Hi lol

Enjoy the chills and thrills!

Trying to get back into drawing is hard...I feel like I plain forgot how to draw anymore...

Back to your regular scheduled program.

For the most part. Doctors still have no idea what happened, or what it was that plagued me and sent me to the hospital. Apparently the tests they sent out to California to diagnose me were canceled when I was discharged from isolation. So the doctor from infectious disease pretty much told me it could of been an array of things but they are confident it was a very bad fungal or bacterial infection. Which is far more better to hear then the original diagnosis they tried to settle on me. Tuberculosis.

But as of now, I am okay. Breathing easier. Coughing has gone. No longer throwing up my stomach fluids because I wasn't eating. Which I am extremely grateful for. Just sorry I made my friends and family worry.


Still struggling financially though (who isn't right?)

I am still off, as I am trying to resign from my job and start a new one. Which i am hoping to have by the end of the month.


So, if anyone wants a commission, I'm open.

I'll be posting a 'Open' image at some point to scout out potential customers.


But I just wanted to update.

Spent four days in the hospital in isolation to figure out what is wrong with me.

Doctors couldn’t figure out after all the tests they gave me, so they shipped off a sample of my blood to California to figure out what type of fungal infection is in my lungs to give me the proper medication to get rid of it.

In the meantime, I’m still off work. Savings is gone and now I’m in the red. I’m going to be making some YCH’s and reference sheets to try and raise some money while I wait for my benefits to come in.

Just wanted to update.

Caught it. Hate it. Mending from it. Never want it again. 2 weeks off work and I feel like I'm going to get fired....hate it.

Since Dragoneers’s passing, I’ve been reminiscing on what this site gave to me. What I’ve gained and of what I’ve lost.

So since 2009 I’ve been on FurAffinity. I don’t even know why or how I found off other then my friend Skorch was on here. I wasn’t the best friend to him, and I regret how I treated him in the past, when we were all immature kids. I left the site abandoned for about a year and a half, when I had moved out of my parents house and gotten my own apartment, I then came back and started drawing and putting up pictures.  scarskitsune was the first person I met here. He introduced me to a few people, one of them being Anya. She then introduced me to the assassins creed furs, like  morinw,  yuri-the-cat,  coolsamsc and many others.

She then helped me get into roleplay, character building and just was the most amazing companion I could have ever met. I went through so much with her, and I was able to meet her after a few years of chatting online. That went on to be more contact, more visits and just all around an amazing relationship.

Speed through about 10 years later, with people coming and going on here, the sites ups and downs with its many “it’s gonna close” theories. Without details, things went wrong. And I am fully responsible for it. Now we are on non-speaking terms, with her having to block me to keep me from trying to contact her to try and rekindle our friendship. She has moved on and left FA, and I am still here.

My point of saying this, despite the heartbreaking ending, I owe it to Dragoneer. If he never built this site, I would have never experienced anything that I have, whether good or bad. It was a hell of a ride, and I would have weathered through what I had, then never have experienced it at all.

I just wanted to say this, because it’s been heavy on my brain.  fender posted a journal with a go fund me to help with Dragoneer’s medical and funeral costs, and to help his mother with his affairs. I am going to donate when I get paid next, but I encourage everyone who has the money to donate. To help keep this site we all love to be at stay where it is.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far.

Founding father of FurAffinity,  dragoneer passed away., as I am sure everyone has seen.

Thanks for everything, Dragoneer. It will always be appreciated.

Sitting in WI debating on moving. I’m working atm but I just am so darn tired…

Just been working a lot and have a lot of art on backlog. I need to post a crap ton and I am sorry I haven't been keeping up but I am still here!

If I open commissions again, would that interest anyone?

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone who stops by and checks out my stuff. I don’t post a lot right now but I have a lot of art work that I want to share, both new and old.

Just wanted to send my appreciation to everybody and say thank you!

just wanted to let you all know that I am updating some artwork previously posted but not exactly finished. Be sure to check them out by refreshing the pages. Thanks friends :3

I keep trying to draw and finish some pictures but I can’t get around this damn block.

This really sucks.

Looking to join a few to share art with. Any good reccomendations?

Donate on ko-fi with a comment of a character and I’ll draw a headshot of said character. Want to draw other characters than my own.

https://ko-fi.com/arkonfa

As much as I have bad memories here, I really do enjoy this site. I'm not sure if I am ever actually going to leave but I do want to post more artwork...though I haven't actually drawn in ages. And when I do its mainly in a sketch book. I guess I am being careful of what I do or say. I don't know. My brain is mush. Still trying to sort things out, though all I do is work and think.

Still trying to find myself and work through my own demons. I still miss a lot of the past but every day it gets a bit easier to breathe and not keep putting myself down over things I can't change.

Not sure if moving and restarting will ever really do anything. And as I am a stickler for unable to let things I've had for a long time go, I doubt I will ever leave this page. Until the day Dragoneer hits the nuke button on FA, I don't think I can really pull away.

Positivity!

No one instigated me to say this but I felt like I should just speak out before anything happens.


I’m sure you all noticed I’ve been slowly reposting old work I kept putting up and taking down, all because I either felt bad or felt like their display was inappropriate since the falling out. Regardless of the matter, I had to stop and ask myself why I wanted to even post them back together despite what others may think. And the explanation isnt something I had to give, but I’ll give it anyway.
Ark and Anya’s relationship makes me happy. Their chemistry has been without a doubt the most down to earth thing I ever helped create. I enjoy drawing them together and refuse to stop. I hate it’s one sided now but that’s okay. I can still relay their story through art and such and remember the happy memories of their build.

They make me happy. Plain and simple. And happiness and a fondness of our characters is the whole point of this community right?

Thank you.

Hit the new milestone! Thanks everyone!

Need to broaden my gallery.

Anyone interested in some freebies?

This artist lost their mother to a missle strike. Please consider donating or at the very least just spreading this around.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10630059

I’m going to work harder on updating and being more active here. If anyone wants to chat or anything, I should be around.


I appreciate the watches, the comments and faves!

Don't mind the mass upload because its going to keep going for a little bit!