week (because Design and Development Analysis is killing my brain!) I'll begin writing these stories. I won't disappoint this time!

~Aren19

I have had problems trying to write stuff. I have a story series I need to write, I have my own idea for a back story on my characters, and I have requests to do. I feel like I'm failing as a writer if I can't get over this. It's been far too long since I wrote something, not counting the story I wrote for my story telling class. Ugh.

I love Kouya from Morenatsu

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HE'S MINE!

So I'm downloading the dating sim game Morenatsu. I love these kinds of games, it's my favorite feature in Harvest Moon games so I thought I'd have one focused completely around romance. I kind of wish it was finished, I want to go for Shin, he's so cute. My first dating sim game was Enzai, but it was mostly filled with rape and torture, not really romantic until the end. So, hopefully this'll finish downloading by the time I come home from work.

So I'm starting my Storytelling Class and I'm trying hard to think of how to start a story for that class and the three requests I have. Writer's block sucks. I also have a dentist appointment today and been obsessed with Pokemon Black 2 and Borderlands 2. The Harvest Moon game I preordered for my 3DS got shipped early so I may have to make a trip to GameStop sometime between now and the actual release date for the game and I still don't know who I'm going to marry, everyone's adorable.

Well, that's it.

~Aren19

Edit: It finished before I left for work! Now I have something to do after work. Now...which route to take?

Okay, I'm juggling homework, games, work, and now stories. I'm making a new game for a homework assignment and it's due Sunday, so I'm hoping to work on the requests on Monday and I'll be getting Borderlands 2 on Tuesday...AHHHHHHHHHH!

Okay, now that that's out of the way, I'll also have to finalize my game after this Sunday so...AHHHHHHHHHH!

If anyone wants a story written for them or for someone else, whether it be a request or a trade, I'll accept it. I'm bored out of my mind and I could use the practice. I've got to do something else that isn't RPing, gaming, or anything involving school. I'll do M/M yiff and vore for basics, send me a PM on what you want in the story, but comment in this journal if you're interested.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8726889/

Its filling up fast!

I had a very weird dream. It started out as a Tom and Jerry computer game where you play as one character's morality. I picked Tom's wife because I thought it was weird and wondered when the heck he got a wife. About half way through the game, Jerry died and Tom felt guilty. He and his wife and someone else, another mouse I think, went to the nearby family they were staying at and left. The kids from the house had given them glasses that looked like Jerry. Once Tom and his wife got to another house, Tom spotted another mouse that looked like Jerry and didn't feel anymore pain and started to chase him. This is where the morality kicked in. I was trying to keep his wife good, but I failed and she ended up turning into a vampire human.

She entered the house and there were more people, only two others were vampires. Suddenly, I noticed I was pulled into the game. To avoid being caught, I just stood in the shadows. Suddenly, it became night and apparently the family was having a costume party. The game automatically gave me a costume. I was dressed up as Raven from Teen Titans while wearing a duel disk from Yu-Gi-Oh!. I went into a bathroom to try and escape, but a girl who I thought was dressed as Starfire from Teen Titans asked what I was doing. I told her I needed to escape, but two guys walked in with a video camera. They were a little disgusted so I said "What? You don't want Raven kissing...who are you exactly again?" They shook their heads and left.

When we left, I was challenged to a duel from the head of the family. Me and Starfire had to build a deck that would ensure my victory. All of a sudden, Zaboo from The Guild showed up and started to help as well. When we were done, but before the duel, a portal to another world opened up and a twisted rock came flying out. The rock was apparently someone's lover. He was dead, but the twisted stone meant that he couldn't move on because he left someone behind. Everyone started to go in and I was certain my dad was on the other side as well.

Once we got in, everyone's costumes started to change. Most people turned into someone from the Pokemon anime. I saw May, James, and Ash only though. I was turned into a Pikachu and was sprinting around to find my dad's twisted stone. He called out to me, calling me Sam for some reason, but his stone was behind an electric barrier and for some reason, I couldn't touch it. Ash came out of no where and pulled out his gloves from episode 1, easily moving the barrier. I grabbed the stone and was turned back into a human, but my clothes were styled as if I came from the Pokemon universe. I saw May packing up her backpack and James was trying to constantly steal her Dunsparce. I heard a voice saying that we only had an hour and a half left of air. I noticed some people, probably from this world, trying to cause some mischief. I had a feeling of de ja vu and just tried to stay away, knowing if I stayed around them I would die.

This, of course didn't work. Soon, a massacre started happening. A big, muscled guy killed a bunny, then a bird all to make one guy upset. The muscled guy killed him and then the two sisters who told him to do all these things. Someone (I didn't really see) killed him and then someone wielding a staff came out to challenge this person, but her staff stabbed me before the duel could began and I slowly died.

When I died, I woke up and I was in my house. Apparently, it was 2015 or something and Mist had just told me he started going to school in -insert place where I live-. I went out to meet him, but got lost on the metro and I somehow forgot to wear pants. It was freezing cold. When I finally figured out where his stop was (with a little help from one of my -insert school I went to- friends) I woke up.

Lately, I've been having terrible dreams about my relationship with Mist.

The first one happened a week or two ago. It was the end of the world. Mist was living with my family and me to make sure we got together, but I never saw Mist in the dream. My family and I got to a "End of the World" Party where we would eat and have fun until the world ended. I asked my uncle where Mist was, and he said "He's out there looking for you." Even though I told him I was going to be at the party. I looked around the party, but I didn't have enough time. And then I woke up. I think the dream is telling me that even if the world ends, we'll never meet...

Then the dream I had last night. There was this guy on FA who thinks Mist is the cutest guy ever, his/her name is Wiggle and is a turtle. He kept spamming Mist's comment box with sweet affections and asking to go out with him/her. Mist kept saying no and that he's already taken and happy. One day, he/she meets up with Mist in RL and kisses him. Mist resisted and got away from Wiggle. But he/she threatens Mist to go out with him/her and break up with me, and he does...After a couple of dates, Mist end up forgetting me and love him/her more than me...

These dreams are scaring me...