It’s hard keeping things to yourself. Sometimes all you want to do is talk and someone to just listen.


I miss days like those

A lot of it has been personal work and I’m not too sure if I’m going to post it at some point. Maybe maybe not. Still debating on it depending on how I feel.

Which hasn’t been grand lately, I’ll admit.

Sucks lol

I appreciate all the comments I got about my previous question.

Been hitting a low point lately and if you want the short notes:

I have a character (3 guesses and the first one doesn’t count) that was pretty much abandoned by the original owner after we had our falling out. I cannot get rid of the character for more reasons then I can possibly name, but I have the proof and chat history that clearly states I have full rights. I got flagged on DA for posting said character a few times for copyright issues, but after showing the DA admins the proof, it was ultimately dropped.

I drew this character for more than a decade and I cannot bring myself to get rid of it. The history is too intwined with mine and apparently, I ruined it for the original owner thus why it was abandoned. Apparently I destroyed something about it that made it special. Cannot…figure out for the life of me how. I probably did it more justice then the OG did forty times over. But that’s just me being angry and hurt by the accusation.

I tried to apologize and rebuild the friendship but it was quite obvious that they would rather sink lower into their own mental crisis than anything. I could rant on and on for hours on this because I tried to shovel the idea that I’m this horrible person who traumatized and destroyed them…when all I ever wanted was them to find happiness and I was willing to help however I could. My words went right into a brick wall and sat there. All I have left of the good memory is this character. It stood for everything that was amazing about that friendship. I gained so much after the loss but it’s still a bitter and harsh blow.

I wish it never happened and ended the way it did. And it hurts to see how this person changed so drastically. A lot of people were hurt in the end. And it wasn’t really worth it.

I tried to bring hate about into my heart but it was always snuffed out due to the importance of the character I draw. The story I am building around it and the new characters that are coming alone. I will make progress out of the ashes of this. And hopefully you all will be patient with me as I learn to move on.

I appreciate you all for your support, kindness and patience.

I will get through this. I can get through this

If someone says you ruined their fursona even though they abandoned the character and gave full rights to you…

Would you still use that fursona or not?

Hey guys,

so I am not sure if any of you partake in watching the news, but on December 23rd, at approximately 11:30am, I was apart of the fatal wreck that happened on the Ohio Turnpike at MM107, just south of Castalia, Ohio.

I am physically fine, but my truck and the tank I was hauling to Middlefield, ohio were detained as the tank was apart of the wreck. I just want to clarify I did NOT hit anyone, if I did I wouldn't be speaking to anyone right now. But I was struck from behind and the domino effect of the crash ended up killing four and wounding countless others. In the aftermath, 50 vehicles and commercial vehicles were involved in the wreck.

I am physically fine but I can't say the same for some of my fellow drivers. I was able to provide shelter to other OTR drivers as their rigs were demolished, and provided first aid to one who was bleeding horribly on his hand. My truck was hauled off the turnpike as with countless other vehicles by the police and is somewhere in Madison, Ohio. With my work out for the holidays right now, I am stuck at home until further notice and pending the investigation of the crash.

In the meantime, I am completely broke. We had just paid up all our bills for the month when the accident occurred, and I cannot get paid for the previous week because the trip packet I normally have to turn in every Sunday is still in my truck.

I am willing to draw for $10-15 dollars a piece, depending on the complexity of the picture and what not. I can do lined and shaded, but depending on how many I can get, I may opt out of color.

Pretty much we just need money for the little things; water, animal food, and maybe some quick-fix meals we can make at home until I figure out where work is with me.

I know the holidays are crunch time for many, and I appreciate any assistance I can get. Stay safe out there, everyone, and if you can, stay home, stay warm and do not drive in conditions that you don't need to be out in.

https://paypal.me/arkdrawings?count.....locale.x=en_US

I don't think I am going to draw much for anyone anymore. I think I am going to draw just for myself.

Kinda realizing the way things used to be when I had someone I always drew for and they just want nothing more to do with me, not to mention trying to draw something for others and it being turned into something to be shameful about really sucks. You put a lot of effort into something, or maybe none at all, and it receives the same amount of complications when given.

I am lucky I have a wife who loves it when I draw for her, but for some reason I can't get around this block. I miss having someone to compare or give me honest critic like I did. I miss that push to be better or that I can do better. I guess I just miss having a partner who was always there to draw with or work with.

Eh, I'm just missing the past and how much fun it was to draw.

Now I can barely do it anymore.

Is there one? if so, where can I find it?

So after months of deciding…I’m bringing my sona’s original design back…AND Anya is also making a comeback!!

They won’t be half siblings anymore, but their story is still gonna exist, just very similar but in a way different way.

Since I now own her, I’m going to make sure I can use her to her full potential. That and I love (and miss) the chemistry these two hold. I’m very excited to do this, as I’ve already written and started sketching drafts of pictures that I am going to be posting on WEBTOON or some other scroll base comic sights as I am finding that method way more fun. I’ll post as soon as I get the editing and such done, and I hope everyone is as excited as me to see this happen.

Because I am ecstatic hehe

Coming!! Just wait :)

Made it back to my home state…that trip was terrible but hopefully some good came out of it.

Atleast my truck is fixed.

So, I am currently writing this journal from a Red Roof Inn in New York because my trusty steed of a truck broke down on me while crossing through Utica, new york. I was having power issues and once the emergency dash lights came on I stopped immediately.

Its been two days now since I was towed here for repairs and since its saturday, the shop at which my truck is at closes early and is closed tomorrow. My work is patient, this shit happens, so I am hoping the shop can fix it as soon as they can and get me back on the road Monday. If not, then I am going to have to fix a ride back to Michigan to wait till I can go get my poor truck. I lost all my food due to this power thing and that sucks...

If anyone wants to throw a few pennies to a poor trucker, send anything to https://paypal.me/arkdrawings?count.....locale.x=en_US

I owe an artist some money and I really want to pay her off so I can purchase these works, but I can't due to having to scrimp anything I have to pay for food and uber rides. Any donations help. and I appreciate it.

I got shorted on my last paycheck so I only brought home around 400 bucks....which is awful in my line of work...

Is anyone going to Colossalcon June 1st through the 5th in Sandusky Ohio?

If so are you suiting up or no? And if so anyone want to hang? Lol

reason I am so sick is because of covid.


seriously fuck all this.

My job is getting more and more stressful. I’m having the worst fucking luck in the world.

Hit a parked car because I listened to the stupid reciever and I shouldn’t of.

I developed some sort of cold/flu that is just getting worse and my loads are getting later and later on their delivery times because I’m too exhausted to drive.

Having a hard time sleeping in general in my truck and I’m just in pain constantly.

This fucking sucks. Whoever pushed all this onto me can go get fucked!

I just got back from a mini vacay to Columbus, OH for a convention. I nabbed a lot of free stuff for my wife's horsey hobbies, seeing as we went to Equine Affaire. Kind of drove her nuts as her mom was also in on the free stuff kick and I was having a blast nabbing whatever I could get my grubby little paws on. I think I may have swiped a few things that were supposed to be purchased but too late now hahah.

But I was back for about a day and then tonight I head to a loadout to get my Waterbury, VT run for Wednesday. Life of a trucker, am I right?

Just wanted to update and keep all the furs out there updated on what I am doing, cause why not haha.

I want to purchase some art and was wondering if anyone had some artists on mind that are open.

Not looking for a popufur artist, kinda want a smaller, lesser known artist to try out.

So digital art has been a bitch to do since I work OTR, but I bring a sketchbook with me and have quite a bit in it. I found out there is a way to “scan” the pages from my phone so I probably (maybe) will upload them in due time.

It’s a bunch of personal art to help kinda…cope with a huge life change that I never saw coming…and to be honest it’s not going very well. I’ve been having bouts of depression and anxiety that rotate back and forth among themselves…and I’m not one to admit I have either. I hate it, in fact.

I’ve been posting on an undisclosed site to sort of help, and tried to find some sort of mobile therapy so I won’t have to rely on crying to my friends a lot, though it does help when they do let me just get it out to be able to function for the day. Though the therapy is quite a pretty penny. I used to pay only 120 for therapy a week…now they want me to pay 320 a week for mobile/online therapy that I can use 24/7. I wish they took insurance but they don’t, so I haven’t exactly done anything yet.

Though, I notice it only gets worse when I try to draw, and then I draw only one thing. It’s kinda like comfort drawings, really. And no they are not porn. They are just a means to help me along.

I am probably going to use furaffinity’s journal system to just speak my mind (like it’s made for) in order to just get it out so I don’t have to rely on just people or anything. I don’t want to burden people. I’m also working on myself, which I should of done a long time ago. The lying and selfish manipulation…I should of had that corrected eons ago. I won’t go into details but I said some stuff I wish I didn’t when I didn’t even mean it. I just got caught up on trying to keep multiple people happy and at comfortable lengths. I also grew dependent on the relationships I had for a sort of…ego boost(?) I believe it would be called…

Pretty much, for the short version, I fucked up big time. And it finally came back to bite me square on my white, scarred ass.

I’ll leave this at that for now.

New stuff incoming! Eventually...when I can draw new stuff and get over this block.

Too much history here and I like this site.


I did, however, just purge the hell out of my gallery, so a lot of stuff is missing and a lot of stuff has been altered in the submission info.


I tried to do the right thing and I guess I did it wrong. I'm not keeping someone around who didn't want to be in the first place.


So to hell with it.

Don't do much here anymore and I may end up shutting this down. I don't know...like the title says, I'm thinking about it.

It's kind of a 50/50 chance of staying or going. We'll see.

First off, I want to say my heart goes out for all of you, whether you live in the west or east. This act of aggression and violence affects all that call Ukraine home. I wish you all safety and peace during this hellish time and I can only pray that you all find safety wherever you are. It is horrifying the world on what this is causing upon the citizens of Ukraine. Just please find a safe place to stay and keep yourself and your family in care. I wish there was more i could do then just type words on a screen but I know this is far beyond my understanding on why in this day an age this is happening.

And to the Russian citizens on Furaffinity, I know you didn't ask for this to happen. History has shown what happens to the innocent bystanders on the wrong side of the war and I can't imagine what you all must be thinking.

and to everyone else, just pray. Pray for peace and minimal bloodshed and a speedy end to this so called 'war'. And know that most Russians didn't have anything to do with this. Don't take this as a means to shame or belittle its citizens. Just ask for peace.

But I've become more of a commissioner then an artist as of late.

Still wanting to create art, I just have no motivation or muse. So it's been a bit of a challenge to even come up with anything to draw.

Been working a lot lately, did a few deliveries to Vermont and Georgia back to back and now I have a day to breathe comfortably at home (was suppose to go visit friends this weekend but that got botched like a mf)

I'm currently waiting on two commissions to get finished, one being by  Faint which I am super stoked about. Really looking forward to what he's got brewin'.

Just wanted to give a quick update to make sure no one is either wondering where I am or why I haven't been drawing. I am still drawing I just have...a LOT of art work that will never be finished. Won't go into detail but lets just say I wouldn't be wrong to just delete them and move on. It's just weird to adjust.

Anywho, hope everyone is having a great Friday and hopefully it remains great!

bought a new tablet. A huion and its not too shabby!

ready to get back into the drawing thing...nowww to just find some inspiration...